Robert Edward Grant welcome to the show great to be here Danny thank you so I think we're gonna have an interesting conversation yeah but in like 30 seconds real Liv why should they listen till the very end what do you think is going to come up in this this conversation well we don't know till we get there but uh because I think that's the way this is going to go but I think they should listen because I think what's happening in the world right now is very significant and I think that our own personal spirituality is being you know playing a very very large part in that I think that um what's happening around the world and also my I guess my viewpoint on where that's going and how it will evolve I think is probably going to be very interesting to your viewers so I I love that let's let's go right into it so when you say what's happening in the world what what do you reference um I mean we're definitely in a time that seems almost apocalyptic or pre-apocalyptic at least and I think that um you know we're seeing a lot of Duality play out but in the midst of all that Duality there's also lots of Oneness that's coming out as well so we cannot have light without the darkness that's right Darkness needs the light as much as light needs the darkness yeah and as a result I think we're seeing both play out equally you know if you think about you know going to higher Dimensions or perspective um you I won't go buy a diamond unless I put it in front of a black velvet cloth and just to see what it's going to look like because that's when all the Brilliance comes out of the diamond I think that's what's going on with us right now the backdrop has to get darker and darker just like in all the movies with Lord of the Rings and all of a sudden you know Gandalf the Gray turns into Gandalf the White when the Orcs show up so it's basically going from you know more of a centralized kind of approach to things and you're going to start seeing a larger and larger separation and more and more context and it's The Duality that provides the context to us we we learn through opposites and you know if I believe that I'm here to learn unconditional love I'm going to live a lifetime of experience probably till I finally recognize it of betrayal and conditional love and that's the life of experience that we have until we finally stop judging the negative aspect of the thing we came here to intend to learn uh when I finally give up judgment negative Judgment of betrayal is when I've actually learned the concept of unconditionality of love I love that what what what life Journey did you go on to be make you become aware of all of this oh I had lots of Crisis you know I think like everybody we all experience life in our own way and I think you know we all tend to think that the way we see the world is the way everyone sees the world but actually when you start getting into life you start realizing the things that I thought were black and white when I was 15 and 16 years old became Shades of Gray by the time I was in my late 20s that then became a r rainbow spectrum of color in my 30s and in my 40s it was more like um you know instead of having a 256 color crayon box I got you know a 16.8 million color crayon box and I started realizing that it was not only the world that was changing around me but actually my way of perceiving the world that led to the greater and greater differentiation of of experience that I was perceiving and that's when I started realizing the things I was judging were the things I was attracting yeah could could you give me an example of judging so let's say that uh you know we meet right and your first impression is oh that guy can be kind of arrogant without even knowing you without annoying me right and actually what that is is and you might think oh I'm humble and I'm judging arrogance but actually it's you seeing the aspect of yourself that you don't like in someone else that's right so it's like if you spot it that means you got it that's right it's the it's the it's the personification of you know if you smelt it you dealt it type of that's right that's right and it's the same type of a thing that we see over and over again and when I started really asking myself the questions about what is Duality and why does Duality exist that's when I started started to really comprehend and see that everything that I thought was exactly opposite of each other each antonym relationship of words and verbiage was actually more just a differing degree of the same thing and this is where hermetic principles basically point to polarity and the differences that we have in in you know how we perceive the world you know everything is that we consider opposite is only differing in degree but actually it's the same thing could you could you bring that down so I'm loving this could you could you bring that down to like I don't want say dumb it down but for like someone who who this might seem like whoa this is a lot like could you could you bear it down to the basics so that for us so uh I'll tell you the funny story around this when I was um around 41 I was in Hong Kong I was CEO of a company called bowan LOM surgical which is a large corporation yeah yeah and um and I went to go meet this fellow that had been working in our operation in Thailand he was country manager for Thailand uh but had been on a sabatical for 5 years and he was coming back and the person who replaced him was stepping down so that he could fill that role and he was actually going to step into a lower position to sort of you know allow his mentor to come back and I thought what a strange situation because most people in the US would never do that they wouldn't be like okay I'm going to step down now I've been doing this for five years well as well right so I had to meet this guy I'm like what's the deal and not only that but he went to live in a Buddhist monastery for 5 years in a Val of silence for five years five years oh God bless it that's wonderful yeah so so like I was in the salad bar line so this is back before we banned salad bar lines right but um but I was in the salad bar line at the high at Grand Hyatt Hotel in in Hong Kong and he happened to be next to me in the salar line so I started talking to him I'm like oh it might be one of the first people talking to this Villa and um and I said so what was it like to be you know know in the Buddhist Monastery is a monk I said what did what did you learn and um he said there is no Duality there's only Oneness and I was like what does that even mean you know there's no Duality there's only Oneness it was kind of like you know Neo in The Matrix and someone just says something to me that like didn't really register so I had to grocket on my own and as I was flying home I pulled out my notebook and I started writing down the concepts that I thought were the most powerful ANTM relationships you know love hate right or maybe fear fear yeah right and and then I started looking at all the other an relationships arrogance and humility right I started looking at Good and Evil and all of these things and what I realized is that actually everything was just on a spectrum even Democrat and Republican I kind of put on there too or communist and fascist yeah and I started thinking it through and I started realizing that well okay let me start thinking of the examples of sort of communist regimes and every Communist Regime that I looked up actually acted more like a fascist regime and so it was like instead of thinking as a linear relationship and here's Dem right it's actually a circle and that if you step too far to the right you end up far on the left and if you step too far on the left you end up far on the right and I mean we look at North Korea and North Korea is supposed to be a social democracy by their own self-proclamation but they have a father figure who is Kim Jong-un and his father was you know kimil Su and you could go through kind of the whole historical reference on this and realize that everything that we think of as One Direction is merely based upon our own perception of where we are in that spectrum that is so right you know you know what's coming to me is I've shared this before on the show but I remember you know what I I don't really talk about politics too much but you know I was very like prot Trump like I I I loved him you know I I I got a kick out of him I could I could totally tell just you really could so so anyways so I remember you know this one day I I I went to a trump rally and um and I went to a rally and as I was sitting in the room before he came in the room you have the Maga hat no I did not I'm not I'm not that far you're not that far I was like secret Pro Trump right but but I I'll tell you and by the way for all of you that are being triggered relax like let me get to the story for the love of God right but but but as I'm sitting in the room honest to God what happened to me was I started to notice like he hadn't even come but the energy in the room was so terrible it was terrible it was so like and we got to get them because they're doing this and they're going to take this from us and the you know and I couldn't help but think the same way people in this room feel this way about that room is the same way that the people in that room feel the same way about the people in this room and in that moment honest to God Robert hadn't even come to speak I paid top dollar to be in the front row you know the whole thing I almost said I don't want to be here anymore like I I I I I literally I heard him but that was the day that I said like I'm done with all of this because this is literally all the same thing and my part my participation in it is literally just fueling it and helping to create it more you know it was it was that's probably the best answer I think I've heard as to why someone decides not to be a big Trump fan and I'm not against Trump I mean I'm neither Republican nor Democrat I'm not against anything I have no party I have no party affiliation and um I just got my new driver's license in California and I had to take the test again and and it said would you like to declare your party affiliation and I was like I would like to reiterate that I have no party affiliation yeah yeah and but I think that the whole thing when I was starting to perceive Trump was a little bit different for me because I was so triggered by him because I felt like he brought so much fear with him and kind of a a very powerfully scarcity mindset I guess to a certain extent so my experience with him was probably to swing more to the middle from more of a negative place and the reason I swung more to the middle on him was because my wife asked me she's like why do you get so triggered by Donald Trump negatively and I said because you just does the craziest things I mean he's like so out there oh my God if he just communicated it's not that his policies are that terrible right CU I'm a Libertarian and and so especially with the backdrop of the pandemic most Libertarians actually sort of started creeping more to the right because you can't tell me I can't go outside you can't tell me that I can't fly somewhere you can't tell me that I'm not allowed to eat at a restaurant without wearing a mask and sure I'm going to take it off every bite and all this kind of crazy that happened during that time yeah and what I realized was when she said that to me it caused me to really be introspective and ask myself what was it that I was triggered about Donald Trump and then I realized that if I'm triggered by something it's The Universe telling me I need to pay attention to that because it's something about myself I don't accept it's that is so interesting that you say that because it's it's so you know and I love that we're having this conversation because here's the same person that's reflecting back to each of us and like nothing he says triggers me and I and I and I as I look into it I think it's because I feel very free to like say what I want to say so maybe when I spot that energetically it's like that that doesn't bother me as much you know but and and maybe maybe you're right maybe he was reflecting to you and and and and I think that this is where we should allow ourselves the space to like get to it's like whatever something bothers you it's something inside of you that it's Mir in back to you it absolutely is so so then I had to ask myself the question I'm like okay so what is it that bothers me about Donald in particular you know it's like well maybe he's kind of like this outward kind of cult leader right to a certain extent so then I had to ask myself the question am I somehow repressing some cult leader aspect of myself right so then it got to the point where I actually had to stop myself when I would negatively judge him and I forced myself to say I I am that I am whatever it was I was about to say and I would say it out loud I could be in a meeting somewhere and someone brings up Donald Trump and says oh did you see what he did that that crazy dude whatever and I would just say I am that I am that's the most powerful thing we could say because this was a trigger for me to reveal something about myself that I had repressed so deeply I didn't even know existed wow yeah I love that so when you say you know I guess my my question for you on behalf of everybody is okay let's let's say that we've decided this whole thing is one and let's say that yeah there's a lot of craziness going on and you know I think that whatever side of the spectrum you're on you can look and see that there's some people out there that are trying to like make some things happen that we may not necessarily be in agreement with um you know how do you stay disattached from it well at the same time not allowing yourself to be taken advantage of or your family to be harmed per se you know it's um it's a great question um I think the way that I came to the answer on that one for me personally sure and you know the only thing I've learned on my spiritual path is the more I learn the less I actually know yeah so I'll just preface it with all that but basically I I feel like I started to build this game I built a game called called Maya it's a spiritual life simulation game it's very cool you'd like it I'll show it to you when we're done okay and I recreated the entire inside structure of the Great Pyramid which is like perfect it's lar scanned everything you could do a full tour in it but it's all part of a game and you have to find the encryptions on the walls and in other places the hidden aspects of it to learn how to unlock the next Chambers it's it's a cool game very very cool game there's a Stargate inside of it and without you know giving you too much of a spoiler alert you can travel to other uh solar systems and other star systems in this WOW because the king's chamber I believe is actually a Stargate I've experienced it myself but you have to know how to crack into it now through this whole process I had to create this game environment where I could see patterns and I could teach people how to perceive patterns because we've gone from rope memorization as a world into now pattern recognition mode pattern recognition mode by some could be perceived as conspiracy theory by others it could be perceived as just fact of life right and by by others they might just say no it's paradia right which is a condition that we actually name people as having if they see patterns in things right well I believe we live in a matrix of mind so the whole thing is built on pattern and the entire universe for even one pattern to exist for you even to exist in the universe implies that there has to be some modicum of centropy and if there's even one pattern in the entire supposedly random Universe then the whole thing cannot be random that's right that's the nature of Randomness for entropy to exist so then I realized well what we call entropy is you know what we call Randomness is really just another name we use to describe our condition of ignorance the aspect that you know it's like I know what I know then there's the I know what I don't know right I know that I'm not a good ice skater okay for example and then there's the I don't even know what I don't know the best we could say is that we live in a universe that's full of the last category in particular and the amount that we know is not so much and the amount that we know we don't know is probably going to be multiples of that but you could split that up into conscious mind subconscious mind and the unconscious mhm so when you start thinking about it from that perspective then every time humanity pushes the boundary I'm not just talking about me but the human species pushes the boundary to understand more science like you know the speed of light or the nature of Pi for thousands of years Humanity probably figured out okay I have a line but what's the ratio between that line as a diameter and the circumference of the circle that that line could create right by knowing Pi in the beginning that would have said it's 22 over 7 it's a rough approximation that's 3.1 4285 but then a a better mathematician comes along and figures out there's a better ratio of of two integers which is 355 over 113 so now you've got 3.1415926 and then they figure out that there's you know Ramen nin comes along in the early 20th century figures out that there's a an infinite equation for pi and so each time we're literally pushing the boundary condition of our ignorance further and further from from us but until that time we call it entropy because it's really just ignorance yeah so it means to say that we live in a world that if we raise our Consciousness we can perceive more and more of God's encryption that is absolutely correct and guess who God is you that's right you are God that's right you have been chosen by your higher self and we all to become a dimensionally limited Avatar this dimensional limitation is a necessary aspect of this game of life because if you and I both had omniscience omnipotence and omnipresence and we decided to play poker that wouldn't be very fun because I'm going to know already what hand you're going to be dealt I'm going to know how you're going to respond to that hand being dealt to you I'm going to be able to see every single thing that you would possibly do it's not a very fun game and you'd be able to do the same thing with me so to make the game play more fun we limit ourselves as avatars don't allow us to be omniscient omnipotent and omnipresent and the most fun of the game is realizing the powers that we have hidden within us that we don't even realize that is absolutely right I'm resonating so much with everything you say and I wna I wanna like I I just want to speak to this because the first thing you said was those patterns um I had a mushroom Journey where I did seven grams which okay that's hero an immens I was just driving here I noticed there's a road called Baghdad and then across street called Hero's way you definitely took the hero take the hero away um but and and you know and in that moment all I can tell you is I saw my life as an immense amount of negative energy patterns and that negative energy was like keeping me from my highest self right and I literally the only thing that I can that I could I could save this as is I got to a point where I would see the pattern coming like shame or guilt or you know my relationship with my father or you know whatever it was that was like Limited store energy I could see the pattern coming and I could literally say oh watch I know what's going to come and then my body would start to shake as if the pattern was being released from me on a cellular level and it was like one pattern after another pattern after another pattern after another pattern after another pattern and at the end of the pattern I saw light and I I could have chosen to basically to die basically is is what but I knew I wouldn't die I knew I would die and come back as the one it was incredible is what it was the reason why I'm bringing this up is because today I had two private conversations with two couples that are both clients and both of them love each other right and I I want to go into relationships now both of them love each other both of them want to be connected but both of them come from such wounded patterns that they're they're they're not available to each other to actually like be the very thing that they want to be for each other you know and it's it's it's really awesome I'm sure you could relate to this is like when you can see the patterns and you can help people unlock the patterns that are keeping them from everything that they want in life whether it's money or health or relationships or Love or Whatever It Is Well when you realize that you are the playright the director the producer and the actor on the stage allinone and the aim of the exercise is to learn how to reconnect to see those patterns to remember and instead of figuring that everything happened to you in this life that is realizing that everything actually is happening for and through you and that that for and through you might take you through some difficulty and challenge but we didn't come here to have an easy experience I just went rock climbing yesterday with Adrian grer and you know it's not that easy right and he's like it was pretty funny man he pulls over he's like okay so they're going to test you because it's been a long time since I've went rock climbing I've never done it in door either it was I did it you know on Idle Wild which is like El Capitan but on the side and I was watching helicopters like hovering when someone fell type thing it was kind of scary and I I had ropes and all but I'm like what in the heck am I doing up here like 2,000t Drop you know if you fall 50 ft or you fall 2,000 ft for some reason 2,000 ft is a lot scarier than 50 ft and and the pressure of that is so much greater right so you look down you're like oh my gosh but you're still dead yeah right it's like it's not the fall that kills you it's the sudden stop yeah and so for me I was like in this place yesterday yeah if I fell I could also die it's probably 50 feet 60 ft up maybe more it's pretty high place and you know I was thinking to myself like how is this a metaphor for life I would never choose if I was a rock climber to climb the hill behind my house if that was my chosen profession I would want to go for it I'd be like let me take on something like El citan why the hell not because there's something about it and I telling the story to to the group of guys that were there yesterday that in 2011 I went to Africa on Safari and we crossed this River on wet horses with no saddles on them and the horses were soaking wet we came out on the other side of Riverbank and we' already you know braved the hippopotamus attacks and the I mean this was an epic journey and it was super dangerous I think I almost died five times on this trip wonderful and we came out and we ended up getting in between a herd of elephants and a baby by accident High Grass if you don't know Africa the elephants there destroy all the trees so they like tear down the trees and so there's Fallen trees in the High Grass the horse can't see them so you're like it's a crapshoot right if you get chased by the elephants elephants run as fast as Horses hippopotamuses run as fast as Horses they have a top speed of 28 miles per hour that's faster than you can run wow yeah right and yeah in the when you're in the jungle or when you're on the on the plains or or when you're going through the marshes I mean you literally are the food on top of the food you're like the cherry on top of the food and so we come out of the water and my horse accidentally tripped over a fallen Branch we didn't know we'd separated the mother from the from the calf and so we're our guide you know they have giant elephant guns right but if you've got 30 elephants charging you yeah yeah it's over yeah it's totally over yeah and these kind of accidents happen a lot like I just saw one of these on Instagram holy cow yeah the elephant tipped over the bus and the lady died and yeah yeah I mean it's crazy stuff so we're on Horseback though wet horses with no Stirrup nothing right we're just holding on the Maines and they're wet M and and so my horse tripped and hit this thing and then we realized we saw the other calf and the mother ell it's matriarchal thing starts trumpeting and the ears go out and it was full charge they were probably 20 ft behind us wow at top speed and of course at that point the horse doesn't wait for you to say gety up the the horse is like uh I don't really care at this stage right if if you're on my back or not like I'm going I'm going right I I'll ask questions later so what were you holding on for holding on for dear life holding on for dear life and literally these elephants are right behind us full Stampede and it probably went on for about 150 to 200 M like a full two football fields I would say and then we finally got onto the road and dry ground and you know and the elephants finally said okay we've scared them off there's no more danger to the calf type of thing but man oh man at the end of that I felt so alive I was going to say you must have felt like D I almost died but I felt so alive yeah yeah yeah how epic is that like holy cow and then we got chased by hippopotamus once on a makura one of these boats that like a little canoe type thing I was like I felt so alive you know it's kind of funny that we would pay money to go to almost risk our lives but yet we do these types of things every day maybe not to the degree that I just said but the reality of it is that you and I both we would probably not choose an easy path I don't even remember I went to my high school um Hall of Fame thing they put me in their Hall of Fame in 2015 and while I was there I met all my old teachers and everything they had every one of my teachers there they give speeches about me and everything was this big black tie event with like a thousand people at it it was it was a kind of a big deal for the school and the easy teachers I couldn't remember their names I couldn't remember their names it was the hard teachers I remember so I've come to the conclusion we're not here for those experiences that are supposed to be simple and easy we're here for the bigger challenges and we have sort of spaces in between those challenges so that we could kind of recuperate and reflect on what we learned and now I've realized okay it's not teachers anymore it's the experiences that are the teachers to me that's absolutely right and and now I look at it and I used to think oh gosh that was the worst thing that ever happened to be but time has this way and I'll be 55 in two weeks and time has this way of helping you see things with a different perspective you know like when I was 15 years old my my parents were stupid by the time I was 22 I was amazed as soon as I had to start paying taxes and get my own job and everything I was amazed at how smart my parents were they'd gotten so many more IQ points in the last seven years and then by the time I was 30 years old they were genius this is also the same thing I went from black and white to Shades of Gray to and this is just the maturation process I start seeing technique color then mushroom color right mushroom color is a whole different spectrum of color as well so all of these experiences are here to teach us to remember who we are so and why we chose what we chose that's the question to ask not why did something happen to me why did I choose this I I want you guys to please like literally drop what you're doing and like focus on on what I'm about to say the the energy underneath what he is saying right now could be the most transformative thing in your life I want you to spot the immense amount of ownership and personal responsibility to what he's saying what he is saying there is no room for I hate that person for what they did to me what he is saying no you did it to you you were the one that created it all you're the one that Drew it in and so from that perspective can you now understand where I try to tell you guys all the time on social media is you have the capacity to forgive because in that person what you're actually seeing is yourself you're seeing a reflection of the journey that you are having here on Earth like I want you to really grasp this I want you to grasp that this man has never once said I wish that didn't happen to me or you know I hate that person or I I don't forgive that person because he's in a space of Consciousness which every single one of you listening to me can get to where you understand oh my God I'm the one that's been creating it all it's impossible for you to have a successful relationship with another human being or a partner if you don't have a successful relationship with yourself and what we as human beings don't realize is that we are deeply disconnected we're disconnected from Mother Earth we're disconnected from peace we're disconnected from love what we do at awaken is we curate different exercises to help you reconnect first to yourself and then the Beautiful process of reconnecting to everybody begins and that's why awaken is so powerful you'll do more in 3 days at awaken that you would do 30 years anywhere else I was so stuck and now I feel peace Awakening has been the best thing we have done for a marriage coming here I realized that the answers were inside of me all the time head on over to Danny moral. awaken now to get your tickets today and you know it's funny I uh I love the movie about Nelson Mandela um and the rugby team called Invictus which means you know unconquerable or you know this concept that you will never be beat type of thing and um while he was in prison and he spent you know 27 years in in this prison um the only thing that had inspired him to keep chipping Stone and just to stick it out her as a political prisoner was this poem by William Ernest Henley was written in 1875 which goes like this out of the night that covers me black as the pit from pole to pole I thank whatever Gods might be for my unconquerable soul in the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud under the bludgeonings of chance my head is bloodied yet unbowed Beyond this place of Wrath and tears looms but the horror of the shade and yet the Menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid it matters not how straight the gate how charged with punishments the scroll I am the master of my fate I am the captain of my soul those words deeply resonated for me when I first saw that film I think it was in 2010 or 2011 and um Morgan Freeman played the main part on that and it's great great film but it really resonated for me because exactly what you just said that was the moment that I started realizing I am that I am that everything I saw around me that's why this is the Hebrew name of God it's the realization that I am everything that is it's not separate for me I am just a differentiation the one divides itself into the many simply for the joy of perceiving itself through our unique eyes of perception then gaining the wisdom and empathy associated with seeing the world through our unique of perception there's never been another dny morale and there will never be another dny morale not even your other incarnations because you have unique conditioning biases that you're tapped into here and now that are intentionally made so that the one can perceive itself from different angles of perception and this perception of self from different angles is because like Alan watt says a knife can't cut itself an eye can't see itself without the aid of a mirror a tooth can't even bite itself a fire cannot burn itself and a light can illumin itself M these are the reasons why the one Consciousness has to split itself to perceive itself through our unique eyes and it's constantly gaining wisdom through our experience it's like a giant intelligence that continues to become more and more intelligence as intelligent as it splits more and more of the perceptions with all the different conditioning biases that each one of them could possibly have it gives us a meaning to as why we're here it's it's not meaningless this entire life you know math taught in schools without meaning is just information suffering without meaning is just suffering but suffering and information can transform very easily with context and as soon as we understand the Divine aspect that's when our life really starts to take off because when we realize I wasn't just suffering for nothing there was a Reon I'm going through this I had to learn it I had to learn this and so then it's my job and all of ours I believe to find the things that we wanted to learn that's right and then you no longer have to experience the same thing list please listen please listen because when it comes to your relationship when it comes to that person that mistreated you when it comes to that person that abused you when it comes to the when it comes to your parents when it all of it you were here to learn it for a reason and that really makes me think about relationships in particular because the people that come into our lives are a reflection of where we currently are in life so you don't live in a universe as much as you live in a u inverse the U inverse is literally what is inside of you reflected in the world around you all the things that you don't like about yourself when you look in the mirror and you could say oh I'm too thin I have a pimple on my chin or I've got a receding hairline or whatever it is is those things just start showing up in the world all around you when you think you've pushed it out of yourself and narcissism is not true self-love narcissism is when you believe that the only thing you're projecting is the thing that you wanted to project we're the only ones who can't see the fullness of ourselves everyone else can that's the beauty of the world so if we listen every person we meet every circumstance we have can be a Divine communication to us on what it is that we wanted to learn like literally you can learn something from every everybody and always being teachable is a core aspect of this so as I kind of take a look at relationships what is it about relationships I've had many in my lifetime are you married now uh I am I am but you know it's going through I'm going through a stage right now right and and so I'll I'll tell you that it's uh and I've been married you know people ask me all the time in math they're like Robert how much is half of a half of a half and I say three marriages that's the answer to that problem solved right but the the issue is that we tend to experience the same experiences over and over again until we stop judging the negative aspect of the thing we wanted to learn that's how we learn through opposites I can't know what is pleasure unless I experience pain that's right so the moment that I have found pleasure in the pain itself you know I did a a you know cold water plunge this morning ice bath at adrianne's place oh my gosh wow that's painful right but I do take regularly very cold showers and it's a mental thing I've trained my mind at least with cold CH I wasn't able to do it this morning just being honest on making myself feel like the water was warm because I'm not whim whim Hoff or anything like that right but but I realize that everything is mental in hermetic wisdom the universe is mental so all these stimuli that we have coming at us we can flip the script just by changing our perception if you want to change your world change your perception of your world that's the fastest way to change your world so I get in the shower and I turn on the cold water and I'm like the water is warm the water is warm the water is warm the water is warm and it works I can tell you that it does work you can even make it feel like it's searing hot even though it's freezing cold these are the things I like to do so that's why I did this thing this morning trying to get to the point where jumping in a frozen ice bath is actually searing hot water for me and I think all the experiences that we have like around pain the moment we no longer judge negatively what pain is and we can find pleasure in that then we've actually started to finally realize what is the nature of pleasure could I I want to share something with you it keeps coming up you know for so long I had so much uh anger uh and pain uh regarding religion um because I felt so angry at you know there's a lot to unpack yeah for sure my my mom died because of her belief that is well my mom had cancer she thought Jesus was going to save her I thought you know anyhow to make a long story short like once I transcended that energy which I I now know why I called that experience into my life um I got very there was a there was a little Edge to me where I feel like I needed to let everyone know how bad religion is you know what I'm saying and and then what what I've noticed has happened inside of me recently over the last month or so is that I have accepted it all as a part of like I'm seeing it for what it was it's like I wouldn't be today where I am today without it so therefore I can thank it because it was doing its best to protect me and keep me based off of my level of Consciousness at the time and now that I am like outside of it instead of being mad at it instead of telling everybody hey you guys are idiots for being in that like I get to go wait a minute like I get to thank it I get to thank it because it was a it was a it was a part of my journey and I could see how it's a part of people's Journey basically well and I think that's how it is for all things in life yeah I think this is when we can perform the true Alchemy the true Alchemy and we always think of alchemy is turning lead into gold right how could you turn something that's worthless and lead into gold and actually the truth is we do it every day any time that we look back to a point in time where we experienced the worst experience of Our Lives I can tell you so many times that I had the worst experience of my life in the moment I was having it and then a year later or even just a few months later looked back on the same exact experience and said that actually turned out to be the best thing I ever experienced but can I ask you something do you do you because I feel like for me and I feel like for many people that I work with there's there's like a there's a moment where like the light bulb switches and you start to see everything from that way but for a lot of people until that moment happens they see everything as the worst experience of their life yeah like do you like for me it was my mother's death some people I've met here uh last week I interviewed uh ma m Matias Maas yeah yeah and he was just like born that way you know do do you yeah do you feel that there's like a a moment for everybody for some people yeah um I do I think that there are these big aha moments that happen in our lifetimes and these become major catalysts for conscious expansion but here's where I think it actually where the rubber meets the road MH we are here to consistently realize that we chose it all and that the only limitations that we experience are self-imposed and self-inflicted that is 100% correct so Consciousness can only expand to the volume of the container of your belief systems what you believe becomes your reality it is not seeing is believing as much as it truly is believing is seeing and you know I can give so many examples of this whether it's conscious or unconscious belief systems we we all face these things if we think we're a victim we're going to continue to face victimhood over and over and over again that's right right until we no longer judge victimhood right and we start realizing wait this is actually a value somehow some way but then that leads to all kinds of questions you're saying that someone would choose to be in a Loveless marriage or someone would choose to be in a starving household or someone would choose no not in their conscious mind but their higher selves might so that it can actually gain the wisdom and have empathy for the situation that it had never experienced on its own this is why we have the the avatars that we have until we finally realize it and then what happens is you know it's funny I was I've been staying with Adrian this week and I loved Entourage I mean I remember back in 2009 or something that was a stage in my life where I was like yeah this guy is like the perfect character I used to love to watch it like religiously it's the only church I probably had you know and and it's been fascinating to get to know him in a more personalized yeah on a human level and the transformation that he went through he's gone through a huge transformation right and he he basically uh I won't say the exact word but he's like oh yeah I went from F boy to Farmer right and I was like H that's kind of a funny title for a book type of oh that probably will be a title of my book yeah and I was thinking to myself you know he was an archetype of kind of the guy that was on top of the world in the mid 2000s right who like had it all worked out walked into whatever place he walked in and in real life he was also that character it wasn't just the TV show that he was that or the movies that he did and I started thinking to myself wait a minute this is actually just a reflection of what I have experienced so the archetypes that we find and we look to in life later in life you know he watched my TV show codex and he loved it so he wanted to meet me too so I mean what a weird situation right and I I'm hopefully going to convince him to play the some big movie houses offered to do a film on my life or all my work in Egypt and all the cryptography stuff and I'm like hey do you want to play the part it's a big budget film yeah and it's just kind of a weird dichotomy what's happened with him has been an absolute reflection even along the same timeline he's becoming a person that is absolutely now in this grown-up stage of life which is where I would consider myself too so everything that we reflect around us Becomes emblematic of what's Happening inside of us that's the U inverse that's what I mean by the U inverse relationships are no different that's right in fact they are the Pinnacle of this because the relationships that we have in life are the ones that come along to us to bring out the triggers so that we can evolve and grow can I tell you something I I have to I have to speak on this because it's i h i just have to get it out I can't help but notice your panai and uh it's a beautiful gold panai and you know I don't know you don't know my story but I was that guy that had like gold Rolex vertible Aston Martin Gucci glasses you know the whole thing did iasa like like was walking around Kumbaya you know and now I'm like just like pretty just chill and I I it's so interesting because this thing is coming up with me and money right now you know in where in my previous life I was the hard charging door knocking real estate broker like it was from a different energy but I have no issues speaking out loud the fact that I see no issues with me becoming a billionaire in this lifetime and I see no issues with me doing it while serving other people and helping humanity and doing it from a good conscious energy but deep inside of myself I felt that was wrong yeah you know it's so funny you say that because um I published a paper on prime numbers uhhuh back in 2018 and then another one that was kind of a follow on to it in 2019 and um I got two invitations one was to the Vatican the other one was to to teach it and the other one was to darh Salah India to go meet with delai Lama and teach it to him I want to hear about that later yeah it was an amazing experience and I brought like seven scientists with me and we spent a whole day with do Lama and I got to teach him math which was I mean he already knew math he also is a big fan of physics he knows a lot about physics himself I took another uh kind of spiritual physicist named Sim hermane with me and uh we had a great time we had a phenomenal time but what was interesting about that is while we were there I was starting to notice all the cultural stuff that's in darala you know this is sort of like the exiled uh you know delil Lama who's left Tibet and now he lives in this mountainous town in in Northern India and so um as I was walking around the palace grounds which was like a thing you know there's it's not a really extravagant Palace or anything I won't say that there were all these monks there and we had his kind of number two guy a fellow by the name of llama tensen and he and I become good friends and I asked him the question I said why is it that some of the monks are wearing new clothes you it's the same burgundy robes and the same orange shirts you know type of thing and and or the orange Sash and kind of burgundy shirt I don't remember exactly the combination but I noticed that some of them were totally new and some of them were old and some of the youngest monks were wearing the old clothes and I said what's with the old versus the new clothes I mean can you explain this to me I know where you're going with this and he said he said well this is another attachment I said 'what do you mean he goes well when a lot of the young llamas come in they think that you know they don't want to be wearing like new clothes they want to look tattered it's kind of like walking around like Jesus type of thing you're going to wear crappy clothes and all this stuff more spiritual it makes you more spiritual and he says so it's kind of funny because then it becomes a bit of a competition on who looks more spiritual which just and then the older ones get over it so they buy the new ones so I was kind of laughing about it because I noticed the same thing happened to me exactly I used to collect watches all the time yeah and then finally I you know went through my Spiritual Awakening in 2016 and you know I had this big financial crisis where I had to I had started a company that became a unicorn and you know I had a big VC attack on me I had to raise 55 million in one day to keep control of my company luckily I did that's a that's a powerful phone call yeah it was luckily I pulled it off and it had to be for my current investors it couldn't be from a new one so but I got betrayed by so many people when this happened because it took 6 months to resolve itself that I finally I gave up I thought there's no way I can win this battle and what turned out to be the the feeling I had at the end of it was I felt like I I won the you know the battle but I lost the war it was like a perck victory it's like a a battle that has such high cost it's not even worth winning type of thing and so it caused me to become almost a Hermit for a long time and during that time leading up to it I was like selling everything I had so I had a big collection of watches I sold some of my watches you know this was like a six Monon slog and the IPL markets were were gone and so I had to just and we got kind of shafted because we' cont contractually another 80 million coming to us and it didn't come because they wanted to push down the valuation it was like a total battle similar to what happened with Uber and so and and see most people don't know from the outside VCS do that because if the CEO does everything he says he's going to do and the external markets that he doesn't really control also goes along with what the CEO says then you'll probably make three extra money two or three extra money if you're a VC if the CEO hits a bump in the road you could make five to seven times your money if the CEO hits two bumps in the road and ends up getting removed you make 10 extra money because they have anti-dilution ratchets usually right and so you've got this and most people don't even understand how this works right it's like if you invested $50 million in a billion dollar valuation and you can press the valuation the next round to go down to 200 million then you went from having only 5% ownership in the company to having you know if it's 200 million you're going to have basically a quarter right of the company because they rehypothecation preference money to pay it back within 18 months so I took a loan of $55 million that I paid back2 200 million in 18 months who would do that I had everything on the line yeah nobody would do this I did it and you know because I started realizing I'm the playr I created it all you're the one that's right I created it all that's right so as I started realizing I created it all then things started shifting and I was successful that I was was able to take another two companies public after that I took one of them public I took another two public I'm taking another two company public now but what's interesting about all of this is that I hadn't bought any watches for years now I started realizing as well that maybe I was falling a bit in this trap of having the old clothes right and so I went out and in fact I was wearing a watch that was broken I wore a broken watch every day do you know why I wore a broken watch every day even a broken watch by the way is right two times a day that's right but the reason I wore a broken watch every day was because I would be reminded that there is no such thing as time that's why I don't yeah that time is not real it's an illusion it's an illusion right and I decided after I took my last company public last summer and went out very successfully that I had founded the company I decided that I was going to go buy a watch to represent a new era of time for me it's golden time which is why I bought this watch the reason I bought it was because a lot of us especially us men we have a hard time receiving we don't even realize that it's our own belief systems that we have to overcome in order to expand beyond what we thought was previously possible as you may know plant medicine specific specifically iasa and psilocybin mushrooms have been an integral part of my own Journey towards Spiritual Awakening and personal transformation I literally wouldn't be who I am today without my work with these sacred plant medicines and so many of you reach out to me message me asking me where is a safe place to embark on your own personal transformative Journey without hesitation I have and continually only recommend one place and that is reunion nestled in the heart of Costa Rica reunion is a 7-Day all-inclusive plant medicine Retreat that 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right and I've been seeing it and it's like I attracted my fiance's response to be well I don't think you should have it I I created you you know that also has like midlife crisis written all over it but then yeah yeah no no hold that's the billboard behind you right no no no hang on hang on but but but the thing is my my first car was a Mustang so for me it's like I've always had this thing where it's like I want it back and here's what I'm trying to say I'm trying to say that what you just said resonates so much with me because I was coming to this place where there was a part of me that was like H but you don't need one but here I am happily by the way upgrading her ring to give her everything she wants right but when it comes to like giving me what I want there's always a reason why I can't have it yeah so that's the shift that's it and I go no I want it get the car dude get the car so I got the car it'll be here this weekend or next week good for you for you no because what happens when you make that kind of decision is the realization look I think we only have two reasons for living here to learn how to love and how to be loved and in order for us to learn how to love we have to first learn to love ourselves and we have to be willing to feel like I went out one night for dinner with one of my best friends a few years ago and it was before that kind of I had a whole lot of abundance come in my life and I said you know I feel like next year is going to be a good year type thing it was October time frame and he's like look it's time for the Harvest right now he said you need to learn the feminine principle I said what do you mean he goes you need to learn how to receive you're only good at giving you need to learn how to receive first from yourself and then from others and he said I'm going to challenge you with learning how to receive from yourself first and then others and then watch the abundance flow into your life you are the one blocking your abundance so it was with that mentality that I went and got this watch because I started think okay now it's time I've worked hard enough I've done enough I'm enough we can only expand to the level of the volume of the container of our belief system we live in a cage of our beliefs and what we think and what we believe if we think we can or we think we can't we will be right that's right it's the nature of this world yeah I love that Egypt yeah yeah I just want to end with that okay as as someone who's never been MH talk to me about Egypt most amazing place ever keep hear um I mean I've I've visited over 140 countries I've lived in nine countries um I didn't go to Egypt strangely until I was already almost 50 years old I was I was like 48 I think when I first went and you know it changed my life totally changed my life there's a frequency there and I I almost see Egypt in The Matrix as the top in the movie Inception you know little top that they would spin right it's they call it the totem I see the Great Pyramid as our totem for Humanity whenever I bring people there and I've brought lots of people there now Lots I I host tours there and everything and I've spent 18 nights inside the Great Pyramid now um I know all the egyptologists there you know I've made lots of discoveries myself now um it's in my books it's on my TV show codex I mean my whole life has shifted after going to Egypt in 2017 and what's interesting about it is that everyone I bring there their whole life shift too I'll give you an example so I was in um I was in Egypt about a month ago with Matias so Matias and I went to Egypt about a month ago together we went to Aswan together so it was a southern part of Egypt and um and then I left after we were done in S1 that week I left and went up to Northern Egypt to Giza and I wanted to spend the night in the pyramid but I didn't have an appointment and I'd been trying to get an appointment to like you know do it it's not like it's on Airbnb you got to call the right people and do the right things and just turns out sometimes very difficult to get in because it's booked months in advance around equinoxes and solstices and and then you know you've got a full moon on top of that so they were all happening at the same time so I was thinking I'm not sure we ble to get in so I told my friend that was up there with me I said well look you know if it's meant to be it's meant to be but I don't know we're going to be able to get in the pyramid the only way we could get in the pyramid is if the next day we would go somewhere during the daytime and bump into someone who'd reserved it for the night and that that someone would recognize me and invite us to come along with them the only way it would be possible so let's set that intent let's set that intention so we went to the uh the bent pyramid then we went to The Red Pyramid and while we're in the bent pyramid um I was in the upper chamber and we were like saying a prayer and and luckily we were in there because the pyramid was packed full of people but there was no one there for like 15 minutes so we actually had time by ourselves and uh the bent pyramid is the most rigorous and physically demanding of the pyramids to go through uh because the it's particularly Steep and they're particularly long corridors and they're particularly small so you're like hunched over trying to like walk you get you're working all these muscles you don't normally work yeah and while we're in the uh the top chamber at the very end of the prayer that we were giving I heard some footsteps coming up the stairs because they actually have wooden stairs that will take you up into this chamber and uh and I thought oh we're going to have to finish now because this other group's coming in they're going to want us to go and I hadn't even turned around yet and the guy come behind me from on the staircase says Robert his name is Adrien and he's from Costa Rica but he moved he told me at that moment that he moved to Switzerland he'd been on two trips with me before right that I had hosted and it had such a big impact on his life that now he was hosting trips in Egypt to pay it forward because there's so many people I have 10,000 people on my wait list to go on my trips it's nuts there's so many people that want to go there's no way I could take that many people I want you to take Jen and I and dis bump us s yeah of course so so basically he says to me he's like you know this is my first trip I'm hosting I made this appointment tonight I'm going to the Great Pyramid I got special private visit approval and I said really and he said yeah he goes but I got approved for nine people and two people backed out the last second because of the Gaza thing and I said really and he said so we would be honored because we need to have nine cuz we've had this download we need to find two people and bring them into the pyramid with us so we can have our completion number of nine yeah and would you be willing to join us and I'm like what time are you going tonight he's like oh midnight and we got it all night and we win so everything happens for a reason yeah nothing is left a chance in this Matrix of mind yeah we're here to experience and to remind ourselves of our Divinity and to also realize that every experience we have can be the worst thing that ever happened to us and can be transmuted into the best thing that ever happened to us you know the way I think about it is mathematically so I've been doing a bunch of work in math lately and and one of the things I discovered was that we think about the word Duality and what number do you think about when you think about the word Duality the number two right the number two so two is a finite value but there's an infinite aspect if you were to find the essence if I was going to say whatat is the math equation of your spirit the essence of Danny it would actually be the square root of two so the essence or the square root of Danny the essence of the number two is its infinite form because two is a finite value but the square root of two never ends because it's an infinite irrational number so it's 1.4142 it goes on forever and ever well when you look at it in this way then you would have to say okay if the sare of two is the essence of Duality then what is the square of three the essence of divinity the essence of the Trinity maybe right and we tend to associate with Duality suffering and difficulty LED even the shape of the square root of two looks like the symbol for Saturn in alchemy which is the symbol for lead as well so we start thinking about it further we go okay the square of two and then the square of three that's a Divine thing so it's like we're moving up into a more Divine aspect like Tesla said all the secrets of the universe are the numbers 36 and9 right look in terms of vibration look in terms of frequency and so what I did is I said well what happens if I add the squ > of two plus the squ of 3 most people don't know that it equals a very close very close approximation for pi 3.14 6 so wait a minute which then implies sort of a circumference right so the square of two Duality and the square of 3 Trinity or divine nature together complete the circle so what does this actually mean if we're associating the square of two with suffering and difficulty and all the things we don't like about life and scarcity and yada yada yada all the things that happened to me once we finally have the context of the square root of three then we understand maybe it's actually happening for me and through me so then you look at that for a moment and say I couldn't help myself but ask the question okay well What proportion of the full circle would now be ascribable in degrees to the < TK of two so if the whole circumference is pi and the sare RO of 3 is 1. 73205 and the square of two is 1.4142 so what number of degrees of the circle yeah how much of the PI right what percentage of the pi and degrees as a specific reference is actually the suffering and the difficulty Well turns out it's 161.8% 1 = 2 you know and then 2 + 1 = 3 so you just take the last two numbers and add them together so then you know 3 + 2 equal 5 and then 5 + 3 equal 8 so these are all the Fibonacci numbers and then it's 13 then 21 34 then 55 then 89 then 144 then 233 and 377 and it goes on forever and every branch on a tree will always conform to this it'll always start with one branch then another branch on the same level and then it'll have a third branch which would be the number of branches would then be two at the next level then the next number of branches will be three the next number of branches will be five and the next number of branches will be eight the next yeah wow it's always like this it's Nature's self-generating pattern it's like the signature of God your DNA if you took the width of the DNA versus its length that ratio right so it's 21 angstroms in width and 34 angstroms in length that's 1.618 it's called the Golden Ratio golden ratio is what all the artists have used for Millennia to depict the human form it's the ideal ratio of the waist to hips for a woman it's the distance between your pupils versus the distance between your temples it's that same relationship of 1618 and its reciprocal the inverse Partnership of it is 618 it's the same number just minus the one in front so wait a minute with the context of divinity when I add the essence of Duality to the essence of the Trinity with the context of that Trinity and divine aspect the suffering becomes golden lead turns to Gold wow when we finally understand that we ourselves are Divine then everything that happened to us that we believed happened to us actually we realize it happened for and through us it changed the context of your entire life and you move into a state of bliss and that state of bliss is thank goodness I had all these experiences because this is exactly what my soul Journey was yeah and I don't need to willpower to happen in my life anymore because I can just trust and decide that's right yeah so it changes your entire existence and it changed my entire existence and where did I learn that I learned it in Egypt because Egypt is all about awakening us through that that top in Inception the totem the Great Pyramid is a totem to awaken us that we are in a matrix of our own creation and it up levels our Consciousness the more time you spend in there the more you will perceive more pattern the more pattern you perceive the more you move from I know what I know to I know what I don't know to starting to understand and comprehend even the aspects of I don't even know what I don't know so that's when you start to realize that the entire universe is patterned it's just closed off because we are dimensionally limited and it's not us that's actually it's not that the Universe has closed off it's that we have closed ourselves off and the only thing we have to do to break out of that is to change our belief systems that's right the cage of our beliefs is the thing that holds us back it's not anyone else or anything else you know we all want to make excuses sometimes right I've done it myself it's like so so and so did this to me the only thing you do when you start saying I was victimized or somebody screwed me or you know this happened to me is your you are disempowering yourself more and more and a principle of this universe is sympathetic resonance if you want to manifest something then become the Resonance of the thing that you'd like to manifest if you want to change the world around you into a world of love compassion and joy then become the love compassion and joy whatever is the resonance that we are vibrating toward will be what we attract we can't break that rule sympathetic resonance will make it so we will attract whatever it is that we are already feeling our brains are not hard drive storage units they are radio receivers and we have a higher self that is the conceiver and our brain is the receiver right and we as our conscious mind are the perceivers from conceiver to receiver to perceiver and this is how we live our lives what happens to us is not actually what happens to us it's what we believe happens to us and as soon as we start to realize this not only does the future change for you your history changes too because your view on what happened in the past dramatically shifts and this is wisdom so if you want to live a happy fulfilling life that is in alignment with your Dharma where you're swimming along with the river not against it or kicking against the Pricks start to look differently at the world that you live in and the other thing is is to start to really merge the two aspects of our perception the Eye of Horus which is the Left Eye of Horus of intuition and creativity and darkness the moon the feminine merge it with the eye of Rah which is the eye of the Sun and that's our ability to be able to perceive rational thought do things that make sense cognitively the two things come together and when we bring them together then the heart thinks and the mind fields and the river of wisdom flows I love that that's the stage I think we're in right now and when we can finally realize that if we don't like the world around us realize that it's within us literally within us if you want to change the world then be the change you want to see in the world The More We complain about the things if I told you that being an activist will only create more suffering safac say it say it judgment is the source of all suffering that's right judgment is the source of all suffering we are here to learn how to love and how to be loved and this is a very judeo-christian concept which is Jesus said two great Commandments love the Lord theyy God with all thy heart might mind and strength and love thy neighbor as thyself but then there's another third that I would throw onto this which is judge not lest you be judged with the S judgment you cast on others that's the part we have to learn because by transcending judgment because I don't actually think that fear is the opposite of love I don't even think that hatred is the opposite of love I think judgment is because when you look at love in its purest form it's complete and it's unconditional it's unreserved as such judgment will always find some way to narrow that definition because I've often struggled I'm like is fear the opposite of Love or is it hatred that's the opposite of love what is it but then you know that people often will hate somebody get triggered by someone that they actually kind of secretly love right there's this strange aspect of this I actually landed on the notion that it's actually judgment judgment is the thing that keeps us within the confines of our belief systems and is actually setting the boundary conditions on what those beliefs are it's how we perceive the world and until we finally realize that we can break out of it then we'll always be trapped by it yeah and how we think the world is going to perceive us yeah and there's got to be a moment where you just say it I don't give two shits man I mean I had this I was a pharmacutical I mean I say it now like I was an AA you know it's like I was an alcoholic type thing um I was a farmer CEO was president of aleran medical I was CEO of Balon surgical you know I had a very successful life in that world in the third dimension and the fourth dimension right I I didn't have to change it wasn't I could have continued on in that way but actually now I realize that my entire existence and what I chose to be in what I chose to spend my time and my career on were all perfectly beautiful no mistake decisions that led me on the path that I chose from the very beginning my own individualized individuated Heroes Journey that every one of us is on that's right whether you realize it or not you're on it you're on it right now and we live in this beautiful world that's meant to be loved and enjoyed it's meant to be cherished every moment with gratitude I mean people think well we left the Garden of Eden a long time ago I don't think we ever left I think our perception shifted yeah this place can be a heaven or it can be a hell it's up to us that's right thank you for being here thank you great hear more about you oh I would like people okay well they can come to my website Robert Edward grant.com I'm also under the same name on Instagram on Twitter I'm on every single platform um I have a podcast also which is called Think Tank and uh it's more of a conversation uh type of a format and and I tend to bring on scholar and spiritualists I bring all kinds of people from academic academic backgrounds and Pursuits also and also I have a book called phom maath another one called polymath and I'm coming out with my next book very soon called philosopher and um and codex is my television show it's on Gaia and it did really well I just got done filming season two awes I'm very excited about it awesome but thank you for inviting me to be here yeah and I hope your viewers found it useful like I said the only thing I know now is the more I learn the less I actually know and every day I'm learning from everybody that I meet that's what I try to do and try to always be open to that yeah I I selfishly feel like this episode was a learning for me so thank you thank you so much yeah thank you thank you and we'll see you next week on another episode of the higher self