[Music] in part six chapter eight of crime and punishment sonia is relieved to find that Raskolnikov has not killed himself rambling and distracted he asks for her little wooden cross she gives it to him but Raskolnikov thinks bitterly it would be more appropriate if he wore illyana's cross he snaps at Sonia for crying he prays and crosses himself at her request but feels numb he yells at Sonia to let him go alone to the police not even saying goodbye Raskolnikov is on an emotional rollercoaster and he does not really want to go but his feet keep moving why did he go to Sonia he denies he loves her he rationalizes that he wanted to see her suffer in the Haymarket Square Raskolnikov wants to avoid other people but he is drawn to the crowd something he's felt before here in a heightened state of awareness he notices everything around him Raskolnikov recalls Sonia's words and weeping he bows down and in a bit of religious ecstasy kisses that built the earth with bliss and rapture weeping with joy he realizes that Sonia secretly followed him and realizes that she will always stay with him Raskolnikov arrives at the same police station where he fainted he has decided to confess not to Porfiry but to ilya petrovitch the police lieutenant who suspected him in the first place the lieutenant talks non-stop barely letting Raskolnikov speak and he apologizes for even suspecting Raskolnikov rust comecon was shocked to learn of svidrigaïlov's suicide svidrigaïlov left a note saying only that he was in his right mind and that no one was to blame for his death relieved of the burden of svidrigaïlov's threat but feeling suffocated Raskolnikov leaves the police without confessing however he sees Sonia outside who looks at him despairingly he returns to the police station and finally at long last confesses it was I who killed the old pawnbroker woman and her sister Lizaveta we and acts and hold them you