well welcome back everybody I'm really excited today I'm looking forward to this interview I have with me Nathan Reynolds who I've been wanting this interview for so long Nathan I've been persistent and um he is going to share his story about really surviving and leaving his family bloodline Empire behind and what that looks like so thanks for coming on the show I want you to just take it away and share with the the listeners um your story thank you so much for having me on Amy it's been a wild journey to get to a place where I'm I'm even pursuing sharing my story there's I think when people start get exposed to survivors testimonies for those of you that don't uh know I'm a Survivor of a generational system that passes their children through radical intelligent evil and I say that specifically because it's not necessarily always the humans that are the intelligent side of the equation they tend to be the ones that are just most subtly beguiled into this that have been deceived into doing wickedness on the earth and the type of wickedness that I was raised in was a family of hypocrisy a family of duplicitousness where on one side they they ran their lives in a in a religious fashion Catholic and Christian fashion and and so on the surface we seem to be raised in a normal lower middle class Christian home but underneath the surface behind that there was a willingness to send or me myself my family members passed me into this underground world where ritualistic abuse and manipulation and destruction of children is the currency to play in their sporting Kingdom and so my family has this had this passionate desire to to pursue power and hold on to power even when it the cost for doing so was the lives of their children the innocence of their children and so I grew up in an area called Flagstaff Arizona and when I was young my family got coerced back into a world that that they had in some senses broken free from they became authentically devoted Believers and followers of the scriptures however the Temptation when you get thrown into total poverty when you get lose all of your access to friends and family and relationships the Temptation gets drawn in that if you just give us one of your children you can have access back to the to the phone book to to the directory of the phone numbers you can call and pick it up and and whatever you need is going to be provided for you so my family was willing to do that and the way that that happened is they would they would give me over like almost like a legal guardianship to my grandfather who's a fourth order Knights at Columbus a man who has devoted himself to walking in iniquity iniquity luck is a word that you hear in the scriptures and you're like what the heck does that mean it's like sin is trans aggression of the of the the Torah of the law but when you continue to to break that you get into the state of transgression which is like Rebellion you're just like parting yourself off and you're you're embracing that but iniquity is fully embracing the evil and what it literally does is it physiologically changes you at the DNA level it Alters your genetics it changes you epigenetically it means like the changes that happen within your you mentally emotionally spiritually sexually psychologically get passed on to your children to the third and fourth generations and what what that means is that people Embrace that and then they keep cultivating that in their children and my great grand my great grandfather on my dad's side and my grandfather on my mother's side or were both fully committed to that they have embraced this this path of darkness and they found by by walking in this iniquity that it's like a power source that they could plug into like a battery that would fuel their empire building and so he built an empire in a city called Lake Havasu City Arizona where they designed this city in the middle of the desert place where it's like literally on the boundary zones of where Death Valley really begins in Arizona and California it has the Colorado River coming there and they damned this up and they created a Party City for retirees they could have access to children on a regular basis to facilitate child sex crimes child exploitation rings and uh the individual who founded this a guy named Nicolock he literally stated that this was so that he could do mind control experiments MK experiments okay here in the desert it was a former United States military army army air base the Air Force didn't exist back during World War II was the Army Air Force Army air bases and this was an air base that was created out there in the desert so planes that were flying across the desert if they got in trouble they could stop there but he purchased this land and he purchased the London Bridge the literal London Bridge from Lake Havasu City in Lake Havasu City Arizona had it brought over from the Thames river in London and created a sovereign city-state for the city of London the city of London is not a part of England not a part of Great Britain just like Washington DC has the District of Columbia which is not part of the United States it's a sovereign territory of itself there's a third Empire City which is the Vatican which is in Rome but it's not Rome and so these are the three Sovereign city-states that really Empires that run the world they created a sovereign legal territory there Lake Havasu City Arizona so that they could have legal re no legal recourse whatsoever when people wanted to engage in child trafficking pedophilia incest and this a basement of children and that's why they utilized this building the London Bridge where they used to entomb Children sacrifice children and put them inside the walls of the building of the facade stones to hold the bridge up this is why this song the London Bridge is Falling Down is falling down falling oh my God that's why that song had that nursery rhyme has been programmed into generations of people yeah that is literally all about why we have to be willing to give our children over to the system and so that we can hold up the Empire right we're willing to sacrifice their children they're willing to do anything for the government that they serve it shows true slavery that you're in total bondage and you're willing to give your children over to them and so I know this is a big stretch for some people to understand but it's been happening from the beginning of time that this this iniquity this this power source for the kingdom of Darkness Darkness and Sears people's consciences off so they cannot even hear the truth or see the truth they get blinded and beguiled and they're willing to go to such an extent to to pervert their children and this is what I was born into and what we'll be talking about today is literally the process of what it took to kind of snatch me out of those those fiery flames of Darkness love it wow wow I mean such a story let me ask you a couple questions Knights of Columbus is that a secret society can you kind of explain what that is is that like a Brotherhood or yes so the Knights of Columbus is what the the pope has called like his right hand the the second hand of the Pope would be the Jesuits this would be like the black magic the black money people that are willing to do all kinds of radical intelligent evil open face so and the Knights of Columbus however is the largest fraternal organization Brotherhood that exists in the world and it is set up as in in couch to some it's a secret order as in you can't just walk in there you cannot join it you know you can't join it you can't go in there and film all their activities technically you can't go in there and participate it in unless you are brought into the system so yes it's a close Society a secret society okay opposed that they swear that the allegiances that they swear supersede that of the governments or the the nationalities or the Clauses that they have here so if you're a member of the United States military and you swear a secrecy Clause your oath that you swear for the Knights of Columbus supersedes that which is why the greatest tragedy that ever occurred in the United States is allowing people that swear these other Oaths to hold any positions of power governing or authority anybody that swears these O's like free Masonic societies are people that are Daughters of the Eastern Star they swear these O's and they are literally swearing to protect other brothers or other sisters in these organizations even in in fact of willing to pervert the laws of Justice to cover up crimes for their brothers or sisters and so this is what the Knights of Columbus operates as they kind of couch it as an insurance group like almost like a network marketing version of an insurance agency that we kind of protect each other and help each other out and and so most people that are brought into the first order the second order that's kind of the experience that they get but the always they swear are seriously corrupt and yeah and what happens is within the Knights of Columbus you have a giant finders group that operates within there that looks for people that are willing to compromise because compromise is the currency of the kingdom of darkness yeah people to compromise on the little things what you can do is is wage what's called a Fabian War which is like people have heard this maybe this phrase Fabian socialist society this idea comes from one of the generals of Rome that was trying to fight and contend against Africans that were coming in and invading the Roman Empire and trying to control the Mediterranean and they were losing these wars and so they wanted some way to fight back in this guy fade discovered that that didn't discover he utilized the tactic of a war of attrition meaning you you don't ever engage in massive direct battle because you're gonna lose so instead he waged he destroyed Supply chains he would disrupt their little Communications tactics he would come in and destroy their army when they're in Camp over here but he wouldn't ever get in that direct conflict and he just slowly picked at them you know it's like death by a Thousand Cuts is a way of saying it another way that you could come in and just slowly continually harass and and wage a guerrilla war against your enemy that's a Fabian these people literally like the Fabian Society over in London they have for their logo is the wolf in sheep's clothing and this is like the idea that they're willing to put on a cloak of Innocence but underneath the surface they're slowly devouring the flock and that's really what the Knights of Columbus was set up to do so that as they find people who are willing to compromise we can recruit them and bring them into a different set of rules a different set of order so that they can be the handlers over these other brothers whereas these ones are kind of the innocent blinded ones now we use to enact our will right wow and you think about it you mentioned the finders is that associated with the finders cult that was exposed in government documents that was an underground pedophile ring or is that just what you you labeled it as so that the finder's cult that was exposed I wouldn't back in the 1960s yeah early 70s yeah that that is an as a textbook example of the type of thing that I'm describing but when I'm using the word finders to describe is people whose job it is they'd be like your recruiters if you're a corporate a corporation you'd have your recruiters whose job it is or Headhunters they call them in business who go around and find people with specific talents to fill positions that are needed within the network or the family those are what I mean by finders Club they exist within many of these open Societies or closed societies so you've got finders when you go into the United States Army go into the air force you have finders that are in positions of power and authority within there at various ranks and levels to find people that would be able to fit into this role that they could use for this is like how the CIA recruits spies yeah their spies and how they make people double agents it's a way of manipulating people and braying on their innate talents and abilities just to use them wow wow it's so organized and and you know I mean when you think about it it's like all these different levels of organization that they've had had to do to recruit and all these sorts of things it's it's fascinating one more question before you move on um and and maybe this is an obvious question but maybe you can help explain a little bit to our listeners is why the children is it just for experimentation is it kind of this idea of passing the children through the fire like we read about in the Old Testament what is this fascination with the children the Innocence so there's two two main components to it okay there is no one really fully matures in this life like this is super transparent okay yeah but what happens is over the course of life we change we change physiologically from a form of biological innocence like you said we we can be highly impressionable early on in life it's like the clay that can be easily molded versus the clay that's been fire hardened and turned into Ceramics and this is what adults become if any of you have tried to come and bring this kind of information to people and they're so hard into it that they cannot even hear it they cannot even listen to it it's because they physiologically have lost what's called neuroplasticity their brains and their ability to take in new information have been so conditioned in in a way of a pattern of thinking that they cannot bring entertain an idea at the same time hold it in their head and then analyze the information that you're bringing to them and then make a decision on it it's like in the scriptures they say it a better way which is that he who decides a matter before he hears it out as a fool okay it just calls you a fool yeah what they've designed a society of fools people that have have no capacity to think logically to use understand how logic grammar and rhetoric are utilized to wage this war against them instead they just listen to people that are sophist people that are sophisticated people that use rhetoric to design arguments that leads people away from the truth and but Engineers a society that is in their image and conforms to their desires and so children have this innate ability to be manipulated on in on in an evil side of it to be God beguiled and and tricked and very very easily you can trick a six and seven year old into thinking things that are happening around them have a have a more imaginary uh theatrical experience than they really do you can beguile them much more easily and on the physical side or sorry on the spiritual side of things their innocence is a pure form of power they're they have a a spiritual power that is much more pure if you wanted to file it and this is what you see from the beginning when when Abel's blood was spilled when the first person's blood was spilled on the earth it Cried Out forever day and night that this bloody it says the Earth opened its mouth to receive his blood and that blood cried out and every innocent blood that has ever been spilled on this Earth is always crying out demanding Justice it cries out but requiring Justice to come now the kingdom of darkness has used that that as the greatest power source like uh one of their their grand magicians uh a guy by the name of aliaster Crowley wrote in his version of the Bible this beastly Bible that the purest form of sacrifice is a is a boy blonde hair blue-eyed boy under the age of nine years old this is the best to use and abuse in this form of of bestiality I mean it's truly to worship this beast and get this power source from him and so the Innocence that children have is is so critical to be guarded and protected it's the it's the antithesis this kingdom is the antithesis of that which the chief Shepherd Yeshua or Messiah he he has this guardianship this desire to guard his flock that no one can snatch him out of his hand that the father says he can write our names in his hand and no one can take them from him and so he is a Fierce and fiery protective father that's what we are supposed to be like we're supposed to have a society of men who are men who fiercely guard and protect their children and the Innocence around them so that they know that that's a House of Refuge that those people look after people that they do not use people and abuse them and just throw them away but they we have engineered a society that takes our children at the earliest times of their life and give them away to other people to raise them shove them in daycare shove them in kindergarten shove them in preschool shove them in all of these Sports and train you hand your children off over and over and over you give them away this is how you give them your power because our children are supposed to be raised up in the image of righteousness they're supposed to be raised up to no morality to know how to do life skills and instead we put them in a system to intentionally dumb them down and make them good servants of this Beast yeah wow you explain it so well and I love it because you're defining these things in a way that makes it understandable and you know and and it seems like what you're saying is you know there is a physical aspect to it right it's the blood is shed the but there's also this spiritual aspect to it and I think that that's a real big part of your story as well that you're going to share with us is this spiritual component of what's going on here these familiar spirits these principalities that are working through these people so continue on we want to hear more of your story so what one of those physical properties that why children are utilized so heavily is that when they go through trauma States when they go through experiences of very high emotional emotional highs or emotional lows they produce physiologically higher concentrations of things like norepinephrine and and different hormones that are that are produced in the body secretions from the thalamus the hypothalamus the amygdala that gets secreted into the bloodstream and literally this is what during these rituals or these trauma States where people are abusing children or making them skipping them banging loud instruments around their ears scaring them when they they literally Ivy pick them and draw the blood the serum out of them or they hook it into their cerebral spinal system or their kidneys or their liver they start to extract these physiological compounds so that they can create products they spin these out and synthesize out of them different compounds that people use to genuinely pharmaceutically hacked their way to the the guard back to the Garden of Eden they want to drink from the cup of immortality and they found by consuming human blood which is what it really is even if you break it down into these compounds and people don't think that's blood that they're drinking they're using these these compounds from human beings so that they can stay awake a long time have better memory reverse the effects of Aging like this is why they use human baby foreskins to create Beauty projects anti-aging creams like this isn't like some far out thing y'all right it's just because we lack the ability to read and comprehend what we're reading like the the greatest mind control that ever got persuaded against us is to teach people how to read but not to teach them how to understand what they're reading and use what they learn to engage others in conversations that's by Design because they've written this stuff out plainly it's been out and and it's by by requirement of the kingdom of righteousness they have to publish their methods they have to expose themselves they can't stay in the secret because nothing is hidden that won't be brought to the light and so they're in in Lake Havasu City Arizona my grandfather was somebody who was a great facilitator of this he was really good at fracturing and causing children to shatter he liked to drown like he would drown me in the tub and then wait until I was deceased and then bring me up and resuscitate me what happens is you dissociate you split your mind when you when you die or when you go unconscious like that and when you come back to life you think this person saved your life and so you bond to that person you could go from being terrified and scared of them to that person then becomes kind of your savior yeah this side of you that bonds to them and is like I love you you help me you protect me and you create this very artificial bonding to them and then you'll do anything for that person because you want to help them you want to please them and so he would then take me around and and have me participate in pedophilia being raped and sodomized by other members within the Brotherhood who then he would film and document so he could blackmail those people and control them later on as they got into positions of power or in jobs and business deals or any other time and there was a facility that they had called Oasis down there in Lake Havasu City where they would do this at they would take boys there it was like a swimming play place and you know guys could get naked with baby boys and young men and they could all do whatever they wanted back there and they had a little area underneath there where they would literally extract this stuff out of the children and sell it like a product it's cattle product and distribute it out to Las Vegas and Orange County and out into Phoenix and it was the Distribution Hub for the human products of this Empire wow that is I mean you're right it's it's almost like hurts your mind to even think that this stuff is happening but it literally is in plain sight it's just are we do we have the eyes to see in the ears to hear right like are we looking at this and critically saying hey this isn't conspiracy theory this is really happening and you're sitting here telling us that it has happened and so really what you're saying is this kind of what Society has been calling this adrenochrome is that that similar name well people I think it's just become kind of a popularized term to disrupt yeah yes these adrenal compounds that are being used likewise you know some of them are more silvery like it looks like almost like a silvery ink that comes out in different extracts but yes this is I've witnessed with my eyes people that drink these compounds and they're it looks like they lose years off their life the wrinkles go away they look like the Fountain of Youth and I believe this is why the Cosmetic industry exists you know is to beguile people into changing the physical natural state and appearance and to try to remove the consequences of doing terrible things to your body and not treating yourself well not eating the way you're supposed to not living the way you're supposed to like it literally it says in the scripture like when when we walk in ways that are pleasing before him like he makes our enemies to be at peace with us like when we have stress and tension and anxiety and duplicitousness in our soul it literally shows up in our physical body our body demonstrates what's going on in the inside our skin is the biggest organ of our body so when you see this toxic exposure on people's skin is because that's what that is the last line of defense supposed to be the first line of defense but now their body is literally trying to get rid of it out through their very skin and so this is like trying to circumnavigate the consequences of their sin of their curses of their their reaping what they sowed and they're trying to then cover it up because now they have the power and they have the wealth and they have the control but then they're losing their life which is what you get from the kingdom of darkness the enemy is a liar and the father of lies and so when you embrace one what he gives you is what you think is truth and then you reap at the end of it death which is all you get in that Kingdom then they try to hold on to power as opposed to surrendering it confessing their freed from that and coming and living in a way of contrary to that and being set free they choose to hold on to their bondage right wow that's I always wondered why some of these kind of politicians and Royals and stuff always lived for so long you know you think they're like 98 years old and they're still alive jumping out of airplanes the heck is going on um you talked about disassociation you know and I know in your book you call it the fade right and and actually it is a blessing in some sense because it allows you to cope with the trauma that's going on um can you share a little bit about what this fade is like when when you disassociate yeah for those of you who don't know what we're talking about dissociation is a capacity that human beings have to separate themselves from a situation that's going on you have you have on one side of it normal dissociation which almost everybody in the world will experience at some point in their life when you're doing tasks that are so ordinary that you do them all the time your brain kind of goes on autopilot like like there's literally something called driver dissociation where people drive down the highway and you you've driven this way back and forth to your house and back to work every time every day for many months or years you get to a place where you can do it on autopilot and that autopilot system is where your body is physically doing a very complex test driving is super complex go back to the day you were first time ever sitting in a car and trying to learn how to drive remember how much mental resources it took to try to learn how to drive and try to pay attention but then you get to a place where you've done it so long that it's literally been physically hardwired into your body to be able to do that people will if they've ever driven home and they suddenly remember like wake up almost in their driveway like wow I wasn't really paying attention that's that's dissociation on a normal scale what happens when somebody is going through severe ongoing Perpetual trauma or experiences that are so brutal especially before the ages of seven years old and earlier in those ages of Innocence your brain can compartmentalize fracture itself off so that the trauma the trauma that's happening physiologically to your body that you can't fight back against or you can't run away from you can't engage fight or flight so that you instead go inside you you shatter internally you separate yourself internally like I described it as the fade it's like almost you're losing Consciousness you're you're choosing in a sense or you're not necessarily choosing you're you're giving up mentally being present in this moment and you just let your body have to go through that and when you do that it creates something that neurologically they call them trauma pockets it's like an area within the brain that holds that pain this is why people that go into car accidents their body physically went through the entire event but last time that a lot of times I'll be like the last thing I remember was starting to hit the tree and then I woke up in the hospital okay even if they were awake and screaming in the car and crying out on the side of the road they went through all these experiences not that they're unconscious the entire time but their body has locked up that trauma and set it over here until you're in a time in a place where it's safe enough then you're you're no longer in that trauma state to then process it and so they've taken us that physiological gift from from the father yeah to help his children endure trauma and they've they've signed scientifically mastered a way of using it to create mind-controlled slaves people that are willing to do things that that do things without their conscious understanding of it this is why hypnotists are brought in this is why people that that understand the power of persuasion and understand how to manipulate people are brought in to shatter the mind and then control what what comes out of it which is like an altered personality a personality that's not the normal mindset and and way of living as the original host as the main presenting personality so dissociation becomes this weapon that's used in the kingdom of darkness to try to create undetectable mind-controlled slaves people that are willing to traffic drugs traffic traffic humans Slaughter like I got into the violent side of it I traffic stuff around for my family because it's easy to hide stuff in children's backpack and nobody police generally don't search their child about little child's backpack when they're walking with with whoever and so I would have to carry all this stuff around with me all the time or be driving back and forth and that's they're the mules and then at the same time they're also the ones that become sex slaves and I got really into Revenge so I wanted to murder I wanted to kill people I wanted to kill the bad guys and if they could just convince me that somebody was bad I went after him and I wanted to slaughter them all yeah so that's how I got caught up in that world but dissociation for me was really just like like I described it it's almost like the aperture of the the shutter of the the lens is just slowly closing around you and you're you're just completely putting the the rest of reality away and you're talking it back into that other Corner Room that you've created to be like I'm not gonna look at that I don't even want to do with that it's kind of like ostrich syndrome that most people have when they get exposed to this information they've seen it they've heard it now they're accountable and instead of dealing with it they just choose to be cowards instead and shove it over here and it's not to say that the child's being a coward when they're running away and fading But ultimately they just don't have the power and the capacity to fight back but once they do now they have to deal with that crap that got put in them throughout the earlier years of their life and it can come in and flood them over and Destroy them mentally emotionally and spiritually and just shatter and destroy their lives at times so it takes major intentional structured protective measures to help somebody deal with those traumas that's why I spent 10 years in the field of psychology trying to help myself learn how to get healed and help others be able to process that information but I ultimately found in the secular psychology world just a world of serpents man it was just another world of of propaganda that was being used to beguile people and get them into a different system and this is why I'm so passionate about the living authentically the way that the word says because the only thing I found and tested throughout my life to be consistently true always was the scriptures and I'm not talking necessarily about the translation I'm holding here I'm talking about the authenticity of what this word contains and that it is a living book that has reformatted my identity into the image of my Creator who I was designed to be he has given me the hardware system and this book is the software to rewrite the horrible programming they put into me yeah wow you explain it so well you have a gift of just just really teaching you know and I think so many people need to hear this because you're right we need we can't shut this out this is a Common Thread that is throughout the world that it's going on right now and so let me ask you this when and I know there was you know under project paper clip a lot of these Nazi scientists came over like mangala it was doing experiments over there and on the Twins and stuff but where did where do these people learn this like where did your grandfather from from that or does this go way back to like Antiquity you know like the ancient mystery religions like how did they how did they figure this out my grandfather was in Poland during that time and took a lot of that information a lot of that that that the content of that the human experimentation programs which is really what war gives a lot of people freedom to do during prisoner and you you get access to a lot of human experimentation the Nazis just did not have the the computing power to take all of the the records and the information they they had and consolidate it and collate it and codify it so that they could distribute it out and use it effectively so when the when the war was being lost the scientific Community where it's grabbing up the the data physical data and they were using that as bargaining chips when they were trying to flee and get out so they would flee out through different countries some of them went over to the Soviet Union Soviet Union swallowed up huge quantities of them but there was a massive race for the information and so the scientific Community got a lot of Pardons they got a lot of passes and the way that they did that is with their documents and so the most valuable and coveted of that research was the military records on the side of like their their rocket programs and their Advanced propulsion systems and their meta materials teams like a lot of that the technology side of it but then the other was the the research that they found by by doing all of these horrible atrocities to human beings in the concentration camps that was where so much of this data the physical data got hacked into by going by normal people that weren't raised in the old religions they hacked into the information by experimenting on human do a lot of things like putting people in in ice chest to see how long it would take them to get Frozen and stop their hearts okay so that they died and then how we could bring them back to life right they did things like there's it was a lot more than just gassing people I know that's like the pain talked about side of it but the majority of it was the torture and the experimentation programs especially with things like twins people that were twins went through some of the worst things pregnant women people that uh people that had any type of major abnormalities that they were looking for that they could use to to do a control group and a an active group to write their research on so Mike that's where my grandfather really got a lot of that information and he mixed that with a lot of the uh old religion of the the the Jesuits and the Knights when the Knights of Columbus also utilize now but that's where those kind of got yoked in and while you see this kind of mixing between those two groups in a high proportion but if you want you want to go origin stories you do have to study the the kingdom of Cain and you have to study like I call them Enoch the evil Enoch was the the second the firstborn son of Cain and so you'll see this this like there's this genealogy that breaks out in the scriptures from the sons of Adam and and they literally have almost the same names it goes to the sons of Kings to the sons of Seth and they have almost the same names and what happens is there's there's this Enoch the evil who literally became kind of the first Grand wizard over this kingdom of darkness and that's because once like I talked about that iniquity that took place in Kane Kane was worn specifically by yahuwah to listen sin is crouching at your door cane he's like your countenance has fallen okay that's like despair if you ever felt devastated about something that you've done in your life and it fell short and you realize like like his brother got the the the Adoration and the reverence the the he saw his brother get praised in a way that he did not and he looked and he he harbored envy and jealousy okay that's really where this this conception begins when you start with unforgiveness in your soul it leads to these like seven other spirits that are worse than it that come in ultimately leading you to murder you start with this unforgiveness which he had towards his brother yeah remember this unforgiveness towards him that he got something he didn't get and he was unforgiving of it okay then he had this like jealousy in this envy and then it's just like anger that began to build up in him and this is when you see the word of yah came to him and was like listen sin is crouching out your door like its desire is to rule you right and like there's literally this door right here I'm sitting next to you and it's like he's like trying to explain to you that there is a 10-foot lion that weighs 800 pounds that has devoured every single thing it's ever said it's credit for a gaison it is right there on the other side of that door it's right there as long as you keep that door closed it has no power to come in but if you open the door if you you if you open the door it will rule you devoured you and this is what happens every one of us gets faced with these opportunities in our life where we have to choose do we let the Devourer and the ravager in right or do we keep the door closed and do we deny it access to our lives forever okay he he opened the door and he let rage and wrath come in and murder and hatred and it just consumed him and struck his brother down he killed him and Spilled the blood and when he did that he willfully gave himself over to this and he suffered the curse the consequences of it and those consequences those curses got passed on to his children those he chose to he didn't choose to walk in obedience to the curses in order he said you're gonna go wander about two and four in the earth he's like you're gonna go be a Wanderer in the earth and instead he actually went and stopped and he made a city for his son Enoch and that was just like an act of rebellion like I'm not gonna go wander I'm not gonna go spread out I'm gonna gather together power and control over people so they do all the work and serve me and this is where Enoch the evil started the miss history religions we call it the old religion yeah so anytime you're dealing with these people like one of the better books to analyze this is the shinar directive okay this is a great breakdown of it Dr Michael Lake um from Kingdom intelligence briefing wrote this book the shinar directive he does a fantastic job of breaking this down from a much more I don't know systemic uh scholarly style he's a passionate fiery man of he's a ferocious man of yah but he's also a scholar so he's for all you people that need all your scholarly style of life I like to read their stuff I just I'm not that guy but he got down in a much more uh consistent and logical way that would help some of you they're trying to understand where did this come from but people took this information this way of dialing the kingdom of darkness his phone numbers and being able to hack into the kingdom of darkness so that they could fuel up their Kingdom and control people as opposed to a Shepherd which doesn't control the flock a Shepherd doesn't control the flock you could try to control a flock you're gonna get a totally different kind of thing you can't control them you can try you have an illusion of control but if ever the flock really determines up in their hearts that they're like they're gonna rise up and none of that they will totally overpower you like I've had I've had goats completely knock knock me on my rear end like goats can team up together and be stiff-necked and rebellious like we had I had a fence when I was a Shepherd that was put on backwards and so if the goats pushed on it together they would just completely collapse the fence yeah but if one or two of them pushed on it it was never a big deal but sometimes there was one ringleader his name was Gandalf and he was totally possessed by demons I know people are like what yeah no animals can be possessed by demons look at the pigs in the gatherine yeah they're super demonic y'all I love goats at the same time I want to kill them all because they're ridiculously creepy sometimes and this goat would literally get the rest of the flock together and he would go and attack the fence and he would just get everyone to get a break out like that and this is the flock can turn on a shepherd and do this to you but if you're a domineering person and want to control everyone you need the system with which to give to keep them in line and this is why this old religion works this is why people have been consistently patterning themselves and their children into the system and it's like why the the divine right of kings to rule is because they have power through this information this gnosis this is like the All-Seeing Eye that they're they believe the dragon has given them the look into the future and has shown them the way to to follow this path and how they can control the power and the wealth we can sit at the top of the pyramid and see all four sides of the pyramid whereas everybody else sits down there can only see one side of it at any given time but once you're at the top you're like oh I get to see how everything works and I am my own God right this is the illusion of biting into the Serpent's Doctrine and so that version that we now see today playing out comes from these mystery religions it's always been there but it was scattered at the Tower of Babel when he confused the languages so so much of what we're seeing today is trying to assimilate that information to get everybody back in one tribe and one tongue and one people in one mind so they can do what they tried to do there which was to literally make a war with the son of Elohim they want to wage war with him and take over his kingdom because they have it in their hearts to Rebel that's literally what like Nimrod is he's like the rebel and they're just gonna raise him up again and they say try to make these rituals like The Scorch Trials the Apollo trials like this is what my grandfather and these these magicians were trying to make these their sons do is pass through these horrible tortures and so that out of them could be possessed this godhead and that they could then raise up gods in their own image wow and so there's literal demonic entities involved in this being passed down absolutely yeah this is why the sins of a father can get passed down they make up all this garbage they call it epigenetics and science where they're like yeah alcoholism we're looking for that yes it turns this on it's a bunch of nonsense what they don't understand is that they've been beguiled to not even understand the basic fundamentals of how humans and humans are Spirit soul and body and if you don't understand the tripartite nature of man you have no capacity to understand how these Spirits are what you're dealing with like there is no such thing as epilepsy I know that's a word we use to describe a seizure disorder what we call it it's very clear from the scriptures Yeshua cast out that Spirit of epilepsy that through that little that Spirit wanted to throw him into fire and wanted to throw them into water wanted to torture them wanted to kill them wanted to torment their parents I mean if you're a parent of somebody who has epilepsy it is it is so frustrating we lived at that farm where those goats were their son would get these seizures and and it was my my daughter at the time was she was three years old and I had an eight month old and they they would see their son John Mark go through through these seizures and their brothers and sisters they grew up in that they grew not growing up seeing it but to people that have not seen people go into seizures it's extremely terrifying I mean it's terrifying it's terrifying and it terrorizes people it's it interrupts everybody's day it interrupts everything that's going on and sometimes there will be two or three or four or eight or Twenty a day like it's just it's crippling people and what it causes is this just anguish of Soul this torment within and this is what these Spirits feed on yeah their fuel is those negative emotions it's that it's that fear it's that anger it's that rage it's that doubt it's that despair it's that hopelessness it's that lust that is literally their food because they can't eat it's like they're starving it says they're the disembodied spirits of the Nephilim the Nephilim or the The Offspring of the Fallen Watchers the sons of Elohim that rebelled if you read them in Genesis 6 they came down and taught men and women sorcery divination they taught them this ancient secrets of Heaven yeah they beguiled them and they mix their seed their physiological seed in the seed of the serpent into the bloodline of mankind and raised up this Offspring called Giants that the Nephilim and they were the ones who their spirit and was corrupted in Heavenly spirit and a Earthly spirit and so they were not allowed to be judged the same way so they literally were cursed to be restless spirits on the earth having hunger but unable to satisfy themselves having thirst but being unable to quench themselves so that's why they enact these lusts through human skin suits so that they can still interact and engage in this stuff which is why when true Authority shows up and binds them and casts them out there is a cessation of that it stops and deliverance is authored this is why Yeshua spoke a word and cast that out of something out of a human being and freed a family from torture from the anguish this is why this this DSM-5 this these all these mental disorders are being described their their lies they make this up so they can facilitate a model to to govern the pharmaceutical industry to prop up an industry of death they utilize this Bible of their Diagnostic and statistic manual to try to do this they make up these diseases so that they can control people in a totally different way but if you authorize truth in people if you show them that this stuff can they can have healing no matter what you're physically going through there is a spiritual route to every disease that you are encountering on the Earth I I agree with that I really do and I think a lot of people in America and I know we're kind of digressing off their story but I think this is really important that you brought this up because a lot of people in America specifically don't really understand that they they see the extremes of what they see you know Deliverance as and then they they don't comprehend it but you go to different cultures different places around the world this is steeped in their in their culture they get it that these demonic principalities these demons they're real and so I love that you described all this how it's associated with big Pharma pharmacia all of that stuff I mean we we negate the spiritual and we always just focus on the physical and to your point we we are made of three parts and so we cannot negate these other parts of who we are and how God designed us so I love what you're saying it's so good I mean I could probably talk to you for hours just fascinating wealth of information and so okay going back to back to Havasu back to Growing Up describe to me kind of that transition your your young boy you're going to these places you're being you know ushered around and handled by your grandfather move us through the rest of that into the military aspect as well because I know you went into the military for some time as well well yes so yeah military it's really got started there in in Lake Havasu because the the Jesuits like I said earlier the militant arm of the Pope and and they are people that have have guarded the secrets of of the the Assassins the hashash scenes or the zealots like you read about in the scripture to talk about Judas Iscariot it's just the Zealot that's literally the word that you get they were assassins there's people that that see evil whatever form of it they see evil and they want to stop it physically and so they get trained up in the Arts of death and this is literally back to the ways it came because he's the first murderer so when you really want to study martial arts all there is no martial arts that's not connected to that there really isn't if every single one you dig into the origins of every single martial arts combative systems that exist on the earth I've yet to find a single one that does not have at its Origins the ways it came and so this this this Kingdom takes people who have those predilections like I I had an aptitudes for being able to learn and retain information and replicate it quickly and so if they showed me hey this is how this is how you stab somebody in their left ventricle with this needle and when you do that it's going to inject something potassium in such a high concentration it's going to cause a heart attack okay then this way it makes it look like oh they just died of natural causes right basically they teach you how to Suicide People on a regular basis in all kinds of different forms and Fashions and you go to a place that has access to a lot of bodies so this is why the universities and the education systems get brought in you get taken to the cadaver Labs where you get a practice stabbing and killing people they had in Lake Havasu City they're under Oasis they had a lot of bodies that you could physically train on and learn how to learn how to kill somebody in under two seconds because that was kind of the whole name of the games you just got to learn how to kill people super fast and when you're a child you have to learn how to do that from different methods than somebody who is a grown adult and so they have different forms of combatic training systems and they use a lot of Filipino martial arts like and things like Salat in order to do that people that are smaller and shorter of stature and traditionally women who are used as bodyguards in places like harems or brothels and they this is what a lot of times a Unix job was in in a palace or in a Kings guard is that he was a trained Guardian for or the husband's wives and so they physically castrate that I couldn't have children and I could have access to a lot of these other kind of wealthy and influential people's families and their children and I could be around them without necessarily passing on my seed to any of them and so I got raised up in this kind of militant Vengeance cycle where I wanted to go out and hunt and and Slaughter these people for them and with with the the thought in my mind that I am I am finally getting to fight back I'm no longer trapped in these people's brothels I'm not I'm not their sex slave anymore that I'm finally a hero and it gave me a sense of justice it gave me a sense of of I have a purpose and this is generally what happens after they've conditioned the child through a lot of this mind control early on that they then let them Express their talents but only in an arena that they choose to so some of them get funneled into the music industry some of them get funneled into the finance industry in real estate into politics into governments into scientific communities they then get facilitated into them they take what could be child prodigies and they instead control them and warp them into an image that facilitates the family or the Network's needs and desires and so I I kind of got geared up to basically be a slave within the military industrial complex that I could go in and infiltrate it and take the the power and the information and the classified information and feed it back to the family yeah and compromise people within that system and control them so that they could then become parts of the Brotherhood right and so I ended up like there was our there was a handle over my family's name was Richard and he he was a dentist and so he had access to a lot of these these physiological body altering drugs that he would use to do a lot of this programming with and to do a lot of this fracturing with so this is why dentist office is man are just so readily used veterinarians and dentists tend to be some of the most recruited people within the network and the families because they have access to drugs and and a facility where they can do a lot of these practices at wow and the I got eventually brought into the United States Army but predominantly the majority of my family is working with in the military was all through the United States Air Force so they relocated us from the white mounds of Arizona to a town called Colorado Springs Colorado and it was so that they could have access to the United States Air Force Academy United States Air Force Academy is where they train you know their upper Cadre of officers to be part of the United States Air Force and in within there they have some of the highest neural reprogramming Linguistics Department that exists anywhere in the world and that's where they bring in people to become a lot of these uh agents of evil within their Kingdom and so that's where I really got hooked into the United States military was there and that Norad um which is in Cheyenne Mountain Colorado I had a lieutenant colonel that was their uh Lieutenant Colonel Weaver that his job was was over space command kind of projects there at NORAD and between those two guys they got me uh High clearances within the United States Army to get enlisted and emancipated the United States government at 17 years old it's a junior in high school I got shipped off to Fort Knox Kentucky and got brought into what I thought was finally the Heroes game I finally yeah I was going to be a soldier that got ribbons for the work that I did that I would get Awards I just wanted a lot of medals on my chest and I wanted to die basically at that point in my life I just wanted to die a hero's death because I was so miserable and I was so tired of everybody being Liars that I would always find the skeletons in people's closets it's like a custom Peter to find the health in everybody's closet and once I find it I want to scream it from the rooftops I want to make sure every person on the face of the Earth knows that that person's a monster and I am very very passionate about what I do and when I find that I want to burn it to the ground and so they're like you betcha come on in with us and we'll give you a license to Kill and we'll give you an entire team an package behind you and you can go and hunt and kill with us and so I got brought into these agent orange and these other teams that that operate within like the Special Forces but real special forces guys generally don't look like anything part of it they get put into basic supply chain units they get put into mechanic shops they get put into the units so that they can then identify other people and recruit them and bring them in or they can do spy Espionage and other stuff so they have access within the supply chain the entire United States military that's what I got put into and I I went on a rampage within that system thinking that I was finally the heroes here hero of Heroes you know we worship our soldiers like they're Gods in our society and even though they're really just they're slaves in a tone different system fighting for what they think is freedom meanwhile they're the the literal embodiment of evil there's so many millions of people billions of people all over the world turn around and look at us like we're the tyrants and we're like why don't you guys understand we're here to help you we just killed a million of your civilians don't you know we're here to set you free yeah destroyed everything you destroyed our water our infrastructure our Power Systems our sewage systems you eradicated our entire country like no you're not doing that but we get beguiled because we believe the propaganda systems that that Stern that stir us up to try to go be heroes and we're like we're fighting the bad guys meanwhile we understand that we are work we're merchants of death one of the best books you all can read if any of you have the passion or the desire to be a soldier is um Butler who's the highest decorated Marine in the history of the United States a general in the Marines from World War one he literally wrote uh war is a racket it's like a 50-minute audiobook if you want to listen to an audiobook for free on YouTube it's called war is a racket and here's a guy at the end of his life being like you know what I did I was literally a mercenary For Hire I worked for corporations to conquer kingdoms to destroy Nations I slaughtered for them and they were too willing unwilling to send their own Sons or send themselves so they send people that they've beguiled into the system and here he's reflecting on all the evil that he did in the name of freedom and defending the Constitution and realizing that all I've done is make a banana republics in in Central America so that the fruit companies could come in and this is why you can get a banana for 1.35 you're like why is a banana so cheap by Design because the United States entire military industrial complex waged Wars and took over countries so that you could have your cheap bananas and they could make billions of dollars like there's a documentary here called the banana Wars which is excellent to help you learn about that as well but this is the system of evil and I started seeing that with him the United States military and I started seeing that I'm just another Pawn in the game that I'm so tired of not actually being a part of a system of True Justice like I really wanted to be around the righteous and I kept looking for them in the wrong places I kept looking for them in the wrong seats of power I kept looking at it sooner or later I'm going to find the people that actually do right they don't do wickedness like they they actually do right like they would send us in to infiltrate a pedophile ring okay for example like in Alexandria Virginia there was a huge pedophile ring that we were investigating and we got we got assigned to this guy named they called him blue ancient blue and he was a guy who was a very well-known human trafficker who'd like to skin his victims alive and put on their their skin and then and then sexually abuse them this was like his thing that he was into and so they had a big house there a big estate there in Alexandria Virginia where that's what they did and and he was known for doing this and he had access to a lot of children and a lot of wealth and so he was continually doing this kind of behavior and I got sent in to capture him and bring him out okay as I went into that place and and saw these activities there was a there was a house full of people doing the same exact thing but I got sent in after one guy and the only reason I went in there to get that guy is because somebody else had paid a huge amount of money so that we could knock him off the power play so like we capture him take him out torture him and extract the information for him and kill him and you know what they put their next agent into his place oh my God they now have their plant within this within the the ring and they're like yeah this is so that we can right it's the next ring and it's just a constant dog eat dog wolf devouring wolf serpent-seeding serpents and I realized at the end of this this is never gonna stop as long as I keep trying to work within this system because this is insanity I'm doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result I am disillusioned I am utterly despairing and so I rebelled against a direct order I it was like I turned and bit the hand of the the guy who'd been holding my leash for way too long I devoured my handlers and it they shut me down so fast they eradicated they blotted me out of the United States military in a matter of months I was completely out of my mind cut off from everything they literally came back and I got honorably medically discharged from the United States military but they came back and took my signing bonus this is one of those things that you don't hear on the TV that you will not hear in your next James Cameron's big Mega Movie they're like oh yeah we got all the United States militaries doing these movies with us and they're so helping us as long as you sign an agreement in Hollywood that you don't ever talk about these things I'm about to say which shows United States soldiers killing United States soldiers which happens all the time I went and killed soldiers in the United States military I killed people in the United States citizens here in the United States on a regular basis you can't talk about that stuff in your movies they can't show you that in your true story of the Navy Seals that there's a lot of those Navy Seals when you read their books they go and kill each other and they've realized wow I thought I was going after a bad guy and found out that this is one of my teammates from 10 years ago and he's on undercover Mission they're telling me I got to kill him because he found out too much you know you get tired of this stuff and this is why I was just enraged in and they literally come back if you don't fulfill your contract and they sue you for your signing bonus like I had a 20 000 signing bonus for the military they came back and took that from me when when I got married they're like oh yeah we're gonna come back you're gonna have to pay us all that money back like so there's this horrible things you get wounded in combat they're gonna come back take your money back it's a filthy disgusting industry and it's by Design because the kingdom that they worship like the highest ranking award that you can get in the United States Army in the United States military is the Congressional Medal of Honor which has pentagrams all over and the goddess of astrock Liberty the goddess is on it and it's like this just this entire system of a free Masonic cult there's a video on my channel which is called um land of the free and home of the slaves where I talk more about it and I show you the iconography the symbols that they use to communicate why this country has wholly been given over to these secret societies that really we are enacting the the wills of this this Empire of evil and so many don't even know Nathan oh my gosh this is just mind-blowing to me um kind of going back I have a couple questions so were you essentially like a Delta is that what you would call it in mind control it was like a Delta program like Assassin programming yeah so okay reason yeah so the word Delta that she's talking about comes from the there's different names that are ascribed to different personalities and profile types that are that are programmed into individuals and Delta is a letter in the Greek alphabet that is used to describe these the soldiers that are predominantly sleeper assassins people that are are sneaky and they go into spy and Espionage craft and tradecraft like that we have an entire Cadre of a special operations group that's called the delta forces in the United States Army which is uh they call an elite tier like an upper tier of the special forces and these are individuals who are trained to be autonomous basically that that you don't need a whole team of people to go with you like the Green Berets which is another Special Forces the of the United States Army they have a team that they operate within they can be autonomous but predominantly they work within a team whereas delta forces are are trained and programmed so that they go out autonomously they they're like the guys who they sent into Baghdad before everybody went into Baghdad that blew up their power stations blew up their their water distillations like blew up all of their means of taking care of their country right did you send in two guys and they can go to Home Depot and turn a City off of 700 000 people like this is why they really don't like these guys when they they decide no yeah no this is why they suicide them you know they send other guys and be like yeah that guy's into pedophilia we promise you can trust us we're the government go kill him right and you're like if you don't know how to test and verify what they're telling you and you don't know how to learn how to say no you're continually trapped in that system which is why I don't I don't facilitate with the United States military anymore because I found that they make you swear an oath of Allegiance this is their why like why are they making all the children stand up and put their hand over their heart and swear an oath over and over and over and over again oath of allegiance to another Elohim another deity why do they swear this Allegiance why do they require you to swear Allegiance yeah literally our Master said Yeshua said swear not by Heaven and Earth but let your yes be yes or nobody know like I renounce every single oath in vow and I encourage every single one of you you want freedom from this stuff you have to renounce those O's I renounce my secrecy Clauses is why I talk about this stuff and this is why I lost all of my benefits I don't go to the VA I don't get any of those I never got my GED paid or my my college good stuff paid for by the United States government they don't pay for any of this stuff when you come out against them and adversarial to them man they try to burn you down and put you on a blacklist and they tried to kill me and destroy everything that I ever had in my life but you know what I believe that the father could build me a new house a firm foundation so that I stopped laboring in vain Because unless a man unless yahuwah builds the house we all labor in vain and so I just wanted him to build me a house to build me a life to build me a future because the one that I was building and had been building my whole life was built on with on Wicked washing away stay on a quicksand and it came down with a great crash when I was by the time I was 18 years old I was completely distraught disheveled and totally despairing over my life I had lost all of my purpose my identity and I was without hope in the world and then into that the father was looking at me like do you want to remember what you studied because because my family started me with Biblical foundations I knew I could turn back to this thing like it says raise up your children in the ways of y'all when they are young and in their end when they're older they won't depart from it and this is what I turned back to I turned back to the truth I was like I want to know who I am I want to know what my purposes please show me who I am and what you made me for and this is what really launched me on the path of healing and I launched me on the path of Deliverance it to a place where I finally got to come to know that I had a purpose that was beyond death that was for life and not death wow that's powerful and it's awesome because you talk about in one of the chapters of your book um I think you said Deliverance in Dallas right and you mentioned Russ dizdar which I just that book I mean you can't even get that book anymore by the way if you try to look for it yeah the black Awakening it's like it's like two thousand dollars on Amazon or something crazy like that but um I had a question about kind of your training though kind of going back before we jump into the healing and the Deliverance part because I think that's so important it's so powerful your story um but do they did they test you I mean how did they know that you would be kind of adept in this skill of like martial arts military type killing someone into to you know under two minutes how like are these kids like yourself are they tested in some way to like glean some insight into your gifts how does that work is there anybody there's uh the highest paid position in a school is the school psychologist right and so this is part of that finders club like I was telling you that's why I'm trying to make sure you understand it's not just one group these are people who are trained to study and analyze the mind and the people and their aptitudes this is why like when you go into schools they start doing these tests right yeah like why do they have standardized testing what are they actually looking for if you ever participate I went to a University of Colorado at Boulder which is a research University their psychology department is one of the best in the world it's like up there with the Stanford research psychology department and stuff research school and when you every freshman in every freshman this University of Colorado is required in the psychology department is required to go and do a certain amount of hours of research meaning other people are going to conduct research on you you go into the basements the catacombs of that building and you sit in these rooms and they have you look at computers and they ask you questions and they might ask you questions about the shapes of things and the triangles and you think you're taking a test that's asking you about you know what are the shapes of these polygons you know what colors do you remember meanwhile the actual experiment is a totally different set of things that's going on it's actually testing you based off of how you interacted with this person and did you not see these different stimuluses that were in the room they were strobing these lights at different frequencies and trying to see whether or not that you would eat this food and do these things there's always a secondary set of tests and Analysis that's taking place and so a lot of the standardized testing that you have in the United States that's mandatory that they make children sit down and see whether or not they know these basic things is to find these aptitudes is to define whether or not they're willing to do this and this comes from personality profiling like uh the the most common one that's utilized is called the mpdd which is like the Minnesota personality profile it's basically to determine all kinds of psychological problems but within that there's hundreds of questions within that are lots of Target questions that means that's actually what they're looking for is to help analyze whether or not these people have these types of skills and these these capacities and just the innate desire the wiring like like there's some people who are definitely more prone to help other people right this is like a big subset group of people they like to help other people so you can play and manipulate on those people through this entire Channel then you have other people that want to be the Warriors they want to defend people they want to be Shepherds they were made to go be Shepherds out in the flock and instead we don't have a bunch of sheep to go Garden so we're all trapped in these rooms and prison cells and they're like I can't do anything and I feel worthless all the time the first job of every teacher is to make you learn that learn helplessness that you can have no control over the rest of your life that you have no confidence you have to ask me if you want to pee if you have to ask me if you can ask your question if you want to say something you have to learn Authority tells you whether or not you can or can't right they're designed to totally manipulate children as soon as they get in that classroom whereas if you're home you've got children that are being raised by their families they're learning life skills that are invaluable actually equipping them with the things that they need to know in order to be a successful competent capable of people in the face of the Earth my family would do these battery of tests because my family had access to these military handlers right like this guy Richard they would sit down and do little tests with you and see what your aptitudes are I mean a good and astute Observer not just somebody who looks at stuff somebody pays attention and understands what it is they're looking at is is really good at capable of detecting talents that people have you can find out pretty quickly whether one of your sons is really got a good balance does it have good proprioception is he able to keep his his hands do you know where his hands are is he poking himself in the eye all the time when he's trying to pick his nose like basic stuff right like we love I love I love children but some of them are just physiologically not so hardwired to be really dexterous yeah you know they're not capable of doing that but then you have others that are really inclined towards it and we have others that have an aptitude for learning just digesting huge amounts of information and and being able to take tests very well they're people that learn really well within that system they get push into an academics program you got others that get pushed into the musical program right and so my my aptitudes were just prevalent bent in that direction yeah that makes sense learn a lot of stuff but that was one of the areas that I liked it too so it was like a passion anything I'm passionate about I can learn and most people are like this when they're freed from the shackles of slavery that have been put over them sure no that makes a lot of sense and so it's not just would you say it's not just these I'm I'm kind of trying to understand how the the bigger picture looks too because you see like Hollywood celebrities you see the Royals you see politicians Etc it's not just bloodline it's also you know normal people normal people so they're looking for anybody they can like capitalize on for their agenda essentially we have human resources departments and businesses Human Resources y'all yeah so it's not and you can find a resource from any of them right this is why you get cataloged and branded right early on in your so you get you get a profile yeah like this is what you are and it's like yeah but it it's the beguiling of people to think that you can shove a human in a box in a profile because the power of free choice is so supersedes the ability it can destroy all those vows in a moment somebody can make a decision that changes the trajectory of the rest of their life and changes that that epigenetic that curse that should have been playing out for them and their children to the third and fourth generation gets broken by them one choice one decision those you who are trapped in the system can make one decision right now you've been exposed to this information you're now accountable you can now make a decision that changes the future not just your life but the lives of thousands of people all around you because you are willing to look this in the face and now you're willing to turn and face the forces of evil that have been building this Empire against you and you know what you're gonna get shot to pieces and it's good for you but this is why you have this armor that comes from truth if you're standing on Truth You Will Go On The Greatest Adventure ride of your life y'all if you commit yourself to speak the truth and nothing but the truth for the rest of your life and to only do what you know to be truth you become a force of income incorruptability on the earth and which means you are the absolute adversary to the kingdom of darkness and the kingdom of liars right so they set themselves against you pretty ferociously in the beginning because they try to get you back in line it's like why do your family members when you wake up to these things and you're studying and learning about truth they turn around and they try to devour you that's because they learned they were socially engineered in schools to hey when one of you gets out of line everybody get them back in line get them back in line This is they push us back into the like trying to force us back into the herd the only way they can control us is if they recruit lots and lots and lots of other people to try to be our little Shepherds which why you you use people like you're like why does somebody want to be a TSA agent that's a great question somebody should ask why do you want to go be a TSA agent well you got a desire generally to either make money on one side of it or you you're willing to follow the rules very explicitly whatever they are you know like why is somebody going to become a police officer why is somebody going to go into those fields well they're willing to follow especially state trooper they're like I am going to follow the system of dogma and I'm going to enforce it those are kind of the rule following people and those that become your enforcers you want to put those in guys in positions where they're gonna keep the cattle in line you know and so this is where those those finder programs can find those aptitudes and then you just create and cultivate a society that does that but when you want to destroy a society like you did back in the 1970s and 80s in the inner cities like why did they turn Harlem into what it was why did they turn these inner city areas into what they were well they just stopped doing Trash Services if you just turn it off in your neighborhood today all the trash services stopped right nobody came by and picked up your trash anymore what's that place going to turn into real quickly yeah real quickly right a literal heap of trash right and then if you just stop allowing to police officers you shut down the police defund the police stations in the area defund the fire departments in the area okay and just just start to slowly pull out the resources that are available you then bring in huge and then you bring in huge quantities of super cheap drugs right like this the cocaine Wars and the crack epidemics they started bringing in those of you guys don't know about Iran Contra super important information to understand like why the The Clinton Chronicles exist why they were trafficking all these drugs out of amino Arkansas like this is the governor of Arkansas Bill Clinton why the Clinton family became the Clinton Foundation that we see today engineering Society in this different direction they destroyed and eradicated lives of many many people and they did that so that they could completely eradicate a social structure that was strong they wanted to eradicate the math that any strength of a system comes first from the the men that are in that right position right ordering a family a family unit that has a father a mother and children in a right order in the home is so powerful you cannot control it the same so you have to destroy that you have to get the women out of the home you have to get the men out of the home you have to get the children out of the home you have to create a society where everybody just gives themselves away to the system and become slaves which is what happened to the Israelites when they were in Egypt it's the same spiritual Egypt that we live in this we live in Egypt today it's the same Spirit behind them convincing us to go become slaves they tried to work the Israelites so so hard that the men would not go be with their wives they'd be too tired to go and be with their wife so that there would be no children they were so given to their career that they wouldn't have any children like there's it's it's a heart-wrenching reality that they've designed the same system here but you know what that Spirit of Egypt that Spirit of bondage was broken when the people cried out like it says in Exodus 2 that yahuwah heard their cries they groaned and cried like I encourage people to cry scream out at the horrors of the bondages you have they were like you can't come to the school unless you put this genetic experimentation program inside your children unless you give us your blood you can't come in here unless you let us stab you and do a ritual to you and inject Gene editing software into your child you can't come in here and people are like okay I don't have any other option you could go be homeless tomorrow y'all live in the woods it's incredibly brutal and wonderful and it would be so much better for you than to give your children over to serpent eaters man like have some freaking piss and vinegar in your soul and be willing to resist the works of darkness say no it's the most powerful two words you can ever learn in your life no I do four words no I do not consent yeah so powerful absolutely breaks all of those stupid filthy mind control that they're just constantly bombarding everyone with resist the devil and he will flee from you so good preach yeah no it's so true I mean that was such a mass mind control just all of the pandemic and all of that and you know I think a lot of people woke up in 2020 I think they people came to this understanding but I think now they're continuing to kind of challenge some of these things that you're talking about you know that we've been conditioned to believe through the school system through our news media right um so I wanted to ask you when you were kind of going through some of this military training you said you were in Colorado some of these other places were there was there any time where you went into like deep underground military bases things like that what what did that look like if you did yes so yeah at the United States Air Force Academy on the back side of that they're basically they called The Front Range of Colorado this is a real basic geography lesson for you the Front Range of Colorado is the beginning of the Rocky Mountains okay and this is where all of the Cities I think about 85 of all the population in Colorado lives on the Front Range meaning in front of the mountains people don't live in the mountains almost at all because they die there like it's an incredibly hostile place to live uh over over 8 000 ten thousand view twelve thousand view 14 000 feet it's a brutal place to live so people think of Colorado they think of the mountains which is kind of just a good propaganda piece half of Colorado is just Kansas like it literally it's just Kansas just like Kansas and so what they've done though is because because it sits at the heart of our country Denver is literally what has been designed and chosen the Front Range there's chosen is the capital of the New World Order and that's going to be like a big pill for some of you all to swallow but it's a reality like that is literally where they've centered the the military-industrial complex has centered itself there the political Center is they've relocated the defense intelligence agency headquarters there the CIA headquarters there like the space command there they've concentrated all these forms of power in fact especially in the early 2000s but but it got really started in the 1940s and 50s during the Cold War and they started digging out bunkers massive bunker systems like Cheyenne Mountain which was is now publicly everyone knows as this deep underground military base they climbed out a giant Granite Mountain Cheyenne Mountain which is right there at the at Colorado Springs it's in southern portion of Colorado Springs and you can see it from the you can see it from the city but what they do there is they camouflage the doors they camouflage the entrances to look like uh big big facades of Boulders they literally make giant Boulders that look like the doors and so in the United States Air Force Academy and all there's five other military bases there Fort Carson Colorado Shriver Air Force Base Peterson Air Force Base predominantly the Air Force nominates that area but it's literally a hub for the military complexes right there surrounds Colorado Springs and they've tunneled through there to create a continuity of government system so if you want to look up the continuity of government what you'll find out is that the United States has plans and protocols in place so that if we are ever in a major ongoing War like with Russia or Soviet Union at the time or China or any of our other whoever they want to play as the big back Boogeyman out there that we gotta fight oh save us all from these bad guys whenever they want to stir that and ferment that pop and and release the dogs of the hounds of War they they've created an entire underground system in this country all across this country all the way up from the the upper echelons of Alaska all the way down into the Pacific Northwest into the southern portions of the country there's places where the governing officials for that area and the military officials for those areas are able to go underground to survive nuclear war predominantly yeah this is what it was really built for and so the a lot of the infrastructure was built back in the 40s 50s and 60s when there was a huge amount of money that was being funneled into the military industrial complex so that they could keep entire cities active under underneath our feet factories warehouses Supply chains water food infrastructure Hardware software like entire Cities Live underneath our feet people that work there 24 7. a lot of this guy also brought it in with the with the industrial system or the the scientific community Through particle accelerators like the Large Hadron Collider people talk about that over in Switzerland there's thousands of them here in the United States thousands of particle accelerators in atom snatchers and uh here in the United States and have been for a long time like the largest one that was ever being built was in Texas and like 28 miles just massive facilities built in Texas and they're all over the place and people just this is kind of stuff that just well the propaganda that everyone points at is the big scary stuff over in Switzerland Geneva oh yeah that's y'all there are so many here in the United States and from Manhattan to Chicago and Stanford Research Laboratories they've been using this stuff in in Oak Ridge Oak Ridge uh Tennessee like where they did the Manhattan Project they've been using this kind of military scientific Community to build other underground cities so that we could have the scientific power and the military power to fight this war with the the gods that are going to contend against us if that's the Soviets or it's the you know the Invaders that they're trying to get everybody hopped up on right now and they're like oh yeah look out for the aliens they're gonna come and get us you know like they always got their little boogeymans and their PR campaigns to try to film in everyone for the the dogs War but the the truth is that the United States Air Force Academy there is a massive underground tunnel Network in order to survive nuclear war with the Soviets and so I got brought into one of those bunkers in particular on the back side of Rampart Range Road is literally just a big giant boulder and you can pull it open with one hand and it swivels open and there's just tunnels it looks like a normal building if you've ever been into a United States military building the majority of the infrastructure was built in the 50s so it's just like linoleum floors and white paint everywhere yeah and so if you're inside these buildings you don't even know oftentimes if you you go into work at a regular portion of on the surface of a building and you go into your office building further down or you drive get in a vehicle and get transported in you don't know that you're underground more often than not because there's a continuity of the system and so you might be driving back and forth between different buildings underground but it's not it doesn't appear to be that way it doesn't feel like a cave it just feels like you're in buildings all the time so it kind of I think in people's heads they think it always looks like these big caverns and big caves would still like yeah yeah all over the walls and it's like no it just looks like buildings they build big concrete blocked buildings inside inside of these these underground structures like the entire complex in Cheyenne Mountain sits on top of Springs gigantic Springs the whole entire complex sits on top of the Springs so that if it could survive a direct hit with a nuclear weapon the entire building even though the rocks are crumbling and shaking and falling down around it the building itself would be able to stabilize during that because they house so much hardware for their communication systems for the North American space Defense command hands anything that goes into the air they track it there so it's really sensitive Electronics there they don't want that stuff getting shaken apart so wow that's out there in Cheyenne Mountain and I I was part of programs that were there at the Air Force Academy and then one briefly at Fort Carson Colorado that connected to an area called Black Forest which is north of Colorado Springs outside of a town called monument and there was an entire tunnel system that you could go from Schriever Air Force Base to Peterson and you could go to the Air Force Academy and you can drive the entire distances on without ever having to go to the surface and that was so that they could survive these these battles and these wars that they thought were could be fighting sure wow fascinating I know because you think about the Denver Airport and you know you see all that like Illuminati stuff there and then you think what's going on in Colorado you know so I think number two sex trafficking capital of the United States that's what's going on in Colorado wow Denver Colorado like you go to Atlanta Georgia number one all the time forever it has intersecting interstates anywhere that has intersecting interstates and an international airport is a hotbed of human trafficking yeah and so Atlanta Georgia is the number one for that because it goes International big time out on the Atlantic coast but Denver's the number one on this side of the Mississippi and has been for a long time and it is is a house of evil because if they have to feed these beasts you really have to feed this Kingdom and this is the way they do that wow unbelievable but yet believable you know um so okay so talk us through just kind of your your moment because I know you were you were at home right and you were gonna kill yourself essentially you were trying to and you had this moment where you know your life changed talk us through that and kind of what that looked like and and your deliverance aspect too so when I was uh after I basically had that uh no-go order with the United States military I left my Advanced Training in Fort Lee Virginia and they started putting me on a uh reprogramming protocols so they they diagnosed me with these minor and multiple traumatic brain injuries mtpis minor traumatic brain injuries and then traumatic brain injuries people kept bashing my head in trying to kill me and I started coming unglued let's just put it super nicely I really began to come undone as they started putting me on these Pharmaceuticals and taking me to these neuro-linguistic reprogramming centers of the Air Force Academy like even though I was in the United States Army that my treatment protocols when I shipped back to Fort Carson and went back to my duty station there at Fort Carson all of my treatment was at Fort was at the Air Force Academy that's because that's where I'd done it previously when I was younger when I was 12 13 and 14 years old that's where I'd done a lot of it and so they sent me back there to try to get me back online and the way they do that y'all is is the way they like when they want to get rid of somebody in the United States military after they're like used up they put them on a lot of pharmaceuticals mind-altering drugs in order to get them to kill themselves so this is why like why Prozac is the number one link we find with people that commit homicidal suicidal acts Prozac just super concentrated amounts of hydrofluorocilicic acid fluoride like what they dump in a bunch of people's drinking water the municipalities of the United States dumping or drinking water try to keep us dumb down and dull well when certain people take that stuff it makes a very homicide old suicidal especially when they're under distress right they're having a hard hard day hard life situations a lot of them go and kill themselves so they hurt others and so they start pumping they start pumping a lot of those drugs and be like provigil was or um propanol which is like they use for seizure medications stuff like that and uh Ambien and and uh these these like other these drugs that really made me completely come disconnected from reality like whereas the old religion people they use like Satanic rituals right they do these like trauma and these abuse stuff yeah the modern version of it is just a lot of drugs predominantly drugs which is what like you were talking about earlier with Operation Paperclip and some of the the scientists that were brought over to answer when I got on all those drugs and went to that program they sent me to another place uh another dial named coloneltario at Fort Carson Colorado and she ran a traumatic brain injury Specialist Team and what they did is they put those soldiers anybody who had these issues they put them on a huge quantity of drugs I had 11 Pharmaceuticals said they put me on they put me on those did a whole bunch of stuff with the fmri functional magnetic resonance imaging and reprogramming so while you're in an fmri machine the thing that scans your brain and watches actively fluid changes in your brain they start flashing lights and doing all these different things to try to get you back into a cycle and they started patterning in me that I needed to shoot and stab myself I need to shoot and stab myself shoot and stab yourself you'll become a hero if you shoot and stab yourself and so literally that's what I did Thanksgiving morning like my entire family went to Lake Havasu City to go be with my grandfather and do their little filthy stuff down there with him I stayed back because I lied to them and told them I had military drill and when I stayed back I I threw a huge party at my parents house and then the next morning I cleaned the house up and shot and stabbed myself multiple times and uh literally began to bleed out to death on the back of my patio my parents basement and I while standing there it was like the entire time before that I'd kind of been in this autonomous watch dissociative State watching myself do all this stuff and this is for for soldiers specifically and Delta is what's programmed into a Delta first is what's called your Omega protocol which is where it's the end and this is where you kill yourself this is why you see a lot of these guys who go on these shooting Rampages they kill themselves you're like yeah they always kill himself to the end of that that's called Omega programming and that's that's there to protect the secrets of everybody horses in man because every time you look at one of those things man there's a whole entire group of people that was a part of that that they're like as long as we can at least foment everyone and be like oh this horrible thing's happening oh yeah but the guy's dead so it's okay go back to sleep you know they'd like to wrap up everything with that and so that's that's what happened to me and and there were 17 different guys that were in that program at the same time as I was and 11 of them killed themselves that week that same week killed themselves now I shot and stab myself multiple times and I literally believe the only reason I'm alive is because the father intervened drastically to save my life and I was standing there bleeding to death on the outside of my parents basement and I was looking out at this place uh it's called Santa's Workshop it's a real creep Fest over there it's like the highest ferris wheel in the world say a thousand feet the base of Pikes Peak and I'm standing out there staring out at this thing and and and and watching everything come out like feeling my blood gush out of my body onto my feet it was so cold on my feet and I felt I felt death in a totally different way like I have had so much horrible things happen to me I have I've had I've nearly died so many times and had so much blood come out of my body but I've never had that much come out of me and I I felt there my a cold come into me that was inescapable like like it's like it's it's a finality like you could never warm up again and and I felt this fiery hot blood Landing all over my feet and I'm looking out over this this Valley and seeing death come for me like I had it I had been in this Covenant with death from the days of my youth like the first time I ever killed a man so now six years old and they did this filthy ritual with this guy that they kind of dressed up like Jesus and tortured tortured people and then they gave us the opportunity to kill him just kill that guy and like I got possessed by death when I did so confused thinking it's not real not knowing what's happening and finally thinking I'm getting Vengeance and killing this guy and I got possessed with death and I got into this Covenant with this Kingdom that I could not get away from like I I couldn't get out people like how does it still happen like how why didn't you say anything you like because they kill people they torture them they they they're like um you see what we're doing to her right now you see what we're doing to her we're gonna do that to your to start when they were going to do that to your sister if you talk about these things and you're just like your your power they make you think you're powerless to stop it they convince you so brilliantly that you could never escape and so when I finally saw death come this Prince of Darkness come to harvest me come to have me for eternity I knew it was over I knew I was on and I just sat there ready and and the man just came and a man appeared to my left and his right and he stood in between him and me he just stood between him and me and he said he is mine you cannot have him and I saw fear come over death's face I saw his face be be filled with fear and he turned and left he turned and left I never saw the face of this man but I knew that was the word of Elohim the word of God I knew that was the son of righteousness I knew that was the truth embodied on this Earth I knew that was my redeemer I knew his voice he says my sheep John 10 my sheep hear my voice they know my voice I am the Good Shepherd I am the door he says there's one way in and one way out of the kingdom and your relationship back to the father he built a bridge that's what a priest does they're Bridge Builders he built a bridge over the impossible Chasm that we could never cross from our sin and our transgression our failure to follow the right instructions we were born in this iniquity system this beastly system and we could never go back unless there was someone who came and built the bridge back and that's what he did and he stands there as the sole Shepherd the chief Shepherd who lets people in and come across to enter into their rest he says you come in my Sheepfold that's a big giant place to protect his flock he says you can come into my Sheepfold and you can go out and have pasture you can go out to peace and that's what he gave to me he gave me an opportunity to have life again and he in that moment I knew I was not destined for death that I was destined for life and if at any moment it was over it should have been then yeah and he as clear as they told me you need to stop the bleeding and call 9-1-1 and so that's literally what I did I because I at the point I literally was just standing there watching all this Blood come out of me and in this total just dissociative Omega State and all of a sudden it was like he gave me my mind back like it says to Nebuchadnezzar for seven years he walked around like a lycanthropy like a werewolf he was cursed by The Watcher because he had risen himself up in Pride and he went and ate grass like an ox and his feathers grew out of his body and hair and nails grew out he turned into a beast for seven years and then it said he finally came to his senses and he was given his he was his mind was restored to him and that's what happened I finally it was like all of the Pharmaceuticals I don't care how many drugs they can shove in your system how drunk you are how high you are the word of Elohim can come to you in a moment and cut through all of that and give you a soundness of mine instantly and that's what he did for me and so when I ran inside and I grabbed towels and I put him on my abdomen to stop the hemorrhaging that was going on I couldn't really address I shoved my fingers inside my lit the hole inside my thigh in my pinky inside and my thumb inside the other side to try to cut off the bleeding that was going on there and I called 9-1-1 and I sat there in this chair this little desk chair where I did homeschool and all this this other stuff sat bleeding out and trying to get these people to come and help me come and help me and just begging them to come and help me and instead they had an ambulance that got there I believe within 14 minutes the ambulance showed up at my door and yet they sat there for 45 minutes waiting for me to die because that's what they were ordered to do they waited for me to die they waited till I lost Consciousness they literally thought I lost Consciousness and died and then they came in and cleared the scene they cleared the scene and then they brought in the paramedics to get me out of there but they did everything in their power carnally to let me die but you know what Yahoo did not appoint me to death and you can't kill someone that is so full of convictions and has the anointing of yah that's the reason I'm alive there's no physical thing that I have done to keep myself alive at this point in my life he is the only reason I'm alive he is the reason my children are alive and my wife and I are alive and continue to be so as long as he says so otherwise we are absolutely Immortal and that's the same for any of you who choose to walk in his kingdom you are absolutely Immortal unless he says otherwise yeah and I got to experience that and so I I knew after that moment they ended up they set up all these camera Crews down there but during this whole time while I was waiting they set up all these camera Crews down there at the intersection in Cascade Colorado waiting to film this whole thing because they had a PR campaign ready to go and they they filmed me getting loaded into a flight for life helicopter and flying off and taking off and this was the big news on Thanksgiving morning back in in Colorado Springs it was you know the headline news for that day and a couple days out there and then Gazette down there and this was literally my introduction to the public world this psycho who shot and stabbed himself but lied and said other people did it to him and and so they used this as like my defamation campaign so that later on in life they're like oh yeah this guy's a liar he's psycho he's crazy bipolar and all this other stuff don't listen to everything he says right so even even so then like 10 years later I got into this like let me just pause for a second sure y'all helped me get healing physically from that wound but I lost emotionally my identity and my friendships and people people made me a pariah I was banned from my friends groups schools I went to I was I was turned into a plague on the earth and that is that is something that the enemy can do to you that is painful beyond measure and humiliating but you know what it went into the fires there for me was my pride and it was good for me and it's good for us to lose our pride and know that you know what because people have a bad day never judge somebody on their worst day you know what I mean judge them on the fruits of their life that's what we're command to inspect in people look at their fruits yeah over the long term that's how you know who's a wolf and who's a sheep that's how you just dismember the Fabian socialist society did you just watch them by their fruits and you follow the people that have the fruits of righteousness and you flee from those that don't you know but that's that was really where a lot of this started they tried to put me on a whole bunch more of drugs and and medication there's a center there in Boulder Colorado at the University of Colorado called the Sutherland Institute which is for families of these really rich and Elite people to shove their children in to get reprogrammed brought back in and keep them in line and they have a bunch of handlers there that that work yeah Southern Sutherland Institute and that's where they would keep tabs on me and try to keep me on drugs but I would I stopped taking all the Pharmaceuticals and it was like my mind came back to me and I finally was like free to think like I was finally afraid to think my hair stopped falling out I stopped having tachycardium I wake up in my chest bruised like they were trying to kill me for so long but I finally stopped all of that and I was like I'm gonna believe the scripture is true and that you can heal me and nothing else can and that was when he started to really rebuild my identity really restore me and this is where ultimately about 10 months later I ended up meeting the guy who would become my wife Chelsea who brought to me an embodiment of love and a in a compassion and and care that I needed in order to actually get to a place where I was safe enough to process lifetimes of trauma wow that is amazing I mean just that was so powerful I mean you guys can't see me but my eyes are like tearing up and I mean just hearing how God delivered you um and how he just came in that moment and you said you you noticed there was a man there but you didn't see his face but you felt the presence of who he was right so yeah yeah wow so then did your family I mean do you have any contact with your family anymore or is that just completely shut off so it was uh I still have contact with my family up until that point in my life my dad was still somebody that I was like close friends with now I I want to be clear because sometimes when I I reference my family People Are Awesome often assume I'm talking about just like my mom and dad and and my sisters but I'm talking about the people that that were chronically my abusers and perpetrators and stuff like that were were my grandfather and my great-grandfather those are the majority of the people that were really my family that were part of this system in a very serious way now my father my father abdicated his responsibility and allowed his son to get passed into this stuff and turned a blind eye to it and handled Us in totally different ways but not not like primary abuser style that makes sense because yeah that's clear because sometimes that gets includes in the mix and um so I but on the surface I still had these relationships with with my biological family members or my family members for what it's worth and um and I ended up getting married to Chelsea and as far as she knew me I was much more happy and pleasant and upbeat and happy Christian kind of guy and psychology and all this stuff and then how halfway into our marriage my dad moved into our house with us because he said you know our they've fallen on bad times and stuff like that and he needed help looking for a house and he was going to be working at this job a critical infrastructure person my dad's a controller of massive amounts of the natural gas industry in uh in North America one of the one of a few people who controls huge quantities of natural gas and where it flows to to create electricity for the United States this is where they put a lot of mind control people anyways he had a job there in in Colorado uh in an area called Golden that he needed to be at and so he's like oh just let me stay there in your extra room in your basement but when he did that he started working with my mind again to try to get me back into these projects and and to turn me back in to be a profiteering agent for the family yeah that's when this whole major catastrophic switch happened between me as I used to present myself Nate as this much more happy and everybody that used to know me used to know me as this other kind of guy who never showed anger never showed frustration never never showed violence of any kind to Nathan which was literally a very contrary person to that shape my head began wearing body armor and strapping knives to my chest all the time carrying multiple pistols on myself and and becoming fully engrossed in the world of of self-defense and yeah and hunting humans and I started infiltrating networks in Boulder Colorado and trying to eliminate pedophile rings that were going on there it's like I'm hardwired in a sense in a good way to dismantle these Empires and so I started just going out between 11 o'clock and four o'clock in the morning at Boulder Colorado and just making listen identifying people and documenting stuff that was going on and trying to preach the gospel to the people that were there that needed help and needed prayer and needed counsel because a lot of the Christians left at 11 PM all the Christians left if you asked a homeless person where the righteous people are they always know where they are and they can tell you where they are and they tell you that the Christians leave at 11 o'clock and I was like dang right they do because they're cowards they've been they've been made to be cowards I'm not trying to be derogatory towards you but if you don't actually know your identities from the beginning to the end you get lost in the Kingdom of cowardice and unfortunately that's what we have in the sisified pastors that stand on the stage and tell you a bunch of psychological pep talk and they'll preach from this book like it actually matters like their lives depend on it like they're gonna die if they don't listen to these words there was a zealousness that I had but at the same time my wife was a stranger to me I didn't want anything really to do with her because to me she was like a big heavy anchor that's weighing me down and not allowing me to just go kill everybody and then disappear into the ether like I'd been my whole life and so it created this horrible Mutual animosity went from a really I mean a marriage that we loved each other to a marriage where we just basically Were Strangers passing in the night and a lot of that began to break down however in the same time I began to study and explain to her a lot of this stuff that had happened not the mechanics of what happened to me but how this kingdom of darkness operates how Satan infiltrates the church how we started going and hearing rust is or like I mentioned again we started going to these conferences where Russ desert was speaking a guy who had that book Black Awakening which was the rise of the satanic super soldier and he has on his website you can listen to him give a whole entire dissertation about the entire book chapter by chapter it's called the blackawakening.com and he has a playlist there lots of playlists Russ has more audio content than I can even start to get you guys around if you go to shatterthedarkness.net shatterthedarkness.net he has thousands of hours of audio training courses that he's done like Satanism 101 excellent yeah Freedom encounters he's got so much information there to share with y'all but blackawakening.com is where you can still have access to the book that they're trying to hide from everyone y'all willing I can get a copy of it if any of you have a copy of it we can scan it the PDF and I can do an audio of it make sure that it gets shared to everyone I love it let me know send me an email at snatch from the Flames at protonmail.com and we will get that going but nice it was at that time in my life where I still had some contact with my family but a lot less common and I really began to expose to my wife the innermost portion of who I was I began to reveal to where a lot of the horrible things had happened to me and she didn't turn away from me she didn't she didn't abandon me and she had this this deep love for me and she harbored me from the storms of chaos that had been raging for so long in my life and she created for me a shelter of Love even though she didn't necessarily understand everything even though she didn't she couldn't relate like the truth is y'all as much as you guys want to to understand what happens to people that go through this stuff there's not a day in your life you can never understand it I don't care how much you want to how many videos you watch about it how much you hear about it you can't know for a single second what it feels like to be utterly powerless to people that are stealing your innocence day and night and day and night to learn what it feels like to have somebody physically take from you everything that you ever held as something that was dear until you experience it you cannot comprehend it like parents who watch their children slowly suffer and die from diseases for months or years they start to get an understanding of just how much anguish a human being can endure how much suffering can somebody contain within their body within their soul and keep on going and you know what my wife and began to understand that and it it it made her a totally different woman it made her willing to wade into a muck and a filth that was so disgusting so horrible that it was going to contaminate her there was no way about it like when I shared this with her she was going to become filthy with me she climbed down into that disgusting abominable place with me in my soul and she held on to me while I wrenched my soul out of it while I up nightmares that had happened to me well I vomited out the violence the rage and the evil and I showed her who I was and she stuck with me and she let her white robe the her white wedding dress gets so filthy and you know what she stayed with me and she waded into it and began to help me clean up this horrible filth and washed me with the water of the word she restored to she helped her restore to me my purpose because she didn't believe me it didn't she didn't mean she was like my wife's not necessarily like a master counselor or anything like that but if you have a husband or a wife they should be your counselor you should be the most trusted associate on the earth should be your spouse you shouldn't have to pay a counselor to get help you should be able to have that relationship with your spouse so that you can have that that's why we have each other because you know what marriage is crazy it's crazy it's awesome and it's insane all at the same time it's great and it's horrible it's beautiful and it's violent oh it's great stuff because it tears apart that former person that you used to be because you used to be one man or one woman and now you're not you're not your own and you you choose to become one with each other that means how I choose to use my body is how I choose to use hers how she chooses to use her bodies how she chooses to use mine like we become interconnected which means all of that bondage from my past as long as it didn't get cleansed was going to be on her and I wanted her to be free from it I wanted our children Naomi who she was pregnant with at the time when I told her all this stuff I wanted her to be free from this I didn't want Naomi to know this world I didn't want this to be her I didn't want her to wake up with blood coming all out of her body from people violating her you know what I mean I didn't want my daughter to suffer the touch of molesters like it should be that way for parents like that should be a basic thing however disgustingly so I find everywhere I go in ministries and communities all over this country parents and people who cover up molestation and sex crimes everywhere they let their children get devoured all over the place everywhere I go without fail I find they're filthy disgusting matters I can smell it I would like my whole life I've known the stink of sickness and I can find it in these people everywhere I go I can smell the Sodom Sodom burning with sulfur that's literally that's why I have this chunk of silver my whole life I've carried this little chunk of sulfur around I got this in Silverton Colorado when I was like seven years old and I know the stench of sulfur because you know what when you light this on fire it burns as blue as this shirt I'm wearing and there is nothing so indistinguishable about the smell of sulfur when it burns and this is what I smell the this filth everywhere and I know the beauty of it yahuwah says he's going to rain down sulfur on these people and it purifies when you light this stuff on fire and throw it on top of parasites they burn to Ash no parasite survives that stuff that's why he uses it you know he destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah in these five cities of the Plains with sulfur and burning chunks of sulfur this is why you can drive into Kansas in the whole area of Eastern Colorado they call it the chalk beds it's full of burning chunks of sulfur like literally fire and brimstone rained out of the sky all over Kansas and that whole region and buried it you can walk around it smells like this because he rains this down on Aries to eradicate diseases horrible parasitic diseases that iniquity force that turns people into monsters makes them like vampires they call them Gregory right this is these Watchers that came down again at Sodom and Gomorrah and started trying to mingle in and augment DNA and raise them up that's why all the men in Sodom Gomorrah were trying to beat down the door to have sex with the angels they wanted to get their seed and they're like well the Angels kind of figured out hey if I just if I let somebody rape me and they start to mingle themselves well I didn't do it so I'm not as guilty as this Hazel and gadriel and samyaza and these other ones who did it but this judgment is certainly still pertinent and true I keep these as reminders these Living Stones as testimonies to remember that Yahoo is going to rain down a judgment that's so Unstoppable that every one of the wicked truly will perish and it will root out all the evil that's taking place in there and I choose now to confess my sins and share all of this stuff now so that I can have total freedom from it I want freedom from it I want my children to be free from it I confess my sin so that I can be healed and any of you who have any sins of your past like this the way out the way across that bridge is confession of your sins and I know that's so churchianity feeling and you might be shutting down because you think I'm talking about preaching to you you got to understand this is why this is the literal cure to the cancer that's corrupting your soul the one that makes you so miserable and feel like you have no purpose and no identity and why you you're so discontent the cure for that discontentment is confession you don't got to tell me you don't got to go and preach scream it out to everybody on the face of the Earth but I tell you this you have to duty to confess these things that are killing you to get them out of you when you get them out of you everything that's hidden that's been bound up in there all that filth that's poisoning you that black tar will come out of you and you know what you can get washed you come in and you wash yourself with the water the word like read it from beginning to end just I challenge you one time that's why I did an entire audio recording of the scriptures from Genesis to Revelation and gave that to people so that they could hear the word being preached because they need to know that if this they can't have any faith unless they hear the word it says hearing belief comes from hearing and hearing comes from the word of Elohim and like if you wash yourself in that it's literally like somebody coming in and just cleansing the entire space every filthy corner of that place so that you can have a clean area like this is a nice clean room yeah diligence it requires that way if you leave this oh my gosh we're out in the Ozark cell if you leave a house out here sitting for less than a year in a year or less it will be covered in Vines it will be it will be taken over by mold so fast this entire place will become uninhabitable within a year or 18 months maybe two years the entire place will be condemned like this this this this creation is groaning it's like a garment that's wearing out man and everything is designed to totally just swallow it and turn it back into the forest that it was and this is what will happen if you leave that stuff in you it's going to consume you it's Interruption it's gonna poison everyone around you but if you confess with your lips and and you get free from this stuff and you believe that these words to be true you don't have to say some sinner's prayer and all that other nonsense you don't have to do that stuff y'all you start walking in faith walking in belief you know what even though I can't understand everything necessarily I'm just going to go ahead and read my way through this book before I ever say I believe it like don't ever tell don't ever tell somebody that you believe this book if you've not read it that's such nonsense that's such ridiculous it's such an excuse for your failure to take a discipline in your life and make a discipline like every day reading through this thing don't say you believe it until you know what it says because that's just so foolish you don't even know what it says and you also don't know what's required of you unless you know this unless you read it he tells you explicitly this is what's required of you a man literally Solomon the wisest man that ever lived people are like no it's wisest man yeah except he came into sacrificing his own children and butchering his own babies and and in every form of evil and Enchanted Wizardry he got into it he's the one who created so much the mystery religions that we see today people like Alistair Crowley they're all reading these other books that Solomon wrote that corrupted people but you know what at the end of his life he turned and he confessed his sins that's why the Book of Ecclesiastes ecclesiasticus these why these books exist that are so powerful the wisdom of Solomon because he shows you hey this is the whole matter of Life fear yahuwah and walk in his ways like Revere him do like fear Him understand that he is the only one you're supposed to fear 365 times in the scriptures you're told do not fear altira but then he tells you there's only one you should ever fear and it's him because he's a good father you should fear a Good Shepherd like you should you should understand a Shepherd is a super dangerous dude Shepherd is a super dangerous dude if you're a wolf he will kill you so relentless he wants you down and snatch the lamb out of your mouth and break your jaw and crush your teeth and skin you alive and wear your skin suit to make sure every other wolf knows I'm coming for you that's what he did he he did he is there to help you understand that he loves you he cares for you he will fight for you he will be your defense he will be your shield and your exceedingly great reward he is a good father and if you have no concept of what that is because I clearly did not have a right concept of what that is I look at this and I understand there's good father and he cares for me and he will care for you and look after you if you turn repent turn from the ways of your other life and follow him follow his ways he will make you the man and the woman you were made to be that is so much better than anything you could hoped and imagined so good I mean I always like to to kind of end the podcast with hope and I think that's exactly what you did and you've come a long way it's been a it's been quite a journey for you and I just I really appreciate you Nathan just coming here and meeting with me and just sharing your story so transparently um I just I just pray that the people listening will just have a heart change you know if there's areas in their life that they need to turn over to the Lord they need to repent like you said to do it because you have this I mean if you can do this as a man that has been through all of this and now your life is something completely different that's that's hope right there wouldn't you say always hope yeah always hope yes there is there's always hope y'all and I just last thing I want to say to y'all yeah no matter if you're the perpetrator of this were you the victim of this and you're both this there is so much Freedom that is that you you cannot even know because if you've lived your life in slavery you've never tasted Choice you've never even known how sweet of a savor it can be when you have a day that's yours when you have your own time back when you have your mind back when you when you get your body back it it is so rewarding it's better than any amount of power that you have could ever offer you there is an illusion that has been placed over so many of us that if I just had that I would be satisfied but you know what the true greatest gift that we could ever be given in all of life is contentment in all circumstances and that is what I want for you all to experience that you can be content in your circumstances no matter what they are but that contentment comes from a firm foundation in knowing who you are what you were made to do that you have a purpose you have a destiny you have a you have a mission to fight against this evil people to wage a war with wickedness and you know what it all starts though by you looking it down the man in the mirror the woman in the mirror and contending eagerly fighting ferociously for the sake of the truth and by doing so you will live a beautiful life a life that is worth remembering a life that is worth being remembered and valued because you know what at the end of your life you get to this phase they call it the Legacy phase where you want to look back and understand like you'll see this with older people that want to have a conversation with with a younger generation of like what they did if you take the time if you Revere like it says in the scriptures you're supposed to stand up when a person with a gray hair walks in the room it says Rise Up When the gray-headed walk in the room supposed to stand up and respect them because they've they've gone a lot further y'all and you know what they're in a phase of life where they're looking they can't physically work with their body in the same way but their mind is there and they want to impart the wisdom of what they've learned and I encourage you all just remember there is so much pure truth that will come to you if you are willing to forsake the pride the the the vanity and the things that have built you up for so long in your life and you can cling to a way of righteousness it is so rewarding I get to lay down and sleep in peace and to me that was more that was more valuable than anything I had ever been promised in that Kingdom I laid down in peace because I knew my hands weren't tainted by Blood I knew that I hadn't corrupted anybody I knew I hadn't coerced anybody like I knew I could lay in peace because I had lived an authentic day and you know what I want that for each and every one of you I want you to be able to rest and not have the enemy stealing your sleep anymore I want you to your family and your marriage your relationships your children to know life and a life that's more abundant than anything you could hope and imagine and it comes through living authentically according to the ways that he told us to do it amen that's I appreciate that that is so well said and I want the same for you guys and I just gosh Nathan thank you so much for coming on it really means a lot to me so I hope you guys enjoyed and um we will see you next time bye