good evening everyone I'm Oprah Winfrey welcome to a spectacular night here at the Griffith Observatory in Los Angeles tonight you have a front row seat to a very special one night only concert with Adele she's singing all the songs I know you want to hear and new songs we've all been waiting six years for and throughout the night you'll see my conversation with Adele so much fun she's as real as down to earth as we all believe she is but right now it is my great Delight to introduce the 15 time grammy-winning icon a day foreign [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Music] everything they see the time supposed to heal you but I ain't no much healing hello can you hear me I'm in California Dreaming about who we used to be when we were younger and free I forgotten how we failed before the world fell at our feet there's such a difference between us and the million miles [Music] hello from the other side [Applause] [Music] for everything that I've done but when I call you never seems [Music] at least I can say that foreign [Music] [Music] how are you so deep and gold of me to talk about myself I'm sorry I hope as you will did you ever make it out of that town where nothing there happened it's no secret that the both of us [Music] inside for everything that I've done [Music] sorry for breaking your heart but it don't matter anymore [Music] [Applause] [Music] me how from the other side [Music] for everything that I've done seem to be home [Music] [Applause] foreign [Music] for breaking break [Music] [Applause] hello okay okay this is so good yes hello hi no hi we can't even say hello anymore yeah I don't really say hello anymore you don't not really because it's like a joke okay well hi Adele hiya welcome to my rose garden it's lovely it's beautiful well thank you for coming to join me it was very British it does it yes well actually because yes and and because my tea house is here yes everybody we just met and the concert tonight is a celebration of your biggest hits in the debut of the new songs from 30. and you start with hello yes well I think I'm always gonna have to start with hello it was like halfway through a set you know so yeah I'm starting with it okay so that music video has been viewed nearly three billion times three billion three I didn't know that billion times billion that's insane [Music] [Applause] that song means so much to people all around the world it does yeah so what does it represent to you well the show's the first time that I you know that I'm singing it from where I am now yes which I think is great um the song to me was the beginning of me trying to find myself and I haven't figured out yet what it was I had to do for that but when I wrote it it was a reward to like little me older me like all of these things like you know so it's just a song about like I'm still here you know it's sort of like oh I'm still here like you exists like you know in every aspect of my life well it feels like that I'm 30 you have literally opened up your soul in a way that even though we have heard your pain before it feels like pain was almost like a muse for you for this I read something you said you said I was singing things I didn't even realize I was feeling or thinking so is that how the music comes to you is that a part of your process is yeah the music as catharsis yeah it's definitely channels from somewhere else you know when I'm singing and when I'm writing like and I was kind of aware of that on the other albums but this one you know a lot more I felt it because everything was happening in real time I was writing my album you know while I was going through everything but I don't think as a person I have what my singing has what do you mean I just think there's there's something that I'm pulling from somewhere else and I don't have some you know something else from underneath I don't know what it is is coming up through me but it's not I don't know how I access it it's wild because I don't think I'm that deep in real life so and then you listen to the music and you think yeah yeah you know or I'll just be like I am making progress or like just it's a revelation to me the songs well I read something that you said you said I'm not shy or embarrassed to be falling apart that's one of the reasons why you feel people are so connected to your music and I wondered what gives you the the freedom actually and the courage to be able to fall apart and expose yourself in a world and a culture now that is a gotcha culture yes and if you make the wrong move you say the wrong thing somebody's got some you know wisecrack about it I think the reason I'm so brave to do it you know in my career so far was because again music helped me in any situations and I would like to do you know the same for people that feel so alone when they're feeling something to be reminded that they're not alone and in terms of now you know there were moments when I was writing the record or I would listen back to something and be like that might be a bit too private that might be a bit too you know too about myself and stuff to put out but nothing is as scary as what I've been through over the last two three years behind closed doors so I'm not frightened about about what people may or might not do now you know hey guys how Posh is this also get you lizzo you can come out and shine me babes I love that I love that Poncho Co oh yeah nice um hi everyone thank you so much for coming tonight um welcome to one night only with me although most of you I know and you have too many nights with me really um but I wanted to feel safe um in my first little comeback thing hang on I've got dry mouth so I wanted to do a mixture of people that I know and love people that I've met a few times and some of you I don't know at all but hi and I'm going to do some old ones for you I'm gonna do some new ones for you so I haven't sung this this is a new song I haven't sung this song yet for anyone um not in real life myself [Applause] um this is easy on me [Music] foreign [Music] baby baby [Music] I had no time to choose what I chose to do so go easy on me foreign [Music] I was still a child didn't get the trains too feel I had no time to choose what I chose to do [Music] on me I had a good intentions [Music] I [Music] didn't get the trains too I had no time to choose what I chose to do so go easy on me [Music] thank you [Applause] [Music] [Applause] foreign foreign hold your breath and count today feel the earth move and end hear my heart burst again foreign [Music] foreign [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] you may have my number [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] see it all together [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] foreign [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] you lost 100 pounds in two years and then you said it wasn't even really about the weight so what was it about so here's the thing you write about it in song after song you start with you know easy on me that that's been released can you just give us an idea of what happened with this all-consuming it feels like an all-consuming pain and I'm like what the hell happened I've been obsessed with a nuclear family my whole life because I've never came from one you know it's in all these movies and all these books like you know you grow up reading them like that's what it should be right like you know and I just from a very young age just you know promised myself that when I had kids that we'd Stay Together We would be that United Family and and I tried for a really really long time and then um I was just so disappointed for my son I was so disappointed for myself and I was just I thought I was going to be the one that you know stopped doing those bloody patterns all the time so do you call this is this the divorce album I think I'm divorcing myself on it yeah yeah how does one do that so it's lonely you know I spent a lot of time on my own really sitting in my feelings and not keeping myself busy I used to always if a feeling came up I'd distract myself or I'd call a friend and be like yeah put a movie on whatever I would just sit with it I would just eat it myself no absolutely but I would just I would just whenever I noticed how I was feeling I would sit down and I'd sit in it um I stopped drinking that's one great way of um of really sort of getting to know yourself is being you know just drinking water and being sober as anything but you've had a fascinating relationship with alcohol I read where you said that alcohol really fascinated you yeah yeah very much yeah because it took my dad from me yeah yeah and then you stopped well when I was going through everything a couple years ago when I was going for my divorce yes um not the beginning at first no I think I'll probably get the alcohol industry alive but you know after once I realized that I had a lot of work to do on myself yeah I stopped drinking and I started working out lots and stuff like that to keep me sort of centered was there a moment when you knew or was it a series of things that you said can't do this anymore with my my journey or in in with the divorce from Simon like because I I you know over the years have interviewed so many people who stayed were miserable we're miserable and years before they actually made the move yeah had started thinking about it so I'm wondering was there a single moment or was I do remember one of my friends we were all we were answering these questions in this very bougie magazine and it was it was something like what's something that no one would ever know about you and I just I just said it in front of three of my friends I was like I'm really not happy I'm not I'm not living I'm just plodding along and I remember there was a lyric that I wrote that I put on a song on on 25 which was I want to live and not just survive and um yeah I definitely felt like that but it was when I when I admitted to my own friends who thought I was really happy that actually I'm really unhappy and they were all gasped like you know I feel like it was sort of from there that I was like what am I doing what am I doing it for you know but I think it was just by us getting married us having our wedding and I you know I take marriage very seriously like it obviously you have all of that stuff from the past and it seems like I don't you know now like you know almost like I disrespected it by by getting married and then you know divorced so quickly and stuff like that but I think are you embarrassed because it was so quickly I'm just embarrassed that I didn't make my marriage work okay you know so now that you have perspective and you've opened up your soul and shared it with the world here on 30. why do you think is the real reason Simon came into your life I think Simon probably saved my life to be honest with you he came at such a moment whereas the stability that him and Angelo have given me no one else would ever been able to give me like especially at that time in my life I was so young and I just I think I would have got a bit lost in all of it like you know and I think I probably I could have easily gone down some dodgy paths like you know and sort of self-destructed from from sort of like being so overwhelmed by all of it and he he came in and was stable the most stable person I've ever had in my life up until that point even you know even now I trust them with my life really oh my gosh like Beyond like yeah I feel like yeah him and Angelo like they were Angels sent to me that's how I feel so came into your life at the right season and for the right reasons yes absolutely yeah and in that moment when Angelo said to you why don't you love Daddy anymore yeah that was really hard as well I'm trying to explain to like a six-year-old at the time obviously um that I do love him I'm just not in love with him makes absolutely no sense to a six-year-old like you know so there were so many answers I just couldn't give him because there aren't any really like you know that he would understand but he sees that I still love his dad because you live across the street from me we live across the street from each other like we like we're away together sometimes like you know and um and yeah like me and Simon also chat away without Angelo like Angelo you know could be at school so you're still friends oh yeah it's it's all 100 100 yeah yeah I respect him more than anyone how does he feel about this album and the story of the two of you coming to your music I mean we don't sit around and talk about it like how you feeling like you know it is your music streams we don't talk about it um but um he knows I'm you know he knows what kind of artist I am like and you know that I got I have to dig deep and tell my stories foreign [Music] I putting ideas in our heads to corrupt our hearts somehow when I was a child every single thing could blow my mind soaking it all off of fun but now I only soak up why [Music] they see to play hard you work hard find balance in the sacraments yet I don't know anybody is truly satisfied [Music] you better believe him [Music] The Climb feels alive [Music] stop trying to be somebody else [Music] so we can love each other for free everybody wants something you just want me about the things I can't control [Music] why am I seeking approval for people I don't even know in these crazy times I hope to find something I can clean up cause I need some substance in my life something real something that feels true [Music] fire oh I hope I learned to get over myself [Music] trying to be somebody [Music] oh I just want to love you too love for free cause everybody wants something from me [Music] listen I know how low I can go I give as good as I get together cause you're all I've got [Music] oh I hope in time [Music] traveled is Left Behind [Music] myself [Music] trying to be somedale so I just want to love you I love you free yeah cause everybody I want something from me [Music] feels alive [Music] [Applause] this next one is a golden oldie I would say and um yeah it's the first time I've sung it in public since um since everything went down all right are you ready you ready Eric [Music] natural settle down at you found a girl in your married now I heard that your dreams came true guess you gave your things I didn't give to you oh my friend why are you so shy it ain't like you to hold back or high from the light I hate to turn out bad of the blue Uninvited but I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it I had hoped you see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over never mind I wish [Music] I remember you said sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead yeah you know how to time flies yesterday was The Time Of Our Lives we were born and raised summer haze Bound by the surprise of our Glory Days hate to turn up out of the blue Uninvited but I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it I had hoped you see my face and that you'll be reminded that for me it isn't over yay thank you never mind I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best [Music] I remember you said sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts and stayed yay Nothing Compares no worries or cares regrets and mistakes their memories made would have known how bitters never mind I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best are you too don't forget I remember you said sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it earns instead never mind I'll find someone like you foreign [Music] [Music] yeah yeah [Music] foreign [Music] [Applause] every single person to be really done and quiet all right [Applause] [Music] foreign [Music] [Music] [Music] you're like a dream come true but if I change the hill alone can I have a moment before I go [Music] cause I've been by myself all night [Music] hoping you're someone I used to know you look like a movie time for so I got this reminds me When We're Young [Music] place it was just like a movie just like a storm I was so scared to face my fears nobody told me [Music] and I swear you moved over her sea cause that's what you said when you left me you still look like a movie still sound like a soul my God this reminds me [Music] it is [Music] just like a movie just like a star [Music] his heart to admit that everything just takes me back [Music] just in case it hasn't gone I guess I still care do you still care it was just like a movie it was just like yourself I got this reminds me when we're young [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] when we [Applause] leave [Music] time [Music] [Music] Reckless it was just like a movie it was just like a storm when we we are Young [Music] thank you very much you know um this is the first time it's all got perched like this six I can't sit in this mermaid dress I feel like my whole campaign so far with my outfits is a bit deaf Becomes Her sometimes I'm hell and sometimes I'm mad you know and anyway this is the first time that my son has ever seen me perform and I got really uh and dressed up for me it was uh I'm not gonna cry anyway it's too it's too soon to cry and I don't want anyone to come fix me face and um it's the absolute honor of my life baby to have you here tonight and you look so beautiful and so handsome and smart so many women Adele are going to be liberated I think by listening to you because so many women specifically choose to stay on in relationships when they know it's not working and they do it for the kids and I've read where you said you weren't miserable miserable but you also knew you weren't happy yeah and so you wanted to bring a happy version of yourself to your son yes which I think is about the best gift anybody can give to their children I think I think it's the same as you know the same driver staying in a relationship even though you're not happy and you do it for the kids I think it's as loving as doing that for the kids by leaving and you know finding your own happiness so that they really know who you are but I'm still not fully over it of me choosing to dismantle my child's life for my own makes me very uncomfortable you still feel guilt I don't feel guilt I just feel somewhat selfish sometimes but like I I know that I'm nearing my goal of like finding my happiness that you know and it's been no one ever makes me do anything I don't want and it was just like but I was really ignoring myself yeah for a long time which was wild to me when I realized it and I knew that as an adult Angela would be livid with me for doing that I knew that when he became an adult that he'd be furious in me and I didn't want that either but it was it was it was hard work so this whole album is dedicated to him yes yeah and the whole album's not about him it's about me and I just wanted for him to hear me talking mad madly deeply about who I am and how I feel like you know and I don't know if I'd ever be able to have that conversation with him in real life so therefore he can go and listen to him well uh everything on the album is certainly a starter for a great conversation so does Angelo know that you are Adele no apart from the other day he watched the easy on me video like countdown to when it premiered whatever whatever I didn't watch that and um he was like there was like 150 000 people waiting and like blah blah and he had all these likes and then he read the comments and then he was like people really like you like so he's starting to get it to get it a little bit but not really didn't you take into a Taylor Swift concert and he was like he loved it he couldn't believe that all those people were in there yeah because he used to come to my stadium shows for my rehearsals and it'll be empty because he's like so many people come to host shows I'd make him leave before they all arrive it was so cute and so funny he loved it yeah he's never seen you perform live no no this will be his first time wow yeah yes do you want more children I thought I'm definitely open to it I would like more children I wouldn't be the end of the world if I don't have them because I have Angelo but yeah I think so every mother and father has a dream for their children and even when you have a big access life as you do and can give your children any dreams that they can imagine actually I think it's more challenging to raise children who are kind and have their own ambition when they have absolutely you so what is the dream you hold for him to be a good person be a good and happy person I don't expect anything of him I don't care what his career is as long as he's passionate about whatever it is that he does and that he's happy now this is the big surprise and I'm very very excited I hope we can pull it off so tonight we've arranged bit nervous in case she doesn't go well it's also a bit ironic that I'm I'm letting this happen to others of you we've arranged a surprise for a lovely guy called quentim who reached out to a now fake show asking for some help so oh I'm making all nervous Quentin has been with his girlfriend Ashley for seven years seven years is like normally like you know you're going to say yes or you say no to like laughter every seven year itch she's a chef she's a vegan Chef she's always at work but tonight Quentin told Ashley that they were having a date night and so we're gonna make that date night really really memorable so now earlier today Ashley and Quentin were picked up in a car and they came to this part to Griffith Park and at the bottom of the hill down there they've been having a beautiful picnic pretty much all day Quentin told Ashley that he's panned a song surprise to celebrate the fact that she just got her first big catering job also I love a surprise also love dress up as much I should be blindfolded her that can keep it you know and he's given her noise canceling headphones so that she can't hear what we've been doing up here this concert tonight and even though they're in the area she has absolutely no idea where she is or where she's going so I need every single person to be really bloody quiet all right Stan if you if you make a noise I'm going to kill you what are we doing all right okay you can take the blindfold off okay when you squeeze my hand yes am I on grass oh shoot wait take it off take it off babe look at me look at me look at me look at me look at me oh my God listen first of all what are you doing listen listen I want to say thank you okay I want to thank you for being so patient with me listen thank you for being patient with me oh crazy man I am extremely proud of you and I mean every day you blow my mind there's absolutely nothing that you cannot do and I just know that you're going to be an amazing mother to our kids one day and um and I love you I love you I love you I love you and I will continue to love you forever Ashley this is real this is real thank God Ashley it's been I'm glad you didn't let me eat I would have thrown up this has been a long time coming oh my god I've been your girlfriend hello babe well okay all right will you marry me hello Ashley in real life [Applause] my friends in Europe go sit front row go sit down and enjoy the show thank God he said yes because I didn't know who I was gonna have to sing this song to next you or him or my gold the courage is so in shock I always love that little cry okay all right here we go this is for you too [Music] when the rain is blowing in your face and the whole world is on your case I could offer you warm embrace To Make You Feel My Love when even in Shadows in the stars appear and there is no one there to dry or tease I could hold you for a million years To Make You Feel My Love I know you haven't made your mind [Music] but I would never do your own I've known it from the moment there's no doubt in my mind where you belong she's quite ours out I'd go hungry I go black and blue blue not go crawling down the Avenue no there's nothing that I wouldn't do To Make You Feel My Love [Music] foreign [Music] the winds have changed and free you ain't seen nothing like me yet I could make you happy make your dreams come true [Music] nothing that I wouldn't do I go to the ends of this Earth for you To Make You Feel My Love oh Lord I [Music] feel [Music] me [Music] love congratulations [Music] how do you start dating again I mean you can't go on a dating app you like take advice from friends or somebody says oh I know somebody let's go to the question everybody wants to know oh one of the questions certainly is this whole weight thing and you lost 100 pounds in two years yeah around that around 100 pounds in two years and then you said it wasn't even really about the weight so what was it about it was about my anxiety mainly I had the most terrifying anxiety attacks after I left my marriage they'd paralyzed me completely and made me so confused because I wouldn't be able to have any control over my body but I knew that I I was aware of it all happening it was like I was still very much there while my whole body was just like on another planet it felt like you know and I've always worked out a bit you know a couple times a week from my back not very hard but you know almost I've had a bad back since I was a teenager and I started to notice hey how much I trusted my trainer and his like presence when I was feeling so lost but also that I didn't have any anxiety when I was with him at the gym so then I picked up every day and then I had nothing else to do and I think it was just it became my time me having a plan every day when I had no plans I had no idea what each day was going to bring for me but me knowing that I look at 9am I'm gonna go to the gym okay great well that gives me some discipline okay 1pm I'm gonna go for a hike you know having these sort of pins in my day helped me keep myself you weren't even starting out trying to lose weight no not at all I wasn't bothered about that at all but in that process of having you know lost all of that weight I definitely really contributed towards me getting my mind right you know and giving me them absolutely it sharpened everything without a shadow of a doubt like it gave me real purpose interesting because you know I I've been through this a few times myself and I remember the first time I dropped you know a lot of weight I think it was like 67 pounds people were really upset and had stuff to say and actually in many ways felt like I had abandoned them or something yeah and lots of people are talking about your weight and all in your business about it yeah I want to know what is the experience of losing this been like for you and also people's reaction to it I'm not shocked or even phased by it because my body has been objectified my entire career mine were too big my too small like you know I might have a heart or I might have a knot like whatever I never looked up to anyone because of their body you know I never admired anyone because they had the same hair color as me or the same style as me or you know whatever so where the same weight as you never never ever ever and when you were heavier you were fine I was and I was body positive then and I'm body positive now but it's not my job to validate how people feel about their bodies well and I feel bad that you know it's made anyone feel horrible about themselves but I that's not my job and I can't I'm trying to sort my own life out you know I can't I can't have another worry and another thing to try and nail I can't like you know and um I got that I love that I love that and you know my weight might fluctuate now that I can't work out as much and I'm on set all day you know I'm you know I'm eating but I don't care if I put on weight I don't care if I lose it again like it's not about that as long as like my muscle memory doesn't go for when I'm lifting my weights which is like my favorite place to be lifting weights I love it okay I love it what's the highest weight you can press now well at the moment my back's been bad but last summer when I was at my I was at my peak of being able to like I feel like I could have been the Olympics I remember saying to my trainers all the time I'm gonna get I'm gonna get Olympic gold medal next I was like you know um it was we were getting to like on a deadlift we were getting up to like 160 170 yeah I love it but it started out at 10 pounds it started at 10 pounds when I first started lifting I am wow oh no I'm an athlete I'm actually an athlete like I'm not even boasting even the proportions of my body I should have been an athlete if only at school hadn't discovered boys and someone had told me to go and do a bit more PE wow 160 wow yeah I love it but I have to eat quite a lot of food to lift the weights I lift so you eat I eat what you want to eat at Chinese last night okay yeah we found the best McDonald's recently it's piping hot every time no I do I love it I just I'm not angry of a sweet tooth though yeah I don't either yeah yeah I'd rather sandwich deadlifting 160 this girl yeah she's an athlete I'm also a very good boxer I've got a left hook that could kill you really oh yeah yeah am I very good I'm scared [Laughter] another new song of the album is titled hold on the lyrics of this song are so brutally honest sounds like you were in the dark dark dark hours there I swear to God you say I am such a mess the harder that I try I regress I Am My Own Worst Enemy right now I truly hate being me every day feels like the road I'm on might just open up and swallow me whole how do I feel so mighty small when I'm struggling to feel at all girl you can write ah thank you you can write thank you so what was going on there what was happening how did you keep the faith when you were at your lowest point what were you holding on to my friend the question is what were you holding on to um my friends always would say hold on when I would feel like how I'm you know the lyrics in the verse but it was just exhausting trying to to like keep going with it it's a process you know the process of of a divorce the process of you know being a single parent the process of not seeing a child every single day wasn't really a plan that I had when I you know when I had when I became a mum um the process of arriving for yourself every single day turning up for yourself every single day and still running a home running a business like it's every you know so many people know what I'm talking about and it can you know I feel like that as well I juggle those things as well and it just I felt like not doing it anymore and also trying to like move forward like a bit like with intention not just trying to get out of it for no reason meant my feet are walking through all of that concrete I never ever did which I'm very grateful for that I never asked myself those questions but it was just like maybe it would have been better had I just kept my mouth shut you know and carried on you know just in terms of hurting two people that I love the most in the world you know foreign [Music] I don't want to live in chaos is it like a ride that I want to get off it's hard to hold on to who I am when I'm stumbling in the dark for a hand I'm so tired of battling with myself with no chance to eat oh my God be patients [Music] pain be gracious [Music] okay foreign [Music] Grace [Music] and me right now I truly hate being me every day it feels like the road I'm on might just open up and swallow me home how do I feel so mighty small when I'm struggling to feel it all just hold on later time be patient [Music] s lay pay me gracious [Music] sometimes loneliness is the only rest [Music] and the emptiness actually lets us forget sometimes [Music] [Music] foreign [Music] [Music] [Music] be patients [Music] just be patient just be patient [Music] yeah yes thank you coming up next [Music] with all the therapy you've done you know that certainly at this stage that you end up until you can get it right this is what I say to all my girls in school that whatever the biggest wound of your life is from your parents that you end up choosing relationships to try to heal those wounds so what do you think the deep wound from the past from you as a little girl growing up you're trying to heal as you reach for your relationships as an adult woman my dad's absolute lack of presence and effort with me but you know as I got older I definitely understood that it was the alcohol it wasn't a choice that he was necessarily making in himself that he didn't want to well you don't know especially when he's lamb drinking juice yes so I'm not well I drink juice like you don't know the sort of effects of it but yeah like when someone that you love so much and the more that you feel like they don't love you you love them even more like I was definitely always trying to fill that void but at the same time I would expect it to hurt at some point so I would hurt them first you know not in a malicious way it wasn't malicious it was just like I had absolutely zero expectations of anybody because I never I learned not because you've been let down so many times yes so by having you know zero expectations I wouldn't arrive for them either like you know and I would feed off this energy so they'd be like well why would I like like make go beyond and make that effort with you when a you don't seem to want me to and B you're not doing it like you know um so it was definitely definitely that and then during the the you know the sort of the last two three years of my life my dad got really sick and it was interesting that that happened during after just after having left my marriage when I had already made the conscious decision to get to know myself and figure some things out and not you know not not that long ago it was um back in April when he when my dad died and we had our piece together I felt that that huge gaping hole feel like you know just just we we forgave each other because you know I said hurtful things I did I did nothing as bad as what he did though to be honest with you like you know if you add it all up throughout my whole life but I definitely like snaps in the press and stuff like that to him which definitely hurt his feelings of course um but we found our piece together and then you played the album for him play the album two on Zoom yeah yeah was that healing for both of you what did you learn from that when we met up and when I heard he was Ill um I went to go and see him in Wales and I wanted to play him to be loved my main goal in life is to be loved and love you know and I was always back to my dad being like you're the reason I haven't done that yet because he definitely was the reason he was the reason I haven't fully accessed what it is to be like in a loving loving relationship with somebody like 360 like you know and he couldn't he was like I've only ever heard Hometown Glory so I'm like well that's the first song I ever wrote when I was like 16. and he was like it's too painful like you know he's never heard anything other than that he would switch it off and he never ever played any of my other music he said so I forced him to listen and it's like we both cry and stuff like that and then um so that him him sort of really understanding my child wound through my song was amazing for me and him and again I think he could listen to me sing it but not say it yeah very similar like that and then when I played in the album it was just by then he'd listen to All of 19 or 21 all the 25 and my mum was helping to look after him towards the end as well and his favorites were all of my favorites you know which I thought was amazing and he wished that he'd done what I had been doing for myself you know like yeah I wish he'd done it yeah yeah um and he was proud of me for doing it so it was it was very very healing but when he died it was just it was it literally it was it was like the wound closed up and I've been so open you know didn't your therapist at one point say you need to sit with the seven-year-old Adele and then you did that set with the seven-year-old Adele yeah what did you find um very sad little girl [Music] no you try to make me cry no I'm not no yeah it was it was she was sad but also you know she was willing willing willing to get out and run look at what she did look at what she did I said I won't stay in there I said that what she did I was like I'm not staying here this is not what this life is I've been the wrong place I've been you know sent to the wrong place I said I wasn't staying there and I way yeah that's the thing is to look back on who you were and what you've come through and all of that is what allowed yes to be sitting and then to appreciate all the things that you did have to go through yeah because it's a part it might not have gone to where you are you know and I'm sure I've got many more Mountains to climb that will come my way and I'm sure I'll have another little like you know like swerve you know swerve out the way for something and stuff like that but I feel like I'll get better at it every time everything comes up [Applause] [Music] [Music] see how every piece of you not underestimate the things that I will do there is a fire starting in my heart we 've been a fever preaching is bringing me out the dark remind me of us thinking keep me almost had it all the scars [Music] broken into food [Music] [Applause] [Music] baby [Music] foreign [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] to the beach [Music] see you have my heart blessings [Music] [Music] we could have had it always [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] if you have my heart together [Applause] [Music] [Music] [Applause] standing up thank you that's the only fast one you see so I know the urge it really kicks in when you when a fast song comes on with me you better dance while you came so how do you start dating again I mean you can't go on a dating app do you like take advice from friends or somebody says oh I know somebody like how did you meet Rich Paul I met him at a birthday party we're on the dance floor and I met him and then a couple of couple of years later we went out for dinner which he says was a business meeting I'm not a business meeting about what we want to email them being about business and then it was just the first time we've hung out only on our own and not with other friends and stuff like that so that was a very natural way I think that's how people would normally meet each other is that in real life what was it about him that Drew you to him I mean we all know he's the super agent and yeah he's just hilarious he's also hilarious oh he's so funny okay no he's hilarious yeah and very smart you know he's very very smart it's quite quite incredible watching him do what he does and just the easiness of it it's just it's been very smooth he's making it easy on you he's making it easy on me I'm blushing he's right up there okay so this relationship with super Asian Rich Paul I can't say his name without saying super age of Rich Paul this relationship is the first time you've actually loved myself and been open to loving and being loved by someone else yeah so rich is getting a different Adele than everybody else has gotten yeah but by arriving and turning up you know yeah maybe I'm getting a different version of him and all who knows it's just it's just timing it's just timing but it'd be interesting to see what my reaction is like in general to anything that hurts me now that I feel so secure in myself and I'm talking outside of romance as well I'm just wearing any scenario it'll be interesting to see how close I let it come to me so do you think you'll be able to write from a happy space I hope so I hope so yeah but the music will change like like love is like you know the last song on the album love this game yeah it's about love here are some of the lyrics Love is a game for fools to play and I ain't fooling what a cruel thing to self-inflict that pain and I wanted to know are You Adele getting better at this game of love yeah I think so because I don't I don't um I don't treat it like a game anymore you know that thing of like you're gonna hurt me so I'm going to hurt you first I certainly I'm not like that anymore you know one of the things I think is so valuable in knowing how to move forward in your life is having Clarity on what it is you really want and when you and what you like yes and what you like but mostly knowing in the spirit and soul of yourself what is it you really want because that's how you start to drawing that to yourself and do you know what that is ultimately what do you really want peace of mind just Peace of Mind peace of mind okay um and stability but I can I don't have to expect someone else to give me stability I can also be stable for myself and be a solid house that doesn't blow over in a storm well the best thing you said here in this interview as far as I'm concerned is that now you're in a relationship where for the first time your love for yourself comes first yeah and all great things come after that I know that a quote I heard as well while on my journey was um if you're not feeling everything you're missing everything that sort of gave me permission to really do that during the process you know and not be upset this has been great thanks for coming to the Rose Garden I can't believe we just had a chat we had a little chat thanks for letting me come to the concert oh my gosh I'm so excited it's going to be so good and I wish you all the things your heart desires oh thanks that's my prayer for you thank you all the things your heart desires and still good music from a happy space okay yeah for sure thank you very much well done [Music] [Music] foreign expectations [Music] of my love are impossible surely you know [Music] I'm not easy to hold it's so sad incapable of learning to grow I am my heart speaks in puzzle and colds I've been trying to solve D God only knows how I've cried thank you I can't take another defeat hey next time the ending of me thou that I see the love is a game [Music] what a cool thing to self inflict [Music] is again [Music] that pain [Music] how unbelievable lies that I tell guys thank you dream that I sell [Music] my heartache it's inevitable [Music] When Love is a game yeah [Music] [Music] can keep me satisfied [Music] when I keep changing my mind [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] to play [Music] games [Music] that pain [Music] right so the biggest lesson I'll learn is doing this album [Music] and enjoy your life thank you for coming tonight [Applause] [Music] [Applause] foreign [Music] [Applause] [Applause] [Music] [Music] look at it [Music] cause I'm addicted [Music] no I'm gonna do it again [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] foreign [Music] [Music] I'm a big day you know I'm gonna do it again [Music] [Applause]