all right there that looks pretty good hi guys this is what me and my friends do all the time we will just sit here on my floor until like 3:00 in the morning and talk so today you guys are going to be my friends and we're just going to talk PS guys outfit of the day I am in fact wearing shorts cuz I already know there's going to be wardrobe malfunctions in this video so I just posted on Instagram maybe what do you guys want to know um so let's see we can start with this how have you been in general um honestly I have been fantastic lately it is Leo season I thrive in the summertime I just have been feeling so good lately I've been having like the ultimate haot R summer a lot has been going on I've been traveling all over the place and not just experiences like that but I feel like I'm growing as a person a lot right now um like I've been saying in all my videos lately I just really want to be the best version of myself and I'm on kind of like a spiritual journey at the moment um I felt like like I said a while ago I kind of lost myself for a little too long um I think and I'm not going to get emotional already but um yeah I just feel like I was not myself for the last long long time and I feel like this summer I've been coming alive again and just getting really back to who I used to be and not only who I used to be but who I'm becoming and I think really honing in and creating the best version of me and I know I've been saying that in a lot of my videos and what does that really mean and honestly I don't know I'm kind of figuring it out as I go but I will say I think more than ever I am really starting to align how I believe you should live your life with how I do live my life and that is just bringing me a lot of peace and joy and I think I've just been more authentically myself lately in every area of my life and that has just been really really refreshing and I think that's just been making me really happy so yeah you know I love giving advice how about this best tip for the girlies do whatever you want literally all the time it doesn't matter what other people think it doesn't matter what other people people say you know if you want to dye your hair bright pink dye your hair bright pink you want to text him first text him first if you want to quit your job and go become an artist do it as the girlies we are the Ethereal fairy princess angels of the earth whoever you are when you close your eyes and dream up your perfect dream girl be her you can do it anything at all what are you most grateful for honestly I have so many answers to this question and I think I'm very grateful for that to be honest I'm grateful that I'm grateful for so many things in my life but I will say this there's two that are overwhelmingly kind of similar um and intertwined such a Cheesy answer but it's so true it is you guys watching it is um it is 0% lost on me how lucky I am to have an army of amazing strong beautiful women watching me through a screen I um you know I went to the Taylor Swift eras tour obviously it was amazing I'm a huge Swifty I'm grateful for Taylor Swift I'm grateful to be alive in this era I also went to the 1989 tour um and I remember sitting in Staple Center and I'm looking around at all the people in the stadium and she says I just want to say thank you to all 15,000 of you who came out tonight and I couldn't help but think you know 15,000 people selling out Staple Center I'm talking to many many Knights right now of a sold out Staple Center tour um hi welcome to aers era tours actually honestly that's a great example that is kind of how I feel lately I feel like I am just entering into a new era of my life and you guys have been here through all of the different eras of my life and now I'm moving into another one and to have women standing behind me is just the one of the greatest honors in the world and I'm so so grateful um that you guys I'm going to cry that you guys chose um chose to watch back then and choose to watch still now so thank you so much for that I'm really grateful I really am yeah oh no I'm also grateful that tears taste good salty it goes along with that but actually the other thing that I'm super grateful for is um my past self really you know I was saying earlier how things are hard to do and it's not uh it's not every day that someone is brave enough or strong enough or courageous enough to do anything and I am so grateful that I was so diligent and so steadfast and so just believed in myself so so so much back when there was no reason for me to so I owe my whole life today to who I was back then and I'm so grateful um I'm just so grateful for who I was then oh man this was supposed to be fun I mean it is fun I like a good cry I'm not going to lie how you're doing with your mental health you look happier thanks okay so I'm not going to lie I used to push most of that stuff under the rug just because you know on the outside my life is so perfect it really is and again not lost on me I mean look at this background you know I'm the luckiest girl in the world um and I really believe that which is a very important montra that I do keep in mind all the time I am a very lucky girl but aside from that um whether you noticed or not I don't know but yeah I wasn't feeling great for like honestly a long time um and I think realizing how much that had been affecting me the last few years made me want to take steps to really change um change my world you know I didn't want to live in a mess anymore I didn't want to dress like a slob anymore I didn't want to um I didn't want to let the wonderful world that I had created for myself go to waste so I just really wanted to bring back to life the me that I knew was still inside of me and um yeah I think that's what really kickstarted everything so I've been really just trying to find myself again lately and get back to my spirit and even this video just something I've always wanted to kind of sit down and do doing it um it's really good for my soul I feel like it's it's bringing me back to life in many many ways speaking of becoming your best self sponsor for today's video is better help which if you guys are needing to talk to someone it's a great resource you guys might want to check out uh it's super easy you just fill out this little questionnaire they will match you with licensed therapists only trained to help you with whatever it is that you it's the easiest path to therapy um that I think exists so if you guys want to check it out the link betterhelp.com amersol is in the description click my name when you sign up and they'll give you a special discount on your first month too so so cheers to all of us becoming you know the best versions of ourselves I think together we're already on a pretty good start so looking forward to what the future has to hold for us okay this is a good one what job would you want to do if YouTube didn't exist you know if someone gave me a billion dollars and said you don't ever have to work another day in your life what would you do I would absolutely still do this and I think I want to transition my channel actually um a little more into what I would do if I was retired you know like this is the kind of video that I would make if I never had to do anything ever again and I'm so lucky because people often ask me this question you know like oh do you have any hobbies and um the answer is actually no not to sound super boring but all of my hobbies have been lucky enough to turn into a career back when I had 100 other jobs this is what I was doing doing for fun and if I wasn't doing this I would want to be a teacher for sure I love sharing what I know and what I've learned and helping people grow up I feel like love showing you guys the world and showing you guys how to do things and I do make my videos to be entertaining so I hope you're having a little bit of a good time watching this at least but mostly I hope you go away with every video that I ever post um with some kind of little nugget of knowledge that will make you walk through the world a little differently so teacher I think is what I would do what is your biggest inspiration in life you know I have a lot of things that really inspire me I got to say my Nostalgia for the past um I think I've had many past lives as you guys know I'm very into like vintage and antique and I'm a very old soul and I think that this particular lifetime I think this is my last one you know I think this is my last time on earth and the Legacy that I want to leave behind is what inspires me the most I think just how will I be thought of for many years down the road like when people say my name in a 100 years 200 years what will they say if I ever have a daughter someday what is she going to say about her mom and while I have the chance you know what am I going to say to you guys I am living one of my wildest dreams right now I used to sit on my floor and talk to the camera when no one was watching so what am I going to say to you and how will you remember me and my mark in the art history book of time I think about that all the time what was one experience that changed your perspective about life since this is a video about life I think that's a pretty good one but I've actually always wanted to tell this story um but I guess I never really had an opportunity in a video until now so here's my big chance um my old apartment um the first one that I ever moved into post post being a YouTuber remember that big window I used to have in there the story is about the window so um before I ever moved in I only toured it in the day so I had never seen that window at night up until the first night I was actually living there and I remember I looked out it for the first time and I just it took my breath away and um I just remember thinking that that was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen the cityscape sparkling in the background it it just made I mean I could tear up thinking about it right now I just remember it was like such an important moment in my life but cut to the next night I looked out the window and it was just 50 times more beautiful than the night before glittering sparkling crystal clear and I realized that the night before before had actually been a really cloudy night and actually wasn't even close to as beautiful as the view could really be and that was a lesson I think and things just really can always get better even when you think that something is the best thing you've ever seen done whatever there is always more Magic on the horizon and some of the most amazing wonderful Days of Our Lives have truly never even happened yet and that I think that night realizing um that something that I thought was was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen in the world it wasn't even half of all that could and will be just made me realize that God actually has so many more wonderful things in store and things that you don't even know um especially now you know I mean thinking back on how beautiful that window was and how much it used to take my breath away it's still not even close to the window that I have now and I think the metaphor in there is that life really can get so good you never even really know just how good it can actually get there's always so much more the meaning of Life wow you know I honestly think the meaning of life is to enjoy that's it I like to think of life as kind of a spiritual experience instead of a human one like if I was an angel up in heaven and God said would you like to go down and like see what it's like to be a human I would imagine since it's me I would have been like oh my gosh yes um so I kind of like to think in that scenario like I'm just an angel participating in this world um and learning and seeing like what The Human Experience can be like and what is it like to have a body and what is it like to learn and grow and it'll be nice to go back up to the angels someday and tell them all the things I learned and saw and you know made my soul grow I want to be able to go back up to heaven and tell God I had a great time I also like the idea that I'll leave the Earth just a little better than I found it you know how do I love myself I've read every book repeated every affirmation and I still fail you know what I done a couple videos sort of on this topic in the past um but I think the biggest thing to learning to love yourself is that you don't have to be perfect to love yourself at all in fact you don't even have to like yourself very much you just have to kind of accept that you're not perfect and that's okay and that doesn't mean that you don't deserve to enjoy your life how I was kind of saying earlier that we're just like Spiritual Beings um experiencing the human life your body is just a vessel you're much more of a soul than you are of anything else and I think learning to love that um and thinking about your physical form is just an art piece to express who you are on the inside and it's never going to be perfect but that's kind of what makes it art and unique and you should enjoy it because there's only one you I think it's kind of a lifelong journey too it's not something that you wake up overnight and you're like oh yeah I love myself now but I think becoming friends with yourself and over time just realizing it's okay if you're not perfect you're never going to be there's still things to love about yourself learn and grow you know how do you keep going when it feels like everything is trying to push you back this is something that I feel like I've really been Lear learning a lot lately um specifically with as you know I do a bunch of businesses and I do all sorts of things and you guys know I'm always talking about relaunching 333 and it has taken me 5 million years to do what I want to do with it and it's just so hard like funding is hard the manufacturing is hard like when you are a perfectionist like me getting everything perfect is very hard but I tell you this I held one of the Rings in my hand the other day for the first time dozens of samples later months of working on it and I can honestly say it was perfect and holding perfection in my hand after so many months of working on it I was not only holding something that I was so proud of I was holding something no one had ever done before and the reason that no one has ever done it is because it's hard and the greatest of the greats are great at something because most people stop on the way there and most people do not you know when things are pushing them back they stop there's a famous quote that basically says go the extra mile it's never crowded point is what keeps me going when things are always pushing me back is knowing for every single thing that pushes me back it just amplifies how much more it will mean to me on the other side so yeah I genuinely believe if you never give up you're going to get whatever it is that you want so that always keeps me going all the greats are one of one I just turned 18 what's some big girl advice you would give knowing what you know now you know weirdly I feel like being 18 was not that long ago I think have fun and know that it's okay to not really know everything 18 you feel like you're so old and mature and you've lived a whole life but that's not true at all you're just a baby of the universe still and make wise decisions but also know that it's okay if you mess up it's okay if you don't do everything perfectly so find your passions chase them relentlessly and uh know that it's all going to work out no matter what and remember to make memories that someday when you're 30 sitting on your floor and someone asks you about what it was like to be 18 make sure you make memories that will make you smile very big this is actually a very interesting question cuz I I've been thinking about this a lot lately how do you keep connecting with friends who are in a different stage in their lives hear me out I have friends all over the board I have friends who are 21 and are in college and are like I feel like I'm their cool aunt and I'm like mentoring them and helping them grow and then I have friends who are 57 who are mentoring me and are helping me grow I know people living out of their car and I know people who made $80 million last year I truly have such a wide range of people that I know and people in my life and I think that's one of the things that keep me very aware of myself and time and how much I have grown and how much I still have left to grow and I think the best way to stay connected to our fellow humans in general is just remember that you can learn so so much from everyone no matter what Walk of Life stage of Life anything we're all a lot more similar than we are different so even in different stages we all very similar Souls you know on that topic this is kind of a nice one where do you see yourself 30 years from now honestly I hope 30 years from now I'm doing the same thing that I'm doing now but on a more Grand scale how do I explain this I think how I was just saying like when I'm you know 30 looking back on being 18 I hope that when I'm 99 I'm looking back on my life now and thinking hell yeah I I did it first of all I'm going to be a very chic little old lady with like I already know my haircut it's going to be like gray and come out like this and be swoopy and I'm going to be just so Chic and cool all dressed in my vintage Chanel that I'm buying today but yeah I I think um like I said I hope I made the Legacy that I wanted to make and I can look back on my life and really be super super proud probably sitting right here in the sky castle too except I have a chair are you afraid of Aging no I think that I'm going to be the world's greatest old lady I just think that's in my destiny I'm already a 97-year-old and a 30-year-old's body my Prime is going to be when I'm 75 I think I like to think that I live my hotness to the fullest you know like I am wearing short skirts I'm really doing the most to enjoy this era but you know the little wrinkles by my eyes and stuff it just means I smiled a lot so I don't mind know what is something that you learned this year Well I write every year on my birthday you guys know this I write little lists um of what I learned over the year and you know 25 things I learned to 25 22 things I learned to 22 and something I'm definitely going to write on the list this year is this if your intentions are pure be Fearless if your heart truly believes Bel that it needs to be said or done do it the world always needs more of things done in love I don't know if I even have an answer for this question but have you let go of something you desperately wanted it's really deep um I wrote this down on my list last year which is you can't always have everything you want but you can always go after it and you should always go after it and I think I've let go of things that I thought I desperately wanted but sometimes no is an answer that you want from the UN universe and I've learned to accept that um with Grace I think if something has really meant for me it will come to me and I do believe I'm always divinely protected you know main tips for manifesting hard work will always turn into good luck will everything work out I'm currently having a quarter life crisis please help the girly out love you too let me tell you this not only will everything work out but but things are going to be even better than you ever literally could have dreamed of um I mean if this is not proof enough I am living breathing proof um that your dreams can happen I mean if I could have only seen this when I started um my channel my God but you know what I got to tell you but I did always kind of see it in here one of my go-to number one favorite quotes that always calms me down is that you can't mess up fate you know it's whatever's written in the stars is going to happen no matter what I honestly believe that one of the only reasons we dream things is because Destiny has already ordained it for us so always keep that thought in your heart and mind and never stop believing and never stop chasing everything that it is that you want because someday you'll be sitting in it on that note um I love you kisses till next time EXO too long to type in the question box box but would you rather accidentally send your mom a link to or find out the lingerie your man bought you is used probably rather send my mom a l she already knows I shop online a lot it's wouldn't be that weird sorry Mom