so you got a B Squad I go to B Squadron and they're all in these their own little sort of um areas we call them interest room uh where everybody hangs out and that's where you sort of you know you all meet you have every morning decide what we're doing what training we're doing what operations are going on all that sort of stuff and then that's how it is so I get sent to B Squadron Mountain troop so I've got my berry I've got my bell feeling proud you know off a go walk into B Squad and interest room and as I walk in I'm like am I in the wrong place here I thought I walked into a council office in erford right like what do you mean there like fat block over there baldheaded block over there skinny block over there already got any teeth I was like this is the SAS in my head I'm thinking are you kidding me there's these people misshaped all sorts of I'm thinking what the it's joined so I'm a little bit wildered to be honest I mean I was quite fit I was skinny but I cuz I just come through selection but I thought what is this there are some really fit dudes there of course there's all these different shape of people and there's a big guy and I think I can call him fat big fat guy making a cup of tea and he sees me like looking in shock and he turns around he's making a cup of tea and he looks all to me goes you're right son I went yeah I'm all right you and he goes yep you want to go for a run I thought Fat Guy's asking me to go for a run I thought yeah I can [ __ ] run mate we went out the gate right I saw the sole of his [ __ ] boot for about 30 m I never seen him again so I get back to the interest room and he's already had a shower and doing and I'm like what the is this and then the penny dropped this ain't about image this is about what is there m and that's why I remember on selection certain people passing certain people not passing and thinking it really is about what these people have got in there and then day two or three I haven't been there long an operation comes in a job he blood walks in with a roling and his smoking a roll flicking on and I thought he's the guy going to clean the bins it's a s major and he goes right issue there's a there's a operation going down you know we need to be in a place save these people's lives whatever it was and he's going let's do it and I thought it was a j I'm like looking around going what the's going on and then I watched these people put this plan together all sat around no you know just talking boom boom boom and the next thing you're off Bang doing this operation and it was like wow what the and are they bringing you in at this point yes I mean and the song like sorry what's your name son I went Billy he went all right welcome Billy how are we going to do this right asking me and I'm like I thought I'll just