the book of lies by Aleister Crowley chapter zero through fifty this is a librivox recording all librivox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org a a publication in classes C and D official for babe's of the abyss imprimatur in freighter a a LIBOR 333 the book of lies which is also falsely called brakes the wanderings are falsifications of the one thought of freighter paired Rabbo which thought is itself untrue break break break at the foot of thy stones OC die would that I could utter the thoughts that arise in me question mark exclamation point chapter zero the chapter that is not a chapter oh the anti primal triad which is not God nothing is nothing becomes nothing is not the first triad which is god i am i utter the word i hear the word the abyss the word is broken up there is knowledge knowledge is relation these fragments are creation the broken manifests light the second triad which is God God the father and mother is concealed in generation God is concealed in the whirling energy of nature God is manifest in gathering harmony consideration the mirror of the Sun and of the heart the third triad bearing preparing wavering flowing flashing stability be getting the tenth emanation the world chapter 1 the Sabbath of the goat oh the heart of n o X the night of pan pan duality energy death death be getting the supporters of o to be get is to die to die is to be get cast the seed into the field of night life and death are two names of a kill thy self neither of these alone is enough chapter 2 the cry of the hawk who are hath a secret fourfold name it is do what thou wilt forwards not one many all thy child thy name is holy thy kingdom is come thy will is done here is the bread here is the blood bring us through temptation deliver us from good and evil that mine is thine be the crown of the kingdom even now abracadabra these ten words are for the name of the one chapter three the oyster the Brothers of aar one with the mother of the child the many is as adorable to the one as the one is to the many this is the love of these creation parturition is the bliss of the one caution dissolution is the bliss of the many the all thus interwoven of these is bliss not is beyond bliss the man delights in uniting with the woman the woman in parting from the child the Brothers of AAA are women the aspirants to a a are men after four peaches soft and hollow how thou dust overcome the hard and full it dies it gives itself to these the fruit be thou the bride thou shalt be the mother hereafter to all impressions thus let them not overcome thee yet let them breed within thee the least of the impressions come to its perfection is pan receive a thousand lovers thou shalt bear but one child this child shall be the heir of fate the father chapter 5 the Battle of the ants that is not which is the only word is silenced the only meaning of that word is not thoughts are false fatherhood is unity disguised as duality peace implies war power implies war harmony implies war victory implies war glory implies war foundation implies war alas for the Kingdom where in all these are at war Chapter six caviar the word was uttered the one exploded into 1,000 million worlds each world contained a thousand million spheres each sphere contained a thousand million planets each planet contained a thousand million stars each star contained a mini thousand million things of these the reasoner took six and preening said this is the one and the all these six the Adept harmonized and said this is the heart of the one and the all these six were destroyed by the master of the temple and he spake not the ash thereof was burnt up by the mages into the word of all this did the abscissa moose know nothing Chapter seven the dinosaurs none are they whose number is six else were they six indeed seven are these six that live not in the city of the pyramids under the knight of pan there was Lao Tzu there was Siddhartha there was Krishna there was - Hootie there was Moshe there was Dionysus there was machmood but the seventh men called purdah Rabbo for enduring unto the end at the end was not to endure amen Chapter eight steeped horsehair mind is a disease of semen all that a man is or maybe is hidden there in bodily functions are parts of the Machine silent unless indices but mind never at ease Creek ahthe I this I persist if not post if not through generations change a--the momently finally is dead therefore is man only himself when lost to himself in the chariot chapter 9 the Brinks being is the noun form is the adjective matter is the noun motion is the verb wherefore hath being clothed itself with form wherefore hath matter manifested itself in motion answer not o silent one for there is nowhere for know because the name of that is not known the pronoun interprets that is misinterprets it time and space are adverbs duality begot the conjunction the conditioned is father of the preposition the article also mark if division but the interjection is the sound that in death and silence destroy there of the eight parts of speech the ninth is nigh and to truth this also must be destroyed before thou interest into the silence chapter ten Whittle straws the abyss of hallucination has law and reason but in truth there is no bond between the toys of the gods this reason in law is the bond of the great lie truth truth truth cria the lord of the abyss of hallucinations there is no silence in that abyss for all than men call silence is its speech the abyss is also called hell and the mini its name is consciousness and the universe among men but that which neither is silent nor speaks rejoices therein chapter 11 the glowworm concerning the whole III and not knew it had it rahu or cou it are only to be understood by the master of the temple they are above the abyss and contain all contradiction in themselves below them is a seeming duality of chaos and Babylon these are called father and mother but it is not so they are called brother and sister but it is not so they are called husband and wife but it is not so the reflection of all is pan the night of pan is the annihilation of the all cast down through the abyss is the light the rosy cross the rapture of Union that destroys that is the way the rosy cross is the ambassador of pan how infinite is the distance from this to that yet all is here and now nor is there any there or then for all that is what is it but a manifestation that is a part that is a falsehood of that which is not yet that which is not neither is nor is not that which is identity is perfect therefore the law of identity is but a lie for there is no subject and there is no predicate nor is there the contradictory of either of these things holy holy holy are these truths that I utter knowing them to be but falsehoods broken mirrors troubled waters hide me o our lady and I will or I may not endure the rapture in this utterance of falsehood upon falsehood whose contradictory Tsar also false it seems as if that which I uttered not were true blessed unutterably blessed is the last of the illusions let me play the man and thrust it from me amen chapter 12 the dragon flies io is the cry of the lower as oh I of the higher in figures they are one-zero-zero-one in letters they are joy for when all is equilibria dnal is be held from without all there is joy joy joy that is but one facet of a diamond every other facet where of is more joyful than joy itself chapter 13 pilgrim talk o thou that settest upon the path false is the phantom that thou seeketh when thou hast it thou shalt know all bitterness thy teeth fixed in the sodom apple thus test thou been lured along that path whose terror else had driven the far away o thou that stride us upon the middle of the path no phantoms mock thee for the strides sake thou straightest thus art thou Lord along that path whose fascination else had driven thee far away o thou the draws toward the end of the path effort is no more faster and faster does thou fall thy weariness is changed into ineffable rest for there is no thou upon that path thou has become the way chapter 14 onion peelings the universe is the practical joke of the general at the expense of the particular quoth freighter paired or a bow and laughed but those disciples nearest to him wept seeing the universal sorrow those next to them laughed seeing the universal joke below these certain disciples wept then certain laughed others next wept others next laughed next others wept next others laughed last came those that wept because they could not see the joke and those that laughed lest they should be thought not to see the joke and thought it's safe to act like freighter pair to rob oh but though freighter paired to rob Oh laugh taupe 'only he also at the same time wept secretly and in himself he neither laughed nor wept nor did he mean what he said chapter 15 the gun barrel mighty and erect is this will of mine this pyramid of fire whose summit is lost in heaven upon it have I burned the corpse of my desire mighty and erect is this phallus of my will the sea thereof is that which I have borne within me from eternity and it is lost within the body of Our Lady of the stars I am NOT I I am but a hollow tube to bring down fire from heaven mighty and marvellous is this weakness this heaven which draws me into her womb this dome which HIDA --the which absorb a--the me this is the night wherein I am lost the love through which I am no longer I chapter 16 the stag beetle death implies change and individuality if thou be that which hath no person which is beyond the changing even beyond changelessness what hast thou to do with death the bird of individuality is ecstasy so also is its death in love the individuality is slain who loves not love love death therefore and long eagerly for it die daily chapter 17 the Swan there is a swan whose name is ecstasy it winged earth from the deserts of the north it winged it through the blue it winged a--the over the fields of rice at its coming they push forth the green in all the universe this Swan alone is motionless it seems to move as the Sun seems to move such is the weakness of our sight o fool Christ al amen motion is relative there is nothing that is still against the Swan I shot an arrow the white breast poured forth blood men smote me then perceiving that I was but a pure fool they let me pass thus and not otherwise I came to the temple of the Grail chapter xviii dewdrops verily love is death and death is life to come man returneth not again the stream flow if not uphill the old life is no more there is a new life that is not his yet that life is of his very essence it is more he than all that he calls he in the silence of a dewdrop is every tendency of his soul and of his mind and of his body it is the quintessence and the elixir of his being there and are the forces that made him and his father and his father's father before him this is the dew of immortality let this go free even as it will thou art not its master but the vehicle of it chapter 19 the leopard and the deer the spots of the leopard are the sunlight in the glade pursue thou the deer stealthily at thy pleasure the dabbling of the deer is the sunlight in the glade concealed from the leopard do thou feed at thy pleasure resemble all that surround a thei yet be thy self and take thy pleasure among the living this is that which is written lurk in the book of the law chapter 20 Samson the universe is in equilibrium therefore he that is without it though his force be but a feather can overturn the universe be not caught within that we're both child of freedom be not entangled in the universal lie o child of truth chapter 21 the blind Webster it is not necessary to understand it is enough to adore the God may be of clay adore him he becomes God we ignore what created us we adore what we create let us create nothing but God that which causes us to create is our true father and mother we create in our own image which is theirs let us create therefore without fear for we can create nothing that is not God chapter xxii the despot the waiters of the best eating houses mocked the whole world they estimate every client at his proper value this I know certainly because they always treat me with profound respect thus they have flattered me into praising them thus publicly yet it is true and they have this insight because they serve and because they can have no personal interest in the affairs of those whom they serve an absolute monarch would be absolutely wise and good but no man is strong enough to have no interest therefore the best King would be pure chance it is pure chance that rules the universe therefore and only therefore life is good chapter 23 skidoo what man is at ease and his in get out why does the world and cold get out thou has become an initiate get out but thou canst not get out by the way thou camest in the way out is the way get out for out is love and wisdom and power get out if thou has t already first get UT then get o and so at last get out chapter 24 the hawk and the blind worm this book would translate beyond reason into the words of reason explain thou snow to them of andaman the slaves of reason call this book abuse of language they are right language was made for men to eat and drink make love do barter die the wealth of a language consists in its abstracts the poorest tongues have wealth of concrete's therefore have adepts praise silence at least it does not mislead as speech does also speech is a symptom of thought yet silence is but the negative side of truth the positive side is beyond even silence nevertheless one true God cry through Leo and the laughter of the death rattle is akin chapter 25 the star ruby facing east in the center draw deep deep deep thy breath closing thy mouth with thy right forefinger pressed against thy lower lip then dashing down the hand with a great sweep back end out expelling forcefully thy breath cry a paw pantos kako demo nose with the same four finger touched thy forehead and say soy thy member and say o FAL a thy right shoulder and say hiss Kouros thy left shoulder and say you Christo's then clasp thine hands locking the fingers and cry I a o advance to the east imagine strongly a pentagram a right in thy forehead drawing the hands to the eyes fling it forth making the sign of Horus and roar chaos retire thine hand and the sign of hor Pok rot go round to the north and repeat but scream Babylon go round to the west and repeat but say eros go round to the south and repeat but Belo psyche completing the circle widdershins retire to the center and raise the voice in the pie an with these words io pan with the sign of in Oh X extend the arms in the form of a towel and say low but clear promo youngest oppa so more tella talk i epi dexia sin noches Epirus tara demo Nez flag a gar paramour [ __ ] ass dirt on pinte Kai in the still ho Astor tone hex best key repeat the cross Kabbalistic as above and end as thou didst begin chapter 26 the elephant and the tortoise the absolute and the condition together make the one absolute the second who is the fourth the Demiurge whom all nations of men call the first is a lie grafted upon a lie a lie multiplied by a lie fourfold is he the elephant upon whom the universe is poised but the carapace of the tortoise supports and covers all this tortoise is six fold the holy hexagram these six and four are ten ten the one manifested that returns to the not unmanifest the all-mighty the all-knower the all-knower the all-father adored by all men and by me abhorred be thou a curse it be thou abolished be thou annihilated amen chapter 27 the sorcerer a sorcerer by the power of his magic had subdued all things to himself would he travel he could fly through space more swiftly than the Stars would he eat drink and take his pleasure there was none that did not instantly obey his bidding in the whole system of ten million times 10 million Spears upon the - and 20 million planes he had his desire and with all this he was but himself alas chapter xxviii the Polestar love is all virtue since the pleasure of love is but love and the pain of love is but love love taketh no heed of that which is not and of that which is absence exalteth love and presence exalteth love love moveth from height - height of ecstasy and faileth never the wings of love droop not with time nor slacken for life or for death love destroy itself uniting self with that which is not self so that love breda thal and none in one is it not so no than thou are not lost in love speak not of love love always yieldeth love always hardeneth maybe i write it but to write her name chapter 29 the Southern Cross love I love you night-night cover us thou art night oh my love and there are no stars but thine eyes dark night sweet night so warm and yet so fresh so scented yet so holy cover me cover me let me be no more let me be thine let me be thou let me be neither thou nor I let there be love and night and night and love in O X the night of pan and Leila the night before his threshold chapter 30 Jonna dreams dreams are imperfections of sleep even so is consciousness the imperfection of waking dreams are impurities in the circulation of the blood even so is consciousness a disorder of life dreams are without proportion without good sense without truth so also is consciousness awake from dream the truth is known awake from waking the truth is the unknown chapter 31 the garret it moves from motion into rest and rests from rest into motion these it does alway for time is not so that it does neither of these things it does that one thing which we must express by two things neither of which possesses any rational meaning yet it's doing which is no doing is simple and yet complex is neither free nor necessary for all these ideas Express relation and it comprehending all relation in its simplicity is out of all relation even with itself all this is true and false and it is true and false to say that it is true and false straying forth thy intelligence oh man a worthy one Oh Cho Xin the vit to apprehend the discourse of the master for thus the reason shall at last break down as the fetter is struck from the slaves throat chapter xxxii the Mountaineer consciousness is a symptom of disease all that moves well moves without we'll all skillfulness all strain all intention is contrary to ease practice a thousand times and it becomes difficult a thousand thousand and it becomes easy a thousand thousand times a thousand thousand and it is no longer though that do with it but it that doeth itself through thee nor until then is that which is done well done thus Spoke Frater paired Rabbo as he lept from rock to rock of the moraine without ever casting his eyes upon the ground chapter 33 Baphomet a black two-headed eagle is God even a black triangle is he in his claw he beareth the sword yay a sharp sword is held there in this Eagle was burnt up in the great fire yet not a feather is scorched this egoless swallowed up in the great sea yet not a feather is wedded so fly ahthe he in the air and lighteth upon the earth at his pleasure so spake iya caboose begun deus mo Lindsey's the Grand Master of the temple and of the God that is ass headed did he dare not speak chapter 34 the smoking dog each act of man is the twist and double of an hair love and death are the Greyhounds that coerce him God bred the hounds and taketh his pleasure in the sport this is the comedy of pan that man should think he hunted while those hounds hunt him this is the tragedy of man when facing love and death he turns to Bay he is no more hair but boar there are no other comedies or tragedies cease then to be the mockery of God in savagery of love and death live vow and die thus shall his laughter be thrilled through with ecstasy chapter 35 venus of milo life is as ugly and necessary as the female body death is as beautiful and necessary as the male body the soul is beyond male and female as it is beyond life and death even as the Lingam and the yoni are but diverse developments of one organ so also our life and death but two phases of one state so also the absolute and the conditioned are but forms of that what do I love there is no form no being to which I do not give myself wholly up take me who will chapter 36 the star sapphire let the Adept be armed with his magic rude and provide him with his mystic rose in the center let him give the lvx signs or if he know them if he will and dare do them and can keep silent about them the signs of in Oh X being the signs of puer fear puella Moliere omit the sign I are then let him advance to the east and make the holy hexagram saying Potter at mater unas deus our Arita let him go round to the south make the holy hexagram and say mater at Phileas onus Deus are our eita let him go round to the west make the holy hexagram and say Phil use at philia unas deus Arita let him go round to the north make the holy hexagram and then say philia at potter unas deus Arita let him then return to the center and so to the center of all making the rosy cross as he may know how saying Arita Arita Arita in this the sign shall be those of set triumphant and of Baphomet also shall set appear in the circle let him drink of the sacrament and let him communicate the same then let him say omnia induce duo in unum unas in kneel hike neck quatuor neck omnia neck duo neck unas neck knee hill sunt Gloria Patri Atma tree at folio at Philly I at Spiritu Sancto external at spirit who is sancto internal air a test air at in cycle a cycle or um sex in own or pair norm and septum in oh no error Rita let him then repeat the signs of lvx but not the signs of in Oh X for it is not he that shall arise in the sign of Isis rejoicing chapter 37 dragons thought is the shadow of the Eclipse of Luna Samadhi is the shadow of the Eclipse of Sol the moon and the earth are the non ego and the ego the Sun is that both eclipses are darkness both are exceedingly rare the universe itself is light chapter 38 lambskin cowan skidoo tile swear to he lay all this is the mystery life mind is the traitor slay mind let the corpse of mine lie unburied on the edge of the Great Sea death this is the mystery tile kowenski do chapter 39 the Looby only Luby's find excellence in these words it is unthinkable that a is not a to reverse this is but to revert to the normal yet by forcing the brain to accept propositions of which one set is absurdity the other truism a new function of brain is established vague and mysterious and all indefinite are the contents of this new consciousness yet they are somehow vital by use they become luminous unreason becomes experience this lifts the leaden footed soul of the experience of that of which reason is the blasphemy but without the experience these words are the lies of a Looby yet a Looby to thee and a booby to me a belay seus Ruby to God may be chapter 40 the high MOG a red rose absorbs all colors but red red is therefore the one color that is not this law reason time space all limitation blinds us to the truth all that we know of man nature God is just that which they are not it is that which they throw off as repugnant the high MOG is only visible in so far as he is imperfect then are they all glorious who seemed not to be glorious as the high MOG is all glorious within it may be so how then distinguished the in glorious and perfect high MOG from the inglorious man of Earth distinguished not but thyself extinguish high MOG though art and high MOG shalt thou be chapter 41 corned beef hash in vvvvv is the great work perfect therefore none as that pertain a--the not to vvvvv in any may he manifest yet in one Hathi chosen to manifest and this one hath given his ring as a seal of authority to the work of the a a through the colleagues a freighter paired or a bow but this concerns themselves and their administration it concern ahthe none below the grade of exempt adept and such and one only by command also since below the abyss reason is Lord let men seek by experiment and not by questionings chapter 42 dust devils in the wind of the mind arises the turbulence called I it breaks down shower the barren thoughts all life is choked this desert is the abyss where n is the universe the Stars are but thistles in that waste yet this desert is but one spot occur seed in the world of bliss now when again travelers cross the desert they come from the great sea and to the great sea they go as they go they spill water one day they will irrigate the desert till it flower see five footprints of a camel vvvvv chapter 43 mulberry tops black blood upon the altar and the rustle of angel wings above black blood of the sweet fruit the bruised the violated bloom that setteth the wheel a spinning in the spire death is the veil of life and life of death for both our gods this is that which is written a feast for life and a greater feast for death in the book of the law the blood is the life of the individual offer then blood chapter 44 the mass of the Phoenix the magician his breast bear stands before an altar on which are his buran bell thurible and two of the cakes of light in the sign of the interests across the altar and cries hail rah that goest in thy bark into the caverns of the dark he gives the sign of silence and takes the bell and fire in his hands east of the altar see me stand with light and music in mine hand he strikes eleven times upon the Bell three three three five five five five five three three three and places the fire in the thurible I strike the Bell I light the flame I utter the mysterious name abracadabra he strikes eleven times upon the bill now I begin to pray thou child holy thy name and undefiled thy reign has come thy will is done here is the bread here is the blood bring me through midnight to the Sun save me from evil and from good take thy one crown of all the ten even now and here be mine amen he puts the first cake in the fire of the thurible I burn the incense cake proclaim these adorations of thy name he makes them as in library legis and strikes again eleven times upon the Bell with The Burren he then makes upon his breast the proper sign behold this bleeding breast of mine gashed with the sacramental sign he puts the second cake to the wound I starched the blood the wafer soaks it up and the high priest invokes he eats the second cake this bread I eat this oath I swear as I and flame myself with prayer there is no grace there is no guilt this is the law do what thou wilt he strikes eleven times upon the bail and cries abracadabra I enter it in with woe and mirth and now go forth and with Thanksgiving to do my pleasure on the earth among the legions of the living he goeth forth chapter 45 Chinese music explain this happening it must have a natural cause it must have a supernatural cause let these two asses be set to grind corn may might must should probably maybe we may safely assume ought it is hardly questionable almost certainly poor hacks and let them be turned out to grass proof is only possible in mathematics and mathematics is only a matter of arbitrary conventions and yet doubt is a good servant but a bad master a perfect mistress but a nagging wife white is white is the lash of the overseer white is black is the watchword of the slave the master takes no heed the Chinese cannot help thinking that the octave has five notes the more necessary anything appears to my mind the more certain it is that I only assert a limitation I slept with faith and found a corpse in my arms on waking I drank and danced all night with doubt and found her a virgin in the morning chapter 46 buttons and rosettes the cause of sorrow is the desire of the one to the many or of the many to the one this also is the cause of joy but the desire of one to another is all of sorrow its birth is hunger and it's death say TT the desire of the moth for the star at least saves him say TIA T hunger Thou O man for the infinite be insatiable even for the finite thus at the end shalt thou devour the finite and become the infinite be thou more greedy than the shark more full of yearning than the wind among the pines the weary pilgrim struggles on the satiated pilgrim stops the road winds uphill all law all nature must be overcome do this by virtue of that in thyself before which law and nature are but shadows chapter xlvii windmill words asana gets rid of anatomy consciousness pranayama gets rid of physiology consciousness involuntary brakes Yama and niyama get rid of ethical consciousness voluntary brakes prat Yara gets rid of the objective Dharana gets rid of the subjective Diana gets rid of the ego Samad he gets rid of the sole and personal Isana destroys the static body nama pranayama destroys the dynamic body Rupa Yama destroys the emotions new Yama destroys the passions vadhana Dharana destroys the perceptions sana diana destroys the tendencies Sankara samadhi destroys the consciousness veena nam Hammar dalla Thermidor destroys the digestion the last of these facts is the one of which I am most certain chapter 38 mome Raths the early bird catches the worm and the 12 year old prostitute attracts the Ambassador neglect not the dawn meditation the first plumbers eggs fetch the highest prices the flower of virginity is esteem by the pandar neglect not the dawn meditation early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy wealthy and wise but late to watch and early to pray brings him across the abyss they say neglect not the dawn meditation chapter xlix Waratah blossoms seven are the veils of the dancing girl in the harem of it seven are the names and seven are the lamps beside her bed seven UNIX guard her with drawn swords no man may come nigh unto her in her wine cup are seven streams of the blood of the seven spirits of God seven are the heads of the Beast whereupon she rides the head of an angel the head of a saint the head of a poet the head of an adulterous woman the head of a man of Valor the head of a satyr and the head of a lion serpent seven letters hath her holiest name and it is narrators note Crowley here illustrates a seal of a seven-pointed star beginning from the West most point each point of the star contains a letter spelling the name of Babylon in the center of the star is the Greek symbol for theta crosses extend from its western northern and eastern boundaries to the left of the west most cross is the number 77 to the left of the North most cross is the number 7 to the right of the North most cross is the number 7 to the right of the east most cross is the number 77 by itself at the southernmost boundary of theta is the number 7 this is the seal upon the ring that is on the forefinger of it and it is the seal upon the tombs of them whom she hath slain here is wisdom let him that hath understanding count the number of Our Lady for it is the number of a woman and her number is an hundred and fifty and six chapter 50 the vigil of st. Hubert in the forest God met the stag beetle hold worship me both God for I am all great all good all wise the stars are but sparks from the forges of my Smith's yay verily and our men said the stag beetle all this do I believe and that devoutly then why do you not worship me because I am real and you are only imaginary but the leaves of the forest rustled with the laughter of the wind said wind and wood they neither of them know anything end of chapter zero through fifty you the book of lies by Aleister Crowley chapters 51 through 91 this LibriVox recording is in the public domain chapter 51 terrier work doubt doubt thyself doubt even if thou doubt us thy self doubt all doubt even if thou doubt us all it seems sometimes as if beneath all conscious doubt there lay some deepest certainty Oh kill it slay the snake the Horn of the doubt goat be exalted dive deeper ever deeper into the abyss of mind until thou unearth the Fox that on hounds yonks Tallyho bring that to bay then wind the Mort chapter 52 the bull-baiting fourscore and 11 books Rodi and each did I expound the great work fully from the beginning even unto the end thereof then at last came certain men unto me saying O master expound thou the great work unto us o master and I held my peace o generation of gossipers who shall deliver you from the wrath that has fallen upon you o babblers prattler stalkers loquacious ones tattlers chewers of the red rag that inflame ahthe apiece the redeemer to fury learn first what has work and the great work is not so far beyond chapter 53 the dowser once round the meadow brother does the hazel twig dip twice round the meadow brother does the hazel twig dip thrice round the paddock highly lowly wily holy dip dip dip then made the horse in the paddock and low its wings for whoso findeth the spring beneath the earth maketh the treasures of earth to course the heavens this spring is threefold of water but also of steel and of seasons also this paddock is the toad that hath the jewel between his eyes o mon epod men whom keep us from evil chapter 54 eavesdropping 's five-and-forty apprentice masons out of work 15 fellow craftsmen out of work three master masons out of work all these sat on their haunches waiting the report of the Sojourner for the word was lost this is the report of the sojourners the word was love and it's number is an hundred and eleven then said each mo for its number is an hundred and eleven each took the trowel from his lap whose number is an hundred and eleven each called moreover on the goddess Nina for her number is an hundred and eleven yet with all this went the work awry for the word of the law is Thelma chapter 55 the drooping sunflower the one thought vanished all my mind was torn to rags neigh-neigh my head was mashed into wood pulp and there on the daily newspaper was printed thus wrote I since my one love was torn from me I cannot work I cannot think I seek distraction here I seek distraction there but this is all my truth that I who love have lost and how may I regain I must have money to get to America o mage sage gage thy wage or in the page of thine age is written rage o my darling we should not have spent 90 pounds in that three weeks in Paris slash the brakes on thine arms with a pole Acts chapter 56 trouble with twins holy holy holy unto 555 times holy be Our Lady of the stars holy holy holy unto 156 times holy be our lady that righteth upon the Beast holy holy holy unto the number of times necessary and appropriate be our lady Isis in her millions of names all mother Genetrix mara tricks yet holier than all these to me is layla night and death for her do i blaspheme alike the finite and the infinite so wrote not Frater paired arab oh but the imp Crowley in his name for forgery let him suffer penal servitude for seven years or at least let him do pranayama all the way home home nay but to the house of the harlot whom he loveth not for it is Leila that loveth and yet who knoweth which is Crowley and which is freighter pair do Robbo chapter 57 the duck-billed platypus dirt is matter in the wrong place thought is mind in the wrong place matter is mind so thought is dirt thus argued he the wise one not mindful that all place is wrong for not until the place is perfected by Atty saith he placet the rows uncross o fide droppeth it's pedals without the rows the cross is a dry stick worship then the rosy cross and the mystery of two-in-one and worship Him that swore by his holy tea that one should not be one except insofar as it is - I am glad that Leila is afar no doubt clouds love chapter 58 a guy howlings haggard am i and hyena i hunger and howl men think it laughter ha ha ha there is nothing movable or immovable under the firmament of heaven on which I may write the symbols of the secret of my soul yea though I were lowered by ropes into the utmost caverns and vaults of eternity there is no word to express even the first whisper of the initiator in mine ear yeh I abhor birth you'll elating lamentations of night agony agony the light within me breeds vales the song within be dumbness God and what prism may any man analyze my light immortal are the adepts and yet they die they die of shame unspeakable they die as the gods die for sorrow wilt thou endure unto the end oh freighter repaired Arab Oh o lamp in the abyss thou hast the keystone of the Royal Arch yet the apprentices instead of making bricks but the straws and their hair and think they are Jesus Christ o sublime tragedy and comedy of the great work chapter 59 the tailless monkey there is no help but hot spot in the skies when asticus sees crabs and lobsters rise man that has spine and hopes of heaven to be lacks the amoebas immortality what protoplasm gains in mobile mirth is loss of the stability of earth matter and sense and mine have had their day nature presents the bill and all must pay if as I am NOT I were free to choose how Buddhahood would battle with the boos my certainty that destiny is good rests on its picking me for Buddhahood Mariah drunkard I should think I had good evidence that fate was bloody bad chapter 60 the wound of m4 toss the self-mastery of Percival became the self masturbator II of the Buju ah ver tous has become virtue the qualities which have made a man a race a city a caste must be thrown off death is the penalty of failure as it is written in the hour of success sacrifice that which is dearest to thee unto the infernal gods the Englishman lives upon the excrement of his forefathers all moral codes are worthless in themselves yet in every new code there is hope provided always that the code has not changed because it is too hard but because it is fulfilled the dead dog floats with the stream in Puritan France the best women are harlots in vicious England the best women are virgins if only the Archbishop of Canterbury were to go naked in the streets and beg as bread the new Christ like the old is the friend of publicans and sinners because his nature is ascetic oh if every man did no matter what provided that it is the one thing that he will not and cannot do chapter 61 the fools not go full begetter of both I and not resolve this Noddy not oh i this i and o io io 4 io i tuna banas oh I pay pay the dissolution of the house of God for pay comes after Oh after I Yin that triumphs over Aleph 9 that is o opus the work the opening of the I thou naughty boy thou openness the Eye of Horus to the blind eye that weeps the upright one and thine uprightness rejoice ahthe death to all fishes chapter 62 twig the Phoenix hath a bell for sound fire for sight a knife for touch two cakes one for taste the other for smell he standeth before the altar of the universe at sunset when earth life fades he summons the universe and crowns it with magic light to replace the son of natural light he praise unto and give homage to raw hor qu it to him he then sacrifices the first cake burnt illustrates the prophet drawn from the scheme of incarnation the second mixed with his life's blood and eaten illustrates the use of the lower life to feed the higher life he then takes the oath and becomes free unconditioned the absolute burning up in the flame of his prayer and born again the Phoenix chapter 63 Margery DAW I love Layla I lack Layla where is the mystic grace sayeth thou who told the man that Layla is not knew it and I had it I destroyed all things they are reborn in other shapes I gave up all for one this one hath given up its unity for all I wrenched dog backwards to find God now God barks think me not fallen because I love Layla and lack Layla I am the master of the universe then give me a heap of straw in a hut and Layla naked amen chapter 64 constancy I was discussing oysters with a crony God sent me the angels den and Dhoni and man of spunk they urged would hardly choose to breakfast every day Shayla peru's no I replied he would not do so but think of this whoa if leper OU's were shut I eat these oysters and I drink this wine solely to drown this misery of mine yet the last height of consolations Colditz pinnacle is not to be consoled and though I sleep with Jane and Eleanor I feel no better than I did before and Julien only fixes in my mind even before it feels better than behind you are mercurial spirits be so kind as to enable me to raise the wind put me in Leila's arms again the accursed leaving me that else how may do his worst Dhoni and den perceiving me inspired conceive their task was finished they retired I turned upon my friend and breaking bounds borrowed a trifle of 200 pounds chapter 65 sick transient at last I lifted up mine eyes and beheld and lo the flames of violet were become as tendrils of smoke as mist at sunset upon the marshlands and in the midst of the moon pool of silver was the lily of white and gold in this lily is all honey in this lily that flower that the midnight in this lily is all perfume in this lily is all music and it unfolded me thus the disciples that watched found a dead body kneeling at the altar amen chapter 66 the praying mantis say God is one this I obeyed for a thousand and one times a night for one thousand nights and one did I affirm the unity but night only means Leyla and unity and God are not worth even her blemishes Allah is only 66 but Leyla counteth up to seven and seventy yeh the night shall cover all the night shall cover all chapter 67 Sodom apples I have brought Pleasant trifles and thus soothe my lack of Laila light is my wallet and my heart is also light and yet I know that the clouds will gather closer for the faults clearing the Mirage will fade then will the desert be thirstier than before o ye who dwell in the dark night of the soul beware most of all of every Herald of the dawn o ye who dwell in the city of the pyramids beneath the night of pan remember that ye shall see no more light but that of the great fire that shall consume your dust to ashes chapter 68 mana at four o'clock there is hardly anybody in Rumple Meyers I have my choice of place and service the babble of the Apes will begin soon enough pioneers o pioneers sat not Elijah under the juniper tree and wept was not Mohammed forsaken in Mecca and Jesus in Gethsemane these prophets were sad at heart but the chocolate at Rumple Meijer is great and the Moose Newar is like Nepthys for perfection also there are little meringues with cream and chestnut bulb very velvety seductions say ly not towards Leila within seven days be not sad at heart o prophet the babble of the Apes will presently begin nay rejoice exceedingly for after all the babble of the Apes the Silence of the night chapter 69 the way to succeed and the way to suck eggs this is the holy hexagram plunge from the height of God and interlock with man plunge from the height o man and interlock with Beast the red triangle is the descending tongue of grace the blue triangle is the ascending tongue of prayer this interchange the double gift of tongues the word of double power abracadabra is the sign of the great work for the great work is accomplished in silence and behold is not that word equal to Jeff that is cancer whose sigil is 69 this work also eats up itself accomplishes its own end nourishes the worker leaves no seed is perfect in itself little children love one another chapter 70 broomstick babblings freighter Parador a bow is of the san headroom of the sabbath's amen he is the old goat himself say women therefore do all adore him the more they detest him the more do they adore him I let us offer the obscene kiss let us seek the mystery of the gnarled oak and of the glacier torrent to him let us offer up our babes around him let us dance in the mad moonlight but freighter pear Dorado is nothing but an I what I none knoweth skip witches hop toads take your pleasure for the play of the universe is the pleasure of freight repaired Arab Oh chapter 71 King's College Chapel for mind and body alike there is no purgative like pranayama no purgative like pranayama for mine for body for mind and body alike alike there is there is there is no purgative no purgative like pranayama pranayama pranayama yay for mind and body alike there is no purgative no purgative no purgative for mind and body alike no purgative purgative purgative like pranayama no purgative for mind and body alike like pranayama like pranayama like prana prana prana prana pranayama pranayama amen chapter 72 hashed pheasant Shem ham for ash all hail divided named utter at once Oh mortal of her ash the universe were swallowed up in flames Shem ham for ash nor deem that thou emit the cosmic crash may find one thing of all those things the same the world has gone to everlasting smash no if creation did possess a name it does not it were only to make hash of that Most High and that most holy game Shem ham for ash chapter 73 the devil the ostrich and the orphaned child death rides the camel of initiation thou humped and stiff necked one that grown esteemed honest an ax death will relieve thee bite not zealot or deer but bide ten days didst thou go with water in thy belly thou shalt go 20 more with a firebrand at thy rump I all thine aspiration this to death death is the crown of all thine aspiration triple is the cord of silver moonlight it shall hang the Oh Holy One Oh hanged man Oh camel termination of the third-person plural for thy multiplicity thou ghost of a non ego could but thy mother behold thee o thou int the infinite snake Ananta that surround if the universe is but the coffin worm chapter 74 Kerry Street when nothing became conscious it made a bad bargain this consciousness acquired individuality a worse bargain the Hermit asked for love worst bargain of all and now he has let his girl go to America to have success in life blank loss is there no end to this immortal ache that haunts me haunts me sleeping or awake if I had Laila how could I forget time age and death insufferable fret were I an hermit how could I support the pain of consciousness the curse of thought even more I that there still were one source spot the abyss that stretches between that and not still the first step is not so far away the Mauritania sails on Saturday chapter 75 plovers eggs spring beans and strawberries are in goodbye to the oyster if I really knew what I wanted I could give up Leila or give up everything for Leila but what I want varies from hour to hour this wavering is the root of all compromise and so of all good sense with this gift a man can spend his seventy years in peace now is this well or ill emphasize gift then man then spend then seventy years and lastly peace and changed the intonations each time reversed the meaning I would show you how but for the moment I prefer to think of Leila chapter 66 Phaeton no yes perhaps oh I I hi why no hail all yeast spay vine gelded hamstrung horses ye shall surpassed the planets in their courses how not by speed nor strength nor power to stay but by the silence that succeeds the nay chapter 77 the sublime and supreme Septon Airi in its mature magical manifestation through matter as it is written and he goat also Leila chapter 78 weal and woe the great wheel of samsara the wheel of the law dhamma the wheel of the taro the wheel of the heavens the Wheel of Life all these wheels be one yet of all these the wheel of the taro alone of vales d consciously meditate long and broad and deep oh man upon this wheel revolving it in thy mind be this thy task to see how each card springs necessarily from each other card even in due order from the fool to the ten of coins then when thou knowest the wheel of destiny complete may a style perceived that will which moved at first there is no first or last and lo thou art passed through the abyss chapter 79 the BAL bullier some men look into their minds and to their memories and find not but pain and shame these then proclaim the good law unto mankind these preach renunciation virtue cowardice in every form these wine eternally smug toothless hairless coot debauch emasculated buddha come ye to me I have a trick to make you silent o ye foam errs at the mouth nature is wasteful but how well she can afford it nature is false but I'm a bit of a liar myself nature is useless but then how beautiful she is nature is cruel but I too am a sadist the game goes on it may have been too rough for Buddha but it's if anything too dull for me the ends will Negra de moi tell every zonka chapter 80 Blackthorne the price of existence is eternal warfare speaking as an Irishman I prefer to say the price of eternal warfare is existence and melancholy as existence is the price is well worth paying is there a government then I'm agin it to hell with the bloody English Oh fraid to repair door a bow how unworthy are these sentiments do you want a clip on the jaw chapter 81 Lewis Ling I am NOT an anarchist in your sense of the word your brain is too dense for any known explosive to affect it I am NOT an anarchist in your sense of the word fancy a policeman let loose on society while there exists the Burgess the hunting man or any man with ideals less than Shelley's and self-discipline less than Loyola's in short any man who falls far short of myself I am against anarchy and for feudalism every Emancipator has enslaved the free chapter 81 borscht which moon the turnest all the streams to blood I take this hazel rod and stand and swear an oath beneath this blasted oaken bear that rears its agony above the flood whose swollen mask mutters an atheist prayer what oath may stand the shock of this offense there is no eye no joy no permanence which moon of blood eternal air band flow of baffled birth and death still lurks a change and all the leopards in thy woods that range and all the vampires in their bows that glow brooding on blood thirst these are not so strange and fierce as life's and failing shower these die yet time Robair them through eternity here then the oath which moon of blood-red moon let all thy strength I ghouls attend he that endureth even to the end has sworn that love's own corpse shall lie at noon even in the coffin of its hopes and spend all the force one by its old woe and stress in now annihilating nothingness this chapter is called Imperial purple and a Punic War chapter 83 The Blind Pig many becomes too two-one-one not what comes to not what shallow depth give up his hermit life and go eating and drinking and making merry I shall he not do so he knows that the many is not and having not enjoys that not even in the enjoyment of the many for when not becomes absolute not it becomes again the many and this many and this not are identical they are not correlatives or phases of someone deeper absence of idea they are not aspects of some further light they are they beware o my brother lest this chapter deceived thee chapter 84 the avalanche only through devotion to freighter Perabo made this book be understood how much more then should he devote himself to Iowa's for the understanding of the holy book of Thelema yet must he labor underground eternally the Sun is not for him nor the flowers nor the voices of the birds for he has passed beyond all these yay verily oft times he is weary it is well that the weight of the karma of the infinite is with him therefore is he glad indeed for he hath finished the work and the reward concern of him no wit chapter 85 borborygmi I just trust any thoughts uh turd by any man whose health is not robust all other thoughts are surely symptoms of disease yet these are often beautiful and may be true within the circle of the conditions of the speaker and yet again do we not find that the most robust of men express no thoughts at all they eat drink sleep and copulate in silence what better proof of the fact that all thought is dis-ease we are Strasbourg geese the tastiness of our talk comes from the disorder of our bodies we like it this only proves that our tastes also are depraved and debauched by our disease chapter 86 tat ex nihilo in AI h i l beat in the fire the twist if itself and burn ahthe like a scorpion i the unsullied ever flowing water h the interpenetrating spirit without and within is not its name abracadabra i the unsullied ever flowing air l the green fertile earth fierce are the fires of the universe and on their daggers they hold aloft the bleeding heart of earth upon the earth lies water sensuous and sleepy above the water hangs air and above air but also below fire and an all the fabric of all being woven on its invisible design is aether chapter 87 Mandarin meals there is a dish of shark's fin and of sea slug well set in birds nests oh also there is a souffle most exquisite of ciaochao these did I devised but I have never tasted anything to match the narrator's note cruelly here illustrates a symbol consisting of a vertical or aa Burroughs superimposed over an inverted cross with two vertical bars one to the left and one to the right of the central intersection which she gave me before she went away March 22nd 1912 Evy chapter 88 goldbricks teach us your secret master yet my yahoos then for the hardness of their hearts and for the softness of their heads I taught them magic but alas teach us your real secret master how to become invisible how to acquire love and Oh beyond all how to make gold but how much gold will you give me for the secret of infinite riches then said the foremost and most foolish master it is nothing but here is a hundred thousand pounds this did I deign to accept and whispered in his ear this secret a sucker is born every minute chapter 89 unprofessional conduct I am annoyed about the number 89 I shall avenge myself by writing nothing in this chapter that too was wise for since I am annoyed I could not write even a reasonably decent lie chapter 90 starlight behold I have lived many years and I have traveled in every land that is under the Dominion of the Sun and I have sailed the seas from pole to pole now do I lift up my voice and testify that all is vanity on earth except the love of a good woman and that good woman Leila and I testify that in heaven all is vanity for I have journeyed oft and sojourned oft in every heaven except the love of Our Lady Babylon and I testify that beyond heaven and earth is the love of Our Lady knew it and seeing that I am old and well stricken in years and that my natural forces fail therefore do I rise up in my throne and call upon the end for I am youth eternal and force infinite and at the end is she that was Leila and Babylon and knew it being chapter 91 the heikal a end of the book of lies by Aleister Crowley you