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Isolation and Rise to Infamy: The Yandere Dev Case Study

isolation come down and give your lover a kiss social inexperience anger malice and a sudden rise to popularity this is the recipe for Alex Mahan known as yandere Dev the moniker derived from his creation yandere simulator a game that similar to Alexander is incomplete per lengthy form po to his current Day postings he has never been able to find a lasting partner what has fallen him instead has been history that haunts post about wanting to attack his parents many damning accusations varying opinions on promiscuous women and a fascination with the video game character Sam San now all remembered because of his recent elicit conversations with a 16-year-old yeah you're very skinny and that's kind of hot him being 35 more than twice her age did not win favor with the community he was attempting to repair relations with this as it were is a tip of the iceberg many tackle only pieces of yandere De but this video will cover his expansive history to present day in 1997 developing alongside Alexander who was nine at the time was a new term involuntary celibate first found in a support website ran by woman in her mid-20s simply known as Alana Alana's involuntary celibate project as it was called was intended as a support group for those who felt marginalized by society as the website grew the term involuntary celibate was shortened to in cell then as per a suggestion was shortened for the easier spoken and now popular in cell the website itself saw some success and not just as a support group but also as a website where a few members found each other and develop relationships its significance now is boiled down to its coin term and precursor to something vile 3 years later now the year 2000 Alana abandoned the project and the term alongside Alexander swayed from their intended courses what was once a simple slang as a combination of two words involuntary celibate has been overtaken by a culture and a derisive definition as per the Maran Webster's Dictionary an incel is quote a person usually a man who regards himself or herself as being involuntary celibate and typically expresses extreme resentment and hostility towards those who are sexually active unquote Alexander would grow into this definition beginning as he believes at the age of 12 when was rolled in an independent study program akin to homeschooling while Alex isn't very vocal about it nor the reason he was being homeschooled after Elementary School users state that it was because of bullying though it is difficult to confirm because a source is never provided homeschooling when it comes to development needs foremost social nourishment only so much can be absorbed through one's parents or siblings typically peers will fill this role as children learn from a diverse range of personalities from here they can learn how to communicate with one another how not to communicate while not everyone is proficient in communication and social understanding even with attending Public Schools those that are homeschooled can be at a greater risk of being socially malnourished these can be offset by enrolling oneself in activities and clubs where one can socially develop among peers but what happens when there are no attempts to provide social nourishment no social Gatherings no going out no friends the only way of learning how humans interact is through media with social media not very present in the year 2000 Alex had less options quote I've watched countless box sets of anime and played through a countless number of video games coupled with my only World experiences being in elementary school this did not paint a very good picture of what the world is like for me unquote the excessive expressiveness in media and the unrealistic nature of scenarios that play out in works of fiction did not seem as such for Alex he had a skewed picture of the outside world he was a foreigner everywhere but his home perhaps that was felt as he began relating his struggles with foreign works anes with a larger emphasis on those socially disconnected resonate stronger the Evangelion series comes to mind as its protagonist Shinji struggles with his past traumas lack of connection and crushing responsibilities this anime is hailed as a masterpiece for its depiction of human emotions set in a cruel world where it would be hard to be anything but depressed these topics allowed a pinle view into understanding Human Relationships a bit more accurately than media that that curtails harsher topics for the sake of escapism as Alexander grew he longed for the connections others had as the themes of friendships and relationships were ever present in media yet in his personal life never felt any closer this changed somewhat with the Advent of the internet though it was present for several years at this point its Evolution allowed for larger more complex forms similar to Lana's involuntary celebrate project these attracted users that found it difficult to find those which shared interest in person whether was video games comic fan sites anime sites it was certain to exist on the internet like anime musicvideos toorgle now 16 years old found this forum and has one of the earliest posts from his at the time online Alias Ava Zeon created on May 8th 2004 the Ava is taken from evangelon and the zon is taken from the anime razon which is similar to melan originally he joined because he wanted to make an anime music video as for this post where he was struggling to understand the guide in what is primitive editing and trying to Overlay music on video as was popular in virtually all subcultures in the 2000s In fairness the guide is not as clear as it should be with its technical lingo especially at an introductory level the first response was by user named absolute Destiny referring Alex to a section of the guide Alex then responds with the section showing its lack of clarity now absolute Destiny understanding Alex's problem gives a detailed breakdown of what to do and Alex is elated two few more topics were made over 2 days Alex required Guidance the commentar were as helpful and Alex appeared to be grateful but there was some friction in his communication when trying to get users to understand his problem and as others would find out this was an issue for him proposing a new rule now I don't mean to formally challenge the administrators with this topic but I'd like to share some of my thoughts I'm not mad at the guides however I'm mad that everyone thinks that they can solve a problem by telling someone to go read a guide I didn't come to this for or that for to have someone tell me to read a guide I came to a for to get my question answered by someone think that maybe there should be some sort of rule along these lines if you know the answer to someone's query then if you're going to reply to their post tell them the answer through the question do not direct them to a guide either that or there should be a form dedicated to help making an AMV why isn't there one already I'm sorry if I was too fired up or offended any guide authors in this post I just don't want to keep on making new post on topics every time I run into yet another problem because no one helped me adequately because they all told me to read a guide unquote this combativeness from Alex from a form attempting to assist him got mixed reactions some were understanding of his frustration others diagnosed him as the problem specifically in his lack of clarity and defining what he needs assistance with this was the first instance on Forum of Alex's policing or wanting control where none belongs to him yet there was not much hostility from either side at least not on this forum instead here he was very expressive about his desires on a topic created to share sexy SL hot screen caps of Anime characters Alex responded to one of the posters with quote it's hot and sexy and I've ejaculated many times to it got any more like it unquote the infancy of the internet and the concept of permanence was not felt which is why posts like this won't exist qu this reminds me of a guy who had a 2ft tall statue of Ray ayanami he said he bought it for 2 $50 which sounds a lot better than what they seem to be charging for the doll up above man I love seeing those life-size anime dolls this post was dated May 29 2004 Ray ayanami is a female character from evangelon that Alex showed increasing interest in in December of that year he stated quote I dig weak and submissive girls give me Ray she wouldn't say no hell she does whatever she's ordered to use your imagination unquote Ray aonami from Evangelion is canonically 14 years old Alex at the time posting this was 16 he was expressing his desires developing interest in others the only way he feasibly could While most develop crushes and interact with humans Alex had only a digital Escape quote 16 here and may raging out ofc control hormones demand an entire forum for the posting of various forms of sexy screen caps unquote this Foe and shallow imagery exciting but fleeting was meaningless as Alex searched and peeled away layers of the internet for art that pleased him he knew there limits to this experience not soon after came a depression and anger that joined in that realization quote I am suicidal and if it weren't for anime I would have killed myself by now unquote Alexander did not have many outlets but he did have access to the ever expanding internet where early forms of social media were popping up the most well-known was Myspace while this website did seem to Pioneer popular elements such as the customization of a user's homepage there were sites created even before Myspace capturing a different Market entirely one such was Guy online where Myspace grew because of its Simplicity and ease of access Gaia Online floured within anime and gaming communities as it evolved to be more interactive via events that and rudimentary locations players could socialize using their avatars this also created distance and anonymity in Gaia you could be anyone making it easier to talk about anything and Alex recently joining the website in 2005 had a building frustration and insecurity he could not Shake on the Forum section of the website he posted quote I hope that it would not make me sound too desperate to say this but I have been worried if I am the type of guy whom a girl would ever consider dating I'm going to describe myself as honestly as possible and then I'd like to know if I sound like it would ever be possible for me to find a girlfriend unquote Alex continues by stating what he states are his positive qualities he quote always tries to speak or Act without offending anyone unquote he is sweet a romantic guy a gentleman who is open-minded tolerant not very judgmental at all as for his flaws clear by the creation of this post he is not very confident Alex may know this by his love of Japan that he exhibits the early signs of a hikori a neat a shuton different words that share the quality of those that withdraw from society in Japan this is an increasing issue as more and more young adults withdraw from society as they drop out of school they don't see work they stay at home all day repeating in the same day only existing to consume no matter how much it is desired a fear and anxiety of entering the outside world becomes crushing in Japan this issue was caused by various reasons some being related to mental illness where families of those mentally ill and place of being homeless will hide them from the world after all Japan has a phenomenally low homeless population there's also the crunch culture and the pressure placed on succeeding to find a salary job where the importance does not entirely lie in the money though inflation does play a part in working longer hours these salary jobs are often times secondary families workers spend so much time it becomes the prime area of socialization other aspects of Japan like its distant culture its desire for Conformity makes this issue worse while the US doesn't have as much of a problem with neat or those who are not employed in education or training it does have less support for those that might find themselves in these positions these are the social influences the psychological are much more comp complex Alex can be seen as a standard case except it is unknown if he is the one that desired his homeschooling or if it was the decision of his parents regardless as he consumes anime and other media it weighs on him more the experiences he never had in this post there is a fictional Vincent who is role playing kissing a woman Alex reacts by replying quote after reading that post I felt really crappy sad about how I've never had any sort of experience with a girl man I feel so jealous I feel like a loser saying this but I cried man I seriously cried I'm asking for your help I feel like utter crap about this and I don't know what to do I've considered killing myself any advice how do I get over this unquote he already feels rejected and displays insecurity because of those missed experiences he feels himself a lesser human being because he has not had a girlfriend and to be accepted within society means to be vetted by having a girlfriend according to him this delves into the infamous side of Insel rhetoric in 2005 it was hard to say which way he would go he was only 17 and this insecurity and resentment was only just starting on Gaia he continued to seek acceptance and get opinions on its looks this is why he posted this image of himself Alex's Saving Grace was that he was not a neat he may have been socially withdrawn but he was still being homeschooled he did sometimes also go out with his female cousin that he often talks about and sometimes with his parents in this post he talks about going to a local anime convention with both his father and his cousin but what comes after after he is done with high school online college was not a viable option in 2005 he has as per his extreme exposure of it heeld interest in Digital entertainment from anime to games he has showed interest in creating something similar he has talked about his budding Photoshop abilities cre questionable fanfiction and apparently even made an anime based dating simulator Alex had his interest there are things he wanted to do the issue now was leaving the Safety and Security of his room and attending college in person something he really did not want to do quote my dad is obsessed with my getting into college he is obsessed obsessed with the thought of college harassing me about it all day long and even personally insulting me whenever I disagree with him I hate him I hate him so much I don't love my father anymore he is an redacted he is so mean to me I wish I could disappear from my life I want to make him disappear from my life I want to kill him I want to kill him with my bare hands I always fantasize about using a knife while he's sleeping I sneak into his room and plung a knife right in to his throat stab him over and over and over while screaming at him what a horrible father what a horrible person he is and right as he realizes it's me he'll die then I'll have to kill my mom she's a total redacted anyway I'd like if she died too unquote these emotions and fantasies are not typical but they can be for those socially withdrawn in Japan needs as their parents retire are not able to support them so after Decades of staying indoors the needs have to enter the workforce to survive the turmoil is so great that these emotions materialize in different ways Alex is exhibiting anger which seems to be common some people that are more than twice as old as Alex that have spent their entire lives indoors op to kill their parents than themselves while not common these are true horror stories that drive fear in the hearts of the Japanese and create more pressure in trying to integrate their children into society fortunately besides a different pose thinking he may become a serial killer these feelings now mid 2006 subsided but not his growing displeasure of what he the loss of the public school experience quote in a mere four months I will be 18 years old and high school will be over in less than that I'm really sad because I will no longer be in the same place as my favorite anime characters I will no longer be able to experience any of the things they are experiencing and will no longer be the same age as them all of the high school anime I watch from that point on will leave me nostalgic for high school and wishing that I've been able to experience it as the characters had I don't have any friends I've never had a girlfriend or gone to a party or done any of the fun things most kids my age have done dozens of times I pretty much wasted my entire childhood watching High School anime makes me really jealous of the characters who had got to have such fun childhoods and high school experiences unquote to that Alex States his optimal partner would be just as socially awkward as him quote in this fantasy there is a girl who always stays home has spent most of her life reading and listening to music and is horrified when she finally goes to high school then her and I meet one another unquote he repeatedly cross several form posts for for the losers web comic described what his optimal partner would be someone who has no sexual experience someone who is innocent and socially inexperienced as well he goes as far to say that he Harbors hatred for promiscuous women finding out that women have those strong desires has caused conflict as he never knew they could be like that after much reprimanding from other forign members he grew to tolerate them and then just a month after stating his dislike of them he on May 8 2006 as has become patterned asked if someone in his situation has a chance to have s quote do you think that if this guy met a [ __ ] girl he would have a good shot at convincing her to have sex with him it wouldn't be quote unquote pity sex it wouldn't be sex just because you felt sorry for him it'd be sex to help him and cheer him up and make his dreams come true unquote Alex describes himself as innocent hating all that he perceives vulgar like mean people or people that use swear words yet one of his accounts was seen asking questions on how to progress in the 2006 video game rayl the player assaults A 42-year-old mother and her and 12-year-old daughter there is dissonance in what Alex deems to be a model person he even stated in different post that he is quote sexually frustrated yes higher in terms of moral certitude yes unquote Alex appears to be Shifting the blame for his lack of sexual activity to not his lack of socialization or his inability instead it's just him being selective and while he tolerates promiscuous women he will never quote pursue a romantic relationship with them unot in another post he goes as far to statee I'm saying that I could not easily be attracted to a girl whose virginity was taken by another man unquote at this point Alex had begun taking classes at San Monica College to learn animation his exposure to the public was not helping him integrate it was having the adverse effect quote I saw so many couples today they were putting their arms around one another and holding each other's hands and even kissing I almost cried that sort of thing should be illegal unquote his continued negativity and hatred bled into his forign posts Not only was not integrating well in his college online his vit like posts were getting criticized in December 2006 he went on several tie raids about how much he despises mean people and when he got criticized instead of digesting the criticism he States quote other people were mean to me which made me want to defend my points strongly as people became more and more mean I became more extreme in my defense of my beliefs I don't have a distorted view of women and sex I got over my confusion a long time ago but I defended extreme beliefs about women and sex just because everyone was being so mean unquote there was something that ring true in the statement in that Alex when criticism is brought forth he reciprocates negativity rather than attempting to understand this part of him would not change in a different post still in December he States it would be optimal to exterminate all mean people that same day he stated that shootings can be justified if only Bullies Are harmed this combative attitude and hatred were making Alex more marginalized in an already marginalized space these constant disagreements allowed him to understand how little his views were fitting in as for 2007 besides expanding on his already expansive website comparing in velan to razon that is a 17-page breakdown Alex again became a bit more at peace with his emotions so far every time it appears he's about to go over the edge and do something drastic he takes a step back and re-evaluates and calms down wanting to learn and improve angaya in October of 2007 he stated quote over the past 2 years I developed a lot and I've learned how to be around people can talk with people and interact with them much easier now but still nobody really looks at me unless I speak up or ask me questions or talks to me unless I've initiated the conversation they're all concerned with each other and it seems like nobody really cares about me the other thing that's getting me down is that no girls are ever interested in me occasionally I'll try to say something flattering and complimentary and the girls expression and Body Language will change and I can tell that it creeped them out a little today I spent a few minutes with one of my friends and a female friend of his she told us a funny story where this really creepy die was hitting on her and it bothered her a lot I saw parallels to my own situation unquote he ends the post once again asking for advice while the replies try to cheer Alex up it does not help as Alex responds with quote I am extremely anxious about not having a girlfriend it is my greatest insecurity unquote at the end of 2007 Alex vented more on a different Forum one that he made an account for earlier in that year on the suicide Forum he posted quote I'm insecure anxious lonely and I like confidence I have nothing to live for unquote this post can be summed up with these two sentences quote nobody wants to be friends with me no girl wants to call me hers my life is and always has been a giant disappointment unquote on Gaia he announced his New Year resolution quote my New Year resolution is to finally get a girlfriend but when I say New Years I don't mean for 2008 that has been my resolution for the past 5 years since I was 14 I've wanted a girlfriend I'm 19 now and I've never had a girlfriend I've never gone on a date with a girl or kissed a girl no girl has ever been interested in me or given me a chance I would keep the same resolution for the next year but if I haven't had a girlfriend by now what's the point I don't think any girl will ever desire me I think I'll be alone for the rest of my life unquote there are more than three pages of topics Alex made reiterating his desperation I eat alone sleep alone study alone or all girls who refuse to date me contribute to my problems where can I find [ __ ] girls who like to fool around the last topic specifically sparked a new page Not only was he accepting a promiscuous woman he was now seeking them going as far as to message random women in Myspace the first three comments responding to Alex's announcement of the strategy read quote you need help frowny face personally I think that's sort of tacky I doubt you'll touch a real boob ever unquote 2 days later he came back sharing his results quote Seven Girls read the message and did not respond four girls have not yet read the message two girls respond responded and said they were cool with hooking up with guys I told them I live within 5 miles and was interested in meeting them I'm waiting for a response unquote nothing came of this Alex also tried a Craigslist posting after 4 days of no responses he came back asking for advice yet again is there something unappealing about my post how come nobody at all responded un because of these unsuccessful Ventures Alex sought out advice ravenously on Gaia after about 5050 posts or so he posted three images of himself while the images are gone on the original page they still exist in an archive that remains true for this video titled all of zeros suit samus's sexy moves in four times slow motion ready [Applause] [Music] go that was a compilation of the protagonist from the Metroid game series stri from her armor performing attacks in the newly released fighting game Super Smash Bros all uploaded on none other than the Ava Zeon YouTube channel though it was host many random games and anime videos and clips that video is one of the few that now remain private on the channel as for his new attempts to find a partner the lowering of his standards subjecting himself to strategies that he would previously deem vulgar must have taken its toll as his desperation was reaching New Heights without sufficient results Alex felt doomed to remain single as if it was a method of torture administered intentionally only brought to a change in move where by his own words was in heaven quote I've been hanging out with a girl lately and because I had never even had my first kiss with a girl she responded by telling me she thought I was really cute and asked me if I'd like to have my first kiss with her I said yes and we kissed she made out with me really passionately and let me touch her chest Alex then details that they were interrupted by a friend who had shown up as they had previously planned to see a show the conflict here is what she told Alex quote I want to make something clear even though I really like you I don't want to be anyone's girlfriend I've always tried to avoid that title unquote though Alex was ecstatic to have his perception of himself changed from an attractive to cute from a girl he States is quote the most attractive girl I've seen at College he had only a brush with quote unquote heaven and did not want to pursue her strongly to avoid coming off as creepy especially after being given her stance on the matter a month went by and Alex gave no updates he was however showing interest in other girls this post on God simply reads resolved it is an edit later made to hide the original post looking at the first reply quote I see you're a redacted how's that working out for you unquote then a third and fourth set a tone of readers being in opposition of Alex calling him creepy and stalker-like the first post may have been wiped but Alex's replies still remain on page two of this topic Alex post a picture of a girl with text that reads quote sigh some girls are so hot I really hope that one day a girl like that actually speaks to me I trade anything in the world for the chance to kiss a girl like that sigh why do pretty girls always avoid me unquote as strong as he masses Voice through opposition of Alex obsessing over this person he persisted regardless reconstructing this post using the replies tells of Alex finding a girl possibly on his social media website seeing that some of her interest in line with his messaged her stating something along the lines of they would be perfect together additionally on page 13 a commenter States quote the fact that she is in high school and you aren't some people aren't interested in making friends like that unquote this wasn't the only POS that Alex both wiped the original title and conflicted with the replies some thinking his rants were so absurd that he must have been a troll this time as per Alex's replies he States quote involuntary celibacy has many negative consequences and one of them ridicule from other people can be observed quite clearly here unquote from this and others replies focusing on involuntary celibacy we can deduce that the topic was on Alex deeming himself an incel the lukewarm two negative responses allude to Alex complaining about his position his self-deprecating nature returned with a fury and in a different post on these suicide forums he gave the reason why quote 2 months ago I met the most interesting intelligent beautiful sexy and overall enchanting woman I will ever meet during the time that she was expressing desire for me all of my self-loathing and lack of confidence was buried and visible while I was with her I I was happy and confident and proud of myself and now that she is gone all of my insecurities has returned we stayed in touch after she told me that there would not be anything between us a while ago I hinted at the idea of a relationship between us she simply said that ship sailed a long time ago her feelings for me are now gone I know that there is nothing I can do about her nothing I can do to fix things or make her change her mind but what am I going to do with myself unquote in place of that wouldbe relationship he showed interest in a different woman like he had never had before on the smashboard forums for the game series Super Smash Bros he posted quote sub smashboards longtime Smasher firsttime poster I made this video a few months ago and only now did it finally occur to me that smashboards might be interested in it it's a 10-minute long video of zeros suit samus's moves and four times slow motion I hope you have as much fun watching this video as I did making it unquote that video was of zerit Samus the second attached was a new one the trail does not end there as Alex is seen thinking the person who created the zeros suit Sam's model for Garry's Mod that Alex had now got working in Maya an animation program that he likely began learning in college Alex's habits as he entered 2009 stayed his proclivity to All Things anime and gaming in the online space didn't see any less involvement from him ladies and gentlemen time to turn off visions and turn your computers off now the internet had reached a point that video could be streamed live not rendered or even requiring download for viewership those with generous connection could join creators and their streams and participate in their communities via attached chat rooms Alex in January of 2009 tried his hand at this recalling Resident Evil 4 as the first game he streamed his personal website avon.com had hosted more than just comparisons of two animes it hosted a game project where the protagonist was a clear recolor of art of zeros suit samis and now his live stream known as Ava video there exist many anecdotes describing Alex's dreams as perverse and rage fueled even Alex's recollection of this time fits others descriptions of temper tantrums excessive talk about his loneliness and hyperfocus on viewers that out themselves as female he likely due to a lack of options quickly got an audience of 100 or so people a night these things aligned universally in statements describing Alex during this time including a stream made directly in opposition of Alex except for one clim one that could ruin any future Endeavor if proved without a doubt One Big Mess of anecdotes screenshots arguments trying to prove who cisf was what Alex had her allegedly do and a different underage girl that sent Alex in chat members nudes to start there is much evidence from those trying to prove this alleged cisf claims against Alex yet there is enough missing information that gives Alex Brie the room to counter these claims then there is much speculation from both sides that jumbo what is already a mess this is the summarized story from sisf side quote the summary is that I met him on his video game channel when I was 14 and he was 21 he asked me to date him knowing my age even viewing it as a plus I was young and naive and star for attention because of my broken home so feeling flattered and valued I said yes we had many sexually explicit conversations and webcam sessions where he would do things in front of the camera while I responded on my mic with sounds he wanted me to make and he asked me for nudes in certain positions Etc eventually I started to feel like he was just using me because he was only ever interested in sex and his constant clinginess and controlling Behavior made me feel claustrophobic I eventually just broke up with him when he made a comment about not seeing us lasting much longer he tried to beg me to come back first and when I didn't he Banned Me from M dream a few of the regulars took my side and we started a new channel where we could hang out away from him unquote as a counter there is this leak chatlog he haded with a woman from OK Cupid where Alex talks about CF and States quote CF was a girl who flirted with me online I flirted with her back she seemed cool at first but it turned out that she wasn't cool at all she did a bunch of bad stuff like she lied about her age and she started a website to give people a place to say bad things about me and her parents took away her internet privileges because she was taking new pictures of herself and sending them out to random people she sent me her new pictures and she sent them to like 100 other people too and somehow this means AA zon requested redacted from miners unquote these at the core are two contradicting statements the parties hold then there's also these images the alleged sis uploaded of her in 2009 to prove her existence most important is the iHeart AA written on her fingers that what be very damning if it was iHeart Ava zon and not just iHeart AA which can also be construed as Evangelion as it was and still is a popular anime then there were additional photos of the chat room her with a headset on o increase the possibility of her claims there is much more evidence but never anything that is conclusive most of the evidence is anecdotal or relies too much on Alex's character and Alex's evidence to disprove s's claims is equally unreliable and sometimes contradictory like these emails claiming sisf never existed and was just a troll the entire time the only people who know the truth are Alex and the alleged SFS as for Alex it was no secret that he is a sexual deviant in all of his interest he could find a sexual sign and so in his alternate Channel zon AA he has videos on middle gear saw Peace Walker six backto back are entirely on the 16-year-old P Ortega one is on how to seduce her the rest are also sexually charged on this channel he also has I'll be a short five videos on the game rock band where he has made all the members women in bikinis and that's it this channel also has a video with every Cuts scene of zeros suit Samos in the game Metroid Other M besides videos of e3 and Anime Expo it has clips of random games with interesting happenings like glitches and is for all intents and purposes and accurate portrayal of the mind of Alex shoot you in the crotch even with all these videos considered they pale in comparison to his other works namely his fanfiction proving both his unchanging nature of needing to sexually charge other works and sexual deviancy that has remained strong trying to tell a mostly serious story with constant mention of breast and sexually explicit material on OCT oober 31st 2005 Alex began writing a soulcaliber fanfiction titled I am your slave these Works considering they are typically creative Outlets with no incentive Beyond expression are expectedly abandoned Alex was the exception nearly 4 years 59 chapters and over 300,000 words later the work was finished totaling 350,000 words this was more than a full in novel if converted to a book that's 1,400 double space Pages perhaps this was a distraction to help him forget about what he deemed as his shortcomings the same month this was published he was again ranting about losing the opportunity with the girl he made out with as cyclical as Alex's life was the background elements were progressing because after 3 years he graduated from Santa Monica College with an Associate of arts animation interactive technology video graphics and special effects this is essentially animation with game development there was no job waiting for him after graduation so feeling that time he streamed and continued to get notoriety for his sour personality there exists a 29 second video where Alexander toast to who is presumably a friend for pirating Warcraft 3 in his hand is a goblet of milk that he sips the audio won't be played because Alex wants to hide this and copyright strikes any copy of it he even attempts to copyright claim transformative works that in turn bring attention to them the earliest Recreation of him sipping the Goblet dates back all the way to February of 2010 having a poor reputation about non-stop discussion of his sexual frustration birthed this I have never [Music] sex toaster stalwart in desires Alex did not relent he pressed on and attempted to legitimize his writing by not going under aaon but his real name Alex Mahan as an quote unquote LA video game bab's examiner that could be found on examiner.com videos uploaded here are the same ones uploaded on his secondary YouTube channel zon AA like his video on the Chrome angels seen on the 2008 game awards investigating these works could have helped early detractors put together Alex's online identity nothing more telling than this article titled samas Aon from roal model to sex object here is an excerpt we taking into account Alex's obsession with this character develops a rather unexpected argument put for so long Samus had always been the exact opposite of the most common female archetype in video games the stereotypical sexy babe wearing minimal clothing while striking provocative poses at every chance and now Samus herself once the very poster child for respectable female leads has join the rings of such bambos as of the introduction of the Zero Suit samis seron has lost all Mystique her face wants a closely guarded secret is now bared freely and she wears a form fitting skin tight suit that tightly hogy curves of shapely body she is perfectly ideal highly attractive and the most sexually appealing Nintendo character in years a drastic change from whom she once was while you will hear no complaints from enthusiasts of the female form samon's previous character has been vandalized she is no longer a woman but a sexualized woman it is disrespectful towards Samus to exploit her gender by adding sexuality to what was once an almost genderless character while fans of the series hope that this trend would not continue the trailer for the upcoming Metroid Other M reveals that Sims will be once again be making frequent appearances out of a robotic armor for all to see unquote Alex would not detach from his roots and so this year he attended Anime Expo in case you were wondering what it's like to be an Anime Expo this is what it looks like the trip could have been a networking Venture because about a month later in late 2010 he landed a job at a game development company known as Kung Fu Factory despite having less time due to longer hours of work work and not being able to stream as much as he used to there exist recordings of the few streams he did during this time one of them are on the day of the release of the PlayStation Move while primitive his setup was functional even complete with a webcam those that joined late would find Alex playing shirtless a choice influenced by the heat of his living quarters it was on this stream where Alex reveals that even though his education laid in animation he was being hired on as a quality assurance Junior game designer I'm I'm unhappy because my 3D animation ability is not uh I don't think it's going to meet their standards I don't think they're going to be hiring me on as an animator Junior game designer yes Junior game designer quality assurance lead Maybe Junior animator maybe I'll get to do the crappy animations because the more skilled animators are too busy doing important things to bother with that crap eventually his lack of ability in animation would be damning that and this Reddit post from a user that goes under what happened to Ava this is either an excellent troll who is aware of Alexander's job his style of ranting and his descriptive insecurities or it is Alex and he posted on Reddit no woman could ever love me I must choose between a life of hookers or a life with a real doll which should I choose the Crocs of this post is in the last paragraph quot quote a real doll is $6,500 but will get a lot of use every day for the rest of my life a hooker is much cheaper but even if I only used a herker once a week or once a month the cost would easily outweigh a real doll within a year a real doll is the most financially prudent choice but a hooker is flesh and blood unquote a real doll as the name implies is a life-size sex doll a real doll that costs that much would be one of high quality and thus the price would be too steep for now even without this information in the public space Alex was gaining infamy like never before there are many anecdotes of him ruling over his dreams with an iron fist some of his roles demonstrate this like his strange selection of bad words while some are common like the N or f word others are chosen only due to the repetition in his chat like variations of lag internet lingo like P PLS or M4 and wording that impli suggestions such as should have could have would have must have his online activity a trail of combativeness and sexual deviancy were taking form in simple articles and discussions the first of importance is this one titled gamers are embarrassing Alex Mahan a study in gamer embarrassment posted April 11 2011 this reads quote he listed himself as an LA games babe examiner which is something no one should ever list themselves as he apparently writes copious amounts about the various babes in gaming apparently hundreds of Articles dedicated to various women in gaming from all facets of the embarrassing gamer World from horrible figurines to cosplay to just appreciating in-game models there is so much to cover here and I can't even begin to scratch the surface this guy is pretty much single-handedly illustrating every [ __ ] up aspect of how gamer men deal with women and he keeps doing it feel free to come up with favorite examples in the comments he also apparently goes by the internet handle Ava Zeon if you feel like finding out more it's not going to make you happy at all unquote while short these words resonated with the comments and provided the increasingly recognizable connection between Alex Mahan and Ava Zeon comments range from linking to his name on the Urban Dictionary to demonstrate established infamy to his Ventures like his streams his 350,000 word fanfiction and his unwelcome pose from Guy online the dangers of centralizing these identities to a single person was very much real as if only to bring further ridicule a month after this was posted Alex created not only the video game bap's Twitter account to accompany his articles but also a YouTube channel under the same name this channel was entirely devoted to close-ups of the models of video game characters all of Alexander's previous videos on zeros suit samis were also found on here the constant advertising of his articles was also getting some attention though ironically it was not the advertisements that brought attention to him it was the stri and effect playing its part the article calling Alex an embarrassment was now trumped by a Reddit post that dated July 2011 the poster shows an image of Alex advertising his articles via sponsor Lings on Reddit that reads quote nobody ever visits my subreddit about video game women frowny face please visit maybe you'll like it unquote the user then shows the response to Alex's post that reads quote it's because in all likelihood you work for/ getpaid by examiner.com to post links over and over to their site ruining what could have been a good subreddit then you do stuff like get an advertisement and use it to complain about how there are never any visitors on this subreddit unquote the user then shows that they were banned by Alex from that subreddit this image compiling all this was posted to r/ gaming and despite its poor compiling gained fast traction with 1. 4,000 up votes and 474 comments the comments readily recognize the culprit as Ava zon the top comment labels him as the Biggest Loser on the internet recognized by the spamming of his video game streams on forchan some comments equate this to Chris Chan a different Infamous internet figure one comment positively in response to the video of him drinking milk describes the drink as a goblet of seen little did these posters know it that their comments and observations in time would be carried into a solidified image of Alex as these criticisms boiled over Alex did not reduce the heat in fact on this dream of him playing Rise of nightmares he is scene logging into Fortune where he would advertise his dreams to building frustration yet he kept spamming and producing a fan fiction still in 2011 he wrot one centered around the protagonist of The Legend of Zelda series titled death to the world providing the answer to the question no one asked quot what happens when link becomes sexually frustrated unot as his work at Kung Fu Factory intensified his online presence dwindled this was remedied by Alex quitting his job Alex as he claimed was very talented in creating prototypes of games fast Creations meant to make a concept tangible to make it sellable this is why he left in July of 2013 to start work as a freelance developer and try his hand at developing his own game maybe that's why or perhaps a different reason why Alex was seen requesting a model of zeros suit Sam's Rick for Maya as it would become apparent Alex saw only the pros and not the cons in his ability though he could create a concept when trying to flesh out a game and cod it efficiently and for the long term is something he could not do structure and anything is important optimally when reading code one can look at it and comprehend how the elements interact with one another this is clean and understandable but if these strands take a less optimal route and become harder to follow while functional the unwarranted complexity makes these connections look jumbled like a bowl of spaghetti hence the term Spaghetti Cod so Alex could develop a concept but then what was his plan afterwards well the afterwards was hard to achieve so he just focused on the present and after considering many different directions he settled on a fighting game taking inspiration from Mike zont an India developer with recent success from his fighting game skull girls Alex began making his own 2D fighting game simply titled fighting game this could be found on his website avon.com on the surface it was a rudimentary fighting game but on the back end it was not even considered that in November 2013 Alex seeking advice joined Mike Z's IRC this could be equated to joining someone's Discord server and here Alex requested Mike going as whiper ronen check out his fighting game the text of the IRC has been preserved and shows the Fallout resulting from Mike's advice to Alex Alex starts by stating frowny face everyone hates my fighting game it's the opposite of what I envisioned Mike responds with like what I got from your demo was I haven't done most of the work yet but since I haven't encountered problems my design is sound and I should ignore your advice I don't hate the game I hate your attitude as the chat progresses it is understood by the subtext that Alex is not seeking advice for his fighting game he is seeking praise as Alex responds with how is it not impressive that I single-handedly created a fighting game I made a game with intros Idols walks runs jumps dashes air dashes specials Health meters super meters throws air throws and I hand animated every animation myself isn't that impressive isn't that respect worthy so there's an organization problem can't I hear a single encouraging word Mike responds with good job you did a thing in unity that runs and renders stuff for you and you made an update Loop and some anims good [ __ ] sir you only want to hear that the point Mike is trying to get across as an experienced developer that took the time to review Alex's work is to get Alex to understand his work is unimpressive in the competitive market he is trying to enter and if he is not grounded in creating something not just competent but uniquely impressive then he will fail Alex both makes it clear he does not understand and inadvertedly annoys Mike with his petulant attitude by stating if there is no gratification for what I've done then it's literally wasted work like why should I ever code again Alex maintains this attitude throughout the rest of the chat with lines such as why would I ever bother pursuing my dreams ever again when this is the outcome that's what I wanted it to be I wanted to be Mike Z I wanted to meet somebody cool who could be my Alex Ahad still it gets worse not only can Alex not grasp the privilege of having his work reviewed he spits on that by stting to Mike Z what kind of ego does it take to make you think that everyone should do exactly what you say and code exactly the way you think they should the chat members keep on attempting to console Alex and Alex only pies himself If This Were to play out on a macro scale it would be catastrophic though Alex did as stated several times abandon this project he still remained fixated with creating a fighting game that's why on January 2014 a preview for lunner Scythe the fighting game Alex turned his attention to was uploaded on a channel that would only ever hose that 29 second preview Alex also released an 80 megabyte demo he could be found advertising it on scho hearts.com a website dedicated to school girls the feedback here was constructive but lukewarm at the project commenters finding the main character Luna's design to be lackluster and too similar of other popular characters like red from the show Ruby who also wields a scythe as a weapon Alex will work on Lun scyth until March where he gave up on designing fighting games altogether these two failures resulting in being virtually unemployed for a year left him in desperate situation it got to the point where he was in talks with Kung Fu Factory attempting to recuperate his old job he had one last concept that success would decide his future he placed that in the potential of a yere simulator in the video game section on forchan he talks about this concept let's discuss the game mechanics of a yandere simulator said in School pick a boy stalk him kill girls who flirt with him/ talk to/ look at him Stealth gameplay have to stalk the boy without getting spotted set up accidents to kill girls or kill girls without getting caught using variety of school supplies dating Sim gameplay have to win the heart to the boy you have chosen without letting him find out that you're a jealous and murderous psychopath bad end kill the boy and kill yourself good end kill all harlots to try to steal the boy from you live happily ever after would V play it to this he reportedly got all he wanted from his Concepts and that was positive feedback so a day later on April 2nd he made a second post and on the third a third he also made a YouTube channel for the game and in the vein of lunar Scythe uploaded a short demo where the protagonist is seen photographing their target and beating the woman he is talking to this has many reasons to succeed but also many roadblocks placed by Alex's Personality and Social inability a yandere is a Japanese word or at least a pment of two Japanese words yandere R which means to be sick and der da which means to be L struck there are less destructive archetypes found commonly in media as well like a Sunder that comes off as harsh but that is offset with the overpowering emotion of love these archetypes are fairly new and make their appearances in Manga and Anime as the name implies a yandere is someone who is mentally ill and goes to great extents for their perceived lover killing or other equally intense actions are expected from them to maintain their ties with their partner to be popular these characters maintain a balance of cess and Madness and are virtually only women that is the essence of a yandere and do not have to be in school though they can be portrayed as such in anime and manga and are commonly written around High School age protagonists as seen in Alex's video the classroom setting is one of a Japanese high school as the idea of gained traction Alex created additional avenues for updates like a Blog that was updated regularly with progress reports while not yet playable he did create a simplistic clicker game of the same theme forchan was ecstatic and extremely supportive of Alex's idea month after month more videos were released adding new and necessary updates like the ability to dispose of bodies a hub area before going to school and progressively the school itself was being developed Alex included various polls that allowed voting on The Game's mechanics these ideas and support created a positive feedback loop Alex was adopting bimonthly updates those that were following the development voiced their excitement for the day the alpha build was released and Alex got the attention he was Desperately Seeking and could not get from Mike Z yandere Dev as he was calling himself only used that interaction as fuel to create his indie game quote I was inspired to become an indie Dev by a very well-known programmer who almost single-handedly programmed a fighting game he was my hero my inspiration unquote here he discusses his falling out with Mike Z personally reflecting on the interaction as not Mike Z pointing out flaws generously but instead making me look terrible in front of everyone I turned my depression into a burning hatred that fuels my desire to develop indie games and eventually outshine that [ __ ] unquote but what this alpha build ever come in this 4cham post he stated that the public may have to wait until he is done with the game in order to access it his development hindered by his freelance work as seen here quote I'm sorry it's just a pet project and I have two real jobs so it can be my top priority I'm guessing it might be finished sometime next year unot already in development for 5 months these Stakes were not high Alex was not being paid for its development and promised a simple game with simple design as Alex continued to get popularity as the developer of yandere simulator he was completely detached from AA Zeon and its other forms his current audience knew nothing of that Infamous figure but there were a few that connected the dots luckily their knowledge did not extend beyond them interestingly enough as there was chatter about AA zon a user known as neon aaon popped into Gia requesting that Alex's longest running Gaia topic be deleted since he could no longer access his old account citing the threat as embarrassing and likely one to bury his history because quote people often Google my username of a Zeon that topic is extremely embarrassing for me and many people ridicule me in present day for posting that thread 9 years ago I would very much like a moderator to delete that thread so that people stop making fun of me for it unquote that thread was not deleted and for now it was ignored what fans of the project wanted was to support Alex and so we asked his Newfound audience if they would support a patreon quote hypothetically speaking if I made a patreon for myself would you guys call me a greedy money grubbing redacted sellout or would that actually be understandable unquote Alex was getting more desperate as he was nearing reclaiming his old job at Kung Fu Factory and a successful patreon could help sustain the development of his game a Kickstarter could also be an option but the issues lie within the unclear scope of the game Alex kept adding new features but had yet explained what the gameplay Beyond killing would be in the long run there was as a newly added intro suggested Rivals that would compete for your love interest and would have to be eliminated but little was thought out beyond that without knowledge like this it could be hard to gauge the complexity and set a one-time funding goal not to mention that though the audience he was ging was large comparative ly to what he had before there is no possible way it would Garner enough attention to hit a funding goal for the development of an entire game but if this was to succeed either way he would need funding soon quote my financial situation is a lot different than it was back in April it's hard for me to turn away donations these days unquote that's why late 2014 he launched a patreon and alongside it released a very early version of the game by the end of December he was up to 20 Pat P at $140 a month by January 8th while retaining the same amount of patrons his monthly earnings were down $85 it was around this time that he found out or rather other people did that yandere Dev made a great mistake when commissioning an R piece for his game the link on Devi and art originally read kamish yandere Simulator for Eva zon it was on this thread where he was pushing the long-thought abandoned lunar Scythe where users made this discovery a different user reacted by stating yandere Dev is [ __ ] aaon this cannot be real it can't be a different user was displeased that yandere Dev had his s set on a different game while committed to yandere simulator is he seriously wasting money on this crap hell if you are still here you stupid [ __ ] focus on yandere Sim and throw this [ __ ] to the trash there were a few other instances that made this faint connection corporeal on the smaller side he was seen posting pictures of samaron a character AA zon paid great attention too most obvious yet was a recent update initially yandere Dev with his YouTube videos opted on allowing visual examples for his update videos then on December 2014 he began adding his own narration in yandere Sim the player's reputation determines how they are treated by other students the bar at the top left corner of the screen represents the player's reputation with Alex having a rather unique raspy voice it was not hard to Ty yander Dev and AA zon to together despite a pocket of outrage it at the time meant nothing the stakes and the patrons were low and yandere Dev still had to appeal to one audience base quote if they [ __ ] about the game being too violent or exploiting women or something stupid like that I'll just be thankful for the publicity I don't want to intentionally make the game edgy just for the sake of controversy but I don't intend to compromise the game's content just to avoid offending people either unquote there was something going on in the background virtually no one knew about through the month of January a user known as cannot Google me whose email address is alleged to be Aon mail.com discovered when a user tried to resent the password with the email or so they claim on this real doll Forum cannot Google me ask questions on how to use a doll and avoid things that may ruin it when it eventually arrived this person deemed it my waifu and later dressed it as zeros Suit Samus going as far to say quote do you know who zeros Suit Samus is I think she is utter Perfection so I decided to make my dog cosplay as her this was 90% of the reason for buying the doll I wanted to make samis real unquote at this point everyone was none the wiser in February with continued updates his patreon was up to 37 patrons and $212 a new market was taking not of his work one that he had yet considered only to later develop the game virtually around them hi guys it's Mi here this is um an early a very early sandbox build it's not even like the proper the proper game at the moment of yand simulator so I saw MGA minks uh playing this game and I'm like yep I need to check it out right now okay so this game has been requested for a long time now and I'm starting to get an idea why these set of dominoes fell into place perfectly a chain of events that over months attracted new content creators new players and new fonders for yandere dev's patreon what started as a perplexing sandbox exploration turned into creators including the most subribe channel in the world making multi-part series having their interest reinvigorated with frequent updates as yandre devb was learning he had something very special here he tapped into a market with low Supply Japanese media has been increasingly capturing Western audiences and with yandere Dev being a connoisseur of such Arts mixed with his Western origin was a space where his implementations were appreciated this is a wonderful feeling unlike his previous Ventures where his perspectives on characters came off as Bland and uninspired his additions to this new project were mostly beloved in the accuracy in which he portrayed tropes and elements anime offici AOS like him appreciated by July after a massive sweep of creators playing The Game yandere Dev on his patreon was up to 724 patrons and $4,200 a month with this money he did not have to go back to Kung Fu Factory he did not need to work on site projects He could devote his time to developing the game I think we may have passed the point in time when it's possible to deliver new updates every two weeks however this funding came with the cost of an exception that updates would be pumped out faster optimally with patrons or virtually any project fan support monetarily or beyond the developer will use funds for living expenses while they develop the game and manage themselves in a way that continues to drum up support and donators understand that even with money donated unless promise something they are not out anything this is not always the case on the flip side you will have developers that lack the ability to communicate where the funing goes or comes off as unappreciated and you will have fans that once breaching the monetary barrier feel like they are wrote something and treat their money as investment not only that these fans can come from different communities that want opposing things forchan specifically was weary with this new attention yandre de was getting not only because it had been established that yandre Dev was the infamous evevon but also that these quote unquote normies or PewDiePie and other content creators fan bases would skew development with this increase in attention there were opinionated pieces opposing some of the game mechanics like this article from game War quote yet the game often feels toned death on real problems found within young women's educational experiences bullying and harassment are two core gameplay mechanics that yandre uses to isolate senpai's love interest often mirroring the same experience with social isolation and suicidal ideation that young teenagers regularly face and yandere's distribution of nonsexual sexual photography trivializes sexual exploitation in public school settings and downplays its invasive impact on young women while yandere simulator is an intriguing concept many of the gamees design mechanics translate predatory behavior into a form of entertainment which sanitizes their abusive role in young women's educational experiences unquote yandere Dev actually responded to this by stating in his development blog quote I don't think it could be said that yandere simulator sanitizes harassment suicide or sexual exploitation the player is punished harshly for being caught performing unethical actions unquote he L to be starward and desires to capture His image of the game not a difficult thing to balance considering the opinions against those elements in the game were not popular but there were a few things that were seeming to disturb his newly reached audience Jan why why would I need that why oh hey everyone knows that if a girl wears white panties she must be a pure and innocent Angel so something tells me I'm not whoa this seems weird is this necessary to the game some leaned into the absurdity like PewDiePie whoa I'm in here now I can what you see why I say it's my favorite game because I can change my underwear they're all dirty and it was not entirely that you could pick out panties for Ayano the protagonist of yandere simulator to wear it was that taking Panic shots of students was a mechanic that had one of his own videos removed yandere dev then explained that it is a core gameplay mechanic but the gameplay can be played Without utilizing it as it turns out one of my videos has been removed as a violation of YouTube's policy on nudity or sexual content you see in that video I was demonstrating a feature I was demonstrating that it's possible to take panty shots of girls in yandere simulator now taking panty shots actually has a gameplay purpose if you take a panty shot you can then send it to a character who will do favors for you in exchange for pictures of girls underwear this is a core gameplay mechanic however late 2015 it was finally seeing utilization and therefore explosure to a larger audience that yes excellent now I have a picture of pp osu's oh my God PPU pannies I owe you a favor for this one that video was age restricted it could have been that or the Easter egg that made the characters giant naked models as to mimic the Titans from the popular anime Attack on Titan or it could have been the showering in the sko that would leave clouds to provide scaned coverage of the player's body YouTube and viewers like saw it inappropriate to sexualize characters that are high school age what most people wanted from this game was the mix of cutesy and edginess the sexual implications were continuously round upon this is a side Alex could not Shake even on his Twitter as yandere Dev he was leaning more into what little wanted when tweeting quote after I've grown old and retired I'd like to live on a ranch an anime girl breeding a ranch and die in a stampede unquote this has an attached image of anime girls in a pen it was apparent that Alex was not melting well with his Newfound popularity and with audience members that did not share his constant outward sexual desire s quote the real question is why am I making yandere simulator instead of making wifeu raising and breeding Simulator 2015 unquote as Alex continued to do things like this his history as AA Zam was being exposed at the same time with his newly found popularity he began taking volunteers to help him develop the game his Communications with volunteers sometimes took the medium of emails this became another issue when fans were using this as a way to reach Alex in April he created a post to address this quote yesterday I was unavailable to answer emails and so my emails piled up today I was answering emails from 8 a.m. until 12: midnight I didn't even get to write quote for the game today unquote below he explains where emails are acceptable and unacceptable little did anyone know how big of an issue this would become before that however he was experiencing issues with every aspect of development like battling with his inability to manage this new influx of volunteers the complaints became so severe that he made a blog post to address his shortcomings like the lack of communication by a backed up emails and the building drama surrounding the project and him to try to tackle the email backup and after unsuccessfully detering fan emails he tried again in June 2015 restating what is and isn't acceptable reasons to email him he also tried to create volunteer forms to help in formatting of emails in order to go through them faster in this update in July he th brand the development of the game by stating quote I hate to say it but it's looking extremely likely that I might not be able to implement very much new content into the game on July 15th because I now spend 90% of my time writing emails and 10% of my time writing code for the game unquote readers were catching on to his ranting and gave suggestions have you ever thought about like just hiring someone or asking a volunteer to go through your emails how about just having multiple emails one for bugs one for volunteers and one for for fan art perhaps instead of getting a secretary you could just make a dedicated email strictly for bug reports unquote these went ignored still in July in yet another post he States quote even though I've been doing literally nothing but eating sleeping and reading emails for the past several days I've still got dozens of emails remaining to answer and I seem to be getting new ones at a faster rate that I can answer the old ones so the pile keeps growing most of the emails that I'm replying to are several days is old already unquote this came to a head July 2015 instead of applying recommendations seen in his comments he released a video titled emails volunteers and progress part one I'm sorry I don't have any new gameplay features to show you today you deserve to know the reason why in order to tell you I need to explain something first I receive an extremely high volume of emails every day between 50 and 100 most of these emails are essential for the development of The Game yandere Dev goes on to explain that this influx volunteers and his time spent and atomy Expo consume so much of his time not a single line of code was added to the game the controversial bit it looks to have come from his dismissing of solutions to his email problems yandere Dev yandere Dev why don't you just hire a secretary to filter your emails and answer questions for you uh yandere dev then details Five Points that are all Source from a pre-developed image of an incompetent secretary dismissing it entirely even just for the possibility he also gave an answer to the recommendation of having separate email accounts why don't you just have two separate email accounts one for volunteers and one for everything else what no no that wouldn't help at all I don't want to manage two separate email accounts even the idea of a forum was dismissed so anyway Yonder a Dev Yonder a Dev why don't you make a forum where volunteers can post their progress and collaborate okay I guess I can see how you think that would be a good idea but honestly that would just be another place that I have to manage and administrate and supervise so no his message and stubbornness and not exploring the recommended Solutions was made clear in part one yet he made a second part where he States what kind of emails he will not answer he took time in this video to address his additions of Easter XG a different point of discontent that was controversial not just because of the volume but also because they did not progress the game in any way and was more and more seeming to be implemented as YouTuber bait to continue wrapping up interest rather than focus on progression Yonder a Dev why do you keep adding silly Easter eggs to the game if your time is so limited okay please don't tell me to stop putting Easter eggs in the game it only takes me 30 seconds to add them anyway besides his conversation with Mike zont it was more clear than ever that Alex was not prepared for success and the commitment it took to make a game he even laments in this video the displeasures the complications were adding I miss the old days back when I didn't get dozens of emails every day back when I had enough spare time to actually write code for the game back when I didn't have to worry about disappointing any donators because there were no donators back when I didn't worry about artwork and just used white cubes for everything back when I actually had time to watch anime and play video games it was so easy and fun to work on the game back then what happened where did I go wrong regardless this video does end on on a positive note his time spent in not writing code was spent organizing volunteers that were progressing the game even though I haven't been writing code I've been receiving character designs new models new animations planning story events establishing rules Gathering reference footage and More in other words tons of progress is still being made on the game he estimated the game was currently 8% complete for the the next couple months the game progressed with some regular updates and many bug fixes more and more there were different methods of killing added some may say it was eily similar to the Hitman game series where the game awards a player for setting up complicated and sneaky kills for its targets yandere a Dev taking inspiration from this game sought to implement more and more of these enough to where the player could naturally discover them through experimentation rather than need to rely on guides like the Hitman series Yi simulator was aiming to be a semi Sandbox game that gives players slack and rewards them for how they approach increasingly complex puzzles at this point in development deeper mechanics required implementation were updates prior were new additions like you saw now less impactful but necessary things had to be added like changing in the school environment when too many students were assassinated and a plethora of realistic and diverse reactions from students and other parties when things go AR the sandbox element was going to need to cater to allplay Styles and find ways to reward and punish players for those that go the route of bullying Rivals for example here you can manipulate the school's social atmosphere and that itself requires tremendous work this also add skills and other RPG elements like stats and being able to join clubs added on to the complexity not to mention that it was unsure how rivals or the love interest of the boy the Y girl was infatuated with would be added other elements like adding a roster of unique students with some shared traits was expanding the game tremendously adding more work to be done with this in mind y Dev kept makeing the mistake of estimating when the game would be complete now in October 2015 in this Twitter post he set an expectation of it taking 10 months to complete the default story and possibly 1 month per rival as updates slowed in accommodation of coding its in-depth mechanics yandere Dev continued his war on emails sometimes passively like this video where aano is going around seeking your love interest have you seen my sunpai I haven't seen anything all day I'm too busy writing emails to yandere Dev to waste his time with stupid questions you should stop that then directly in several blog posts and another video I work faster when I receive less email so if you want yandere simulators development to proceed faster please read this blog post about what kind of email you should not send me his first update of 2016 while sizable left crumbs to later be disc discovered painfully so quote I didn't expect yandere simulator's development to last this long I think that this is a good time to make a video announcing how many features remain how long it will take to implement those features how I plan to secure funding and how people can help out unquote yandere Dev did make that video expressing that with a shallower concept yandere simulator could have been finished much earlier I intended to make a simple game that could be developed by one man working alone I expected the game to be finished by December 2014 as I worked on the game I received lots of cool suggestions and began expanding the scope of the game the game evolved from something that one man could create in 8 months to something that required a team of people with each passing month the game's design became even more complex without guarantee and only estimation yandere Dev in this video made the naive mistake of setting goal posts so if it takes me 6 months to implement all of the remaining elimination methods and 6 months to implement all of the remaining Kickstarter criteria then the kickstarter would be ready about 12 months from now in January 2017 if the kickstarter is released 1 year from now that means that the full version of yandere simulator won't be finished until 2019 3 years from now by setting this deadline yandere Dev sewed the seeds of discontent that could flourish in the absent of a final product now more than ever people were following his outline of required additions for his Kickstarter that if released would FasTrack development of the game for this you needed all Club Buffs functional all panty Buffs functional all School subjects buff functional all School locations implemented new attack animations an intro cutscene protagonist customization sound effects for everything that should make a sound side note that should only take one day a guidance counselor who will punish you for misbehaving a rival girl who interacts with Senpai multiple times throughout the week a Cuts scene where the Rival confessors are left Senpai NPCs that follow a proper Japanese school schedule NPCs that react properly to corpses blood weapons dismembered limbs screams Etc at least five different personality types for NPCs snap mode all of this was meant to take 6 months the other 6 months were dedicated to the rest of the elimination methods so in all he had one year to do all this on his side was the advertising machine that came from other content creators PewDiePie had released 10 videos on the game counting in the tens of millions of views Markiplier was on video five yet played as much as PewDiePie considering his videos were longer Yad Dev now even had his own media presence his channel in January breached 400,000 subscribers so far every time his patreon dipped in supporters and made an immediate recovery with it hovering for 5,000 daily this irregularity this crowdfunding via support of the Creator and not a direct Kickstarter to a game placed yandere a Dev in the top 10 most funny games via patreon the YouTube Community was doing as much as it could with supporters watching closer than ever the importance of the January update as yandere Deb was sticking to bonly updates once at the first of the month and once at the 15th was superbly important to demonstrate a work ethic and progress support that could hit all goals stated in his update video there was a minor hiccup before the update with him wanting to rename the game Lovick as a direct translation of yandere to English but due to backlash it went nowhere as players love the charm of the now widely recognized term this and another post telling people not to Emil him came right before his progress report 2 weeks into 2016 it was lackluster to say the least only bug fixes with the sting of yet another Easter egg Sans mode adding Sans from the popular indie game undertale without the approv or even knowledge of the creator of the game but later amended that the Creator did end up giving permission as for the update yandere Dev even stated quote yikes what an embarrassing change log hopefully I'll have a much more impressive one on February 1st unquote little did he know there would be an important development before then yes that's right broadcasting yandere simulator on Twitch may result in your account being suspended so why was yand a simulator banned was it the bullying kidnapping torture suicide or perhaps the panty shots I don't know twitch won't tell me with yand rev unaware on why the game was banned and how to modify it to get it unbanned perhaps by making the game less lwd with certain Easter eggs or increasing the bubble coverage there was one mechanic he did not want to do away with if twitch has a problem with panty shots then we have a serious issue because I'm not going to remove any features from the game just so that twitch will approve of it twitch was hardly the only one pushing back against this game and its mechanics still in January yandere Dev on Tumbler made a blog post directed towards a single person that he only called n quote this individual who I will refer to as n expressed her belief that twitch chose to ban broadcast of yandere simulator because it contains sexualized underage characters unquote yandere Dev from this creates a massive blog post attempting to back his argument that there are no underage characters in sexual situations in yandere simulator this goes from trying to defend his game to n accusing yandere div of being a redacted then takes the blog post in an unexpected Direction with yandere of insulting in by stating that quote this should have been my cue that n completely lacked even the slightest degree of reading comprehension skill because I had just explained that someone who passed the age of is not magically ready for sex just because they had a certain number of birthdays I pointed out that there are many people under the age of 18 who had sexual experiences without being traumatized she had demanded to know if I would permit a 14-year-old to have sex with a grown man if the 14-year-old had passed the sex license test that I proposed well obviously if there's a test that objectively proves that a person is ready for sex and a person passes that test then that person is objectively ready for sex this is simple logic but lacked the mental capacity to figure this out for herself unquote defending the possibility of sexual relations between a minor and an adult under any circumstances was not a good luck on yandere devb this blog post without aim full of spiteful language and unfavorable Concepts may have receed support from his fans but again like with AA zon he was UN whtl planting seeds of discontent to be later discovered as for right now yandere simulator being the 26 game ban from twitch rang alarm Bells if marketing brought this attention to the game and its patreon with the lack of it C and inverse in funding with foresight we see that the band did not affect the game's funding whatsoever it could have harmed the potential roof for funding but yandere dev's patreon remained at a steady $45,000 a month as February rolled over yandere Dev preemptively released another progress report making steady progress by adding necessary character traits and updated some clubs the character could join if it seems like there aren't very many new features in this build it's because I didn't have much time to work with I spent around 7 Days optimizing and fixing some very inefficient code that had been bothering me for a long time I still wish I could spend even more time optimizing the code and trying to improve the frame rate but I don't want to let too much time pass without adding significant new features to the game the subtext here is that Alex is feeling the pressure to continue updating the game but has finally hit the wall placed by his rapid and inefficient coding admitting to spending his time pushing updates rather than preparing the game for its upcoming complex mechanics in March there were more additions to clubs some moving around assets overall development still remain steady and Alex continued his tie rate against emails in April he was finally ready to talk on what he deems the biggest obstacle and development if this one obstacle could be removed I would have much more time to work on the game and the game's development would go by much faster the problem is email he then states he sometimes goes through his emails 8 to 12 hours a day after stating what emails he does not want to receive he goes on to show what kind of volunteers he does not want he then States the same reasons he won't explore potential Solutions like getting a secretary or making separate emails stop right there after 2 years of this nonsense I've already heard every single possible suggestion about how I can solve my email problem there is no idea that you could possibly suggest that I haven't already shot down so don't send me your brilliant ideas for how to solve my email problems because it's not going to work a criticism that Alex has seen time and time again wasn't so much about yandere simulator or even the emails it was his melodramatic nature with the connection between yandere Dev and aazaan clear with his continued usage of the Avon website his history as an anime loving and s shut in and moments like the time he announced his intent to make a successful indie game to outshine Mike zond had people believe Alex never stopped using anime as a reference to reality perhaps to him this is his manga and he is the protagonist against all these fools dragging him down hence the melod drama and the section that closed out his email video you know there was a point in time when I was a very nice and patient person but working on this game for the past 2 years has been very stressful and it has sucked all of the niceness out of me I no longer have any patience left ever since his increase in popularity while opinionated Alex has kept his personal developments and shortcomings to himself opting to keep those private but inadvertently and publicly signal his lack of social Improvement and or adaption to his new role as for yandere simulator he was seeing issue not with the lack of updates but issue with trying to expand to add more and more to a fan base that is shown to dislike major changes in gameplay and it focus on panties or sexualizing characters in game in June alone he pitched a beat him up feature to the game that due to backlash he quickly withdrew and later in the month an inventory system where Ayana opens her dress revealing the items kept within taking the center of the screen would be her panties this was also scrapped these ideas mainly the sexual ones or the ones that may deviate from what is considered acceptable resonate stronger with the 4chan and 8chan boards something that he was being ridiculed by frequently mid 2016 yandere Dev went to Anime Expo and interact with fans here he was seeing the concentrated cultural impact of his game with a crowd surrounding him he saw people cosplaying as his characters he was getting gifts and attention Anan was quick to discuss a video showing this saying that yandere Dev sold out after many comments yandere Dev joins in and States quote okay I'm going to look at the facts here go to Reddit everyone behaves in a several manner it's possible to have dtive discussion about the game go to Anime Expo everyone is nice friendly enthusiastic people want to hug me shake my hand take selfies go to 4chan /h Chan everyone is bitter cynical pessimistic everyone just [ __ ] post and caus me a redacted a sellout and an sjw you know what that's it I'm done you guys aren't worth it you guys [ __ ] suck you could have had a developer at your back and call making game CA and tailor to your exact tastes but not anymore you bet the hand that feeds you now I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore [ __ ] all of you go to hell unquote as it is yandere div one could expect further lashing out in a reply to RIT post he specifies that Reddit is now his platform of choice because he feels they rarely criticize him and cater to providing feedback to the game also in July he posted a diagram showing how he spends his time in here he states that yandere simulator quote is around 45% complete unquote also providing examples of other Indie Games with long development times upwards of 5 years these two together were for the time impressive he jumped from 8% complete to 45% in about a year following this pace the game should be done in around a year or two not included in this chart are his angry rants found wherever he is directed towards anyone that gives criticism that means Friend or Foe or just modders as discovered and posted by content creator Stickman when using a mod in this case one that changes the size of aano this text pops up on the screen that reads quote sorry YouTuber but you have to stop using this stupid mod people keep reporting bugs that can only occur due to the use of this mod I don't want to receive emails about bugs that only occur when the player uses a mod so I have to prevent this mod from being able to function blame the people who are stupid enough to submit bug reports because of a mod unquote after Stickman uploaded the video with the secret text yere adep comments on the video quote no you can [ __ ] right off you've got absolutely no clue what you're talking about you [ __ ] dumbass unquote it is unknown what triggered such a strong response from yandere Dev as the original video is gone but not the archive of his comment that became the topic of a Reddit post several months later it is here that yandere Dev defends his actions quote that guy made me really angry so I gave him a piece of my mind I don't think that there is much more to say on quote the responses of support and the dislike ratio in stickman's videos showed that the community was largely supportive of yandev their knowledge likely limited to his curated friendly Persona seen on his channel however as yandere Dev was becoming more and more more aggressive with only minor backlash in the background there was building opposition consisting of readers following only the drama around yandere Dev similarly X fans turned to tractors and ex volunteers that left for a multitude of reasons were added as well some have a more nuanced look on Alex stating he has an inflated ego and is poor at communication others like wonolo who left the project in 2015 among the previously presented issues had ideological conflicts with the under Dev and even some of the team quot when I left the team and pointed out his ways and the discomfort I had in his future Visions for the game he defended his stances and claimed his entire de was a team full of perverts and took the stance of being a proud pervert some excerpts I'm a perverted sexual deviant and I absolutely love to perve on sexy video game girls and anime girls that's a core part of who I am and I'll openly publicly and eagerly state that fact absolutely anywhere the 2D artist I'm working with regularly draws women and extremely loot out outfits the 3D character modeler I'm working with enjoys modeling sexy young women very much I've already found five other perverts now I just need to find one who can model props environments unquote while these and other lengthy tumblr post that archived images of Alex's controversial statements and jokes as aaon and yandere Dev brought attention to Alex and his behavior the disjointed critics criticisms that are subjective rather than objective and the steady progress the game was making did nothing to his patreon that remained at $5,000 a month on YouTube he even hit 1 million subscribers and in October he placed a new emphasis on the purpose of the game one that is at the center of it while creators seem to enjoy the wildness the game offers the vision yandere Dev had on the note of the Hitman game series was adding select targets that increased in difficulty as the game progressed and so finally the premise and scope of the game was set aano the yandere girl is an emotionless brick an entity that is brought to life following a bumping in to her love at first sight her Senpai but she notices this person is quite popular the game will Encompass 10 weeks at aano school every week Senpai gets a new love interest Ayano has to then sabotage this love Prospect before it turns into a relationship 10 weeks means 10 Rivals now the first rival was announced a different Trope a Sunder with distinct orange hair and polka dot thigh high socks this rival this first love interest and competitor was simply known as osana the important of this character was to set order and assist him to advance the game properly yandere Dev understood this and stated this exactly in his video when you try to take down osana I want you to feel like you're experiencing a demonstration of what the final game will be like not just killing a test subject in a glitchy debug sandbox when osana is implemented I want you to feel like one of the final pieces of the puzzle has clicked into place instead of feeling like yandere simulator is still a giant incomplete puzzle that is missing most of its pieces I do not want to release a build that has a half functional osana so once I begin working on implementing osana you won't be getting any new builds until osana is 100% functional considering everything that is required to add osana to the game that could take at least 1 month this was an amazing announcement the first complex and truly unique character Biondo and her Senai was being introduced a character that would be the center of gameplay for seven in-game days full of its own elimination tactics animations voice acting cutcenes and other ways to sabotage her wouldbe relationship all of this was going to take as yandere Dev stated one month the next big addition to the game is osana the first official rival I've made a lot of progress towards adding her to the game however it could be another month or two months until she's complete complete but a month went by and no osana an additional 2 weeks and still no osana there was a new mode added but in this update Alex stated he was taking time off for the next 2 weeks this means no progress towards osana what was Alex concerning himself with if not speeding up the development of this important character that answer was found on Reddit quote a few days ago I realized that Mark Player hadn't made a new yandere sim video in 5 months that made me feel kind of nervous did I do something wrong does he hate the game now I was very happy to learn he was putting together another yandere simulator video unquote this tells much about Alex because the way this reads in Alex's prior emphasis on content creators videos confirms this validation to be self-isolating with no sense of self to then be an overnight success must have felt insanely rewarding one could only imagine that feeling and a fear of losing that high now threatened by creators losing interest brought on by loss of novelty and meaningful updates a lack of aana in December Alex this as well as a lack of complete mechanics he needed to publish a Kickstarter originally my personal goal was to implement osana before January 1st but this is no longer likely to happen I underestimated how long it would take for all of osana's necessary assets to be created to make this process go by faster I should have requested the assets months in advance this is something that I will take into consideration when planning future Rivals for yandere simulator it's very unlikely that any rival girl will take as long to Implement as osana has taken in this new calendar it shows his plan to release the kickstarter has moved to April osana has been moved to February of 2017 osana has now been delayed 4 months past the original deadline over the past year I've been struggling with a problem on January 21st 2016 yandere simulator was added to Twitch TV's list of prohibited games Alex now a year to the date was displeased with the yandere simulator's twitch ban while that much is understandable considering he discusses how many different ways he attempted to reach out to Twitch only to be ignored pestering twitch and stirring discontent would theoretically only keep his game banned as twitch would not want to set the president of being able to be strong armed by developers or their audiences especially ones as unprofessional and accusatory as yandere Dev in this same video he gave five reasons his game could be banned one through four were a possible misunderstanding salacious content that he removed twitch has an anti- anime bias and twitch also has a bias against smaller games and Studios that are not popular enough to circumvent twitch's vague rules number five was the most blindsiding number five twitch has been taken over by those people you know who I'm talking about [Applause] right brave warriors fighting for for Justice by bullying people and attempting to ban anything they don't like later in the video there was a call to action that Alex at the same time stated he did not support number one maybe if hundreds of thousands of people simultaneously email twitch's support team and demand an explanation for why yandere simulator is banned twitch will finally respond to me in order to stop the Avalanche of emails however I don't think that this is the right solution if I asked my 1.2 million YouTube subscribers to email twitch on my behalf twitch May perceive this as an attack and would retaliate by never unbanning the game so I don't think this is the right course of action not wanting to rely on aggressive techniques Alex opts to supplement them with a more passive one of a similarly strong Army nature number three if this video gets enough attention eventually someone at twitch will see it they will notice how many views it's getting and they will say oh my God we need to fix this problem right away a week later after realizing the problem with his solution of bis merching twitch's image to repair relations he released another video explaining his mistakes taking the perspective of twitch and why they would have possibly banned yandere simulator it wasn't until February that he got a response from twitch giving him the exact reason the game was banned two gameplay modes depicting characters in the nude a mechanic in which the player takes panty shots to use his currency for favors from from others the only method of eliminating Rivals was to murder them the setting intent of gameplay and age of victims indicate the game is about violence against and sexual harassment of underage characters in a school setting twitch also explains that even with the removal of these features the game May remain banned because the game is still in development and those mechanics imply that the perverse nature of the game would be expanded on so twitch acted preemptively they are willing to give it a second look but only after the game has feature complete in the future as yandere simulator becomes feature complete we would be happy to review it again the game was still lacking all of its 10 Rivals and had not included the first one yandere Deb made sure to keep adding Sal to this thrashed wound twitch was hardly the only one pressing yandere Dev for a release date or for faster development that's why mid-February right after the twitch debacle yandere Dev explains in two videos that the ever expansive scope of the game combined with his inexperience and burnout is what is causing the delays a solution he brings forward is having an experienced company take over I've already been approached by multiple companies who have expressed an interest in getting involved with yandere simulators development in exchange for a cut of the game's profits they've proposed deals that involve me giving up 50% of the game's profits or losing ownership of the game's intellectual property or removing certain features from the game these terms are all very unappealing to me another solu solution was to eliminate stress by downgrading The Game's development to just a hobby by closing his patreon this could lower the overall controversy surrounding the project if Alex stepped away yet he is equally reserved but all of my fans would hate me someone else would develop a yandere themed game to take the place of my game I would fade from memory and all of the work I've done over the past 3 years would be for nothing as Alex was increasingly exposing he views the game as more than something to be developed he sees it as an achievement that validates him holding his work this close would not do him well for now accompany this video was a poll the options were to keep doing what he has been doing downgrade development to a hobby began working with the company or launch a crowdfunding campaign the popularity of the choices were also in that order as voters wanted yandere Dev to continue his method of development regardless of the osana delays Alex believes that he may have swayed the poll by Framing companies as with this line of thinking in March he decided to start working with the company even though it only got 8% of the votes on the poll tiny build you may recognize them as the publisher of hello neighbor and numerous other games eventually we reached an agreement that I was happy with and I decided to enter a partnership with them don't be worried I'll retain full ownership of the andere simulator intellectual property I'll have full creative control over the game I'll have the final say on all merchandising decisions they can't exploit the product in any way that goes against my wishes and no deadlines have been set in stone yandere Deb believes this new partnership to be favorable with some added benefits like being able to smooth over twitch untangling his spaghetti code with an efficient code base and primarily speeding up development as yandere Dev did with his video Tiny build announced this partnership on Twitter the results were mixed it was not that fans were displeased that Alex was working with tiny build but that tiny build was associating with Alex some of the replies read quote hey at tiny build I respect a lot of the work you do for the gdq events and other Indie devs but this is probably a really bad idea [ __ ] love it the guy with 5,000 monthly needs another business to invest partially and still wants volunteer work have fun working with a redacted on his anime girl killing simulator unquote the benefit of Speedy development could not happen soon enough now April of 2017 osana was officially 5 months past its original deadline updates came mostly in the form of bug fixes and some additions that were mostly related towards visuals and polish mixed within these monthly updates was yandere Dev emphasizing how other areas of the game desperately needed more attention than the first rival but also showed some progress towards her completion this was the case for June July August September and October in this month came the first update not related to yandre simulator per se but to Watashi noono a game inspired by yandere simulator it looks like Alex was getting comp competition now in November it is the anniversary of what was meant to be osana's release date I think it was a mistake to put so much emphasis on osana this created the impression that osana was my one and only priority which wasn't the case at all I've made tons of changes and additions to the game over the past year and it would be a shame if I'm judged solely on whether or not I'm making progress on osana from week to week his framing was moving the game forward was a mistake the same could also be said about this recent stream of Alex playing the video game cupheads [ __ ] things were not adding up this frustration Alex addressing the decrease of the game's popularity as an equalization to the sudden jump it got and the lack of progress despite the onboarding of a company in 2016 the game was supposedly 45% complete but at the start of 2018 it was still less than 50% complete the explanation for this could be found on his Discord where in February of 2018 yandere Dev stated quote in March 2017 I was ready to bring another programmer on board after I made a YouTube video stating that I needed programming assistance over 20 plus professional programmers contacted me and offered to help at the same time tiny build offered to get me the help I needed so I told the 20 plus programmers don't worry I'll get the help I need for my new publisher tiny build and turned down their offers then I waited 8 plus months for tiny Bill to get me the help I needed things didn't work out so now I'm back to searching for programmer assistance I'm currently having multiple very promising conversations with potential programming volunteers but nothing is said in stone yet in a timeline where I had never signed up with tiny build I would have gotten other programmers on board about 1 year ago unquote March April and May was more the same bug fixes after bug fixes with very few additions and yandere Dev was reluctant to talk about tiny build in this screenshot he stated quote I have nothing to say about it at this point in time but hopefully one day in the future I'll be able to say something unquote there has always been tension with Alex and his audience it has been stretched but never strained as it was now between osana questions relating to Tiny build the emails and the recycling of his most controversial moments Alex was going to snap and it was going to be soon excellent the latest build and video are finished uploading time to release them for the world to see I hope that everybody likes the latest feature hm I think I'll read the comments and see what people are saying where's osana why isn't osana d done yet when will you work on osana osana [Music] oana oh wow we need to have a talk Alex was explaining again that he regrets putting so much emphasis on assana now a year and 7 months past the initial deadline the other important bits come in relation to Tiny build those Discord screen shots where yandere Dev talks about tiny build were limited to being exchanged to only those that would go beyond Alex's Channel or blog to follow the development but now in this video he stated he was taking on all the major development roles right now I am juggling the responsibilities of being the game's director and producer in addition to being its only programmer in a best case scenario someone else would take my place as the game's programmer so that I could work exclusively as the game's director and producer if we raise enough money maybe we could hire multiple programmers who would work on multiple Rivals simultaneously so that future Rivals are completed even faster and so came the question in Mass what happened to Tiny build well for this video the comments were disabled so no questions could be asked or answered there and yandere dev's next video uploaded just 2 days later on June 8th he starts by explaining how the adding of features and how the interact with each other slows down the production of projects like this otherwise known as feature creep as the complexity of a project increases it will become proportionally difficult to work on it every time you add a new feature it will affect other features create new bugs increase the amount of time you need to spend waiting for the code to compile increase the loading times of the game Etc something that was simple and easy to work on at the beginning can eventually become a nightmare that you are constantly wrestling with still no mention a tiny build that as his General audience still understood it was meant to be helping the second half of the video is about quote unquote weird people and pushing the release date to when it's ready if a group of weird people on the internet decide that they feel completely justified in treating you like garbage and you're subjected to abusive treatment on a daily basis for multiple Years you'll become depressed which will affect your productivity which will cause people to call you lazy or a scam artist which will cause you to receive even more abuse which will cause you to become even more depressed and less productive which becomes a NeverEnding cycle of abuse and depression your fan base won't know about this for a long time because you'll do your best to never speak of it in the two years that have passed since then I've gained much more knowledge experience and information that has helped me to form a new estimate for when I think the game will be completed and that estimate is [Music] when it's ready games from popular Studios receive backlash when delayed it's the same for Randy game studios except backlash is lessened because more slack is given to smaller companies that have less experience and typically have a closer connection to Their audience so it was not that that caused a rippo effect it was actually everything this video was just the Catalyst starting with his targeting of his opposition who he deemed weird people that like his emails blames for the lack of development more and more it looked like yandere Dev was threatening the development of the game with things that are out of the control of the average viewer another mistake was not giving a face to these weird people by glossing over this undefined group they could be as bad as his most severe trolls or a fan that is criticizing the game so this could have been construed as if you're against yand Dev or criticize him you are a weird person additionally this was also a poor move because this attention towards his detractors no doubt emboldens him this is all to say that this video had dire consequences on the subreddit r/ yandere simulator which was known for being a mostly supported place for the game turned into something else memes such as these became more common stating that yandere Dev is out of touch the significance of this is that this image was contrasting with the one he had built with his updates the calm and silly Persona that was yand a Dev on the curated videos on his channel was fighting with this new image some comments mimic his rhetoric albeit more dramatically with quote all my critics are edgy teenagers who slandered me with no proof unquote then there were the endless screenshots of Yonder Dev on his Discord dismissing even the typical fan asking a question quote at yandere Dev are you considering doing something to M's hair to make her fit in more with her group other girls in her group have colorful hair unquote yandere Dev responds quote it's my lowest possible priority right now who the [ __ ] cares and why the [ __ ] do people always bug me about this [ __ ] [ __ ] just [ __ ] off already are the only thoughts that come to mind unquote readers now exposed to yz's vitriolic nature commented quote holy [ __ ] why would you snark out of your own fans like that it wasn't a complaint it wasn't even a compliment just a simple question [ __ ] hell Alex Jesus Christ he's digging his own grave right now it hurts to see my former role model turned into something quite the opposite okay he's just losing it now at this pace the game is going to go down faster than the Hindenberg unquote and so it was adjacent to these posts exposing Alex for his behavior Brothers responded to it by leaving the community and for the first time ever boycotting his patreon though slow to start the campaign against yandere Dev was officially in motion his dislike controversial history and current attitude against the Beloved game that is yand simulator were for the first time mixing to explosive Effect 2 days after the controversial video came a post explaining the ending of his partnership with tiny build that actually ended 7 months before this post sighing the fear of potentially violating an NDA as the reason he did not talk about it sooner his explanation for the departure reads quote the plan was for the programmer to refactor certain aspects of the code but it proed to be impossible to refactor that code while I was still making changes and additions to the game it wasn't the sort of situation where we could just work in separate branches and then merge our work if the programmer entirely changed the nature of the script then all the work I did in the meantime would be incompatible and would had to be tossed out to avoid doing any wasted work I'd have to stop updating the game for a period of several months while the code was being refactored unquote yand Dev goes on to explain that because he essentially tied the hands of the programmer and that at one point he made vague remarks about having difficulty working with a programmer caused the partnership to end additionally he admits to removing any comments asking what happened to Tiny build following this he set his patreon on 18 plus mode alongside disabling comments the comments were also disabled on this post as he stated he was not ready to reenable them they were re-enabled but only on his YouTube videos where there were suspiciously few and only in his favor he was treading in the dangerous territory of mass censorship even committing the sin of coper striking videos on him these strikes were regularly done on smaller channels bringing the strikes in effect in full swing once were got out of his rapid copyright abuse coming from his channel that had surpassed 2 million subscribers then in late June yandere Dev launched his subreddit r/ yandere simulator not to be confused with the independent but recently campaigning against yandere Dev r/ yanderecore simulator as per the pen post and a subre it he made it to quote be able to discuss the game in a civil environment that is free from hostility and drama unquote immediately he was set on Banning those in this newly established subreddit in opposition to him in July this censorship not only persisted but worsened more YouTube copyright strikes were issued with Channels with as few as 11 subscribers this video specifically was one where he tells a user sold out to go end himself you're a [ __ ] [ __ ] sold out go [ __ ] kill yourself dumb [ __ ] you're a [ __ ] idiot when you're playing a story game you got to pay attention to the story dumb [ __ ] eat [ __ ] and die [ __ ] as the opposition gained purchase support towards yandere's supposed competition increased like on Watashi noono that's why in June this screenshot surfaced of the alleged yandere Dev messaging the developer of the game Epic Meal Dev to go die though this is thought to be fake and sent by an imitator of Alex as redditors question the legitimacy showing how easy it would be to replicate this message as yadere Dev on Twitter kiwi Farms Reddit and YouTube word was spreading on what kind of person yandere Dev was Amplified by this video titled the real yandere Dev released July 12th 2018 by creater Kapak Kaiju I was personally subscribed for more than 2 years it was the only thing I knew him from I didn't follow him on any other media and in that time I never had any reason to believe he wasn't the person he says he is but that's only because he lies manipulates the truth deletes evidence or anything he can just to make sure that people don't think bad of him Kaku explicitly only covers his most recent controversial moments only glancing over his history as a Von as a self-proclaimed incel with that in mind his video is 46 minutes long and covers his excessive censorship his hatred and banning of memes his disabling of mods his persistent ranting about emails his falling out with tiny build the lack of USANA his poor coding habits and most importantly his hostility if you're a fan of his just remember this when someone criticizes him or his game he doesn't distinguish between fan and foe he will attack you with the same level of arrogance he treats everything from an innocuous meme to death threats with the same kind of hostility this video ends with a call to action if you're still here and you've pledged to his Patron pull it boycott him it's the only way he'll actually put in the time required to improve his level of work to change the person he is because to be honest he doesn't care if people dislike him he just wants the money it was in July of 2018 that for the first time since 2015 his patreon dipped below $4,000 and did not recover the movement against them was coalescing and this was the outcome as the dam was breaking more and more videos of yandere Dev were circulating not all negative sometimes they were just strange moments like this one where he moved around an image of Samaran oh my God ooh ooh what a nice view M looking pretty good up there m m look at that beautiful just beautiful here honey come down come down and give your lover a kiss that's a good [Laughter] girl um where did I put there oh God this alongside other memes that were reshaping His Image under normal circumstances for a traditional game developer this would not matter in the case of yandere Dev it changes everything Alex hates this because he treats this as pure mockery Banning anything that could be perceived as an attack on his character this inadvertedly makes it more entertaining and it was no longer the fear that the game was becoming a quote unquote meme game it was a fear that he was now becoming a meme back in 2015 when yandere simulator was first gaining popularity I wanted to quickly destroy the notion that it was a meme game and established that I was trying to develop a genuine stealth game the types of games Alex is referring to are games that are often labeled derisively as YouTube bait or as Alex labels them meme games these are games such as Alex's that have absurd premises such as Surgeon Simulator and goat simulator they had periods where they were picked up by content creators and played because their nature allowed for easy commentary one place in intentionally outlandish situations in fact one of the reasons he wanted to rename the game to Lovick was to drop the simulator from the title but now SES were set on him and with the tides turning what would be yandere dev's response to this changing of his image and the criticisms of the game rapidly slapping everything together in a halfhazard way might have allowed me to make frequent updates back in the beginning but ultimately it had negative long-term effects that have slowed down the game's development that was a video yandere Dev released November of 2018 providing the reasons development has slowed here he regrets his spaghetti coat that has been recently criticized and is making an effort to improve the game B based on criticism missing was the criticism directed towards him as a person this was addressed in a different video also released in November known infamously as it is titled hate and shame these embarrassing messages make up less than 1% of everything you've ever done or said over the course of your life and none of those messages accurately represent who you really are however imagine that someone decides to take all of these embarrassing moments from your past put them into a list and show that list to his friends then he claims that this list represents you yand dev's hate and shame video has a runtime of nearly 23 minutes that was a near 30second clip however that message is hammered in Non-Stop he talks about how these Gremlins in place of trolls critics or Liars poke at him and place him in the same place as other controversial creators like Chris Chan or dark side Phil he states that he tries to reason with them but that they also don't use facts or logic here he is making the same error of not giving any specific example examples again repeating the message that those in opposition of him are unreasonable people that Revel in his demise furthermore he goes after creators who recently made videos on him calling them tabloid pieces for a low brow audience tabloids are widely considered to be trashy entertainment for a low brow audience unfortunately there is a YouTube equivalent of tabloid magazines channels that are dedicated to ridiculing and shaming other people these YouTubers make money by degrading debasing and defaming others there is a massive conflict in the message he is trying to push he states that these Gremlins are dismissive glosses over creators and others that ridicule him as if he completely understands him as they exist in his mind as terrible people only for yandere Dev to be doing that exact same thing he is dismissive of these Grins and creators and portrays their actions as hive mind the only difference is he and the other controversial figures are the only identifiable people in the video despite drawing himself as a teenage girl by now you've probably realized who this video is really about tell me what am I supposed to do in this situation the cherry on top is that he states that like the emails which were increasing in volume to troll him are affecting his work this rare video where Alex discusses himself on the yandere dev Channel shows how little he has changed to his by this point decade old Forum posts the difference now is he is emboldened by a success unrelated to his flaws attached to this video was a poll two options were given related to the future of content on his channel one to make more videos expelling rumors but inviting drama and the other to presumably ignore the drama and work on the game two-thirds of the audience voted on the latter option Alex seeing this made the decision to include himself in more drama now late November it was announced that Alex was going to be the new owner of r/ yanderecore simulator meaning that he was going to own that alongside his established r/ yandere simulator Reddit one of the owners posted that they transferred the serit to Alex after a 2/3 vote and most importantly they gave the subreddit to Alex quote in exchange for compensation based on how the community had grown under us unquote almost immediately there was a new post on the subreddit by Alex himself titled Under New Management explaining how he believes the sbit became infested with trolls due to a rogue administrator Alex goes on to frame the other administrators as regretful of their creation citing this not the pre-established compensation via one of the administrators as the reason they handed it over to Alex Alex going as far to quote them saying quote it's become anxiety inducing to even look at it honestly we just want it off our hands we're letting it sit and rot unquote the gist is that he was shutting down post disapproving of him later came this video of the alleged yandre Dev messaging what is believed to be one of the ex administrators of the subreddit showing that at one point he was willing to pay $10,000 but in the end $3,000 was settled on the purchase of the subreddit part of this campaign was a newly added debunk page on his blog as update slowed to an update video once a month if even that the recent drama had closed out 2018 osana has now been delayed 2 years and 1 month past the original deadline and no Kickstarter campaign or basically any way to progress a game was in sight videos on yandere dev were gaining popularity and yandere dev's patreon continued to suffer threatening to dip under $3,000 a month the first update video of 2019 was lackluster yandere Dev addressed that in his video I do think that the Insight I gained from each of these experiences was incredibly valuable but I still feel as though I'm coming to you empty-handed which is an awful feeling adding salt to the wound was this alleged former volunteers leaked Discord messages explaining to someone that quote his lack of progress has to do with his lack of volunteers recently he has finally resulted to doing work himself and now no progress has been made he spent the last month using his 12-hour daily schedule cancelling ideas and coming up with new ones unquote if there is a correlation between the amount of people willing to volunteer to his patreon earnings then that number would have fallen severely 2019 was a different year than 2018 because it was rather uneventful not to say it was entirely devoid of drama what it was devoid of was implementation of wasana month after month though still providing video updates and additions to the game the momentum was lost interest in the game had hit an all-time low his average monthly patreon slumped to hovering around $225,000 a month nearly half of what it was a year ago and at the end of 2019 it was at its lowest point thus far the start of 2020 marked USANA delayed 3 years and 1 month past the original deadline this time something was different Alex did what he hasn't done in a long time he set up anticipation for the release of osana in his first post of 2020 stating that she is quote functionally complete unquote saying he is on the last hurdle osana when released will change the game state from being a debug sandbox to a functional demo attention though was elsewhere focused on a rather unexpected community-driven has time it's time to speedrun see how quickly I can get banned two one go upload that was a June 2018 B speedrun A yandere dev's Discord server set at 6 and so this was a former world record holder beating the former world record Champion was transer manoka as yandere Dev server evolved it basically reinvented itself and turned into a different server and challenge this Pastime while present throughout the past few years picked up and stride January 2020 [Music] [Music] oh oh oh [ __ ] that speedrun posted January 19th 2020 was 7.58 seconds impressive and also inspiring to others as shown the runner as did the former world record holder made the decision to post a short video this is eye-catching and saves the time needed to both type and have a moderator read a message and then apply the ban as yandere dev's images from Gia online were in circulation and easily recogniz able these were found to be optimal still there was much room for improvement this was beaten on the same day by nearly 2 seconds at 5.93 seconds the runner Saving Time by using the keyboard commands to post the image following this feat was a feat even grander than the last using keyboard commands an optimal eye-catching picture and precision the record was beaten by exactly 2 seconds at 3.93 seconds this was the number to beat and many tried but only eded in spreading the word massively on the ongoing speedruns as word of the spread so did memes of yandere Dev that were used in the speedruns like the ru coding Sun meme that utilized the three pictures that accompany one of his Infamous guia posts with minor editing in the meme his father enters and asks are you coding son where yandere Dev replies sure am Dad when left alone yandere dev then Winks at his audience implying no work is being done interest in yandere Dev increased similar to his blowup in 2015 the difference now was that new people were exposed to him now knowing first of the memes and secondhand the game so for the first time ever was a true and growing interest in his character and infamy it seems this was only an inevitability sprung by chance from the ongoing speedruns still the 19th new measures were taken to impede the bombardment of new members joining in to disrupt the server with memes now to chat one had to have a paid subscription to his twitch channel the following day this was amended to accept those who donate Discord Nitro Runners did not want to donate money so they found a way to circumvent these restrictions by naming one's Discord to argue coding sun or variance of his memes his user roster would be full of derisive or icatcher remarks against yandere Dev as these users were banned the speedruns and world record evolved Runner fla glob not only used an eye-catching image as their profile picture and a meme for their name they added an exclamation mark in front of their name then that way they'll be moved to the top of the Discord user roster and banned quicker the result was a world record beaten again this time by 2 seconds set at 1.41 seconds as this new method caught on new measures again were put in place okay so this is going to be uh my personal attempt at getting banned really fast all right so it started and I got did I just get banned wait posted January 26 2020 by Runner skirk 3 was a world record of 0 seconds this feat earned 4.5 million views by using former strategies such as an eye-catching profile picture and choosing the name go the [ __ ] chalice no dude the runner was banned in an instant presumably by a bot or a very active moderator looking for key words in one's name speedruns still persisted but with this world record claimed the race was over this AR captured by several videos and compilations including a 193 video playlist on YouTube where 61 of the videos are unavailable there were also videos recounting these events like Binson's three-part series a lot the popular Stream Run documentary Channel summoning salt though these speedruns may have lost momentum the memes did not and only picked up in February one a particular note was the [ __ ] chalice as users found the original video of Alex toasting a glass of milk only to be struck down by copyright so they began dubbing the audio now then let's begin with a simple explanation of the class trial some audio was surprisingly well fitting Twitter was also playing its role consumed the [ __ ] chalice which variants like consume the Kum or Kum chalice became the universally understood references of Alex's milk toasting video there was a rapid evolution in his memeification a process that was not affecting Alex posi postively taking into account his deep desire to be taken seriously as both a developer and a person this is the exact opposite of what he wanted as a response to this on January 20 2020 in the height of the speedruns Alex tweeted quote thought experiment imagine that someone successfully convinces the entire world that you deserve to be treated like [ __ ] as a result you are harassed by dozens of people every hour of the day for several years with no end in sight when will you decide to commit reacted unquote 13 hours later he was seen telling one of the speedrunners thate anyway you have no Worth or value and the world would be better without you unquote on YouTube he was still copyright striking critical videos and on his blog in February he stated vaguely that quot the past two weeks were dominated by problems going on in my personal life and as a result I wasn't able to work on the game as much as I wanted to unquote then there was another blog post mid-February on Valentine's Day in the same vein quote I plan to release osana on February 14th Valentine's Day today is the day that osana was going to be released but it's not happening over the past 25 days I've been subjected to the largest Avalanche of hate and harassment that I've ever experienced it's impossible to be productive under these circumstances unquote the lack of progress combined with the ongoing evolution of memes his expressiveness of his dissatisfaction contrasted by his own toxicity and now a collaboration with project QT involving two characters of yandere simulator and its sexually explicit game brought on more negative attention yandere Chan and info Chan are now playable characters in a game called project qt in case you haven't heard of it project QT is a gacha game with turn-based combat it's also an 18 plus game for adults only as Alex was doing as the solution around the pany Sha mechanic and other perverse themes that were criticized for involving miners he was changing only the Canon of the games so that characters were 18 plus but not modifying the high school outfits nor the setting Alexander had long been pulled in every direction by his want to appease different portions of his user base and his own desires this changed because it was a middle ground brewed discontent challenging other areas of the game was osana and r/ osana this appears to be created as a result of Alex's purchasing of r/ yore simulator this Exodus was joined by the was also seeking to speak on the game freely in 2019 it was combined with another subreddit known similarly as where's osana and now in 2020 the rank swelled on YouTube kabak Kaiu made his second video on yandere dev titled yandere Dev is never going to finish yandere simulator in an hour and 49 minutes as opposed to his prior video kapaku examines yandere simulator as a game and its mechanics rather than its code criticizing its feature creep the game even with the goal of wasana felt pointless and a product too reflective of Alex's personal interests this Bridges me to my next critique being uh what the [ __ ] what who what what the [ __ ] is all of this the heavy inclusion of the N World anime that Alex wrote to be similar to evangelon or the town he was developing all this emphasizing how directionless Alex was especially when put alongside other successful indie games that and recent controversies like his haen shame video that caused a massive dip in his patreons retconning the ages of the characters despite their depiction of being high school students remaining made worse with their previous canonical age with all this and more Kapa kiju roughly estimates that the game is not even close to being done this was significantly lower than Alex's own estimation that in 2018 was a vague less than 50% complete what was meant to be the year Osa launched was turning into the year the game was pronounced dead from speedruns to countless YouTube videos and even games creating entertainment where yandere simulator lacked progress on the noname side his accounts were getting hacked his Discord continued to be rated and his patrons were dropping in July of 2020 he was getting only $16,000 a month obsessively Alex was trying to plug up as many of these holes as he could not realizing it was that that was sinking his ship a good example of this is how we handled Lovick like Watashi noono it is yandere simulator s game except this one is very much on the nose in terms of emulation according to to the description of the trailer quote it's a revamp reimagined version of yandere simulator to improve on the original game's concept and ideas this game takes on the role of an actual yandere not an emotionalist murdering school girl although you still have the ability to murder anyone which is up to you unquote what this uploaded July 4th was a cause for dual celebration its trailer came at a perfect time where hatred towards yandere Dev fueled attention to this possible alternative Alex felt that he needed to act so a man messaged Dr APS on Discord this one is the most important and reads quote if the cost of yandere simulator was ending a person's life I'd cancel development unquote Dr apus looked to have incurred Alex's typical lamb basting alongside a copyright strike from one of Alex's Associates Alex contacted Dr apus stating his creation was a direct attack towards Alex's mental health with foresight Lovick later renamed love letter would actually go nowhere due to its own controversy sparked by its creator as for right now the messages yandere rev sent Dr apus were the most prominent what Alex likely didn't know is that Dr apus was in contact with the dev of Watashi noono epic Mev and received screenshots of Alex attempting to guilt Epic meev into stopping development as well though he was using his financial backers instead quote what I do know is that people feel justified in attacking me or lose faith in me or withdraw financial support because they believe that wnm is proof that I could be doing my job faster unquote these were dated early 2019 only to be leaked Now by Dr apus as a direct response to him stating that Dr ap's Love Sick was threatening his life readers took to Twitter with # rip yandre Dev shared amongst these posts were more memes of yandere Dev even some where he Robs a gas station some using deep fake technology as was being seen widely with the images from Gaia there was even a deep fake video that simulates what it would be like to go on a date with yandere Dev at a Pizza Hut so basically you in this game you play as a yandere who it's a it's a Japanese term this was a peak of interest in yandere Dev that still only matches the lowest point of interest in yandere simulator there was one way that he theoretically could turn this around a glint of Hope could the release of wasana save the game and draw more supporters and attention away from Alex on August 1st he stated that she was complete he just needed to polisher this was not good news and osana still has not been released now 3 years and 9 months past the original deadline mid August came with another Poe confirming her completion with the necessary polish and then the date no one thought would come arrived hi osana is complete yandere simulator's first official demo is now available on August 31st osana was in the game and the game became a functioning demo in his video announcing this yander de explains osana's extreme delays were due to waiting for volunteers to complete her animations and that other aspects of the game needed development to allow osana to be fleshed out with that in mind Alex made a new goal of sorts at this point it would be quite reasonable for you to ask will the other Rivals take as much time to create as osana did and the answer is no the reason why it took 6 months to implement osana is because I had to create the systems that were necessary for the game to support the presence of a special student that everything else would revolve around now that all of those systems are in place dropping new Rivals into the game will be much easier and faster the most timeconsuming part will be waiting for volunteers to create the animations and models necessary to give each rival a unique set of events after hearing that you might be wondering how close is yandere simulator to completion in my opinion yandere simulator is 90% gameplay mechanics and 10% story elements 100% of the gameplay mechanics are now functional but only 10% of the story elements are in the game so you could say that the game is currently 91% complete the game by by yandere dev's estimation is 91% complete in late 2016 it was 45% complete and so this last 9% should not be a problem there was the added circumstance that development would be sped up with more donations and with osana complete there would have to be a bump in supporters this heavily anticipated feature has to have done something and it did it bumped Alex's patreon to just shy of $2,000 by the start of September and that was it interest in the game barely moved upwards the lack of Interest could not be overcome with all the things that happened in 2020 the leew war response of a was by far the worst and it is when yandere simulator truly fell apart game-wise yandere Dev wanted her to be the least difficult of all the 10 Rivals Yeti expressed much difficulty in developing an entry-level obstacle that came in the form of her friend/ bodyguard eliminating Osan in most cases requires the removal of oana's friend which overall is not an easy or quick feat meaning that he would have to outdo himself continuously with the falling Rivals if this was meant to be the easy one the support for the game was dying and it was no surprise the months following had more volunteers leave and moderators removed from his Discord for their predatory behavior what stung the community was the sheer amount of instances that the moderator Joel The Creeper as he named himself was not shy with his interest that went all unchallenged until recently the 7-year Mark was coming up and this post now March of 21 Alex was expressing not just his typical burnout but a want to jump ship quote 7 years is way longer than I ever expected to work on yandere simulator and I would really really love to work on other projects however there is a very obvious reason why that's not an option backlash unquote recalling a video from June 2018 Alex provided a list of several indie games that took upwards of 5 years to be complete with the exception of one knowing where he was was demotivating being at such a low point and demands examination of oneself Alex previously did not want to adjust the way he behaved because he received support regardless now with everything being Stripped Away he knew he had a change or revert to the life he was living prior to the yandere simulator because yandere simulator's future is entirely dependent on whether or not people trust me and feel comfortable supporting me I think that my current goal should be to restore people's faith in me there are a lot of things I'll need to do in order to accomplish that but one of the things I'd like to do first is to demonstrate my ability to put 10 Rivals into the game in a timely fashion a month later in this blog he stated quote the next build of the game will have 10 Rivals unquote in August he stated nine out of the 10 Rivals were complete what if I just create a new set of Rivals Rivals who exist purely to allow players to test the 10we system his solution for the implementation of the rivals was not for the remaining Rivals but was for what he called 1980s mode a mode where he can play as the protagonist mother in the 1980s eliminating simplified versions of Rivals in place of the complex ones the main game will have while this did fulfill a promise to include Rivals it was not the ones that people were expecting the ones for the version of the game people were accustomed to and so interest patrons everything stagnated the following year was even less eventful there were monthly updates to his blog and Community post on YouTube but no new Rivals no new videos on his main Channel an entire year without meaningful progress then at the end of the year uploaded a single 3-minute video to his main Channel opening with a satirical imitation to addressing his disappearance join us for this 2-hour documentary as we investigate the mysterious and unexplained disappearance of yandere Dev hey whoa whoa whoa hey wait a minute what the heck I didn't disappear I've been here the whole time I've been active I've been posting updates I okay maybe I should uh start from the beginning yandere de explains that his departure from YouTube was because he was turning to Buck fixes optimizing his time by not creating videos until he made significant progress there was one more video uploaded shortly after a year Christmas Carol written in the theme of yandere simulator then nothing the start of 2023 was the last time his patreon went over $22,000 volunteers were not coming in were in the past he would pay exceptional volunteers as a reward for the work that was no longer the case besides renovating his room and a focus on bug fixing 1980s mode there was nothing substantial there were short videos uploaded to his archive Channel but not much word on significant development even his blog had turned its mandatory month updates to cater to community interaction that and buck fixes the game was dead since 2022 yandere simulator had no functional plans for an official Kickstarter there were no hints at the mechanics of upcoming Rivals nothing but Buck fixes the death of the game was something Alex long feared now in 2023 he was not melting down or creating controversy he was surprisingly adapting well to both his fall from grace and the Persistence of detractors this was possibly his most difficult challenge tackled by doubling down and focusing on his fans and maybe this was the best way the story could end not one where his games finished but one of change going from an angry purposeless individual to one that is able to reflect and grow from the mistakes learning not to interact in kind to those that seek his downfall to learn from one of's mistakes and become something functional this is proven by Google Trends that show yandere Dev was sunk into its lowest possible interest since his adaption of the name in 2014 then suddenly a spike in interest a peak surpassed by only his most tulous month a wound was not reopened but thrashed originating from the blade wielded by sf's accusations these new set of scars would be slow to heal if at all the tragedy is that this was expected Alex while not too vocal at the moment was stly Shen without many social experiences especially the one he desired he was still an Insel and while many are harmless Alex was the exception now 21 Ryan still identifies as an incel but he's trying to move away from a community that he calls toxic the majority opinion is kind of disgusting I see the most foul [ __ ] of my life every day the pedophilia it's quite rampant they can't get a girlfriend so they're resorting to whatever women they can find that was from a short documentary by SPS the feed as insults have become more prominent interest has increased in covering and understanding them and not just them but also their victims I and a lot of the other younger girls and boys in these communities were effectively groomed by the older people around us Lonnie was 14 when she joined the incel community but by 16 she wanted nothing to do with it there were a lot of older men weaseling their way into your close Circle and getting you to open up even get us to lie about ages and their only goal with me was to acquire some kind of relationship or sexual encounter they gr for a younger women because they're typically more vulnerable that was from the same video and is to show cases of desperate men approaching children or teens are common as Alex was going to [Music] prove when you turn 18 are you going to start an only F okay um he acknowledges that she's underage I have one more clip that proves that he knew that she was underage you find other girls no okay wouldn't it make me a bad guy if I that was a snippet of a Tik Tok posted September 20th 2023 which was gaining a fair amount of traction because of the sand bites of yandere Dev talking to a minor and then some the creator of the Tik Tok was a friend of the victim and that's how they got the sound bites additionally They are promoting a video not of theirs but of YouTube channel that is supposedly putting out the conversation as it so happened the creat of this video was in the comment section and stated quote for those asking I'm the one posting the full video you'll find my YouTube channel under the name Ali Mixie thank you bug for helping spread awareness unquote there was quite a bit of skepticism of course the top comment was even proclaiming that this was AI ironically this was the only part that was straightforward this conversation did happen everything else becomes a jumbl mess of changing intents and claims from all directions asking for the situation to be dropped to start this victim just one day after the Tik Tok was on Reddit asking for the situation to be dropped stating in her post that quote he wasn't trying to groom me and recording his calls with me was very very illegal in my state I spoken to him about court lawyers and everything at this moment he is not taking legal action against me and is not actively threatening me he would have every right to take me to court if the videos were published so please just drop it unquote the center of wanting this to go away is the threat of litigation though she states Alex is not actively threatening litigation the subex that he is was and it was creating its own controversy and Yonder Dev trying to hide this evidence on a technicality with that in mind the creator of the video that the victim enlisted was still going forward with it but it was delayed due to a rendering error now the thought was was this video going to be released to challenge that on Reddit the victim created a lengthy post verifying herself with a 6sec audio clip the Crux of the Reddit post is quote I decided the whole thing was blowing up in a really stupid way and and told everyone involved that I didn't want them to use my illegally taken recordings to make a video anymore Al really wants to release a video though she keeps manipulating me into thinking that I am a grooming victim even after I revoked my consent and told her to stop multiple times she still plans to release the video unquote jelly as she identified herself states that people have identified her possibly from her friend's Tik Tok at school and calls Ali mxie the one who is going to make the video with the full Discord call manipulative not only that she also post screenshots of her conversation through Discord with Ally showing her continued requests for the video not to be made and Ally only trying to convince her otherwise these screenshots also left Jelly's Discord name uncensored as agent jelly e squish so now beyond the voice clip calling herself jelly readers could find any accounts that shared that very specific name it did not take long for people to find her account mostly because she was very open about who she was and aspite wanting the situation to go away would discuss it at every opportunity in here she states that she is no longer friends with the person that posted the Tik Tok video discussion then turned to asking why she recorded the conversation at all where she states that she was recording him to make a soundboard of his noises these conversations were endless here she also revealed that there are Snapchat conversations the most important screenshot is this confirming that her pulling out of wanting this exposed is her decision alone there is no coercion as she confirmed despite her best efforts Ali mie finally posted the new allegations and evidence against yandere on September 24th 2023 back in July of this year I was contacted by a 16-year-old girl in fan of the game Yonder race simulator who I will be referring to as Jane and she alleged that she was actively being groomed and sexually abused throughout the summer by yandere Dev also known as Alex creator of yandere simulator and she was reaching out to me to help get her story and gathered evidence out to the public while keeping herself Anonymous as teased the full conversations were very damning [Music] there's there's this one really important thing to remember and that's that uh all the money I get is donations from people who want to support me and if I start working less then they will think oh he's not working he's lazy I should not support this guy why can't okay let's just hypothetically imagine I have an only fans now what do I post on the only fans I mean like just naked naked pictures of me I don't think I'm goodlook enough for anyone to want to subscribe to my only fans like when you turn 18 are you going to start an only fans God no well how can you recommend that someone else do it if you wouldn't even be able to do it yourself yeah you're very skinny and that's kind of hot sorry am I a bad guy for saying that should I go die um no am I a bad guy and I can see where they got the idea from but with context it's not yep that's my life right there wait hold on did you ever answer that question I asked you if she were a virgin yeah then my phone rang very conveniently I had to go flee to answer the phone call um here's here's a question for you what makes you think it's possible that I'm a virgin um you asked me that and I didn't answer what was it you're like maybe you were shy in college and maybe and you haven't had any time to meet people cuz Ander s yeah exactly if I'm a virgin does that make me a pathetic loser why would it make you a pathetic loser it's like oh this guy has no Riz he can't get any girl to sleep with him pathetic Maiden no [ __ ] like I'm half hoping you are half hoping you're not because like if you're not then like good for you you have but if you are like you want to steal my first time well uh I'm uh I'm not very experienced with ladies cuz everyone gets so mad about kids cuz like you can't miners I mean you can't disagree with that without sounding like a creep there is nothing I can really say about that mother nature sexualizes minors puberty starts to give breasts and wide hips to children before they turn 18 I'm unable to do this weekly challenge in F it is so hard what's what's the weekly challenge don't oh my God conversations in this video also include topics of a lot of talk of genitalia denying the existance of SFS and even lengthy Snapchat conversations like the two going back and forth trying to establish the definition of grooming what starts as Alex saying he has no room for time for relationship seeming that he's pulling away from her only to State quote Sur the the only thing for me to get out of this are loot pictures and videos to fap to unquote confirming he was soliciting photos and doubling down on keeping it secret though the only photo he allegedly got was a photo of her ABS the next set of Snapchat conversations take place right after Alex is made aware that he is being recorded on Discord and as such is panicked it starts with Alex begging her not to release the rest of the audio then later attempts to sway her to say it was all AI or Faked in some way then he states that jelly traumatized her to which jelly responds I'm 16 you're 35 unot from this video it is clear-cut that Alex solicited images from a minor had various conversations that were also sexual and because of his regretful and secretive nature knew this to be in appropriate he was guilty of these conversations with jelly something he did with the added pressure of the standing accusations from CPS other accusations of a similar nature and knowledge that recently virtually every interaction with him is archived he responded to this coming out in his blog with a post titled I'm sorry he starts It Off by stating that he was battling against framing the conversation as dishonest or lacking context but is taking the roote of wanting to assume responsibility he confirms he knew jelly was 16 right off the bat and that his actions were not okay further in he attempts to claim that his remarks were not exactly showing sexual interest yet one of Jelly's Friends The Tick tocker quote interpreted my remarks as showing sexual interest in her they convinced her that I was trying to groom her and that she should release all of her recordings to expose me unquote as a counter to this is a Snapchat screenshot of Alex soliciting images he is not being honest or at least not addressing all the evidence in this blog which created more tension the rest of the blog recounts what has happened up to this point while feeling regretful in his decisions he also provided screenshots to his donation terrain a nonprofit organization related to what has recently come out about him additionally being shared was presumably private Discord messages of Alex explaining what happened in a less former way but attention from that was Swept Away to a tweet on September 25th Allie's video with the conversation was taken down by someone using Jelly's real name Ally not wanting to believe it shared her doubts despite Jelly's established position against the video it did not help that Alex had a history of taking down videos he did not agree with overall an in effective takedown because wanting to hide this evidence caused countless reuploads of the video and the evidence was still spreading and then Ally on Reddit states that it was in jail at all quot the victim did not file this claim herself according to her directly it was done on behalf of Alex and Cameron in her name unot Alex is yander Dev but who is Cameron Cameron f305 or simply just Cameron is lead composer and production assistant of yandere simulator he was a friend of Alex and has created videos in the past discussing the controversy around yandere Dev that some disregard because of his friendship with Alex on the 26th of September jelly asked Cameron if he could borrow his platform by a live stream on his channel Cameron openly displeased at yandere Dev due to his recent controversy obliged and though the live stream was immediately taken down there does exist archives like this one the stream opens with her stating that she emailed Alex at the age of nine after becoming a fan of the game though her recent and charged correspondences only date back to around May of 2023 again stating that she was recording Alex for the sake of getting peculiar sound bites stating that Alex is not a predator and that she definitively copyright strike the video yes I did copyright strike the video because they were my recordings that I took so I have full legal right to do that did he force you to lie like a lot of people keep asking that no he didn't force me to lie he he can't force me to do anything he lives across the country and he's not that scary throughout this dream she is adamant that the copyright claim and her other claims are done because she wanted it so why did you want to do this stream to clear things up a lot of people believe that I'm being manipulated so I wanted to be in a space without yandere Dev so that they wouldn't be able to accuse him of manipulating me responding to things in live time again reaffirming that she is the one that direct the video sorry late AF you claimed you claim you stried Ellie's video from what I heard but Ally claims you came forward and said you didn't strike it yourself I'm very confused are are one of you lying uh I would love to see where I came forward about that because no it was absolutely me I struck those videos from that line alone we can establish someone is lying it is either Ally or jelly as this stream went on Jelly proved to be more and more unreliable can you possibly release any and all evidence that you have that can back up what you are saying if majority of what the video was edited clipped Etc okay I'm so sorry for this and this is about to show my super bad priorities but I deleted all of the original things when I asked Ally to delete her video because I just expected it all to be over and done with and I needed to make some storage for Minecraft to run smoother with mods is there anything that we can do to make things easier for you what would bring you better peace uh for everyone to shut up about it that would really help why do you say that I'm going to pry why do you say that it would be so peaceful if everyone were quiet so far two things were established from the stream fact and intent the fact that jelly did not copyright strike the video clearing the responsibility from Alex or Cameron the intent is that she wants for all this to die down yet also she gives her first name in the Stream and also the state that she lives in one last item is that during the Stream the voice actress Rano tweeted that she is suspending participation everyone including Cameron was distancing themselves from Alex except for jelly because she could still be seen in yandere dev's Discord server with a slightly altered name the alteration made with the intent of getting attention as she renamed herself jelly squish DM about drama quote yes I'm yandere dev's victim feel free to ask about it unquote she was openly still part of the server against her establish intent there were cracks starting to show that would soon become herin users now having access to her Discord her username her real name all forms of verifying information found a suspicious history of someone of the same online Alias posting forchan like one of her stating she already turned 18 another post is of her again stating she is 18 restating her state that she lives in and other identifying information screenshots also tell of a quote unquote e brothel within was a now down Google Drive false contents are gone but archived the photos that are presentable are extremely disturbing though some of the screenshots have been censored her face was not to protect her identity her face would be censored within this archive are several photos of what is presumed via her room trash strewn everywhere there are also various pictures of her in Discord calls with different individuals with the other party on the call right about to expose themselves these because of their nature will also not be shown all throughout was her username in the Discord calls jelly Squish and the most identifying bit of course being her face and voice the most strange on her behalf was this Jelly's Honeypot rules heart symbol the definition of a Honeypot varies as it is being used here it is likely def finded under the context of something that is using themselves or using something else as bit as it means to an end there are seven rules in the screenshot don't dox him if you DM him first no leaking no romantic promises keep your clothes on make sure he's sober one at a time don't dox if he's loyal to you there are three rules that stand out the first is keep your clothes on as it opens with quote sing nudes is still illegal unot this supports the idea that she is in fact underage next is one at a time qu multiple men at once can be overwhelming but also just inconsiderate you're already sending them to jail have the decency and compassion to be loyal at least unquote in her conversation with Cameron there are moments that allude to these roles being practiced final rule don't do if he's loyal to you quote if he's loyal to you he loves you you've gone too far and any more will traumatize him abandon your plan you have a new boyfriend not a new victim unquote the intention could be purely satirical as jelly claims and while demonstrating Jelly's character it still did not change what Alex did but because because jelly was in the Forefront and made future developments difficult to follow or verify by the end of September there were even more development the person going as SFS came back to her blog to comment without substan of evidence my voice only reached so far but finally thanks to this girl coming forward people are abandoning his project and leaving him to dry like he deserves it's a small Justice really he should be in prison unquote jelly through her own bition or the influence of Ali and other creators had a change of heart she had Allie's video reinstated Allie showing a screenshot of jilling saying quote no it needs to be up unquote she had also been in communication with a tech talker known as deceptic Kami where they related that jelly was enlisted in helping Alex write an apology I also reached out to deceptic Kami where he verifies that jelly informed him that the honey pot rules were real but claims that jelly told him that they were made as satire due to her established chats with older men quote so Jane claims that this was from an old service she was in she was accused very often of being a Honeypot likely due to frequent attempts to gain attention from older men this isn't a dig just the nature of victims Jane alleges that this made her write these rules as a joke she wanted it to be a joke a satire she claims that she never thought it would ever be taken seriously because of how ridiculous and over the top it is unquote also floating around but more difficult to verify was images of a driver's license or other items showing that she could possibly be 18 though these even if they were real did not matter in the general conversation because yandere Dev was still talking to who he thought was a minor the larger conversation at hand was on the switching of intense and difficulty verifying information on a video discussing Alex's new blog post Alex announces he is pausing development on the game likely due to people pulling out in Mass this comment was found below from jelly quote hey I wanted to clarify something I didn't make the copyright strike or the Reddit post Cameron did it for me after Alex told me to retract my statements cam didn't know that I was being manipulated behind the scenes so I don't blame him at all unquote in the span of about 2 weeks jelly went from supporting the video wanting the video to not be uploaded verified that she was not cused and that the strike was purely her intention had a change of heart had the video reinstated and stated she did not make the copyright strike and now not even the Reddit post making this all very difficult to follow as a contrast how the Fallout was affecting yandere de was very straightforward he announced that he was going to be making a gilded server quote instead of creating this community on Discord we created a server on the platform gilded if you want to participate in the new adultsonly community you'll have to create a gilded account and then use this link to submit an application unquote though previously he stated that he was pausing development this post showed intent to continue development very soon it was difficult to know what that means considering his patreon had fallen to just shy of one $1,000 a month following a mass Exodus of support living in California and developing this game for sub minimum wage could not be feasible the game more and more seemed like it would never be complete from October to the end of the year this dominated conversation around yandere Deb and yandere simulator and at the start of 2024 this conversation was reinvigorated by yandere Dev himself through his blog that had become his main method of communication and a video titled addressing the allegation hello I'm yandere Dev the developer of yandere simulator last year an extremely serious allegation was made about me that I would like to address the accusation is that I attempted to groom an underage fan of my game I will take accountability and admit that I did discuss inappropriate topics with a fan however the accusation that I deliberately attempted to groom this fan is false Alex in this video states that the allegation of him attempting to groom jelly was not true because he saw her as a friend and not a Target he states he did not have ill intentions with her and was influenced by her provocativeness there's a part of me that wants to go Point by Point down the list of every single questionable or suspicious thing I said and provide context for absolutely everything but that's not really the main issue here for one thing a lot of the stuff I said is just weird no matter what the context is I'll just admit it but more importantly I never should have let convers ations like that happen in the first place a normal mentally healthy adult would have just blocked the girl immediately after the very first time she said something inappropriate but I didn't and having to face that fact was a wakeup call that made me realize I had deteriorated mentally so after this whole controversy happened I decided to take some time to just reflect and try to figure out how I had turned into the type of person who would let something like this happen he also accepts it should not have gotten to that point Alex talks about how his mental state deteriorated due to a near decade production of the game that claimed a majority of his time on that note he States how the lack of outside influences such as friends not attached to his online existence hindered growth but now has new hobbies and is going out with friends and is in therapy which is alleged to be the better help service after this whole controversy started people started targeting anyone associated with me or my project for harassment people even targeted the girl that I spoke to spreading misinformation about her and spamming her with horrible images it's one thing to screw up your own life but it's another thing entirely to screw up so badly that you bring hate and abuse and harassment into the lives of others just for being associated with you I am deeply sorry for that I just hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me this video with Alex in a black shirt and hat and a white background is all there is in terms of footage besides the scarce inclusion of some screenshots never on screen or addressed anywhere are the Snapchat conversations and never did he address the most damning piece of evidence this one screenshot counters his defense of stating the context of the conversations were done with humor in mind treating her as one of the Bros Alex has been emailed for comment but has not responded and so the screenshot both shows his intent to be secretive and the intent to elicit illegal photos his lack of being fully transparent or not covering the entirety of his allegations is likely why he took this apology video down remaining are only re-uploads and other videos ridiculing his apology video as a first apology video as a genre of 2024 as of this recording yandere simulator sits at 52 patrons with $1.4 th000 a month the game is the furthest it's been in development but the furthest it's been to realistically being developed the story of yandere Deb is one where even success cannot meant a dysfunctional mindset his aggressiveness his lack of perspective his overall social enness is often thought to be linked to his origin to him being a shut in which connects to where he is now resentful at a lack of real world experiences and connection while that cannot be bundled and traced his proclivity towards miners is not influenced but sought it is not a point of compassion nor does one desire understanding it is this that has dug him such a deep hole one that has been there since CF and one that he may now find it impossible to climb out of for that reason Alex at the helm of yandere simulator means that it will never Garner the support to be complete at least not complete by its original Ambitions of 10 complex Rivals and for that reason it is and its failure a reflection of Alex