but Mom I don't want the iPhone 15 I want the pro Max I hate you your greed is disgusting you see never look a gift horse in the mouth and cut good job Catherine hi I'm Katherine Norland I play a lot of moms in the Darman videos but I'm also a mom in real life a mother's most important job is protecting the safety of her family give me your money now no that's why I use Nord VPN to protect my family from threats like trackers hackers and viruses I'm rich happier click the link in the description for a huge discount on a 2-year subscription plus 4 months free risk-free for their 30-day money back guarantee now let's go ahead and start today's video action ever since I was a little girl no matter how much I loved something I always wanted the next thing I could never be happy enough with what was right in front of me I thought I'd grow out of it but As I Grew Older it just shifted from presence to people any chance I got whether it was waiting for my hair stylists a subway train or an Uber I would always try to steal a few minutes to read the words of the one who made me fall in love I've yet to meet the one I'll call soulmate I wonder will we know each other with a glance will I be too afraid to say a few words to her I know fear isn't real like a wall it's closer to a dream or a fog you can't see past but still my mind keeps me from moving through it five but with so much at stake I do [Music] fear I had never seen this boy in my [Music] life are you about to get your haircut with the lady with the red hair yeah she's just getting her stuff why look I'm wearing a beanie in the middle of the summer because I came here yesterday and got my haircut it's not good come on you still got time who even are you your guardian angel and that that's how I met my best friend John who moved from New York to our little noer town about a year ago we instantly clicked now he's not just my best friend he's the best friend I've ever had he's the sweetest guy ever he even carried me all the way home when I hurt my ankle dancing and yes if you're thinking he might be in love with me you're right he's made that pretty clear at first I wasn't sure if he was just being a good friend since I also love spoiling people on their birthdays but then I should have gotten a clue when he asked me to go on a picnic on Valentine's Day there was no denying it after that thank thankfully when I didn't show the same interest he was never pushy about it I wanted to like him back but unfortunately he's also a huge goofball not that there's anything wrong with that we had a lot of fun but any time I tried to be serious and talk about things that were bothering me or asked him serious questions about how he felt about things he just got shy went quiet or tried to make me laugh for me love is more than just having fun I always knew that whoever I fell in love with would also have to have a serious side more depth that's why unfortunately for John I was already completely in love with someone else the only problem was I had no idea who he was of course there were times I wished it was John and that he was just too shy to be serious with me but it didn't add up not only did the Blogger live in a big city very much unlike our Tiny Town but his parents were still together and John's were divorced it couldn't be him his blog went viral a couple of years ago every girl in school was in love but I'm the only one who never moved on he posts every single night at midnight like clockwork most days I'm asleep but when I'm awake I always imagine he's here with me telling me about his day today I drove an hour out of the rush concrete and glass of the city that I live in to escape AP into nature when I'm out there in the green in the unpolluted air I take example of the trees and the flowing Creek which I step into with my bare feet which is to say I don't have to do think or worry when I'm a nature just like the trees and the water I can just be I had tried to write to him a few times but I never had the courage or anything interesting to say where should I move my mom and I need to be out of here in a couple weeks you're moving since when I wrote about it last month guess you forgot got any ideas where I could go if I was going to do this it would have to be anonymous if you're still looking for a place to move come to Woodland Massachusetts lots of Nature and a few fans oh my gosh could I actually do it should I wait what if he did come here and what if he and I it's not working maybe it's not meant to be did it send I don't know maybe these things are like wishes you put them out there and the universe hears it yeah or maybe I just wish it was true cuz I'm in love with you [Music] you at least it gave me something to look forward to it had been a few days since I sent the message I never heard back so I was thinking dangerous for you I wouldn't advise it haha you're so funny no but for real we're seniors we've been working hard we should have some fun right right well you know what's not fun weing about asking someone out to prom oh I see oh man I thought he already got the hint the last thing I wanted to do was reject my best friend I was just thinking with this whole mess of prom posals and worrying about who's asking and being asked why don't we just go together you know prom is like 6 months away right exactly but if we don't lock this in right now we're both going to say yes to someone that probably don't even want to talk to little and go to prom with and honestly Lana there's no one else that I'd rather go with but I'm sure you already know that here it came I only hoped letting him down wouldn't ruin our friendship but I had too much respect for him to be anything but brutally honest John I love you as a friend but you know I don't feel that way about you right you don't have to look so worried I kind of figured that after spending a year of my best moves and not getting anything back like I don't believe in the whole friend zone stuff like if you liked me we'd be together but that doesn't mean that you owe me anything just because we're friends you know how I feel and I'm glad that that doesn't come between us I just meant we could go as friends unless there's someone else you'd rather go with isn't he just the best sometimes I really did wish I loved him like that it's like you said pal I mean there's no one else I'd rather go with than you I mean really I think it'd be fun let's do it of course the second I said that he walked in wow if I wasn't already in love with the Blogger I might have just fallen for him right then and there class we have a new student would you like to introduce yourself sure go ahead hi everyone my name is River I just moved here from Los Angeles and I'm a writer a writer who just moved from a big city wait a minute it had been a couple of weeks since my mystery blogger said he was moving with his mom oh uh by the way does anyone know any good nature spots around here I like to kind of go into the woods and Escape every now and then you know and he escaped nature there's no way my luck was this good I still hadn't seen last night's post yet what if my first day of schools tomorrow I just hope when I get there I can actually find someone who sees me oh wow what if he actually got my messages I had to be sure it was him it had been a week of me trying to say more than just High to River and I still hadn't figured out if he was the Blogger or not well I finally had the idea a to overhear his conversation after school one day some girl always came up to him and surprise surprise this time it was Susan I needed our first real interaction to stand out not to be some service level flirting like what Susan was doing it had to be casual natural every girl in school wanted to talk to him I needed a strategy I needed to stand out somehow so what are you doing tonight you know that little theater in town you guys have they're playing a retro horror movie tonight not really my oh I'm going to that too I sorry I didn't interrupt I was just walking by and I heard you hi I'm Lana we haven't officially met yet what's up I'm River so you're going to that movie tonight too yeah totally I mean probably I think so maybe I'll see you there that would be cool let's talk soon okay right on just passing by huh come on Lana you already have John why not give the rest of us a chance you know I'm not dating John then why won't you go out with me I've only asked him like 10 times yeah probably because he knows you only date for popularity and also you're kind of shallow and you really only care about money and John is not like that hey we all have our passions it's not like I'm some monster I just I like nice things I never said you were a monster just like if you like John why are you going after River I think maybe he and I are the what meant to be don't tell me you believe that the answer your question I'm going for him because you already have the best guy in school drooling over you you know if you don't snag him one these days I will snag who oh never mind us just girl talk byebye Johnny okay so what are we going to do for our one-year friendship anniversary I know 6 months ago we said that we were going to jump out of a plane but we were young and foolish then what about something a little bit more reasonable uh dinner movie arcade oh is that tonight come on Lana you can't forget that we've been talking about it for months I had everything set to run into River but John was my best friend maybe I could do two things at once I I was kidding of course I didn't forget movie sounds great you know they're actually doing this retro horror movie thing at the you know I can't do horror come on have you forgotten everything about me we are still friends right yeah yeah I'm just if I planned it just right maybe I could make this work you know uh let's just go to the diner the one right across from the movie theater okay it's time for what uh just to be done I'm done aren't you uh what's the rush no rush I just I just need some air whose turn is it to pay thanks okay I'll meet you outside I finally figured out the perfect way to stand out from the gaggle of girls at school and it wasn't cool or casual but it had to be fast Lana hey did you just see the movie too I I don't have a lot of time before my friend comes out but I just wanted to say I know who you are I know about the blog but but how I I I didn't tell anyone I was right it really was him okay let's just say you just met me but I have known you for a lot of years and everything just kind of fit okay please don't tell anyone about it though all right when it went viral everybody at my old school figured it out and it was just this whole mess yeah no no it'll be our secret I just wanted to let you know that I and then I did what I had always been dreaming [Music] of so I guess tonight's over then we're you guys on a date no we weren't um we're just friends I'll talk to you later Lana John I'm sorry I he's you don't understand I I I I never told you about the blog the blog it's a long story and I know it's confusing but I can explain and there's so much that you don't know about it it's okay I am confused but we're not dating and clearly you like him you can forget about the prom deal you should be able to go with whoever you want to go with as much as I wanted to take the offer I didn't want our friendship to suffer no I I said I'd go with you and I want to you're still my best friend you're mine [Music] too have a good night is everything okay yeah uh it will be soon all I had to do now was find John another prom date so I could go with my dream guy hey Susan you like John on right you should ask him to prom it's a bit early for that don't you think oh well you know the early bir gets the the thing okay what's your game Lana no game I just want him to go with someone who likes him or just go at all but he's too shy to ask anyone come on it'll be fun wait didn't I see you flirting with the new kid earlier let me guess John asked you but now you want to dump him on me so you can go with Mr walking poetry and be off the hook I love Mr Po River okay look well no it's it's complicated I'm not dumping John I just want to go to a prom with a guy I'm actually into you know you think John would be happy knowing that I was wishing to be with someone else please Susan well I do need a new bag how much you offering I got 100 bucks [Music] I would expect this from someone like me but not you and definitely not to him you know when you don't value the good things right in front of you you could lose them that's what river said in his blog but but I do value John a lot you're not acting like it all right I'll do it but don't be surprised if he falls for me I'm going to do everything I can to make it happen yeah I'm not too worried about that finally it was almost time for prom after months of being friends and flirting River and I had just started dating a couple weeks back and though I barely checked the blog in the last 6 months because he said it was like I was reading his diary when I did sneak a peek he always mentioned a girl in school with a famous name who he was falling for the deal's off wait what why you don't want to go with him anymore of course I want to go with him we're not even dating but ever since I asked him John has been nothing but the kindest sweetest guy to me and all I've done is lie to him I know he's in love with you and I'm definitely not the girl he deserves but I have fallen for him and I don't want to treat him like a business transaction he's the greatest guy I've ever met I'll still go a prom with him but I won't be paid to do it wait Lana you paid Susan to go to prom with me I it's just I didn't want you to go alone and I I felt bad because of river it's just no no no I get it I think I'm just going to stay home wait John what was it you said about valuing him stay I'll talk to him how did I let things get so messy I called and I called but John wouldn't answer could Susan have been right had I not been valuing my own best friend this whole time and to be honest I missed hanging out with John as much as I wanted to feel with river what I did when I was reading his words I just didn't my own best friend won't even be at prom tonight cuz I treated him like something I could just buy off it's like what you wrote when you don't value the good things in front of you you could lose them feel like I lost my best friend what are you talking about I never said that oh the blog yeah that's right I I almost forgot what do you mean you know you say that all the time you repeat things from the blog word for word can I see that what my this is this is personal he was always looking at the notebook before he said something I really loved River let me see it you know I'm tired I think I'm going to go home hey Lana what are you doing hey phrases from the blog that Lana likes commit them to Memory or she'll suspect you suspect you of what is is the blog not [Music] yours no I uh I discovered it a couple years ago when it went viral and I started using liner to get girls and when I saw that he was moving from a big city the same time I was I figured why don't I just become him why why not after my last school I needed a new identity I needed to to reinvent myself and he was right in front of me yeah well you really don't value anything do you what Lana I value you yeah well you've been lying to me this whole time I was just giving you everything you wanted yeah well now you don't have a date to prom jerk and you know what I have something for you who what is wrong with you this that's disgusting La yeah at least I'm honest sort of I couldn't believe it how could this all be a coincidence so what about falling for a girl with a famous name there were so many similarities how could it be she doesn't feel the same way it's okay at least we plan to jump out of a plane on our one-year friendship ofs 3 and 6 months so at least she likes me enough to stay friends for a while that's enough for me wait this is what John and I planned to do a year ago you look like you've seen a ghost Susan what are you doing here what's it look like why do you look so freaked did you finally figure it out figure what El you think I quoted that blog by accident we all loved whoever that boy was who was writing those posts I thought it was River when I first saw him but the more I got to know John I realized it had to be him that and I also secretly read his diary when I asked him about the blog he made me promise not to tell because he's shy about showing that side of himself how is it possible it it just doesn't add up well the posts are all exactly a year behind so the post you read today he wrote a year ago but he doesn't want anyone to know okay that's why the posts come out at the same time every single day it's scheduled all those posts that got me through my hardest days they were from John the serious sight he never showed the big city he moved from wasn't La it was New York I had been in love with my best friend this whole time and I had no idea I can't believe I didn't see it you were right I didn't value him enough and now now I've lost him forever I'm not great at comforting people so well Susan is he still going a problem with you tonight I've begged him to let me take him and try to make things up to him but he doesn't seem too sure I wasn't going to lose him that easy please convince him I made a huge mistake but you were right I didn't value him enough over my own wants and I didn't even really get to know him for who he was but I need to tell him I'm sorry and sorry isn't enough but I have to make this big I have to let him know how much he means to me how much he's always meant Susan please just please get John to the prom okay thank you looks like he didn't come after all well he's been talking to me from a distance for years so maybe it should be my turn oh I hope the DJ doesn't mind hi sorry Hi everyone there's something I need to say Can someone record this please thanks she's always looking for ways to help more people She's always telling me ideas that helped her with a problem so it'll help me too she doesn't know how much she helps me or everyone else because she's not trying to it's just who she is at first I was afraid to move here but now I wouldn't rather live anywhere else that was written about me by my best friend John since we first met he saw me in a way that no one else ever has he saw me in a way that I never saw him I thought I couldn't love him cuz I didn't believe he was who I wanted but the truth is he's so much better I just wanted to say John I'm so sorry for not seeing you and and your true value oh hi I I have something prepared in case you came John you make me laugh you're there for me when I'm sad you you put up with me when I'm a brat I wish I hadn't been so blind but I can't change the past and I know I don't deserve you well not yet at least but I want to be someone who does you know I've pictured this moment a thousand times and every time in my mind you're no less than perfect just like you are [Music] now look I don't want to ditch you at prom thanks but it's okay all my friends are here and I'm not the one for you you both know that I know you love her [Music] go you know I've kept myself hidden this entire time but you have always been yourself that's why I fell in love with you well now that I actually know who you are all I can say is I loved you first [Music]