Healing, Identity, and Personal Growth Themes

Hey everyone, greetings once again. I'm going to start with a poem. A healer, an artist, a verbal expressionist, a lyricist. We spoke about the traumas that we go through. through as a community and we spoke about healing I want us to go into that space as a healer what is the biggest issue what is the biggest issue What is it that stands out? And you walk this path, you get exposed to all kinds of people. I don't know how to advertise. I don't know how to go on social media and be like, I'm going to phone you the number. You can't just post it. I think we should start doing that. But I'm an idiot. I'm an idiot. So mostly it's people who, it's either a person who is a foreigner, strangely, and they don't know how to speak. And as a man, I And then so when those people can help, but really say, I don't know, I don't know. I said, I don't know. You're not going to eat it. Dangerous as it is. You're going to do often was but then the end of the rule of who you are being doing that because I want to patch into your your problems. You're going to do who feels like, oh, I could use the same help man can for a condo. in challenge layer cool and then i will release get ticks people who call with the knowledge that you're gonna fail them and then like i know is that here for god who wants to solve this thing you know so as people who and the influence The influence of the government is on the people. The government is not going to let us go. The government is not going to let us go. Now you have people who want to talk, but they are uncomfortable with the position that Mdana Wabu has put them into. That's what we are doing. is is is I have your permission to do so. Or, even though they won't have the understanding, but this needs to happen. I'm not willing to compromise myself for. And what I do. and and and was a compromise i wonder but i'll come here with spikes and and of who you are in a corn you you hate yourself so much to a point where you've never believed that you could fix you repeat that you hate yourself so much that you never believed that you can fix you. You have the ability to do so by literally allowing yourself, willing yourself to do such a change. Open yourself up to such things. No, And I don't know if I would have been able to answer that question if I had been a teacher. I would have said no, no, no. Do you know why I say no, no, no, no, no? How many of your colleagues can say the same thing? Honestly now. These people can barely tell you when they can't answer you. So, Yasba, do you have any tips? I was very happy. we have a very strong bond with each other especially after so you cannot communicate the same way that you did when it was without those things so you have the you you have you have the truth right here but because it doesn't work for you you choose something else. You choose something else. You choose something else. You choose something else. You choose something else. You choose something else. You choose something else. Because you cannot be honest with yourself. Why? So Tate influenced self and yourself that needs money and yourself of human experience. and human experience. You take that self and its challenges, and you want to make it into the reality of things that happen because of someone's sacrifice themselves, which had nothing to do with you from the beginning. From the beginning, Lendo, it had nothing to do with you. Lendo, I don't know if you know, but I'm cool. Why are you not eating the fillets? That's your problem. That's your problem. You have no problem. Ah. You are not eating the fillets. You are not eating the fillets. You are not eating the fillets. Yes, yes, yes. You are not eating the fillets. And I'm saying this because if you are not eating the fillets, if you are not eating the fillets, you are not eating the fillets. I will not let you go. I'm not going to do that. EW! If you are a woman, you should be able to understand the language of the language. You should be able to understand the language of the language. This is a very backward language. Let's try and put this in English. What you dreamt of was an image that would be accepted. acceptable and palatable to you. And that message that came through that image is what's important. Not the image that brought the message. That's the actual spirit you met. That's the actual spirit you met. Not your grandfather, not your grandmother. Not the image. Not the image. This person with the face. was a representative of a spirit. People died to become spirits. Where? Where have you heard that people were dying to become people? The image is this thing that your mother birthed. That's the site. That's literally just the picture, ID book. Okay. That's great. That's an earthly thing. I don't want to be here. I don't want to be here. So what are you saying? Are you saying my identity, my... I will not have this beauty after death? I love how you say it. Because the whole point of my story is to make you look good. Ouch! Ouch! You are not good at all. You are not good at all. What is this? So, when you see it, you personalize it. You start with it. You start with it. You start with it. Because when you see it, you start to believe it. You start to believe it. Okay. You start to believe it. We can't tell you the whole truth if you want to be alive. No one has found out the whole truth and lived. Because that moment... Life is about mystery. And finding out. And finding out. The whole process of living is finding out. The moment you lose interest in finding out, you are dead. You are dead. You are the one who loses interest in things. You are depressed. Depressed means, my God, you have recognized that you are close to death and you want it. Ooh! Repeat that. You have recognized that you are close to death and you want it. That is the state of depression. Yes. Because when you're depressed, you are no longer finding out, you have convinced yourself that this is the situation. And you're sinking into a grave. And you're sinking into a grave. And you are allowing it. You are accepted. Thank you. We're in a low. No, to my man. Because they choose to accept the downward spiral to death. Depression is a state. It's not a disease. Wow. It's a state of. It's a state in your mental health or whatever, not. It's literally how you have decided to recognize. It's a state. Exactly. It's a state. You chose. You chose. You made the decision from now on. Because if you didn't choose, how do people come out? By choice. So it started with a choice. Thank you. From the get-go. Giving up is an actual thing. Giving up is an actual thing. And we've been exposed to all sorts of life. So you have a life of the people who are alive, then they come to you because they need help. So you either attract a lot of friends who are suicidal and they come to you and they find this light. Right? And sometimes you come across spirits who committed suicide, who are in regret of what they've done because they did not recognize how they could recognize their own hurt. And what this thing was all about was the fact that I needed attention, but I just didn't know how to vocalize that. The whole thing was that I needed attention. I needed somebody to... Tell me that they are born. They are born. They are born. They are born. You can't call someone who is not born. You can't call someone who is not born. That's right. I'm guilty of that. We want, we are so wild with the... calling and we don't recognize how much of the calling has nothing to do with your decision making and so much of the calling demands you to free yourself enough to now say okay you I need to call this person. And it's beyond you. You see there, there you are living outside of yourself. It's no longer about the human being who's influenced to believe that when certain people do this, it means that they don't like you and you should keep them away from you. No, you're a doctor. All you do is attract patients. So who are you to make the decision that this is not good? good for me. There's nothing good for you. If anything is good for you, that's when it's not yours. If anything is good for you, that's when it's not yours. If anything is good for you, that's when it's not yours. What color is it? It's a red. Oh, Yes, yes, Kelawee. When you're alone, you're the sacrifice of this whole thing to fall into place. You are the reason why all of everyone is making it. And we need to make it and we need to make sure that we abuse you so you stay in tune with the pain of this cause. Because out there, you're the one who's making it. I was born on 14 December 2018. And I would say, to me, it would sound like a girl, the girl I used to sound like. But when I was a girl, I would say, I don't know what I would say. And I would never live to believe that I live for myself. Thank God. Yeah. Thank God that it has happened. That's why I'm telling you to be careful because you are not going to be able to do it. You are constantly doing what you are doing. You are not doing what you are doing. You are not doing what you are doing. People are consistent with you. You are not doing what you are doing. People are consistent with And so shoot the Atlanta Orange. And so miss the movies. I was like, why are you a trapper? Like, what the fuck is happening here? You are a conspiracy. Why are you a trapper? No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's already out there. It's already out there. We can't see the cut. Let's start again. Wow. You just said my life story. It's not supposed to be nice. No. It's not supposed to be nice. It's not supposed to be nice. It's not supposed to be nice. It's not supposed to be nice. Because of the duty. Because of the mission. Yes. If they stay away from you, the secret remains. The secret remains and the recipe continues on working. And we continue being the best at making this mac and cheese. We continue being the best at it because no one knows what it takes, what it truly and actually takes. Not even you. No. Not even you because every time you do it. you are surprised at how you did it. Exactly. I never want to find myself in a position where I'm like, I know who I am. I can't. Because the aim is to grow from age to age. Do not help one generation. Be remembered by generations. My biggest fear is oblivion. What do you mean nobody speaks of me after this? You nobody till somebody kills you. Why should you speak small? I'm in 30 years from now. Let me tell you about someone that you do not know. Legacy. The day you die twice as a living person. You die the day you die. And you die. And you die the moment that the last person who remembered you forgets you. This is a movie. I love that movie. Brilliant movie. I love that movie. I watch it all the time. In fact, I use it as syllabus in my school. I have a fifth grade in my school. My school is so good. When the last person who remembered you forgets you, that's when you die again. The second death. Second death. So the Bible was right. There's multiple deaths. There's multiple. There's multiple. There's the part of you that needs to get out of your mother's house, your mother's rules, to become you. if a woman were to take you to mor and make you a husband what is the concept of this household that you are building satan does a capital again there's a part of you that that needed to die first in order for you to even make those those type of rules Okay, I know. I'm here. I'm in the city. Anything is seven. Is it based on what? Yes. So, there's multiple deaths. There's the death of your youth when you decide to actually give yourself over to someone and create a home with them. A lot needs... Every choice, every decision is a death. Yes. because it's a step in a different direction. And the biggest fear is taking a step. And the biggest stress is standing at the door, not taking a step. How do we take the step forward? The step forward is, one, you're crazy. Boom. Boom. Accept. It's not normal to be normal. That's where the problem is. It's you trying to be normal. You lose yourself. You're crazy. This is not about you. Wow. First, I must accept that I'm crazy. Yeah. And then I must accept it's not about me. It's not about you. How do you reconcile the two? It's not about you. But I'm crazy. Yeah. But it's not about me. So if you see your sister, your sister is pregnant, she's not married, because if you talk about it, you will see that the children are not married. It's not like that when that grandchild is born and the grandparents are close to this grandchild. Because it's not about you. It's the fact that this family needed this addition for certain things to happen. If you don't have a family, if you don't have a family, you don't have a family. A family will do whatever they can. If it means that they don't have a family, because they don't have a family, as long as you have a family, you don't have a family. If I was to pick up a child with a high school diploma, I would be in a very bad situation. We need to identify the people who are not the same. We need to identify the people who are not the same. I was shocked to see the way he was eating. In actual fact, he was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. So, recognizing that he was eating a lot of food. The same way that a miracle... cannot happen with you alone it will seek someone else sharp because when i go good because when i was who was So Yonkalento, it has to do with first a truth at ground level. Yes. And a truth to self first. And then a truth to the next person. And then a truth in the family. And that truth will lead us to a certain path that we can go down maybe. It is single bond. Based on us having died from one stage to the other. There are many deaths. And we need to allow ourselves. to die constantly. Constantly. If Asi Zivu may leave what happens to that stagnation? What do you mean? If Asi Zivu may leave what happens to that stagnation? Ukona apo. I'm not going to go no no cocoa a ba ba ba ba ba le gole corn umphir utatun kulu ati Chico was a big Chico walk okay and yes Linda yeah basically but the Nani le I was born with a baby. You were born with a baby? Yes, You have to learn how to do it. I was very angry and I was crying. I was very angry and I was crying. I was very angry and I was crying. But what you are doing in essence is saying in English, scientifically, the energy that existed from the time of my forefathers. that sustained them, that brought them to where we are now, that produced me, made that same energy. What are you saying? Are you saying? Blackness is living upon premonition. Blackness is not taught, it is shown. And it's a conversation that you have alone with your people. Because you, in blackness, blackness is full of purpose. Blackness is full of things to be corrected. There isn't a black man or black woman who is yet to be born out of their own duty or out of their own satisfaction. I equal on the name. I always say... I equal on the name. I always say you cannot exist outside the duty of your soul. Outside the experience of your soul. So, And it is in that finding, the purpose, that we start to appreciate who we are. because you are going outside of yourself. Just because you're doing according to the influence and the preference of what your society thinks, you are living outside of yourself. Have you ever found out who you are and what your purpose is? Oti, how many people are living outside themselves, outside their purpose? How many people are living outside their purpose? Hold on. You are not allowed to talk about your children. I am telling you, if you talk about your children, you will be fined. You will be punished. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. You are right. You are right. I am not going to lie. I don't know how to describe it. but if you if you can't if you can't recognize that oh no this is just a place where i left my pants not where i am because this guilt is peeling us These self-judgements we go around carrying, these self-imposed limitations we put on ourselves. Because at one time I made a mistake. Now I've identified myself with that incident. I am no longer myself. I am my mistake. Now I cannot move forward. Because Thank you. a work in progress from the very first time you started doing this yes it's a period of years yes and as taking work as if alcohol is the lives that we are experiencing right now as individuals are the results of the decisions we made yesterday yes had we made better decisions do you not think That freedom is a choice. So we experience discomfort. We experience difficulty. conversations we experience a tension and awkwardness amongst each other because we chose to sit down and agree with our mouths not to hate each other right I want to tell you seven things that I want to tell you. I want to tell you seven things that I want to tell you. I want to tell you seven things that I want to tell you. is kids who know to step out of themselves and not mind who you say we are because i got convenient from london so any carlini convenience you found it convenient enough to talk about freedom and agree that yes we will share schools but the money is fine you can keep it now senny senny's knee jack and goku him vuna your younger than the night by life and the man profits in a post-traditional healers and whatever and call women in me opel in the acapella a pambi a conduit time Sabine I equal to a woman a man a bo We have to look at our stories, whether it was political, whether it was spiritual, whether it was anything. We have to look at our stories, and we have to look at our own. If we don't look at our own stories, we will be left with a lot of pain. If we don't look at our own stories, we will be left with a lot of pain. Which is what is happening today. Exactly. The more we talk about Africanness and coming back to self, the more we talk about it. The more we talk about it, the more we talk about it. We are so used to settling for things. We've been taught to settle for things. We even settled for our own selves. We even settled for our own gods. We even settled for our own callings. But okay, I'll do this for as long as it gets me away from this. The whole point of this thing has been love. Because love is non-judgment. Love is I will do for you for as much as I need to. If you don't do it, you will be in trouble. In what you're saying, stories of defeat, stories of pains, stories of traumas and all of that have been made into our stories. Stories. As if we do not have a story outside of oppression. What identity do you have as a black person without pain? Are you really black? And if you say you don't have that. experience of pain, you're not black enough. You're not black enough. And if you say, no, I know I went through the pain. I just chose to not live in it or dwell on it. Then you are a better black. You're a coconut. We need all of you to die to be good again. No. I was so scared. And they are effectless. Yes. And everyone is dependent on what? What the actual spirit was about, which is being informed. The whole point was about it. The whole source comes from that. It doesn't come from, I, that food is warm and over. I don't know how to say it in English. I don't know how to say it in English. I don't know how to say it in English. That means, this is what I am saying. That means, this is what I am saying. Because I am not saying it in English. Because I am not saying it in English. Because I am not saying it in English. So, here is a band who are out of influence, So, here is a band who are out of influence, who are truthful with themselves to know who are truthful with themselves to know when their voices are spoken. when their voices are spoken. speaking but oh this is not my voice and i'm i have nothing to do with it yeah you'll never lie to someone if you disassociate yourself from wanting to say the right thing you say something and you know it's not your voice you know it's what happens to But the conversation about issues and whatnot has never happened. So, that's it. I found the rest of the phrase, So see, school has come and all of that. How I appreciated my gift more was the fact that no one taught me about my gift. No one told me what to expect. Even by the time it was, that was a disaster. I was so scared. I don't know if I should say that I am a mother, but I am a mother. I am a mother and I have a son. I don't know what to do with my children. When I long to hold up a phone and know I'm going to get it. Oh, we joke. I am not a woman, I'm not going to lie to you. I don't know. If you want to be a father, you should be a father. If you want to be a father, you should be a father. Because you're comfortable. You're not. It's not like that. For instance, I'm such an honest person. How about you be honest? Then this is worse. Why are you honest? You are advertising. Yes, yes. You are advertising. We are talking. We are talking. We are talking. You As a young person, with all that you've observed, because as you say, you are I don't know if you can hear me or not. I don't know if you can hear me or not. I don't know if you can hear me or not. I don't know if you can hear me or not. Let's be honest about this situation. I said to song, Everything comes from something. Everything has a source. Yes. And now we keep trying to run away from the sources and trying to solve this thing that has been born out of the sources without recognizing that the actual trouble starts from the beginning. Let's recognize the beginning. Then we can get to fixing what has been born out of it. The trickle down. Yes. I understand that. Wine is not a crepe. I don't know how to make crepes. I don't know how to make wine. I don't know how to make wine. Yes, setups. Ah, imagine how much wine you'd be having. The biggest issue with us is we want complete products without starting the manufacturing process. Exactly. And being accountable for it. Yeah, and responsible. Yes, and accepting where we are wrong. And admitting it as well. Can... Is it possible for us to be a different caliber of parents, adults who can accept when we are wrong? When we die, yeah, and come back again. We take back our focus. We are born Yeah, they were receiving a T-inter where the conversation of homosexuality was being discussed. They were like, there's no such thing as a teacher sending a child. You see the child, you see the other child, you see them and all these pronouns. You're a 30, 60 year old. We beg you to help us. from the entire human experience where it's flawed is the fact that it is hard for us to accept the fact that we need to get away from things that we have learned and accumulated from the world. We need to ask ourselves what it says. We need to ask ourselves what it says. Yes. And for as long as we are blaming other things instead of saying, okay, this is where we are wrong. This is where we need to correct. The other ones are saying, we didn't teach these children enough. And the others are saying, these children are not willing to learn this thing. But now they are also betraying their blackness. No, they're not betraying their blackness. They were born free. They don't understand. They've never been influenced by somebody else's brain, by another man's rules in their own house. No one's kicked down there. No. You have based your entire story of blackness from the insecurity that was built by white people. All that was done was to convince you. That you are nothing. And guess what? You believe it. It worked. Hook, line and sinker. It worked. We need to die as people who believe that we are nothing in order for those who believe that they are everything to not be influenced by our limitations. To not be limited by our limitations. To not be influenced by our insecurities. Yes. Because you are influenced. You are limited. These kids have created their own music, my guy. Outside traditional musical codes. Outside. They are grown-ass men who can't write lyrics for anything. And they're making millions from a vibe. Do you know what they created? They created a formation of a vibe. They created a complex of energy. They still comply within the rules of blackness that we... We come from spirit. Wow. And what they inherited from spirit was vibe. That's what they took from it. Just because they call it a certain thing doesn't mean it's not alive. It's there. It's spirit manifesting. Yes. Expressing itself. You need to shut the fuck up with your failed self in order for us to live. You failed multiple times. And now you are instilling that fear into us. The actors can't be left behind. We have to take care of them. A new generation has to take over. We have to take care of them. So that we can have a better future. You have to learn to do that. I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to do that. When I was a little girl, those experiences were so small. Those experiences were so small. I was a little girl. Even in spirituality, it was these fake people who come through with these fake prophets and whatever not. And now you understand what it is that needs to be fixed. Because these people have not only lived out of their own goodness and how great they are at what they're doing. No. They're living and they're living amongst us because of how much you have been able to ignore things. And accept. And accept. You have committed yourself to being comfortable with being uncomfortable. We've made pain into pleasure. Thank you. And you want to move on. Wow. Don't be. Long is the road, long is the road, long is the road ahead of me, long is the road before my feet, who will hold my hand and travel with me? Long is the road, silence is the only companion in these streets, for everybody stares but their eyes are loud in their silence, stabbing me with silent insults. wondering why I walk alone. Take my hand and walk me to the end. It was a pleasure. Poetry, art, life, expression. This is who you are. And you are saying to us, this is who we are we must die in order for new life to come we were we have always been patriots we've always been patriots we've always died for what we believe in it's happened from generation to generation it's time for the change it's time for the change It was a pleasure. Thank you. And it is not normal to be normal. Our insanity is the one divine gift that the universe has bestowed upon us for us to express it. So let's express spirit and not limit it. Not cage it, not block it. Yes. Magwand. Blessed love. Thank you.

Hey everyone, greetings once again. I'm going to start with a poem. A healer, an artist, a verbal expressionist, a lyricist.

We spoke about the traumas that we go through. through as a community and we spoke about healing I want us to go into that space as a healer what is the biggest issue what is the biggest issue What is it that stands out? And you walk this path, you get exposed to all kinds of people. I don't know how to advertise.

I don't know how to go on social media and be like, I'm going to phone you the number. You can't just post it. I think we should start doing that.

But I'm an idiot. I'm an idiot. So mostly it's people who, it's either a person who is a foreigner, strangely, and they don't know how to speak. And as a man, I And then so when those people can help, but really say, I don't know, I don't know.

I said, I don't know. You're not going to eat it. Dangerous as it is. You're going to do often was but then the end of the rule of who you are being doing that because I want to patch into your your problems. You're going to do who feels like, oh, I could use the same help man can for a condo.

in challenge layer cool and then i will release get ticks people who call with the knowledge that you're gonna fail them and then like i know is that here for god who wants to solve this thing you know so as people who and the influence The influence of the government is on the people. The government is not going to let us go. The government is not going to let us go. Now you have people who want to talk, but they are uncomfortable with the position that Mdana Wabu has put them into.

That's what we are doing. is is is I have your permission to do so. Or, even though they won't have the understanding, but this needs to happen. I'm not willing to compromise myself for. And what I do.

and and and was a compromise i wonder but i'll come here with spikes and and of who you are in a corn you you hate yourself so much to a point where you've never believed that you could fix you repeat that you hate yourself so much that you never believed that you can fix you. You have the ability to do so by literally allowing yourself, willing yourself to do such a change. Open yourself up to such things.

No, And I don't know if I would have been able to answer that question if I had been a teacher. I would have said no, no, no. Do you know why I say no, no, no, no, no? How many of your colleagues can say the same thing?

Honestly now. These people can barely tell you when they can't answer you. So, Yasba, do you have any tips?

I was very happy. we have a very strong bond with each other especially after so you cannot communicate the same way that you did when it was without those things so you have the you you have you have the truth right here but because it doesn't work for you you choose something else. You choose something else.

You choose something else. You choose something else. You choose something else.

You choose something else. You choose something else. Because you cannot be honest with yourself.

Why? So Tate influenced self and yourself that needs money and yourself of human experience. and human experience. You take that self and its challenges, and you want to make it into the reality of things that happen because of someone's sacrifice themselves, which had nothing to do with you from the beginning. From the beginning, Lendo, it had nothing to do with you.

Lendo, I don't know if you know, but I'm cool. Why are you not eating the fillets? That's your problem.

That's your problem. You have no problem. Ah.

You are not eating the fillets. You are not eating the fillets. You are not eating the fillets. Yes, yes, yes. You are not eating the fillets.

And I'm saying this because if you are not eating the fillets, if you are not eating the fillets, you are not eating the fillets. I will not let you go. I'm not going to do that.

EW! If you are a woman, you should be able to understand the language of the language. You should be able to understand the language of the language. This is a very backward language.

Let's try and put this in English. What you dreamt of was an image that would be accepted. acceptable and palatable to you. And that message that came through that image is what's important.

Not the image that brought the message. That's the actual spirit you met. That's the actual spirit you met. Not your grandfather, not your grandmother. Not the image.

Not the image. This person with the face. was a representative of a spirit.

People died to become spirits. Where? Where have you heard that people were dying to become people? The image is this thing that your mother birthed.

That's the site. That's literally just the picture, ID book. Okay. That's great. That's an earthly thing.

I don't want to be here. I don't want to be here. So what are you saying? Are you saying my identity, my...

I will not have this beauty after death? I love how you say it. Because the whole point of my story is to make you look good. Ouch!

Ouch! You are not good at all. You are not good at all. What is this?

So, when you see it, you personalize it. You start with it. You start with it. You start with it. Because when you see it, you start to believe it.

You start to believe it. Okay. You start to believe it.

We can't tell you the whole truth if you want to be alive. No one has found out the whole truth and lived. Because that moment... Life is about mystery. And finding out.

And finding out. The whole process of living is finding out. The moment you lose interest in finding out, you are dead. You are dead. You are the one who loses interest in things.

You are depressed. Depressed means, my God, you have recognized that you are close to death and you want it. Ooh!

Repeat that. You have recognized that you are close to death and you want it. That is the state of depression. Yes.

Because when you're depressed, you are no longer finding out, you have convinced yourself that this is the situation. And you're sinking into a grave. And you're sinking into a grave.

And you are allowing it. You are accepted. Thank you.

We're in a low. No, to my man. Because they choose to accept the downward spiral to death.

Depression is a state. It's not a disease. Wow. It's a state of.

It's a state in your mental health or whatever, not. It's literally how you have decided to recognize. It's a state. Exactly. It's a state.

You chose. You chose. You made the decision from now on. Because if you didn't choose, how do people come out?

By choice. So it started with a choice. Thank you. From the get-go. Giving up is an actual thing.

Giving up is an actual thing. And we've been exposed to all sorts of life. So you have a life of the people who are alive, then they come to you because they need help.

So you either attract a lot of friends who are suicidal and they come to you and they find this light. Right? And sometimes you come across spirits who committed suicide, who are in regret of what they've done because they did not recognize how they could recognize their own hurt. And what this thing was all about was the fact that I needed attention, but I just didn't know how to vocalize that.

The whole thing was that I needed attention. I needed somebody to... Tell me that they are born.

They are born. They are born. They are born.

You can't call someone who is not born. You can't call someone who is not born. That's right.

I'm guilty of that. We want, we are so wild with the... calling and we don't recognize how much of the calling has nothing to do with your decision making and so much of the calling demands you to free yourself enough to now say okay you I need to call this person. And it's beyond you. You see there, there you are living outside of yourself.

It's no longer about the human being who's influenced to believe that when certain people do this, it means that they don't like you and you should keep them away from you. No, you're a doctor. All you do is attract patients.

So who are you to make the decision that this is not good? good for me. There's nothing good for you.

If anything is good for you, that's when it's not yours. If anything is good for you, that's when it's not yours. If anything is good for you, that's when it's not yours. What color is it?

It's a red. Oh, Yes, yes, Kelawee. When you're alone, you're the sacrifice of this whole thing to fall into place.

You are the reason why all of everyone is making it. And we need to make it and we need to make sure that we abuse you so you stay in tune with the pain of this cause. Because out there, you're the one who's making it. I was born on 14 December 2018. And I would say, to me, it would sound like a girl, the girl I used to sound like.

But when I was a girl, I would say, I don't know what I would say. And I would never live to believe that I live for myself. Thank God.

Yeah. Thank God that it has happened. That's why I'm telling you to be careful because you are not going to be able to do it.

You are constantly doing what you are doing. You are not doing what you are doing. You are not doing what you are doing.

People are consistent with you. You are not doing what you are doing. People are consistent with And so shoot the Atlanta Orange. And so miss the movies.

I was like, why are you a trapper? Like, what the fuck is happening here? You are a conspiracy. Why are you a trapper? No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

It's already out there. It's already out there. We can't see the cut. Let's start again.

Wow. You just said my life story. It's not supposed to be nice.

No. It's not supposed to be nice. It's not supposed to be nice. It's not supposed to be nice.

It's not supposed to be nice. Because of the duty. Because of the mission. Yes.

If they stay away from you, the secret remains. The secret remains and the recipe continues on working. And we continue being the best at making this mac and cheese.

We continue being the best at it because no one knows what it takes, what it truly and actually takes. Not even you. No. Not even you because every time you do it.

you are surprised at how you did it. Exactly. I never want to find myself in a position where I'm like, I know who I am. I can't.

Because the aim is to grow from age to age. Do not help one generation. Be remembered by generations.

My biggest fear is oblivion. What do you mean nobody speaks of me after this? You nobody till somebody kills you.

Why should you speak small? I'm in 30 years from now. Let me tell you about someone that you do not know.

Legacy. The day you die twice as a living person. You die the day you die. And you die. And you die the moment that the last person who remembered you forgets you.

This is a movie. I love that movie. Brilliant movie. I love that movie. I watch it all the time.

In fact, I use it as syllabus in my school. I have a fifth grade in my school. My school is so good.

When the last person who remembered you forgets you, that's when you die again. The second death. Second death. So the Bible was right.

There's multiple deaths. There's multiple. There's multiple.

There's the part of you that needs to get out of your mother's house, your mother's rules, to become you. if a woman were to take you to mor and make you a husband what is the concept of this household that you are building satan does a capital again there's a part of you that that needed to die first in order for you to even make those those type of rules Okay, I know. I'm here. I'm in the city.

Anything is seven. Is it based on what? Yes.

So, there's multiple deaths. There's the death of your youth when you decide to actually give yourself over to someone and create a home with them. A lot needs...

Every choice, every decision is a death. Yes. because it's a step in a different direction. And the biggest fear is taking a step.

And the biggest stress is standing at the door, not taking a step. How do we take the step forward? The step forward is, one, you're crazy.

Boom. Boom. Accept.

It's not normal to be normal. That's where the problem is. It's you trying to be normal.

You lose yourself. You're crazy. This is not about you. Wow.

First, I must accept that I'm crazy. Yeah. And then I must accept it's not about me.

It's not about you. How do you reconcile the two? It's not about you.

But I'm crazy. Yeah. But it's not about me. So if you see your sister, your sister is pregnant, she's not married, because if you talk about it, you will see that the children are not married.

It's not like that when that grandchild is born and the grandparents are close to this grandchild. Because it's not about you. It's the fact that this family needed this addition for certain things to happen.

If you don't have a family, if you don't have a family, you don't have a family. A family will do whatever they can. If it means that they don't have a family, because they don't have a family, as long as you have a family, you don't have a family.

If I was to pick up a child with a high school diploma, I would be in a very bad situation. We need to identify the people who are not the same. We need to identify the people who are not the same. I was shocked to see the way he was eating.

In actual fact, he was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food.

He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food.

He was eating a lot of food. He was eating a lot of food. So, recognizing that he was eating a lot of food. The same way that a miracle... cannot happen with you alone it will seek someone else sharp because when i go good because when i was who was So Yonkalento, it has to do with first a truth at ground level.

Yes. And a truth to self first. And then a truth to the next person.

And then a truth in the family. And that truth will lead us to a certain path that we can go down maybe. It is single bond.

Based on us having died from one stage to the other. There are many deaths. And we need to allow ourselves.

to die constantly. Constantly. If Asi Zivu may leave what happens to that stagnation?

What do you mean? If Asi Zivu may leave what happens to that stagnation? Ukona apo. I'm not going to go no no cocoa a ba ba ba ba ba le gole corn umphir utatun kulu ati Chico was a big Chico walk okay and yes Linda yeah basically but the Nani le I was born with a baby. You were born with a baby?

Yes, You have to learn how to do it. I was very angry and I was crying. I was very angry and I was crying.

I was very angry and I was crying. But what you are doing in essence is saying in English, scientifically, the energy that existed from the time of my forefathers. that sustained them, that brought them to where we are now, that produced me, made that same energy.

What are you saying? Are you saying? Blackness is living upon premonition.

Blackness is not taught, it is shown. And it's a conversation that you have alone with your people. Because you, in blackness, blackness is full of purpose. Blackness is full of things to be corrected.

There isn't a black man or black woman who is yet to be born out of their own duty or out of their own satisfaction. I equal on the name. I always say...

I equal on the name. I always say you cannot exist outside the duty of your soul. Outside the experience of your soul. So, And it is in that finding, the purpose, that we start to appreciate who we are.

because you are going outside of yourself. Just because you're doing according to the influence and the preference of what your society thinks, you are living outside of yourself. Have you ever found out who you are and what your purpose is?

Oti, how many people are living outside themselves, outside their purpose? How many people are living outside their purpose? Hold on. You are not allowed to talk about your children. I am telling you, if you talk about your children, you will be fined.

You will be punished. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.

You are right. You are right. I am not going to lie.

I don't know how to describe it. but if you if you can't if you can't recognize that oh no this is just a place where i left my pants not where i am because this guilt is peeling us These self-judgements we go around carrying, these self-imposed limitations we put on ourselves. Because at one time I made a mistake.

Now I've identified myself with that incident. I am no longer myself. I am my mistake. Now I cannot move forward. Because Thank you.

a work in progress from the very first time you started doing this yes it's a period of years yes and as taking work as if alcohol is the lives that we are experiencing right now as individuals are the results of the decisions we made yesterday yes had we made better decisions do you not think That freedom is a choice. So we experience discomfort. We experience difficulty. conversations we experience a tension and awkwardness amongst each other because we chose to sit down and agree with our mouths not to hate each other right I want to tell you seven things that I want to tell you. I want to tell you seven things that I want to tell you.

I want to tell you seven things that I want to tell you. is kids who know to step out of themselves and not mind who you say we are because i got convenient from london so any carlini convenience you found it convenient enough to talk about freedom and agree that yes we will share schools but the money is fine you can keep it now senny senny's knee jack and goku him vuna your younger than the night by life and the man profits in a post-traditional healers and whatever and call women in me opel in the acapella a pambi a conduit time Sabine I equal to a woman a man a bo We have to look at our stories, whether it was political, whether it was spiritual, whether it was anything. We have to look at our stories, and we have to look at our own.

If we don't look at our own stories, we will be left with a lot of pain. If we don't look at our own stories, we will be left with a lot of pain. Which is what is happening today. Exactly. The more we talk about Africanness and coming back to self, the more we talk about it.

The more we talk about it, the more we talk about it. We are so used to settling for things. We've been taught to settle for things.

We even settled for our own selves. We even settled for our own gods. We even settled for our own callings. But okay, I'll do this for as long as it gets me away from this. The whole point of this thing has been love.

Because love is non-judgment. Love is I will do for you for as much as I need to. If you don't do it, you will be in trouble. In what you're saying, stories of defeat, stories of pains, stories of traumas and all of that have been made into our stories.

Stories. As if we do not have a story outside of oppression. What identity do you have as a black person without pain? Are you really black?

And if you say you don't have that. experience of pain, you're not black enough. You're not black enough.

And if you say, no, I know I went through the pain. I just chose to not live in it or dwell on it. Then you are a better black.

You're a coconut. We need all of you to die to be good again. No.

I was so scared. And they are effectless. Yes. And everyone is dependent on what? What the actual spirit was about, which is being informed.

The whole point was about it. The whole source comes from that. It doesn't come from, I, that food is warm and over.

I don't know how to say it in English. I don't know how to say it in English. I don't know how to say it in English. That means, this is what I am saying. That means, this is what I am saying.

Because I am not saying it in English. Because I am not saying it in English. Because I am not saying it in English.

So, here is a band who are out of influence, So, here is a band who are out of influence, who are truthful with themselves to know who are truthful with themselves to know when their voices are spoken. when their voices are spoken. speaking but oh this is not my voice and i'm i have nothing to do with it yeah you'll never lie to someone if you disassociate yourself from wanting to say the right thing you say something and you know it's not your voice you know it's what happens to But the conversation about issues and whatnot has never happened. So, that's it. I found the rest of the phrase, So see, school has come and all of that.

How I appreciated my gift more was the fact that no one taught me about my gift. No one told me what to expect. Even by the time it was, that was a disaster.

I was so scared. I don't know if I should say that I am a mother, but I am a mother. I am a mother and I have a son.

I don't know what to do with my children. When I long to hold up a phone and know I'm going to get it. Oh, we joke. I am not a woman, I'm not going to lie to you. I don't know.

If you want to be a father, you should be a father. If you want to be a father, you should be a father. Because you're comfortable.

You're not. It's not like that. For instance, I'm such an honest person. How about you be honest?

Then this is worse. Why are you honest? You are advertising.

Yes, yes. You are advertising. We are talking.

We are talking. We are talking. You As a young person, with all that you've observed, because as you say, you are I don't know if you can hear me or not. I don't know if you can hear me or not.

I don't know if you can hear me or not. I don't know if you can hear me or not. Let's be honest about this situation.

I said to song, Everything comes from something. Everything has a source. Yes. And now we keep trying to run away from the sources and trying to solve this thing that has been born out of the sources without recognizing that the actual trouble starts from the beginning.

Let's recognize the beginning. Then we can get to fixing what has been born out of it. The trickle down.

Yes. I understand that. Wine is not a crepe.

I don't know how to make crepes. I don't know how to make wine. I don't know how to make wine. Yes, setups.

Ah, imagine how much wine you'd be having. The biggest issue with us is we want complete products without starting the manufacturing process. Exactly. And being accountable for it. Yeah, and responsible.

Yes, and accepting where we are wrong. And admitting it as well. Can...

Is it possible for us to be a different caliber of parents, adults who can accept when we are wrong? When we die, yeah, and come back again. We take back our focus. We are born Yeah, they were receiving a T-inter where the conversation of homosexuality was being discussed. They were like, there's no such thing as a teacher sending a child.

You see the child, you see the other child, you see them and all these pronouns. You're a 30, 60 year old. We beg you to help us.

from the entire human experience where it's flawed is the fact that it is hard for us to accept the fact that we need to get away from things that we have learned and accumulated from the world. We need to ask ourselves what it says. We need to ask ourselves what it says.

Yes. And for as long as we are blaming other things instead of saying, okay, this is where we are wrong. This is where we need to correct.

The other ones are saying, we didn't teach these children enough. And the others are saying, these children are not willing to learn this thing. But now they are also betraying their blackness.

No, they're not betraying their blackness. They were born free. They don't understand.

They've never been influenced by somebody else's brain, by another man's rules in their own house. No one's kicked down there. No.

You have based your entire story of blackness from the insecurity that was built by white people. All that was done was to convince you. That you are nothing.

And guess what? You believe it. It worked.

Hook, line and sinker. It worked. We need to die as people who believe that we are nothing in order for those who believe that they are everything to not be influenced by our limitations. To not be limited by our limitations. To not be influenced by our insecurities.

Yes. Because you are influenced. You are limited.

These kids have created their own music, my guy. Outside traditional musical codes. Outside.

They are grown-ass men who can't write lyrics for anything. And they're making millions from a vibe. Do you know what they created? They created a formation of a vibe.

They created a complex of energy. They still comply within the rules of blackness that we... We come from spirit. Wow.

And what they inherited from spirit was vibe. That's what they took from it. Just because they call it a certain thing doesn't mean it's not alive. It's there.

It's spirit manifesting. Yes. Expressing itself.

You need to shut the fuck up with your failed self in order for us to live. You failed multiple times. And now you are instilling that fear into us.

The actors can't be left behind. We have to take care of them. A new generation has to take over. We have to take care of them.

So that we can have a better future. You have to learn to do that. I don't know how to do that. I don't know how to do that. When I was a little girl, those experiences were so small.

Those experiences were so small. I was a little girl. Even in spirituality, it was these fake people who come through with these fake prophets and whatever not. And now you understand what it is that needs to be fixed.

Because these people have not only lived out of their own goodness and how great they are at what they're doing. No. They're living and they're living amongst us because of how much you have been able to ignore things.

And accept. And accept. You have committed yourself to being comfortable with being uncomfortable. We've made pain into pleasure. Thank you.

And you want to move on. Wow. Don't be. Long is the road, long is the road, long is the road ahead of me, long is the road before my feet, who will hold my hand and travel with me? Long is the road, silence is the only companion in these streets, for everybody stares but their eyes are loud in their silence, stabbing me with silent insults.

wondering why I walk alone. Take my hand and walk me to the end. It was a pleasure.

Poetry, art, life, expression. This is who you are. And you are saying to us, this is who we are we must die in order for new life to come we were we have always been patriots we've always been patriots we've always died for what we believe in it's happened from generation to generation it's time for the change it's time for the change It was a pleasure.

Thank you. And it is not normal to be normal. Our insanity is the one divine gift that the universe has bestowed upon us for us to express it. So let's express spirit and not limit it. Not cage it, not block it.

Yes. Magwand. Blessed love. Thank you.

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Healing, Identity, and Personal Growth Themes