Coming up next on Passion Struck. All we need in our lives is a direction, an orientation, no matter how specific, no matter how vague. If we know where we're going, that in itself reduces our anxiety. If you put someone in the middle of the desert and they have no idea where to go, their anxiety is going to go up. Just say, "Hey, head north." That will reduce their anxiety. We need a little bit of clarity. We need a little bit of direction, something that we can orient ourselves towards. And then we just enjoy the journey understanding that journey is going to have its highs and its lows, its easy days, its very difficult days. And who we become through going through that is the only thing that matters. Welcome to Passion Struck. Hi, I'm your host John Arm. And on the show, we decipher the secrets, tips, and guidance of the world's most inspiring people and turn their wisdom into practical advice for you and those around you. Our mission is to help you unlock the power of intentionality so that you can become the best version of yourself. If you're new to the show, I offer advice and answer listener questions on Fridays. We have long- form interviews the rest of the week with guests ranging from astronauts to authors, CEOs, creators, innovators, scientists, military leaders, visionaries, and athletes. Now, let's go out there and become passionruck. [Music] [Applause] I am absolutely thrilled today to welcome Humble the poet to Passion Struck. Welcome Humble. Thank you so much for having me John. Yeah, I have to just congratulate you on your new book, Unxious. The subtitle is 50 simple truths to help overthinkers feel less stress and more calm. Congratulations on its release. Thank you so much. I really appreciate that. We're going to be diving more into the book throughout our conversation today, but I'd love to open these conversations with a thought-provoking question. We all have defining moments, I call them, in our lives that influence who we become. I was hoping you might be able to share a defining moment for you. Yeah. So in 2010, I decided to walk away from my stable career as an elementary school teacher to pursue my creative itches. At the time, I thought I was just a mediocre teacher. And when I was creating art after work, I was known as the tough one, the guy who was getting everyone to work extra hard and put in the extra hours. And it really helped me differentiate, oh, maybe I'm not lazy, I'm just doing the wrong thing. And I realized it was one of the first instances where I was able to give myself grace through observing myself and picking up on my patterns and being my own cheerleader to encourage myself to pursue a life that felt more authentic. And it was definitely not the easiest leaving a job and starting from scratch as a creative. But definitely it was one of the largest turning points in my life where now as I live and have such unique beautiful experiences I wonder what if you didn't pull that trigger you hadn't done it. So that definitely is one of those moments in my life that really changed everything not just in my external world but also in my internal world in terms of how I viewed myself and how I treated myself. Well, thank you so much for sharing that. And I have to say when I think about myself, I've never really considered myself to be a teacher. In fact, it's something that I really feel like I struggle with. How do you come up with the lesson plans? How do you make sure that what you're saying is really reaching the audience? And I think one of the things I did when I first started this podcast is I felt like I was talking at the audience instead of talking with them. and bringing them more into it. So, they felt the emotion and there was a deeper connection and I still have a long way to go, but it's those who do it well. It is such an important art for people to understand. So, I'm just grateful you were a teacher and trying to help shape lives because Lord knows we need good teachers. Most definitely. And it's such an interesting position to be in because a fraction of the job is the teaching. And then if you start think going back to your own memories and thinking about your favorite teachers, you don't remember much about how what they taught. It's really about if they made you feel seen, they made you feel heard and how they made you feel about yourself. And I think that was a big valuable lesson because I went in thinking that I love learning and I want to be a lifelong learner and this would be a great environment for that. And then I realized this wasn't just going to be a knowledge base. It was not to fill anybody's head with knowledge. Not mine, not theirs. It was to light a fire in both them and I. And as you said, there's there's talking at an audience, talking to an audience, just talking through an audience. And it really is when we introduce emotion, vulnerability, honesty, is that when we we build that authentic connection, which is a two-way street. Even with a platform like a podcast where we may not be able to have the conversations with the people on the other end, we can still create a two-way street of connection. And I think that's the most important part for us to learn and grow with each other. So, this isn't part of anything I scripted out for today's discussion. I have to go a little bit deeper with you here because I think it's an important topic. You just brought up something so important. You said as a teacher, one of the things that you're trying to do is to make the kids feel seen, to feel heard, to feel significant, which is the essence really of mattering. Yes. And when I think about schools today, and now my kids have grown up, they're 21 and 26, but I remember as they were growing up and going through the school system, it just seems like in so many ways they're being conditioned to do the opposite. In so many ways, we have standardized tests that break people of being creative. We kids instead of feeling comfortable about speaking their mind and giving the answer that comes top of their head and being inquisitive get conditioned to give the answer that they think the teacher wants to hear or they're embarrassed to do it in front of their classmates. And I could go on and on, but I'd love your perspective on this. It is really interesting because you start to realize that the structure of the school, the classroom, the clock, the hierarchy in terms of your teachers, your principles, a lot of it really feels industrial. And you start to realize like, oh, this is really you're preparing children for society, but really what society is an economy. You're preparing them to contribute to an economy, not contribute to a community. Our communities have become so big. We live in cities of millions of people now that we can't have these deep connections with our village, with the people even in our own neighborhoods. And what ends up happening is in school, it's about okay, let's get these basic lessons taught. Let's reward people with very specific learning styles. We're rewarding behavior that works well in a workplace. We're rewarding behavior that works well for somebody who's looking for a salary in two weeks off per year. And there are so many different learning styles and people absorb the world in so many different ways. Some people, a simple example would be if you want to teach children 2 plus 2 is four. Some kids you can just write it on the chalkboard and they'll get it. Some kids you're going to have to give them a bunch of Cheerios to play with and manipulate and they have to to get that structure that way. Some people you can just tell it to them and they'll understand. There's auditory, there's visual, there's kesthetic. And when you start to fill up a teacher's classroom with 35 kids, they don't have the bandwidth or the resources to approach each individual student the way they need to be approached. And then you start to recognize that some of the success and the failures with individuals as they grow up really has to do with a world just not being designed for them in the way they are. And that really robs us of some of the most important things that we need, which are soft skills. I'm sure you've recognized it, too. Just being able to work with people, making friends, cooperation, coexisting, sharing, all of these are have they have such an important value, not only just to society, but even if you're working at your job, at some point, everyone's got the same resume and they're going to hire the person they want to be see every day. And I think we really realize that a lot of this is really based on feeding something that may not be as important as we think it needs to be. as I said, the standardized testing, the reading, and we're not updating it. We're not updating it for the fact that there's a calculator in our phones. We're not updating it for the fact that AI exists or YouTube lessons exist. And it's a really interesting thing that I think individual parents have to take a look at when it comes to getting preparing their kids for the world. I think you and I have both understood in our entrepreneurial journey that you got to learn as you go and you got to constantly learn. There's no finish line to that brother. Yeah. There's no paperwork. And I always the analogy that I use is the zoo in the jungle. And it's like even when I was working in the school, I felt like I lived in a zoo. I felt like I was in a cage. Every two weeks, someone gave me my food, but I was trapped in a cage. And then when I left the safety and security of a job, I moved to the jungle. And I was definitely more free and I could go wherever I want, whenever I wanted. But that cage that held me in was also protecting me from predators and it was also providing me food that I had to find myself. And there was a couple of years it took for me to adjust to it. But I'm grateful I did because I think and I'm sure you can attest to this again as an entrepreneur. There are no more curve balls that we're not prepared for because every day is a curveball. All we're doing is practicing our swing to deal with the curve balls of life. And I think in the new world that we're in, that's probably one of the most important things that we can teach younger children is resilience through challenge and the simple idea that the world will never get easier. You can only get stronger and have them correlate that to the societies we live in where every single product being sold to us is sold in the name of convenience. This will make it easier to get your food. This will make it easier to watch a movie. This will make it easier for you to get from point A to point B. Not understanding that we're not just paying with money. We're paying with resilience. And then the our lack of resilience is an abundance of anxiety, stress, tension. And when we have an abundance of those, then we start to lack empathy. We start to lack our ability to connect with other people. The idea, the way education is currently structured, it almost feels like it's sabotaging us from a mental health perspective, but also from the perspective of us having even basic basic empathy for each other and caring about each other. And hyperindividualism is great for those who want to profit, but it's not so good for us to be excited about getting out of bed in the morning. Yeah. To me, it's almost like we become very good at preparing our kids to be controlled because all the systems that you're talking about are trying to control us, control our attention, control our buying habits, control the type of clothing we want, control the type of car we want. It's all a control mechanism. And when we give up our creativity and our free thinking, a lot of that goes to the wayside. Even governments control us. Absolutely. And I think the important thing to recognize as well is especially during the pandemic. How much did we rely on creativity to keep our lips above water? We were listening to podcasts. We were watching Netflix. We were listening to music, movies. These are children that never grew up creating this. And we depended on that. We depend on music. when we're stuck in traffic. We depend on these things and we should value them accordingly. This isn't this stuff isn't just here for fun. It is a necessary part of our system. It's a necessary part for our mental health and our ability to get through the day. And it can't just be for entertainment. It has to be storytelling because as a species, that's how we progress. We write our stories, we share our stories, and we learn from other people's stories. That's great. And I want to direct us back to Unanch anxious, your book. And I really found it interesting how you started it with a powerful grounding exercise. Unclench your jaw. Gently take your tongue off the roof of your mouth and let it rest. Why did you feel it was important to start the book that way? Because when I was going through my research and and I came across some of these activities, it's almost presumptuous to assume that somebody needs to unclench their jaw and take their tongue off the roof of their mouth, but that's where it's already at. It's this the idea of the body keeps score. It's we're already our bodies are already compensating for the stress and the tension that we're feeling. And I wanted to meet people where they're at and say, "Look, we're all going through a difficult time. And it's important that you understand that I see where you're coming from. And I'm not here to promise you magical inner peace for the rest of your life. What I'm here to do is start a dialogue with you and address some of the despair that we all feel. Despair meaning the hopelessness when we think we've run out of options. This book isn't a magic pill to to rid people of anxiety. This book is a book full of options that we may not have considered to manage our emotions more effectively and navigate this world which is getting heavier and more challenging every single day. So it was important for me to start it where I felt I was already meeting people. My big question that I was asking myself I was as I was writing this book because I wrote it selfishly to address the anxious feelings I was having around circumstances in my life. It was what does a white belt and anxiety look like? What does somebody who is just we all have anxious feelings not all of us have realized it yet? And my question was just like how do I meet somebody at the very beginning? And it was this idea that we're viewing anxiety as some sort of condition I have in that same chapter. Anxiety isn't herpes. It's not androof. It's not a condition that you need to cure. It's a signal. It's like hunger or something that we need to pay attention to. It's something that when it's tuned correctly is one of our greatest gifts. It it's on our team. And it was really important for me to recognize that all of us are dealing with way more than we should be dealing with. And I wanted to approach that with grace and respect so the reader understood that look, we're all in the same boat. Let's go on this journey together. I'm still on the journey and I'll forever be on this journey. And if we go through it together, I'll take the first steps by being vulnerable and open about it and and let's see if we can improve together as a collective. Yeah, what you just said reminded me of one of the lines that really stuck with me and that is you wrote, "I hate that you had to pick up this book." And I think we all hate that we have to pick up the book, but anxiety has become such a universal struggle affecting all components of life from the oldest people in society to Gen Alpha. It's just incredible. So, we're going to talk about some of the ways to confront it throughout our discussion, but I wanted to go back to something you were talking about earlier. I happened to interview Dr. Sandra Matz, who's a professor at Colombia, and she wrote this recent book about digital psychology. And she starts her book out by talking about how she was born in a small village in Germany. And everyone in this village knew everything about her. Like when she lost her cat, everyone knew about it. When she got into a motorcycle accident, for better or worse, everyone knew about it. But throughout all of it, she always felt like she mattered. And you write and share in the book that your parents grew up in villages without electricity. Your mother felt nostalgic when she visited a small town in Kenya. And that sense of belonging to a tight-knit community is something that, as you brought up, now that we're in this global village, feel very disconnected from. How do you think modern isolation is contributing to our anxiety? It's something you and I talked about before we even came on the show. Yeah. And what's your advice to the listeners on how they can build community in their own life? I think just a general statement about us as a species is I think our outside world has evolved and changed significantly quicker than our biology has. We're not even biologically designed to consume some of the colors that we're seeing. These colors don't exist in nature. There's a supernormalness to them when we experience them. And if you think about the world that we live in, which is post-industrial, super modern, this is a world that's existed for maybe 300 years. And we as a creature in our form, we've been around for maybe 50 to 100,000 years looking the way and having the biology that we do. And we if we for the majority of human history, we were always in smaller communities. We were in communities of probably 50 to 150 people. And we developed programming that put the needs of our village over ours. Understanding that rejection would have led to our death. Understanding that we are part of something greater than us. And then a lot of our modern day problems relate to the fact that we still have this software, but it doesn't work when you have a million people. You can figure out who the coolest kid is in your middle school if you got 300 kids, but you can't figure out who the coolest kid in Manhattan is if there's 11 million people here. And that does something that discombobulates our ability to process information. And what happens with that and you include this concept of for the needs of the economy, we're being pushed towards a culture of hyperindividualism. I think the first thing that I would love to to say to the audience is understand your need for authentic connection with real people in real life. It's a non-negotiable. We need each other. We need each other. Not that we want. We need each other. And it's our responsibility to create these connections. And it's really important to understand that modern society has provided us with fast food options. Just like eating fast food, if you're hungry, you can eat fast food and it'll be quick. It'll be cheap. It'll be easy. And obviously, it'll be really delicious because of all the flavoring they put in. But if you eat it long enough, you start to realize, wait, I'm still lacking nutritional value. We can't replace nutrition with something that's just delicious. And we have fast food versions of connection, being on our phones. We have fast food for dating apps, watching television, living through a screen. These are fast food versions of things. People encouraging us to feel sorry for ourselves. Self victimhood that is pretty much developing a fast food connection with yourself, saying, "Nobody understands what I'm feeling except for me." And it scratches temporarily scratches that itch for connection. And what we have to understand is community, authentic community is really important. And I I I cite in the book just even the way we have urban planning. The amount of lanes between where you live and across the street determines how often you cross the street to even see your neighbor over there. And this is the part that's important. When we have connection, we build more empathy. We have more opportunities to be seen. I'm fortunate here in New York City, I have a really cute puppy. So when I'm not with her, people aren't looking at me. But when I'm with her, everybody remembers her. And that encourages a lot of different conversations. A lot of local businesses know her. For her, every day is Halloween. She's walking into stores getting free candy, free doggy treats, etc. But I think from this concept of us building connections and needing each other, it's really important that we prioritize connecting with people in ways that feel authentic to us. We we often try to fit in and we often have to. Maybe we have to fit in at work. We have to fit in at school. We have to fit in certain social circles. But figuring out where we authentically belong will give us a feeling that will scratch so many itches that we won't find ourselves spending too much time chasing these fast food distractions. Yeah. As I was thinking you thinking through all the stuff that you were just saying, one thing that I have learned that I think is so important for people to understand is we've gotten to this point where we think connection, our bonds are earned. And what people don't realize they're not earned. They have to be built. And when you don't take the effort to build them, they collapse. And that is what has happened is over time they have collapsed. And this constant pressure for individualism that you brought up that all the social networks are just driving down our throat is just making it worse. Absolutely. And piggyback off that, they have to be built and maintained. If you build a bridge between you and someone else, you got to clear the debris every now and then. There's going to be ruptures and it's that are going to require repair. And again, we're in such a predicament where all this convenience is being provided to us and sold to us that when we hit these moments of challenge, we're like, well, I can just swipe right and find a new date or I can just go hang out with another friend. And it's something that I don't blame anybody for feeling because it's a challenge. Whenever we hit a roadblock, there's an option of either getting some grit and pushing through or just bouncing off of it and moving on to the next thing. And in a world where everything is becoming hyperdisposable, it makes us feel hyperdisposable and it makes others feel hyperdisposable, which again severs connections or minimizes our motivation to build a connection with others. Yeah. It just strikes me that when I think about the early days of the Biden administration, he was really pushing for an infrastructure bill to fix the infrastructure problems that we have throughout the United States, meaning bridges that haven't been taken care of for decades, roads that have potholes in them. And I don't know if anyone's driven across the country lately, but there are a lot of roads that are in really bad shape, bridges, other infrastructure. And the same thing comes as you're talking about to our relationships. If you don't keep maintaining that infrastructure, what's happening to the infrastructures in America where you and I live start crumbling. Same thing. Absolutely. None none of our greatest relationships will have a happily ever after. There's always going to be a day after and that day still requires more work. And oftentimes we've just been signaled by content that was designed to entertain us, but now we think it's there to inform us that no, you just find people. You just find that friend and you guys are best friends for life and no work is needed. There'll be no ruptures. Or you find your soulmate and you guys will just be perfect and happy and have no issues. Or you find that perfect job or you find that perfect place to live and no, this the only promise is change. We're constantly changing and that's okay. It's anticipating that change and being okay with the challenges that come from that change. We can't avoid challenges because those are the gifts that allow us to grow and become more resilient. No, absolutely. So, Humble, one of the things you talk about in the book is the unlearn project which is based on this idea that learning is never ending. And it's one of the things I always love Tim Tom Billy who talks about all the time is that we are the ultimate learning machines. It's something I I wrote about in in my first book as well. What's something you had to unlearn about anxiety while you were writing this book? Oh, I think the first thing I had to unlearn is that anxiety is not my enemy. Anytime that I have anxious feelings, I'm not under attack. And I think also recognizing that anxiety to say my anxiety, I have anxiety. I think that wording is not helpful. So I think recognizing things through the lens of is this helping me or is this not helping me. So I stopped judging things as good and bad. So instead of saying my anxiety or I have anxiety, now my base sentence has to be I feel anxious because and this requires me then to go inwards to figure out what's happening. I feel anxious because I'm about to miss a deadline. I feel anxious because someone didn't reply to my text message. I feel anxious because team Canada might be losing this hockey game, whatever it may be. But I think giving understanding anxiety is the most misunderstood emotion that we have and one of the most intense. Giving that I feel anxious and not labeling myself as I am anxious allows me to separate myself from my emotions. Understand that they're not permanent. understand they're not tattoos on my forehead labeling my identity. And that goes for the positive and the negative emotions. I feel happy. I feel scared. And for me, that was probably the first step in going through all of this. And then recognizing some of the signs of of anxiety and trying to make sense of them without getting too scientific. We have the poly veagal theory, which is our safety, fight or flight, freeze, and sometimes fawn. and understanding this idea too where it's like hey I can logically understand that I shouldn't be in danger now but my body is responding in a totally different way and for me a lot of that learning came from doing jiu-jitsu in the book I talk about doing jiu-jitsu and the reason I think jiu-jitsu was a great teacher for me it's because you roll with people you're rolling and jiu-jitsu was grappling or as I like to call it professional cuddling and you're rolling with somebody that you know, holds no malice towards you. But the moment they grab you and get an arm around your neck, your body starts to panic. And it shows you a big separation within you between how your body responds to something and how your logical mind can. And very often when we are flooded with emotions, it's not our logical mind. It's not the prefrontal cortex that's responding. It's our survival brain. It's our amydala. And what we're really trying to do to improve how we feel is to close that gap of reacting to something and converting that to a response. And the inconvenient truth of that, and I've been learning this a lot, is that you can't talk yourself out of anxiety. You have to you can't think your way out of it. You have to act your way. And a lot of that comes through voluntarily putting yourself in situations that make you feel anxious when you're in a great place. And so for me, that's required understanding this concept of triggers and realizing that triggers aren't my enemy. Again, another cultural concept that we have is don't trigger me. That's triggering. This is a trigger warning. And it's like the truth is a trigger is a road map. The trigger is revealing where we need to do the work. So, for example, if I'm walking down the street and I walk by somebody and they're wearing a fragrance and the fragrance is the same fragrance that maybe an ex-girlfriend wore of mine and she hurt me. That fragrance is going to trigger a pain. It's going to trigger an anxiety. Now, in the moment, I feel when we do feel these triggers, we should be kind to ourselves and be like, "All right, whatever I need to do to get over this, do I need to grab my phone, doom scroll? Do I need to smoke a cigarette? Do I need to distract myself, avoid, medicate? Whatever I need to do, fine. In that moment, do it. But later, when you're in a good place, when you've hydrated, when you've had a good night's sleep, when you're in a good place, now let's voluntarily go back into that trigger. Let's journal about it. Maybe let's go to a department store. Let's smell it. Let's re identify what that is and what that means to us. And this is the work that I realized it's voluntarily putting yourself in that. So, you know, back to jiu-jitsu. Somebody wrapping their arms around my neck made me freeze. Then doing enough jiu-jitsu, them wrapping their arm around my neck would put me in fight or flight. Now that I've been doing jiu-jitsu for a couple of years, I my heart rate doesn't change. I stay calm and I can stay logical in those situations and be like, "Oh, he's trying to choke me. Does he have it? Is his elbow in the right place?" And I can and to me now it feels much more like a game. And it's the same way you throw a kid in the swimming pool, they're going to freak out the first time. enough exposure allows their nervous system to be like, "Hey, I'm not in danger." And a lot of times that we feel anxious is because our survival brain says, "Hey, this rhymes with something that might be dangerous." And its definition of dangerous is so broad. Anything new, anything that kind of looks dangerous, anything that potentially harmed us in the past. And it really is the work that we have to do is to be like, "Hey, let's voluntarily put ourselves in these stressful situations." We talked about Wimhof earlier. That's all he's encouraging us to do. Put yourself in some really cold ice water and watch your brain freak out, but stay in long enough until your brain's like, "Wait, we're not going to die. This is okay." And it builds resilience. It's not magic. It's a nice simple concept of we have to be nicer to ourselves but at the exact same time we have to voluntarily put ourselves through stress. And I think what I realiz is especially as school teachers when we were kids somebody else was in charge of putting us in these uncomfortable situations in these new situations. They packaged it to be fun but this is how we learned how to sound out letters and read. This is how we learned how to do math. This is how we learned almost every skill. But then as we become adults, we start to avoid anything that feels uncomfortable. And then that's when our growth almost becomes very stagnant. This is an opportunity for us to to self-parent and self- advocate and be like, "Hey, let's voluntarily find difficult things to do regularly." And that's how we train our resilience. So when hard things and challenging things find us, we're more prepared to deal with it. A healthy nervous system isn't a calm nervous system. It's a prepared nervous system. We need to be prepared. We don't need to be zen all the time. We need to be prepared and allow our emotions to be expressed the way they need to be expressed at the appropriate times. Two of the quotes from your book that resonated with me with what you were just discussing are you share an analogy about a house plant wilting under the sink and you say you can water it all you want but without sunlight it's just wanting to die. And that really made me think about how much of our anxiety really comes from our internal struggles versus external environments that simply aren't nourishing us. But the other thing it made me really think about is one of my favorite quotes was this. You're not anxious, you're just living in an anxious world. How, you touched on this a little bit, but if you could share or unpack like one big idea for the audience, how do we navigate an environment that constantly feeds our stress? So, I'll say it bluntly. The world is a dumpster fire. It's not your fault and there is nothing wrong with you for feeling anxious while existing here. Okay? It is not a feeling to feel anxious in this current modern world that we're in. This is not your fault. And I think very often we internalize our challenges like, "Oh, no, no, I should be able to handle this. Everybody else around me is doing so well." And it's no, we're all trying our best to deal with this dumpster fire of a world. And it's really important to understand that it would be odd if if you were completely emotionally regulated in this type of world. We are not designed for the amount of noise, the amount of light, the amount of stimulation, the exposure to bad news, the exposure to information, the exposure to different opinions. echo chambers and all of this on a regular basis. This is not what we've been designed for as a species. So, it's going to be overwhelming. It's going to be feel heavy. It's going to feel challenging and it's going to constantly trigger our survival brain, the amygdala, to think that there is danger just around the corner. So, I think the first thing is to give yourself grace and understand this is not your fault. Now, even though it's not your fault, it's still definitely your responsibility and you have options to make it easier or more difficult. And I think the key messages that I would put even before you have to read this book is like, hey, drink more water, get more sleep, be significantly nicer to yourself, and hang out with people that make you feel good about yourself. and allow you to be who you are authentically. These are four options right there that will take some of that weight off your chest and some of that weight off of your shoulders. So when you deal with stress that you can avoid like your job, like raising your children, like navigating the landscape of what our society is, you have a little bit more bandwidth. You have a little bit more gas in the tank. And I think that's the important part which is recognizing what's in our control and what's not in our control. We can't control so many of these outside factors and it's very challenging for us to control some of the inside factors. So a lot of it needs to start with being kinder to ourselves. One word that I would highly recommend we divorce ourselves from is the word should. We keep saying I should do this, I should do that. We're just creating tension by using that word. Let's replace it with the word could. I should wake up earlier. Let's change that to I could wake up earlier. I should eat healthier. Let's replace that. I could eat healthier. I should go to the gym. I should make more money. All of these things. Every time we tell ourselves who we should be, we are creating tension by not allowing ourselves to accept who we are. Self-love is accepting us as we are. Warts and all. Think about the person you love the most. You could probably write a whole list of their imperfections. None of that disqualifies them from love. It's the same thing for us. For us to have a connection with ourselves means we need to accept ourselves. So shoulding and saying we should be doing this. And and Phil Knowworthy is the man that put me into this idea. He said it funny. He goes, "Don't sh all over yourself. All the shing isn't happening." And I think it's a beautiful way to look at it where it's just like just let go of that word. Let go of that word should. Catch yourself every time you use it. internally and externally and question why why should I two and a half kids in a picket fence? Why should I find a life partner as soon as I graduate university? Why should I believe what this politician is telling me? And I think it becomes a lot more interesting when we start doing that because it encourages an internal dialogue that I realize begins this infinite journey inwards. And what it'll allow you to do is to make a lot more improvements on how you feel on the inside. And it'll lead you down a journey of equinimity. And equinimity just means prepared, managed emotions. Again, I'm not I have a chapter about eternal peace, inner peace. And I'm not here to sell you this idea that you can live on top of a mountain and meditate every day. I'm here to show you that you can have more managed emotions in this chaotic world. Whether you live in New York City and have sirens in the back of your podcast episode or whether you live out in a farm in middle America and your closest neighbor is 25 minutes away. The chaos on the inside is the chaos that we need to address first which will allow us as a collective to improve the chaos around us. Well, thank you so much Humble for sharing that. And one of the areas I really wanted to go into because I think it's important and it's something the audience of Passion Struck is going to want to talk about is the overachievers anxiety trap. And in the book you mentioned overachievers are over anxious. And I think a lot of people who are listening right now are like yep that's me. And I know being a high achiever myself I have struggled with anxiety. Well, one thing I really like that you touched on is you write not reaching for success. We're often just trying to fail and I think that's a really important aspect of why we become over anxious. How does that fear of failure fuel our anxiety and what's a better way to re to redefine success? Absolutely. So, I lived in Los Angeles full-time and part-time for about six years. And there you meet some extremely famous, extremely successful people. And I, as a learner, wanted to see their drive, understand their drive, how they accomplished so much and still get up early in the morning and keep going. And I did start to realize a lot of that drive was an anxiety. There was something to prove. There was something to avoid. There was also a survival mode. They were in survival mode. It may not be survival for putting food on the table, but it was survival for relevance. Here in New York, I see a lot of people who have who are in survival mode for a lifestyle. So, it's really not about succeeding. It's about this avoiding failure. It's kind of when we think about our families, sometimes we do so much work not to really make them proud of us, but just to get them off our back, just to not have to hear their little comments. And that's where the anxiety is because at any moment it can happen. At any moment it can happen. So I think the first thing we have to do is we have to recognize and redefine concepts like failure. Failure isn't the opposite of success. Failure is the path that we pave to get to success. Failure and rejection show us what's not for us, what doesn't work for us. The most successful strategy to accomplish anything is trial and error. You try something, either it works or it doesn't work. Now, when we're kids and we do little science experiments, it's fun. We don't fall into emotional melancholy the moment we try an experiment and it doesn't work out the way we think it needs to. And we have to approach life the same way. We can be high achievers, but we have to even the same thing. We have to redefine what success is. So there is a concept that I explore which is having the impossible goal because the only value of a goal is that it sets a direction and an orientation for us and the only rewards through achieving a goal isn't hitting the goal. It's not the finish line, it's who we become on that journey. So when we set an impossible goal, let's say for example, John, you're like, I want 25 billion people to hear this podcast. Now there aren't 25 billion people on Earth. But what you've done is you've set a direction. You've set a direction for what needs to happen for this larger goal to occur. And you also saved yourself from the subconscious idea that I'm not good enough until I hit this goal. Because what happens is you say, "Oh, I want a million subscribers." you hit a million subscribers, you're never chasing the actual number of subscribers. You're chasing the feeling that you think you're going to get when you hit the goal. And then you hit the goal and you're like, "Wait, this wasn't enough or I didn't get that feeling." And the truth that we entrepreneurs know is the only way to hit a million is to aim for 10. And the only way to get to 10 million is to aim for 100. So these will be milestones on this journey. So let's just skip all that. pick something that is l literally impossible like wanting an audience that is larger than the population of the earth and now we have a direction that we're headed and I think that's the important part here is because now we're no longer associating our worth with the success of a finish line. All we need in our lives is a direction, an orientation, no matter how specific, no matter how vague. Because if we know where we're going, that in itself reduces our anxiety. If you put someone in the middle of the desert and they have no idea where to go, their anxiety is going to go up. Give them just say, "Hey, head north." That will reduce their anxiety. We need a little bit of clarity. We need a little bit of direction, something that we can orient ourselves towards. And then we just enjoy the journey, understanding that journey is going to have its highs and its lows, its easy days, it very difficult days. and who we become through going through that is the only thing that matters. Now for me specifically after hitting a couple of goals financially, followerbased, career-wise, I think what I realized was authentically for me my endless journey of success is how much can I minimize betraying myself. I don't think there will ever be a time where I can completely not betray myself, completely always be my authentic self, but just constantly working towards that idea. How do I further not betray myself? And I because you sometimes realize somebody gives you a big check that might actually be a golden handcuff that puts you in a situation that you actually don't want to be in. So for me, I realized the less masks I have to wear, the easier it is for me to breathe, the lighter I feel and the less often I feel anxious feelings. And for me, every decision I come is is I always ask that question. Am I betraying myself if I head in this direction? And I think that's important. And I give myself grace because sometimes you have to. Sometimes you got to wear that tuxedo to the wedding even though you want to wear sweatpants. It's just the little things like that. I understand social contracts. I understand the world that we live in. But at the same time, as I said, I'm constantly minimizing. It's a journey towards minimizing. And that's and for me, I understand that's a never- ending journey. And the direction is so much more important than the destination. Oh, it certainly is. And I can relate to what you were saying. One of the job I took earlier in my career was for one of the largest software and IT hardware companies in the world. And I got this huge seven figure plus sign on bonus. And when I first got it, I looked at it as a gift. And about three months into the job, I realized how much I was owned by them. And it wasn't truly a gift at all. It was really a curse. So be careful what you ask for. Definitely. And I do want to just add the caveat that I think there's only two tax brackets. There's enough and not enough. And in no way, shape, or form are we being philosophical or spiritual when it comes to people who are in the not enough category. If you are in survival mode and you're struggling to pay for your groceries, do what you got to do to get yourself in a financial situation to get your lips above water. But please understand, once you've done that, once you're in a comfortable financial situation, adding a couple of more zeros to your net worth will do nothing for your mental health. But that's only if you're out of survival mode. Yeah, it was so interesting. Humble. I can't remember the exact percentage, so I'm going to just guess, but I was listening to a radio show and they were talking about this whole topic. And the thing that struck me was they said that I think the number was 85% of people who make $100,000 are living paycheck to paycheck. And it just made me really step back and it was like my own life. The more money I made, the more I wanted. And you start accumulating this life that you have to earn more and more to to afford. And it just takes away all those things that bring joy into your life so to speak. Absolutely. Saying is is so true. And I think it's also about the journey of self-discovery. A friend of mine just this year. He had started a company, left the company, still owned a lot of stock in it. And in this past year, he had to sell his stock and he massive windfall. The joke was we call him an NBA player because he just had a massive windfall. And the question was like, "What are you going to do with it?" And I remember he said, "I'm getting my mom a personal trainer because I want her to be able to open jars until she's 90." He goes, "I want to get a chef because I want to see if I can eat healthier." And he goes, "Maybe a Jeep." And it was just like these, it wasn't like diamonds in my teeth, a Rolex, a Lamborghini, penthouse in the sky. And it really felt like his these purchases that he was making were really in alignment with what mattered to him. And I think the first thing him saying getting a personal trainer for his mother, just like a full-time trainer to help his mom so she can open jars and be independent and do the things that she needs to do. And I think that's the important thing where it's like we do become slaves to lifestyle thinking that this is survival. And I think for me the gift of leaving my comfortable government, Canadian teaching job, Canadian teachers get paid more. Leaving all of that and starting from zero, having to sell my condo and move back in with my parents. It taught me to live with much less, way much less. So once seven years later, I started making decent money. I didn't have any expensive habits anymore. I got a puppy with expensive habits. We we can afford her habits right now. But me, I don't really have anything too expensive because I think I learned to live without for so long that I was like, "Oh yeah, I really don't I really don't need any of that stuff even if I can afford it." And I think that was one of the gifts of going through that journey which was like learning to live I went years with a credit card. I was paying cash and I remember waiting outside if I had to go park somewhere I'd wait at the parking meter and offer people cash to use their credit card just to pay for parking. And those simplicities allowed me to learn my priorities. And I think when we know our priorities, our purpose, our direction, that does wonders for how we feel about ourselves. And then we start we stop looking outside so much and feeling the outside pressure to keep up because we know that's not in alignment with who we are. And being who we authentically are will take off so much tension, weight, and stress off our lives. Thank you for so much for sharing that, humble. Last question I wanted to ask you before we wrap up is if Unxious had a thesis statement, one single idea that you hope sticks with readers long after they finish it, what would it be? There's nothing wrong with you for feeling anxious. It's completely normal. It's like goosebumps. It's like hunger. It is a normal part of this. It is just an emotion we have to do a lot more work to manage. Anxiety isn't anything we need to cure. It's just like hunger. You don't cure hunger. You manage it. And if you're feeling hungry, you don't ask yourself, "What's wrong with me? I'm feeling hungry." And also, we've also had those moments where we feel hungry and it wasn't actual hunger. Food wasn't maybe we're actually dehydrated. Maybe we were actually stressed. Anxiety works the same way. We may feel anxious. And the secret to addressing and managing anxiety is to feel it. Anxiety is a signal. Imagine anxiety. You're driving in your car and a light turns on and it says low tire pressure. That's a signal to check your tire pressure. When you check your tire pressure, maybe it wasn't low. Then like, oh, something must be wrong with the signal. Let's address it. Or your tire pressure is low. You put the air in tire and you won't feel that signal anymore. However, we are living in a society that says instead of feeling your feelings, let's medicate. Let's avoid. Let's distract. So, pretty much we live in a society that's telling us, hey, if you see that low tire pressure monitor in your car, just put some duct tape over it. If you hear your smoke alarm go off, don't look for the smoke. Just put some duct tape over it or take out the batteries. That does not solve the problem. That's putting a bandage on a bandage. Let's feel our feelings. And unfortunately, resilience, when we practice resilience, it's not a warm fuzzy feeling. It's a very uncomfortable feeling. For those who are listening right now, an easy day at the gym wasn't a good day at the gym. It's the same thing with life. We can't constantly chase an easy life because we're trading our resilience. That's the price we're paying for that. And our resilience comes from voluntarily putting ourselves in challenging places. We have to go out and find challenges so we are better prepared when challenges find us. There's nothing wrong with us for having these types of emotions. The work that we need to do is just to make sure these emotions show up at the right times and they're not misfiring just because we got an awkward text message or we have a deadline. and they show up when it really matters, when there's real danger, when there's real change. And I think that requires us to be significantly nicer to ourselves, being significantly more patient with ourselves. Patient doesn't mean waiting around. Patience just means respecting the time it takes for things to naturally occur. You know, you can't just turn up the oven and bake the pie quicker. We have to respect time that it takes. And this is the same thing with our personal growth and understand that this is a lifelong journey. We're not going to solve this by snapping our fingers or flipping a switch. This is a lifelong journey. For me, this book was inspired by the anxiety that I would feel around reaching out to people. Reaching out to people and saying, "Hey, can I come on your podcast? Hey, can I share this book with you?" I had I felt so much anxiety around asking because I was so afraid of rejection and I was trying to figure out why. And then you start to learn that rejection is such an ancient fear of ours because when we lived in these smaller communities, rejection meant ostracism which meant death. So when we feel rejected, when we feel left out, our ancient software is still making that feel like death. So what do we do? We avoid, we distract, and we medicate. And what I realize now is that no, I have to lean into that. I have to lean into rejection. If anything, I have to voluntarily get rejected as much as possible so I can build resilience from it. And I think everyone listening can understand that. We all hate being rejected. But we all fantasize about the idea of who we would be and what our life would look like if we were not afraid of it, if we were enthusiastic towards it. They say some of the most successful entrepreneurs get dopamine hits through rejection. And I think that's a really interesting idea. And for me, even now on this journey of promoting this new book, I've been reaching out. I've been texting messaging people and asking them to come on podcast and help me promote the book. And some are replying. Some have surprised me. Some have completely went ghost. And all the emotions that I'm feeling, all I'm doing is I'm surrendering to them. And my definition of surrender isn't giving into them. It's observing them and saying, "Hey, I I texted so and so three days ago. They would always reply to me. Now, since I've asked for a favor, they haven't replied. How does that make me feel?" And and I journal about it. It makes me feel like I'm not worthy. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough. It makes me feel like the connection wasn't authentic. And I can explore these. I can explore these feelings. Could there be any other explanations? Maybe they're busy. Maybe they have anxiety around saying no. Maybe they can't accommodate this. And it what it allows and it has taught me is that when I'm kinder to myself and have more grace for myself, I'm kinder to others and have more grace for others and vice versa. And this was the reason this book was such an important mission for me. It started as a selfish journey to to to deal with the anxiety that I was feeling and it helped me realize that this is the biggest problem we are facing as people that currently and I hope it doesn't change but anxiety currently is the biggest problem that we're facing that hasn't been politicized it hasn't become a polarizing topic there isn't two sides to this conversation right now and it's everybody of every walking of all walks of life no matter how you live, no matter what your political leanings are, we feel anxious feelings. And I realize is if we can address this as a collective, the anxiety that you're feeling isn't an individual problem. It is a societal problem, which means it's not going to have an individual solution. It's going to have a societal solution. And if we as people, as individuals and a collective, address this, we are going to feel better as individuals and as a collective. And I don't think there's anybody, especially in this country, feeling like that we're united, that we're in a good place right now. And I think this is the first step to us feeling better in our own skin, in our own universe inside, and in the universe around us. I think that ties so well to how you end your book. You write, "We may not have all the answers, but we can choose how we respond to life's uncertainties." So, embrace the chaos and remember life's too short to let anxiety steal your joy. Humble, I can completely relate to everything you just said because me getting on podcasts as my book was coming out was so much more difficult being a top podcaster than I ever expected it to be. Yes. So, it must have brought you joy when I reached out to you. Really did. And I really appreciate that. As I said, every time, this is my fourth book through the major channels, and every time it's you're always pleasantly surprised, you make a new friend, and this is us now. And at the same time, it goes the other way, too, where you're unpleasantly surprised by others. It's a part of the journey. And as I said, it's a great practice for grace and acceptance and a wonderful opportunity to sit there and observe the chaos that goes on in your mind and in your body when you deal with rejection when people say pass. When people may say, "Oh, no, the story isn't interesting enough for us to cover." It's such an interesting thing where you start to realize the differences between worth and value and understanding how this kind of this game gets played. And it's been really interesting for me through my journey of self-love, self and self-acceptance of recognizing how much of this journey I want to play. And some of the best advice I was given and I'll share it with you and anyone else listening is I'm just on a mission. You watch those heist movies or you watch Oceans 11 and George Clooney just goes around recruiting people for the mission. I'm that's all I'm doing here. I'm on a mission to help people better manage their emotions and I'm reaching out to people to be a part of this mission. And some people have given me a thumbs up and they're like, "You son of a I'm in." And everybody else is not. And that's okay. If they're not on the mission today, they may be on it later or they may never be. And I think that's completely okay as long as I'm being authentic to what matters to me. And that's part of this. And I've also been in this long enough to know that we have no idea how this stuff plays out. This book could sell a million copies and it could be the worst thing that ever happened to me. It could sell copies and I could be completely happy with. We don't know. We don't know how things play out anymore. And I think it's a fantastic opportunity in surrendering, observing, and adjusting my stake in the outcome. But I definitely with all my heart really appreciate you sharing your time and your platform with me to have this conversation. Well, humble, my honor, and it was so incredible to have you here. Best of luck on the launch of the book and I hope through this we develop a friendship that extends beyond the podcast. Most definitely. Thank you so much for joining. Cheers. I appreciate it.