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Exploring Connection and Emotional Clarity

i love everything that you do i can't believe I genuinely can't believe it took me as long as it did to find your work it's Charlie Hooper from Charisma on Command that said you'd been a gateway drug for him to a bunch of other stuff and um I get the sense you're kind of an underground hero in sort of the selfwork world who's now becoming uh increasingly less underground um because of you yeah and Open AI you're now the head of what at Open AI uh no not head um I just I'm working there maybe like 25 days this year but I'm um working with the compute and research teams so basically the management of the of the folks who are creating the technology yeah it's uh it's great work the the the cool thing is that when I think about generally like the creation of technology or the creation of art or the creation of this podcast it's a reflection of the consciousness of the people who are creating it and so to be able to be in there and work about with consciousness and how the cultures consciousness is and how the people interact with each other and how they view themselves to me is a complete honor to be able to work there with them because you're further up than all of the things that are going to come after that all of the product the branding the way that they deploy this stuff yeah that's interesting yeah and and they're just sweethearts i can't tell you once that news came out so many people came to me and you know with a lot of fear there's a lot of fear in the AI space and and I understand why people have the fear not the both the people on the outside and the inside like oh this is a revolutionary technology what's going to happen we don't actually know so fear arises and and I think what surprised me about it is just like especially open AI just that folks are just sweeties like they're just like such lovely humans Yeah what drives you what are you trying to achieve with your work yeah so so what I would say is that generally what we've we have this epidemic of stress and lack of enjoyment in in our society right now and and the thing about that is that it's corrosive both on an individual and on a societal level so individually it means that we do not learn as well it means that we make bad decisions it means that we um don't get the world that we want it means that we're uncomfortably living it means we die faster all those things because we're stressed and we're not enjoying life but on a society level if I'm stressed I mean the world's a threat that's why we stress as mammals right so oh my gosh the world is a threat and if I ask act like the world is a threat then eventually if I'm like you're a threat you're a threat you're a threat eventually you're going to be a threat to me if I treat you like an [ __ ] you're going to act like an [ __ ] eventually if I treat you like a threat you're going to act like a threat eventually so you're looking at our world right now and it's whole bunch of stressed out people treating everybody like threats and everybody's starting to act like a threat mhm doesn't matter whether you're looking at politics or marriages or relationships or so there's this just so to me then the question is like how do we work on that stress that and and increase the enjoyment and typically the the way people look at that is I'm too busy the world is too complicated the politics are doing this like there's a big unknown future I'm you know I have my phone and that's distracting me so they put it all outside of themselves and that's actually they they contribute like having a cell phone buzzing all the time is going to increase your stress no doubt but they're not the actual cause of the stress the cause of the stress is three things and then this is where I get this is where I'm really like this is where my work comes in the first thing is um repressed emotions causes a [ __ ] ton of stress in humans second thing is lack of connection causes a huge amount of stress and the third thing which I think is most relatable for people is the negative selft talk causes a lot of stress so if there's a voice in your head that is constantly criticizing you you're constantly under attack that's constant stress that's like a war zone in your head and so so that's where my work is my work is in changing the voice in the head and and and the thing about the voice in the head is that I think most people the way they think about it is I want it to stop or I'm going to be in self-improvement i'm going to improve myself i'm going to improve but that's just more abuse so I flip from self-improvement to self-standing right today we were starting this thing and you're looking at the thing you understand the videos and you're and it's because you have understanding of all that stuff you didn't say I've got to learn you better better I got to be better I got to be you're just like you learned the stuff and then it happens but somehow when we interact with ourselves it's you got to be better you got to be better you got to be better instead of how do I understand myself and then all of that changes just by the nature of understanding and in emotions what you'll hear a lot of in the in the sphere is emotional regulation emotional management and this weird thing happens in our brain that it's like we either have um we are either controlled by our emotions or we're controlling our emotions and neither of them lead to emotional clarity one repression like right now if I said to you stop feeling all of your emotions i'm going to ask you to try to do it stop feeling all of your emotions your muscles constricted your face just got red that is stress that is what stress is yep so self-man management of your emotions is a tightening down of the system and so instead we think about it as emotional clarity and so what that means is that if you have a tube let's say of emotion moving through you and let's call that this emotion particularly anger and you crank it this way it's like nice shirt and if you crank it this way it's [ __ ] you you son of a [ __ ] but if it's actually like open that anger is clarity it's um it's boundaries it's Gandhi it's Martin Luther King that's what that anger looks like and so but you don't get that through management you get that through welcoming and loving the emotion so that's the emotional side of it and then um the last side is just connection so whether it's the longest study Harvard ever did that shows that connection creates better health outcomes more happiness or just the fact that if you do the aams razor of connection when you're thinking about any problem that you have it almost always helps you solve the problem how so how do I get a better podcast oh how do I connect with the people better how do I um better relationship with my wife oh I'm going to connect better because connection is what humans actually want so any problem that you have that's human-based which is most of the problems that we have so it's not it it even can help you let's say you're a hedge fund manager you're programming you know the next AI you know and I know that if you're playing sports or if you're programming your level of self connection is going to influence how well you perform we call it flow but it's really just connection m so if you look at connection it's just very productive but it also is what we are drawn to as humans like when my daughter was like not only like I think she was like 18 months old it makes me misty thinking about this like if I came in all amped my nervous system was all amped from she would like sit on my lap and she'd grab my face and she'd be like I love you daddy she's like I I need to feel that connection with you yeah now she makes fun of me before yeah yeah yeah how the tables have turned exactly um you talked about the negative inner voice that critical selft talk where's that come from typically it comes from u somebody who was raising us typically and that could be as a matter of fact that same daughter and I were listening to our podcast on voice in the head and she's like I she was 10 years old she's like I know where my voice in the head comes from i'm like she's like my teacher and my grandma like she just like named the people she could hear in her head um yeah so it's basically stories that we were told when we were younger so if mom and dad are mad at you and you're you're thinking to yourself oh that has to be something I did it doesn't have to do with you know at 8 you're not like it's their coffee habit or you know they had a bad day at work you're like so then you start oh I shouldn't do that i have to do this and you're basically trying to figure out how to exist in the world and this voice starts developing in your head it's incredibly nonproductive voice it takes so much energy like I think somebody I think it's the Cleveland I think it's Cleveland Clinic i could have that wrong but they say that there's 50 60,000 thoughts that a person has a day most of those repetitive many of those negative and it's like it frees up so much energy when that stuff changes yeah it's uh it's interesting thinking about how kids they they can't change their environment so they have to learn to exist within it you know you you don't have a passport and a bank account and the Uber app and and you know Airbnb to be able to go and get yourself away you don't have Yeah you don't even know what that means like what does it mean to do this you you don't even know if you're in the right when your parents say that you're not in the right it's like no no no that's not what it should be and that and you go well the the case for the defense seems to be woefully underfunded here you know the case for the prosecution has all of the benefits of being an adult and being the one that's in command and then being two of them and only one of you um and Yeah and it's normal this is the only thing that you've ever known so it's completely normalized you're not even getting the idea of like oh it could be different is this is just it and and we're geared neurologically speaking we're geared to to be programmed in those years so you know the brain waves theta brain wave is a brain wave that basically is the programming brain wave right it's like is that place between awake and asleep is when adults feel it typically um but kids feel it most of the time from 0 to 7 years old so in human development terms they're basically in that place that is spongy yeah exactly and it's why they believe in fairy tales and Santa Claus and all that stuff because they're in that world and so it's like the place where we get programmed and so that's why if you have certain modalities of healing there's some that is like I can describe everything that's wrong with me but nothing has changed that's because you're working in the head if you're working more intellectually if you're working in what that theta brainwave space you're like I don't really can't describe the whole thing but [ __ ] my world's changed and that's why those when those modalities often times the ones that work really effectively are the ones that you can't quite explain what the [ __ ] happened stuff like breath work perhaps yeah exactly yeah yeah that rip you out of that I have control here I am self- authoring making things go yeah exactly yeah what about self-reliance i feel like there's an issue of too much self-reliance a lot of people want to be highly agentic they want to self- author they want to be able to take control i don't need to be able to rely on anybody else but is there such a thing as too much self-reliance yeah so I think it's a staged you know it's just the way that you like where you're developmentally so there are some people in the world who feel like they don't have any control over their life like they're tossed and turned so self-reliance there is probably a great thing to learn right that that's a great moment for them to learn oh I have choice i I can command I do have the ability to make my world what I want it to be but then at some point that weighs down then you're [ __ ] I'm responsible for everything and you know and I can't rely on anybody and that's typically where those super self-reliant people and I'm speaking about us here like both of us grew up this way on some level there was some learning earlier on in our lives that it was um I I am alone in this there's some I'm alone in this and that makes us I don't want to feel so this is where the emotional thing comes in i don't want to feel that deep aloneeness couldn't feel it as a kid don't want to feel it now and therefore my reaction to not feel it is self-reliance and so that really slows us down because you can only accomplish so much as yourself you can accomplish a tremendous amount as a team but you can't do that in a team where you're always always alone feeling like it's all on you we all have had bosses like that they're horrible to work with mhm they start yelling "I'm all alone in this why can't anybody [ __ ] blah blah blah blah blah?" That's like ultra self-reliance instead of actually realizing that this is something that I teach CEOs all the time everybody here at this company wants you to feel like that they're doing a good job everybody in this company cares that you think they're doing a good job every everybody in this company didn't didn't wake up and say "You know what I want to do i want to go and have a shitty time at work today i want to really underfucking perform." Nobody wakes up saying that and yet you feel all alone in this because CEOs are typically very self-reliant yeah so it's a blessing and a curse it's just what stage you're in what would be an indication to somebody in their personal life that they are overly self-reliant what would be the sort of behaviors thought patterns ways that they show up things that they do typically it's I'm alone in this it's that feeling of oh I'm I'm depend on somebody c they're not there for me again c I've been abandoned again it's that feeling i it has to be on me i have to do it mhm so I had a I had a a client have a client who worked with one of the biggest Silicon Valley narcissists and every week it was review time and they would just yell at her just yell at her and her team and then they would go to the next team and yell at them and their team and then go to the next team and yell and the team and one day she just looked at him and said "Hey I see that what you are saying your wisdom is really important and I want you to know that everybody in this room wants you to get your vision met it's just hard for us to do it when you're yelling at us and he never yelled at her again because she addressed the actual underlying thing which is you're not alone and we want to help you mhm mhm and so if you're dealing with somebody who has that self-reliance that's the the solve is to say "Hey I see what you care that how much you care about this thing i see that you really want this and I want to help you." If you want to help them I mean don't be don't be inauthentic about it yeah and that's the solve of working with somebody like that if you address the core underlying issue that's there then you'll solve it it seems to me uh looking at your work that a lot of the solutions or a lot of the answers come back to the same uh the same endpoint which is some variant of soften up open your heart yeah so that's that's actually so that's because of those three things I was talking about connection benefits from softening up and opening your heart like that's how we are going to connect i'm not going to connect with you but I'm like that's not going to create the connection it is also the result and we talked about this last time but joy is the matriarch of a family of emotions and she won't come into a house that her children aren't welcome and so if you actually welcome and allow for emotional clarity allow for that emotional movement that you're neither either taken by it or controlling it then the natural outcome is that softening mhm and if you aren't beating the [ __ ] out of yourself in your head then the natural outcome is the softening so that's Yeah so that's how it works exactly i think for a lot of people in the modern world they've stealed themselves against pain against uh being open uh vulnerability uh this sort of fear of needing anyone I don't want to need anybody if I need somebody then that means that they can take away from me something which is necessary right and and how am I going to operate that's my life support system but if I if my life support system is completely endogenous and you know I've got a solar panel on my back and I can just continue to track even if I move more slowly even if it's more miserable even if I feel alone even if I'm not supported and I'm detached yeah at least it can't ever be taken away from me i had this insight this thought one of the reasons that um people continue to prioritize their careers over relationships is because only they can leave their career but not only they can leave the relationship that somebody else can exit a relationship that hurts yeah yeah why does that hurt oh just that like um the idea that the lack of vulnerability will bring you happiness i think it steals you against the potential for unhappiness perhaps would be the way that people see it yes exactly but it ensures it yeah yeah yeah well you guarantee failure privately by not exposing yourself to failure publicly right it's like I know that if I if I stick to this particular route and this is you know the the the person hard charging chasing after their career this is what comes first and you think well what about like what are you doing this for what what's the what's the outcome that you're looking to get here yeah you want recognition and validation and all the rest of it it's like you've you've got it in the person that you lie next to at bed every night like you've got it in the kid that's you know 10 ft above you in the next room why are you seeking all of this validation from people who if you stopped doing what you did would stop giving a [ __ ] about you whereas the people that are in the house around you don't care about what you do they only care about who you are and you're trading people who care about you for who you are for people who care about you for what you do and I think the reason is that's what makes me sad that's the thing that hurts people chasing happiness and and only creating their own misery in it i think it's a and I understand it it is an easy route to avoid something being taken away from you because it's only you that can stop driving on the mission right but the you are playing when you're doing a a career you're playing tennis by hitting a ball against the wall and for as long as the wall doesn't break which you know it's going to take a very long time for you to do that with a tennis ball you can keep playing whereas a relationship is you playing tennis with somebody else and if that somebody else decides I don't want to play tennis with you anymore Yeah that there's a degree of vulnerability there that makes you think well I'm just going to focus all of my attention on the career side of stuff because that means that at least it can't be stopped unless I decide to kill the music yeah the the two things that yes I agree that's the thought process the the two things that I think are being miscalculated there is just the idea of human needs so when you're self-reliant human needs in your mind exist as water food shelter you know maybe having some money when you're not self-reliant you realize human needs and so there's not the need to survive there's the need to thrive and humans can't thrive without connection people can't thrive without communication with a sense of safety there's a whole bunch of other needs that are there just to thrive right and so that's the first miscalculation the second miscalculation they have is that that heartbreak can't create more happiness every time you allow yourself your heart to break every time you allow your heart to break it increases your capacity to love the same how so uh uh so uh my buddy my buddy uh gets in this relationship uh great relationship he's like heavy drinker at the time he's got a business it's kind of doing okay he's like he's he's uh doing reveation on uh Indian tribe he's like doing this stuff and this woman breaks up with him and he asks me you know what should I do and he has this long trip from Flagstaff to Yuma i'm like every I just want you to mourn like cry ridiculous cry on the way there and on the way back so that's twice a week for a couple hours and he calls me a couple days later he's like "Man the voices coming out of my like I'm whailing i sound like like who knew that I could like make these sounds?" And uh 6 months later he's in shape 6 months later his business is thriving 6 months later he's his like his home life is like better he's like everything is better about his life and the next relationship he got into was twice as healthy because he mourned the thing and and then the way he describes it is that I started mourning the relationship and then I mourned everything that got me into the relationship all the things I learned all the things that I thought were true that allowed me to put up with the stuff that I put up with or not speak my truth or not say the things that were important to me in that relationship and so if we allow ourselves to feel that grief it totally changes how we interact with the world and another example of this is um my wife and I we've been married 26 years and it's maybe seven I don't know how many times now but every once in a while we'll be in a fight and our process now is we'll just mourn the end of the marriage we'll go and cry and just be like "It's not going to work." can just fully mourn the marriage so that we can show up and say the things that we actually want to say that are our truth because why can't you say them without mourning the end of the marriage because you're scared of the you're scared of the end of the marriage right how many things have you do not say in a relationship because you're scared of their going to react they're going to abandon you they're going to leave you they're going to get mad at you right we walk on eggshells because of the emotional response of the other if I fully grieve the end of the marriage then I can act i'm like I've already felt it i'm already I'm already through it now I can be myself it's the same way that the samurai or the stoics or or uh the debent book of living and dying over death you just go through the thing and then you're like because what we're avoiding is the emotional experience we're not avoiding the actual thing how so a big high achiever thing that people all fear oh I'm going to go homeless right if I don't like keep on going I'm going to go homeless so if I said to somebody you're yeah you're going to be homeless but you're never going to be happier like the joy that you're going to feel is going to be amazing that level of connection you're going to feel so good about yourself now what the mind's going to go that can't happen if I'm homeless what is there to be afraid of but what is there to be afraid of cuz we're actually scared of the emotional result of things not the actual thing itself in other news you've probably heard me talk about Element before and that's because frankly I'm dependent on it for the last 3 years I've started my morning every single day with Element it's a tasty electrolyte drink mix with everything that you need nothing that you don't it's got a sciencebacked electrolyte ratio of sodium potassium and magnesium with no sugar no coloring no artificial ingredients or any other junk and it plays a critical role in 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those things so generally if you're walking on eggshells it's one of two ways either I'm going to break the person if I say my truth and that means you're dealing with somebody who's more passive aggressive if you're dealing with somebody who's more aggressive then you're worried about them getting angry at you and so you're trying to manage them and if you're managing them you're not in your own truth mhm so in your own truth you're going to say your truth in loving open heart and you're going to deal with the consequences of it and if you don't you get resentment that's where the resentment comes from where does passive aggression come from a person who's not able to be aggressive so so if if I'm in a doing a workshop and someone gets passive aggressive with me I'm like okay just get angry so it means that anger was bad in their childhood that and so I can't be angry so I'm going to go nice dress i'm not going to actually or I'm going to be late or I'm going to not call you when I say I'm going to call you all the things that passive aggressive people do the thing about passive aggression is that the people who are passive aggressive often don't know they're doing it sometimes they do but often times they don't know they're doing it what they feel like the person who's self-reliant feels alone the passive aggressive person feels like uh they're stuck they feel like a like I can't I I can't get out of this situation and so the only thing I can do is dig away yeah dig away which by the way is what we do with ourselves that's how the voice in the head works the exact same way so some part of our voice in the head that we hear and we can really go with is you should work out more i mean you probably don't do that but but you should work out more and then then there's this other part that like is like yeah maybe I won't go to the gym i'm gonna and so we actually have the same relationship inside of us and if that relationship inside of us changes and the relationship externally changes mhm yeah so if you don't accept your own passive aggression internally you won't accept it in the outside world yeah i think I had this idea of shadow sentences that a lot of the time people are scared of saying what it is that they want or what it is that they need so instead of pointing at it directly they sort of gesture in in the direction of it it's sort of it's over there they sort of leave it to hang in the air a little bit like sort of dropping a fart and then leaving the room I suppose or you know like shout people say this about Lacroy you know the sparkling water it's so lightly flavored that they say if you're drinking the lemon one it's like somebody shouted the word lemon in the next room while it was being built and that's what shadow sentences make me think about you know the sort of um phrases said through closed doors and and thick walls it's like what was hang is that and then you end up with the Well I mean it's culpably deniable and the reason that I I think it feels safe to be passive aggressive in that way or to do use these shadow sentences is that if you don't specifically ask for something the denial of the thing doesn't feel quite as bad right you go I didn't actually ask for it so they've got culpable deniability in uh disappointing me in not giving me what it is that I want and my needs don't feel quite as um spiked at because they weren't fully rebuffed because I didn't actually ask for the thing that it is that I was after right a and the the worst part is that it's you're less likely to get it because if you're worried about the reaction of asking for what you want then you're going to ask for it in in a weird way m so if I'm scared you're going to get angry at me I'll be like "Oh yeah." So I was thinking I was kind of would love it if we could you know do a thing and that's like I don't want I don't want that no you know I I want to be met with somebody who's in themselves and so so not only is it not being direct it also makes it an increased likelihood that you're not going to get the thing you want which is which is brutal yes yeah but it's such a vulnerable thing to just ask directly for what you want mhm people like that is a really as a matter of fact so yesterday I'm uh I'm with a a guy who I've worked with for a long time and he's showing me his dating app and in his dating app he has a question just tell me one thing that you want like that's his prompt like what one one thing that you want and I was like what percentage of women answer that question he's like that's about 5% i'm like that's probably where you're going to find your woman m who can actually own what that means that she's done the work that she can actually own her want mhm yeah so yeah it just happened the other day defensiveness you mentioned that why do people get defensive why do people get defensive because they're protecting their ego they think that they're they and and they don't even actually know what they're protecting typically um so anything that you can get defensive about is is true about you so like what you could tell me I'm stupid i can think of a way I'm stupid you can tell me I'm a dick i can think of a way I'm a dick you can tell me I'm wrong i can think of six ways I'm wrong like there's nothing you could say to me that isn't [ __ ] true so what am I defending so I have to actually believe that there's a me to defend to be defensive it means I have to be in my head i can't be in my heart if I'm in my heart there's nothing to defend like there it could hurt oh god that hurts like why are you saying that ouch i'll say ouch to that mhm but there's nothing to defend like what like who am I proving it to what am I like what like what what exactly am I defending that's a anytime I see somebody defense I'm like what exactly are you defending and that really throws people because they can't find it yeah it's interesting i suppose sometimes people inject themselves into situations well you know defensiveness when somebody is being attacked so to speak uh is I guess one level of it but a degree of defensiveness which is not even necessarily about that person it's like hey this thing happened and it made me feel sad and then defensiveness comes out from the other person it's this sort of injection of them into you or into the situation yeah yeah that way yeah okay so there's one thing that it rhymes with the voice in your head if you say something to me that makes me defensive whether it's at me or not at me it rhymes with something that I say in my head to myself i'm not good enough i'm not worthy right yeah exact or I shouldn't eat wheat like you're like you say to me uh yeah I've given up gluten and I get defensive it means there's something in me who's also like yeah my diet crap yeah exactly so so it's rhyming with something in my head is one of the one of the things that's that we're defensive against and if you think about it this way this is a key to like unlocking the way the negative selft talk works is that you're doing you do that same thing with yourself again you your voice tells you this you should do this and then there's a defensiveness that happens and that keeps that whole loop cycling like there there's a resistance to force and when we try to force ourselves we resist against it and so that just keeps the whole thing in place and it's why which is typically why shame is a emotion that stagnates anything that you're ashamed about is something that you're going to continue doing so if I said to you write down the five things that you've told yourself you should do for the last 10 years and you haven't and you haven't changed or you haven't done I guarantee you there's shame on all those things i guarantee you that you tell yourself you should do all of those things because shame stagnates and it's why self-improvement doesn't work as well as self-standing because if you're shaming yourself to improve if you're on yourself to improve that force will be resisted mhm mhm and it happens between people and it happens within yourself yeah the desire that the sort of tendency that we all have to whip ourselves into submission to think well if I just beat myself hard enough and again that rhymes with the voice in the head you know if you're very self-reliant if you're the sort of person that's got hard charging type A insecure overachiever um you go well this this seems to it's got me places in other areas of my life right so maybe that's the way that I should show up in my relationship maybe that's you know as soon as the partner says something which it kicks one of the trip wires that lay in my head you go well you know yeah that that is right but to sit with the huh what if I am this thing like what if that what if what if that is the case not what it is absolutely [ __ ] true there's nothing you could say say something to me that isn't true about me not physically obviously you could say like I'm 6' n but like there there's no part of humanity that I don't encompass mhm liar yeah i can think of it like anything it's absolutely true mhm so the idea that to be defensive against it is it's just you know it's it's almost like admitting when you're defensive you're almost admitting like yeah I'm really ashamed about that mhm which is actually a really cool thing if you're working if you're like if I'm with my wife or I'm with my kid and I see them get defensive I see what actually is happening is they're in shame and I address the shame so in a relationship if I see somebody getting defensive I'll say like "Oh there's nothing in me that wants you to feel bad about this thing that I just said there's nothing in me that wants you to feel like you should be ashamed or that you've done anything wrong." and I see how much you're trying and then I see them like how I see how much you're trying i see how much you care about this thing i see how you want that to be different and the whole the fight just goes away because all that's happening is two people throwing shame back at each other in a fight you should be ashamed no you should be ashamed no you should be ashamed and one person is thinking "Oh I'm defending myself." And the other person's thinking "Oh I'm defending myself." But this person's thinking you're attacking me and this person's thinking you're attacking me but it's just two people defending themselves from shame and then the other person's taking it as an attack and all that needs to be done is I see you and I don't want you to be ashamed and if they if you say that with an open heart and they can see it there's what what there's nothing left to fight over so that's uh an a way to interject as the person speaking to the one that's maybe a little more defensive at least in this situation what about uh accepting that or what how can people get over their own defensiveness how can people become less defensive in themselves yeah so the way I think about shifting behavior is that there's three this is going to be a long answer to your question but I think it it's really useful there's three ways there's three brains at play right there's the um the human brain prefrontal cortex there's the mamleian brain which is the emotional um part of our system and then there's the reptilian brain which is the nervous system part of our system and if you don't address the change on all three levels then it's the change isn't particularly going to stick so you really want to address it on all three levels so if you find yourself defensive the first one is intellectually find that it's true intellectually just go I know that whatever they said there is truth to it and find the truth in it and so that kind of calms the intellectual piece of it what the emotional thing is happening is that if you're in a defensive place you're in shame there's you think there's something wrong with you and so usually what shame is doing is stagnating an emotion underneath it so if you can feel the emotion that's underneath the shame and fully allow like welcome that in not accept I will accept this emotion it's like I'm welcoming this emotion in and feeling it then that's the emotional side of it and then and like I said we make decisions to feel certain ways right we're we don't want to be homeless because we don't want to feel a certain way and then there's the nervous system and the nervous system is telling I'm not safe i'm under attack and so if you can just come to your senses literally feel like rub your legs or just put your attention on the bottom of your feet anything where you're where you're coming to your senses it will calm the nervous system down and those are the three ways of doing it m yeah you say if you're scared of feeling an emotion you're already in it yeah yeah what's that mean yeah uh so there's if I am scared of feeling something then I am I don't know how to say it any clearer actually I'm old again yeah I was about to define it by saying just restating it uh if there is an emotion that you don't want to feel and there's that it means that you've already tasted it to not to not want it the problem is that you you often intellectually we don't understand that we are in in the emotion so especially if you were brought up like I was like deeply in my head so I had to learn that I was scared but by the way my mind worked so I was in binary thinking anytime I was in binary thinking I'm like "Oh that's fear." Because I actually couldn't feel the system so if you take a kid who is physically abused and you put a quarter in one hand without telling him and a key in another hand they won't be able to tell you which is which because they've learned to cut off the sensations of their body and it's the same thing if you were emotionally put through it call it abused or just told emotions weren't okay you will learn to stop feeling those emotions and so a lot of times we don't actually know we're in the emotion that's happening but if you're scared of that thing it's a great signal of the emotion it's a great signal you're in it and you're resisting it and that's what the fear is actually doing mhm mhm yeah that's interesting yeah i'm scared to be abandoned means you're already abandoning yourself right that moment in the relationship where you're not saying your true thing you're scared of abandon me you're already in it that that self-reliant person who is who is scared of being left alone in or having to do it all by themselves they're already left alone and already having to do it by themselves mhm mhm yeah the thing that you fear has already come to pass yeah and you've been part of the architect that's put it together as well emotionally yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah live with it long enough and the actual thing will happen too mhm yeah uh when your thinking is binary fear is running the show yeah so it's just there's two things that the mind does when fear is at play the first thing is it does is it creates binary thinking so it's I buy the car or I don't buy the car it's not I negotiate for the car maybe I buy the car as a Honda instead of the Toyota version we just do this black and white thinking either I leave her or I don't leave her i either leave the job or I don't leave the job so immediately you know you're compromised your intellect is not working at the level that it could work if you're doing any kind of binary thinking the other thing that it does is it creates a false end i will be homeless and you don't think and then what I you know even that like I said that death meditation of the samurai they go through the end of death I'm going to die and then that's it they don't you don't think about and what's next and so that's those are the two things that when you do that you're in fear and that's why making a decision from fear often beggets more fear because you're limiting the possibility that's there you're saying "Oh it's going to be this way or this way in your mind." And so you're creating that reality in in the world and so black and white realities create fear cuz there's you know if you were either friends or we're enemies like that's that that is a that's a scary ass situation mhm as compared to oh we could be all sorts of kinds of friends and all sorts of kinds of enemies and we could be both and which all exist in the world what about someone who feels like fear is running the show a lot in their life that that's a very prevalent sort of emotion yeah there's a couple things that can create the fear one of them is repressed excitement one of them is um them not getting their actual needs met and the other one is other emotions that they're that they use that they can't allow themselves to feel so they'll use they'll use the fear so often times you'll see the last one with um that classic mom who's like using their worry to try to control everything they're like "I'm so scared about your you driving that four-wheel drive please don't do that." Or "I'm scared about like be careful when you take that trip to Thailand." that whole thing that's like is that fear or is them that them not taking care of their needs or is it them not feeling empowered what's the actual feeling that's if that if they could feel it the fear might go away and often times that's excitement which is crazy so there's a really cool hack take anything you're scared about i would I would ask you to do it but I don't know I don't know if you're good but take anything you're scared about um and literally say out loud I'm excited 10 times i'm excited i'm excited i'm excited i'm excited i'm excited i'm excited i'm excited and the way that neurology is wired is they're very close to one another and so apparently uh it's I mean my self-experimentation is it's like 90 95% effective i go from fear to excitement and I think it's in the I think it's in the Jewish tradition that they actually have two words for fear and one fear is like I'm scared of physical like physical death or like Mhm and the other one is I'm scared is I'm stepping into a bigger room i'm stepping on stage i'm like I'm asked to do something to go to the next level and so much of our fear in modern society is that second kind of fear type two masquerading as type one yeah and so Exactly so if you actually allow the excitement oh I'm stepping into a bigger room mhm yeah like if I was scared coming in here is am I am I scared or am I just like super [ __ ] excited temperature plays a huge role in how well you sleep but traditional bedding often falls short just add the brand new Pod 4 Ultra to your mattress like a fitted sheet and it will automatically cool down or warm up each side of your bed up to 20° plus it's got integrated sensors that track your sleep time and your sleep phases and your HRV and your snoring and your heart rate with 99% accuracy eight has been clinically proven to increase total sleep by up to 1 hour every night increase deep sleep by up to 2.5 hours a month and reduce wake time by up to 3 hours per month best of all they ship to the US Canada United Kingdom Europe and Australia plus they offer a 30day sleep trial so you can buy it and sleep on it for 29 days and if you do not like it they will give you your money back right now you can get $350 off the brand new Pod 4 Ultra by going to the link in the description below or heading to 8LE.com/modernwisdom using the code modernwisdom at checkout that's ei.com/modernwisdom and modernwisdom at checkout rick Hansen has this really wonderful insight where he's talking about uh people fearing change so there's new things that are happening in life and uh one of them one of the the insights that he has there is the not only is there a binary so you guys agree on that but he says well why do you assume that the change is going to be worse I look back on most of the changes that happened in your life most of the changes were better yes mo most of the things most of the times where there was a change it preceded an improvement so he has this wonderful little maxim he says is uh see yourself as the sort of person who can handle change well like wow I I'm the sort of person that can handle change well that change isn't some big scary threat that it's not going to cause some massive catastrophe for me what if it's the choice isn't between this or worse but this but better better yeah yeah or or what if I just get excited over whatever the change is mhm and I think that this this is Yeah this is one of the prevalent things and it and it's and a lot of that has to do with the voice in the head because the voice in the head is constantly trying to okay you're going to do this if this happens and this and this happens and then make sure that this if this over everything like they're calculating and you're playing threedimensional chess mhm and instead of like if you do that playing sports you're going to suck you know if you're thinking instead of actually there playing the game you're going to suck and so it's the same thing in life like all that pre-thinking often really slows down performance yeah that's an interesting one for the uh perennial overthinkers uh a lot of the time I think people have this sense that they're thinking about life and they're watching themselves experiencing it whilst not experiencing it that that you know what I mean there's there's this sort of they're they're supposed to be playing Call of Duty first person but they're actually playing it third person right and they're observing it happen and it's taking them out of the moment and they're thinking about the thing that they're experiencing right which by design stops them from experiencing it trying to get it right which can't be gotten like there is no right to be gotten so I'm going to think about everything so that I make the right choice the right choice when the right choice in 2 minutes the right choice in four minutes the right choice in two years like how many things that you did that were complete disasters led to you being here right now right so there's no right choice you can't even measure if the choice was right afterwards but you spend literally 20 minutes trying to figure out or 20 hours or 20 days trying to figure out yeah you say there is no way of getting it perfect there is no complete no finish line no done there is simply what's the next experiment there is only play yeah so the Yeah so the way I think about that one is uh so when is an oak tree perfect when it's an acorn when it's like a sapling when it's like a hundred years old when it's 200 years old like when is it perfect but yet somehow or another we have to be perfect but it's not it's just iteration it's just it's just evolution evolution doesn't end the only thing that ends is an idea in our head and our egos egos can't exist if you actually really understand that there is no end the ego has to evaporate say more on that right so often times the people who are searching for enlightenment they think once they get the enlightenment then it'll be done right that's just the ego talking that's just that's just oh there is going to be this end point where then I'm going to be happy like that that that is an ego thought process so that they can so you can whip yourself and beat yourself up to get to that place and it is just a way to convince yourself that what you want can't be found right now mhm so if I said to you right now without going into the past without going into the future you can't find any evidence from the past or any evidence in the future find a problem with you yeah that's funny yeah there's none you can't find it so So you need an end because the other the only other choice is to be in this moment which is where the ego doesn't get to exist i wrote this quote from Van Go this week in my newsletter that said "If I'm worth anything later I'm worth something now for wheat is wheat even if people think it is grass in the beginning." Oh I like that that's so That's so [ __ ] good the same thing you're talking about right it is the AON okay I'm going to I'm going to Wheat is wheat even if people think it is let me geek out let me geek out for just a second so today I got a text from somebody who is Zen uh teacher that I know and he was worried about AI and uh and so found out that I'm working you're the guy to ask yeah apparently yeah are they coming for my Zen teaching say again are they coming for my Zen teaching tell me Joe [Laughter] y and uh and my response was um just like everything this river is going to find the lowest ground so where it's going to end up is already determined and it's the same thought process that you just said there like even the action that I take and that all the people will take towards influencing AI like all of that is set in a and for from that same kind of point of view so our job is the same it's like show up with love do what you're called to do you know draw the boundaries say the truth that you can see and but the whole idea of like I have to manage my entire world to get to the place is just it's just a huge amount of stress it's all selft talk yeah not real again to sort of fly the flag for the insecure overachievers out there the uh the the desire for control you know if I can prepare sufficiently well if I can know every different permutation of every different outcome then I reduce down the play within the system so it's so precise so that what I think is going to happen and what is going to happen end up being so tightly correlated that there's no variance at all ah ah okay there we go there's a bit of certainty isn't that nice isn't that death yeah i want to I want I want this wholly under control and absolutely predictable existence yeah i mean yeah exact I think about this in a slightly different way but the there is no life without tension a cell doesn't exist without tension your lungs don't exist without tension salad cell no cell that salad doesn't exist without it dude I had this vision i had this vision in my mind i was like why is it has he got like bits of [ __ ] lettuce leaf hanging across a string i had that like a tightroppe walk but it's just individual leaves of lettuce hanging over a salad bowl holy [ __ ] wow yeah okay getting back to it a cell doesn't exist without tension tension yeah it's just so life doesn't exist without tension so the idea that you're going to be at peace when there's no tension the idea that you're going to be at peace when you've narrowed everything down so that you don't have to actually feel that tension is death [Music] mhm so you don't find peace by having no tension you find peace by enjoying the tension welcoming the tension looking forward to the tension is safety got anything to do with it here is there a degree of unsafety there is no safety safety is an illusion what the [ __ ] is safe like we're sitting in like we're in Austin Texas in a cool thing like yeah it's pretty safe but hurricane earthquake fire there like safety is just something that we like to pretend exists mhm yeah and and also like a form of death if it feels scary to say it's important if it feels scary to say not saying it will hurt your connection if it feels sorry scary to say not saying it prioritizes their imagined reaction over your truth what why why why um so I'm not scared to say things that aren't important to me and vulnerable to me so I I could qualify that and say that quote I could qualify that quote and say with an open heart to say it with an open heart but and I think that would probably be more accurate but if I'm if I'm scared to say it it means that there's something important and it's something vulnerable if I am if I say the important thing to you and I'm vulnerable with you our connection deepens always the case mh if I am not willing to say that it means I'm scared of a reaction that you're going to have for me which means I'm prioritizing you more than I'm prioritizing my own needs yes yes i'm actually prioritizing my fear over our connection as well and over yourself and Yeah and over myself that's right so it's And so this is how I run my business it's how we run our marriage it's how every It's like And this prevents resentment it like it's amazing if if I find something that doesn't feel right I will speak to it i might not speak to it right now it might take a day because I'm not going to be heartless and like and not pay attention to the person or have compassion or empathy for where they're at but I'm going to say the thing that's scary to say or the thing that's bothering me and and and my expectation with the 18 or so people in our organization is that they do the same thing like that's a we tell them that's that's the job you got to say the hard thing we actually start our meetings with what's the scary thing you're not saying because that's what keeps relationships clean that's what keeps the problems at bay that's like stepping into it instead of trying to avoid it it's I was trying to think about the difference between uh selfish and selfless and this is a third one that's not that's not either of them you So you're not being selfish because you're actually hurting yourself in it yeah you're not being selfless because you're killing the connection and like what the [ __ ] is this and and you're not trusting them yeah it's like what is this it's not you know it's one of those interesting situations where it's neither selfish nor selfish yeah yeah that's that's really cool yeah there's no uh it's just destru Well it's actually it's kind of it's destructive to the self and it's destructive to the other as well i guess that's one way to put it yeah right it's like it's bad on all fronts yeah i remember having this moment where so I we did this in our company and I was just like we we do this we're going to if something's upsetting anybody we talk about it that's how we're doing and one day I came into and I was the the woman who I at the time worked with most closely um and she her name's Sarah she's Anybody who's worked in our done anything in our organization knows Sarah she's amazing and I walked in i was like frustrated i was like and she goes "Oh I'm so excited that you're frustrated." I was like "What?" She goes "Every time you're frustrated it means that you're seeing something that we're not seeing and we're going to make a big improvement." So what is it totally like changed the whole like my the way I hold my own frustration it changed that and then it also changed like how I like looked at the whole business because I was "Oh wow this is really important." It's like alchemy doing that exactly so I had this convers I told you about this episode I did with Naval which will be out by the time that people are listening to this and hopefully many millions of people will have listened to it in it he I came up with this idea having watched him and you you haven't heard him speak but uh I I'll try and explain it as best I can he is uh patient zero for what you've just said there that he I've seen him at uh dinner parties if we're partway through a conversation that he's just not interested in he just gets up and walks over to another corner of the room there's no airs or graces uh there's no sort of apology apologizing for him not being sufficiently entertained i must I'm sorry i'm going to have to go very much there's no excuses and no nothing else yeah lovely and I came up with this term of like holistic selfishness uh or a sort of integrated self- priority whatever you want to call it he's unapologetically prepared to put himself first and he is not concerned about the discomfort that that causes in other people or in himself actually and um I just wanted to sort of sit with that it feels like a lot of what we've talked about at the moment is self- prioritization it's like okay Not selfish prioritization but um deciding that your needs are legitimate uh uh uh uh not subjugating your desires or or the things that you want from the world because of a fear of them not being uh requited or or reciprocated or received or whatever or retaliation for them yeah um what what would you say to the person who is unusually comfortable with deprioritizing their own needs with not seeing their their wants or their desires as legitimate with regularly subjugating what it is that they uh would like to get from the world in place of not wanting to sort of upset the apple cart in that way i would say I would probably start off saying something a little provocative like "Wow you're a really non-compassionate human being." So the the the reason I would say that first of all is selfishness generally is just something we were told we were when we weren't doing what our parents wanted us to do so it was just basically our parents being selfish and we weren't doing what they wanted and they're like "You're selfish." That's a great take so that great take so that's where selfishness generally comes from the second thing is let's say let's bring God into it for a minute if you believe that what's best for you ultimately ultimately what's best for you is not what's best for everybody else then God is a satist god has set up a world where you have to make a trade you have to make a trade and my experience my experience is that when I am doing what's actually deeply right for me I am doing what's deeply right for everybody right there's no Apologies i thought that was off no no no um um yeah the um deeply right for me yeah deeply right for deeply right for somebody else so the so my experience is that the compassionate act is often hard sometimes easy sometimes in the middle but it's it's the thing that is best for both you and for me if I am not going to be true so for instance easiest way to look at this is do you want me to come to your party if I feel obligated to come to your party no yeah exactly I'm I I'm I'm say I can't be selfish i have to go because I said I was going to go but now I'm coming out of obligation you don't [ __ ] want me there if I'm obligated and that if you really get in touch with even in business if you're like "Oh do I really is the thing that's really best for me to get that extra 10% or the thing that's really best for me is having a really strong relationship and having something that's equitable and feels good for everybody or feels equally bad for everybody it's just going to be better." 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It's like dude it's you're not accepting an Academy Award [ __ ] off like honestly just go so I'm going to go and see what's going on over there or whatever um but yeah the that's so great that you need to if you're not showing up the as who you are what the [ __ ] world do you think you're going to create exactly yeah yeah the one that's built for the person that you think you should be not the person you are yeah it's similar to the interesting thing one thing I want to say about that the interesting thing is that it's it it creates an open heart if you look at the people who live that way my experiences my experience of living that way is that because you're accepting yourself it's easy to accept other people the more of yourself that you can accept the more you can accept of others the more kinds of people that you can accept so there's that there's also that reflection so the people who live like that our mind wants to say they're selfish and and and they're like they're like full of hubris and arrogance and blah blah blah but when you actually meet those people like if you've ever hung out with like a a llama for like that that's how they act operate that's how they move in the world and they're and they're completely dedicated to compassion so also not ded they're completely dedicated to nonp pretense as well self-compassion yeah that's interesting that what we think we're doing and it's like you said before that we have this uh binary trade that we keep inside of our mind which is either we can appease the world or we can appease ourselves that's right this is the same thing going on this is fear why do you think it is that the this equation this odd imbalanced equation of it can either be good for them or it can be good for me but it can't be good for either and if it's good for me a lot of the time it's bad for them what's that what's the fear okay yeah it's so anytime there's that binary then there's a fear in this particular case it's a fear that was probably built at a very young age that was mom's going to be happy with me i have to abandon myself or dad's going to be happy with me and I have to abandon myself or I don't abandon myself and I'm going to get punished and that's I think where that typically comes from just sit a little bit longer in the this sort of bravery you know this somebody listening who says [ __ ] like that's me i compromise myself all the time i don't say what I mean i don't I've done it so long that I don't even know what I mean to say anymore don't even know what I need don't know what I want yep i've subjugated it under you know [ __ ] layers and layers of of sedimentary rock now uh how can someone start to show up more bravely in the world in that way for themselves yeah um it so it's really about So this is where the emotions come in so if you can imagine the emotion that you're going to have to feel when you say the thing and you're going to get rejected and you can live that experience and you can welcome that emotion then there's nothing to be scared of mhm right yep they're going to get mad at me okay i felt that i know what that's like i'm going to be there with them i I can if if the interesting thing is you could get really mad at me and if I can stay in an open heart it's [ __ ] not a problem at all my job is to have people get mad at me like when we do our Yeah I'm going away with you at the end of this year maybe I'll maybe I'll be getting mad at you at some point i guarantee and and I mean if you look at my handle on Twitter it's [ __ ] you Joe Hudson it's f you Joe Hudson oh right i didn't know what that stood for it's because people when I work with them often are like "Fuck you." Like that's the job but if I'm sitting there with a big open heart like it's my response typically is "I love you too." Yeah because that anger is a a vulnerability that anger is a sh they care you don't get angry at [ __ ] you don't care about mhm so it's like but if I get defensive it's [ __ ] hell on earth if I get scared it's hell on earth so that's the that's the thing and all these relationships that people get into it's amazing because they're all so scared of either breaking the other person or their anger mhm yeah that someone's either too weak or too strong basically to take it exactly yeah you cannot love fully unless you see that you are completely empowered it is near impossible to love what you think oppresses you yeah those are two different things mhm so one is if you close your I don't know if you want to do this but for the audience if you close your eyes and you feel unconditional love for a minute and then switch and then feel full empowerment like you're Superman and there's no kryptonite you don't have to worry about the future like you've got it and then go back to unconditional love and then go back to full empowerment and then put them together feel them both that's what I mean if you feel weak if you not weak isn't the right word there's lots of ways of feeling weak that are great the if you feel like you don't have you're not empowered in the world then you're not empowered to love fully is that the job of you is that the job of the person that you're trying to love oh you're you're totally responsible for your own your capacity to receive love and your capacity to give love often are pretty much high very highly correlated and absolutely your responsibility however when you do that what you notice is that all of a sudden you're surrounded by a lot of very loving people well it's like you said about the the depth of relationship that you had with that person or you said you made me you said that thing and I tensed up in this way as long as someone believes as long as it is true and someone believes that it's true what you have there is an unusually reliable person you have you have somebody it's like "Oh [ __ ] i I can actually have faith that when this person says that this thing is good that they actually mean it and they're not just paying lip service to it or blowing smoke at my ass yeah you can't trust somebody who can't say no you can't trust somebody who doesn't who doesn't have conflict with you that's the whole thing is like when you watch CEOs who are conflict avoidant their their companies become untrustworthy they nobody trusts each other in their companies trust is built it's obfiscation all the way down yeah cuz trust is built with you and I have conflict and we get through it and we're better on the other side mhm it's why people who have been in war together have lifelong forever friendships because they have a like deep trust that we will get through the [ __ ] together you had my back I had yours yeah and same with a marriage or same with a relationship if every conflict you have turns into some self-recognition turns into some recognition of how you want to be different or or some realization of yourself then that relationship is solid if every conflict doesn't get brought out you don't know what's going to happen or it just turns into this yelling match that you throw underneath the then under the rug then you that relationship will absolutely fall apart at some point there's a a cool lesson uh about had this guy Edward Sling England on he wrote a book called Trying Not to Try which is about Wooi which you'll be familiar with and then he wrote another book about uh like the history of alcohol and um he basically described alcohol as kind of the perfect drug for the human race and in many ways he's right and I'm used to be club promoter now not really really not a big drinker i was like alcohol is rubbish um but he explained it in a really interesting way and one of the things that it turns out is that um when you're drunk or even tipsy probably tipsy rather than drunk uh you are worse as a liar because it shut down some of your prefrontal cortex but people are actually better liar detectors when they're tipsy so if you have a room of people who are all tipsy that totally makes sense that's I mean that you're describing like half the business meetings of my life not business meetings but like bipsy Oh it's 9:00 in the No I meaning like every when you're a venture capitalist every evening when you're like networking everybody drinks together like it is a thing that you do and and and it and it totally makes sense because it builds trust yes um and one of the other things that it does you know reliably if you drink a lot you're going to suffer the next day so there is a you look through history uh tradition of uh armies getting really really drunk a few nights before the first battle now there's also quite a few famous battles in which the uh guy in charge of the army has maybe mistimed that and they've woken up to be attacked the next day with a stinking hangover which I imagine is probably the worst way you can talk about long flights back from Vegas or whatever it's like dude if you're not in mortal peril by a a a [ __ ] Mongolian wielding a spear like there's been the worst ways to do it um and uh but what he talked about there was when you're uh drinking there is in the back of everybody's mind as you go through this there is this sense of yeah this is fun now but we all know we're going to pay for it in the morning and you're still here with me you're still doing it i love that thought process so the idea of getting drunk as a we're going to bond over the pleasure and then we're going to bond over the pain right as well and we're gonna share an experience that we're neither of us are going to be entirely proud of explaining to other people that experience and so we you have this sing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah that's cool yeah i love that um there was another insight as well which I I [ __ ] fell in love with this really really great u essaist and he was talking about I think he calls it the divorce paradox and he says um uh many people are surprised by why couples who in public are seemingly so perfect end up splitting up and it's because of a lesson that we haven't fully internalized in the modern world which is it is not the good times but how you deal with the bad times that predicts the longevity in marriages it's not how much fun and vibe you have when things are great it's how well you move through rupture and repair and come back out on the other side that's absolutely it yeah the when I'm asked by people about is this the right person for me my answer is almost always the same which is two things one are they working on themselves and do they see the relationship as a way to work on themselves two is when you have conflict how's the repair and if you have those two things it'll work out it might not be pretty it might be hardcore for a while but it will work out well I kind of think about it like trading in a way that um you know your stock can move intraday intra month intra year it can move an awful lot but as long as you don't bottom out as long as you don't actually end up getting kicked out the bottom of your trade you're like I'm still in the [ __ ] market baby right um but if it decides to go to zero and that is a we we actually can't do rupture and repair particularly well uh well we can do rupture well but we can't do repair well yeah and then then it just turns to resentment then resentment to disdain and then it's over talk to me about resentment where does that come from um res there's a couple things typically in a relationship one of the main ways resentment happens is that traditional say um someone has the male role the female role the male role often is like I my job is to try to make this person happy that's going to create resentment just that action right there my job is to make this person happy because what you're saying is you can't make yourself happy you need me [ __ ] you i don't need you that's the underlying thing that's happening so you'll see oh the man is like uh and it happens both ways don't get me wrong but the man is like oh I need to I need to like I really I've done everything I can to make her happy and she's still not happy i mean how many guys have you heard that from it's like right she's not happy because you're not treating her like a full-g grown [ __ ] adult who knows how to take care of herself and that is one of the main things that resentment comes from the other thing that resentment comes from is that I'm not speaking my truth so I don't say the thing because I'm scared of the conflict eventually I have to compromise myself and if I'm compromising myself enough I am going to be pissed at somebody and it's going to be you and it's easier to get pissed at you than it is to get pissed at me yeah and I'm going to call and it's going to look like resentment because I can't be just outright mad at you it's just going to be this lowle thing that happen so if you want to cure resentment in a relationship have the hard conversations with respect with love mhm yeah and there's a lot of tools on that but like what are some of your favorites um have agree to some rules on fighting that's a really good one go and get angry but not with each other present like "Hey we're we're we're having a fight i'm going to go [ __ ] yell you go [ __ ] yell and then we're going to come back." Uh I like getting naked for a fight that one really works like completely naked it totally changes the dynamic of the fight uh making sure the person feels deeply listened to is another great one of I'm just going to repeat what you're saying and see if I've got it right see them tell them take away the shame those there's like there's dozens mhm mhm yeah there was a Neil Strauss was sat there not long ago and he had just this [ __ ] slamming line one of the best insights uh which is very Hudson pilled um which is uh unspoken expectations are premeditated resentments oh yeah holy [ __ ] dude exactly yeah unspoken expectations of premeditated resentments yeah and that again shadow sentences i'm not going to say what it is that I want in case it means that you can't rebuff or or or unrequite what it is that I'm after i'm going to abandon myself before you abandon me it's really what that is yeah yeah as if that's going to work you mentioned a bunch of times to me and also on this episode about uh opening your heart yeah yeah um we we had a a call ahead of the thing that I'm going to go and do with you later this year which was super exciting and uh there was this sort of trying not to try moment where uh the insecure overachiever that wants to get the Agrade like right okay so what's this sort of five-step process to heart opening please and blah blah blah blah blah um but I do think that even if uh that can't be satiated uh a degree of definition of opening your heart what does it mean where does it come from I do think that might be useful totally can I I didn't didn't give it to you in that moment because you had already accessed it so I wasn't going to like let that all right but the yeah so the way we think about it is a simple acronym we call view which is vulnerability impartiality empathy and wonder so you can access any one of them and it'll open your heart so vulnerability means I'm going to say the scary thing Impartiality means I'm not going to try to manage you or try to get you anywhere I'm just going to be with you as humans empathy means I'm going to emotionally be with you but I'm not going to be in you so it doesn't mean I believe your story it doesn't mean that I'm like with you in the thing i'm going to be in myself but I'm going to when you cry I don't go "It's going to be okay." I'm like "Oh yeah [ __ ] that hurts." Mhm right and then wonder which is curiosity without trying to find an answer it's the way we look at a sunset or the way a little kid like picks up a frog if I can just be in wonder with you just like one of them if I can just be I have no idea i have an idea of who you are let's say you were my brother i have an idea i have this whole history but instead I'm going to drop all that [ __ ] and I'm just going to be like "What is actually going on what is it that I don't know about you?" Heart opens mhm oh I'm going to say the scary thing like "Bro I love you but that thing you did really [ __ ] hurt me." Boom my heart opens i'm going to empathize with you i'm going to be with you in your emotion boom my heart opens mhm so all of those are the are just we just call it Vue mhm mhm and that's any one of those tools will work multiple of the tools work really well and why is opening your heart such a panacea it's not particularly a panacea i mean it feels good so there's that you know like uh but it's not a panacea it's just really effective like we have mirror neurons so I hang out with you and I have an open heart you're more like likely to have an open heart you know that person who's like openhearted and everybody gets around them and they're openhearted with them and occasionally someone's a dick and they're still openhearted then they look like a real dick and so it's just really effective it's that you create a world where people are openhearted with you and and you have more depth and you have more connection and people want to help you more and all that all those things happen this is just it's just an effectiveness thing it also feels really good mhm it also makes it that you treat other people with a tremendous amount of compassion which is all good things a quick note I partnered with Function because I wanted a smarter and more comprehensive way to understand what's happening inside of my body twice a year Function run lab tests that monitor over a 100 biomarkers and then they've got a team of expert physicians that analyze the data and give you actionable advice to improve your health and lifespan if you've been feeling a bit sluggish then your testosterone levels might be the problem they play a massive role in your energy and your performance and being able to see them charted over the course of a year with actionable insights to actually improve them gives you a clear path to making your life better so if you have not been performing in the gym or the bedroom the way that you would like this is an awesome way to work out what's happening inside of your body getting these lab tests done would usually cost thousands but with Function it is only $500 and right now you can get the exact same blood panels that I get and bypass their weight list by going to the link in the description below or heading to functionhealth.com/modernwisdism that's functionhealth.com/modernwisdom yeah the other half of what we were talking about before talking about compassion i guess sort of oppression is is pretty close to an opposite of that uh it is near impossible to love what you think oppresses you oh yeah that one yeah yeah so when we do um we do this one thing about working with the voice in the head and at one point we'll have everybody get really really angry at the voice in the head and dominate it because it's it's the first step of being able to love something if you think that something is controlling you that you don't have choice that you have to subjugate yourself or cut off a part of yourself to because of this thing it's really hard to love and that's what happens inside of relationships that fall apart is like I've given so much of myself i'm so oppressed by you that I can't love you and it's a it's the problem in our political world too it's like when if you're angry at somebody politically it means you feel like you're being oppressed and so there's no heart opening so there's no [ __ ] solution doesn't matter which side of the aisle you're on this is how it works and so I mean it's what allows and so if you look at someone like a Gandhi for instance or a Mother Teresa or a or a or Martin Luther King they walked into the world and they're like "You don't oppress me." And it's because they could love gandhi could love the British people and the and the parliament and all that like he had a big open heart and because he could he could not he did not could not agree you cannot agree that you're being oppressed and so I think there there was a New York Times writer at least this is the way I heard the story there was a salt mine they were controlling the continent through salt he has 500,000 people lined up to take the salt mine and there's like 20 guards or something you know some version of that and there's 4x4 coming in the guards beat them down and they go and they could mob the place they could win they just And the New York Times reporter apparently wrote something to the fact of it's not a question of when they'll be free they are already free they're like I they can be oppressed because they had an open heart so it works both ways but it's really hard if you in your mind you think you're oppressed it's really hard to have an open heart towards somebody or love them but if you can get over that then you can love them and then you can't be oppressed why does giving bits of yourself to somebody else create a sense of oppression in you yeah um so if you're giving a bit of yourself to somebody it means you feel like you had no choice that's not something that you would do unless oh there's a consequence oh they're going to do this oh I'm going to be killed oh I'm going to be And so obviously there's people who you know who are actually oppressed but I'm talking about it on a psychological level and and so if I'm giving a piece of yourself if I'm giving if I'm compromising something important about me to you that means I I'm I'm scared of the consequences which means you have power over me and that makes you into a kind of taskmaster as the task yeah exactly exactly as opposed to some sort of an equal right ego is as much what you don't think you are as what you think you are yeah okay so this one this one's cool so we have this exercise in one of our programs where we everybody who's really gotten to know somebody gives them a compliment and so there's it's like a 10 minutes of receiving compliments and here's what most people do yeah at the beginning or is for the people who are just listening they're like oh that's not really the you know oh thanks for saying that it's a dismissal it's saying like which it's basically saying you're lying to me is what that's a nice compliment but you're just lying to me you're just saying it to make me feel good you don't actually mean that that's what that's what that thing is and we will do that instead of letting the emotion in let the whole feeling hit you and so we teach people how to like fully receive the compliments and we they'll cry they'll shake they'll have like they'll have like physical reaction to allowing the compliment all the way in because it is taking apart their identity so that voice in your head says you're not doing this good you're not doing that good right so let's say I do this podcast and I fly home and I think ah this is the shittiest podcast in the world and somebody comes in it's like "I watched that podcast it totally [ __ ] changed my life." If I let that in my identity of a shitty podcast guest has to [ __ ] die mhm that's a one-time thing but if I have an identity of I'm not smart and that [ __ ] has to die and so ego is just an identity and and and that includes what you are i'm the greatest guy ever and it it includes what you're not i'm stupid i'm not very good m and so compliments are like one of the biggest ego destroyers if you fully let them in because it shatters what you think you're not that's interesting most people would assume that compliments would be ego fueling as opposed to ego destroying i know it sucks it's like and it leaves so many people hungry ghosts so many people are hungry ghosts they just want to be seen and then when they're seen they're like no no and so there it never they can never fulfill the thing well I suppose this is one of the again disadvantages of not showing up as you like abandoning yourself in order to appease other people uh not speaking whatever it is that you think is true going forward you know I I did this uh TEDex talk ages ago and uh in it I sort of talk about I I give a prescription for how you can feel uh alone in a crowd in hollow in victory which is to basically do what you said you know you can be the most popular person in the room but if the work that you have done to get yourself there is not something that truly resonates with you you feel more like a marionette you feel more like a puppet than you do like a person and you can get to this stage where you know you've sort of played this role for a long time perhaps it's involved subjugating your desires or putting yourself second or third or fifth or 75th um and yeah sure externally you've got all of the accolades and trappings of somebody that has created a body of work that they're proud of or that people resonate with but internally the persona has subsumed the person right you've got this sort of weird parasite that you made of yourself that's crawled inside of you and is staring out through your own eyes and you're like "Holy fuck." Like "This isn't me." And all of these people are here for not me how amazing that they're here for not me and it's why you know you don't ever feel love you only feel praise you know because people aren't applauding you they're applauding the role that you played you go "Ah well done to me for conning all of these people into believing that I was the thing that they like." Yeah and yeah you you end up in this sort of very bizarre scenario where I think a lot of resentment you know from a a creator perspective whether it's an artist a musician you know a teacher career person whatever it is if the body of work that you have put together is not something that is sort of true that it flows out from you and that you genuinely resonate with yeah sure like externally you can get yourself to the stage where success has been achieved and the box has been ticked but it's going to feel incredibly hollow and I think you're going to resent a lot of the people who look up to whatever it is that you've created because what what they are to you is a reminder of the fact that your true self was unlovable the true version of the work that you should have created or would have could have created uh wasn't good enough and it's another 10 person audience thousand person audience million person audience that just reaffirms oh yeah you need to be somebody else in order for the world to accept you and it's unfalsifiable for as long as you're not prepared to actually show up as the person that you are because you never actually get to disprove the the hypothesis so the cool thing is there what you just did there I think is like one of the more brilliant descriptions of ego so you you if you just take away the whole idea that this is something you created and you're but if you just put that same the thing that people create is their identity and they're not being seen and so it's never satisfying like that whole thing that is ego that is the description of ego this thing that I built to protect myself because there's something essentially that I thought was unlovable about me and it's the ego that can get defensive right and I I I usually don't use the term ego for this reason because then people say "I got to get rid of my ego," which is another egoic move because that means now the thing that's wrong with you is the ego so that that's that's problematic in itself but if you can just see that it's a structure and if you understand yourself clearly then that structure just can't exist and you're back to the thing that's ultimately lovable m what about the people who have hidden that sort of truth the person and delays and lays of persona and obfiscation and subjugation and all the rest of it you mean all of us yes and what about us what about humans um what is a a a way that people can begin sort of mining through that to find something that's a little bit more Yeah so anything that dis disintegrate there's many many ways um any way that disintegrates the sense of self is it does that so meditation the practice of silence is one of them and probably one of the more well-known ones because for you to think you are something you need a reflection and things don't reflect in silence so if you're in silence eventually but it can also be done in a relationship it can also be done like if I if I have so much love for another person that the differentiation between me and them evaporates that also is a ego disintegration to see to see that they there's this a tribe in Africa and they have I don't know how big their villages are but if a couple in the village is fighting they don't see it as a problem with the They see it as a problem with the village mhm oh that means there's something wrong with the village and so we as a village heal that thing and they all come together and they have a ceremony that they do where they do some yelling and whatever but to heal the couple that dissolves the sense of self understanding that there no there's no end dissolves the sense of self there's so many ways to dissolve we our traditions only hold like one or two of them but there's so many ways to see through does dissolving the sense of self allow you to access a truth as well sort of this is what I want this is what I think i used to use this example I guess a more uh recent what you want and what you think aren't you they change what you're going to want now and in 2 minutes and in 10 years is going to be different so that can't be you and what you think you can't even control your next thought you can't stop your thought so that can't [ __ ] be you right so we need a comparative mind to define who we are and so if if the question what am I is a question that I stayed in for like a decade just constantly asking that question only to find out that the lack of answer was the answer people don't want you to be perfect what they want is to feel connected to you yeah my um my favorite story about this was that I uh was on a plane once and I asked a person a single question and two and a half hours went by and I just listened and we were like getting up and at that point he realized what had happened and he apologized and I was like no it's a total pleasure and he's like that was like one of the most meaningful conversations I've ever had mhm like we don't Yeah but we just want connection from people we want to idolize perfect people but we don't want to actually like be their friends i think we have a Do you know what the Pratt fall effect is you heard of this no no no it's pretty cool so uh Richard Shottton who is a great behavioral economist from the UK taught me about this study where um I think it's a By the way man you've got to have like one of the [ __ ] coolest jobs with that i love my job and like there's very few jobs that I'm like "Oh that's a cool ass job." But like you get to meet some amazing folks yeah i've designed my own university degree speaking only to the experts on the planet on my own schedule with no homework about the specific niche that I want uh and I get to swear so yeah no it is it is you're right it's I'm I'm [ __ ] blessed with what it is that I get to do and uh yeah to be able to text like Richard if I need to text Richard now and be like "Yo what was that Pratt 4 thing again?" I think I'm going to recall it hopefully not incorrectly okay um [Music] the a study is done at a pub quiz uh it's either a pub quiz or a university exam uh with uh the person that gets the most right answers gets invited up and as this person is invited up the one that they completely blown everybody else out of the water because they are one of the whatever they're called compatriots of the study so they kind of cheated I guess because they already had the answers um in one iteration of the study they go up they accept the reward and they come back down and people are asked to sort of rate the liability of this particular person and second iteration of this study is they're getting up they drop their papers everywhere or they spill a coffee on themselves or they drop pens ends or stuff like that and uh people like the person who's got that degree of sort of fallibility in them uh I think you know looking at uh looking at the the way that you said like you know this thing made me feel really uncomfortable or having a friend who's prepared to get up and sort of leave you're like "Huh that's like a odd quirk that's a part of them but I trust that it's very authentic it's incredibly reliable as a signal of sort of genuiness so I can put my faith in them." Yeah a and also if I feel connected we have mirror neurons you're going to feel more connected so like who doesn't want that you know what i've never heard anybody say you know I hope tomorrow I feel more disconnected mhm mhm yeah yeah people who are exhausted all day are often in the habit of beating themselves up or telling themselves how they should be yeah people were exhausted too because they're constantly under attack you're constantly under attack you're going to be exhausted the amount like as I worked with the uh negative selft talk and as that voice just dissipated the amount of stuff that I can do the energy that I have in the world is just it's just unreal i never even thought it was possible and you can see it like in my business you can see people just are how are you creating so much content so quickly the people I work with are it took me a while because my expectation was that everybody else should be able to work at this level but it's you know I'm often working i always make time for my family i always make time for my exercise and and my mental health but outside of that I I will often work from 7 to 11 at night happy as a clam without being exhausted because I I'm not I'm not using dirty fuel and that's a thing that I think people have often is they think "Oh if I beat myself up I'll be I'll perform." But it's really dirty fuel it works but it's really [ __ ] dirty fuel and so they get exhausted they burn out in their career how many entrepreneurs have you met who are like "Okay then I'm going to be able to sell my company and be happy." It's like I wouldn't sell my company my wife and I were sitting down we were finished a 7-day retreat like the one that you're going to come to it is [ __ ] hardcore mhm and we're tired you're exhausted Dan we're sitting in this hot tub and we were talking about this transaction that we could have made for a lot of money and that we didn't make it and I was saying I'm really it was years ago i was like I'm really grateful that that happened and she said "Yeah me too." said "I think we would still be married but I don't think that we would have started this business." And she goes "Yeah we wouldn't have." And then I said "But if somebody offered us a billion dollars for our business and our business is not even worth even close to a billion dollars right but they said that we couldn't do what we do would you take the money?" And we both went "No because you want to but we were like no." Mhm and and and and I remember weird part of the story but I told came home and told my girls that thing and then like 3 days later my youngest was like "I'm looking for my billion billion dollar idea." I'm like "Oh you want to be a billionaire?" She's like "No I want an idea that I wouldn't sell for a billion dollars." Which was like so sweet but but you don't get that if you can't have that kind of lifestyle you can't have that kind of joy unless you're like not beating yourself up over it all the [ __ ] time if you're beating yourself up all the time you just want to sell it get your exit hang out on a beach and then beat yourself up for not starting your second company which there's somebody listening who knows exactly what I'm talking about yeah talk to me about that sort of gold medalist syndrome thing when people finally achieve the outcome the destination they arrive i've arrived yeah and that because I mean you work this is I imagine the [ __ ] middle of the bullseye of a lot of the guys that that you work with oh yeah so there's so again uh head heart gut um what's happening is the head they're constantly been beating themselves up for years and so their um their nervous system level their adrenals are shot so there's there they did some study if I recall correctly where they took a whole bunch of CEOs put them in a house told them they couldn't talk about work but they just had to hang out for three days nothing to do and then they had a group of psychologists come in and say "We want you to diagnose these people but um you can't ask them about work." And they came out saying diagnosis like a house full of depressed people and so you see these big-time CEOs when they retire they go into this like two or three year in their pajama moment where they and they beat themselves up for not you see um is it uh Vinnie Hymath the guy that founded Loom do you see what he tweeted couple of months ago uh he's like uh I've sold my business i'm miserable and I have no idea what to do he tweeted that and Naval the guy I had on the show uh he replied and he said uh uh God kids mission pick at least one uh uh very very very forthright i like that yeah so so so often times what so there's the adrenal fatigue there's the constant self- abuse and if they actually take a break and they stop abusing themselves then the recovery time is much quicker you still have the adrenal recovery time that you have to deal with and there's lots of supplements and things you can do to help with that but otherwise and then emotionally the problem is is that they're they've been living under this fear for an extended period of time which means that they're not actually feeling feeling their full breath of emotion so if they can actually start feeling their full breath of emotion it helps with the recovery mhm mhm yeah the It's interesting you use the term dirty fuel or toxic fuel i I definitely said you know for a good while a lot of the high performers that I've spoken to or become friends with or whatever I would say somewhere in the region of probably 70% 80% of them are running away from a life that they fear as opposed to running toward a life that they want uh that they're driven by Yeah mhm that they're driven by two north poles as opposed to north going towards south um they're sort of having to push it as opposed to being pulled yeah and uh well seen it is potent fuel but toxic if you use it for for too long and there's a time where you sort of need to learn to to transition through this and uh I must have sent this particular podcast episode of yours I'm not kidding to 10 people 20 different people so you did a a an episode called Your Obsession with Productivity is Killing Your Productivity and uh holy [ __ ] if I wasn't seen by that but I wrote an essay about it and I wanted to to give you this and I want to reflect on it cuz I think that this Hopefully this two-minute read explains to the people that haven't listened to that episode should go and listen to it on Art of Accomplishment and kind of what it's about and then maybe we can have a chat about it there's a very painful transition that everyone eventually needs to make in their career and productivity journey from operator guy to idea guy the beginning of your career the only advantage you have is your work rate because you have no experience to draw on and any natural talent is capped by your inexperience so you just work hard to get ahead you answer all the emails you take all the would love to connect calls you send the invoices write the copy hire the contractors it's all you but eventually that stage of your journey expires and you need to let it go maybe you have staff to delegate to now maybe you've been given a promotion and you need to be thinking more strategically at a high level previously your job was to work hard but not so much anymore your job isn't to work hard your job is to have great ideas says Joe Hudson here's the problem you've spent an entire career acclimatizing yourself to getting stuff done you've built a monster which sucks in difficult tedious tasks and spits out completed efforts you've created a link between being busy doing things you don't want to do and success the issue is that it's really hard to work out what you truly want and determine whether or not you're moving toward it but it's easy to see the number of emails you sent or how many hours you spent on calls being busy is more satisfying than being effective it's very hard to work out if your productivity efforts are actually useful or if they're just a dopamine fix that allows you to check the done box and feel like you completed something ask yourself is your job to press enter on emails or to actually move this mission forward the level of busyiness also helps to make you feel important a full calendar is a hedge against existential loneliness there's no way I can be an unwanted piece of [ __ ] look at how many calls I have today look at all the people who need my time and attention i must be important i must be valuable please please please assuage my deep feelings of insufficiency you are hooked on the dopamine of I got stuff done today because even if this wasn't a great use of your day at least you don't feel useless and you didn't have any time to consider that you might not be fully actualizing your potential in any case another challenge is that conspicuous busyness is much more society rewarded over quiet effectiveness we want other people to see how hard we're working even if the very best thing for your mission's outcomes was for you to go and lie on a beach and think today who is going to congratulate you for taking on that challenge near burnout is worn like a badge of honor to show feelalty to the mission obvious productivity is more praised than private efficacy and here's the thing almost everyone's life goal is where I just don't have to do anything I don't want to do anymore but what happens when you actually get there so much of your self-worth is derived from overcoming hard things and pushing yourself through difficult tasks that you don't want to do so imagine that you do reach your goal where do you sign find your satisfaction from now this is why it's so difficult to let go of doing grunt work and being permanently busy even when your precise goal was to get right here and finally why is it so hard to take pleasure in our successes well largely because you are constantly peering over the shoulder of the present moment to see what's coming next even during the act of attaining a goal you're already looking past it getting ready to move the goalposts further away we are all chasing a sense of completion but we never actually allow ourselves to savor any tastes of completion that we get along the way it's great is your podcast repurposed into a two-minute essay um but this obsession this transition from front-end busyness uh signaling off of how much I got done not asking the bigger questions busy calendar hedge against existential loneliness obvious productivity this transition uh I it I write a lot of these things and this was one that just [ __ ] snapped people in half so I I think this is something you're really on to and it's something I wanted to talk about today yeah so so I would say like if we go back to the beginning of the podcast where I said there was these three things connection emotional uh clarity and um and then negative selft talk in the head that like you look at your essay and half of you don't want to feel this you don't want to feel this you don't want to feel this so that's that's what's happening in this the dopamine fix is the nervous system thing i don't want to feel this is the heart thing and the head thing is oh I like I'll stay busy enough not to look at the actual big the big issue so that's one of the things that I say but the the other thing that the thing that helped me make the transition was the understanding that enjoyment was efficiency that that if I'm going to I think maybe we talked about this last time I can't remember I did yeah okay so but basically a fast car is not an efficient car an efficient car is a car that uses less fuel enjoyment is how we know we're using less fuel so if you say "What does an efficient Chris Williamson create as compared to a fast Chris Williamson i'm going to go for efficient." like oh that means that you can do this podcast and if you're doing it in full enjoyment probably with like a third of the energy which means now you have two/3s energy to go build something else that's cool or a family or whatever it is that you that gives you purpose and so when I re recognized that I did two things the first thing I recognized is that enjoyment isn't what you're doing it's how you're doing it at least in part it's how you're doing it so right now I can say to you how do we enjoy this moment 10% more right well phys yeah yeah how do I enjoy these emails 10% more and that changes that makes us more efficient and then there's also what do I enjoy doing but it's both it can't be I I will only do what I enjoy because that doesn't [ __ ] work because we're going to not enjoy ourselves 20% of the time no matter what we're doing to some degree Unless we learn how to enjoy whatever it is that we're doing can you just for the people that didn't listen to our first episode tell that story about when you tried to do an experiment where you were not going to do anything that you weren't going to enjoy and you stared at the bin yeah yeah so yeah i was This is when I was in LA and this is like when I was like meditating seven hours a day or something and I decided I was going to only do for I think it was one or two weeks i'm only going to do what I enjoy and it's I hated [ __ ] taking out the trash and I I I was sitting there at the trash can smelling trash i did not want to smell trash that was not enjoyable i did not want to take out the trash and I was just just [ __ ] scing by the trash can I for minutes maybe longer and and then I was like "Wow I have to learn how to enjoy taking out the trash or learn how to enjoy the smell." And I learned how to enjoy taking out the trash mhm and which was such a recognition that I wasn't going to control my environment into enjoyment i was going to learn how to enjoy my experience and control my environment both of those two things are or levers that I have for it and so if you focus on that then all that other stuff takes care of itself mhm all that other stuff occurs because you're focused on your own efficiency and you'll be sitting there doing something and you'll if you'll notice oh it's so easy to delegate something from a place of enjoyment from a place of rush it's really hard to delegate something i'm just going to get it done i It's just me i'll be reliable i'll get it done i can finish it off it's quicker to do it this way than to hand it to somebody else and if you're enjoying you can't be in that rush and therefore life becomes much easier to delegate as well and then there's all this extra space to do have those really creative cool ideas again it kind of comes back to this I need to brand it better it's a it's a branding problem but this whatever we want to call it like holistic selfishness this sort of integrated self-prioritization uh this belief that you know the the way we call it compassion okay yeah yeah yeah yeah but it's not just compassion it's it's a a elevated version of what we because when we think about at least when I think about compassion uh I think about doing something nice for somebody else right i very rarely think about doing something nice for me and I even more rarely think about how doing nice for doing something nice for me is doing something nice for someone else and for everybody else as well i would not even use the word nice nice is the maybe a problematic word there too it's the doing the thing that cares for okay yeah because sometimes it's not [ __ ] nice yes you know like the the best experience of this I was like in the seventh grade no no wait wait what grade i was No I was in high school i was a freshman in high school i went to a boarding school cuz I was a [ __ ] problem kid and had a green mohawk and you know it was like "No this isn't happening." And um I I just lied a ton to try to make people like me i was just lying all the and this guy I still remember his name and if he's listening right now his name is Alex Bell and um if he just came to me one of the last couple days of school and he said Joe just so you know everybody knows that you're lying and if you just were yourself we'd be so much easier for us to like you and I stopped lying like that day I mean not completely I'm sure but but like that that habit of habitually lying just stopped because that guy did an incredibly compassionate not [ __ ] very nice thing took a big risk said a very scary thing to me mhm and that that's compassion that's so sick yeah yeah yeah yeah and the exact opposite in some ways of nice yeah and and best for him best for me yeah yeah but that that definition of compassion most of the time we think I'm doing it for somebody else not I'm doing it for me everybody but Alex Bell just had just had that feeling god damn it Joe is there he's [ __ ] lying i I can't say anything to him alex Bell he felt like this i said that to Joe mhm compassion for him compassion for me we're often scared of the consequences of revealing who we actually are or what we actually think but whatever that consequence is also happens to be a direct path to the life where we are accepted in love for who we are yeah that's the thing we were talking you've said it i've said it it's if you're not being yourself you can't be accepted as yourself you can't create a world for yourself mhm and Alex Bell came in and said "Hey man you know the world probably might accept you actually for who you are but it's not going to accept you for not who you are." Right yeah yeah i hadn't thought about it that way actually that's actually how true is that i think that's pretty [ __ ] true i think you can get ex I think you can get um Instagram accepted for not being yourself i think you can get um like not not a deep form of acceptance for not being yourself but I don't think anybody gets deeply accepted for if they're not being themselves it depends on how much you want to feel connected to this level of acceptance you know because Yeah that's true [ __ ] good example do you know what Goodart's law is it's pretty cool so kind of like Parkinson's law parkinson's law says that work expands to fill the time given for it and Parkinson Goodart's law says that when a measure becomes an outcome it ceases to be a good measure so oh wait wait i haven't heard that that's so good for so many companies I've been involved in when a measure becomes an outcome becomes an outcome it ceases to be a good measure yeah so it's kind of like that's so good so for instance uh let's say this is something I'm doing this year i really want to grow my email list so I'm working hard and I'm trying to grow my email list my goal is million email subscribers by the end of 2025 um so what I could do is I could say everybody that subscribes to my email list I'm going to give you $1,000 and then I could get million email subscribers but I wouldn't give them $1,000 and okay so what was the measure that you wanted well the measure I wanted was a million email subscribers have you got it yes well what why are you not happy with it well what was the outcome the outcome was a million people who care about what I write who genuinely want to be here who weren't conned into it who don't resent me who actually open the emails who d or a version from a business is um our most important thing is reducing fraud okay right so we want to reduce our fraud right so all of the intercom uh uh workers that do customer service and and and inquiries and stuff like that they begin to treat every customer like a potential fraudster right okay we've driven fraud down to basically zero but the customer experience is [ __ ] horrendous and the company's tanking so when a measure becomes an outcome it ceases to be a good measure yeah it's great and I think that the Instagrammer fame thing is a an equivalent of that it's like I want all of the trappings of notoriety and validation and recognition by people that I respect and so on and so forth but it's like if you know that you were just playing a role do you know what it feels like to me it feels like Dubai the the city of Dubai right uh as Eric Weinstein described it he said "It's like a gold bar that's been beaten down into gold leaf so thin that if you poked it your finger would go through." that it's it has the appearance of gold from the outside but as soon as you go in you realize oh this is just sort of prefabricated like [ __ ] like this is it was all manipulated it's all very contrived very contrived I think you know it' be hard to do this without this sort of uh sense of manipulation this sense of like preparedness and and and yeah uh yeah it you should be very very cautious about achieving the goal outwardly uh which doesn't actually represent the goal that you wanted inwardly And I think that you know the the thousand true fans audience thing that you can have uh I reckon if you're doing something that you genuinely care about showing up in your relationship with your partner um the level of promotion that you've got at work in the job title that you live with all of those things I think that you can be much more efficient with those if they're much truer to you you don't need as many followers if the followers genuinely see you and if the work that you're doing resonates with yourself you don't need as big of a pay packet obviously beyond a certain limit your partner doesn't need to you know all of these things he's like "Oh fuck." Like "This is there for me." And it's the reason why I think when we look at people that are super super super successful we should probably look at them with more pity than we do envy you think "Holy [ __ ] what is it that this person is compensating for what is it that they're having to try and overcome?" That's a batch of them there's some of them who are just so missiondriven they're the 20% yeah yeah it's Yeah there was something that you said you were talking about like the folks like Sam Harris and you described the whole thing and one of the things you described was that that you're hopeful that you'll get what you want that there's a hope of my experience of that is it that goes actually away there's a thing I have goals and everything but the my experience is that if I live by my principles which you also talked about in that moment if I live by my principles if I live with an open heart if I act speak the truth that I see my life is a lot [ __ ] better than what I hope what I hope what I hope doesn't compare to what actually seems to occur and that's consistent for a couple decades now like you know I could not I I could not have imagined that I would be able to be the dad that I am or have like I it was recently I was we were having Christmas and I'm like "Oh we're a family like this is what family is supposed to I didn't have any [ __ ] idea what family was supposed to feel like i didn't have that as a [ __ ] goal i wasn't like "Hey I'm going to have a great family." But there I was having the family that I had always wanted that I never knew that I wanted mhm and that's how I see it work is like if you are true to yourself and your principles and you live by them despite the consequences then the thing that you hope for is negligible compared to the thing that you get yeah there's a kind of I don't even know if this is the right word i'm going to use it in any case like soypism or sort of narcissism um over self-reliance it's like oh you know what's best for you do you right yeah you think you know what's best for you you're able to in all the different permutations of the world you're the [ __ ] omnipotent omniscient omnipresent [ __ ] divine mystic are you you know exactly what's best for you no you don't go [ __ ] yourself dude and also you're you think you know what's best from a place where you haven't evolved to the place where you're going to be right so it's like if I'm thinking what's best from 10 years ago my my consciousness is nothing like it was 10 years ago evolution there's no end and so the thing that I could I couldn't even conceive of the reality of my consciousness today so how would I ever possibly know it was a pos you know a potential goal mhm people cannot be split up into parts you accept and parts you reject a person as a whole yeah um yeah what I'm pointing to there is mostly internal but also external but you have to experience it internally first is that um we we like to say this part of ourselves is good and this part of ourselves is bad or some version of that and but the way a human registers it is that if if I say you are a shitty speaker you don't hear that as I'm a shitty speaker and there's 99.999% of me that's great you hear it as I suck as humans so so if you're not able to like love all the parts of yourself there's still something wrong with you and and then that's the way people feel it in the other and if you're in a relationship and particularly like a love relationship and you're like I love all this about you but I don't like these things about you that that you're not actually loving them you're you're trying to manage them you're trying to control them you're trying to get them to change and the and trying to get somebody to change makes for a [ __ ] horrible relationship why because you're basically saying there's something wrong with you and I don't accept you as you are cool let's let's hang out for 30 years on that one it'll be happily ever after mhm rather than oh my job is to get back to unconditional love with you and face whatever I have to face in myself that doesn't allow me to do that mhm cuz my ability to love you has nothing to do with you you can be mad at me and I can love you you can be resentful of me and I can love you like my capacity to love you is is really most strongly defined by my capacity to love myself mhm are we not allowed to have preferences in partners ways that we would prefer that they did and didn't show up of course and ask for them and have boundaries all that stuff super important but that doesn't mean you have to stop loving them mhm that's the weird thing is that people think is you know obviously boundaries are really important when I talk about boundaries I'll say a great boundary opens your heart because you're speaking your truth you're you're you're being you know that no matter what happens next what you're what's going to happen for you is good so let's say this truth of this is what I've discovered when my dad was drinking so my dad he's passed now but he was a drinker and at some point I said to him I'm just not going to come home if all you do is criticize me mhm that opened my heart because what I was saying was I'm not going to accept criticism both externally and internally like and no matter what he did next it didn't really matter because I had made a boundary that was self-care that opened my heart um a year later I could realize oh I can actually be around him as long as he's not drinking like that actually works for me my boundary had shifted but so but the boundary was as much for me as it was for him it was me saying "I'm not going to put up with this." And if I do it externally in the world then it it reaffirms the internal boundary that I'm having of I'm not criticizing myself like that anymore either what do people get right and wrong about boundaries is it kind of a buzz word yeah um often times people use boundaries as a way to control other folks so the two rules I have about boundary is when you think of the boundary you're going to do it opens your heart no matter what they say and two it's your it's telling them what you're going to do not what they're going to do so if you yell at me I am going to leave i'll be gone for 15 minutes and then I will come right back and continue our conversation without you yelling at me immediately allows me to open my heart i'm taking care of myself i'm not telling you what you have to do are you saying I can't yell at you no you can yell at me i just not going to be here for it and so that's those are the two things that people often get wrong with boundaries the last one is that there's two forms of attachment one is the act well there's many forms of attachment but two of the main ones are uh anxious attachment and um avoidant avoidant attachment thank you and so if somebody is anxiously attached and you draw a boundary of I'm leaving if you don't say I'm coming back in 15 minutes is punishment it's death for them on some level on on a little kid level so to draw a boundary that says here's how I'm going to reconnect drawing a boundary where connection is is part of the boundary Until the boundary is I'm not going to connect with you anymore that's fine too but until that is there you're always leaving a place for connection to come back under circumstances they can choose not to do it mhm happy to reconnect with you when you're not yelling at me mhm mhm many people believe that peace means never feeling agitated deep peace is the ability to be with agitation without aversion yeah this is the tension thing with the lung or the salad mhm yeah i prefer the salad yeah life doesn't exist without it so you can't you can't have a non-aggitated state but but agitation is really [ __ ] enjoyable not so the thing about emotion so the here's the thing about the emotion so we talked about how there's that open channel and then there's you know you can kink it in different ways when it's open it's a full welcoming of the emotion and it's almost every em every every emotion I've ever experienced is actually really quite lovely it's like like a lovely experience it's the resistance to it that's painful so going to the bathroom doesn't isn't uncomfortable but resisting going to the bathroom sure as [ __ ] is and similarly emotions when they're fully allowed when they're fully moving through you they're actually they're invigorating like ask any punk rocker about anger remember like old sex pistols it's just an energy anger is an energy it's like there's so much joy that they're feeling like moving that anger in those moments not all the moments but some of the moments like it's actually an incredibly experience uh exhilarating experience to allow an emotion to move through you as soon as you [ __ ] resist it though really painful mhm mhm so it's a deep welcoming and then and so people will say "Well how could I ever enjoy feeling hopeless how could I ever enjoy feeling abandoned?" just as long as you're resisting it you won't but if you can actually fully let it in it's actually quite spacious and and energizing what does that mean fully letting it in so um we have a we have a thing called emotional inquiry which is like the easiest way to know it but it's it's bringing view to your emotional state and or actually allowing your body your muscles to express the emotion and if they if it's been repressed for a long time expression is going to be necessary for a little while because if you've been holding you know I used to be like this because I was holding all the repressed anger from my dad's criticism and I'll call that the critical parent hunch i'll see it in people i'm like critical parent hunch sometimes it's goiosis but usually it's a critical and and as as that changed in me my body posture changed is that that anger got to be released my body posture change so when people do weeklongs with us and they're moving a lot of their emotions you'll see their faces change you'll you'll see their bodies change um physically they call it like the the the groundbreaker's facelift like you'll see that it's happen so often and and so you're holding those emotions are holding this tension in your system and so when you when you actually move it you're actually allowing the muscles to move in a different way you're allowing flexibility that wasn't there before often times a tremendous amount of energy moves through the system where people feel like buzzing through the system when that happens yeah yet certainly the the resistance and that sort of openness uh everybody knows what it's like when some thought loop has been going on and on and on in their head i think well what like what if it does happen yeah exactly so if you if you meet any emotion in view vulnerability meaning I'm going to allow it to feel impartiality meaning I'm not going to try to control what the [ __ ] empathy meaning I'm actually going to be with it and wonder like what is this so if you have an emotional experience it means that it's a sematic experience means it's moving in your body how does it move how thick is it how far from the center is it where is the center of it how dense is it what color is it nobody does that with an emotional experience there with emotional experience they're like I'm angry don't but there's a very unique sensation they've done heat maps where they show unique unique heat signatures for different emotions and bodies so like what is it to actually explore the [ __ ] out of that like what is that exactly the way that you would lay if you're lifting you would explore the deep sensation of oh I got my tricep right here it's like you can do that with emotions and that's what fully feeling and letting it have its full way with you and usually typically the way it works is your mind goes it's not rational like I shouldn't be feeling this well yeah emotions aren't rational you know um and because emotions are create a tremendous amount of clarity but they do it differently rationality creates clarity like a plus b equals c emotions create clarity like oh that's it and you see this all the time with like a CEO who's like really stuck on something like "Let's go get [ __ ] angry." We go get angry and then like halfway through the anger he's like "Oh I know what to do." Or she's like "Oh that's the thing that's been bothering me i know the boundary I have to keep." And typically that in anger specifically it is a sign that there's a boundary that you're not holding why because anger in its clarity is determination and and clarity and so oftent times that determination you're getting angry because something you care about something and it's not happening and so I care I love I want this thing it's not happening and it means that there's something that doesn't feel right to you and you're not drawing the boundary like Gandhi would have drawn the boundary or or or in a relationship it's like oh to my dad it was I was angry all the time as soon as I said hey I'm not going to accept that anymore mhm well a lot less anger mhm mhm i was angry cuz I thought I had to [ __ ] accept it yes because I bought into the fact that he was my oppressor most people believe confidence comes from being really good at what they do or never messing up but unshakable confidence comes from knowing your worth isn't tied to your performance yeah so you can't That's a banger thank you you cannot [ __ ] up like you and I have sat here in this room we've both [ __ ] up countless [ __ ] times so if you go for perfectionism to give you confidence it's never going to ever work so confidence comes from oh I know who I am i understand myself it is is a a sense of understanding oneself and and and if you understand who you are then value is it either makes no sense or it's so clear that you have it there's no idea there's no such thing as one person being more valuable than another and of course I'm valuable because it's no longer contingent on how you have performed how you showed up yeah i've never seen anybody hold a baby and they're like "Not valuable enough here you go." It's that whole idea is [ __ ] mhm mhm yeah there's certainly again the uh curse of the insecure overachiever of being able to look at a particular performance a day a date or whatever it is uh and zeroing in on the one area where something went slightly wrong and uh I think this tension it's an interesting one because in a lot of ways this is the thing that has this is the competitive advantage that a lot of people should actually be quite grateful for you know if you look at your business branding for instance I do a lot of work around branding so Newtonic the this this thing uh every single bit of does that have caffeine in it yes okay every single bit of copy but the other one doesn't so the element the the element yeah that that peach thing which is grapefruit uh that does not that's just electrolytes that tastes fantastic so that'll keep you going yeah I know this um every single bit of copy that's on this every single piece of branding the color hue it's not quite white it's an off-white you everything the fact that I've talked about this before uh the Instagram logo is half a step outside of the follow us which [ __ ] kills me because we did a million can order of of of this with this slightly outside all of that um so my capacity and many other people's capacity within business within other areas of their life within um uh their body their diet their health you know I'm able to zero in okay where is it that could be optimal where could I be better where could this thing be better and you think well that level of detail orientation a comedian working on a set crafting this it's not quite there it's not quite there it's not quite there there it is there it is i finally got it you know it's this sort of unreal with my tweets yes yeah this unrelenting craftsmanship right neater tighter more precise so much joy in it uh but you've created this kind of demon that looks for issues that looks for problems oh except I have never written a perfect tweet of course but you're like I'm I'm going to continue to continue to continue to work i'm going to vacasillate i'm going to ruminate i'm going to continue to look what could be better than that [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] what is it what is it what is it that's ah that's better that's good you go yeah i want you to be like that around branding but not in my friendships when we go you know I really got to be my Frankie really i don't want you to do around branding why so that's going to kill the connection on the brand like you'll lose the you'll lose the the bigger picture like yeah go ahead and do it and enjoy it like enjoy it like oh I want this perfect and that's cool and I want to do that that's great but the rumination makes you move miss the oh is this something that I want to drink mhm it misses the like oh what's the total vibe of this thing and how much does it connect with me yeah perhaps rumination was the was the wrong I think what I'm specifically trying to get at is the the level of detail orientation and this could be better right right this could be neater tighter more precise um and that most people believe confidence comes from being really good at what they do and never messing up right in many ways when you look at your tweet you go "Well like I I I could be better this could be less messed up." You know what I mean like you can use one less word yeah you can perform some lexical Brazilian jiu-jitsu [ __ ] to end up in a place where this sentence is just you talking about your tweeting and you being like "Well this just is a justification for accepting sub-optimal tweets right?" You know what I mean um and I I just think Ryan Long the reason I use the comedy thing Ryan Ryan told me about this we were talking about it a few months ago and uh he's a real craftsman when it comes to the way that he puts his sets together and he does these sort of like real zingy oneliners and stuff and he said I realized that it's real tough for me to draw compartmentalize and draw boundaries around I want you to be this detail oriented and this sort of obsessively focused and precise and all of the rest of the stuff within the domain of comedy right but I don't want you to go you it's you know it's going to bleed out into your nature it's going to bleed out into other areas of you it does it doesn't for me I don't know what I I've never really looked at this deeply I I am very precise about certain things if I'm putting together a workshop I am we are every time we do a workshop we refine it to make it even more powerful even more you know it doesn't matter we get a 90 whatever 5% completion rate I don't care I like how do I make this better how do I make this more useful I'm but I'm not like that when it comes to the performance of somebody that works with me because I I because it kills my connection so in my system there's a prioritization of connection i don't know how I how that happened so I I I'm not sure if I have any wisdom or or valuable thought on it but but I I just know that to me that only happens when it helps me feel connected and then it but I but if it doesn't if I feel disconnected by it it stops yeah that's interesting i did just that whatever you want to call it curse of competence curse of the sort of that inner voice but you know it's this this particular suite of traits where people want to achieve well they want to create work that they're proud of they want to work hard at things but they also know that like the whole reason they're doing this is to kind of enjoy it ultimately and if they whip themselves into submission they can look back on a career of a string of miserable successes and go hooray what do I do with this yeah That's I mean I have I've have had a lot of clients who've found themselves exactly that i've got everything that I always wanted except I'm not happy mhm and that's a that is a unbelievably common thing because they they were chasing happiness with a bad strategy through success through success yeah or money or power or influence or whatever m but the like gold medal happiness is whatever the 5 minutes on the podium or maybe a couple days if you're lucky mhm happiness you know comes from understanding yourself it doesn't come from achievement long-term happiness short-term happiness definitely achievement and I think Echarl says this which I really appreciate he says "The reason that we're happy when we achieve something is because we have a moment where we don't want anything else which I think is a like a brilliant thought process so I was talking to Naval i didn't actually bring this up with him but I put it in here because I wanted to say to say to you and see what you thought happiness is the state where nothing is missing when nothing is missing your mind shuts down and stops running into the past or the future to regret something or to plan something happiness is the state where nothing is missing yeah i mean we just experienced that when I said go don't go into the past or the future to find something wrong with you mhm mhm yeah that's ex Yeah that's exactly the the dilemma with that is that for years people are like be present and that'll make you happy and then what people do is they say why am I not [ __ ] present i should be more present which is the opposite of presence and so presence as a modality is a very slow moving like it's a very slowm moving it takes a lot like 10 years to constantly practice presence to to get there but there's the but there's other things like connection which is always there presence is also always there but like I can find connection right now here with you and I don't have to try for it mhm and presence is the same way but presence isn't is quite as easy to see i can feel a connection with you i can feel a connection with even the microphone i can feel a connection with myself it's like a very right there i'm always having an emotion i can always have that experience of letting that emotion ride through me they're very they're like very simple things where presence somehow at least the way in our society it's like I got to get off my phone i have to do this thing i have to be present instead of even I'm on my phone how do I be more present on my phone wait a second what actually the more efficient thing is what about me is right now present on my phone mhm mhm and so even that idea of I have to do something to get there by I have to be more present is counter is away from is in moving away from happiness and happiness is self understanding self- understanding because once you understand yourself then then you realize there's nothing wrong heck yeah joe Hudson ladies and gentlemen Joe you're great uh I'm fired up to do this thing later on this show with you we've got a day tomorrow as well uh yeah yeah where should people go they want to check out all of the stuff that you do thanks yeah um art of accomplishment.com is a great place to get all the the podcast art of accomplishment uh we haveund and something things so if you're doing that just like go through and like pick a topic that's interesting to you and then listen to that don't listen to it in order yeah highly recommended dude uh yeah it's really fantastic i'm very very glad that I found you and uh I always look forward to seeing what you're putting up what a pleasure to be with you thanks do you think that your algorithm on YouTube is a bit of a god is it able to know things about you that you don't know about yourself well the YouTube gods have selected this episode specifically for you bespoke so go and go and check it 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