I'm recording now. I want to shut it off. I gotta press the trigger again. And she'll start rolling again.
Would you like to see handicapped people depicted as people? Excuse me? Jim LaBrecht is a sound designer at the Berklee Repertory Theatre in California. He was born with a disability which has nothing to do with his job.
But having the job makes it possible for him to lead an independent, productive life. I was born with spina bifida. They didn't think I was going to live more than a couple of hours.
Apparently I had different plans. In the middle of first grade, I was allowed to enter public school on a trial basis. They were gonna see if it worked out. I mean at the time, so many kids just like me were being sent to institutions.
I remember that my dad used to say to me, You know Jimmy, you're gonna have to be really outgoing. You're gonna have to go up and introduce yourself to people because they're not gonna come up to you. My sister Lindsay was a Brownie, but they wouldn't let me into the Cub Scouts. The barriers were all over the place. I loved music, I loved life.
I wanted to be part of the world, but I didn't see anyone like me in it. And then I hear from some people about the summer camp. It's a summer camp for, you know, the handicapped run by hippies.
And somebody said, you know, you probably don't smoke dope with the counselors. And I'm like... I'm like, I don't smoke.
Sign me up. The wild thing is that this can't change the world. And nobody knows this story. There's something happening here. But what it is ain't exactly clear.
There's a man with a gun. I got to beware. I think it's time we stop.
Children, what's that sound? Everybody look what's going down. This battle line's being drawn. Nobody's right if everybody's wrong. Young people speak in their minds.
I'm getting so much resistance from behind. If I'm with stop, hey, what's that sound? Everybody look what's going on. What's that sound? Everybody look what's coolin'We better stop now What's that sound?
Everybody look what's coolin'We better stop now Children, what's that sound? So I remember the first time I went to camp, she did. We take this bus trip from Manhattan up to the Catskills.
It's about a three hour drive. And you get into this really lovely kind of mountainous areas and you could smell like the hot land and the pines and you're hearing birds and stuff. And then we pull into the parking lot and these people start swarming around the bus.
The place has got a bunch of hippies in it and some of them look pretty freaky. And it's like, wow. I'm not sure who's a camper and who's a counselor.
Rippin Mobile, Alabama. I saw a sign that said, Summer Jobs. New York.
I didn't know anyone handicapped. I was feeling a little anxious about the kids. I had zero experience with disabled people.
I knew as many disabled people as I knew sumo wrestlers. So I'm at the front of the box. and I was not prepared for the visual of so many disabled people at one time.
And I froze. I became paralyzed with fear. Then somebody behind me pushed me because I was in a... in the way and that forward momentum carried me through the summer. Freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom.
Sometimes I feel like I'm on the land of the sky. When Woodstock was happening, I remember I remember being at my grandmother's listening on the transistor radio and saying, Wish I could go, wish I could go, wish I could go. And then when I went to Jened, it was like, there I was, I was in Woodstock. The music and the people.
And just you're like, these people are crazy, you know, I mean in a good way. Come to Captain Ed and find yourself, you know. Freedom! Freedom! Freedom!
Don't mind that we......like our own......crown......lamb... that it was a utopia when we were there. There was no outside world.
Freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom. If you want to stop and look at anything with the camera, you tell us you can do that. Alright, there's the adult part.
What's that yellow building there? That's what I just said. The, uh, the adult part right there. Well, that's part of the adult camp. Yeah.
Gorgeous counselors. Say hello. Hi, how are you?
Okay. Here is Girls 1. Place for fun and frolic. There's one of the campers, Valerie Valvona.
Jimmy! Is this necessary? I mean, it's a Super 1. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God. So long. Is that his director over there? Yeah, that's Larry Allison.
I understand you're the director here. Yeah, I'm the director of the camp. And I was just out here by the swimming pool watching the kids swim.
And I decided to dig a few holes, because the kids are kind of clumsy. And I thought it'd be funny if they tripped. That's a lesson.
That's right. Jeanette was an opportunity to try to do some different kinds of things. When the camp started back in the 50s, it was the traditional kind of camp program.
As it evolved during the 60s and into the 70s, what we tried to do was provide the kind of environment where teenagers could be teenagers without all the stereotypes and the labels. And that was a byproduct of the times, you know, of social experimentation. We realized the problem did not exist with people with disabilities. The problem existed with people that didn't have disabilities.
It was our problem. So it was important for us to change. Just the same, I like Kim Jeanette. And I love Larry Olsen. Olsen?
Ellison. Good for you, Sophie. My name is Elliot Breskin.
Where are you from? I'm from Brooklyn, New York. Uh, Brooklyn.
Hello, my name is Jean Malafront. I, uh, got run over by a bus. I don't know exactly my handicap.
And that's all. My name is Carl, and if this is ever broadcast on television, my telephone number is area code 212-0367, and I would love anyone who likes to talk to give me a telephone call, and I am blind and hard of hearing. I had too much oxygen in the incubator, and my hearing because I had a fractured skull from falling out of a cab, and I would be glad if anyone will call me who hears this. This is where I stay.
Steve's a cat. Wanna take a picture of this cat? Smile Steve.
Oops. Let's not bump into the cameras. Why don't you move around that way?
Put a pleasure seat on. Ah. Don't make me get up. Ah.
Ah. Don't make me get up. Ah.
Ah. Do you have enough light to roll up inside and see what it looks like? Uh, I don't know. Hey Tommy. This is Tommy Kern.
Hi Tommy. Nobody uses those upper beds, right? What?
The upper beds? The counselors do. The counselors do. Hey, dude.
What's happening? The usual stay at the counselors. That first night at the bunk, I was a little bit nervous.
I had just had surgery. Up to that point, I was wearing diapers. I had no control over my bladder. I guess you could imagine what it was like being 15 and trying to hide the fact that you had to wear diapers. And there was that constant pressure of being found out.
I had gotten this urinary tract diversion, so now I had this bag. It wasn't going too well. I was having a hard time kind of keeping it on and it was leaking and such.
But at camp, everybody had something going on with their body. It just wasn't a big deal. Okay, my first guest, what's your name?
My name is Michael Tannenbaum. How old are you? I was just 18. What do you think is the most significant part about Camp Jeanette?
The stuff. how great they are, how good they relate to the camp. Are you lying? No, I'm not lying. It's just that I've been in other camps and no other camp have campers treated, have counselors treated campers the way they do here.
They're not like babysitters. That was a good answer. Thank you, John. It's not 100% sure, but since the new trip is going to be coming up Thursday, what we're going to try to do is get the cook to take off Wednesday, which means that we'll cook on Wednesday. Do you have any suggestions?
I was trying to see if we could make veal parmesan, but veal is too expensive. How about just that? Chow mein.
Chow mein. What do you think of lasagna? Super duper.
How many people want lasagna? The only thing we get is not to eat starch. You don't have to eat those starchy things.
So why eat lasagna? Lasagna. The President.: Lasagna wins. Ms. All right.
When you go back into your groups, will you also decide, get some suggestions as to what you want, and when we come back in a group together, we'll decide what we're going to have to eat, okay, if the cook is off on Wednesday. I felt like it was important to be inclusive because I didn't really have a lot of role models as I was growing up who had disabilities. It made people feel like they were more a part of.
What was happening? Very good idea. It was more free and open than certainly what I was experiencing in my day-to-day life at home.
I love my baby. I grew up in Brooklyn, New York, in a neighborhood called East Flatbush. Growing up in the neighborhood, I didn't feel different.
I had polio, I wasn't able to walk anymore and things like that, but there were a lot of kids we played outside, stickball and jump rope, and it was a great neighborhood. So one day I was going to the candy store with a group of friends. My friend was pushing my wheelchair, and we went around the block, and these kids came over, this one boy said, Are you sick? And I was really, like, taken aback.
And I recall that I meekishly said, No, I'm not sick. But I remember I wanted to cry. I get that feeling a lot even as an adult.
I'm kind of in between being shocked by the question, maybe being angry by it, but like having to center myself. It was an awakening that people saw me not as Judy, but as somebody who was sick. When I was five years old, my mother took me to the local school to enroll me.
But the principal said I couldn't go to that school because I couldn't walk, I could be a fire hazard. So basically, my mother was teaching me. Of course, all my friends in the neighborhood were going to school, but I was at home.
Then one day when I was about eight, nine years old, my mom got a call that there was an opening in PS 219 in the special ed classes. The classes for disabled kids were in the basement. The other classes were upstairs. We would call the non-disabled kids upstairs. Kids.
They would come down, a few of them. Fridays help us go to assembly. They were allowed to come and, you know, meet us in our classroom and push our wheelchairs. There were people that I met in those classes who then went to Camp Jened together.
Neil Jacobson, Stevie Hoffman, and Nancy Rosenblum. We would sit together at lunch, and I would help people, you know, put their sandwich in their sandwich holder. And I think we respected each other and we all felt that what we were saying was important. I mean in some way, even when we were that young, we knew that we were all being sidelined.
You were doing what? We didn't want to sideline anybody. We wanted to hear what everybody had to say.
We were willing to listen. You're always talking. That's because you're the good public speaker. I'm a Vichyan and I thought I was a baby kid.
I don't know too. I think you're really great. In the bunk when the worst things happen, you'll just be sitting in the corner cracking up and nobody can get depressed when you're sitting there.
So she knows what she's doing when she's all that quiet. No, I really dig you, Nancy. And there are a lot of things, you know, I'd like to get to know you better, but... so far as I know you, I really like you. Very nice.
Remember, you're speaking to her, not about her. I don't know too much about you, but you're okay. Some people here who have been filming.
I told them that I would like them to please address us as a group so they could tell us their ideas and we could ask any questions that we wanted to. We are People's Video Theatre. This is Ken Mosh. I'm Howie Gutstadt.
And that's Ben Levine over there. And we have been working with this equipment which is half inch. Video tape which is simply closed system television. Whatever actually you really want to say about yourselves, let us know. Let's have a lot of interaction.
There was a period of adjustment I had to go through for the first couple of weeks of camp. Because I was in public school, I wasn't around other people with disabilities. I wasn't a shut-in.
I could come and go more or less as I pleased. And not everybody at the camp had those advantages. Some of them were going to special schools.
Some of them were isolated a lot of the time. You had people from institutions. It occurs to me, what a long, strange trip it's been.
Being 15, I was drawn to the people that were smoking cigarettes and listening to music. Some nights are shining on me. Outside of camp, I really didn't feel like a cool kid. But at Jeanette, I was. You know, there was a lot of cute girls at camp.
And, you know, I was friendly. At home, some people have a hierarchy of disability. The Polios were on top because they looked more normal and they sleep easier.
I was at the bottom. But I'm changing. You were just a kid.
We went to the net. But he's younger than I am. What we need to do is to get married.
I've got that sympathy. I understand why you are there. There's a handicap too. Oh, my God!
Oh, my God! Oh, my God! I'm just gonna waitress.
Aha! This is a little sitting corner over there. It's kinda dark over here at night. So what does that mean?
What goes on there? Ha ha! Ha ha ha! Now, let's stop.
You've been going around giving me this very superficial tour. Let's have some real stuff. This is a nice... Wow. Who's Nancy?
That's my girl. Now I'm waiting to show her. Couch Net was where I met my first girlfriend, Nancy.
She was funny, she was cute, she was always in the middle of things and having a really, really great time. I mean, I really loved her. As much as you can at the age of 15, you know? I literally remember us like making out in the dining hall. It seemed like we were making out all the time.
There was a romance in the air if you wanted to experience it. I never dated outside of camp. But at Jened, you can have make-out sessions behind the bunks and different places like that. The big deal I did was a woman. Cut.
Give you a hold of this. How... That was one of the most difficult times I ever had.
Of course, I had my first date with a good kid. I found her hand on my back. That was it.
What, you want me to tell them what happened? Yeah. Oh, well.
Well, two people got crabs and they're spreading. They're forming human body in there and, oh no. And they, they. Multiply. In the beginning when this thing started happening last night, we found out what was going on.
We were kind of all very hyper about it. And who the fuck knew what, you know, crabs were or lice or anything. I want to go over there.
What's over there? My girl. Have you seen her today?
Just from over here. Have you talked to her? Not really, just from across here. We're all quarantined.
It's our first week anniversary today. It's your first weekend anniversary and you can't even talk to her? That's right. Wait, I'm married? Oh, yeah.
I'm married because I can't see Jimmy and today's our first week anniversary. I got those poor old... Crab blues, yeah.
Haven't had so much fun since grandma caught her tit in the ringer. We're thinking of collecting all the crabs and having a bake. We may have to burn the bastards out. Oh yeah, I got it.
This is the most asinine stupid that I have ever heard. When thinking about it rationally, I realize that I don't itch. There's no need for me to disinfect.
And my wheelchair doesn't itch. And neither does my bed, my mattress, and my roommate Bruce. Yet we're all in the process of dehumanization. And a match. We got more power working today!
It's the best activity yet! I do so declare, y'all. Tell them, Gene, it's......pred-ible!
You know, I would like to have somebody wash your balls. Right, I can do it myself for me. So, you know, I don't really care. But there are other people who can. You know, and they have to have it done for them.
You know, people around here feel small enough most of the time. And when somebody has to scrub their balls, they'll probably feel even smaller. I think actually what happened out of it is that people were having fun. We were working together as a whole unit, washing and cleaning and showering and doing things that we've never done before.
And it's really a very different kind of a thing. And I have to go shower some people. I'll see you later.
At Camp Jeanette, personal assistance was built into all of our lives who needed help. There were people there that would help me get dressed and undressed and go to the bathroom and shower, get in and out of the pool. In some way, it was also the beginning of my experiencing what it would be like to have someone other than my mother or my father have to do all those things. At the camp, you could do anything that you thought you wanted to try to do. You wouldn't be picked to be on the team back home.
But at Jened, you had to go up the bat. And if you didn't hit the ball, hell, you were out. When we were at Jened, the Disability Act had not been passed. So when we would take the campus on a trip in the town for ice cream, we couldn't get you in the door.
And then deal with the standing, a deal with we don't want them here because it made our other customers feel uncomfortable. Whatever obstacles that were in my way, being a black man, the same thing was here. ...held true for individuals in wheelchairs. Back home, I had to be careful who I said things to, because that was a way of surviving. There were survival skills that you had.
I had to be very, very, very careful not to be disrespectful, not to look a white man in his eye. You had to do those things. You had to be mindful of that.
Again, again, you can't get enough My eyes get really blue I don't need the glue Cause I got the one time, one time blues. Alright, are you ready? We're here now.
We're gonna talk about parents, you know. What kind of... how they bug us, or how you like them, whatever it is. Maybe we should start off with, uh, overprotectiveness, which I really hate.
Does anybody want to start off? My parents are great, but sometimes I hate them. Because they're too great, and they're too protective of me. and things that I want to do and I would love to do.
They say, no, you can't do it, you're handicapped. And they keep reminding me of the fact that I'm in a chair. And they don't seem to realize that there's so much I could do. I think generally, apparently, the phrase to show that this is a disabled or handicapped or whatever you might call it. And, um...
I think it's much more artistry than a production mix. I depend on my mother for some things, and so I can't really fight her as hard as I wish I could. What kind of things do you depend on? Well, I should...
Some of the things, like, just everybody else depends on parents for, like, laundry and stuff, but, like, like, she's the person that orders special supplies when I'll need it and stuff. And if I'm in a position where I'm not able to do something, you know, like, she's going to have to do it. And so, like, if you keep on bugging your mother, saying, you know, fighting her constantly, then there's going to be a time when she's going to be very reluctant. Everybody thinks...
Do you think that their parents are, you know, stricter with us, or, you know, do they hit us the same as your sister or brother, or do they think you have to be careful? I have two brothers, and they got a lot more freedom than I do. There goes your argument, those are brothers.
That's a universal argument. We're basically around the same age. It's her responsibility to do that, and as long as she keeps on accepting things being done for her, it'll always be done. Yeah. A little bit.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. You, what, how, remember, know, what I, how I, I know, know, know I am.
Say it. Say it. Does someone understand it?
Anybody get a part of it? I think that it is important about what everybody wants to be alone and in their lives. like to think alone and to be alone and at peace.
Nancy is saying that she's been denied the right of privacy. Is that... I think that was a very good right. What we saw at that camp was that our lives could be better. The fact of the matter is you don't have anything to strive for if you don't know that it exists.
We kept having these discussions. It was allowing us to recognize we needed to look at ways of doing things together, not just at camp, but after camp. I can't see my reflection in the water.
I can't speak the sounds to show no pain. When it was time to leave camp, some of us vowed to stay in touch and write or call. I'll remember the sounds of my own name. There was always the chance that some campers weren't going to come back next year. Yes, and only if my own true love was waiting.
The night before the end of camp, everybody would be hanging out almost all night. Nobody wanted to go to bed. If today was not a crooked highway It was a very happy night, but you knew the next morning there would be tears.
If tonight was not a crooked trail If tomorrow wasn't such a long time We were going back, almost in time. A lonesome would mean nothing to you at all You We were brothers and sisters there. I took ideas back home that my community was unfamiliar with.
I wore tie-dye shirts. My afro had grown really, really. It was out like this.
I burned incense. Between the revolution that was going on, the peace movement, the desire to stop the war, I became very involved in that. Jeanette had exposed me to the world outside of Alabama.
At camp, I was in a whole other world. My first girlfriend, and I'm popular, and I'm... And I'm going back to this world in which it's hard to get around.
Sometimes I would just like go home after high school and go to bed for a few hours. And just get away from the world. I have friends, but I'm the only person with a disability. I had to try to adapt. I had to fit into this world that wasn't built for me.
It never dawned on me that the world was ever going to change. Most disabled people, like myself, are unable to use public transportation because it discriminates against the disabled due to the fact that it's architecturally inaccessible. I have to stay on the street and go around LeBlanc. Most animal species abandon or destroy members of the group which are maimed or deformed. Some human societies have been equally harsh.
Down through the centuries, our literature, and recently our movies, are full of monstrous, misunderstood creatures. Through this conditioning, we come to think of the handicapped as objects of fear or pity or... loathing.
Tonight we look at them as human beings with problems. Judy Heumann is the president of Disabled in Action, a political organization of the handicapped. I think one of the real problems is that when you grow up being disabled, it's the fact that you're not considered either a man or a woman. And even the beginning of any kind of a relationship, you know, beginning at all, because you're just thought of as a disabled person, you know, person being second and asexual and can you do this and can you do that. We give an indication that we have an elevator operator in school.
That whenever he stops on the floor, and there are a couple of people in wheelchairs waiting, he starts yelling, all right, get these wheelchairs in here, get these wheelchairs in here. He doesn't take into consideration the people, you know, the person, the person there. You know, it's just wheelchairs to him. I don't think I felt really shame about my disability. What I felt more was exclusion.
For me, the camp experience really was empowering because we helped empower each other that the status quo is not what it needed to be. Disabled in Action was started as a result of a lawsuit that I had brought against the Board of Education in New York City. There was publicity going on and we set up all these different committees.
One of the first things that Disabled in Action worked on was on deinstitutionalization. There are some aspects of life which society is hidden from public view. The following program will remind you that they exist and that we all bear a responsibility to humanity.
I remember watching TV one evening before dinner and on comes this expose about this state hospital in New York called Willowbrook. The early morning mist gave the place an eerie feeling like a set from a horror movie. And once inside, that feeling became suddenly appropriate. The doctor had warned me that it would be bad.
It was horrible. There was one attendant for perhaps 50 severely and profoundly retarded children. Lying on the floor naked and smeared with their own feces, they were making a pitiful sound.
A kind of mournful wail that it's impossible for me to forget. It was really shocking. It was just like, how can this be? The kids can't feed themselves. There are so few attendants that there is only an average, it's been timed, three minutes per child per feeding.
How much time would be needed to do a job adequately? The same amount of time that your children and my children would want to have to eat breakfast. I suddenly remembered one summer, there had been a camper at Camp Jeanette from Willowbrook.
I remember being in the dining hall. And this guy comes in. He was basically just eating as much as he could. He was just kept on shoveling it in to the point where he threw up.
It was kind of like somebody coming in from the wild. What's the consequence of three minutes per meal per child? The consequence is death from pneumonia.
I had never. Seeing the inside of an institution like this, the chaos that existed, was frightening to me because I recognized that myself and other friends could have easily been in this institution. At the time people still were not thinking of what was wrong with the Willowbrooks of the country. The civil rights movement was going on around us, and that was an opportunity to talk about why were we excluded and what did we need to do. There weren't anti-discrimination laws at the federal level, but members in the Senate and House were looking for avenues to make that happen.
The Rehabilitation Act in 1972 was a perfect vehicle. Buried at the end of the bill was Section 504, an anti-discrimination provision. The language was drawn from civil rights legislation in the 1960s. It was going to mean that anybody who got federal money, hospitals, education, transportation, on and on, was going to have to not discriminate. It was like a Yahoo! wonderful moment.
And Nixon vetoed it. The president has vetoed a bill setting up a vocational rehabilitation program because he said it would cost too much. It would be just impossible in terms of its financial cost to put in elevators or ramps and all these things.
Just cost would be horrendous in terms of their total. The problem here is... As with all of this question, how many people would really be served by it? Disabled in Action decided to have a demonstration in New York City in front of Nixon headquarters.
We decided that we were going to sit down in the street and we were going to stop traffic. So at 4.30 in the afternoon, we formed this huge circle. We cut off four streets.
You get the call to action. To the barricades. You know, Judy would call it. I remember being on the ground with these big trucks coming at you, going, whoa. It was a very unusual demonstration.
I mean, people are not used to seeing a whole lot of folks in wheelchairs. And you had to back up. I mean, you had to back up if you were on the wrong side in front of that young woman. They were announcing paraplegics stop traffic in Manhattan. There were only 50 of us.
But basically, with the one street, we were able to shut the city down. Those DIA demonstrations were the first time a real serious radical agenda was mobilized. When I heard about DIA, I really wanted to join.
But I often couldn't go because I was stuck in high school. Judy would put out the call that we're going to show up to this event and we're going to demonstrate about this or that. And when this call came out to go to this Martin Luther King birthday gathering, I had to go.
So I took the train down from Hartsdale to Grand Central Station. Going to Grand Central Station, it's so freaking huge. That day, I couldn't find a ramp or an elevator. And I had to climb out of my chair, pull the wheelchair up behind me, so step by step, pull it up, push myself up, pull it up, push myself up. But I made it.
And I was there with Pat Figueroa, one of the counselors from Camp Jened. In the spring of 1973, we decided we were going to have another demonstration. The bottom line was, we were a small group of disabled people. We were getting very little coverage from the media at the national level, because we didn't have any disabled veterans.
And that was, you know, the time of the Vietnam War. They lied about the war in Vietnam. They lied about every damn thing in the world. They lied about Watergate. And they're lying about how they're treating us.
They're lying about how they're treating the physically disabled and mentally retarded in this country. We wanted to be able to mobilize disabled individuals in DC to express the feelings of the disabled community around the United States. And that in unity we do have strength and that we must expand the pie that we're fighting from so that we don't have to fight each other but that we can all get our adequate services.
That's really what this is getting into. There is a minority in America that has only recently begun to speak up and be heard. They face problems of discrimination and prejudice in employment, education, transportation, and in just about every other aspect of what society considers everyday life. Until the last few years, they suffered mostly in silence, but that's changing. They have begun to organize and to get politically active.
All right! Where do we want it? Now!
Where do we want it? Eventually, Nixon caved in to all the political pressure, and he signs the rehab bill. But they do nothing to enforce Section 504. I had graduated college and went back to live at home in the Bronx.
I was very isolated. I was homeless like a fucking man. I had to take a boat step.
I was an intern at United Sliverpool Poetry and I had an affair. with the bus driver because, you know, I wasn't... I knew you and I didn't want to die of aging.
One night I had this horrible abdominal pain. A surgeon decided it had to be appendicitis. They operated and they got a bigger appendix.
My doctor came in and he gave me a pill and said, you know, I think you might have... I was so proud of myself. But then when I do a battle... The Orbit Chris is so genius and how could I miss a trimmer like that?
And then look at me. Who would want to fuck with me? And so I do. I decided to go back to school and got a master's in human sexuality. And that was my ticket out of the box.
In 1974, I finally graduated high school. I wound up going to UC San Diego, 3,000 miles away. My plan was that I was going to study acoustics so I could do sound for the Grateful Dead. When I got to California, my whole life opened up. I wanted to take advantage of everything.
Trying to learn how to surf. One night I even convinced my friend Doug I could drive his motorcycle. As absurd as it sounds, I really felt like I had overcome my disability.
During my first year in college, I heard that a bunch of people from Camp Jened had moved out to Berkeley. I'd drive up and go to Dead concerts and it seemed like it always bumped into Al Levy. Al was like the Deadhead. The burial was a wild scene. You didn't have to worry about fitting in like you did in San Diego.
There was this whole movement brewing where a group of radical disabled people were like making this new world for themselves. The Center for Independent Living is unique because it is run by the handicapped for the handicapped. A model for the rest of the nation. A center where the severely disabled help themselves.
It's the first time I think that a group of severely disabled individuals have really gotten together to solve some mutual problems. Thank you. It's contacted me to see if I'd be interested in coming out to Berkeley.
I didn't want to go out there by myself. I said to D'Angelo, what do you think about moving out to Berkeley? And we were roommates.
I want to see a feisty group of disabled people all around the world. I mean, a group of people who will not accept no. without asking why. That's really what's so critical about CIL is that, you know, it's not a card that you get handed at the door, but it is kind of a demand that is expected of people in this community. And that is, if you don't respect yourself, and if you don't demand what you believe in for yourself, you're not going to get it. My first experience of finding home was coming to Berkeley and hanging out at CIL.
I had always kind of pretended like I wasn't disabled. You know, I could walk, I would stick the cane under the couch. But the whole time I'm worrying about the minute I have to get up and everybody's going to see me limp around. So I didn't realize how heavy that burden was until I was with people where I didn't have to pretend.
The repair shop has just about everything, even electronic equipment to fine-tune the battery-powered wheelchairs. And the center also provides transportation. Relying on state, local, and federal money, the goal is to make the handicapped self-sufficient.
Nancy D'Anzolma, help you. Uh-huh. Um, let's see.
It shouldn't be any problem finding you a tenant. What I'll do is I'll give you a list of people who want to work in the hours that you need somebody and their phone numbers, OK? OK.
And anything you need, we're here. Excuse me. You want to live in a house?
That's your right. You want a two-bedroom apartment? We'll try to help you find a two-bedroom apartment. And here is how you can apply for money to get attendance paid for.
So do you want me to get anything while I'm out? What? Ice cream?
What else? And candy? When that whole gang of the Camp Jeanette kids started to come, they were like this. Like, so if you socialize with one, like, oh, hey, you want to hang out on Friday night?
Yes, but it always meant one of those people, if not five of those people, were always going to be there. You know, camp kind of traveled with them. There was like the traveling Camp Jeanette show. How did I first hear about it?
Well, obviously I heard about it from Steve, who was out here. Neil had the computer training program. My first week in Berkeley, I got into a monolife year. For the first time in my life, it was very liberating.
They took me to a Halloween party at CIL. I remember that day, it was, oh my God. They were all drunk and carrying on. And these people, all these cripples, were dressed in costumes. And I don't know, I always felt you had to kind of hide yourself.
You didn't want to draw attention. And there they were, like, all proud. It really struck me.
Like, this is different. This is really different. Next we have Steven Hoffman, 28, is a transvestite by trade.
He likes to work with handicapped children and other animals. His ambition is to be a headless amoeba with a lot of large, thickly endowed boyfriends. Down because when you knocked If you're an angie at eight and you haven't arrived at X It's nice to know about you You're really good Don't get too mad I'm such a man, by the light of day, but by night I'm one hell of a lover. I'm just a sweet transvestite, from transsexual Transylvania. Good evening, Judy.
Good to see you again. How has the situation changed since 1973? Are you still as upset and angry as you were then?
I think that what I've tried to do in part is to turn some of that anger around and put it into positive action. And outside of the fact that legislation has been passed, there's been very little actual enforcement. Federal law prohibits discrimination against handicapped persons. An organization of the handicapped claims that law has been ignored.
Today there were demonstrations in 11 regional offices of the Department of Health, Education and Welfare across the nation. Carter had been elected. They had said that the regulations would be adopted.
But when Secretary Califano became head of Health, Education and Welfare, he began to do a review. Handicapped citizens demonstrated at Health, Education and Welfare today. They accused Secretary Califano of weakening and delaying regulations to implement the 1973 law to protect the rights of the handicapped. We have maintained this position for almost three years now, but apparently when Mr. Califano became secretary he said a whole new ballgame.
To us it is not. We're still in the same game. I have reviewed those regulations.
There are some difficult questions. The last administration took two and a half years and decided not to move. I've had two and a half months. Why can't you move now?
What are you waiting for? Because I want to make sure I understand them. Now or never?
Now! Not now, now! Not now, now!
What we were hearing is that lobbyists were coming in wanting to make changes in the regulations. Schools and universities and even hospitals didn't want to have to spend the money to make their buildings accessible. So we believed that there was like an imperative that we had to act quickly.
We were told today, you heard it here, that because of their failures, we are not to have... Our civil rights! protesters vow to stay outside of Calabano's office until he signs the regulations. This coalition is a part of a national movement and we'd like to stick together and continue to fight for our civil rights.
I didn't even know there was a national movement, and I didn't know what a 504 was. I was a girl from Texas when I was 22, just right out of college. I was on my way home one day, and a truck ran me off the road, and so I became a paraplegic. I had all the assumptions and prejudices that people have about people with disabilities and about disabilities.
And suddenly I was one. I've never been around so many people with disabilities and so many different kinds of disabilities all in one place and all chanting about rights. I never really thought about it as applying to me.
And I called Ms. Magazine, and they gave me the assignment. So I went back there with my camera. People who are here in the Bay must stay together. We are the strongest political force in this country.
We are young, we are sympathetic, and we are intelligent. Let's stay together. I was asked to go to the demonstration by my sister, and I said, okay, I'll give it a shot.
And then all of a sudden, someone said, well, let's go in the building, you know, what are we going to do, stand outside? So I headed toward the building. The speeches were over, and I followed this group of people into the building. There must have been 300 people. And they went up to the fourth floor, and they went into the office of the regional director.
Now what's he going to do with all these people in wheelchairs? We are not asking you anything unreasonable. We are asking you to request a telephone call to talk to Joseph Califano. Mr. Labasi, the general counsel for HEW, has been designated as a person that I should discuss these matters with.
The more I sat in this room and got these absolutely non-answers, the angrier I got. And that's when people started really feeling like we couldn't leave because... No one knew what we were talking about, but we knew that they were trying to rescind the regulation. 5 or 6 o'clock came and nobody was leaving. So I figured, okay, we're going to have to spend the night.
Kitty and I and a few others, we just kind of took a vote and said, how many people want to stay overnight? And that's how it started. You know, Judy said, bring a toothbrush. And I was like, OK.
I said, well, Judy, I didn't come prepared. She said, you got to stay here, Ron. You got to stay here.
Go, Mary, go. This is for tonight, okay? How many people in the room cannot sleep on the floor? Bay Area was the most well-organized. We had the expertise to not only have demonstrations, but to sustain them.
Ah, ah, ah! The sit-in at San Francisco's HEW headquarters now is in its third day. Hot water has been turned off on the fourth floor, where the occupation army of cripples has taken over. The FBI cut off the phones.
Like they said, we couldn't have any communication. like okay what do we do and the deaf people went we know what to do someone would sign out the window that's how we communicated back and forth to the people outside the building one right behind me in his sleep right now built us refrigerator. He attached some plastic to an air conditioner and built it out of cardboard and stuff that was around so we've been able to keep a lot of stuff cold.
There were just so many people trying to figure out how to eat, how to wash, where we're gonna get food, where we're gonna get blankets. Brad Lomax was the one who had the idea to call the Black Panthers. Brad could hardly speak but he could gesture and he got his point across. The Panthers would bring a hot meal for dinner, and then they would leave food for breakfast and lunch. For nothing, no money, no nothing.
I ended up, you know, after the meeting, I said to this guy, I said, I don't get it. You're the Black Panther Party, and you don't have a ton of resources. You know, they had a food kitchen in Oakland.
Why are you choosing to feed us? He said to me, you know, you are trying to make the world a better place, and that's what we are about. We are about making the world a better place for everybody.
So if you're going to go to the trouble to stay here and sleep on this floor, we're going to make sure you get fed. You know, that's how we survived. We have a cafeteria, we have a conference room, we have beds all over the place, mattresses, food.
It's incredible. Our support was much broader than just within the disability community. Union members, and other civil rights organizations. We had relationships with local government.
You know, the mayor was clearly in support. One of the secretaries in Sacramento sent down mattresses. Clyde Memorial Church, which was run by a progressive minister. We are a people who believe in liberation!
It was the right place, the right time. One of the women who ran the big lesbian bar in the East Bay came and said, what do you guys need? And we said, oh, we're so tired of being dirty.
And so her partner was a nurse and they went out and bought like a gallon of like shampoo and a gallon of cream rinse and one night just showed up and for three hours, anybody that wanted their hair washed got their hair washed. Oh, Lord, it feels good. Oh. We shall walk with you. We shall walk with you.
We shall walk with you. We shall walk with you. We shall walk with you. You can't imagine what the 504s did and was like, it was camp.
Everything we learned at Crip Camp was what we did there. So many people from Camp Jened, campers, counselors, disabled, non-disabled, found their way into the building. is to read off the list, the names of people who are going to be speaking tomorrow.
There were many different committees that were working on media and food and medical issues and different things like that. Regulations that we agreed to. The January 21st meeting and he is trying to obscure that. Judy made sure everybody gets a chance to speak. The hunger strike, anyone here who wants to make a...
We could not begin a meeting until there was a sign interpreter there. The meetings would go until 3 o'clock in the morning. People have to be engaged and feeling like they made a difference. Otherwise, people weren't going to stay there all that time.
It is revolving into a coalition. The more we talk, the more we discuss, the more we change and regroup, and the more we learn about our own handicap inside of our own coalition. Learning sign language, learning braille, learning about hidden disabilities like epilepsy, arthritis, and learning about all of our disabilities, we will become a tighter and firmer group. The demonstration here is now on its fourth day. It is by far the largest and longest protest ever organized by disabled people in this area.
But the problem is still the same as it was on Tuesday, trying to get the attention of Washington. I'm amazed at how many people stayed and what these people had to endure. Not having a backup ventilator, not having your usual personal care attendant, not having access to catheters.
It's hard enough for me to take care of my body. Here we're talking about quadriplegics who can't turn themselves during the middle of the night to prevent body sores. And to be sleeping on the floor? I mean, that's a recipe for disaster.
It's like the world always wants us dead. Disabled people know that every day of our lives. The world doesn't want us around and wants us dead. We live with that reality, so there's always going to be, am I going to survive? Am I going to push back?
Am I going to fight to be here? That's always true. So if you want to call that anger, I call it kind of drive.
You know, you have to be willing to thrive or you're not going to make it. I can work. My mind functions, my hands function.
Many of us can do it. That's all we're saying. Remove the architectural barriers.
For a number of days, a number of us went on a hunger strike. We were drinking like two or three glasses of liquid a day. I know the pressure on Judy had to be very harsh.
It's a lot of responsibility, and it was Judy who was saying often, one individual at a time, can you stay? Can you stay just one more day? Can you stay one more day?
And that's how they did it, day by day. This building has been occupied for 11 days by a small army of the handicapped. Support outside is increased each day.
The sounds of that support carry inside to the offices of the Department of Health, Education and Welfare. I was at Channel 7, which was on Golden Gate Avenue and just around the corner from the Federal Building. Local media damn near ignored the entire event.
And I was virtually the only one covering it. The entire time. Evan White essentially embedded with us. He did footage of us from beginning to end. I had the immense privilege of being allowed to sit in during the nightly sessions of strategy.
I was in heaven on that kind of story. I just... I like people to make trouble. We were trying to push the agenda forward, and so one of the thoughts was, let's get Congress to come to the building and actually have congressional hearings in the building, because we couldn't leave. The handicap demand that section 504 the Civil Rights Act be signed.
Today their demand for action is heard by two congressmen Philip Burton and George Miller. My statement is one of militancy, my statement is one of support from disabled individuals from around the country. This is the beginning of a civil rights movement and we are proud that you are here to help us launch the civil rights movement which is so long overdue. Califano, the director of HEW, sent this poor man named Eidenberg to represent him at this ad hoc hearing held by Congressman Miller and Burton. Right now a searching analysis is going on in Washington with all deliberate speed tackling such diverse questions as should drug addicts and alcoholics be covered?
To what extent would every school and hospital in this country be required to remodel? And he had come in with 20-something changes, including instituting the shameful doctrine of separate but equal. A school district was allowed to designate one school as the school that children with disabilities and students with disabilities could go to.
What's that? That's separate but equal. We knew it was Califano's little dog and pony show.
He sends this poor guy in to read these words because he's going to put us back in our place. And then he left the room, and Congressman Burton said, Oh, no, no, no, no. Mr. Eidenberg had locked himself into an office, and Burton kicked at the door, and finally Eidenberg came out.
And Burton dragged Eidenberg back into the room, made him sit at the front table facing everybody in the audience so he could listen to our testimony. Somebody's gonna have to pour concrete, somebody's gonna have to knock down some walls, and somebody's gonna have to make school teachers available, and classrooms available. But that is the price that we've set, that we've been willing to pay for 200 years, to make people accessible to the mainstream. Whether there was a Section 504, there was a Brown versus Board of Education, the...
The harassment, the lack of equity that has been provided for disabled individuals, and that now is even being discussed by the administration, is so intolerable that I can't quite put it into words. I can tell you that every time you raise issues of separate but equal, the outrage of disabled individuals across this country, It's going to continue, it is going to be ignited. There will be more takeovers of buildings.
Until finally, maybe you begin to understand our position. We will no longer allow the government to oppress disabled individuals. We want the law enforced. We want no more segregation. We will accept no more discussion of segregation.
And I would appreciate it if you would stop shaking your head in agreement when I don't think you understand what we are talking about. There are moments like where history shifts. Judy's interaction with that man is the moment when things shifted for so many people.
What was Califano thinking with this? Well, he was thinking. He didn't have to pay attention to us. That was instrumental in making the leaders decide, we've got to go to D.C., we've got to go get in his face. Today, a delegation of 25 left San Francisco, heading for the nation's capital, where they hope to present their demands directly to the president.
We are hopeful that the president will see us. We have gotten a lot of support from organizations within the community who are paying our way to go to Washington. And we are really hopeful that we will come back with success and regulation signed as we want them.
At the San Francisco airport, leaving on this journey of determination, Evan White, Channel 7 News, scene. I thought it was important to let them know right off the plane we were not playing. So I said, well, you know, well, what are we going to do now? They says, well, you know, we can sleep until tomorrow.
I says, oh, no, we're not. We're going to go out there and we're going to sit in front of Califano's house and we're going to let him know that this is 504 and we're here. There was no accessible transportation at the time, so the Machinists Union very ingeniously rented a U-Haul truck, plastered their sign on the side of it, and that's how we got around in D.C. And we would sit in darkness as we traveled around, and we wouldn't know where we were until we got there, and they opened up the back and we could see out again.
We went straight to Califano's house and held a Candelot vigil outside of it. The cops came immediately, police cars all around, they saw a bunch of people in wheelchairs and on crutches and they didn't want to fuck with them. So they didn't, they just parked across the way and watched all night.
That morning, when the sun was up, Judy and Evan White and his cameraman were knocking on Califano's door. And he never came out. And somebody said he took off out the back door. The first family used the side door today to leave Washington's First Baptist Church.
The Carters avoided about 20 handicapped persons demonstrating across the street from the door the president normally uses. In Washington today, more than 100 people marched in front of the White House. But it doesn't look as if Carter will see the demonstrators personally, even though they've traveled there from San Francisco for that very purpose. When the group of 22 left, there's still like a ton of us in San Francisco. You know, then the FBI really ratcheted it up.
They really like, there was like 3 a.m. fire alarms and these bomb scares. And our only job, and this was like, you know, Judy, our only job was like, you don't leave until I call you. Yes, we won't leave until you call us.
We were more scared of disappointing Judy Heumann than we ever were of the FBI or the police department arresting us. People in D.C. were very stressed. It should have been a big finale, a big climax.
It should have made something happen, shook something loose, and it didn't. We didn't know what was going to happen. Three times that week, we went 36 hours without sleep.
The leaders just held strong and said, how can you give up? It has to be done. And if not, now, when?
Does anybody know where Dennis'cane is? Does anybody know where Dennis'cane is? Don't smoke it inside. Is that book to sit on the floor?
There's room on the floor here for somebody? Judy, sing a song. Hey, Ellen, is Bob Perkins out there?
I think Mickey went for it. Ask him if he wants to ride in here with us. Okay.
I say amen. Wait a second. I'm sure you can notice it.
One, two, three, four, foot in gear for 504! One, two, three, four, foot in gear for 504! One, two, three, four... I know this may be against protocol, sir, but I've come 3,000 miles.
Could I ask why you did not meet with the demonstrators this week? Well, there's an illegal demonstration going on in San Francisco, and I just don't think it's appropriate to do that. I understand you agreed to meet with him and cancel that. Is that true? Thank you.
He said he never made such an agreement, this being an illegal... Contingent of an illegal sit-in. Evan White was ready to send all his materials back to San Francisco to Channel 7, and there was a technician strike.
ABC stations all over the country were not getting very much news, so the guys at ABC, the strikebreakers, put it to every ABC station in the country. Evan White in Washington, D.C. All morning here for Final Four! Well, they started getting a little blowback.
People like Joe Califano didn't give a shit if it was on in San Francisco. But it's everywhere. Thank you.
Yeah. Watch your shadow. As it happened, without any fanfare, without letting the press know, or we didn't even know, Califano suddenly signed the regulations the way we wanted them.
I think that this calls for a revolution of attitudes and thinking and activities on behalf of millions of American citizens. When it was over, Dusty Irvine shared bread with her friends. She had been on a hunger strike.
This was the first food she had eaten in 23 days. In Washington, spokesmen for the handicapped were pleased. The Congress, the press, the American public has seen that we have stamina, strength, intelligence, as anyone else does. That disabled individuals, because they're disabled, are not by definition sick. The new laws say every handicapped child in the country has a right to be educated in public schools.
Something the handicapped have been waiting for, for a long time. It should have been implemented 20 years ago. Are you happy? though or apprehensive or what?
I'm very happy yes this shows that the country is waking up finally after all the pressure and after all the agonizing and after the humiliating treat people were treated in Washington DC and in San Francisco We literally believed we could beat the US government. Not only did we believe it, but we fucking did it. You know, I mean we did it and it's like... and we did it together. And what the 504 sit-in did is it took all these people, deaf people and people with intellectual disabilities and learning disabilities and blind people.
I mean, there was this really wide range of people. And we were all going, well, I never heard that story before, but I believe you that that's your experience of being locked up in a mental ward. I believe you that that's your experience in special ed. I believe you. We were witnessing each other's truths.
We were giving each other, like, I see you and I believe you. Didn't have a lot of self-esteem when I became disabled. So you can see why. When 504 told me I had value, it hit home. I feel very, very proud to be part of this community.
Very proud. We will prove and empower and commit this, that we the shutouts are the shutouts. We the hens.
Supposedly the frail and the weak, now we can wage a struggle at the highest level of government and win! A year after the 504 sit-in, I graduated college. I finally got to join my Camp Jeanette friends up in Berkeley. I had gotten my dream job as the resident sound designer at the Berkeley Repertory Theatre. But the first two years I worked there, there was no wheelchair access to the sound booth.
There were these outdoor steps I had to climb. By the end of winter, there were like mushrooms growing out of the carpet. But because of the regulations being signed, the physical world around me began to become more accessible.
Funding from Section 504 has led to sweeping changes in transportation, health care, education, and job opportunities. Universities must now make their buildings and facilities accessible to the disabled and provide interpreters and readers for the deaf and the blind. All housing projects and public buildings using federal money must be made accessible to people in wheelchairs.
It's really out in the streets of Berkeley that you see the results of the disabled civil rights movement. Curb ramps designed by wheelchair users allow travel almost anywhere in the city. The implications are enormous.
In 1980, Berkeley Rep opened a new, larger theater. Because of 504, that new building had to be accessible. As the barriers around me started to disappear, I realized that this bar I had set for myself, that I had to overcome my disability, it had taken a toll on me.
It was denying a part of who I am. Ready, sound, report. I would like to say that I'm glad to be here tonight, but...
We're behind you. Yeah, it's alright. You know, on the one hand, I'm sitting here feeling like I should say everything is wonderful. And I don't feel that's at all what we talked about. And I'm very tired of being thankful for accessible toilets.
I really am tired of feeling that way when I basically feel that... If I have to feel thankful about an accessible bathroom, when am I ever going to be equal in the community? For decades we have piled deficit upon deficit, mortgaging our future and our children's future for the temporary convenience of the present.
On May the 7th, Congress was due to vote on budget proposals. The future for disabled... The disabled programs look bleak.
Not only money, but the hard-won legislation's at stake. You know, it wasn't too long ago we had made this trek so we could implement the laws, and now you hear, three years later, trying to say, don't repeal them. It's amazing how it works in this system.
Disabled protesters closed down a street in St. Louis, Missouri on Sunday. It was just a continual struggle to make sure that the 504 regulations were enforced. And on top of that, 504 only covered organizations that were receiving federal money. If you do not stop, you will be arrested.
Most public transportation was not accessible. Employers could still discriminate. And private businesses didn't have to do anything at all. We needed a civil rights law of our own. It is the latest struggle for civil rights and integration into the mainstream of American life.
For more than 40 million Americans who are physically or mentally disabled, a new era is dawning. A bill nearing passage in Congress would mandate equal access for the disabled to employment, transportation, and public places. This legislation is a bill of rights for the disabled, and America will be a better and fairer nation because of it.
I'll take a life! We as disabled persons are here today to ensure for the class of disabled Americans the ordinary daily life that non-disabled Americans too often take for granted. The right to ride a bus or a train, the right to...
any job for which we are qualified, the right to enter any theater, restaurant, or public accommodation. The passage of this monumental legislation will make it clear that our government will no longer allow the largest minority group in the United States to be denied equal opportunity. To do any less is immoral. This morning, Senator Tom Harkin, whose brother is deaf, delivered a speech in sign language urging passage of this bill.
But in the end, it was the disabled themselves who made it happen. Let the shameful wall of exclusion finally come tumbling down. God bless you all.
The ending was a wonderful treatment. I had a whole Korean fog. But it was only a tiny tip of the iceberg.
You could piss a lot, but until you change society's attitudes, that won't mean much. Sugar Mountain With the barkers and the colored balloons You can't be twenty on Sugar Mountain Though you're thinking that you're leaving there too soon You're leaving there too soon. This whole perimeter was where the bunks were. It's so noisy at the fair, but all your friends are there.
Oh my God, they don't recognize this at all. Where is the camp? Is it all gone? On Sugar Mountain With the barkers and the colored balloons You can't be twenty on Sugar Mountain Oh, you're thinking that you're leaving there too soon You're leaving there too soon Coming back to this place as if it was hollowed ground And you almost I always kind of want to say just, you know, thank you. I almost want to get out of my wheelchair and kiss the fucking girl.
Is that Denise? Denise? You can hear the words she wrote as you... This was an open field, grass, and our baseball diamond was here.
I couldn't get you ever to imagine where we would go. Go! The Jacobsons live in Oakland, California.
Neil is a bank vice president. Denise is a writer. How about five kisses?
All your life did you want to be a daddy? Yeah, always. Even if it's a big prison, it's always, it doesn't care about me. I'm dead.
I'm his dead. Oh, to live on. You sleep by me. You sleep by me. You sleep by me.
I'm literally in Oak Ridge with your wife and going wherever she says you want to go. You cannot imagine. No way. The freedom that this camp provided definitely influenced the rest of my dad's life.
I mean, him being my dad, he didn't really want to expose too much of his rebellious, kind of punk hippie attitude and everything. But to connect with that side of him was just really incredible. To the people who you met And it's your first cigarette If I close my eyes I can't hear or make any sound You can't be twenty on sugar mountain Though you're sinking at your...
You're leaving our children so You're leaving our children so I can't hear Larry's voice I'm very proud of everybody. There needed to be like a moment in time when the spark started to change. And that's why the Judy Heumanns of the world are so important. Judy, you were a total pain in the ass. But I loved you anyway.
Judy, what is the most important that has happened to you within the last 20 years? The most important thing for me has been the creation of the Disabled Rights Movement that I feel we can call an international right. rides movement.
I'll give you a hug. Yes. This was always the best way for me to hug Nancy.
Oh yeah, I'm there because I can't see Jimmy today, that's my first weekend in the city. Without a sail, just like a ship, without a sail, without a sail. But I'm not worried because I know But I know we can shake it I know But I know we can shake it I know we can shake it But I know I know we can take it. I said. But I found.
I found rain, sunshine, yes I did, but I found rain, but I found rain, then I looked for my friends, but I looked for my friends. They all walked away When they walked away Through all my sorrows Through all my sorrows You can hear me say I'm just like a dream Without a dream With me Oh, where to lay Good, happy, with my We've got to save We've been over there Just like the sea We've got to save Just like a machine Just like a machine Lord, no, I don't have a plan Just like a machine