hi guys I haven't been on for a while I think two or three days something like that um Saturday I started to notice that my neck was swollen a little more along with my arm my left arm it's not as bad today but it's still pretty bad so um we came to the emergency room and they instantly feel that my oxygen was low it was like 79 I think it was really low and so I've been put on oxygen both of my lungs are now full of fluid and so I can't breathe um that fluid is not going to go away so we have surgery planned today I mean yes kind of little comments slow down since I have connections week so anyways we have surgery at three so if you don't mind some players we've also been told yesterday that six months is a goal but it can't happen at any time and I'm struggling so hahaha so yeah you don't mind please pray for my husband my family and this is totally rocking our world I don't know what the plan is here and I'm trying to believe there is one um baby episode 25 and I just want a curl up and cry I'm gonna hop off here and just let things sink in but I wanted to tell y'all firsthand what's going on that you know I'm thinking I forgot to explain my neck is swollen not from my lymph nodes but a huge blood clot that goes up into my skull you've got me on the heparin to let it pass so that it doesn't go into my brain so that point there's nothing that we can do please please pray love you guys foreign