hey what's up you guys it's your girl Jazelle don't forget to like And subscribe and they rock on my baby sister allora and I were raised by our single mother who got sick and went into a coma when I was 12 and allora was 8 Our Lives flipped upside down even more so when we found out we'd have to live with our Aunt Mona she was Mom's careless older sister whom she didn't like and we'd never even met her but she was our only relative so it was probably a better deal than foster care Aunt Mona was a free-spirited adventurous young woman who was backpacking solo around the world when we interrupted her life in a blink of an eye she went from one of the youngest people to have ever climbed Mount Everest to a single mom of two girls she didn't give birth to and she didn't have a clue about how to take care of children like knowing that kids run away when you aren't paying attention yeah she once lost aora at the mall and found her hours later and they were both traumatized by that incident but sometimes it also made her the coolest Guardian any kid could ask for she didn't force us to eat broccoli she allowed candy before dinner and we stayed up as late as we wanted binge watching MSA on school nights my sister allur would sometimes use that to her Advantage despite being an overall easygoing kid and as the younger one she required more care from Mona who would try to force that responsibility on me I don't know what to do Jazelle help me out here I've never had to deal with children before you guys came along no Mona she obviously cannot adopt this wild snake as a pet I don't want her to resent me for refusing her that can you please tell her yourself in these situations I always ended up being the party pooper while those two got closer Mona remained an irresponsible adult spoiling my sister and allora definitely preferred her cool aunt over her protective older sister on top of everything else allora was an a grade student so Mona was always proud of her maybe you should be more like Aur because if you keep up with those grades you won't be able to get into college Jazelle who said I want to go to college I want to be a guitarist in a metal band well you have to graduate from college first then do whatever you want your mom wouldn't want it any other way also this is just a phase it's not a phase Mona it's who I am and don't bring my mom into this she always supported my talents and she was chill I'm sure she would support my music too I grew up with her so I know her better than you do you though the last time I checked mom never Li you because you always put yourself first also did you ever go to College why are you suddenly acting like some responsible adult don't talk back to me like that I'm the one who takes care of you so you need to obey me I obey no one sorry you're stuck with us but I'm old enough to know what's best for me and I definitely don't need you to take care of me our endless ego duel started with that fight and lasted for a long time if Mona didn't understand how important music was to me I couldn't be bothered to convince her I was a misfit in school because I dressed like a goth and was into metal music but I had formed a band with some kids I'd met in the park and being with them was the only time I felt I belonged somewhere school was a waste of time for me so when Mona dropped us off every morning I waited for her to go and then went to practice in an abandoned warehouse with my friends life was good and we were even working on our first album my bandmates and I decided to play at a very famous local metal festival the coming weekend but of course Mona had to overreact massively what do you mean a metal festival that's no place for a child are are you trying to send me into a coma with my sister chillax man why are you being so melodramatic maybe because she's worried about you and the company you're keeping your friends are a bad influence on you shut up mini raccoon keep your nose out of my business you're just Mona's buttwipe despite all her efforts Mona couldn't keep me away from the festival we had practiced so hard and I wasn't letting this opportunity Slide the festival was massive and I was loving the energy of the crowd and getting to see the other fans perform but just before it was our turn the police crashed the event and dispersed the crowds because apparently the festival didn't have a permit my bandmates and I ran faster than Roadrunner until we ended up near the town's historical Municipal Building as an act of protest against the way the metal heads were treated we decided to write messages and spray paint all over the building's old walls Anarchy was in town and before we knew it the police caught up to us and took us to the station the humiliation I felt when Mona arrived to bail me out was unmatched I just knew that she would use this card against me for the rest of my life see I told you they're a bad influence you're hardly ever in school because of them what young lady your behavior is out of control it's about time you learn some discipline no more metal music and you're forbidden from hanging out with those punks forbidden you can't force me challenge accepted she was very serious she started dropping into school unannounced to check up on me and chat with my teacher all this time i' had been skipping school I was forging her signature for madeup appointments and now that cat was out of the bag but even worse one day when Mona had dropped in she witnessed a bunch of Mean Girls bullying me hey freak I heard that music festival was a flop and you ended up in jail I'm sure you deserve that your music is as bad as your taste and clothes yeah you're practically a crime against fashion weirdo this wasn't new for me but when it happened in front of Mona I felt like my ego was crushed I just knew she'd give me some insensitive lecture that I didn't want to hear right now don't listen to them only people who are insecure about themselves feel the need to put others down you're unique and special you know what you like and you know how to express yourself don't allow their words to hurt you I was really surprised but just acted indifferent I don't care about them or anyone but I was really glad that she didn't tell me to change my appearance or even gave me some lecture about not standing up for myself that would just make me feel bad since since that day something shifted in our Dynamics I started appreciating her as someone who had always done things her own way and wasn't afraid to be herself I started wondering why Mom disliked her so much she wasn't all that bad so one day when Mona was at her yoga class I decided to look through her photo albums to see when exactly they stopped talking as I was digging through some boxes I found Mona's old Diaries I knew it was wrong but I couldn't help reading them and I felt like I was getting to know a very relatable and real person with whom I had a lot in common but then I came upon the entry that made everything clear Grandpa was a single parent and he was sick for years when Mona and Mom were teenagers and their financial situation wasn't the best so instead of staying with Mom to help her Mona stole a bunch of Grandma's jewelry and Grandpa's cash then ran away from home at 18 to go backpacking around the world Mona's confessions in her diary were her true thoughts so it wasn't just mom's opinion of her she was an irresponsible selfish older sister who had left Mom to struggle mom never had the opportunity to do things she liked because she had responsibilities bigger than her ever since she was 15 Mona had stolen mom's youth I was so distracted and angry in the following days that I couldn't even focus on band practice which wasn't good for us because our album was launching soon we also had a tour planned and I needed Mona's permission to skip school for 2 weeks and travel around the country I was already hating that idea and the conversation didn't go well I just want to know where you get your audacity from Jazelle you get to be your own person but not before you finish High School I thought I made that clear also I still don't like your irresponsible bandmates and I can't let you travel around with them this is a once in a-lifetime Opportunity which is important for my future career and you know what I can't even take you seriously when I know how irresponsible and selfish you are excuse me you heard me your lack of responsibility ruined mom's life she had to become an adult too soon because her older sister decided to bail on her and don't try to deny it I read your own confession in your diary you read my diary this is such an invasion of privacy I don't want to see your face right now you're grounded gladly Plan B it was that night I wrote her a letter and snuck out my window not so dear Mona when I'm famous and successful don't come knocking at my door I want you to remember how terrible you were to me and my mom selfish witch rock on Jazelle the adrenaline rush I felt as I left the house in the middle of the night was unmatched I rushed down our street as fast as I could to my friends who were waiting for me in their van and so my new life as a rebellious musician began the next morning I woke up to 20 missed calls from Mona and 70 voice notes allora also left me tons of texts saying Mona was furious and I had to come back home so I decided to turn off my phone and enjoy the decision I had made night after night we played in different cities across several States and the crowds loved us just everywhere it felt good being cheered by unknown people meeting potential Connections in the music industry and getting paid but after 3 weeks on the road with my bandmates I started noticing how tiring living in a van with them was they didn't clean up after themselves and often had the pettiest arguments they also became lazy and stopped taking this tour seriously we even missed a couple of shows because they didn't feel like it I missed hot showers and delicious homemade food I even felt Mona and allora's absence but I couldn't bear to hear Mona's I Told You So and admit she was kind of right about my friends I knew I would have some big punishment waiting for me back home one night after our concert it was raining heavily so we decided to stay in a hotel to rest and wait for the rain to stop but we couldn't afford a good hotel so the five of us had to share a Shabby room and being the youngest they made me sleep on the floor and the next morning we realized that our Dream tour had turned into a real nightmare is that our van floating down the street it had rained so much that there was flash flooding in town unless we managed to get a boat or build an ark we couldn't get out the electricity and internet connection was down too so we were basically stuck with no contact with the outside world the next two nights things got worse as we waited for some help to come everyone was scared and hungry and to top that my bandmates managed to push all my buttons when they suggested we swim for it they were morons I spent all my time regretting the way I'd left I realized that I'd left Aur with our selfish Aunt to pursue my dreams kind of what Mona had done to Mom now in this grave danger I wondered if I'd ever get to see my sister again but the next morning we woke up to the loud sound of helicopters we rushed to the rooftop to see the rescue teams had finally reached our area and just then I heard a familiar high-pitch distinct voice screaming from a megaphone that's her over there that's my niece I couldn't believe my eyes Mona was here to save me at that moment I forgot everything else and when we were rescued I hugged her as tight as I could how did you even find me I'd find you even if you were on Mars Jazelle you're my little girl and I would never let anything harm you I was able to track you from your phone's location and I know people working in some rescue agencies so I pulled a few strings I'm so sorry for how I left things you were right about my band mates and I regret everything I wrote in that letter there's nothing to forgive you know I came to your room that night to tell you everything but you'd already run away I guess you didn't read my diary entries long enough to know how much I regretted my selfish actions later I spent years reaching out to your mom and trying to make it up to her but she refused to forgive me and now she never will but I promised that I'd do my best to take care of you girls I'm sure she'd forgive you if she saw the person you are now Aunt Mona allora was waiting for us at home and she was so happy to see me safe and sound I had betrayed my sister and she still received me with open arms don't scare me like that again and don't leave me never I promise [Music]