welcome to eight minute crimes and interrogations we put out multiple videos each week and recently our first exclusive interrogation of Darrell Brooks so make sure you check that out if you are a fan of consistent True Crime content consider becoming a subscriber the absolute best way to support the channel is to subscribe and if you enjoy the video leave us a like let us know we're moving in the right direction okay enough rambling let's get into it 19 year old Thomas Chan of petersboro Ontario Canada had no History of Violence and seemingly no motive for what he would do by all accounts he was a good kid from a good family a decent rugby player and was getting his first Christmas break home from his first year of college in 2015. on December 28 2015 Thomas and His Friends consumed some magic mushrooms while his friends were giggling and having fun Thomas well he wasn't it was clear he was having what is called a bad trip and during this bad trip Thomas would take the life of his father and give his stepmother catastrophic injuries with a butcher knife he would then be charged with second-degree murder and attempt murder this interview took place the following day when the mushrooms wore off [Music] Thomas just here where will be an audio video recorded by the camera in the corner there okay it's the 28th of December 2015 at 11 56 a.m I'm Joanne Elliott I'm a detective Constable here I'm the officer that's in charge of this investigation okay just before I start talking to you I'm gonna I know you've heard this before but I want to read your rights and everything again okay okay so you've been arrested for murder and attempt murder it's my duty to inform you that you have the right to retain your instructor council with a delayed you have the right telephone any lawyer you wish you also have the right to be advice from legal aid lawyer if you're charged an offense should be applied to the Ontario legal aid plan for assistance um did you understand that okay and I understand that you've spoken with um a lawyer is that right and who'd you speak with Nathan songs all right okay so you you're charged with murder and attempt murder do you wish to say anything and answer the charge you're not obliged to say anything unless you wish to do so but whatever you say may be given an Evidence do you understand that caution okay and if you've spoken any police officer to anyone with authority or if any such person has spoken you in connection with this case I want to clearly understood that I do not want to influence you in making any statement do you understand that okay um so Thomas what's your last name Chad Chan okay and how old are you 19 you're 19 years old okay all right do you go to school right now I don't wish to answer you don't wish to answer okay um your mom has been in here she is in here speaking with officers she's kind of given me a little bit of a background of your life your history I understand that you go to Lakefield College School so you have pretty good education right um you're an athlete you play do you still play rugby at all or did you have to stop playing um the buddies that you were with last night they've all been interviewed do you play sports with them Your Sister Christina she's in here as well she's been in here for several hours speaking with officers my understanding is she's here for Christmas does she I could be wrong on that um and you guys all live onto near with Jeff actually live in the house Jeff doesn't live in the house where does he live that like I know he was staying there last night does he normally stay there on occasion on occasion how long is he and your mom when he got divorced a while a year a year how old are you when your parents split up I understand it was like 13 years ago does that sound for right I don't understand they do live fairly close to each other so you're able to kind of go back and forth between the two houses which is good I don't answer Thomas have you ever dealt with the police before at all no no okay um what about your family like have you ever been into the police station before I know this police station what I'm what I'm trying to do I'm just trying to get a background on you I mean I've gotten a lot of information from all the people who are in this building who love you and who say that this horrible incident that happened last night is not you at all they I mean everything that I've been told up until now is that you're a great person you've had a pretty good life um you've had some hard times because of your sports and I mean last night unfortunately you maybe took something that you shouldn't have and it led to a pretty horrible incident right now how long have you been going to Lakefield College school Thomas I graduate I graduated are you going to college yet or are you considering going to college I'm currently in college okay what are you going through to be please it's safe for me to say that what happened last night is not you take your time relationship are you just home for Christmas yeah when did you get home when are you supposed to ride but I'm not sure I know I'm not sure either it doesn't matter right now the whole time you've been home since the 19th or even Hanging With Friends family it's Christmas I'm assuming you're in your first year is that right yeah so you've just it's like is your first semester done um who did you spend Christmas with questions here we go Thomas are you close to your dad I wish to answer me also foreign foreign [Music] foreign [Music] to make any decision you want Thomas at all but I want you to seriously think about what happened last night what you think should be done for your dad for Lynn and I think it's time to be honest your dad deserves that your mom deserves that to Christina Lynn and her kids they all deserve for you to be honest I'd like for you to tell me what you were doing yesterday what were you doing with your friends and start from there and just tell me how this happened I was just having a regular night with my friends and then we made a stupid decision to do something very good [Music] foreign [Music] God complex and I've never felt like that before and so so stupid opposed to it and then I thought that everyone turning on me and I got scared hey I ran to my dots for help pain and done oh yes no one answered I just so um like a certain hallucinating have you started hallucinating close friends and family I'm trying to help their faces start to be aggressive and and sinister and devilish and I felt like like I just I felt like I was I don't know how to explain it I just felt like I'm almost hurting and everything like that I went to my dad's for help whether I wanted to get in so I got in by any means and then when I he came out I just hallucinating water in his face just laughs I don't use coffee after me oh he was at the time it was stupid hello like that say what landed the loose fishments were just so strong foreign I can't take it back I would do anything to I just thought people were turning on me and they would never I know that now I I should always know that but the drug yeah when you got to the house and you couldn't get in how did you get in though and no what window how like how did that happen side of the window running through sorry bro I broke yeah so when you went into the house when did you first see your dad I don't know it was I came in lights were on and I just remember his face just turned and devilish same with all my closest friends and my mom even oh their face just turned devilish their hair started growing and turning black and I was just so scared they wouldn't do anything to hurt me ever oh do you remember what happened next he thought he was turning on you you remember what you did what's dear I know I had a knife and I think from that on it's kind of just quick blur it was me just acting as a whole I was fighting for my life that's what I felt like because you thought through it they say you were fighting for your like could you remember where you were in the house attention where'd you get the knife I don't know have you ever seen the night before do you remember anything about that knife well I just know I grabbed the closest sharp object to protect yourself because you're hallucinating do you remember if you're done with saying anything was just mumbles and murmurs that and sell them like different languages everything do you remember hitting your dad with a knife like I remember it's like cut me out of him she was like came out and everything just kind of blanks out and I don't know where or how I hit him I just remember it's seeing as face and it just wasn't his face his eyes looked like that all black his hair was all black and growing on end and everything it was foreign I would never do that bear in mind I would never do that that's the key there right in your right mind because you did do it which you were on drugs right I believe that where was the Lynn when this was all going on I don't remember exactly oh she was [Music] take your time what do you remember remember it's very similar to what happened with the father there was black very black and the more scared I got the longer there looked in the darker the Gods and like I said it all words sounded like not English it sounded like chance or something I just thought I was being chased everyone was being taken over by the devil or something I don't know how to describe it it was it's a pretty good way to describe it because I haven't was coming after me so did you when you went into the house you said you broke it where did you first see your dad was he right there was he sleeping what do you remember I don't really remember honestly I just remembered getting in and then all of a sudden it was there which scared me because I didn't see where he came from and I know what's on he was in front of me saying something I had no idea what he was saying that he sounded like like I said Jazz and devilish and the hair so you grabbed a knife or a sharp object where were you at that point when you grabbed a sharp object it must have been in the kitchen do you remember being in the kitchen oh well I see all I see is do you remember where you stabbed him no so I text Ed me bits and fragments and I'm my brain's trying to smell it out that's it yeah it's nothing like it's nothing like me there's a lot of people that love you a lot of people that love you that ruined my life I do think your dad the story needs to be told I think that we should know what happened I know that you it's kind of coming in fragrance and I understand that because you were on drugs do you know what it was that you took um mushrooms why did you take them hours before but the only certain people yes hours before doing a really good time where were you when you took them that's my mother's house so were you how were you feeling after you took them for the few hours after that I was I felt good but then this is how this whole God complex I was out of my room alone at this point meditated and then I get I read about this thing called familial Clan familial plan yeah something like that on my phone and then I started seeing like bright lights and everything like that and I've read about the company that I've had before and then I started getting this God complex and then everything started peaking after that and then I remember going down into the basement I thought I don't know what happened in the basement of my boss but then all of a sudden I thought that I thought my friends were being taken over and I wanted the lights on okay because I felt like I was like protecting me and when the lights were off like people would come after me oh what are you thinking about right now I think I was trying to protect the light switch father S one more with that was a fraid that he was good get the light I think I just felt this I felt like I was acting like God and I'm by no means religious at all I felt like I was doing God's will or spiritual thing and he was the devil oh soast I just couldn't understand his hair was and his face was scary and everybody's face was scary oh I don't know everyone was just turning on me in my head now I know that I'm sober they weren't who do you think was turning on you everybody who's everybody literally everyone I thought everybody was turning on it was just the drug made me feel like I was like almost like the second coming of Jesus or something like that and they were the devil coming after me that's what I felt like that's the best way I could describe it which is stupid I'm not religious but you were on drugs right you're hallucinating have you ever hallucinated like that before so you're in the kitchen with your dad and his hair is growing black and his eyes are black you can't understand what he's saying you're scared do you remember grabbing an object oh you don't I just uh it's taking clothing closest nearest thing or anything I don't know I didn't know I I don't remember copy that's such a dark times it's hard to piece it all together do you remember when you first started attacking your dad was he attacking you he's trying to stop you I think you I thought he was coming for the light switch and I was afraid that he was gonna turn it off and then come after me I think because I remember being afraid it was dark and being around people in the dark because in dark they would grab and devil was just so real to me how did you stop them I guess I stopped I don't remember stabbing them I just remember going towards him and then from that on it's just kind of like here so you remember going towards him where was he when you were going towards him it was really standing or was he sitting was he lying down I don't know you he Ard I remember when it all happened it was the first it was I don't I don't wish to as I don't know I don't wish to answer I really I just don't know you know what I don't want you to tell me anything that you don't know honest I don't want you to make anything up I I don't know what really happened I just remember being afraid of the dark feeling that the devil was very real and I was like this whole God and like I was trying to do something and just I don't know I and I don't wanna say anything because I'm not in the right state of mind right now it's just I don't know do you know where Lynn was when you got there if she was sleeping I don't know if Lynn lives there does she because she's there most nights yes I love Lynn too she's been there my whole life I was gonna say I understand that you have known her forever she's always worked with her dad is that right yeah how long ago did they actually get together though I don't know did you mean to hurt Lynn no I don't know I don't know I don't know if I meant to hurt any of them I don't I don't know I don't wish dance because I don't know I was just scared I was hallucinating I don't know yeah and that's what I mean um I mean like in your mind do you like would you do you want to hurt Lynn no are you remorseful that you hit hurt Lynn yes yes so if you hadn't done drugs last night would this have happened yes yes no no no no no no no I'm a good person I know you are God anymore but you are last night yes it has changed but you still are who you are you got a family who loves you so much you've got a bunch of buddies that you've obviously known for a long time been through a lot with that have been here talking to officers I mean they've been very honest about what they did last night you know the fact that you guys did drugs and it was a terrible decision and that you just weren't acting like yourself I mean they've talked about the fact that you came down and you were talking about God and that's not you and then you went to your dad's house and stabbed your dad and you love your dad and that's normally where you go to get help or if you're upset he's the one you turn to is that right I'm upset I said my mom or anything I don't know if so my mom or anything I turned out everything yeah have you always been close to your dad like he was always busy with work when I was younger right he was a dog right and it only started slowing down when he was becoming a senior doctor right so I would like to say he's always been there for me but he's only really half the time now yeah I love yeah do you remember Lynn coming out to the kitchen like I don't know I don't know I know where she was when she was injured when police got there and when the ambulance got there I just don't know if it happened where she was or could happen in another part of the house and I was hoping that you'd be able to tell me where that happened I don't know because I my mind's blocked out like I've vlogged out after I guess I came up my dad you sorry I vlogged it out after I my dad was approaching me and I was by the Light and I felt threatened and then all right I did our wife and time fell was what I needed to do for my own safety which doesn't make sense and it doesn't make sense it's sober when you're hallucinating sure made total sense and sit here and say yeah that makes no sense but what you what you went through last night you were hallucinating you legitimately felt like he was threatening you to what do you or do you even know what what you thought he was going to do to you I thought that he was the devil and like everybody was being taken over by the devil because everybody I saw would fluctuate between like black hair and sinister and then I just wanted to feel safe and I didn't feel safe anywhere and I hallucinating that it I blogged out the points that I don't want to visit as you block out the points you want to visit or do not want to talk about them because they're horrible things that you don't want to think about I can't just distinguish between the two right now you say that you saw in his face as well I saw her face her hair went black too that's all I know that's all I all I ever see is was Lynn's face and black and black eyes black hair same thing and just not English muttering mumbling I I acted for my own safety the way I felt that's what I'm not a violent person you know I've never even been in a fight in your dad's house you can I mean you've obviously been there before many times I'm sure when you walk in the front door can you tell me like where the something you could tell me where things happened I just know that where is in the kitchen and then be in the kitchen all I see is faces that's it whose faces in the kitchen God and then after I see my dad's face I see Lynn's paced but I don't know I want to say I was in the kitchen but I don't know all I see is her face and it was black eyes black hair devilish saying I don't know what you say or what she was doing I just see her face and muttering non-english I felt devilish and I acted I don't know where it happened you don't know where it happened with Lynn or your dad I last I remember was being in the kitchen with my dad and then I see that all I see is scary faces that's why I last remember enough and then I after that I remember being by the front door praying in the light which I never do but not religions why did I think I was I'm almost as curious as you can you describe to me like kind of the layout of your dad's house I haven't been there okay I have kind of an idea in my head of what the layout is like where the kitchen is adorable can I get you to say you're walking through the front door this is my dad's house yes your dad's house you walk in the front door you walk straight and then it's the kitchen stream over here there's just living space there and then take a right and you're right again and there's a bathroom right there my sisters my dad's room so it's like this there's the hallway and there's there's no that's okay take your time put your hands are sore too so yeah um [Music] this is loud it's front door here yeah Halloween all the way into the kitchen right straight and then this area here is like a living space so is that to your left to the left past like the front entrance yeah it's like that's what's like a hallway and then it opens up just to your left and what's in that room yes it's in the living space um TV and so that's where you'd actually go to watch TV or yeah logging in the front door there's another doors here right to the garage after that this door's downstairs right um so if you're walking you're looking to your right then what do you come to pass this the door to go downstairs just a small hallway there's another small hallway and then my dad's room is just that way my room is here my sister's room is here on the back it was here let's lay out so where's your dad's bedroom in the house how do you get your dad's bedroom is it off the kitchen is it off the living room is it off the hallway so what you do is you come there here's the kitchen um down this way and down just down a little bit up and it's like right there so is his bedroom at the back of the house yeah bedroom what do you remember about that I don't I don't know I don't I just remember faces and I'm I'm being serious huh I've never I I never would have gone after her for no reason do you think she hurt you I don't know I don't know I don't I don't know I just like who I just I just remember faces and acting on instinct at least what I thought was Instinct the time it was right see it was just a firefight that time you know that one is alive right yeah I assumed it would be in church right you saw her face is there anything that you remember about her face that would remind you of where she was anything around her head anything if you saw her face was the light on I know you're worried about the light I don't know I just saw her face in black eyes and a dark dark hair and that's all I can focus on did you know it was her right away I knew I I knew who people were I just thought they were being taken over by the stuff I thought they were coming after me and it's just so stupid because they wouldn't you know that now that you're sober yeah was there anybody else in the house no I've never seen anybody else in there no was there someone else in there to my knowledge now I'm being honest with you to my knowledge there wasn't anybody in the house but if there was I was just talking to you and tell me foreign I've given you all the information that I can remember I don't know how reliable it is I have given you what I I've tried to put together if there's anything I can tell you is that I appreciate you telling me the truth I do I really do assist a lot about you a lot about the you last night that was on drugs who you actually are I I I've done what I've done and even though I wasn't in my right mind I'm maybe today what's that gonna happen I just want people to know that that's not me that's not me at all I am so sorry and I don't know how it really went down and I could have been at it it could have been any anyone I'm sure that I was threatened by everyone everyone who I was around I just felt threatened by them they were guys they were just coming after me so I'm sure they were just trying to help me but at the time it just felt like they were coming after me because they were working with the devil and I don't I don't know what I was thinking it was stupid I just felt like coming God or Jesus knows I'm not religious I'm not religious about religious religious I can't think about it I originally could I wish my dad was still alive well that's okay foreign [Music] like this so I'm just gonna go back maybe like 24 hours before this happened you just kind of tell me what you did you know what like where did you sleep two nights ago well what did you get up and do well did you get here with your friends I was normal I was doing everything normal then all of a sudden I had a bad trip and just went worse worse and worse worse worse worse I'm about worst impossible happened so when where did you sleep over two nights ago so last night was when this happened the night before that where did you sleep did you sleep at your mom's or your dad's or something my moms yeah do you remember who sat there that night oh my friends I I don't I think so yeah who out of your friends stayed there until the night before this happened um exciting [Music] my own necklace there was there and they're almost there what's sorry what's Nick's last name and check never check okay Nick anybody else there too negative some of your friends stayed overnight like actually slept there okay when did you guys wake up I woke up I woke up at 10 o'clock and started reading my book to a book it's never heard it looks called Freakonomics Hazard yes public so I'm reading the third one it's called the glitterfree okay um tonight both of 11. after I read a couple chapters it was just a normal day it was just so no way everything was so normal normal and I would never listen to this gun I don't think anyone would have so when your buddies what you guys do oh they do bailing off it's interesting I didn't go with them I stayed someone to get to my house it's soaring like how do you know someone is he another buddy yeah we're like brothers we're all like brothers we're talking star and get there I don't exactly remember the exact time but it was later in the afternoon green what did you and someone do just we hung out long one shot with my sister Christina it's awarded you and sorry and they came back yeah Christina I love my sister yeah where did you guys go shopping plush flavor replace them all song involved all that stuff great your mom works in the mouth yeah right so did you go see her at work I always do what time did you guys close to close I know so yesterday close to five watching and then where'd you guys go from there what we went back to my place we had beer went to St Louis watched under the police came and then go back we took shoes and I remember bits and pieces of additional trip I've never hallucinated like that ever it's never been that strong and it's bits and like I earlier in that night I remember having a like a huge growing up moment and just epiphany and then when I got upstairs it started meditating and then I really started to hallucinate that's when I don't really start to that's why I said to lose like the solid stream of things right when I really just hit the peak and started really hallucinating what time did you go to St Louis man now I'm sorry was it Saint moving I know you said St Louis yeah St Louis just stuck on Lansdowne Street right okay yeah we just went there I'm not sure what time the leaves for you last night what time were you there until um probably just right up right up until the end of the game two more time they played seven last night we could look that up yeah it's like I'm sure someone around here would know yeah and then after that we got back and we decided to hey take some shrooms whose idea was that I don't remember I think it was like confined idea really how much did you drink at St Louis I know that you said that you had a drink before you went there why did you drink much there I had one beer at home or one or two years when I was at home what kind what kind uh it was either butter chords okay so those are two beers we had there right and then we got to say lyrics and I got a pie to Stella and then came back and then shrooms where'd you get that from I'm not really sure I didn't go with them I stayed oh you didn't go to get them I stayed at home who all went to get them okay so you don't know where they went how long were they gone and did they drive or walk I don't know I was in the house we just stay at the house with uh Nick don't check him down there is there anybody else that was at the house with you who's Laura Laurie do you know somebody by that name yeah yeah Laura I do I do remember in the police we started all that right I was just saying anything to get out of the police car because I thought that I this is where it starts to get crazy because where I started like coming down a little bit okay mushrooms so this is where like I was still tripping right pretty heavily but I can remember things I remember I don't remember how I got in the police car I remember being that I was in the police car and then I closed my eyes okay and I felt jealously in all this and I was meditating again which I think that's like where I went wrong where I really started to get into my head and really let things run and I felt like I was in the dark and I would just sit there and feel some jostling and then when I got here I thought that everything was white and I thought I was in heaven I literally was music playing when I was here because her music and music playing vehicles I mean I have radios well I heard I heard like like gospel acquire music so I really emphasized like feeling of being in heaven and then the officers were saying saying um um you'll know you'll know when you're able to get out so I was like oh oh no so I don't know and then their their faces were also changing between normal and friendly and like dark and and I remember their faces would get veiny and I would depend and depending on like what I said to them their faces would become more normal and that's why I started saying all the random stuff because I just wanted their faces to become normal again a random stuff I was like saying names of people who and like what I thought they wanted to hear what you thought the officers what did you let me out of the car what did you think they wanted to hear like what they wanted to hear was anything I don't know what they wanted to hear so I was really testing out anything right tomorrow what kind of things you're saying yeah I remember what I said would you say I don't know Laura who is she my love I said that and I was just testing out things to say because I wanted to get out of the car and be in a heaven because I thought that I had escaped from the devils and I was in a bright white Place hearing like this this all cosplay music like that and I thought I was just and they were saying you'll know when you're ready to come out and I was like oh no so I just would sit in there with eyes closed every now and then saying whatever they want me to say you know did you feel better when you got here yeah I thought you were in heaven yes I felt safe when I got here do you remember leaving your mom's house to go to your dad's house I remember they're all my my mom and my sister I remember seeing their faces and they changed too I remember when I wanted my serious trip what really I really really really see is just faces everything else is kind of just yeah but I just see scary faces of my friends and family and that's what sticks in my head and when they would get when they become more Sinister their faces would be as I said like veiny and they'd get fat does that happen with your mom as well yes and her hair was very very very black and it started getting long and long and then she just kept coming towards me and towards me it mom did yeah trying to help try to help me and I know that now right but I've just made me scared and I just remember in their faces and I'm pretty sure I don't know for sure obviously but I'm pretty sure I called somebody the devil okay then I got scared and ran to my dad's because I thought that he would have helped me and then I got there and then his face was changing too and everyone's face was changing do you remember being on the driveway of your mom's house and arguing with anybody I remember because I thought I thought my mom was the devil at first right and my sister was the gobble my family was the devil and then I thought I remember seeing Soren's face but I don't know what happened I think we got did we get an altercation it's okay he's okay all right it was just it was dangerous put it up in your mouth I couldn't let anyone it's not that wasn't my preference it was just me trying to get away from this devil that I thought and I thought that I was taking over people do you remember Jeff's Car do you remember Jeff in his car and everybody else in Jeff's Car I think that's how they got there Jeff's car has two broken windows two broken windows do you remember doing anything to Jeff's Car no okay I must have thought like they were working with the devil or no I don't I don't want and I don't want it I don't want that I don't want to sit yeah I don't want to guess no I don't want you to no did you remember Jeff at all kind of would you feel is he okay he's okay everybody else is okay all right everybody else is okay I just remember faces and stuff like that bits and pieces and I just remember being so scared and then then realizing that I couldn't do anything but fight that I went to my dad's for help and he started changing too and I just faces faces faces were so scary and hair and eyes black and everything oh I can't take back what I did I I got such a deep shit but I know you should be a man and I don't know thank you Dad and then deserve that and your mom yeah and your sister and all your buddies and Jeff I hate myself for more even though I wasn't in my right behind but that's gonna come from somewhere I I can't be right I can't like that I can't be right that should be right like the drugs and everything we're just have you ever thought about killing your dad never know I never thought about killing anyone so you're saying that you did not set out to go to your dad's house to kill him no no I would never do that I went out I set out to my dots I was be safe because I thought my mom and sister and everyone was turning against me I went there to be safe and I felt like he was turning on me too and his face and then I it could have been anyone I did I it wasn't I wasn't setting out do anything I just wanted to be safe and I did what I thought I needed to do to be safe and I blame it solely on hallucinations and this firm belief in religion where I got that out of nowhere really and this thing meditation and I would meditations I mean explore my head and my head just ran off in ridiculous ways and I felt like I don't know how to describe it and then that's when the trips are getting really bad it just faces and flashes and glimpses and things do you have any glimpse of what you did to Lynn anything at all that would help us oh not really I just remember her face and it being very very very very very Sinister to me you're a description of a Sinister face like like when I was like wow I was saying remember the police officers how their faces would get like Fanny and their hair would start turning dark dark dark even though and like even if they have blonde hair I would start turning dark dark dark right and like I said their faces would get fat too okay it would be like a fat face and then veiny and eyes black and hair was it looked like it was growing in Black so stupid I don't know what foreign any of this what are your injuries I'm missing a lot of skin right here thank you you're right-handed laugh thank you sorry oh yeah I'm sorry yeah I'm right-handed wow okay yeah I haven't even seen the long way back do you remember have you got three out of those I didn't feel any of it I don't know I do not though but you're saying you went through a window as well is that right yeah I'm assuming it's from the window okay so you said you went through the window does the window open or did you break it I definitely broke because it doesn't open it's one of those sealed ones I I was just so scared and I wanted to get into the house and I thought that I was gonna be safe in there and I guess what parent's not gonna be pissed off with a kid coming through a window right there came out of their window yeah so that negative or uh yes okay right whatever kicked off the unsafe feeling in me and all from that on all I see is faces I understand why I mean you probably got to open up out of the sleeve right I look pretty scary you what probably looked pretty scary if I was sober too just waking up like that yeah yeah and he he knew you very very well so he didn't know that wasn't you he must have known something was not okay yeah oh absolutely of course he would right foreign I literally went there for Comfort reasons and I probably seriously hurt Lynn yeah she is serious there let's talk is there anything else you can remember I told you I remember if I if I told you anymore I would be making stuff up from practice reading you said something earlier about hallucinating and this isn't like it's ever been if I'm remembering what you said exactly I've taken true four yeah and it has never been like this how many times have you taken them once or twice you know and every other times but it's been like a life-changing thing for me like I before that I was smoking weeds like every every single the homicide all last year I probably smoked a week every single day for like a year and a half and it was seriously debilitating me and I took shrooms after that I totally saw that like I don't need to do this and I saw it as like a life-changing finding myself thing and then it just turned on me this time right when was the last time before this time you took I don't remember day it was at school in college yeah so in the last four months anyways in September now I know I mentioned this early on but you have been athletic by the sound of things your whole life is that right you played around B yeah about that uh it's just chemical imbalance of my brain causing depression when animal start oh probably grade 11. grade 11 was on I had my last concussion that sent me over the edge I had an accountable balance and I don't feel some serious Depression had Suicidal Thoughts well that's all counselor for a while counselor helped but it didn't at the same time because counselors if you're smart if you're a smart enough person you start saying stuff but you know they want you to hear they want to hear and you don't really know if you're okay after that or if you're just putting on a face so I don't really know if I was okay after that but then this year I started feeling anxiety and depression at school but when I put the week's leading up to coming home I started feeling a lot better and I stopped smoking weed and I did all this stuff great things and I was at a whole new Drive and then this happened the worst possible thing happened see we're feeling better in the last few weeks now we're just leading up to the 19th yeah anyone can tell you that anyone could have seen it but your mom and sister be able to say that you're excited to come home for Christmas yeah I love sleep I'm just gonna leave the room for a minute okay and I'll be back I'll be back in a minute I may have some more questions okay foreign [Music] foreign foreign foreign foreign foreign foreign foreign foreign foreign [Music] yeah under the Band-Aid did you get any stitches or anything I found her too okay just get it oh skin cut off yeah okay so I just have a few more questions for you okay um the first one Lynn do you remember I know that your memory is a little distorted but a lot distorted but do you remember her talking to anybody or maybe being on the phone do you remember anything like that you said that you remember her mumbling oh all I heard was the gibberish like what I thought was like satanic lonely or whatever I thought everyone why everybody was saying pretty much was just attack modeling no oil like I said faces that's all I really see it like I like flashes of things like I guess I don't remember anything between the attacks I remember remember kitchen faces and then being out at the front praying in your dad's hallway sure everybody coming to the door no I don't remember how I got the police car that's why you don't remember anything about that about going in the police car no do you remember where he left the night or if there was more than one knife I don't know remember what the knife looked like oh I don't remember if you took the night with you no or if I just remember I just remember praying in front and like I just I actually remember at one point so scared I don't want that and I contemplated killing myself but I didn't die and I don't know if I had a knife on me like like it's talking to God and being just thinking that I was doing what he wanted I don't know then and then I I and the police guy next thing I know being Charleston around being seeing like flashes of Lights which I'm guessing at the police lights fathers and then next time I really open my eyes I'm here in a bright white area with that oh and I started coming down a little bit from the trip what point did you realize that you'd killed your dad I thought it's like it's really just starting to sink in now right in your dad's living room I understand there's ideal cameras of some sort does your dad have video surveillance on his head how where does that record or does it record might just be alive why does he have it he's attacking is he okay yeah so we just liked it foreign I should remember me scared like oh I was scared by cats and comforted by dogs last night you were scared by cats and comforted by dogs I just remember that feeling I don't know exactly like what that means or anything I just remember not feeling of being comforted by dogs and scared by cats does your dad have a cat or a dog yeah remember if you saw the cat no I just remember being scared by cats so I'm assuming I saw her and you remembered nothing else me for what it's worth your dad would be happy that you told the truth okay that's a bit more trouble or not I did what I did and I can't do anything about it but I just told that uh that's never should happen that's never happened yeah I agree it should I did shut up so I don't know why all of a sudden started believing God and being all spiritual and shit [Music] I pretty I could be here right now what would you say I love you I look too much I would never do anything to her I always do is want to make it proud because I knew up I knew my mom was always there for me a few he was always there for me but I always just wanted to make him proud because he was never there when I was young and I never really had that Father Figure growing up and he'd always just started being there when he was a senior Department and I just want to make a proud of you laughs thank you I love them my dad is my only Dad I'll only ever have one and I don't have one anymore it's because me too that's so hard that's so hard my sister doesn't have a dad because of me foreign I hope she's okay I hope so too I hope you get to the chance to say that to her she's gonna be okay I hope so she's in the hospital so she's where she needs to be right I don't have any more questions that's okay so it's 13 29 so 129 and we'll go back to this now okay okay go ahead do you think I could have a blanket right there I'll ask yeah oh as soon as we go there I'll ask okay all right in March of 2019 Chan was sentenced to five years in prison for manslaughter an attempted manslaughter that was later reduced to three and a half years and those charges would later be dropped by the crown and Thomas Chan is a free man today