[AMBIENT NOISE] DADDY? HUH? FOOD'S HERE KEPT BUYIN' AND SEE WHO GETS IT COME EAT ALAINA, I'M SO TIRED JUST COME EAT ALAINA, I'LL BE THERE
IN A MINUTE, I PROMISE STOP <i>BUT WAKE UP</i> SHUT THE DOOR ♪ SOMEBODY SAVE ME ♪ ♪ ME FROM MYSELF ♪ ♪ I'VE SPENT SO LONG
LIVIN' IN HELL ♪ ♪ ANOTHER PILL
AS I START TO SPIRAL ♪ ♪ MESSAGE TO MY DAUGHTERS ♪ ♪ I DON'T EVEN DESERVE
THE FATHER TITLE ♪ ♪ HAILIE, I'M SO SORRY ♪ ♪ I KNOW I WASN'T THERE
FOR YOUR FIRST GUITAR RECITAL ♪ ♪ DIDN'T WALK YOU DOWN
THE AISLE ♪ ♪ MISSED THE BIRTH OF
YOUR FIRST CHILD ♪ ♪ YOUR FIRST PODCAST,
LOOKIN' DOWN, SWEETIE ♪ ♪ I'M SO PROUD OF
HOW YOU TURNED OUT ♪ ♪ SORRY THAT I CHOSE DRUGS
AND PUT 'EM ABOVE YOU ♪ ♪ SORRY THAT I DIDN'T
LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO ♪ ♪ GIVE 'EM UP, HOW THE FUCK DO ♪ ♪ I NOT LOVE YOU MORE
THAN A PILL? ♪ ♪ LOOKIN' UP TO THE CEILIN'
FROM THIS FLOOR, WONDER WILL ♪ ♪ SOMEBODY SAVE ME ♪ ♪ ME FROM MYSELF? ♪ ♪ I'VE SPENT SO LONG
LIVIN' IN HELL ♪ ♪ THEY SAY MY LIFESTYLE ♪ ♪ IS BAD FOR MY HEALTH ♪ ♪ IT'S THE ONLY THING
THAT SEEMS TO HELP ♪ ♪ ALAINA, SORRY THAT YOU HAD TO
HEAR ME FALL IN THE BATHROOM ♪ ♪ SORRY THAT I MISSED YOUR
GRADU—, WAIT, NATE ♪ ♪ I SHOULD JUST
CONGRATULATE YOU ♪ ♪ ON BEIN' A DAD TO CARTER
AND LIAM, LOOK AT YOU ♪ ♪ LITTLE BRO, SORRY I LEFT YOU ♪ ♪ SORRY THAT I'LL NEVER GET TO ♪ ♪ HOLD OR HUG
MY LITTLE NEPHEWS ♪ ♪ STEVIE, I'M SORRY,
I MISSED YOU ♪ ♪ GROW UP, AND I DIDN'T GET TO ♪ ♪ BE THE DAD I WANTED
TO BE TO YOU ♪ ♪ THINGS I WANTED
TO SEE YOU DO ♪ ♪ THIS IS MY SONG
FROM ME TO YOU ♪ ♪ SORRY I GAVE UP,
BUT I'M JUST SO DEFEATED ♪ ♪ GOD, WHAT THE FUCK
DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? ♪ ♪ SOMEBODY SAVE ME ♪ ♪ ME FROM MYSELF ♪ ♪ I'VE SPENT SO LONG
LIVIN' IN HELL ♪ ♪ THEY SAY MY LIFESTYLE ♪ ♪ IS BAD FOR MY HEALTH ♪ ♪ IT'S THE ONLY THING
THAT SEEMS TO HELP ♪ ♪ I'VE BEEN STARIN'
AT THAT VIDEO OF HAILIE ♪ ♪ ALMOST DAILY OF HER
PLAYIN' A GUITAR ♪ ♪ IN HOPES MAYBE THAT'LL
GIVE ME THE POWER TO FIGHT ♪ ♪ BUT THE ADDICT IN ME'S A
COWARD, HE TOLD ME
THAT I CAN'T DO IT ♪ ♪ HAD A SECOND CHANCE, BLEW IT ♪ ♪ IT'S LIKE I'M STUCK INSIDE AN
ALTERNATE REALITY,
BUT I KNOW (WHAT?) ♪ ♪ I'LL TURN IT AROUND
AND BE ABLE TO ♪ ♪ WALK HER AND LAINIE ONE DAY ♪ ♪ TO THE ALTAR
AS PROUD AS CAN BE ♪ ♪ RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST WEAK ♪ ♪ AS I FALL FURTHER DOWN
IN THIS DEEP HOLE ♪ ♪ AND FARTHER IN THE GROUND
THAT I SINK ♪ ♪ AS THEY LOWER
ME IN MY COFFIN ♪ ♪ I FEEL THE TEARS ALL FALLIN'
DOWN ON MY CHEEK ♪ ♪ I'M A LOST CAUSE ♪ ♪ BABY, DON'T WASTE
YOUR TIME ON ME ♪ ♪ I'M SO DAMAGED BEYOND REPAIR ♪ ♪ LIFE HAS SHATTERED MY HOPES
AND MY DREAMS ♪ ♪ I'M A LOST CAUSE ♪ ♪ BABY, DON'T WASTE
YOUR TIME ON ME ♪ ♪ I'M SO DAMAGED BEYOND REPAIR ♪ ♪ LIFE HAS SHATTERED MY HOPES
AND MY DREAMS ♪ <i>AND, UH, AND NEXT TO US</i> HAILIE <i>HOW OLD ARE YOU?</i> TWELVE <i>YOU'VE BEEN PLAYING GUITAR
FOR HOW LONG?</i> ABOUT THREE MONTHS [AUDIENCE CHEERING]