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Analysis of The Coquette by Foster

introduction of the cat this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Michelle Eaton the cat or the history of Eliza Walton by Hannah Webster Foster introduction the coet or the history of Eliza Warton a novel founded on fact by Lady of Massachusetts historical preface including A Memoir of the author he who Waits beside the folded Gates of mystery over which forever float the Imp purpled Vapors of the past should stand with girded loins and white unsh shodden feet so he who attempts to lift the veil that separates the real from the ideal or to remove the heavy curtain that for a century may have concealed from view the actual personages of a well-drawn popular fiction or what may have been received as such should bring to his task a tender heart and a delicate and gentle hand thus in preparing an introductory chapter for these Pages which are to follow many and various thoughts suggest themselves and it is necessary to recognize and pursue them with gentleness and caution the romance of Eliza Warton appeared in print not many years subsequent to the assumed transactions it so Faithfully attempts to record written as it was by one Highly Educated for the times the popular wife of a popular clergyman connected in no distant degree by marriage with the family of the heroine and one who by the very profession and position of her husband was as by necessity brought into the sphere of actual intercourse with the principal characters of the novel and as the book also took precedence in time of All American romances when too the literature of the day was anything but light it is not surprising that it thus took precedence in interest as well of All American novels at least throughout New England and was found in every Cottage within its borders beside the Family Bible and though pitifully yet almost as carefully treasured since that time it has run through a score of additions at long intervals out of print and again revived at the public call with an eagerness of distribution which few modern romances have enjoyed its author Hannah Foster was the daughter of Grant Webster a well-known Merchant of Boston and wife of Reverend John Foster of Brighton Massachusetts whose pedigree but few removes backwards in the line of her husband interl as had been already hinted with that of the coet thus did they hold towards each other that very significant relationship especially in the past Century of cousins a relationship better heeded and more earnestly recognized and cherished than that of nearin at the present day therefore not only by Family Ties but by by similarity of positions and community of interests was she brought into immediate acquaintance with the circumstances herein combined and especially qualified to write the history with power and effect nor is this the only work which Bears the impress of her gifted pen there is still another extent of which I need not at this time and place make mention besides many valuable literary contributions to the scattered periodicals of that day it is to be regretted here that a short time previous to her death she destroyed the whole of her manuscripts which might in many respects have been particularly valuable she has however transmitted her genius and her powers which find expression and appreciation in two daughters still living in Montreal Canada east one of whom is the gifted author of Peep at the pilgrims sketches from The Life of Christ and confessions of an early martyr all of which have been very popular the first having been republished here within a short period and also Al in England with still greater success the other daughter the Widow of the late Dr Cushing who while firm at his post as physician at the Immigrant Hospital fell a victim to that terrible malady ship fever in 1846 is also author of many minor works and co-editor of the snow drop a monthly publication of much Merit in Montreal Mrs Foster died in that place at the residence of her daughter Mrs Cushing April 17th 1840 at the advanced age of 81 years it may seem however at a period so long subsequent to the actual transpiration of events herein recorded that little could be said to throw light or interest upon the history and even less upon the character or in extenuation of the folies or the frailties of the unfortunate subject of the following pages and upon which public opinion had long ago rendered its verdict and sealed it for a higher tribunal yet I am happy in assuring any who may pause over these Preparatory leaves that this is not the fact and it harms us not to believe that over every life however full of error it may be there is an Unwritten chapter which the Angels take into account as they bear upward the tearful record and which he the great scribe whoever sth at the right hand of the father and from whose solemn utterance on Earth drops the forever cherished Words which have so often given life and hope to the penitent Fallen neither Nei do I condemn thee interpolates on the mighty Ledger of Eternity for the great Reckoning day Eliza Warton generally known perhaps as Elizabeth whitmann was the eldest of four children Elizabeth Mary Abigail and William the latter of whom was a physician twice married and who also left a son of his own name William L Nathan who died in Philadelphia in 1846 unmarried her father the Reverend El Nathan Whitman was was the son of Reverend Samuel whitmann who was the third son of Reverend Zachariah Whitman the youngest child of John the original ancestor of the whitmann family he Reverend Samuel whitmann graduated at Harvard University in 1696 and was for several years a tutor there thus having passed through the usual though then somewhat limited course of theology he was ordained as minister of the Gospel in Farmington Connecticut in 1706 at that time one of the largest towns in the state he inherited by bequest one half of his father's lands in Stow Massachusetts and was thereby also made executive of his will he married March 19th 1707 Mary Stoddard daughter of Reverend Solomon Stoddard second minister of Northampton Massachusetts Mr Stoddard was born in Boston in 1643 and died in Northampton in 1729 this Solomon Stoddard was the great-grandfather of honorable Solomon Stoddard now residing in Northampton it is worthy of remark here that the early ancesters of Eliza Warton intermarried also with the Edwards family so that honorable peerpoint Edwards who figures in this volume as major Sanford could be no less than second cousin to his unfortunate victim Reverend El Nathan whitmann the father of Elizabeth was born January the 12th 1708 to9 and graduated from Yale College New Haven where he was for several subsequent years a tutor he at length settled as Minister over the second Church in Hartford Connecticut and there married Abigail Stanley daughter of Colonel Nathaniel Stanley treasurer of the colony of Connecticut a woman of uncommon energy of character and of Superior mental acquirements a correct portrait of whom accompanies these Pages taken from an original painting he died in Hartford also March I 2nd 1776 aged 68 years after having served in the ministry in that place 43 of the same his Tombstone Bears the following inscription in memory of the Reverend El Nathan Whitman pastor of the second Church of Christ in Hartford and one of the fellows of the Corp operation of Yale College who departed this life the second day of March a. 1776 in the 69th year of his age and 44th of his ministry endowed with Superior natural abilities and good literary acquirements he was still more distinguished for his unaffected piety primitive Simplicity of manners and true Christian benevolence he closed the life spent in the service of his creator in Humble confidence of Eternal happiness through the merits of the Savior blessed are the Dead who die in the Lord his wife survived him 19 years and died November 19th 1795 aged 76 it was during the dark early period of her widowhood that the sad events occurred which have furnished the historian and the novelist with themes of the deepest pathos and to which prominence is given in the following pages but wo's cluster rare are solitary woes they love a train they tread each other's heels so said the sublimest of poets and so has all experience proved thus in her case this Affliction did not come alone but at a period nearly connected with this in the dreary solitary hours of the night her night of Sorrow too her house was discovered on fire which for lack of modern appliances was totally destroyed with all its contents consisting not only of many curious and valuable articles of furniture both for use and ornament but embracing also an uncommon Library overflowing with rare books pamphlets Etc which her late husband had collected with great effort and research Elizabeth the eldest of her family was born in 1752 she was a child of early promise and remarkable in mature years for her genius I Ed the term in no merely conventional sense as will Hereafter appear and accomplishments as well as for her genial spirit and tender and endearing qualities her maternal ancestor Thomas Stanley was an original owner and settler in Hartford Connecticut and removed to and died in Hadley Massachusetts January 30th 1662 to 3 thus nobly descended and connected so singularly unfortunate and her fate so afflicting and disastrous it is no no wonder that the novelist pointed her pen to record with historical accuracy a destiny so fearful a career so terrible by her exceeding personal Beauty and accomplishments added to the wealth of her mind she attracted to her sphere the grave and the gay the learned and the witty the worshippers of the beautiful with those who reverently Bend before all inner Graces prominent among these was the Reverend Joseph how then Pastor at the new New South Church on Church Green in this city a young man of rare talents and eminent piety unfortunately the fear and excitement consequent on the Hostile relation of the colonies at that time towards the mother country forced him from his position here and he left with the family whose house had been his home for a more quiet temporary retreat in Norwich Connecticut soon after this he repaired to the residence of Reverend Mr Whitman in Hartford for a short visit high in the anticipation a of soon becoming the happy husband of the gifted daughter Elizabeth but Providence in wisdom had ordered it otherwise and whilst on this visit he suddenly sickened and died however much or little of Soul or of Sorrow she had in this event we are not to know but another stood Ready To Worship in his place what we will endeavor to believe was in some degree worthy of homage this was Jay buer known as the Reverend Joseph book Minster a graduate of Yale College and at that time tutor in the same institution who afterward settled as Minister over the religious Society in Portsmouth New Hampshire and whose biography was but a few years ago published we have no reason to believe however that either of these persons was her earliest Choice especially the latter or that in this case most certainly there could have been at all that sacred Congeniality of spirit so deeply necessary to woman's nature bearing out from her her bosom that deathless affection which no Pride nor affluence nor Folly no love of Conquest with the victory everywhere certain could in any wise overcome the feeling that existed on her part was of circumstances only influenced by strong parental predilection and the desire which so often obtains in the heart of a true woman that of soothing the love she cannot return resolving itself at length into pity we might hear all also dwell upon the idiosyncrasies of Genius as applicable to her case which are generally banned of whatever character they may be and ever more shut out all sympathy till in despair or despite Folly is made crime but since sin must ever be arraigned for itself and error is prone to plead for Mercy I leave no word here that can be misconstrued or misapplied certain it is that Elizabeth Whitman was marked as one of strangely fluctuating moods as the truly gifted ever are and of a wild incomprehensible nature little understood by those who should have known her best and with whom she was most intimate over this in tracing her history it will well to pause were it not that thus we might give countenance to this prominent fact of modern days that the eccentricities of Genius are often substituted for genius itself or are made its prime characteristics as the gold of the Jeweler is Rec commended for its beauty and strength in proportion to its alloy however much we may regret the waywardness of such a heart in the present instance in that it rejected one so nobly qualified as was Mr book Minster to appreciate its genius and its love while sympathizing with his own mortifying disappointment for this we must admit that she had in the secrets of her nature a preference for another we cannot all together know its results so cautiously and discreetly did he through a long and Beautiful Life qualify both his lips and his pen that little or nothing remains Beyond these letters of the novelist which we may not doubt are authentic as they were long in the possession of Mr Henry Hill of Boston the Mrs suner of the novel to tell how the heart was instructed and how blighted hope and blasted affection were made the loes through which the spirit caught its sublimest and holiest respiration we know through lacerations takes the spirit wing and in the heart's long death throw grasps true life one little remark which has been suffered to creep into his Memoirs is however of particular significance I quote it here in speaking of Connecticut to a friend he says my place was there I always wished that state to be my home but Providence has directed my line of duty far away from the place of my first affections he also as one who had every means of knowing the fact has informed me was deeply affected on reading the romance here following and at the time remarks that had the author been personally acquainted not knowing that she was with the circumstances of his engagement with Elizabeth Whitman she could not have described them with more graphic Truth The Honorable peero Edwards to whom was given the preference and precedence above referred to and who is made to assume in the chapters of the novel The Name of Sanford was the son of Reverend Jonathan Edwards president of Princeton College New Jersey his maternal grandmother was Esther the second daughter of the Reverend Solomon Stoddard and sister to the paternal grandmother of Elizabeth whitmann the wife of Reverend Samuel Whitman before mentioned a Mr Bert has by some been identified with this Sandford the Rival of buya yet without the least pretension in history to authenticity nor can we place much Reliance upon the letters here introduced as his in point of originality as there is sufficient reason for believing that these are for the most part of the author's invention founded upon the current reputation of his after years and we may be happy in so considering them since they would betray a character even in earliest manhood too depraved and debased for honorable mention although his errors were no doubt altogether beyond the pation of a woman's pen yet we would fa look at him in youth at least as undeb watched and uncorrupt however stained may be the record of his manhood between him and Elizabeth whitmann there was not withstanding overall and underall a close Affinity of spirit and there is no question aside from the frailties and objections which the writer of the romance has introduced that there was a marriage of the Soul superseding all after ties which worldliness and depravity might have consummated that overshadows sin and may not pass into our Reckoning not only such a marriage but one though secret actually sanctioned by the laws of the land she is known to have declared a fact previous to her death question this who may that deep down under the impulses of surging passion there existed a pure and holy affection for her is in history sufficiently clear they had been set in family connection intimate by kin intimate in earliest Life by every outward high and especially intimate by the subtile affinities of their spiritual Natures yet he who can under any circumstances and treat the love of woman and then take advantage of her weakness or her confidence is an anomaly in nature and should have a special Judiciary here and in heaven since so much of the romance here following is truth veritable truth it is to be regretted that any error of historical character was suffered to assume importance in the narrative yet this is so often the case in works of this kind that it is not remarkable here more surprising is it that truth was so carefully and conscientiously guarded and preserved in conflicting statements it is difficult to determine the precise year of the marriage of Mr Edwards whether before or after the death of Eliza Warton although it may have been long before even as one of his biographers has it and the recklessness and extravagance may have lifted him to a too fearful height from the calm Eden of love and honor till he at length compromised the influence of both to baser avarice that he married Francis Ogden of Elizabethtown New Jersey for his first wife is the fact and the date given is 1769 yet the ciphers may be questioned I think as it would make him but 19 years of age at the time of the event besides other considerations which make it appear more doubtful still he was however as has been already stated the 11th and youngest child of Reverend Jonathan Edwards and was born in Northampton Massachusetts Sabbath his biographer has been particularly faithful in thus recording it as if the hallowed influences of the Sabbath upon birth have a bearing on subsequent life and were in his case either strikingly marked or missed he was born then Sabbath April 8th 1750 and was cousin in good or evil to the notorious Aon Burr he was also brother to Reverend Jonathan Edwards president of Union College his mother Sarah peont was of aristocratic origin and the daughter of Reverend James peer Pont and granddaughter of John peer point of Roxbury from whom descended Reverend John peero the celebrated poet and divine of our time the peero family was a branch of the family of the Duke of Kingston peont being the family name and the mother of Mr Edwards was thus cousin jaman to Mary peont Lady Lady Mary wartle montigue through his whole ancestral line we trace the laying G on of hands in the most conspicuous as in the divest order and thus might he be truly called a child of prayer and consecration what pity that his biographer should have been compelled to record the most remarkable feature of his character was his unbridled licentiousness but we cannot drop the curtain here we would relieve the picture by this somewhat lighter shade his intellectual energies were gigantic as a plead and a determined and Artful advocate he had few equals hence as a lawyer he scarcely ever lost a case in his whole practice an amusing anecdote is related of him in his professional career in an insurance case the evidence of which was strongly against him he went in Disguise to New London where the witnesses mostly Sailors resided in a loafer likee Swagger he proposed and secured bets from every material evidence in the case and thus disqualified them from bearing testimony on on the ground that they were interested Witnesses in his old age he married his housekeeper and clothed an eventful and unblessed life at Bridgeport April 14th 1826 It is Well to memorize him here and thus register birth and death on the very page that records the most mysterious chapter of his history let us return to unite and conclude our story in June 1788 a female of uncommon beauty of person yet with an oppressed and Melancholy bearing suddenly appeared at the Old Bell Tavern in danvas Massachusetts she was inhabited in black and was seldom seen abroad never except alone and at Twilight when she was observed to wander as far as the old burying ground hard by and there to pause at its entrance gazing long and earnestly upon its silent scattered Mounds at length retracing her steps with the same Melancholy gate and air here she remained nearly a month discovering To None her real name or situation she passed her time in writing in and occasionally playing upon a guitar which was the only companion of her Solitude after remaining there about 2 weeks a shay was sent to pause before the door upon the lintle of which had secretly been traced in chalk as it afterwards appeared the letters ew a gentleman hastily alighted and was also observed through the darkness of the evening to examine the casing of the door and then return to the Shaz and drive rapidly away the opinion was by those who were cognizant of the fact that this was a secret preconcerted sign by which the lover should recognize the place of her Retreat and being too faintly drawn through the darkness of the night he failed to discover the characters from this time however the spirits of the stranger evidently sunk and in two weeks more birth and death had followed each other and the grave had closed overall this stranger had in her peculiar situation tenderly won upon the sympathies of a few kind-hearted individuals who had made their way to her one of whom a Mrs Southwick lived directly opposite the Bell Tavern these were with her in her last great Agony in which all sense of guilt was lost in pity Mrs S has related that no word of complaint or accusation Was Heard to fall from her lips while the spirit seemed brightening with an unearthly hope till what was Charming in life was indescribably lovely in death thus they laid the beautiful stranger in the saintly Robes of the sepul without censure and without accusation not knowing how painfully she was mourned and missed as a star shut out a vision by clouds and storm in the home of her childhood and in the heart of a widowed mother she had passed under the assumed name of Walker while at the Bell Tavern of Danver and her wardrobe was found marked with the corresponding initials ew although applying to her real name as well these facts in connection with her death were immediately published in the Boston and Salem Journal and her friends advertised to appear and thus were her real name and place of residence elicited a short time afterwards and a stranger came and caused to be erected in the old burying ground in danas on the spot where she was interred two gray stones after the manner of oian with the touching inscription which this volume records and the feet of strangers moved by pity and Humanity have worn a path to her grave which he who covets most in the world's memory might even Envy the Tombstones which the fathers of that ancient Town should shame to have recorded have been battered and broken for relics till much of the inscription is gone already and the footstone entirely removed but I have noted that Elizabeth whitmann was of superior Merit and had been recognized as a child of Genius in its most Earnest sense from her earliest childhood she had been remarkable for a deeply poetic temperament and it appears she she was recognized as a poet of no common order by the most distinguished writers of the day barow Trumble and others why her name and writings have not been handed down to us by those who have essayed to make careful compilations of the literature of the past Century I am unable to Divine she was a relative as well of the last Nam poet Trumble on the side of his mother who was Sarah Whitman a sister of Reverend El Nathan whitmann the father of Elizabeth I find in the journals of that time the following poem which though not the best of her Productions certainly gives evidence of much poetic power to Mr barow by his friend Elizabeth Whitman on New Year's Day 1783 should every wish the heart of friendship nose be to your ear conveyed in rustic Pros lost in the wonders of your Eastern clim or wrapped in Vision to some unborn time The Artful hail might no attention gain for friendship knows not like the Muse to Fain forgive her then if in this weak essay she tries to emulate thy darling lay and give to truth and Warm affections Glow the charms that from the tuneful sisters flow on this blessed morning's most apicius rise which finds thee circled with domestic Joys May thy glad heart its grateful tribute pay to him who shaped thy course and smooth thy way that Guardian power who to thy Merit kind bestowed the Bliss most suited to thy mind retirement friendship Leisure learned ease and all the philosophic mind can please all that the musees love thinus nine inspires thy lays and Aid the great design but more than all the world could else bestow all pleasures that from fame or Fortune flow to fix secure in Bliss thy future life Heaven Crown thy blessings with a lovely wife wise gentle good with every Grace combined that charms the sense or captivates the Mind skilled every soft emotion to improve the joy of friendship and the wish of love to soothe the heart which pale Misfortune train invades with grief or agonizing pain to point through devious paths the narrow road that leads the soul to Virtue or to God oh friend oh sister to my bosom dear by every TI that binds the soul sincere her while I fondly dwell upon thy name why sinks my soul unequal to the theme but thou unskilled thy various Worth to praise accept my wishes and excuse my lays may all thy future days like this be gay and love and Fortune blend their kindest Ray long in their various gifts May thou be blessed and lat send the Realms of endless rest among her papers also after her decease was found a pastoral on disappointment which here follows evidently written during her seclusion in danvas with this brief and pathetic letter in stenographic characters must I die alone shall I never see you more I know that you will come but you will come too late that is I fear my last ability tears fall so fast I know not how to write why did you leave me in such distress but I will not reproach you all that was dear I forsook for you but do not regret it may God forgive him both what was a miss when I go from here I will leave you some way to find me if I die will you come and drop a tear over my grave the poem which continues in the same moving strain is touching and tender and betrays a Heart full of refinement and Sensibility disappointment with fond impatience all the tedious day I sighed and wished the lingering hours away for when bright hesper LED The Starry train my shepherd swore to meet me on the plane with eager haste to that dear spot I flew and lingered along and then then in tears withdrew alone abandoned to Love's tenderest woes down my pale cheeks the tide of Sorrow flows dead to all joy that fortune can bestow in vain for me her useless bounties flow take back each envied gift ye Powers Divine and only let me call Fidel O Mine ah wretch what anguish yet thy Soul must prove for thou canst hope to lose thy care in love and when Fidelio meets thy tearful eye pale fear and cold despair his presence LLY with pensive steps I sought thy walks again and kiss thy token on The Verdant plain with fondest hope through many a blissful hour we gave our souls to fany's pleasing power lost in the magic of that sweet employ to build gay scenes and fashion future joy we saw mild peace over Fair Canan rise and shower her Pleasures from benignant skies on Airy Hills are happy Mansion rows Built For Joy No Room for future woes round the calm Solitude with ceaseless song sweet as the sleep of Innocence the day by transports measured lightly danced away to love to Bliss the union Soul was given and are too happy asks no Bright Heaven and must the hours in ceaseless anguish roll will no soft Sunshine cheer my clouded Soul can this day Earth no transient Joy Supply is it my Doom to Hope Despair and die oh come once more with soft endearments come burst the cold prison of the suen Tomb through favored walks thy chosen made attend where well-known Shades their pleasing branches Bend shed the soft poison of thy speaking eye and look those raptures lifeless words deny still he though late reheard what n could tie but told each Eve fresh Pleasures would Inspire still hope those scenes which love and fancy Drew but drawn a thousand times were ever knew can fancy paint can words Express can all on Earth my woes redress even even thy soft Smiles can ceaseless prove thy truth thy tenderness and love once thou coldest every Bliss Inspire transporting joy and gay desire now cold despair her Banner RAR and pleasure flies when she appears fond hope within my bosom dies and Agony her Place Supplies oh thou for whose dear sake I bear a doom so Dreadful so severe May happy Fates thy footsteps guide and over thy peaceful home preside nor let e early to infect thee with its baleful Gloom still another poem of more genuine Beauty and strength than either of these has been preserved in her own handwriting which I doubt not the reader will thank me for introducing here although it Bears more of recrimination than the others the presence to some happier lover send content thyself to be Lucinda's friend the soft expression of thy gay design ill suits the sadness of a Heart Like Mine a Heart Like Mine Forever doomed to prove each tender woe but only one Joy Of Love first from my arms a dying love torn in early life it was my fate to mourn a father next by Fate's Relentless Doom with heartfelt woe I followed to the tomb now all was lost no friends remain to guide my earing step or calm life's boisterous tide again the admiring youths around me bowed and one I singled from the sighing crowd well Skil he was in every winning art to warm the fancy or to touch the heart why must my pen the noble praise Den I which virtue worth and honor should Supply oh youth beloved what pangs my breast was born to find the false ungrateful and for sworn a shade in darkness over my Prospect spreads The Damp of night and death's Eternal Shades the scorpion sting by disappointment brought and all the horrors of despairing thought sad as they are I might perhaps endure and bear with patience what adits no cure but here my bosom is to Madness moved I suffer by the wrongs of him I loved oh had I died by pitying Heaven's decree nor proved so black so base a mind in thee but vain the wish my heart was doomed to prove each torturing Pang but not one Joy of love wouldst thou again fallacious prospects spread and woo me from the confines of the Dead the pleasing scenes that Charmed me once retrace gay scenes of rapture and ecstatic Bliss how did my heart embraced the dear deceit and fondly cherish the deluding cheat delusive hope and wishes sadly gain unless to sharpen disappointments pain these are but the fragmentary proofs of her poetic ability still they are the most that have been preserved bearing full authenticity yet these betray a skillful unaccustomed pen though stamped with the bitterness of Woe here then we will take up the idea which we left several Pages back in order to introduce a quotation from a volume of singular power in behalf of those thus gifted who are everywhere looked upon with some degree of suspicion at least as I find our heroine was even long before she wandered from the path of virtue I quote it only to soften the harsher Judgment of the world ever eager to condemn what it cannot comprehend yet must it by no means be made to apologize for any sin while I am willing to be known as believing that genius can be governed by no conventional laws but is ever a law unto itself I am also in the full belief of the independent moral power of every individual to regulate his own acts according to the purest code of morality but to the quotation which with the above remarks the reader would find pertinent to time and place had he turned over the historical Pages having a bearing on this romance which I have quote the strong seductions and fierce Trials of the heart of Genius who shall estimate what does an ordinary mind know of the inner storm and worldwind as it were of restlessness the craving after excitement and high action the inability to calm the breast and Repose in fixity the wild beatings and widowed long longings after sympathy it is the severe lot of Genius that its blessedness should be its Bane that that wherein its Heavenly franchise gives it to excel mankind is the point wherein it should be cursed above its Brethren End quotes more I might quote but these few extracts are sufficient for my purpose and I hasten to conclude this chapter with what may to the general reader appear more relevant not many years ago the Bell Tavern as it was ever named was raised to its foundation and a new building Ed on the spot where it stood at this time a pleasant Judes spree from the humorous and ready pen which has failed not to make its Mark in the world of fit pool Esquire of danvas was published which gained a wide Credence in its authenticity this curious witticism affected to have discovered in the wall of the room which Eliza Warton occupied an original letter from her to Mr Edwards dated May 1778 besides various articles of her wearing apparel such as slippers Etc and also her guitar all of which had been concealed in the ceiling since the sad close of her history numbers flocked to see them but as it was a mere pleasantry The hoax was well received and ended in the neighborhood of danvas with the privileged April Fool's Day of its date although it may even yet have Believers in distant places thus kind reader have I accomplished the task assigned me with Fidelity to truth and to humanity and here lay the offering on the altar of universal love without excuse Jane e lock Boston 1854 note for important facts which have greatly aided me in preparing this Preparatory chapter I am much indebted as I would here gratefully acknowledge to Ezekiel white Esquire of East Hampton and Mrs h v Cheney of Montreal Jane e lock end of introduction chapter one of the coet or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by John Miller the cat or the history of Eliza Warden by Hannah Webster Foster chapter 1 letter one to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven an unusual sensation possesses my breast a sensation which I once thought could never pervade it on any occasion whatever it is pleasure pleasure my dear Lucy on leaving my paternal roof could you have believed that the darling child of an indulgent and dearly beloved mother would feel a gleam of Joy at leaving her but so it is The Melancholy the Gloom the condolence which surrounded me for a month after the death of Mr Haley had depressed my spirits and paed every enjoyment of life Mr Haley was a man of worth a man of real and substantial Merit he is therefore deeply and justly regretted by his friends he was chosen to be a future guardian and companion for me and was therefore beloved by mine as their choice as a good man and a faithful friend I esteemed him but no one acquainted with the disparity of our tempers and dispositions our views and Designs can suppose my heart much engaged in the alliance both nature and education had instilled into my mind in implicit obedience to the will and desires of my parents to them of course of course I sacrificed my fancy in this affair determined that my reason should concur with theirs and on that to risk my future happiness I was the more encouraged as I saw from our first acquaintance his declining health and expected that the event would prove as it has think not however that I rejoice in his death no farbe it for me for though I believe that I never felt the passion of love for Mr Haley yet a habit of conversing with him of hearing daily the most virtuous tender and affectionate sentiments from his lips inspired emotions of the sincerest friendship and esteem he's gone his fate is unalterably and I trust happily fixed he lived the life and died the death of the righteous oh that my last end may be like his this event will I hope make a suitable and iding impression upon my mind teach me the faith nature of all sublunary enjoyments and the little dependence which is to be placed on Earthly Felicity whose situation was more agreeable whose prospects more flattering than Mr Haley's social domestic and canbial joys were fondly anticipated and friends and Fortune seemed ready to Crown every wish yet animated by still brighter hopes he cheerfully bid them all Ado in conversation with me but a few days before his exit there is said he but one Link in the chain of life unded that my dear Eliza is my attachment to you but God is wise and good in all his ways and in this as in all other respects I would cheerfully say his will be done you my friend were witness to the concluding scene and therefore I need not describe it I shall only add on the subject that if I have wisdom and Prudence to follow his advice an example if his prayers for my temporal and eternal welfare be heard and answered I shall be happy indeed the disposition of mind which I now feel I wish to cultivate calm Placid and Serene thoughtful of my duty and benevolent to all around me I wish for no other connection than that of friendship this letter is all egotism I have even neglected to mention the respectable and happy friends with whom I reside but will do it in my next right soon and often and believe me sincerely yours Eliza Wharton letter two to the same New Haven time which effaces every occasional impression I find gradually dispelling the pleasing pensiveness which The Melancholy event the subject of my last had diffused over my mind naturally cheerful volatile and unreflecting the opposite disposition I have found to contain sources of enjoyment which I was before unconscious of possessing my friends here are the picture of conjugal Felicity the situation is delightful the visiting party is perfectly agreeable everything tends to facilitate the return of my accustomed vivacity I have written to my mother and received an answer she Praises my fortitude and admires the philosophy which I have exerted under what she calls my heavy bereavement poor woman she little thinks that my heart was untouched and when that is unaffected other sentiments and passions make but a transient impression I have been for a month or two excluded from the gay world and indeed fancied myself soaring above it it is now that I begin to descend and find my natural propensity for mixing in the busy scenes and act Ive pleasures of life returning I have received your letter your moral lecture rather and be assured my dear your monitorial lessons and advice shall be attended to I believe I shall never again resume those heirs which you term CSH but which I think deserve a softer appalation as they proceed from an innocent heart and are the effusions of a youthful and cheerful mind we are all invited to spend the day tomorrow at colonel farington who has an elegant seat in this neighborhood both he and his lady are strangers to me but the Friends by whom I am introduced will procure me a welcome reception Ado Eliza Warden letter three to the same New Haven is it time for me to talk again of conquests or must I only enjoy them in silence I must write to you the impulses of my mind or I must not write at all you are not so morose as to to wish me to become a nun would our country and religion allow it I ventured yesterday to throw aside the habiliments of morning and to array myself in those more adapted to my taste we arrived at Colonel Fairington about 1:00 the colonel handed me out of the carriage and introduced me to a large company assembled in the hall my name was pronounced with an emphasis and I was received with the most flattering tokens of respect when we were summoned to dinner a young gentle woman in a clerical dress offered me his hand and led me to a table furnished with an elegant and Sumptuous repass with more gallantry and address than commonly fall to the share of students he sat opposite me at table and whenever I raised my eye it caught his the ease and politeness of his manners with his particular attention to me raised my curiosity and induced me to ask Mrs Leighton who he was she told me that his name was Boer that he was descended from a worthy family and had passed with honor and Applause through the University where he was educated had since studied Divinity with success and now had a call to settle as a minister in one of the first parishes in a neighboring state the gates of a spacious Garden were thrown open at this instant and I accepted with avidity an invitation to walk in it mirth and hilarity prevailed and the moment fled on Downy wings while we traced the beauties of Art and nature so liberally displayed and so happily Blended in this delightful Retreat an enthusiastic admirer of scenes like these I had rambled some way from the company when I was followed by Mrs Len to offer her condolence on the supposed loss which I had sustained in the death of Mr Haley my heart rose against the woman so ignorant of human nature as to think such conversation acceptable at such a Time I made her little reply and waved the subject though I could not immediately dispel the Gloom which it excited the absurdity of a custom authorizing people at a first interview to revive the idea of griefs which time has led perhaps obliterated is intolerable to have our enjoyments arrested by the empty compliments of unthinking persons for no other reason than a compliance with fashion is to be treated in a manner which the laws of humanity forbid we were soon joined by the gentleman who each selected his partner and the walk was prolonged Mr Boer offered me his arm which I gladly accepted happy to be relieved from the impertinence of my female companion we returned to tea after which the lady sung and played by turns on the piano Forte while some of the gentlemen accompanied with the flute the clarinet and the violin forming in the hole a very decent concert An Elegant supper and half an hour's conversation after it closed the evening when we returned home delighted with our entertainment and pleased with ourselves and each other my imagination is so impressed with the festive scenes of the day that Morpheus waves his eban wand in vain the evening is fine beyond the power of description all nature is Serene and harmonious in perfect Unison with my present disposition of mind and I have been taking a retrospect of my past life and a few juvenile Foles accepted which I trust the recording Angel has blotted out with the tear of charity find an approving conscience and a heart at ease Fortune indeed has not been very liberal of her gifts to me but I presume on a large stock in the Bank of friendship which United with health and innocence give me some pleasing anticipations of future felicity Whatever my fate may be I shall always continue your Eliza whorton letter four to Mr Selby New Haven you ask ask me my friend whether I am in Pursuit Of Truth or a lady I answer both I hope and trust they are united and really expect to find truth and the virtues and Graces besides in a fair form if you mean by the first part of your question whether I am searching into the sublimer doctrines of religion to these I Would by no means be inattentive but to be honest my studies of that kind have been very much interrupted of late the respectable circle of acquaintances with whom I am honored here has rendered my visits very frequent and numerous in one of these I was introduced to miss Aliza Warden a young lady whose elegant person accomplished mind and Polished manners have been much celebrated her Fame has often reached me but as the Queen of Sheba said to Solomon the half was not told me you will think that I talk in the style of a lover I confess it nor am I ashamed to rank myself among the profess best admirers of this lovely Fair one I'm in no danger however of becoming an enthusiastic devotee no I mean to act upon just and rational principles expecting soon to settle in an eligible situation if such a companion as I am persuaded she will make me may fall to my lot I shall deem myself as happy as this state of imperfection will admit she is now resident at General Richmond's the General and his lady are her particular friends they are warm in her Praises they tell me however that she is naturally of a gay disposition no matter for that it is an agreeable quality where there is discretion sufficient for its regulation a cheerful friend much more a cheerful wife is peculiarly necessary to a person of a studious and sedentary life they dispel the Gloom of retirement and Exhilarate the spirits depressed by intense application she was formerly addressed by the late Mr Haley of Boston he was not it seems the man of her choice but her parents were extremely partial to him and wished the connection to take place she like a beautiful child sacrificed her own inclination to their pleasure so far as to acques in his visits this she more easily accomplished as his health which declined from their first acquaintance led her to suppose as the event has proved that he would not live to enter into any lasting engagements her father who died some months before him invited him to reside at his house for the benefit of a change of air agreeably to the advice of his Physicians she attended him during his last illness with all the Care and assiduity of a nurse and with all the sympathizing tenderness of a sister I have had several opportunities of conversing with her she discovers an elevated mind a ready apprehension and an accurate knowledge of the various subjects which have been brought into view I have not yet introduced the favorite subject of my heart indeed she seems studiously to avoid noticing any expression which leads toward it but she must hear it soon I am sure of the favor and interest of the friends with whom she resides they have promised to speak previously in my behalf I am to call as if accidentally this afternoon just as they are to write abroad they are to refer me to miss arton for entertainment till their return what a delightful opportunity for my purpose I'm counting the hours nay the very moments ad do you shall soon hear again from your most obedient J Boer letter five to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven these bewitching charms of mine have a tendency to keep my mind in a state of perturbation I am so pestered with these admirers not that I am so very handsome neither but I don't know how it is I am certainly very much the taste of the other sex followed flattered and cressed I have cards and compliments in profusion but I must try to be serious for I have alas one serious lover as I promised you to be particular in my writing I suppose I must proceed methodically yesterday we had a party to dine Mr Boer was of the number his attention was immediately engrossed and I soon perceived that every word every action and every look was studied to gain my approbation as he sat next me at dinner his assiduity and politeness were pleasing and as we walked together afterwards his conversation was improving mine was sentimental and sedate perfectly adapted to the taste of my Gallant nothing however was said particularly expressive of his apparent wishes I studiously avoided every kind of discourse which might lead to this topic I wish not for a declaration from anyone especially from one whom I could not repulse and do not intend to to encourage at present his conversation so similar to what I had often heard from a similar character brought a deceased friend of mine and rendered me somewhat pensive I retired directly after supper Mr Boer had just taken leave Mrs Richmond came into my chamber as she was passing to her own excuse my intrusion Eliza said she I thought I would just step in and ask you if you have passed a pleasant day perfectly so Madam and I have now retired to protract the enjoyment by recollection what my dear is your opinion of our favorite Mr Boer declaring him your favorite Madam is sufficient to render me partial to him but to be frank independent of that I think him an agreeable man your heart I presume is now free yes and I hope it will long remain so your friends my dear solicitous for your welfare wish to see you soon suitably and agreeably connected I hope my friends will never again interpose in my concerns of that nature you madam who have ever known my heart are sensible that had the almighty spared life in a certain instance I must have sacrificed my own happiness or incurred their censure I am young gay volatile a Melancholy event has lately extricated me from those shackles which parental Authority had imposed on my mind let me then enjoy that freedom which I so highly prized let me have opportunity unbiased by opinion to gratify my natural disposition in a participation of those Pleasures which Youth and innocence afford of such Pleasures no one my dear would wish to deprive you but beware Eliza though strowed with flowers when contemplated by your Lively imagination it is after all a slippery thorny path the round of fashionable dissipation is dangerous a phantom is often pursued which leaves its deluded voter the real form of wretchedness she spoke with an emphasis and taking up her candle wished me a good night I had not the power to return the compliment something seemingly prophetic in her looks and expressions cast a momentary Gloom upon my mind but I despise those contracted ideas which confine virtue to aell I have no notion of becoming a recluse Mrs Richmond has ever been a beloved friend of mine yet I always thought her rather prudish Ado Eliza Wharton letter six to the same New Haven I had scarcely seated myself at The Breakfast Table this morning when a servant entered with a card of invitation from major Sanford requesting the happiness of my hand this evening at a ball given by Mr Atkins about 3 miles from this I showed the bay to Mrs Richmond saying I have not much acquaintance with this gentleman Madam but I suppose his character sufficiently respectable to Warrant an affirmative answer he is a gay man my dear to say no more and such are the companions we wish when we join a party a validly formed for pleasure I then stepped into my apartment wrote an answer and dispatched the servant when I returned to the Parlor something disapproving appeared in the countenances of both my friends I endeavored without seeming to observe to dissipate by chitchat but they were better pleased with each other than with me and soon Rising walked into the garden and left me to amus myself alone my eyes followed them through the window happy pair said I should it ever be my fate to wear the henial chain may I be thus United the purest and most Ardent affection the greatest consonant of taste and disposition and the most congenial virtue and wishes distinguish this lovely couple health and wealth with every attendant blessing preside over their favored dwelling and shed their benign influence without a Loy the consciousness of exciting their displeasure gave me pain but I consoled myself with the idea that it was ill- founded they should consider said I that they have no satisfaction to look for Beyond each other there every enjoyment is centered but I am a poor solitary being who need some amusement beyond what I can supply myself the mind after being confined at home for a while sends the imagination abroad in quest of new treasures and the body may as well accompany it for all I can see General Richman and lady have ever appeared solicitous to promote my happiness since I have resided with them they have urged my acceptance of invitations to join parties though they have not been much themselves of late as Mrs Richmond's present circumstances render her fond of retirement what reason can be assigned for their apparent reluctance to this evening's entertainment is to me and incomprehensible but I shall apply the chemical powers of friendship and extract the secret from Mrs Richman tomorrow if not before Ado I am now summoned to dinner and after that shall be engaged in preparation till the wished for hour of hilarity and mirth engrosses every faculty of your Eliza Wharton letter seven to Mr sby New Haven divines need not declaim nor philosophers expatiate on the disappointments of human life are they not legibly written on every page of our existence are they not predominantly prevalent over every period of Our Lives when I closed my last letter to you my heart exalted in the pleasing anticipation of promised Bliss my wishes danced on the light breezes of Hope and my imagination dared to arrest the attention and even claim a return of affection from the lovely Eliza Warden but imagination only it is proved and that dashed with the bitter rankling of jealousy and suspicion but to resume my narrative I reached the mantion of my friend about 4 I was disagreeably struck with the appearance of a carriage at the door as it raised an idea of company which might frustrate my plan but still more disagreeable were my Sensations when on entering the Parlor I found major Sanford evidently in a waiting posture I was very politely received and when Eliza entered the room with the brilliant of appearance and gayety of manner which I had never before connected with her character I Rose as did major Sanford who offered his hand and led her to a chair I forgot to sit down again but stood transfixed by the pangs of disappointment Miss Warton appeared somewhat confused but soon resuming her vivacity desired me to be seated inquired after my health and made some common place remarks on the weather then apologizing for leaving me gave her hand again to Major Sanford who had previously risen and reminded her that the time and their engagements made it necessary to leave the good company which indeed they both appeared very willing to do General Richmond and lady took every method in their power to remove my chagrin and atone for the absence of my fair one but ill did they succeed they told me that Miss Warden had not the most distant idea of my visiting there this afternoon much less of the design of my visit that for some months together she had been lately confined by the sickness of Mr Haley whom she attended during the whole of his last illness which confinement had eventually increased her desire of indulging her natural disposition for gayety she had however they said an excellent heart and reflecting mind a great share of sensibility and a temper peculiarly formed for the enjoyments of social life but this gentleman Madam who is her Gallant this evening is his character unexceptionable will will a lady of delicacy associate with an immoral not to say proplate man the rank in Fortune of major Sanford said Mrs Richmond procure him respect his spacious manners render him acceptable in public company but I must own that he is not the person with whom I wish my cousin to be connected even for a moment she never consulted me so little on any subject as on that of his card this morning before I had time to object she dismissed the servant and I forbore to destroy her expected Happiness by acquainting her with my disapprobation of her partner her Omission was not design it was juvenile indiscretion we must my dear sir continued she look with a candid eye on such eccentricities faults not foibles require the severity of censure far Madam be it for me to censure any conduct which as yet I have observed in Miss Forton she has too great an interest in my heart to admit of that we now went into more General conversation T was served and I soon after took leave General Richmond however insisted on my dining with him on Thursday which I promised and here I am again over head and ears in the hypo a disease you will say peculiar to students I believe it peculiar to lovers and with that class I must now rank myself though I did not know until this evening that I was so much engaged as I find I really am I knew indeed that I was extremely pleased with this amiable girl that I was interested in her favor that I was happier in her company than anywhere else with innumerable other circumstances which would have told me the truth had I examined them but be that as it may I hope and trust that I am and ever shall be a reasonable creature and not suffer my judgment to be misled by the operations of a blind passion I shall now lay aside this subject Endeavor to divest even my imagination of the charmer and return until Thursday to the contemplation of those truths and duties which have a happy tendency to calm the jarring Elements which compose our mortal frame Ado Jay Boer end of chapter 1 recording by John Miller akan Ohio John miller. org chapter 2 of the coet or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster this LibriVox recording is in the public domain recording by John Miller letter 8 to Mr Charles Dayton New Haven we had an elegant ball last night Charles and what is still more to the taste of your old friend I had an elegant partner one exactly calculated to please my fancy gay volatile apparently thoughtless of everything but present enjoyment it was Miss Eliza Wharton a young lady whose agreeable person polished manners and refined talents have rendered her the toast of the country around for these 2 years though for half that time she has had a clerical lover imposed on her by her friends for I am told it was not agreeable to her inclination by this same clerical lover of hers she was for several months confined as a nurse but his death has happily relieved her and she now returns to the world with redoubled luster at present she is a visitor to Mrs Richmond who was a relation I first saw her on a party of pleasure at Mr Frasier's where we walked talked sung and danced together I thought her cousin watched her with a jealous eye for she is you must know a prude and Immaculate more so than you or I must be the man who claims admission to her Society but I fancy this young lady is a coet and if so I shall avenge my sex by retaliating the mischiefs she meditates against us not that I have any ill designs but only to play off her own artillery by using a little unmeaning gallantry and let her Beware of the consequences a young clergyman came in at General Richmond's yesterday while I was waiting for Eliza who was much more cordially received by the general and his lady than was your humble servant but I lay that up when she entered the room an air of mutual embarrassment was evident the lady recovered her Assurance much more easily than the gentleman I am just going to ride and shall make it in my way to call and inquire after the health of my dolania therefore ad you for the present Peter Sanford letter nine to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven I am not so happy today in the recollection of last evening's entertainment as I was in the enjoyment the explanation which I promised you from Mrs Richmond yesterday I could not obtain when I went down to dinner some friends of General Richmond's had accidentally dropped in which precluded all particular conversation I retired soon to dress and saw Mrs Richmond no more till I was informed that major Sanford waited for me but I was surprised on going into the Parlor to find Mr Boer there I blushed and stammered but I know not why for certain I am that I neither love nor fear the good man yet whatever I may do some future day I would not be on understood that I do not respect and esteem him for I do both but these are calm passions which soothe rather than agitate the mind it was not the consciousness of any impropriety of conduct for I was far from feeling any the entertainment for which I was prepared was such as virtue would not disapprove and my Gallant was a man of Fortune fashion and for a I knew unblemished character but Mr Boer was much more disconcerted than myself indeed he did not recover his philosophy while I stayed I Believe by some hints I have received since that he had some particular views in which he was disappointed our ball had every charm which could render a ball delightful my partner was all ease politeness and attention and your friend was as much flattered and caressed as variety itself could wish we returned to General Richmond's about two major Sanford asked leave to call and inquire after my health this morning and I am now expecting him I Rose to breakfast the late hour of retiring to rest had not depressed but rather exhilarated my spirits my friends were waiting for me in the Parlor they received me sobly inquired after my health my last evenings entertainment the company Etc when after a little pause Mrs Richmond said and how do you like major Sanford Eliza very well indeed Madam I think him a finished gentleman will you who are a connoisseur allow him that title no my dear in my opinion he falls far below it since he is deficient in one of the great Essentials of the character and that is virtue I am surprised said I but how has he incurred so severe a censure by being a professed libertine by having but too successfully practiced the art the seduction by triumphing in the destruction of innocence and the Peace of families oh why was I not informed of this before but perhaps these are old Affairs the effects of juvenile Folly crimes of which he may have repented and which charity ought to obliterate no my dear they are recent facts facts which she dares not deny facts for which she ought to be banished from all virtuous Society I should have intimated this to you before but your precipitate acceptance of his invitation deprived me of an opportunity until it was too late to prevent your going with him and we thought it best to protract your enjoyment as long as possible not doubting but your virtue and delicacy would in future guard you against the like deception must I then become an avowed prude at once and refuse him admission if he call in compliance with the customary forms by no means I am sensible that even the false maxims of the world must be complied with in a degree but a man of major Sanford's art can easily distinguish between a forbidding and an encouraging reception the former May in this case be given without any breach of the roles of politeness astonished and mortified I knew not what further to say I had been so pleased with the man that I wished to plead in his favor but virtue and Prudence forbade I therefore Rose and retired he is this moment I am told below stairs so that I must bid you a duw until the next post Eliza Wharton letter 10 to the same New Haven upon closing my last I walked down and found major Sanford alone he met me at the door of the Parlor and taking my hand hand with an air of affectionate tenderness led me to a seat and took one beside me I believe the Gloom of Suspicion had not entirely forsaken my brow he appeared however not to notice it but after the compliments of the day had passed entered into an easy and agreeable conversation on the pleasures of society a conversation perfectly adapted to my taste and calculated to dissipate my chagrin and pass the time imperceptibly he inquired the place of my native Abode and having informed him he said he had thoughts of purchasing the seat of Captain pribble in that neighborhood for his residence and could he be assured of my society and friendship his resolution would be fixed I answered his compliment only by a slight bow he took leave and I retired to dress for the day being engaged to accompany my cousin to dine at Mr Lawrence's a gentleman of Fortune and fashion in this vicinity Mr Lawrence has but one daughter ays to a large estate with an agreeable form but a countenance which to me indicates not much soul I was surprised in the afternoon to see major Sanford a light at the gate he entered with the familiarity of an old acquaintance and after ACC costing each of the company told me with a low bow that he did not expect the happiness of seeing me again so soon I received his compliment with a conscious awkwardness Mrs Richmond's morning lecture still rung in my head and her watchful eye now traced every turn of mine and every action of the majors indeed his assiduity was painful to me yet I found it impossible to disengage myself a moment from him till the close of the day brought our Carriage to the door when he handed me in and pressing my hand to his lips retired what shall I say about this extraordinary man shall I own to to you my friend that he is pleasing to me his person his manners his situation all combined to charm my fancy and to my Lively imagination strew the path of life with flowers what a Pity my dear Lucy that The Graces and virtues are not oftener United they must however meet in the man of my choice until I find such a one I shall continue to subscribe my name Eliza Warden letter 11 to Mr Charles Dayton New Haven well Charles I have been maneuvering today a little revengefully that you will say is out of character so baleful a passion does not easily find admission among those softer ones which you well know I cherish however I am a mere prodeus and can assume any shape that will best answer my purpose I called this for noon as I told you I intended at General Richmond's I wait waited some time in the Parlor alone before Eliza appeared and when she did appear the distant reserve of her manners and the pensiveness of her countenance convinced me that she had been vexed and I doubted not but Peter Sanford was the occasion her wise cousin I could have sworn had been giving her a detail of the vices of her gallant and warning her against the danger of associating with him in the future not withstanding I took no notice of any alteration in her behavior but entered with the utmost viciousness into a conversation which I thought most to her taste by degrees she assumed her usual vivacity cheerfulness and Good Humor again animated her countenance I carried as long as decency would admit she having intimated that they were to dine at my friend lawrences I caught at this information and determined to follow them and tease the jealous Mrs richmen by playing off all the gallantry I was Master of in her presence I went and succeeded to the utmost of my wishes as I read in the vexation visible in the one and the ease and attention displayed by the other I believe too that I have Charmed the eye at least of the amiable Eliza indeed Charles she is a fine girl I think it would hurt my conscience to wound her mind or reputation were I disposed to marry I am persuaded she would make an excellent wife but that you know is no part of my plan so long as I can keep out of the news whenever I do submit to be Shackled it must be from a necessity of mending my fortune this girl would be far from doing that however I am pleased with her acquaintance and mean not to abuse her credulity and good nature if I can help it Peter Sanford letter 12 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven the heart of your friend is again besieged whether it will surrender to the as salance or not I am unable at present to determine sometimes I think of becoming a predestinarian and submitting implicitly to fate without any exercise of free will but as mine seems to be a wayward one I would counteract the operations of it if possible Mrs Richmond told me this morning that she hoped I should be as agreeably entertained this afternoon as I had been the preceding that she expected Mr Boer to dine and take tea and doubted not but he would be as attentive and sincere to me if not as gay and polite as the gentleman who obtruded his civilities yesterday I replied that I had no reason to doubt the sincerity of the one or the other having never put them to the test nor did I imagine I ever should your friends Eliza said she would be very happy to see you United to a man of Mr boer's worth and so agreeably settled as he has a prospect of being I hope said I that my friends are not so weary of my company as to wish to dispose of me I am too happy in my present connections to quit them for new ones marriage is the tomb of friendship it appears to me a very selfish State why do people in general as soon as they are married Senter all their cares their concerns and Pleasures in their own families former acquaintances are neglected or forgotten the tenderest ties between friends are weakened or dissolved and benevolence itself moves in a very limited sphere it is the glory of the marriage state she rejoined to refine by circumscribing our enjoyments here we can Repose in safety the friendships of the world are of confederacies in Vice or leagues in pleasure ours has the purest virtue for its basis and such a friendship ends not but with life true we cannot always pay that attention to former Associates which we may wish but the little Community which we superintend is quite as important an object and certainly renders us more beneficial to the public true benevolence though it may change its objects is not limited by time or place its effects are the same and aided by a second self are rendered more diffusive and salutary some pleasant Tre passed and we retired to dress when summoned to dinner I found Mr Boer below if what is sometimes said be true that love is diffident reserved and unassuming this man must be tinctured with it these symptoms were visible in his his department when I entered the room however he soon recovered himself and the conversation took a general turn the festive board was crowned with sociability and we found in reality the Feast of reason and the flow of Soul after we Rose from table a walk in the garden was proposed an amusement we are all peculiarly fond of Mr Boyer offered me his arm when at a sufficient distance from our company he begged leave to congratulate himself on having an opportunity which he had ardently desired for some time of declaring to me his attachment and of soliciting an interest in my favor or if he might be allowed the term affection I replied that sir is indeed laying claim to an important interest I believe you must substitute some more indifferent epithet for the present well then said he if it must be so let it be esteem or friendship indeed sir said I you are in entitled to them both Meritt has always a share in that bank and I know of none who has a larger claim on that score than Mr Boer I suppose my manner was hardly serious enough for what he considered a weighty cause he was a little disconcerted but soon regaining his presence of mind and treated me with an air of earnestness to encourage his suit to admit his addresses and if possible to reward his love I told him that this was is rather a sudden Affair to me and that I could not answer him without consideration well then said he take what time you think proper only relieve my suspense as soon as may be shall I visit you again tomorrow oh not so soon said I next Monday I believe will be early enough I will endeavor to be at home he thanked me even for that favor recommended himself once more to my kindness and we walked towards the company returned with them to the house and he soon took leave I immediately retired to write this letter which I shall close without a single observation on the subject until I know your opinion Eliza Warden letter 13 to Miss Eliza Warden Hartford and so you wish to have my opinion before you know the result of your own this is pling a little too much with my patience but however I will gratify you this once in hopes that my epistle may have a good effect you will ask perhaps whether I would influence your judgment I answer no provided you will exercise it yourself but I am a little apprehensive that your fancy will mislead you me thinks I can gather from your letters a predilection for this major Sandford but he is a rake my dear friend and can a lady of your delicacy and refinement think of forming a connection with a man of that character I hope not nay I am confident you do not you mean only to exhibit a few more girlish errors before you turn matron but I am persuaded if you wish to lead down the dance of life with regularity you will not find a more excellent partner than Mr Boer whatever you can reasonably expect in a lover HB husband or friend you may perceive to be United in this worthy man his taste is UND debauched his manners not viated his morals uncorrupted his situation in life is perhaps as elevated as you have a right to claim forgive my plainness Eliza it is the task of friendship sometimes to tell disagreeable truths I know your ambition is to make a distinguished figure in the first class of polished Society to shine in the gay circle of fashionable amusements and to Bear off the Palm amidst the voies of pleasure but these are fading honors unsatisfactory enjoyments incapable of gratifying those Immortal principles of reason and religion which have been implanted in your mind by Nature assiduously cultivated by the best of parents and exerted I trust by yourself let me advise you then in conducting this affair an affair big perhaps with your future fate to lay aside those coquettish errors which you sometimes put on and remember that you are not dealing with a fob who would take advantage of every concession but with a man of sense and honor who will properly estimate your condescension and frankness act then with that modest Freedom that dignified unreserve which bespeaks conscious rectitude and sincerity of heart I shall be extremely anxious to hear the process and progress of this business relieve my impatience as soon as possible and believe me yours with undissembled affection Lucy Freeman letter 14 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven I have received and read again and again your friendly epistle my reason and judgment entirely coincide with your opinion but my fancy claims some share in the decision and I cannot yet tell which will preponderate this was the day fixed for deciding Mr boer's cause my friends here gave me a long dissertation on his merits your letter likewise had its weight and I was candidly summing up the pros and cons in the garden whether I had walked General Richmond and lady having rote out when I was informed that he was waiting in the Parlor I went immediately in a good symp you will say and received him very graciously after the first compliments were over he seemed eager to improve the opportunity to enter directly on the subject of his present visit it is needless for me to recite to you who have long been acquainted with the whole process of courtship the Declarations propositions protestations int treaties looks words and actions of a lover they are I believe much the same in the whole sex allowing for their different dispositions educations and characters but you are impatient I know for the conclusion you have hastily perused the preceding lines and are straining your eye forward to my part of the farce for such it may prove after all well then not to play too long with the Curiosity which I know to be excited and actuated by real friendship I will relieve it I think you would have been pleased to have seen my gravity on this important occasion with all the cander and frankness which I was capable of assuming I thus answered his long herang to which I had listened without interrupting him self-knowledge sir that most important of all Sciences I have yet to learn such have been my situations in life and the natural volatility of my temper that I have looked but little into my own heart in regard to its future wishes and views from a scene of constraint and confinement ill suited to my years and inclination I have just launched into society my heart beats high in expectation of its fancy Joys my sanguin imagination Paints in alluring colors the charms of Youth and freedom regulated by virtue and innocence of these I wish to partake while I own myself under obligations for the esteem which you are pleased to profess for me and in return acknowledge that neither your person nor manners are disagreeable to me I recoil at the thought of immediately forming a connection which must confine me to the duties of domestic life and make me dependent for happiness perhaps too for subsistence upon a class of people who were claimed the right of scrutinizing every part of my conduct and by censuring this those foibles which I am conscious of not having Prudence to avoid May render me completely miserable while therefore I receive your visits and cultivate towards you Sentiments of friendship and esteem I would not have you consider me as confined to your Society or obligated to a future connection our short acquaintance renders it impossible for me to decide what the operations of my mind May Hereafter be you must either quit the subject or leave me to the exercise of My Free Will which perhaps May coincide with your present wishes Madam said he far is the wish for me to restrain your person or mind in your breast I will Repose my cause it shall be my study to Merit a return of affection and I doubt not but generosity and honor will influence your conduct towards me I expect soon to settle among a generous and enlightened people where I flatter myself I shall be exempt from those difficulties and embarrassments to which too many of my brethren are subject the local situation is agreeable the society refined and Polished and if in addition I may obtain that Felicity which you are formed to bestow in a family connection I shall be happy indeed he spoke with emphasis the tear of of sensibility sparkled in his eye I involuntarily gave him my hand which he pressed with ardor to his lips then Rising he walked to the window to conceal his emotion I rang the bell and ordered tea during and after which we shared that social Converse which is the true zest of life and which I am persuaded none but virtuous Minds can participate General Richmond and Lady returned with the shades of the evening the penetrating eye of my cousin traced in our countenances the progress of the cause and the smile of approbation animated hers Mr Boer asked the favor of my company to ride tomorrow morning which was granted he carried to supper and took his leave I retired immediately to my chamber to which I was followed by Mrs Richmond I related to her the conversation and the encouragement which I had given to Mr Boer she was pleased pleased but insisted that I should own myself somewhat engaged to him this I told her I should never do to any man before the indisoluble knot was tied that said I will be time enough to resign my freedom she replied that I had wrong ideas of freedom and matrimony but she hoped that Mr Boer would happily Rectify them I have now my dear friend given you an account of my present situation and leave you to judge for yourself concerning it write me your opinion and believe me ever yours Eliza Wharton end of chapter 2 recording by John Miller akan Ohio John miller. org chapter three of the coad or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster this LibriVox recording is in the public domain recording by John Miller letter 15 to Miss Eliza Wharton Hartford I congratulate you my dear Eliza on the stability of your conduct toward Mr Boer pursue the system which you have adopted and I dare say that happiness will Crown your future days you are indeed very tenacious of your freedom as you call it but that is a play about words a man of Mr boer's honor and good sense will never abridge any privileges which virtue can claim when do you return to embellish our society here I'm impatient to see you and likewise this amiable man I am much interested in his favor by the way I am told that major Sanford has been to look at the seat of Captain pribble which is upon sale it is reported that he will probably purchase it many of our Gentry are pleased with the prospect of such a neighbor as an accomplice gentleman say they he will be an agreeable addition to our social parties and as a man of of property and public Spirit he will be an advantage to the town but from what I have heard of him I am far from supposing him a desirable acquisition in either of these respects a man of a vicious character cannot be a good member of society in order to that his principles and practice must be uncorrupted in his morals at least he must be a man of probity and honor of these qualifications if I mistake not this Gallant of yours cannot boast but I shall not set up for a sensor I hope neither you nor I shall have much connection with him my Swain interests himself very much in your Affairs you will possibly think him impertinent but I give his curiosity a softer name should I own to you that I place great confidence in his integrity and honor you would perhaps laugh at my weakness but my dear I have pride enough to keep me above catry or prudery and discretion enough I hope to secure me from the errors of both with him I have determined to walk the future round of Life what Folly then would it be to affect reserve and distance relative to an affair in which I have so much interest not that I am going to betray your secrets these I have no right to divulge but I must be the judge what may and what may not be communicated I very much pressed for an early day of consummation but I shall not listen to a request of that kind to till your return such is my regard for you that a union of Love would be imperfect if friendship attended not the rights Ado Lucy Freeman letter 16 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven we go on charmingly here almost as soft and smooth as your ladyship it seems to me that love must stagnate if it have not a light Breeze of Discord once in a while to keep it in motion we have not tried any yet however we had a lovely tour this for noon we're out three long hours and returned to dinner in Perfect Harmony Mr Boer informed me that he should set out tomorrow morning for his future residence and soon put on the sacred bands he solicited an epistolary correspondence at the same time as an alleviation of the care which that weighty charge would bring on his mind I consented telling him that he must not expect anything more than General subjects from me we were somewhat interrupted in our confidential intercourse in the afternoon by the arrival of major Sanford I cannot say that I was not agreeably relieved so sweet a repast for several hours together was rather sickening to my taste my an amarado looked a little mortified at the cheerful reception which I gave the Intruder and joined not so placidly in the social conversation as I could have wished when Mr Boer after the major took leave pressed me to give give him some Assurance of my constancy I only reminded him of the terms of our engagement seeing me decided he was silent on the subject and soon bid me an affectionate Ado not expecting as he told me the pleasure of a personal interview again for two or 3 months thus far we have proceeded in this sober business a good beginning you will say Perhaps it is I do not however feel myself greatly interested in the progress of the negotiation time May consolidate my affections and enable me to fix them on some particular object at present the most Lively emotions of my heart are those of friendship that friendship which I hope you will soon participate with your faithful Eliza Warden letter 17 to Mr Selby New Haven I have succeeded in my addresses to the lovely Eliza Wharton as far at least as I had any reason to expect from our short acquaintance I find The Graces of a person in mine rise in my esteem and have already enjoyed in her Society some of the happiest hours of my life she is kind affable and condescending yet I must own that I have not been able to infuse into her bosom the ardor which I feel in my own I know that the native modesty of the sex would restrain the discovery but there is an animation of countenance which betrays the sensations of the heart that I find wanting in hers on this occasion I have just taken leave of my fair and propose returning tomorrow morning to take upon me the solemn charge which lies with such weight upon my mind that I need every support both human and divine Eliza has promised to correspond with me from this I anticipate a source of pleasure which alone can atone for her absence I am Etc J Boyer letter 18 to Mr Charles Dayton New Haven do you know Charles that I have commenced lover I was always a general one but now I am somewhat particular I shall be the more interested as I am likely to meet with difficulties and it is the glory of a rake as well as a Christian to combat obstacles the same Eliza of whom I have told you has really made more impression on my heart than I was aware of or than the saxs take them as they rise are want to do but she is besieged by a priest a likely lad though I know not how it is but they are commonly successful with the girls even the gayest of them this one too has the interest of all her friends as I am told I called yesterday at General Richmond's and found this pair together apparently too happy in each other Society for my wishes I must own that I felt a glow of jealousy which I never experienced before and vowed revenge for the pain it gave me though but momentary yet Eliza's reception of me was visibly cordial nay I fancied my company as pleasing to her as that which she had before I carried not long but left him to the enjoyment of that pleasure which I flatter myself will be shortlived oh I have another plan in my head a plan of necessity which you know is the mother of invention it is this I am very much courted and caressed by the family of Mr Lawrence a man of large property in this neighborhood he has only one child a daughter with whom I imagine the old folks intend to Shackle me in the bonds of matrimony the girl looks very well she has no soul though that I can discover she is AIS nevertheless to a great fortune and that is all the soul I wish for in a wife in truth Charles I know of no other way to mend my circumstances but lisp not a word of my embarrassments for your life show and equipage are my hobby horse and if any female wish to share them with me and will furnish me with the means of supporting them I have no objection could I conform to the sober rules of wetted life and renounce those dear enjoyments of dissipation in which I have so long indulged I know not the lady in the world with whom I would sooner form a connection of this sort than with Eliza Warden but it will never do if my fortune or hers were better I would risk a union but as they are no idea of the kind can be admitted I shall Endeavor not withstanding to enjoy her company as long as possible though I cannot possess her wholly myself I will not tamely see her the property of another I am now going to call at General Richmond's in hopes of an opportunity to profess my devotion to her I know I am not a welcome visitor to the family but I am independent of their censure or esteem and mean to act accordingly Peter Sanford letter 19 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven I find the ideas of sobriety and domestic solicitude I have been cultivating for 3 days past somewhat deranged by the interruption of a visitor with whom I know you will not be pleased it is no other than major Sanford I was walking alone in the garden yesterday when he suddenly appeared to my view how happy am I said he seizing my hand in this opportunity of finding you alone an opportunity Miss Warton which I must improve in expatiating on a theme that fills my heart and solely animates my frame I was startled at his impetuosity and displeased with his freedom withdrawing my hand I told him that my retirement was sacred he bowed submissively begged pardon for his intrusion alleged that he found nobody but the servants in the house that they informed him I was alone in the garden which intelligence was too pleasing for him to consult any forms of ceremony for the regulation of his conduct he then went on rapsod to declare his passion his suspicions that I was forming a connection with Mr Boer which would effectually destroy all his hopes of future happiness he painted the restraint the confinement the embarrassments to which a woman connected with a man of Mr boer's profession must be subjected however agreable his person might be he asked if my generous mind could submit to cares and perplexities like these whether I could not find greater sources of enjoyment in a more elevated sphere of life or share Pleasures better suited to my gen genius and disposition even in a single state I listened to him involuntarily my heart did not approve his sentiments but my ear was Charmed with his rhetoric and my fancy captivated by his address he invited my confidence by the most Ardent professions of friendship and labored to remove my suspicions by vows of sincerity I was induced by his importunity gradually to disclose the State of Affairs between Mr Boyer and myself he listened eagerly wished not he said to influence me unduly but if I were not otherwise engaged might he presume to solicit a place in my friendship and esteem be admitted to enjoy my Society to visit me as an acquaintance and to attend my excursions and Amusements as a brother if no more I replied that I was a pensioner of friendship at present that my friends were extremely refined in their Notions of propriety and that I had no right to receive visitants independent of them I understand you madam said he you intimate that my company is not agreeable to them but I know not why surely my rank in life is as elevated and my knowledge of an Acceptance in the world are as extensive as general Richmond's I hope said I since we are engaged in the conversation that you will excuse my frankness if I tell you that the understanding and virtue of this worthy couple induce them without any regard to rank to bestow their esteem wherever it is merited I cannot say that you are not a Sherer your own heart can best determine whether upon their principles you are or not he appeared mortified and shrined and we had walked some distance without exchanging a word or a look at last he rejoined I plead guilty to the charge Madam which they have un doubtedly brought against me of imprudence and Folly in many particulars yet of malignancy and vice I'm innocent brought up in affluence in nerd from my infancy to the gratification of every passion the Indulgence of every wish it is not strange that a life of dissipation and gity should prove alluring to a youthful mind which had no care but to procure what it deemed enjoyment in this Pursuit I have perhaps deviated from the rigid rules of discretion and the harsher laws of morality but let the veil of Charity be drawn over my faults let the eye of cander impartially examine my present Behavior let the kind and lenient hand of friendship assist in directing my future steps and perhaps I may not prove Unworthy of associating with the respectable inhabitants of this happy Mansion for such I am sure it must be while honored with Miss warton's presence but circumstances as you and I are at present I will not sue for your attention as a lover but rest contented if possible with that share of kindness and regard which your benevolence May afford me as a friend I bowed in approbation of his resolution he pressed my hand with ardor to his lips and at that instant General Richmond entered the garden he approached us cheerfully offered major Sanford his hand with apparent cordiality and told us pleasantly that he hoped he should not be considered as an injur Intruder by no means sir said major Sanford it is I who have incurred that imputation I called this afternoon to pay you my respects when being informed that you and your lady were abroad and that Miss Wharton was in the garden I took the liberty to invade her retirement she has graciously forgiven my crime and I was just affixing the seal to my pardon as you entered we then returned into the house Mrs Richmond received us politely during tea the conversation turned on liter subjects in which I cannot say that the major bore a very distinguished part after he was gone Mrs Richmond said I hope you have been agreeably entertained Miss Wharton I did not choose my company Madam said I nor said she did you refuse it I presume would you not have me respect the rights of hospitality towards your guests when you are absent Madam if you had acted from that motive I own my obligations to you my dear but even that consideration can hardly reconcile me to the sacrifice of time which you have made to the amusement of a Seducer I hope Madam you do not think me an object of Seduction I do not think you seducible nor was Richardson Clarissa till she made herself the victim by her own indiscretion pardon me Eliza this is a second Lov Le I am alarmed by his Artful intrusions his insinuating attention to you you are characteristic of the man come I presume you are not interested to keep his Secrets if you know them will you give me a little sketch of his conversation most willingly said I and accordingly related the whole when I had concluded she shook her head and replied beware my friend of his Arts your own heart is too sincere to suspect treachery and dissimulation in another but suffer not your ear to be Charmed by the siren voice voice of flattery nor your eye to be caught by The Phantom of gayety and pleasure remember your engagements to Mr Boer let sincerity and virtue be your guides and they will lead you to happiness and peace she waited not for an answer but immediately Rising begged leave to retire alleging that she was fatigued General Richmond accompanied her and I hastened to my apartment where I have written thus far and shall send it on for your comments I begin to think of returning soon to your circle one inducement is that I may be free from the intrusions of this man Ado Eliza Wharton chapter 20 to Mrs M Warton New Haven from the conversation of the polite the sedate the engaging and the gay from corresponding with the learned the sentimental and the refined my heart and my pen turn with ardor and alacrity to a tender and affectionate parent the faithful guardian and guide of my youth the unchanging friend of my riper years the different dispositions of various Associates sometimes perplex the mind which seeks Direction but in the disinterested affection of the maternal breast we fear no dissonance of passion no jarring interest no disunion of love in this seat of Felicity is every enjoyment which fancy can form or friendship with affluence bestow but still my mind frequently returns to the Happy shades of my Nativity I wish there to impart my pleasures and share the counsels of my best my long tried and experienced friend at this time my dear Mama I am peculiarly solicitous for your advice I am again importuned to listen to The Voice of Love Again called upon to accept the addresses of a gentleman of Merit and respectability you will know the character of the man when I tell you it is Mr Boer but his situation in life I dare not enter it my disposition position is not calculated for that sphere there are duties arising from the station which I fear I should not be able to fulfill cares and restraints to which I could not submit this man is not disagreeable to me but if I must enter the canbial state are there not others who may be equally pleasing in their persons and whose profession may be more conformable to my taste you madam have passed through this scene of Tri with honor and Applause but alas can your volatile daughter ever acquire your wisdom ever possess your resolution dignity and Prudence I hope soon to converse with you personally upon the subject and to profit by your precepts and example I anticipate the hour of my return to your bosom with impatience my daily thoughts and nightly dreams restore me to the Society of my beloved Mama until until I enjoy it in reality I subscribe myself s your dutiful daughter Eliza Wharton letter 21 to Miss Eliza Wharton Hartford how welcome to me my dear Eliza are the tidings of your return my widowed heart has mourned your absence and languished for the company of its now dearest connection when stripped of one dependence the Mind naturally collects and rests itself in another your father's death deprived me for a while of every enjoyment but a Reviving sense of the duties with which I owed to a rising family roused me from the lethargy of grief in my cares I found an alleviation of my sorrows the expanding virtues of my children soothed and exhilarated my drooping spirits and my attention to their education and interest was amply rewarded by their proficiency and Duty in them every hope every pleasure now centers they are the axis on which revolves the temporal Felicity of their mother judge then my dear how anxiously I must watch How solicitously I must regard every circumstance which relates to their welfare and prosperity exquisitly alive to these Sensations your letter awakens my hopes and my fears as you are young and Charming a thousand dangers lur unseen around you I wish you to find a friend and protector worthy of being rewarded by your love and your Society such a one I think Mr Boer will prove I am therefore sorry since there can be no other that his profession should be an objection in your mind you say that I have experienced the scenes of trial connected with that station I have indeed and I will tell you the result of the experience it is that I have found it replete with happiness no class of society has domestic enjoyment more at command than clergymen their circumstances are generally a decent competency they are removed alike from the perplexing cares of want and the distracting parade of wealth they are respected by all ranks and partakers of the best company with regard to its being a dependent situation what one is not so are we not all links in the great chain of society some more some less important but each upheld by others throughout the confederated whole in whatever situation we are placed our greater or less degree of Happiness must be derived from ourselves happiness is in a great measure the result of our own dispositions and actions let us conduct uprightly and justly with propriety and steadiness not surely cringing for favor nor arrogantly claiming more attention and respect than our due let us bear with fortitude the providential and unavoidable evils of life and we shall spend our days with respectability and contentment at least I will not expatiate on the topic of your a letter till we have a personal interview for which I am indeed impatient return my daughter as soon as politeness will allow to your expecting friends more especially to the fond Embraces of your affectionate Mother m warten letter 22 to Miss Eliza Wharton Hampshire can time can distance can absence allay or extinguish the sentiments of refined affection the ardor of true love no my dear Eliza If I judge by my own heart I shall say they cannot amidst the parade which has attended me the interesting scenes in which I have been engaged and the weighty cares which have occupied my attention your idea has been the Solace of my retired moments the Soother of every anxious thought I recall with pleasure the conversation which we have shared I dwell with Rapture on the marks of favor which I have received from you my first wish is the continuance and increase of these favors my highest ambition to deserve them I look forward and anticipate with impatience the future enjoyment of your society and hope we shall one day experience the reality of those beautiful lines of Thompson and elegance sufficiency content retirement rural quiet friendship books ease and Alternate labor useful life Progressive virtue and approving Heaven these are the matchless joys of virtuous love Mr Selby my particular friend will have the honor of delivering this letter he will be able to give you any information relative to our public transactions which You may wish may I solicit the favor of a line through him in return it will relieve in some measure the tediousness of this separation I intend to pay my respects to you personally in about a fortnight till when I subscribe myself your sincere and affectionate friend Jay Boer Letter 23 to the Reverend Jay Boer New Haven I have executed your commission and been amply rewarded for my trouble by the pleasure I enjoyed in the Society of the agreeable family to which I was introduced especially of the amiable and accomplished lady who was the object of your particular regard I think she fully justifies your partiality to her she appears to possess both the virtues and The Graces her form is fine and her countenance interests us at once in her favor there is a mixture of dignity and ease which commands respect and conciliates affection after these encomiums you will permit me to say there is an air of gayy in her appearance and Department which Savers a little of catry I am persuaded however that she has too much good sense to practice its Arts she received your letter very graciously asked leave to retire a few moments and returned with a smile of complacency on her brow which I construe favorably to you there was a Mr Lawrence with his lady and daughter and a certain major Sanford at the house the latter I believe in the modern sense of the phrase is much of a gentleman that is a man of show and fashion Miss asked me when I should leave town and when I should return or have an opportunity of conveyance to Hampshire I told her I should write by the next post and if she had any commands would be happy to execute them she would send a line to her friend she said if I would take the trouble to enclose it in my letter I readily consented and told her that I would call and receive her favor tomorrow morning this chitchat was a little aside but I could not but observe that the for said major Sanford had dropped his part in the conversation of the rest of the company and was attending to us though he endeavored to conceal his attention but by looking carelessly over a play which lay on the window by him yet he evidently watched every word and action of Miss Warden as if he were really interested in her movements it is said she has many admirers and I conceive it very possible that this may be one of them though truly I do not think that she would esteem such a conquest any great honor I now joined in the general topic of conversation which was politics Mrs Richmond and Miss Wharton judiciously yet modestly bore AP part while the other ladies amused themselves with major Sanford who was making his Sage remarks on the play which he still kept in his hand General Richmond at length observed that we had formed into parties major Sanford upon this laid aside his book Miss Lawrence simpered and looked as if she was well pleased with being in a party with so fine a man while her mother replied that she never meddled with politics she thought they did not belong to ladies Miss Wharton and I said Mrs rich men must beg leave to differ from you madam we think ourselves interested in the welfare and prosperity of our country and consequently claim the right of inquiring into those Affairs which may conduce to or interfere with the common wheel we shall not be called to the senate or the field to assert its Privileges and defend its rights but we shall feel for the honor and safety of our friends and connections who are thus employed if the community flourish and enjoy health and freedom shall we not share the happy effects if it be oppressed and Disturbed shall we not endure our proportion of the evil why then should the love of our country be a masculine passion only why should government which involves the peace and Order of the Society of which we are a part be wholly excluded from our observation Miss Lawrence made some slight reply and waved the subject the gentleman applauded Mrs Richmond's sentiments as truly Roman and what was more they said truly Republican I Rose to take leave of observing to miss warten that I should call tomorrow as agreed upon this General Richmond politely requested the favor of my company at dinner I accepted his invitation and bid them good night I shall do the same to you for the present as I intend tomorrow to scribble to cover which is to enclose your El's letter T Selby end of chapter 3 recording by John Miller akan Ohio John miller. org section four of the cockette this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Lyn Thompson the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster section 4 Letter 24 to the Reverend J Boer New Haven I resume my pen having just returned from General Richmonds not with an expectation however of your reading this till you have perused and rep perused the enclosed I can bear such neglect in this case as I have been alike interested myself I went to General Richmond's at 12:00 about a mile from then upon turning a corner I observed a gentleman and lady on horse horseback someway before me riding at a very moderate pace and seemingly in close conversation I kept at the same distance from them till I saw them stop at the General's gate I then put on and coming up with them just as they alighted was surprised to find them no other than major Sanford and Miss Warton they were both a little disconcerted at my salutation I know not why Miss Warton invited him in but he declined being engaged to dine General Richmond received us at the door as I handed Miss Warton in he observed josely that she had changed company yes sir she replied more than once since I went out as you doubtless observed I was not aware said Mrs Richmond that major Sanford was to be of your party today it was quite accidental Madam said Miss won Miss Lawrence and I had agreed last evening to take a little airing this for noon a young gentleman a relation of hers who is making them a visit was to attend us we had not rode more than two miles when we were overtaken by Major Sanford who very politely asked Le to join our party Miss Lawrence very readily consented and we had a very sociable ride the finess of the day induced me to protract the enjoyment of it abroad but Miss Lawrence declined riding so far as I propose as she had engaged company to die we therefore parted till the evening when we are to meet again what another engagement said Mrs Richmond only to the assembly Madam may I inquire after your Gallant my dear but I have no right perhaps to be inquisitive said Mrs Richmond Miss Warton made no reply and the conversation took a general turn Miss Warton sustained her part with great propriety indeed she discovers a fund of useful knowledge and extensive reading which render her peculiarly entertaining while the brilliancy of her wit the fluency of her language the vivacity and ease of her manners are inexpressibly engaging I am going myself to the assembly this evening though I did not mention it to General Richmond I therefore took my le soon after dinner I have heard so much in Praise of Miss warton's penmanship in addition to her other endowments that I am almost tempted to break the seal of her letter to you but I forbear wishing you much happiness in the perusal of it and more in the possession of its writer I subscribe myself yours Etc T Selby letter 25 to the Reverend Jay Boer New Haven sir your favor on the fourth instant came to hand yesterday I received it with pleasure and embrace this early opportunity of contributing my part to a correspondence tending to promote a friendly and social intercourse an epistolary communication between the Sexes has been with some a subject of satire and censure but unjustly in my opinion with persons of refinement and information it may be a source of entertainment and utility the knowledge and masculine Virtues Of Your Sex may be softened and rendered more diffusive by the inquisitiveness vivacity and docility of ours drawn forth and exercised by each other in regard to the particular subject of yours I shall be silent ideas of that kind are better conveyed on my part by words than by pen I congratulate you on your agreeable settl and hope it will be productive of real and Lasting happiness I am convinced that Felicity is not confined to any particular station or condition in life yet me thinks some are better calculated to afford it to me than others your extract from a favorite poet is charmingly descriptive but is it not difficult to attain what we can pronounce An Elegant sufficiency perhaps you will answer as some others have done we can attain it by circumscribing our wishes within the compass of our abilities I am not very acious yet I must own that I should like to enjoy it without so much trouble as that would cost me excuse my seeming levity you have flattered my cheerfulness by commending it and must therefore indulge me in the exercise of it I cannot conveniently be at the Pains of restraining its salth when I write in confidence is a spritely disposition in your view indicative of a giddy mind or an innocent heart of the latter I presume but I know you are not a misanthrope we expect the pleasure of Mr Selby's company to dinner you are certainly under obligations to his friendship for the liberal incomum he bestowed on you and your prospects yesterday Mrs Richmond rallied me after he was gone on my listening ear the general and she unite in requesting me to present their respects wishing you health and happiness I subscribed myself your friend Eliza Warton letter 26 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven I am perplexed and embarrassed my friend by the assiduous attentions to this major Sanford I shall write circumstantially and frankly to you that I may have the benefit of your advice he came here last Monday in company with Mr Lawrence his wife and daughter to make us a visit while they were present a Mr Selby a particular friend of Mr Boer came in and delivered me a letter from him I was really happy in this proof of his affection his friend gave a very flattering account of his situation and Prospects the watchful eye of major Samford traced every word and action respecting Mr Boer with an attention which seemed to border on anxiety that however did not restrain but rather accelerated my vivacity and inquisitiveness on the subject but I wished to know whether it would produce any real effect upon him or not after Mr Selby's departure he appeared pensive and thoughtful the remainder of the evening and evidently sought an opportunity of speaking to me aside which I studiously avoided Miss Lawrence and I formed an engagement to take an airing in the morning on Horseback attended by a relation of hers who is now with them they called for me about 10 when we immediately set out upon our preconcerted Excursion we had not proceeded far before we were met by Major Sanford he was extremely polite and finding our destination was not particular Beggs leave to join our party this was granted and we had an agreeable tour for several miles the time being passed in easy and unstudied remarks upon obvious occurrences major Sanford could not however conceal his particular attention to me which rather nettled Miss Lawrence she grew somewhat serious and declined riding as far as we had intended alleging that she expected company to dine major Sanford understanding that she was going to the assembly in the evening with Mr Gordon ficed me to accept a ticket and form a party with them the entertainment was alluring and I consented when we had parted with Miss Lawrence major Sanford insisted on my riding a little farther saying he must converse with me on a particular subject and if I refuseed him this opportunity that he must visit me at my residence let it offend whom it would I yielded to his importunity and we rode on he then told me that his mind was was in a state of suspense and agitation which was very painful to bear and which I Only Could relieve that my cheerful reception of Mr Bo's letter yesterday and deportment respecting him had awakened in his breast all the pangs of jealousy which the most Ardent love could feel that my treatment of Mr boer's Friend convinced him that I was more interested in his Affairs than I was willing to ow that he forsaw himself to be condemned to an eternal separation and the total loss of my favor and society as soon as time and circumstances would allow his Zeal his pathos alarmed me I begged him to be calm to you said I as a friend I have entrusted my situation in relation to Mr Boer you know that I am under no special obligation to him and I do not intend to form any immediate connection Miss Mr Boer must have different ideas Madam and he has reason for them if I may judge by appearances when do you expect another visit from him in about a fortnight and is my fate to be then decided and so decided as I fear it will be through the influence of your friends if not by your own inclination my friends sir will not control they will only advise to what they think most for my interest and I hope that my conduct will not be Unworthy of their approbation pardon me my dear Eliza said he if I am impertinent it is my regard for you which impels me to the presumption do you intend to give your hand to Mr Boer I do not intend to give my hand to any man at present I have but lately entered society and wish for a while to enjoy my freedom in the participation of Pleasures suited to my age and sex these said he you are aware I suppose when you form a connection with that man you must renounce and content yourself with a confinement to the tedious round of domestic duties the pedantic conversation of Scholars and the invidious criticisms of a whole town I have been accustomed said I and am therefore attached to Men of letters and as to the praise or censure of the populace I hope always to enjoy it that after probation of conscience which will render me Superior to both but you forget your promise not to talk in this sty and have deviated far from the character of a friend and brother with which you consented to rest satisfied yes but I find myself unequal to the task I am not stoic enough tamely to make so great a sacrifice I must plead for an interest in your favor till you banish me from your presence and tell me plainly that you hate meet me we had by this time reached the gate and as we dismounted were unexpectedly accosted by Mr Selby who had come agreeably to promise to dine with us and receive my letter to Mr Boer major Sandford took his leave as general Richmond appeared at the door the general and his lady rallied me on my change of company but very prudently concealed their sentiments of major s for while Mr Selby was present nothing material occurred before and during dinner soon after which Mr Selby went away I retired to dress for the assembly and had nearly completed the labor of the toilet when Mrs Richmond entered my friendship for you my dear Eliza said she interests me so much in your Affairs that I cannot repress my curiosity to know who has the honor of your hand this evening if it be any honor said I it will be conferred on major Sanford I think it far too great to be thus bestowed returned she it is perfectly astonishing to me that The Virtuous part of my sex will countenance caress and encourage those men whose profession it is to blast their reputation destroy their peace and Triumph in their infamy is this Madam the abow design of major Sanford I know not what he avows but his practice too plainly bespeaks his principles and views does he now practice the Arts you mention or do you refer to past follows I cannot answer for his present conduct his past has established his character you madam are an advocate for charity that perhaps if exercised in this instance might lead you to think it possible for him to reform to become a valuable member of society and when connected with a lady of virtue and refinement to be capable of making a good husband I cannot conceive that such a lady will be willing to risk her all upon the Slender Prospect of his Reformation I hope the one with whom I am conversing has no inclination to so hazardous an experiment why not much not much if you have any why do you continue to encourage Mr boer's addresses I am not sufficiently acquainted with either yet to determine which to take at present I shall not confine myself in any way in regard to these men my fancy and my judgment are in Scales sometimes one preponderates sometimes the other which will finally Prevail time alone can reveal oh my my cousin Beware of the delusions of fancy reason must be our guide if we would expect durable happiness at this instant a servant opened the door and told me that major Sanford waited in the Parlor being ready I wished Mrs Richmond a good evening and went down neither General Richmond nor his lady appeared he therefore handed me immediately into his Fon and we were soon in the assembly room I was surprised on my entrance to find Mr Selby there as he did not mention at dinner his intention of going he attached himself to our party and in the intervals of dancing took every opportunity of conversing with me these however were not many for major Sandford assiduously precluded the possibility of my being much engaged by anyone else we passed the evening very agreeably but the Major's importunity was rather troubl ome as we returned home he insisted upon my declaring whether Mr Boer really possessed my affections and whether I intended to confir myself on him or not if said he you answer me in the affirmative I must despair but if you have not absolutely decided against me I will still hope that my persevering assiduity my faithful love may at last be rewarded I told him that I was under no obligation to give him any account of my disposition towards another and that he must remember the terms of our present Association to which he had subscribed I therefore begged him to wave the subject now if not forever he asked my pardon if he had been impertinent but desired leave to renew his request that I would receive his visits his friendly visits I replied that I could not Grant this and that he must blame himself not me if he was an unwelcome guest at General Richmond's he lamented the prejudices which my friends had imbibed against him but flattered himself that I was more liberal than to be influenced by them without any positive proof of demerit as it was impossible that his conduct towards me should ever deviate from the strictest rules of honor and love what shall I say now my friend this man to an agreeable person has super added graceful manners an amiable temper and a fortune sufficient to ensure the enjoyments of all the pleasing varieties of social life perhaps a gay disposition and a LAX education may have betrayed him into some scenes of dissipation but is it not an adage generally received that a reformed rape makes the best husband my fancy leaves me for happiness to the festive haunts of fashionable life I am at present and know not but I ever shall be too volatile for a confinement to domestic advocations and sedentary Pleasures I dare not therefore place myself in a situation where these must be indispensable Mr boer's person and character are agreeable I really esteem the man my reason and judgment as I have observed before declare for a connection with him as a state of tranquility and rational happiness but the idea of relinquishing those delightful amusements and flattering attentions which wealth and equipage bestow is painful why were not the virtues of the one and The Graces and affluence of the other combined I should then have been happy indeed but as the case now stands I am loed to give up either being doubtful which will conduce most to my Felicity please write me impartially let me know your real sentiments for I Rely greatly upon your opinion I am Etc Eliza Warton letter 27 to the Reverend Mr Boer New Haven I am quite a convert to Pope's assertion that every woman is at heart a ray how else can we account for the pleasure which they evidently receive from the Society the flattery the caresses of men of that character even the most virtuous of men seem naturally prone to gy to pleasure and I had almost said to dissipation how else shall we account for the existence of this disposition in your favorite Fair it cannot be the result of her education such a one as she has received is calculated to give her a very different Turn of Mind you must forgive me my friend friend for I am a little vexed and alarmed on your account I went last evening to the assembly as I told you in my last that I intended I was purposely without a partner that I might have the Liberty to exercise my gallantry as circumstances should invite indeed I must own that my particular design was to observe Miss warton's movements being rather inclined to jealousy in your behalf she was handed into the assembly room by Major Sanford the Brilliance of their appearance the levity of Their Manners and the contrast of their characters I found to be a general subject of speculation I endeavored to associate with Miss Warton but found it impossible to detach her for a moment from the cockcum who attended her if she has any idea of a connection with you why does she continue to associate with another especially with one of so opposite a description I am seriously afraid that there is more intimacy between them than there ought to be considering the encouragement she has given you I hope you will not be offended at my freedom in this matter it originates in a concern for your honor and future happiness I am anxious lest you should be made the dup of a cockette and your peace of mind fall a sacrifice to an Artful deor you yet I must believe that Miss Warton has in reality all that virtue and good sense of which she enjoys the reputation but her present conduct is mysterious I have said enough more than I ought perhaps to awaken your attention to circumstances which may lead to important events if they appear of little or no consequence to you you will at least ascribe the mention of them to motives of sincere Regard in your friend and humble servant T Selby letter 28 to Mr Charles Dayton New Haven I go on finally with my amore I have every encouragement that I could wish indeed my fair one does not verbally declare in my favor but then according to the vulgar proverb that actions speak louder than words I have no reason to complain since she evidently approved my gallantry is pleased with my company and listens to my flattery her sagacious friends have undoubtedly given her a detail of my vices if therefore my past conduct has been repugnant to her Notions of propriety why does she not act consistently and refuse at once to associate with a man whose character she cannot esteem but no that Charles is no part of the female plan are entrapping a few of their sex only discovers the gay of our dispositions the insinuating Graces of our manners the irresistible charms of our persons and address these qualifications are very alluring to the spritely fancy of the fair they think to enjoy the pleasures which result from this Source while their vanity and ignorance prompt each one to imagine herself Superior to delusion and to anticipate the honor of reclaiming the liberty and reforming the rap I don't know however but this girl will really have that merit with me for I am so much attached to her that I begin to suspect I should sooner become a convert to sobriety than lose her I cannot find that I have made much impression on her heart as yet want of success in this point mortifies me extremely as it is the first time I ever failed besides I am apprehensive that she is prepossessed in favor of of the other SW the clerical lover whom I have mentioned to you before the chord therefore upon which I play the most is the dissimilarity of their dispositions and Pleasures I Endeavor to detach her from him and disaffect her towards him knowing that if I can separate them entirely I shall be more likely to succeed in my plan not that I have any thoughts of marrying her myself that will not do a present but I love her true well well to see her connected with another for life I must owne myself a little revengeful too in this affair I wish to punish her friends as she called them for their malice towards me for their cold and negligent treatment of me whenever I go to the house I know that to frustrate their designs of a connection between Mr Boer and Eliza would be a grievous disappointment I have not yet determined to seduce her though with all her pretensions to virtue I do not think it impossible and if I should she can blame none but herself since she knows my character and has no reason to wonder if I act consistently with it if she will play with a lion let her beware of his Poe I say at present I wish innocently to enjoy her Society it is a luxury which I never tasted before she is the very soul of pleasure the gayest circle is irradiated by her presence and the highest entertainment receives its greatest charms from her Smiles besides I have purchased the seat of Captain prle about a mile from her mother's and can I think of suffering her to leave the neighborhood just as I enter it I shall exert every nerve to prevent that and hope to meet with the usual success of Peter Sanford letter 29 to Miss Eliza Warton Hartford you desire me to write you my friend but if you had not I should by no means have refrained I tremble at the precipice on which you stand and must Echo and re-echo the seasonable admonition of the excellent Mrs Richmond Beware of the delusions of fancy you are strangely infatuated by them let not the magic Arts of that worthless Sandford lead you like the IGN fatuous from the path of rectitude and virtue I do not find in all your conversations with him that one word about marriage drops from his lips this is mysterious no it is characteristic of the man suppose however that his views are honorable yet what can you expect what can you promise yourself from such a connection a reformed rap you say makes the best husband a trite but a very erroneous Maxim as the Fatal experience of thousands of our sex can testify in the first place I believe that ranks very seldom do reform while their fortunes and constitutions enable them to pursue their licentious Pleasures but even allowing this to happen can a woman of refinement and delicacy enjoy the Society of a man whose mind has been corrupted whose taste has been viated and who has contracted a depravity both of sentiment and manners which no no degree of repentance can wholly e face besides of true love they are absolutely incapable their passions have been much too hacked to admit so pure a flame you cannot anticipate sincere and Lasting respect from them they have been so long accustomed to the company of those of our sex who deserve no esteem that the greatest dignity and purity of character can never excite it in their breasts they are naturally prone to jealousy habituated to an intercourse with the baser part of the sex they level the whole and seldom believe any to be Incorruptible they are always hard-hearted and cruel how else could they Triumph in the miseries which they frequently occasion their specious maners May render them agreeable companions abroad but at home the evil propensities of their minds will invariably predom domate they are stealed against the tender affections which render domestic life delightful strangers to the kind the enduring sympathies of husband father and friend the Thousand nameless attentions which soften the rugged path of Life are neglected and deemed Unworthy of notice by persons who have been inured to scenes of dissipation and debauchery and is a man of this description to be the partner the companion the bosom friend of my Eliza forbid it heaven let not the noble qualities so lavishly bestowed upon her be thus unworthily sacrifice you seem to be particularly Charmed with the fortune of major Sanford with the gayety of his appearance with the Splendor of his equipage with the politeness of his manners with what you call The Graces of his person these Al last are superficial in snaring endowments as to Fortune Prudence economy and regularity are necessary to preserve it when possessed of these major Sanford is certainly destitute unless common Fame which more frequently tells the truth than some are willing to allow does him great Injustice as to external parade it will not satisfy the rational mind when it aspires to those substantial pleasures for which yours is formed and as to The Graces of person and manners they are but a wretched substitute for those virtues which Adorn and dignify human life can you who have always been used to Serenity and order in a family to rational refined and improving conversation relinquish them and launch into the whirpool of frivolity where the correct taste and the delicate sensibility which you possess must constant ly be wounded by the froy and illiberal sallyes of Lous wit this my dear is but a faint picture of the situation to which you seem inclined reverse the scene and you will perceive the alternative which is submitted to your option in a virtuous connection with Mr Boer remember that you are acting for life and that your happiness in this world perhaps in the next depends on your present choice I called last last evening to see your mamama she is fondly anticipating your return and rejoicing in the prospect of your agreeable and Speedy settlement I could not find it in my heart to distress her by intimating that you had other views I wish her benevolent bosom never more to feel the pangs of disappointed hope I am busily engaged in preparing for my napes the solemn words as long as you both shall live render me thoughtful and serious I hope for your enlivening presence soon which will prove a seasonable cordial to the spirits of your Lucy Freeman end of section four section five of the coat this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Jennifer dolman the coet or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster section five letter 30 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven I believe your spirits need a cordial indeed my dear Lucy after drawing so Dreadful a portrait of my Swain but I call him mine no longer I renounce him entirely my friend shall be gratified and if their predictions are verified I shall be happy in a union with a man of their choice General Richmond and lady have labored abundantly to prove that my ruin was inevitable if I did not immediately break all intercourse with major Sanford I promised a compliance with their wishes and have accomplished the task though a hard one I found it last Thursday he was here and desired leave to spend an hour with me I readily consented assuring my friends that it would be the last hour which I would ever spend in his company he told me that he was obliged to leave town for a few days and as I should probably see Mr Boer before his return he could not depart in peace without once more endeavoring to interest me in his favor to obtain some token of esteem some glimpse of hope that I would not utterly reject him to support him in his absence I thanked him for the polite attention he had paid to me since our acquaintance told him that I should ever retain a grateful sense of his partiality to me that he would ever share my best wishes but that all connection of the kind to which he alluded must from that time forever cease he exerted all his eloquence to obtain a retraction of that sentence and ran with the greatest volubility through all the protestations prayers int treaties professions and assurances which love could feel or art contrive I had resolution however to resist them and to command my own emotions on the occasion better than my natural sensibilities gave me reason to expect finding every effort vain he rose precipitant and bade me Ado I urged his tering to tea but he declined saying that he must retire to his chamber being in his present State of Mind unfit for any society as he was banished from mine I offered him my hand which he pressed with ardor to his lips and Bowing in silence left the room thus terminated this affair an affair which perhaps was only the effect of mere gallantry on his part an unmeaning pleasantry on mine and which I am sorry to say has given my friends so much anxiety and concern I am under obligations to them for their kind solicitude however C less it may have been as an agreeable companion as a polite and finished Gallant major Sanford is all that the most Lively fancy could wish and as you have always affirmed that I was a little inclined to catry can you wonder at my exercising it upon so happy a subject besides when I thought more seriously his liberal Fortune was extremely alluring to me who you know have been hitherto confined to the rigid rules of prudence and economy not to say necessity in my finances Miss Lawrence called on me yesterday as she was taking the air and asked me whether major Sanford took leave of me when he left town he was here last week I said but I did not know that he had gone away oh yes she replied he has gone to take possession of his seat which he has lately purchased of Captain preil I am told it is superb and it ought to be if it has the honor of his residence then you have a great opinion of major Sanford said I certainly and has not everyone else she said I am sure he is a very fine gentleman Mrs Richmond smiled rather contemptuously and I changed the subject I believe that the innocent heart of this simple girl is a little taken in I have just received a letter from Mr Boer in the usual style he expects the superlative happiness of kissing my hand next week oh dear I believe I must begin to fix my my Fizz let me run to the glass and try if I can to make one that would look mamish yes I succeeded very well I congratulate you on your new neighbor but I advise friend George to have the gordian not tied immediately lest you should be ens snared by this bewitching Squire I have been trying to seduce General Richmond to accompany me to the assembly this evening but cannot Pro Prevail were Mrs Richmond able to go with us he would be very happy to wait on us together but to tell the truth he had rather enjoy her company at home than any which is to be found abroad I rallied him on his old-fashioned taste but my heart approved and applauded his attachment I despise the married man or woman who Harbors an inclination to partake of separate pleasures I am told that a servant man inquires for me below the messenger of some enamored Swain I suppose I will step down and learn what message he brings nothing extraordinary it is only a card of compliments from a Mr emons a respectable Merchant of the city requesting the honor to wait on me to the assembly this evening a welcome request which I made no hesitation to Grant if I must resign these favorite amusements let me enjoy as large a share as possible till the time arrives I must repair to the toilet and Adorn for a new conquest of the person of Eliza Wharton letter 31 to Miss Eliza Wharton Hartford I am very happy to find you're in so good spirits Eliza after part starting with your favorite Swain for I perceive that he is really the favorite of your fancy though your heart cannot esteem him and independent of that no sensation can be durable I can tell you some news of this strange man he has arrived and has taken possession of his seat having given General invitations he has been called upon and welcomed by the most neighboring Gentry yesterday he made an elegant entertainment friend George as you call him and I were of the number who had cards 21 couple went I am told we did not go I consider my time too valuable to be spent in cultivating acquaintance with a person for whom neither pleasure nor Improvement is to be expected his profuseness made bribe the unthinking multitude to show him respect but he must know that though places of Honor that have been bought for gold esteem and love were never to be sold I look upon the vicious habits and the abandoned character of major sford to have more pernicious effects upon Society than the perpetrations of the robber and the Assassin these when detected are rigidly punished by laws of the land if their lives be spared they are shunned by society and treated with every Mark of disapprobation and contempt but to the disgrace of humanity and virtue the Assassin of honor the wretch who breaks the Peace of families who robs the Virgin innocence of its charms who triumphs over the ill-placed confidence of the inexperienced unsuspecting and too credulous fair is received and caressed not only by his own sex to which he is a reproach but even by ours who have every conceivable reason to despise and avoid him influenced by these principles I am neither ashamed nor afraid openly to avow my sentiments of this man and my reasons for treating him with the most pointed neglect I write warmly on the subject for it is a subject in which I think the honor and happiness of my sex concerned I wish they would more generally espouse their own cause it would conduce to the public will and to their personal respectability I Rejoice heartily that you have resolution to resist his allurements to detect and repel his artifices resolutions in such Cas is absolutely necessary for in spite of all the virtue we can boast the woman that deliberates is lost as I was writing out yesterday I met your mama she wondered that I was not one of the party at our new neighbors the reason Madam I said is I do not like the character of the man I know nothing of him she said he is quite a stranger to me only as he called at my house last week to pay me his respects as he said for the sake of my late husband whose memory he revered and because I was the mother of Miss Eliza Wharton with whom he had the honor of some little acquaintance his manners are engaging and I am sorry to hear that his morals are corrupt this my dear is a very extraordinary visit I fear that he has not laid aside his Arts be still on your guard is the advice of your sincere and faithful friend Lucy Freeman letter 32 to Mr Charles Dayton Hartford I am really banished and rejected desired never more to think of the girl I love with a view of indulging that love or rendering it acceptable to its object you will perhaps dispute the propriety of the term and tell me it is not love it is only gallantry a desire to exercise it with her as a favorite nymph I neither know nor Care by what appalation you distinguish it but it truly gives me pain name I have not felt one sensation of genuine pleasure since I heard my sentence yet I acquiesced in it and submissively took my leave though I doubt not but I shall retaliate the indignity one time or other I have taken possession of my new purchase an elegant and delightful residence it is rendered more so by being in the vicinity of my charmer native Abode this circumstance will conduce much to my enjoyment if I can succeed in my plan of separating her from Mr Boer I know that my situation and mode of Life are far more pleasing to her than his and shall therefore trust to my appearance and address for the reestablishment of her favor I intend if possible to ingratiate myself with her particular particular friends for this purpose I called last week at her mother's to pay my respects to her so I told the good woman as an object of my particular regard and as the parent of a young lady whom I had the honor to know and admire she received me very civil thanked me for my attentions and invited me to call whenever I had the opportunity which was the very thing I wanted I intend like ways to court popularity I don't know but I must accept by and by some lucrative office in the Civil Department yet I cannot bear the idea of confinement to business it appears to me quite inconsistent with the character of a gentleman I am sure it is with that of a man of pleasure but something I must do for I tell you in confidence that I was obliged to mortgage this place because I had not wherewithal to pay for it but I shall manage matters very well I have no doubt and keep up the appearance of affluence till I find some lady in a straight for a husband whose Fortune will enable me to extricate myself from these embarrassments do come and see me Charles for not withstanding all my gayy and parade I have some terms of the hyp some qualms of conscious as you call them but I meddle not with such obsolete words and so goodbye to you says Peter Samford letter 33 to Miss Lucy Freeman New Haven my dear friend I believe I must begin to assume Heirs of gravity and they will not be quite so foreign to my feelings now as at some other times you shall know the reason I have been Associated for 3 days with the sentiment and sobriety in the person of Mr Boyer I don't know but this man will seduce me into matrimony he is very eloquent on the subject and his manners are so solemn that I am strongly tempted yet I dare not to laugh really Lucy there is something extremely engaging and soothing too in virtuous and refined conversation it is a source of enjoyment that cannot be realized by the dissolute and unreflecting but then this particular theme of his is not a favorite one to me I mean as connected with its consequences care and confinement however I have compounded the matter with him and conditioned that he shall exate on the subject and call it by what name he pleases platonic or conjugal provided he will let me take my own time for the consummation I have consented that he shall escort me next week to see my mama and my Lucy oh how the idea of returning to that revered Mansion to those beloved friends exhilarates my spirits General Richmond's politeness to me has induced him to invite a large party of those gentlemen and ladies who have been particularly attentive to me during my residence here to dine and take tea tomorrow after that I expect to be engaged in making farewell visits till I leave the place I shall therefore forgo the pleasure of telling you any occurrences subsequent to the date until you see and Converse with your sincere friend Eliza Wharton letter 34 to Mrs Richmond Hartford dear Madam the day after I left your hospitable able dwelling brought me safe to that of my honored Mama to the seat of maternal and filial affection of social ease and domestic peace of every species of Happiness which can result from religion and virtue from refinement in morals and manners I found my brother and his wife with Lucy Freeman and Mr suar waiting to receive and bid me welcome I flew with ecstasy to the bosom of my mama who received me with her accustomed affection testified by the expressive tears of tenderness which stole silently down her widowed cheek she was unable to speak I was equally so we therefore indulged a moment in the pleasing emotions of sympathizing sensibility when disengaged from her fond Embrace I was saluted by the others in turn and having recovered myself I presented Mr boy laer to each of the company and each of the company to him he was cordially received by all but more especially by my mama the next day I was called upon and welcomed by several of my neighboring acquaintance among who I was not a little surprised to see major sford he came in company with Mr Stoddard and Lady whom he overtook as he told me nearby and as they informed him that the design of their visit was to welcome me home he readily accepted their invitation to partake of the pleasure which everyone must receive on my return I bowed slightly at his compliment taking no visible notice of any peculiarity of expression either in his words or looks his politeness to Mr Boer appeared to be the result of habit Mr boer's to him to be forced by respect to the company to which he had gained admission I dare dare say that each felt a conscious superiority the one from the score of Merit the other of that of Fortune which ought to outweigh the judicious mind will easily decide the scale as I once observed to you will turn as fancy or reason preponderates I believe the esteem which I now have for Mr Boer will keep me Steady except perhaps some little eccentricities now and then just by the way of variety I am going tomorrow to spend a few days with Lucy Freeman to assist in preparation for and the solemnization of her nuptuals Mr Boyer in the meantime Will T among his friends in town my mama is excessively partial to him though I am not yet jealous that she means to rival me I am not certain however but it might be happy for him if she should for I suspect not withstanding the disparity of her age that she is better calculated to make him a good wife than I am or ever shall be but to be sober please Madam to make my compliments acceptable to those of your neighbors whose politeness and attention to me while I was at your house have laid me under particular obligations of gratitude and respect my best regards attend General Richmond pray tell him that though I never expect to be so good a wife as he is blessed with yet I intend after a while when I have swed all my Wild Oats to make a tolerable one I am anxious to hear of a wish for event and for your safety all who know you feel interested in your health and happiness but none more warmly than you're obliged and affectionate Eliza Wharton letter 35 to Miss Eliza Wharton New Haven I write a line at Mrs Richmond's request just to inform you Eliza that yesterday that lovely and beloved woman presented me with a daughter this event awakens New Sensations in my mind and cause into exercise a kind of affection which had before Lan dormant I feel already the tenderness of a parent while imagination finally traces the mother's likeness in the infant form Mrs Richmond expects to receive your congratulations in a letter by the next post she bids me to tell you moreover that she hopes to soon receive an invitation and to be able to attend to the consummation you talk of give Mrs Richmond's and my particular regards to your excellent mother and to the worthy Mr Boer with Sentiments of esteem and friendship I am Etc s Richmond letter 36 to Mrs Richmond Hartford from the scenes of festive mirth from the conviviality of rejoicing friends and from the dissipating Amusements of the gay world I retire with alacrity to hail my beloved friend on the important charge which she has received on the accession to her family and may I not say on the addition to her care since that care will be more than counterbalanced by the pleasure it confers hail happy babe ushered into the World by the best of mothers entitled by birth right to Virtue and honor defended by parental love from the weakness of infancy and childhood by Guardian wisdom from The Perils of Youth and by affluent Independence and the gripping hand of poverty and more advanced life may the animating prospects be realized by your little daughter and may you long enjoy the rich reward of seeing her all that you wish yesterday my dear friend Lucy Freeman gave her hand to the amiable and accomplished Mr George suar a large circle of congratulating friends were present her dress was such as wealth and elegance required her deportment was everything that modesty and propriety could suggest they are indeed a Charming couple the constant of their dispositions the similarity of their tastes and the equal of their ages are a sure pledge of happiness every eye beamed with pleasure on the occasion and every tongue echoed the wishes of benevolence mine only was silence though not less interested in the Felicity of my friend than the rest yet the idea of separation perhaps of an alienation of affection by means of her entire Devotion to another cast an involuntary Gloom over my mind Mr Boyer took my hand after the ceremony was passed permit me Miss Wharton he said to lead you to your lovely friend her happiness must be heightened by your participation of it oh no I said I am too selfish for that she has confirmed upon another that affection which I wish to engross my love was too vervent to admit a rival retaliate then said he This fancied Wrong by doing likewise I observed that this was not a proper time to discuss that subject and resuming my seat endeavored to put on the appearance of my accustomed vivacity I need not relate the remaining particulars of the evening's entertainment Mr Boer returned with my mama I remained at Mrs Freeman's we are to have a ball here this evening Mr Boer has been with us and tried to monopolize my company but in vain I am too much engaged by the exhilarating scenes around for attending to a subject which affords no variety I shall not close this until tomorrow I am rather fatigued with the Amusements of last night which were protracted to a late hour Mr Boer was present and I was pleased to see him not averse to the entertainment though his profession prevented him from taking an active part as all the neighboring Gentry were invited Mr Freeman would by no means admit major sford which his daughter earnestly solicited it happened unfortunately shall I say that I drew him for a partner yet I must own that I felt very little reluctance to my lot he is an excellent dancer and well calculated for a companion in the hours of Mirth and gayety I regretted Mr Boyers being present however because my enjoyment seemed to give him pain I hope he is not inclined to the passion of jealousy if he is I fear it will be somewhat exercised Lucy Freeman now Mrs suor removes next week to Boston I have agreed to accompany her and to spend a month or two with her family this will give variety to the journey of Life be so kind as to direct your next letter to me there kiss the little dear babe for me Give Love compliments Etc as respectively do and believe me with every sentiment of respect your affectionate Eliza Wharton letter 37 to Mr Charles Dayton Hartford dear Charles my hopes begin to revive I am again permitted to associate with my Eliza invited to the same entertainment she does not refuse to join with me in the Maisy dance and partake of scenes of festive mirth nay more she allows me to press her hand to my lips and listens to the sighing accents of love love her I certainly do would to Heaven I could marry her would to Heaven I had preserved my fortune or she had one to supply its place I am distracted at the idea of losing her forever I am sometimes tempted to solicit her hand in a serious Earnest but if I should poverty and want must be the consequence her disappointment in the expectation of affluence and Splendor which I believe her ruling passion would afford a Perpetual source of discontent and mutual wretchedness she is going to Boston with her friend Mrs suar I must follow her I must break the connection which is rapidly forming between her and Mr Boyer and enjoy her Society a while longer if no more I have had a little information from New Haven that Miss Lawrence is partial to me and might easily be obtained with a handsome little property into the bargain I am neither pleased with nor adverse to the girl but she has money and that may Supply the place of Love by enabling me to pursue independent Pleasures this she must expect if she marries a man of my cast she doubtless knows my character and if she is so vain and her charms are influenced to think of reforming or confining me she must bear the consequences however I can keep my head up at present without recourse to the news of matrimony and shall therefore defer any particular attention to her till necessity requires it I am Etc Peter sford end of Section Five Section six of the coet this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Carrie Lin huitt the Coquette or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster section six letter 38 to Mrs M Warton Boston you commanded me my dear Mama to write you that command I cheerfully obey in testimony of my ready submission and respect no other advocation could arrest my time which is now completely occupied in scenes of amusement Mrs suar is agreeably settled and situated she appears to be possessed of Every Blessing which can render life desirable almost every day since our arrival has been engrossed by visitants our evenings we have devoted to company abroad and that more generally than we should otherwise have done as my stay is limited to so short a period the museum the theaters the circus and the assemblies have been frequented Mrs suar has made me several presents not withstanding which the Articles requisite to a fashionable appearance have involved me in considerable expense I fear that you will think me EXT extravagant when you're told how much Mr Boer carried in town about a week having business he appeared a little concerned at my taste for dissipation as he once termed it he even took the liberty to converse seriously on the subject I was displeased with his freedom and reminded him that I had the disposal of my own time as yet and that while I escaped the censure of my own heart I hoped that no one else would presume to arrain it he apologized and gave up his argument I was much surprised the first time I went to the play to see major Sanford in the very next box he immediately joined our party and wherever I have been since I have been almost sure to meet him Mr Boer has taken his departure and I do not expect to see him again till I return home oh mama I am embarrassed about this man his worth I acknowledge nay I esteem him very highly but but can there be happiness with such a disparity of dispositions I shall soon return to the bosom of domestic tranquility to the arms of maternal tenderness where I can deliberate and advise at leisure about this important matter till when I am Etc Eliza Wharton letter 39 to Mr T Selby Hampshire dear sir I believe that I owe you an apology for my long silence but my time has been much engrossed of late and my mind much more so when it will be otherwise I cannot foresee I fear my friend that there is some foundation for your suspicions regarding my beloved Eliza what pity it is that so fair a form so accomplished a mind should be tarnished in the smallest degree by the folies of catry if this be the fact which I am loathed to believe all my regard for her shall never make me the dupe of it when I arrived at her residence at New Haven where I told you in my last I was soon to go she gave me a most cordial reception her whole Behavior to me was correspondent with those Sentiments of esteem and affection which she modestly avowed she permitted me to accompany her to Hartford to restore her to her mother and to declare my wish to receive her again from her hand thus far all was Harmony and happy happiness as all my wishes were consistent with virtue and honor she readily indulged them she took apparent pleasure in my company encouraged my hopes of a future Union and listened to the tender accents of love but the scenes of gity which invited her attention reversed her conduct the delightful hours of mutual confidence of sentimental Converse and of The Interchange of refined affection were no more instead of these parties were formed unpleasing to my taste and every opportunity was embraced to join in diversions in which she knew I could not consistently take a share I however acquiesced in her pleasure though I sometimes thought myself neglected and even hinted it to her mother the old lady apologized for her daughter by alleging that she had been absent for a long time that her acquaintances were rejoiced at her return and welcomed her by striving to promote her Amusement one of her most intimate friends was married during my stay and she appeared deeply interested in the event she spent several days in assisting her previous to the Celebration I resided in the meantime at her mama's visiting her at her friends where major Sanford among others was received as a guest Mrs suar acquainted me that she had prevailed on Miss warten to go and spend a few weeks with her at Boston with she was removing and urged my accompanying them I endeavored to excuse myself as I had had been absent from my people a considerable time and my return was now expected but their importunity was so great and Eliza's declaration that it would be very agreeable to her so tempting that I consented here I took lodgings and spent about a week taking every opportunity to converse with Eliza striving to discover her real disposition towards me I mentioned the inconvenience of visiting her so often as I wished and suggested my desire to enter as soon as might be into a family relation I painted in the most alluring colors the pleasures resulting from domestic tranquility Mutual confidence and conjugal affection and insisted on her declaring frankly whether she designed to share this happiness with me and when it should commence she owned that she intended to give me her hand but when she should be ready she could not yet determine she pretended a promise from me to wait her time to consent that she should share the pleasures of the fashionable world as long as she chose Etc I then attempted to convince her of her mistaken ideas of pleasure that the scenes of dissipation of which she was so passionately fond afforded no true enjoyment that the agulation of the coxcomb could not give durability to her charms or secure the approbation of the wise and good nor could the fashionable Amusements of brilliant assemblies and crowd theaters furnish the mind with that which nothing Earthly gives or can destroy the Soul's calm sunshine and the heartfelt Joy these friendly suggestions I found were considered as the theme of a priest and my desire to detach her from such empty Pursuits as the selfishness of a lover she was even offended at my freedom and warmly affirmed that no one had a right to arrain her conduct I mentioned major Sanford who was was then in town and who though she went to places of public resort with Mr and Mrs suar always met and Galant at her home she rallied me upon my jealousy as she termed it wished that I would attend her myself and then she should need no other Galant I answered that I had rather resigned that honor to another but wished for her sake that he might be a gentleman whose character would not disgrace the company with which he Associated she appeared mortified and grinned in the extreme however she studiously suppressed her emotions and even soothed me with the blandishments of female softness we parted amicably she promised to return soon and prepare for a compliance with my wishes I cannot refuse to believe her I cannot cease to love her my heart is in her possession she has a perfect command of my passions persuasion dwells on her tongue with all the boasted fortitude and resolution of our sex we are but mere machines let love once pervade our breasts and its object May mold us into any form that pleases her fancy or even Caprice I have just received a letter from Eliza informing me of her return to Hartford tomorrow I shall set out on a visit to the dear girl for my friend not withstanding all her foibles she is very dear to me before you hear from me again I expect that the happy day will be fixed the day which shall unite in the most sacred bands this lovely maid and your faithful friend Jay Boer letter 40 to Mr T Selby Hampshire I have returned and the day indeed is fixed but oh how different from my fond expectations it is not the day of Union but the day of final separation the day which divides me from my charmer the day which breaks aunder the bands of love the day on which my reason assumes its Empire and triumphs over the Arts of a finished coet congratulate me my friend that I have thus overcome my feelings and repelled the infatuating Ws of a deceitful girl I would not be understood to impeach Miss warton's virtue I mean her Chastity virtue in the common acceptation of the term as applied to the sex is confined to that particular you know but in my view this is of little importance where all other virtues are wanting when I arrived at Mrs warton's and inquired for Eliza I was told that she had rode out but was soon expected home an hour later a fetan stopped at the door from which my fair one alighted and was handed into the house by Major Sanford who immediately took leave I met her and offered my hand which she received with apparent tenderness when the family had retired after supper and left us to talk on our particular Affairs I found the same indecision the same Loess to bring our courtship to a period as formerly her previous excuses were renewed and her wishes to have a union still longer delayed were zealously urged she could not bear the idea of confinement to the cares of a married life at present and begged me to defer all solicitation on that subject to some future day I found my temper rise and told her plainly that I was not thus to be trifled with that if her regard for me was sincere if she really intended to form a connection with me she should not thus protract the time try my patience and prefer every other pleasure to the rational interchange of affection to the calm Delights of domestic life but in vain did I argue against her false Notions of happiness in vain did I represent the dangerous system of conduct which she now pursued and urge her to accept before it was too late the hand and heart which were devoted to her service that she said she purposed airong to do and hoped amply to reward my faithful love but she could not fix the time this evening she must consider a little further and likewise consult her mother is it not major Sanford whom you wish to consult Madam said I she blushed and gave me no answer tell me Eliza I continued tell me frankly if he has not supplanted me in your affections if he be not the cause of my being thus evasively thus cruely treated major Sanford sir replied she has done you no harm he is a particular friend of mine a polite gentleman and an agreeable neighbor and therefore I treat him with civility but is not so much interested in my concerns as to alter my disposition towards any other person why said I do you talk of Friendship with a man of his character between his society and mine there is great contrast such opposite Pursuits and inclinations cannot be equally pleasing to the same taste it is therefore necessary that you renounce the one to enjoy the other I will give you time to decide which I am going to a friend's house to spend the tonight and will call on you tomorrow if agreeable and Converse with you further upon the matter she bowed ascent and I retired the next afternoon I went as agreed and found her mama and her alone in the Parlor she was very pensive and appeared to have been in tears the sight affected me the idea of having treated her harshly the evening before disarmed me of my resolution to insist on her decision that day I invited her to ride with me and visit visit a friend to which she readily consented we spent our time agreeably I forbore to press her on the subject of our future Union but strove rather to soothe her mind and Inspire her with Sentiments of tenderness toward me I conducted her home and returned early in the evening to my friends who met me at the door and josly told me that he expected I should now Rob them of their agreeable neighbor but added he we have been apprehensive that you would be rivaled if you delayed your visit much longer I did not suspect arrival said I who can the happy man be I can say nothing from personal observation said he but Fame of late has talked loudly of major Sanford and Miss Warton be not alarmed continued he seeing me look grave I presume no harm is intended the major is a man of gallantry and Miss Wharton is a gay lady but I dare say that your connection will be happy if it be formed I noticed a particular emphasis on the word if and as we were alone I followed him with questions till the whole Affair was developed I informed him of my embarrassment and he gave me to understand that Eliza's conduct had for some time past been a subject of speculation in the town that formerly her character was highly esteemed but that her intimacy with a man of Sanford's known libertinism more especially as she was supposed to be engaged to another had r Ed her very censurable that they were often together that wherever she went he was sure to follow as if by appointment that they walked talked sung and danced together in all companies that some supposed he would marry her others that he only meditated adding her name to the black catalog of diluted wretches whom he had already ruined I Rose and walked the room in great agitation he apologized for his freedom was sorry if he had wounded my feeling ings but friendship alone had induced him to frankly declare the truth that I might guard against duplicity and deceit I thanked him for his kind intentions and assured him that I should not quit the town till I had terminated this affair in one way or another I retired to bed but sleep was a stranger to my eyes with the dawn I Rose and after breakfast walked to Mrs Wharton who informed me that Eliza was in her chamber writing to a friend but would be down in a few few minutes I entered into conversation with the old lady on the subject of her daughter's conduct hinted my suspicions of the cause and declared my resolution of knowing my destiny immediately she endeavored to extenuate and excuse her as much as possible but frankly owned that her behavior was mysterious that no pains had been wanting on her part to alter and rectify it that she had remonstrated expostulated advised and intreated as often as occasion required she hoped that my resolution would have a good effect as she knew that her daughter esteemed me very highly in this manner we conversed till the Clock Struck 12 and Eliza not appearing I desired her mama to send up word that I waited to see her the maid returned with an answer that she was indisposed and had Lain down Mrs Wharton observed that she had not slept for several nights and complained of the headache in the morning the girl added that she would wait on Mr Boer in the evening upon this information I Rose and abruptly took my leave I went to dine with a friend to whom I had engaged myself the day before but my mind was too much agitated to enjoy either the company or the dinner I excused myself from taring to tea and returned to miss warton's on inquiry I was told that Eliza had gone to walk in the garden but desired that no person might intrude on her retirement The Singularity of the request awakened my curiosity and determined me to follow her I sought her in vain in different parts of the garden till going towards an arbor almost concealed from sight by surrounding Shrubbery I discovered her sitting in close conversation with major Sanford my blood chilled in my veins and I stood petrified with astonishment at the disclosure of such baseness and deceit they both Rose invisible confusion I dared not trust myself to accost them my passions were raised and I Fe feared that I might say or do something Unbecoming my character I therefore gave them a look of indignation and contempt and retreated to the house I traversed The Parlor hastily overwhelmed with Chagrin and resentment Mrs Wharton inquired the cause I attempted to tell her but my tongue refused utterance while in this situation Eliza entered the room she was not less discomposed than myself she sat down at the window and wept her mama wept likewise at length she recovered herself in a degree and desired me to sit down I answered no and continued walking will you said she permit me to vindicate my conduct and explain my motives your conduct said I cannot be Vindicated your motives need no explanation they are too apparent how Miss Wharton have I merited this treatment from you but I can bear it no longer your indifference to me proceeds from an attachment to another and forgive me if I add to one who is the disgrace of his own sex and the destroyer of yours I have been too long the dupe of your dissimulation and catry too long has my peace of mind been sacrificed to the Arts of a woman whose conduct has proved her Unworthy of my regard insensible to love gratitude and honor to you madam said I turning to her mother I acknowledge my obligations for your friendship politeness and attention I once hoped for the privilege of rocking for you the Cradle of declining age I'm deprived of that privilege but I pray that you may never want a child whose love and Duty shall prove a source of consolation and comfort farewell if we never meet again in this life I hope and trust we shall in a better where the parents ey shall cease to weep for the disobedience of a child and the lover's heart to bleed for the infidelity of his mistress I turned to Eliza and attempted to speak but her extreme emotion softened me and I could not command my voice I took her hand and Bowing in token of ADW went precipitately out of the house the residence of my friend with whom I lodged was at no great distance and thither I repaired as I met him in the entry I rushed by him and betook myself to my chamber the fever of resentment and the tumult of passion began now to give place to the softer emotions of the soul I found myself perfectly unmanned I gave free scope to the sensibility of my heart and the effeminate relief of Tears materially lightened the load which oppressed me after this arduous struggle I went to bed and slept more calmly than for several nights before the next morning I wrote a farewell letter to Eliza a copy of which I shall enclose to you and ordering my horse to be brought left town immediately my resentment of her behavior has much assisted me in erasing her image from my breast in this exertion I have succeeded beyond my most sanguin expectations the more I reflect on her temper and disposition the more my gratitude is enlivened toward the wise disposer of all events for enabling me to break break aunder the snares of the deluder I am convinced that the gayety and extravagance of her taste the frivolous levity of her manners disqualify her for the station in which I wish to have placed her these considerations together with that resignation to an overruling Providence which the religion I profess and teach requires me to cultivate induce me cheerfully to adopt the following lines of an ingenious poet since all the downward tracts of time God's watchful eye surveys oh who so wise to choose our lot or regulate our ways since none can doubt his equal love unmeasurably kind to his uniring gracious will be every wish resigned good when he gives supremely good not less when he denies in crosses from his Sovereign hand are blessings in Disguise I am M Etc J Boer to Miss Eliza Warton enclosed in the foregoing Hartford Madam fearing that my resolution may not be proof against the eloquence of those charms which has so long commanded me I take this method of bidding you a final Ado I write not as a lover that connection between us is forever dissolved but I address you as a friend as a friend to your happiness to your reputation to your temporal and eternal welfare I will not rehearse the innumerable instances of your imprudence and misconduct which have fallen under my observation your own heart must be your monitor suffice it for me to warn you against the dangerous tendency of so dissipated a life and to tell you that I have traced I believe a right the cause of your dissimulation and indifference to me they are an aversion to the sober rational Frugal mode of living to which my profession leads a fondness for the parade the gayet not to say the lenti justness of a station calculated to gratify such a disposition and a prepossession for major Sanford infused into your giddy Mind by the frippery flattery and artifice of that worthless and abandoned man hence you preferred a connection with him if it could be accomplished but doubt whether it could together with the advice of your friends who have kindly espoused my cause has restrained you from the avowal of your real sentiments and led you to continue your civilities to me what the result of your catry would have been had I waited for it I cannot say nor have I now any desire or interest to know I tear from my breast the idea which I have long cherished of future Union and happiness with you in the conjugal State I bid a last farewell to these fond hopes and leave you forever for your own sake however let me conjure you to review your conduct and before you have advanced beyond the possibility of returning to rectitude and honor to restrain your steps from the dangerous path in which you now tread fly major Sanford that man is a deceiver trust not his professions they are certainly insincere or he would not affect concealing he would not induce you to a clandestine intercourse many have been the victims to his treachery oh Eliza add not to the number banish him from your Society if you wish to preserve your virtue unsullied your character unsuspicious it already begins to depreciate snatch it from the inv venomed tongue of slander before it receive an incurable wound many faults have been visible to me over which which my affection once drew a veil that Veil is now removed and acting the part of a disinterested friend I shall mention some few of them with freedom there is a levity in your manners which is inconsistent with the solidity and decorum becoming a lady who has arrived to years of discretion there is also an unwarrantable extravagance betrayed in your dress prudence and economy are such necessary at least such decent virtues that they claim the attention of every female whatever be her station or her property to these virtues you are apparently inattentive too large a portion of your time is devoted to the adorning of your person think not that I write thus plainly from resentment no it is from benevolence I mention your foibles not to reproach you with them but that you may consider their nature and effects and renounce them I I wish you to regard this letter as the legacy of a friend and to improve it accordingly I shall leave town before you receive it oh how different are my Sensations at going from what they were when I came but I forbear description think not Eliza that I leave you with indifference the conquest is great the trial more than I can calmly support yet the consciousness of Duty affords consolation a duty I conceive it to be which I owe to myself and to the people of my charge who are interested in my future connection I wish not for an answer for my resolution is unalterably fixed but should you Hereafter be convinced of the justice of my conduct and become a convert to my advice I shall be happy to hear it that you may have wisdom to keep you from falling and conduct you safely through this state of trial to the regions of immortal Bliss is the fervent prayer of your sincere friend and humble servant Jay Bo end of section six recording by Carrie Lin hwit section seven of the coet this is a LibriVox record recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Jennifer Dalman the coet or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster section 7 letter 41 to Mrs Lucy suner Hartford the retirement of my native home is not so gloomy since my return from Boston as I expected from the contrast between them indeed the customs and Amusements of this place are materially altered since the residence of major Sanford Among Us the D old-fashioned sobriety which formerly prevailed is nearly banished and cheerfulness vivacity and enjoyment are substituted in its stead pleasure is now diffused through all ranks of people especially the rich and surely it ought to be cultivated since the wisest of men informs us that a merry heart doth good like a medicine as human life haveth many diseases which require medicines are we not right in selecting the most agreeable and palatable major Sanford's example has had a great influence upon our society in general and though some of our old ones think him rather licentious yet for ought I can see he is as strict and observer of decorum as the best of them true he seldom goes to church well what of that the deity is not confined to Temples made with hands he may worship him as devoutly elsewhere if he chooses and who has the right to say he does not his return from Boston was but a day or two after mine he paid me an early visit and indeed has been very attentive ever since my mama is somewhat precise in her Notions of propriety and of course blames me for associating so freely with him she says that my engagements to Mr Boer ought to render me more sedate and more indifferent to the gallantry of mere pleasure Hunters to use her phrase but I think otherwise if I am to become a recluse let me at least enjoy those amusements which are suited to my taste for a short time first why should I refuse the polite attentions of this gentleman they smooth the rugged path of life and wonderfully accelerate the lagging Wheels of Time indeed Lucy he has an admirable talent for contributing to vary and increased Amusement we have few hours unimproved some new plan of pleasure and sociability is constantly courting our adoption he lives in all the magnificence of a prince and why should I who can doubtless share that magnificence if I please forgo the advantages and indulgences it offers merely to gratify those friends who pretend to be better judges of my happiness than I am of myself S I have not yet told my mama that he entertains me with a Lover's theme or at least that I listen to it yet I must own to you for whom I have never concealed an action or idea that his situation in life charms my imagination that the apparent fervor and sincerity of his passion affect my heart yet there is something extremely problematical in his conduct he is very urgent with me to dissolve my connection with Mr Boer and engage engaged not to marry him without his consent or knowledge to say no more he warmly applauds My Wish still longer to enjoy the freedom and Independence of a single state and professedly adopts it for his own while he would disconnect me from another he mysteriously conceals his own intents and Views in conversation with him yesterday I plainly told him that his conduct was unaccountable that if his professions and Designs were honorable he would not neglect to mention them to my mama that I should no longer consent to carry on a clandestine intercourse with him that I hourly expected Mr Boer whom I esteemed and who was the favorite of my friends and that unless he acted openly in this affair before his arrival I should give my hand to him he appeared thunderstuck at this declaration all his words and actions were indicative of the most violent emotions of mind he entreated me to recall the sentence for I knew not he said his motives for secrecy yet he solemnly swore that they were honorable I replied in the words of the poet trust not a man they are by Nature cruel false deceitful treacherous and inconstant when a man talks of love with caution hear him but if he swear he'll certainly deceive you he begged that he might know by what means he had provoked my suspicions by what means he had forfeited my confidence his importunity vanquished my fortitude and before we parted I again promised to make him acquainted from time to time with the progress of my connection with Mr Boer now my dear friend I want your advice more than ever I'm inadvertently embarrassed by this man and how to extricate myself I know not I am sensible that the power is in my hands but the disposition shall I confess it is wanting I know the right and approve it too I know the wrong and yet the wrong pursue I have just received a card from major Sanford inviting me to ride this afternoon at first I thought of returning a negative answer but recollected that Mr Boer must soon be here I concluded it best to embrace this opportunity of talking further with him I must now prepare to go but shall not close this letter for I intend writing in continuation as events occur till this important business is decided Tuesday evening the little tour which I mentioned to you this afternoon was not productive of a final determination the same plea was repeated over and over again without closing the cause on my return I found Mr borer waiting to receive me my heartbeat an involuntary welcome I received him very cordially though with a kind of pleasure mixed with apprehension I must own that his conversation and manners are much better calculated to Bear the scrutinizing eye of a refined understanding and taste than major sanfords but whether the fancy ought not to be consulted about our settlement in life is with me a question when I parted last I had promised Mr borer to inform him positively at this visit when my hand should be given he therefore came as he told me in the course of our conversation with the resolution of claiming the Fulfillment of this promise I begged Absolution told him I could not possibly satisfy his claim and sought still to evade and put off the important decision he grew warm and affirmed that I treated him ungenerously and made needless delays he even accused me of indifference towards him and of partiality to another major Sanford he believed was the man who robbed him of the affection which he had supposed his due he warned me against any intercourse with him and insisted that I must renounce the Society of the one or the other immediately he would leave me he said this evening and called tomorrow to know the result of my determination it was late before he B me good night since which I have written these particulars it is now time to lay aside my pen and deliberate which course to take Wednesday evening last night I closed not my eyes I Rose this morning with the Sun and went into the garden till breakfast my mama doubtless saw the disorder of my mind but kindly avoided any inquiry about it she was affectionately attentive to me but said nothing of my particular concerns I mentioned not my embarrassment to her she had declared herself in favor of Mr Boer therefore I had no expectation that she would advise imp partially I retired to my chamber and remained in a kind of Ry for more than an hour when I was was roused by the rattling of a carriage at the door I hastened to my window and saw major Samford just driving away the idea of his having been to converse with my Mama gave me New Sensations a thousand perplexities occurred to my mind relative to the part most proper for me to act in this critical situation all these might have been avoided had I gone down and inquired into the matter but this I delayed till dinner my mama then informed me that major Fort had been with her and inquired for me but she thought it unnecessary to call me as she presumed I had no particular business with him I knew the motives by which she actuated and was vexed at her evasions I told her plainly that she would never carry her point in this way and thought myself capable of conducting my own Affairs and wished her not to interfere except by her advice which I should always listen to and comply with when I could possibly make it consistent with my my inclination and interest she wept at my undutiful anger of which I have severely repented since and affectionately replied that my happiness was the object of her wishes and prayers conformably to which he felt constrained freely to speak her mind though it incurred my displeasure she then went through again with all the comparative circumstances and merits of the two candidates for my favor which have perpetually rung in my ears for months I shed tears at the idea of my embarrassment and in this condition Mr Boer found us he appeared to be affected by my visible disorder and without inquiring the cause endeavored to dissipate it this was kindly done he conversed upon in different subjects and invited me to ride and to take tea with your mama to which I readily consented we found her at home and passed the time agreeably accepting the alloy of your absence Mr Boyer touched lightly on the subject of our last last evening's debate but expatiated largely on the pleasing power of love and hoped that one day we should both realize and exemplify it in Perfection when we returned he observed that it was late and took his leave and begged that I would then relieve his suspense as I was retiring to bed the maid gave me a hint that major Sanford's servant had been there and left a letter I instantly turned back to my mama and telling her my information demanded the letter she has itated but I insisted on having it and seeing my Resolute she reluctantly gave it to my hand it contained the following words am I forsaken am I abandoned Oh My adorable Eliza have you sacrificed me to my rival have you condemn me to Perpetual banishment without a hearing I came this day to plead my cause at your feet but was cruy denied the privilege of seeing you my mind is all Anarchy and confusion my soul is harrowed up with jealousy I will be revenged on those who separate us if that distracting event takes place but it is from your lips only that I can hear my sentence you must witness its effects to what lengths my despair may carry me I know not you are the arbitress of my fate let me conjure you to meet me in your garden tomorrow at any hour you shall appoint my servant will call for an answer in the morning deny me not an interview but have pity on your faithful s Sanford I wrote for answer that I would meet him tomorrow at 5:00 in the afternoon I have now before me another night for consideration and shall pass it in that employment I propose not to see Mr Boer till I have conversed with major Sanford Thursday morning the morning Dawns and ushers in the day a day perhaps big with the fate of your friend what that fate may be is wrapped in the womb of Futurity that Futurity which a kind of Providence has wisely concealed from the penetration of Mortals after mature consideration after resolving and re resolving every circumstance on both sides of the question I have nearly determined in compliance with the advice of my friends and the dictates of my own judgment to give Mr Boer the preference and with him to tread the future round of life as to the despair of major Sanford it does not much alarm me such violent passions are seldom so deeply rooted as to produce lasting effects I must however keep my word and meet him according to promise Mr Boer is below my mama has just sent me word that he wished to see me my reply was that I had laid down which was a fact 1:00 my mama alarmed by my indisposition has visited my apartment I soon convinced her that it was but trifling owning principally to the one of sleep and that an aing in the garden which I intended towards night would restore me 10:00 at night the day is passed and such a day has been I hope never more to see at the hour appointed I went tolerably composed and Resolute into the garden I had taken several turns and retired to the little Arbor where you and I have spent so many happy hours before major sford entered when he appeared a consciousness of impropriety of this clandestine intercourse suffused my cheek and gave a coldness to my manners he immediately penet the cause and observed that my very countenance told him he was no longer a welcome guest to me I asked him if he ought so to be since his motives for seeking a mission were Unworthy of being communicated to my friends that he said was not the case but that Prudence in the present instance required a temporary concealment he then undertook to exculpate himself from blame assuring me that as soon as I should discountenance the expectations of Mr Boer and discontinue the reception of his address his intentions should be made known he was enlarging upon this topic when we heard a footstep approaching us and looking up saw Mr Boyer within a few Paces of the arbor confusion seized us both we Rose involuntarily from our seats but we're mut as statues he spoke not a word but casting a look of indignant accusation at me a glance which penetrated my very Soul turned on his heel and walked hastily back to the house I stood a few moments considering what course to take though shame and regret had almost taken me from the power of thought major sford took my hand I withdrew it from him I must leave you I said where will you go he said I will go and try to retrieve my character it has suffered greatly by this fatal interview he threw himself at my feet and exclaimed leave me not Eliza I conjure you not to leave me let me go now I rejoined or I bid you farewell forever I flew precipitant by him and went into the Parlor where I found Mr Boer and my mama the one traversing the room in the greatest agitation the other in a flood of Tears their appearance affected me and I we like an infant when I had little recovered myself I begged him to sit down he answered no then I told him that however unjustifiable my conduct might appear perhaps I might explain it to his satisfaction if he would would hear me that my motives were innocent though they doubtless were the aspect of criminality in his view he sternly replied that no pation could Prevail that my motives were sufficiently notorious he accused me of treating him ill of rendering him the dupe of a coting artifice of having an Intrigue with major Samford and declared his determination to leave me forever as Unworthy of his regard and incapable of Love gratitude or honor there there was too much reason in support of his accusation for me to gainsay them had his impetuosity suffered me to attempt it but in truth I had no inclination to self-defense my natural vacity had forsaken me and I listened without interrupting him to the fluency of reproachful language which his resentment inspired he took a very solemn and affectionate leave of my mama thanking her for her politeness and wishing her much future Felicity he had tempted to address me I suppose somewhat in the same way but his sensibility somewhat overcame him and he only took my hand and Bowing in silence Departed the want of rest for two long nights together the exercise of mind and conflict of passions which now tortured my breast were too much for me to support when I saw that he was gone that he had actually forsaken me I fainted my mama with the assistance of the maid soon restored me when I opened my eyes and beheld this amiable and tender parent watching and attending me with the most anxious concern without one reproachful word without one accusing look my Reflections upon the part I had acted in defeating her benevolent wishes were exquisitly afflictive but we mutually forbore to mention the occasion of my illness and I complied with her advice to take some refreshment and retire to my chamber I am so much fatigued by the exertions of the day that rest is absolutely necessary and I lay aside my pen to seek it Friday morning when shall I again receive the balmy influence of sleep I know not it has absolutely forsaken me at present I have had a most restless night every Awakening idea presented itself to my imagination whether I had sustained a real loss in Mr boer's departure Reflections on my own misconduct with the centure of my friends and the ill-natured remarks of my enemies excited the most painful anxiety in my mind I am going down but how shall I see my mama to her I will confess my faults and her maternal breasts Repose my cares and by her friendly advice regulate my conduct had I done this before I might have escaped this trouble and saved both her and myself many distressing emotions Friday evening I had a long conversation with my mama which greatly relieved my mind she has soothed me with the most endearing tenderness Mr Akin with whom Mr Boyer lodged while in town called here this afternoon I did not see him but he told my mama that Mr borer had returned home and had left a letter for me which he had promised to convey with his own hand by this I am convinced that the die is absolutely cast with respect to him and that no attempts on my part to bring about a Reconciliation would be either prudent or successful he has penetrated the cause of my proceeding ings and such as his resentment that I am inclined not much to regret his avoiding another interview my excuses would be deemed utterly insufficient and truth would not befriend and justify me as I know you are impatient to hear from me I will now dispatch this long letter without any other addition than I am your sincere friend Eliza Wharton letter 42 to Mr Charles Dayton Hartford well Charles the show is over as we he say and the girl is my own that is if I will have her I shall take my own time for that however I have carried my point and am amply revenged in the whole posy of those dear friends of hers she was entangled by a promise not to marry this priest without my knowledge which her conscience would not let her break thank God I have no conscience if I had I believe it would have made wretched work with me I suppose she intended to have one or the other of us but preferred me I have escaped The Noose this time and will be fairly hanged if I ever go near it again for indeed Charles I was seriously alarmed I watched all their emotions and the appearance of Harmony between them awakened all my activity and Zeal so great was my infatuation that I verily believe I should have asked her in marriage and risked the consequences rather than to have lost her I went to the house while Mr Boer was in town but her mama refused to call her or to acquaint her that I was there I then wrote a despairing letter and obtained a conference with her in the garden this was a fortunate event for me true Eliza was very hotti and resolutely insisted on an immediate declaration or rejection I cannot say what would have been the result if Mr Boer had not surprised us together he gave us a pretty harsh look and retired without speaking a word I endeavored to detain Eliza but in vain she left me on my knees which are always ready to bend on such occasions this finished the matter it seems I Rose and went to a neighbors to observe what happened and in about a half an hour saw Mr Boer come out and go to his lodgings this I said to myself is a good omen I went home and was informed next day that he had mounted his horse and departed I heard nothing more of her till today when I determined to know how she stood affected towards me I therefore paid her a visit her mama being luckily abroad she received me very placidly and told me on inquiry that Mr boer's resentment at her meeting me in the garden was so great that he had B her a final Ado I congratulated myself on having no rival hoped that her favor would now be unbiased and that in due time I should reap the reward of my fidelity she begged me not to mention the subject and she had been perplexed by our competition and wished not to hear anything further about it at present I bowed in obedience to her commands and changed the discourse I informed her that I was about taking a tour to the Southward that I should be absent several months and trusted that on my return her embarrassments would be over I left her with regret after all Charles she is the suan bottom of my life I must have her in some way or other nobody else shall I am resolved I am making preparations for my journey which between you and me is occasioned by the prospect of making a speculation by which I hope to mend my Affairs The Voyage will at least lessen my expenses and Screen me from the importunity of creditors till I can look about me Peter sford letter 43 to Miss Eliza Wharton New Haven my dear Eliza through the medium of my friends at Hartford I have been informed of the progress of your Affairs as they have transpired the detail which my sister gave me of your separation from Mr Voyer was painful as I had long contemplated a happy Union between you but still more disagreeable Sensations possessed my breast when told that you had suffered your Lively spirits to be depressed and resigned yourself to Solitude and dejection why my dear friend should you allow this event thus to affect you Heaven I doubt not has happiness still in store for you perhaps greater than you could have enjoyed at that connection if the conviction of any misconduct on your part gives you pain dissipated by the reflection that uniring rectitude is not the lot of Mortals that few are to be found who have not deviated in a greater or less degree from the maxims of prudence our greatest mistakes May teach lessons that will be useful through life but I will not moralize come and see us and we will talk the matter over once and then dismiss it forever do Prevail on your mama to part with you for a month or two at least I wish you to witness how well I manage my Nursery business you will be Charmed with little Harriet I am already enough of the mother to think her a miniature of beauty and Perfection how natural and how easy the transition from one stage of life to another not long since I was a gay volatile girl seeking satisfaction in fashionable circles and Amusements but now I am thoroughly domesticated all my happiness is centered Within limits of my own walls and I Grudge every moment that calls me from the pleasing scenes of domestic life not that I am so selfish as to exclude my friends from my affection or Society I feel interested in their concerns and enjoy their company I must own however that conjugal and parental love are the main Springs of my life the conduct of some mothers in depriving their helpless offspring of the care and kindness which none but a mother can feel is to me unaccountable there are many nameless attentions which nothing short of maternal tenderness and solicitude can pay and for which the endearing smiles and Progressive improvements of the lovely babe are an ample reward how delightful to trace from day to day the expansion of reason and the dawning of intelligence oh how I anticipate the time when these faculties shall be displayed by the organs of speech when the lisping accent shall heighten our present pleasure and the young idea be capable of Direction how to shoot General Richmond is not less interested by these enjoyments than myself all the father beams in his eye all the husband Reigns in his heart and pervades his every action Miss Lawrence is soon to be married to Mr Leighton I believe he is a mere Fortune Hunter indeed she has little to recommend her to any other Nature has not been very Bountiful either to her body or mind her parents have been shamefully deficient in her education but have secured to her what they think the chief good not considering that happiness is by no means the invariable attendant of wealth I hope this incoherent scrawl will amuse while it induces you speedily to favor us with another visit my best wishes attend your honored Mama while I subscribe myself Etc a Richmond end of section s section eight of the coet this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Michelle Eaton the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster Section 8 letter 44 to Mrs Lucy suner Hartford I am extremely depressed my dear Lucy the agitating scenes through which I have lately passed have broken my spirits and rendered me unfit for society major Sanford has visited me and taken his leave he has gone to the Southward on a tour of two or three months I declined any further conversation with him on the subject of Love at present I wish not to hear it mentioned by anyone I have received a very friendly and consolatory letter from Mrs Richmond she invites me to spend a few months with her which with my mama's consent I shall do I hope the change of situation and Company will dissipate the Gloom which hangs over my mind it is a common observation that we know not the value of a blessing but by deprivation this is strictly verified in my case I was insensible of my regard for Mr Boer till this fatal separation took place his Merit and worth now appeared in the brightest colors I am convinced Ed of that Excellence which I once slighted and the shade of departed happiness haunts me perpetually I am sometimes tempted to write to him and confess my faults to tell him the situation of my mind and to offer him my hand but he has precluded all hopes of success by the severity of his letter to me at any rate I shall do nothing of the kind till my return from New Haven I am the more willing to leave home as my Affairs are made a town talk my mamama persuades me to disregard it but how can I Rise superior to the world's dread laugh which scarce The Firm philosopher can scorn pray remember me to Mr Suna you are happy my friend in the love and esteem of a worthy man but more happy still in deserving them ad you Eliza Warton letter 45 to the same Hartford I have returned to to the one smiling seat of maternal affection but I find not Repose and happiness even here in the Society of my amiable friends at New Haven I enjoyed everything that friendship could bestow but rest to a disturbed mind was not in their power I was on various parties of pleasure and passed through different scenes of amusement but with me they have lost their charms I relished them not as formly Mrs Richmond advises me to to write to Mr Boer and I have concluded to act accordingly if it answer no other purpose it will be a relief to my mind if he ever felt for me the tenderness and regard which he professed I think they cannot be entirely obliterated if they still remain perhaps I may rekindle the gentle flame and we may both be happy I may at least recall his esteem and that will be a satisfaction to my conscious mind I wonder what has become of major Sanford how has he too forsaken me is it possible for him willfully to neglect me I will not entertain so injurious a suspicion yet if it were the case it would not affect me like Mr boer's disaffection for I frankly own that my fancy and a taste for gy of Life induced me to cherish the idea of a connection with major Sanford while Mr boer's real Merit has imprinted those Sentiments of esteem and love in my heart which time can never eff face instead of two or three more than 12 months have elapsed and I have not received a line from major Sanford in all that time which I fully expected though he made no mention of writing nor have I heard a syllable about him except a report circulated by his servants that he is on the point of marrying which I do not believe no it is impossible I am persuaded that his passion for me was sincere however deceitful he may have been with others but I will not bestow an anxious thought upon him my design relative to Mr Boer demands my whole attention my hopes and fears alternately Prevail and my resolution is extremely fluctuating how it finally terminates you shall hear in my next pray write to me soon I stand in need of the consoling power of friendship nothing can begil my pensive hours and Exhilarate my drooping Spirits like your letters let me know how you are to be entertained this WI at the theater that you know is a favorite Amusement of mine you see I can step out of myself a little afford an assisting hand and perhaps I may again be fit for society Eliza Warton letter 46 to the Reverend Jay buer Hartford sir it is partly in compliance with your desire in your last letter to me in which you tell me that when I am convinced of the justice of your conduct and become from a convert to your advice you shall be happy to hear it and partly from a wish to inform you that such is in truth my present state of mind that I now write to you I cannot but hope that this letter coming from the hand which you once sought will not be unacceptable Pope very justly observes that every year is a critic on the last the truth of this observation is fully exemplified in my years how severely this condemns the Foles of the proceeding My Own Heart Alone can testify I shall not offer any pation or apology for my misconduct you told me it admitted none I frankly confess it and if the most humble acknowledgement of my offenses with an assurance that they have cost me the deepest repentance can in any degree atone for them I now make that atonement casting off the veil of dissimulation I shall write with frankness believing you possessed of more honor than to make any ungenerous use of the confidence reposed in you to say that I ever esteemed you may perhaps appear paradoxical when compared with certain circumstances which occurred during our acquaintance but to assert that I loved you may be deemed still more so yet these are real facts facts of which I was then sensible and by which I am now more than ever affected I think you formerly remarked that absence served but to heighten real love this I find by experience need I blush to declare these sentiments when occasion like this calls for the avow I will go even further and offer you that heart which you once prized that hand which you once solicited the sentiments of affection which you then cultivated though suppressed I flatter myself on not wholly obliterated suffer me then to rekindle the latent flame to revive that friendship and tenderness which I have so foolishly neglected the Endeavor of my future life shall be to reward your benevolence and perhaps we may yet be happy together but let not this offer of myself constrain you let not pity influence your conduct I would have your return if that pleasing event take place a voluntary act receive or consent not to confer happiness I thought it a duty which I owed to you and to myself to make this experation this sacrifice of female reserve for the wrongs I have done you as such I wish you to accept it and if your affections are entirely alienated or otherwise engaged if you cannot again command the respect and love which I would recall do not despise me for the concessions I have made think as favorably of my past faults and of my present disposition as Charity will allow continue if possible to be my friend though you cease to be my lover should this letter find you in the full possession of Happiness let not the idea of your once loved Eliza thus intruding itself again upon your thoughts interrupt your enjoyments May some distinguished female as deserving as Fair partake with you of that Bliss which I have forfeited whatever may be my destiny my best wishes shall ever attend you and a pleasing remembrance of your honorable attentions preside till death in the breast of Eliza Warton letter 47 to Miss Eliza Warton Hampshire Madam as I was sitting last evening in my study a letter was handed me by a servant upon which I no sooner cast my eye than I recognized with surprise the hand and seal of my once loved but to me long lost Eliza I opened it hastily and with still greater surprise read the contents you write with frankness I shall answer in the same manner on reviewing our former intercourse be assured that I have not an accusing thought in my heart the regard which I felt for you was tender and animated but it was not of the passionate kind which ends in death or despair it was governed by reason and had a nobler object in view than mere sensual gratification it was excited by the appearance of excellent qualities your conduct at length convinced me it was misplaced that you possess not in reality those charms which I had fondly ascribed to you they were inconsistent I conceived with that artifice and dissimulation of which you strove to render me the Duke but thank heaven the snare was broken my eyes were open to discover your Folly and my heart engaged as it was exerted resolution and strength to burst asunder The Chain by which you had me enslaved and to assert the rights of an injured man the parting scene you remember I reluctantly B you adure I tore myself from you determined to eradicate your idea from my breast long and severe was the struggle At Last I vanquished as I thought every tender passion of my soul for they all centered in you and resign myself to my God and my duty devoting those affections to friendship which had been disappointed in love but they are again called into exercise The Virtuous the amiable the accomplished Maria Selby possesses my entire confidence and esteem and I trust I am not deceived when I think her highly deserving of both with her I expect soon to be United in the most sacred and endearing of human relations with her to pass my future Days in Serenity and peace your letter therefore came too late were there no other obstacle to the renewal of our connection I hope at the close of life life when we take a retrospect of the past that neither of us shall have reason to regret our separation permit me to add that for your own sake and for the sake of your ever valued friends I sincerely Rejoice that your mind has regained its native strength and beauty that you have emerged from the shade of fanciful vanity for although to adopt your own phrase I cease to sty myself your lover among the number of your friends I am happy to be reckoned as such let me conjure you by all that is dear and desirable both in this life and another to adhere with undeviating exactness to the paths of rectitude and innocence and to improve the noble talents which Heaven has liberally bestowed upon you in rendering yourself amiable and useful to your friends thus will you secure your own while you promote the happiness of all around you I shall ever cherish Sentiments of kindness toward you and with gratitude remember your condescension in the testimony of regard which you have given me in your last letter I hope soon to hear that your heart and hand are bestowed on some worthy man who deserves the happiness you are formed to communicate whatever we may have called errors will on my part be forever buried in Oblivion and for your own peace of mind I entreat you to forget that any idea of a connection between us ever existed I shall always Rejoice at the news of your welfare and my Ardent prayers will daily arise for your temporal and eternal Felicity J Boer letter 48 to Mrs Lucy suner Hartford health Placid Serenity and every domestic pleasure are the lot of my friend while I who once possess the means of each and the capacity of tasting them have been tossed upon the waves of folly till I am Shipwrecked on the shores of Despair oh my friend I am undone I am slighted rejected by the man who wants sought My Hand by the man who still retains my heart and what adds an insupportable poignancy to the reflection is self- condemnation from this inward torture where shall I flee where shall I seek that happiness which I have madly trifled away the enclosed letters will show you whence this tumult of Soul arises but I blame not Mr buer he has acted nobly I approve his conduct though it operates my ruin he is worthy of his intended bride and she is what I am not worthy of him peace and joy be their portion both here and Hereafter but what are now my prospects what are to be the future enjoyments of my life oh that I had not written to Mr Boya by confessing my faults and by avowing my partiality to him I have give him the power of triumphing in my distress of returning to my tortured heart all the pangs of slighted love and what have I now to console me my Bloom is decreasing my health is sensibly impaired those talents with the possession of which I have been flattered will be of little Avail when unsupported by respectability of character my mamama who knows too well the distraction of my mind Endeavors to soothe and compose me on Christian principles but they have not their desired effect I dare not Converse freely with her on the subject of my present uneasiness lest I should distress her I am therefore obliged to conceal my disquietude and appear as cheerful as possible in her company though my heart is ready to burst with grief oh that you were near me as formerly to share and alleviate my cares to have some friend in whom I could Repose confidence and with whom I could freely Converse and advise on this occasion would be an unspeakable Comfort such a one next to yourself I think Julia gramby to be with your leave and consent I should esteem it a special favor if she would come and spend a few months with me my mamama joins in this request I would write her on the subject but cannot compose myself at present will you prefer my petition for me if I have not forfeited your friendship My Dear Mrs Suna write to me and pour its healing Bal into the wounded mind of your Eliza Warton please see the two preceding letters letter 4 9 to Miss Eliza Warton your truly romantic letter came safe to hand indeed my dear it would have made a very pretty figure in a novel a bleeding heart slighted love and all the etas of romance enter into the composition excuse this and I will now write more seriously you refer yourself to my friendship for consolation it shall be exerted for the purpose but I must act the part of a skillful surgeon and probe the wound which I undertake to heal where o Eliza Warton where is that fund of sense and sentiment which once animated your engaging form where that strength of mind that independence of soul that alacrity and sprightliness of deportment which forly raised you Superior to every adverse occurrence why have you resigned these valuable endowments and suffered yourself to become the sport of contending passions you have now emerged from that mist of fful Folly which in a measure obscured the Brilliance of your youthful days true you figured among the First Rate cook hats while your friends who knew your accomplishments lamented the misapplication of them but now they rejoice in the returning Empire of Reason true you have heard misled by the gayy of your disposition and that volatility and inconsideration which were incident to your years but you have seen and nobly confessed your errors why do you talk of lighted love true Mr buer supposing you disregarded him transferred his affections to another object but have you not your admirers still among men of real Spirit are you not esteemed and caressed by numbers who know you capable of shining in a distinguished sphere of Life turn then my friend from the gloomy Prospect which your Disturbed imagination has brought into view let reason and religion erect their throne in your breast obey dictates and be happy past experience will point out the quicksands which you are to avoid in your future course date then from this a new era of life and may every moment be attended with Felicity follow Mr boer's advice and forget all former connections Julia accepts your invitation nothing short of your request could induce me to part with her she is a good girl and her Society will amuse and instruct you I am Etc Lucy Suna letter 50 to Mrs Lucy Suna Hartford my Julia gramby has arrived she is all that I once was easy spritely Debon air already has she done much towards relieving my mind she Endeavors to divert and Lead my thoughts into a different channel from that to which they are now prone yesterday we had each an invitation to a ball she labored hard to Prevail on me to go but I obstinately refused I cannot yet mix with gay and cheerful circles I therefore alleged that I was indisposed and persuaded her to go without me the events of my life have always been unaccountably Wayward in many instances I have been ready to suppose that some Evil Genius PRD it over my actions which has directed them contrary to the sober dictates of my own judgment I am so sometimes tempted to adopt the sentiment expressed in the following lines of the poet to you great Gods I make my last appeal oh clear my conscience all my crimes reveal if wandering through the paths of life I've run and backwards trod the steps I sought to shun impute my errors to your own decree my feet were guilty but my heart was free I suppose you will tell me that the Fate I accuse through the poet is only the result of my own imprudence well be it what it may either the impulse of my own passions or some higher efficiency sure I am that I pay dear for its operation I have heard it remarked that experience is the preceptor of fools but that the wise need not its instruction I believe I must be content to rank accordingly and Endeavor to reap Advantage from its tuition Julia urges me to revisit the scenes of amusement and pleasure in which she tells me she is actuated by selfish motives she wishes it for her own sake she likes neither to be secluded from them nor to go alone I am sometimes half inclined to seek infested mirth a refuge from thought and reflection I would Escape if possible from the idea of Mr Boer this I have never been able to accomplish since he dropped a tear upon my hand and left me I marked the spot with my eye and 20 times in a day do I view it and fondly imag imagine it still there how can I give him pain I hope this happy Maria never will I hope she will reward that Merit which I have slighted but I forbear this theme carries away my pen if I but touch upon it and no wonder for it is the sole exercise of my thoughts yet I will endeavor to divert them send me some new books not such however as will require much attention let them be plays and novels or anything else that will amuse or EXT daughter smile Julia and I have been rambling in the garden she insisted upon my going with her into the arbor where I was surprised with major Sanford what a crowd of painful ideas rushed upon my imagination I believe she repented of her rashness but no more of this I must lay aside my pen for I can write nothing else Eliza Warton end of section8 section nine of the cockette this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Linn Thompson the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster section nine letter 51 to Mrs Lucy suner heart dear Madam you commanded me to write to you respecting Miss Warton and I obey but I cannot described to you the surprising change which she has undergone her vivacity has certainly forsaken her and she has actually become what she once dreaded Above All Things a recluse she flies from company as eagerly as she formerly sought it her mamama is exceedingly distressed by the unsettled Melancholy which appears in her darling child but neither of us think it best to mention the subject to her we Endeavor to find means to amuse her and we flatter ourselves that the prospect of success rather increases it would add greatly to my happiness to contribute in any degree to restore her to herself to her friends and to society we are all invited to dine abroad tomorrow and to oblige me she has consented to go pray Madam write to her often your letters may do much for her she is still feelingly alive to the power of friendship and none can exercise it upon her to Greater acceptance or with more Advantage than yourself major Sanford's house is undergoing a complete repair the report is that he is soon to be married Miss Warton has heard but does not believe it I hope for her sake it will prove true for at any rate he is about returning and from her mama's account of his past conduct towards Eliza were he to return unconnected he would probably renew his attentions and though they might end in marriage her happiness would not be secured she has too nice a sense of love and honor to compound with his licentious principles a man who has been dissolute before marriage will very seldom be faithful afterwards I went into Eliza's chamber the other day and found her with a miniature picture in her hand you pretend to be a physiognomist Julia said she what can you trace in that countenance I guessed whose it was and looking wistfully at it replied I believe the original is an Artful designing man he looks to me like a Chester fieldi in pray who is he major Sanford said she and I am afraid you have hit his character exactly sure I am that the appearance of those traits in it has made my heart ache she wept as she spoke it poor girl I wish he may never give you greater cause to weep she is strongly blind to the vices and Imperfections of this man though naturally penetrating he has somehow or other cast a decep Mist over her imagination with respect to himself she professes neither to love nor esteem him and owns that his ungenerous artifice misled her in her treatment of Mr Boer yet she has forgiven him and thinks him a pleasing companion how prone to error is the human mind how much lighter than the breath of zephs the operations of fancy strange then it should ever preponderate over the weightier powers of the understanding but I will not moralize my business here is to dissipate not to collect ideas and I must regulate myself accordingly I am endeavoring to prepare Eliza by degrees to accompany me to Boston the ensuing winter but think it doubtful whether I shall succeed I shall however return myself till when I am Etc Julia gramby letter 52 to Miss Eliza Warton Boston my dear dear Eliza I received yours of the 24th Ultimo and thank you for it though it did not afford me those Lively sensations of pleasure which I usually feel at the perusal of your letters it inspired me both with concern and shagon with concern lest your dejection of Mind should affect your health and with shagon at your apparent Indulgence of melancholy indeed my friend your own happiness and honor require you to dissipate the cloud which hangs over your imagination rise then above it and prove yourself superior to the adverse occurrences which have be fallen you it is by surmounting difficulties not by sinking under them that we discover our fortitude true courage consists not in flying from the storms of life but in braving and steering through them with Prudence avoid Solitude it is the bane of a disordered mind though of great utility to a healthy one your once favorite amusements caught your attention refuse not their solicitations I have contributed my might by sending you a few books such as you requested they are of the lighter kind of reading yet perfectly chased and if I mistake not well adapted to your taste you wish to hear from our theater I believe it will be well supplied with performers this winter come and see whether they can can afford you any entertainment last evening I attended a tragedy but never will I attend another I have not yet been able to erase the Gloom which had impressed upon my mind it was Romeo and Juliet distressing enough to sensibility this are there not real woes if not in our own families at least among our own friends and neighbors sufficient to exercise our sympathy and pity without introducing fictitious I ones into our very diversions how can that be a diversion which racks the soul with grief even though that grief be imaginary the introduction of a funeral solemnity upon the stage is shocking indeed death is too serious a matter to be sported with an opening grave cannot be a source of amusement to any considerate mind the closing scene of life can be no pasttime when realized it must therefore awaken painful Sensations in the representation the circus is a place a fashionable Resort of late but not agreeable to me I think it inconsistent with the delicacy of a lady even to witness the IND deorum which are practiced there especially when the performers of equestrian Feats are of our own sex to see a woman depart so far from the female character as to assume the masculine habit and attitude and appear entirely indifferent even to the externals of modesty is truly disgusting and ought not to be countenanced by our attendance much less by our approbation but setting aside the circumstance I cannot conceive it to be a pleasure to sit a whole evening trembling with apprehension lest the poor white of a Horseman or juggler or whatever he is to be called should break his neck in contributing to our entertainment with Mr Bowen's Museum I think you were much pleased he has made a number of judicious additions to it since you were here it is a source of rational and refined Amusement here the eye is gratified the imagination Charmed and the understanding improved it will bear frequent reviews without Ping On The tastes it always affords something new and I for one I am never a weary spect spectator our other public and private places of Resort are much as you left them I am happy in my present situation but when the summer returns I intend to visit my native home again my Eliza will we ramble together in those retired Shades which friendship has rendered so delightful to us adure my friend till then be cheerful and you will yet be happy Lucy Suna letter 53 to Mrs Lucy Suna Harford gracious Heaven what have I heard major Samford is married yes the ungrateful the deceitful wretch is married he has Forsworn he has purged and given himself to another that you will say is nothing strange it is characteristic of the man it may be so but I could not be convinced of his perfidy till now Perhaps it is all for the best perhaps had he remained unconnected he might still have deceived me but now I defy his Arts they tell me he has married a woman of Fortune I suppose he thinks as I once did that wealth can ensure happiness I wish he may enjoy it this event would not affect me at all were it not for the depression of spirits which I feel in consequence of a previous disappointment since which everything of the kind agitates and overcomes me I will not see him if I do I shall betray my weakness and flatter his vanity as he will doubtless think he has the power of mortifying Me by his connection with another before this news discomposed me I had attained to a good degree of cheerfulness your kind letter seconded by Julia's exertions had assisted me in regulating my sensibility I have been frequently into company and find my relish for it gradually returning I intend to accept the pleasure to which you invite me of spending a little time with you this Winter Julia and I will come together varying the scene May contribute effectually to dissipate the Gloom of my imagination I would fly to almost any result rather than my own mind what a Dreadful thing it is to be afraid of One's Own Reflections which ought to be a constant source of enjoyment but I will not moralize I am sufficiently Melancholy without any additional cause to increase it Eliza Warton letter 54 to Mr Charles Dayton Hartford dear Dayton who do you think is writing to you why it is your old friend metamorphis into a married man you you stare and can hardly credit the assertion I cannot realize it myself yet I assure you Charles it is absolutely true necessity dire necessity forced me into this deria Resort I told you some time ago it would come to this I stood aloof as long as possible but in vain did I attempt to shun The Noose I must either fly to this resource or give up all my show equipage and pleasure and degenerate into a downright plotting money catcher for a subsistence I chose the first and who would not yet I feel some remorse at taking the girl to wife from no better motives she is really too good for such an imposition but she must blame herself if she suffer Hereafter for she was visibly captivated by my external appearance and wanted but very little solicitation to confer herself and fortune on so Charming a fellow her parents opposed her inclination for a while because I was a stranger and rather too gay for their taste but she had not been used to contradiction and could not bear it and therefore they ventured not to cross her so I bore off the prize and a prize she really is £5,000 in possession and More in reversion if I do not forfeit it this will compensate for some of my past mistakes and set matters right for the present I think it doing much better than to have taken the little Lawrence girl I told you of with half for some besides my Nancy is a handsomer and more agreeable person but that is of little consequence to me you know Beauty soon grows familiar to the lover were I a lover it would be of no great Avail a lover I am yet not of my wife the dart which I received from Miss Warton sticks fast in my heart and I assure you I could hardly persuade myself even to appear unfaithful to her oh Eliza accuse me not of infidelity for your image is my constant companion a thousand times have I cursed the unpropitious Stars which withheld from her a fortune that would have enabled me to marry her and with her even wedlock would have been supportable I am told that she is still single her sober lover never returned had he loved her as I did and do he could not have been so precipitate but these stoic souls are good for nothing that I know of but fix like a plant to one peculiar spot to draw nutrition propagate and rot I want to see Eliza and I must see her yet I dread an interview I shall frankly conf confess my motives for marrying and the reasons of my conduct before I went away I shall own that my circumstances would not allow me to possess her and yet that I could not resign her to another when I make up the matter with her I shall solicit her friendship for my wife by this means I may enjoy her Society at least which will alleviate the confinement of a married state to my spouse I must be as civil as possible I really wish she had less Merit that I might have a plausible excuse for neglecting her tomorrow I shall go to Mrs warton's I am very much taken up with compliment visits at present what deference is always paid to an equipage they may talk of their virtue their learning and whatnot but without either of them I shall bear off the palm of respect from those who have them unadorned with gold and its shining appendages everything hereabouts recalls Eliza to my mind I impatiently anticipate the hour which will convey me to her presence Peter sford letter 55 to Mrs Lucy sner Hartford a new scene has opened upon us today my dear Mrs sna a visit from major sford my mama Miss gramby and myself were sitting together in the chamber Miss gramby was entertaining Us by reading aloud in Miller's elements of history when a servant wrapped at the door and handed in the following Billet will miss Warton condescend to converse a few moments with her once favored Stanford he is but too sensible that he has forfeited all claim to the privilege he therefore presumes not to request it on the score of Merit nor of former acquaintance but solicits it from her benevolence and pity I read and showed it to my mamama and Julia what said I shall I do I wish not to see him his artifice has destroyed my peace of mind and his presence may open the wounds which time is closing act said my mama agreeably to the dictates of your own judgment I see no harm in conversing with him said Julia perhaps it may remove some disagreeable thoughts which now oppress and give you pain and as he is no longer a candidate for your affections added she with a smile it will be less hazardous than formerly he will not have the insolence to speak nor you the Folly to hear the language of love he was accordingly invited in when I Rose to go down I hesitated and even trembled I fear said I to myself it will be too much for me yet why should it conscious innocence will support me this he has not when I entered the room he stepped forward to meet me confusion and shame were visibly depicted in his countenance he approached me hastily and without uttering a word took my hand I withdrew it oh miss Warton said he despise me not I am convinced that I deserve your displeasure and disdain but my own heart has Avenged your cause to your own heart then said I I will leave you but why do you again seek an interview with one whom you have endeavored to mislead with one whom you have treated with unmar neglect Justice to myself required my appearing before you that by confessing my faults and obtaining your forgiveness I might soften the reproaches of my own mind will you be seated sir said I will you rejoined he condescend to sit with me Eliza I will sir answered die the rights of hospitality I shall not infringe in my own house therefore I shall treat you with civility indeed said he you are very severe but I have provoked all the coldness and Reserve which you can inflict I am a married man elizer so I understand said I and I hope you will never treat your wife with that dissimulation and falsehood which you have exercised towards me what to Heaven exclaimed he that you were my wife I should not then fail in my love or Duty as a husband yet she is an amiable girl and had I a heart to give her I might still be happy but that alas I can never Recall why then said I did you marry her you were doubtless master of your own actions no said he I was not the embarrassed state of my Affairs precluded the possibility of AC acting as I wished loving you most ardently I was anxious to prevent your union with another till I could so far improve my circumstances as to secure you from poverty and want in a connection with me my regard was too sincere to permit me to deceive You by a marriage which might have proved unhappy for us both my pride forbade my telling you the motives of my delay and I left you to see if I could place myself in a situation worthy of your acceptance this I could not effect and therefore have run the risk of my future happiness by marrying a lady of affluence this secures to me the externals of enjoyment but my heart I fear will never participate in it yet it affords me some degree of satisfaction that I have not involved you in distress the only alleviation of which my banishment from you is capable is your forgiveness in compassion then refuse it not it cannot injure you to me it will be worth millions he wept yes Lucy this libertine this man of pleasure and gallantly wept I really pied him from my heart I forgive you said I and wish you happy yet on this condition only that you never again pollute my ears with the recital of your Infamous passion yes Infamous I call it for what softer appellation can be given to such professions from a married man harbor not an idea of me in future in consistent with the love and Fidelity which you owe your wife much less presume to mention it if you wish not to be detested by me and forever banished from my presence he expressed gratitude for his Absolution even upon these terms and hoped his future conduct would entitle him to my friendship and esteem that I replied time only can determine one favor more he begged leave to cicit which was that I would be a neighbor to his wife she was a stranger he said and would deem my Society a particular privilege this I told him I could not Grant at present whatever I might do Hereafter he did not urge it any further but inquired after my mamama and expressed a wish to to see her I rang the bell and ordered her and miss gramby to be called when they came he was very polite to them both and after usual compliments told my mamama that he was happy in having obtained my forgiveness to which he was anxious to have her seal affixed my daughter said she is the injured party and if she be satisfied I shall not complain he thanked her for her condescension informed her that he was married and requested her to visit his wife we then conversed upon different subjects for a short time and he took his leave a sigh escaped him as he departed and a Gloom was visible in his countenance which I never observed before I must acknowledge that this interview has given me satisfaction I have often told you that if I married major Samford it would be from a predilection for his situation in life life how wretched must have been my lot had I discovered too late that he was by no means possessed of the independence which I fondly anticipated I knew not my own heart when I contemplated a connection with him Little did I think that my regard for Mr Boer was so deeply rooted as I now find it I foolishly imagined that I could turn my affections into what channel I pleased what then must have been my my feelings when I found myself deprived both of inward peace and outward enjoyment I begin now to emerge from the darkness in which I have been long bited I hope the tragic comedy in which I have acted so conspicuous a part will come to a happy end Julia and I talk now and then of a journey to Boston as yet I have not resolution to act with much decision upon the subject but wherever I am and whatever may be my fate I shall always be yours in truth Eliza Warton letter 56 to Mrs Lucy suner Hartford I begin to hope we shall come to rights here by and by Major Sanford has returned has made us a visit and a treaty of peace and Amity but not of Commerce is ratified Eliza appears to be rapidly returning to her former cheerfulness if not gayety I hope she will not diverge too far from her present sedateness and solidity yet I am not without apprehensions of Danger on that score one extreme commonly succeeds another she tells me that she assiduously cultivates her natural vivacity that she finds her taste for company and Amusements increasing that she dreads being alone because past scenes arise to view which Vex and dis compose her these are indications of a mind not perfectly right I flatter myself however that the time is not far distant when her passions will vibrate with regularity I need not repeat to you anything relative to Major samford's conciliatory visit Eliza has given you a particular and I believe a faithful detail I was called down to see this wonderful man and disliked him exceedingly I am astonished that Eliza's penetrating eye has not long since read his vices in his very countenance I am told by a friend who has visited them that he has an agreeable wife and I wish she may find him a husband of the same description but I very much doubt the accomplishment of my wish for I have no charity for these reformed Rees we were walking abroad the other afternoon and met major sford and Lady Eliza did not see them till they were very near us she started turned pale and then colored like Crimson I cannot but think a little Envy rankled in her heart major Sanford very politely accosted us and congratulated Mrs Sanford on this opportunity of introducing her to a particular friend presenting Eliza she received her with an easy dignity and B her welcome to this part of the country Mrs Sanford answered her modestly hoped for the pleasure of a further acquaintance and urged us as we were not far from their house to return with them to tea we declined and wishing each other good evening parted major Sanford's eyes were riveted on Eliza the whole time we were together and he seemed loathed to remove them when we separated I suspect there is some truth in his Tale Of Love I shall therefore discourage Eliza from associating with him under any pretext whatever she appeared more pensive and thoughtful than common as we returned home and said little the rest of the evening but next morning was as chatty as ever she is warm in the Praises of Mrs Sanford thinks her an accomplished woman and wonders that the major could suggest an idea of marrying her for her money she intends she says to visit her soon and wishes me to accompany her this for her own sake I shall defer as long as possible I am Etc Julia Granby end of section nine section 10 of the cockette this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org the Coquette or the history of Eliza Wharton by Hannah Webster Foster section 10 letter 57 to Mrs Lucy sna Hartford by Julia's advice we have neglected the repeated invitations of major Sanford to visit and commence neighborhood with them till yesterday when we received a polite bullet requesting the honor of our company to dine my mama declined going but said she had no objection to our compliance with the message if we thought proper Julia and I accordingly went we found a large company assembled in a spacious Hall splendidly furnished and decorated they were all very polite and attentive to me but none more so than major Sanford and his lady who jointly strove to dissipate the pensiveness of my mind which I found it impossible to conceal when we were summoned to dinner the major being near me offered his hand and leading me into the dining room seated me at a table furnished with all the variety which could please the eye or regil the taste of the most luxurious Epicure the conversation turned on very various subjects literary political and miscellaneous in the evening we had a ball major Sanford gave the hand of his wife to a Mr Gray alleging that he was a stranger and therefore entitled to particular attention and then solicited mine himself I was on the point of refusing him but recollecting that it might have the appearance of continued resentment contrary to my Declaration of for giving what was passed I complied he was all kindness and assiduity the more so I imagined with a view to make amends for his former ingratitude and neglect tenderness is now peculiarly soothing to my Wounded Heart he took an opportunity of conversing with his wife and me together hoped she would be honored with my friendship and acquaintance and begged for her sake that I would not be a stranger at his house his Nancy he said was far removed from our maternal friends but I could Supply their place if I would generously undertake the task she joined in expressing the same sentiments and wishes alas sir said I Eliza Wharton is not now what she once was I labor under a depression of spirits which must render my company rather painful than pleasing to my friends the idea of what I had been contrasted with what I then was touched my sensibility and I could not restrain the too officious tear from stealing down my cheek he took me by the hand and said you distress me Miss Warton indeed you distress me happiness must and shall attend you cursed be the richet who could wound a Heart Like Yours Julia grandby now joined us an inquisitive concern was visible in her her countenance I related this conversation to her after we returned home but she approved it not she thought major Sanford too particularly retentive to me considering what had previously happened she said it would be noticed by others and the world would make unfavorable remarks upon any appearance of intimacy between us I care not for that said I it is an ill-natured misjudging world and I'm not obliged to sacrifice my friends to its opinion were major Sanford a single man I should avoid his Society but since he is married since his wife is young beautiful and lovely he can have no temptation to injure me I therefore see no evil which can arise from the cultivation of Friendship with her at least I relish company so little that I may surely be indulged in selecting that which is most agreeable to my taste to prevent my becoming quite a misanthrope I thank you my dear Mrs sna for your kind letter it was a seasonable cordial to my mind and I will endeavor to profit by your advice your remarks on the public entertainments are amusing and as far as I'm a judge perfectly just I think it a pity they have not female managers for the theater I believe it would be under much better regulations than at present with cordial respects to Mr sna I subscribe myself yours in sincerity Eliza Wharton letter 58 to Mr Charles Daton heart for rejoice with me my friend that I have made my peace with the Mistress of my heart no devote could have been more sincere in his penitence than I was in mine indeed Charles I never knew I had so much sensibility before why I was as much a woman as the very weakest of the sex but I dealt very plainly and sincerely with her to be sure and this atones for all past offenses and procures Absolution for many others yet to be committed the dear girl was not inexurable she was as placable and condescending as I could expect considering the nature of the crme time which was apparently slighting her person and charms by marrying another this you know is one of the nicest points with the ladies attack their honor that is their Chastity and they conri it to be the effect of excessive love which hurries you a little beyond the bounds of prudence but touch their vanity by preferring another and they will seldom pardon you you will say I'm very severe upon the sex and have I not reason to be so since I found so many frail ones among them this however is departing from my subject Eliza is extremely ER altered her pale dejected countenance with the sedateness of her manners so different from the Lively glow of health cheerfulness and activity which formly reanimated her appearance and deportment struck me very disagreeably with all my gallantry and fluency in love matters I was unable to acquit myself tolerably or to address her with any degree of ease and confidence she was very calm and spoke with great indifference about my marriage Etc which mortified me exceedingly yet I cannot consent to believe that a present depression of spirits arises sely from Mr Bo's infidelity I flatter myself that I am of sufficient con consequence to her to have contributed in a degree when I inquired after her health she told me she had been indisposed but was now much better this indisposition I'm informed was purely mental and I'm happy to observe her recovering from it I frequently visit her sometimes with and sometimes without my wife of whom through my mediation she has become a favorite I have married and according to the general opinion reformed yet I suspect my Reformation like most others of the kind will prove instable as the baseless fabric of a vision unless I banish myself entirely from her Society but that I can never do for she is still lovely in my eyes and I cannot control my passions when absent from her I'm lost to everything but her idea my wife begins to Rally me on my father fondness for Miss Warton she asked me the other day if she had a fortune no said I if she had I should have married her this wounded her sensibility I repented of my sincerity and made my peace for that time yet I find myself growing extremely IR irritable and she must take heed how she provokes me for I do not love her and I think the name of wife becomes more and more distasteful to me every day in my mind Eliza has no competitor but I must keep up appearances though I Endeavor to regain her love I imagine that the enjoyment of a society as a neighbor and friend May content me for the present and render my condition supportable farewell Charles I hope you will never be embarrassed with a wife nor lack some favorite nymph to supply the place of one Peter Sanford letter 59 to Mrs Lucy suner Harford dear Lucy I intended this week to have journey to Boston with Julia Granby but my resolution fails me I find it painful even to think of mixing again with the gay multitude I believe The Melancholy Reflections by which I'm oppressed will be more effectually if not more easily surmounted by tearing where they are rendered familiar than by going from them a while and then returning Julia will therefore go without me I envy her no enjoyment there except your company the substitution of friendship in the place of love for major Sanford I find Productive of agreeable Sensations with him he assures me it is a far more calm and rational pleasure he treats me with the affection and tenderness of a brother and his wife who exceeds him in professions of regard with all the consoling softness and attention of a sister indeed their politeness has greatly contributed to revive the cheerfulness of my natural disposition I believe the Major's former partiality to me as a lover is entirely obliterated and for my part I feel as little restraint in his company and his Ladies as in that of any other in the neighborhood I very much regret the departure of Julia and hope you will permit her to return to me again as soon as possible she is a valuable friend her mind is well cultivated and she has treasured up a fund of knowledge and information which renders her company both agreeable and useful in every situation of life we lately spent the afternoon and evening at Mr Smith's they had a considerable number of visitants and among the rest major Sanford his wife was expected but did not not come being indisposed I believe my friend you must excuse me if my letters are shorter than forly writing is not so agreeable to me as it used to be I love my friends as well as ever but I think they must be wary of the Gloom and dullness which pervade my present correspondence when my pen shall have regained its original fluency and alertness I will resume and prolong the pleasing task I am my dear Lucy yours most affectionately Eliza Warton letter 10 to the same heartful dear Madam agreeably to your desire every art has been tried every allurement held out every argument used and every plan adopted which Mrs Warton and I could device to induce Eliza to accompany me to Boston but all in vain sometimes she has been almost persuaded to a compliance with our United request but soon has resolutely determined against it I've observed her sentiments to be suddenly changed after being in company with major Sanford this alarms us exceedingly indeed the major seems to have insinuated himself into her good opinion more than ever she is flattered into the belief that his attention to her is purely the result of friendship and benevolence I have not so favorable an opinion of the man as to suppose himc capable of either he has become very familiar here he calls in almost every day sometimes he but just inquires after our health and sometimes makes long visits the latter is his invariable practice when he finds Eliza alone Mrs Wharton always avoids seeing him if she can she dreads she says he approaching the house I entered the Parlor the other day somewhat suddenly and found him sitting very near Eliza in a low conversation they both Rose in apparent confusion and he soon retired when he was gone I suspect said I that the major was whispering A Tale Of Love Eliza do you imagine said she that I would listen to such a theme from a married man I hope not said I but his conduct toward indicates a Revival of his former sentiments at least I was not aware of that said she as yet I have observed nothing in his behavior to me inconsistent with the purest friendship we drank tea not long since at Mrs Smiths late in the afternoon major Sanford made his appearance to apologize as he said for Mrs Sanford who was indisposed and could not enjoy the pleasure of the visit she had contemplated he was very gay G the whole evening and when the company separated he was the first to present his arm to Eliza who accepted it without hesitation a Mr NE Hall attended me and we endeavored to keep them company but they evidently chose to walk by themselves Mr New Hall observed that if major Sanford were not married he should suspect he still intended a union with Miss Warton I replied that their for intercourse having terminated in Friendship rendered them more familiar with each other than with the generality of their acquaintance when we reached the house Mr neall chose not to go in and took his leave I waited at the door for elizer and major Sanford at some little distance I saw him press a hand to his lips it vexed me exceedingly and no sooner had they come up then I suddenly B them good night and walked directly clear in Eliza soon followed me I sat down by the fire in a thoughtful posture she did the same in this situation we both remained for some time without speaking a word at length she said you seem not to have enjoyed your walk Miss Granby did you not like your Gallant yes said I very well but I'm mortified that you were not better provided for I I make no complaint rejoined she I was very well entertained that is what displeases me said I I mean your visible fondness for the Society of such a man were you averse to it as you ought to be there would be no danger but he has an alluring tongue and a treacherous heart how can you be pleased and entertained by his conversation to me it appears totally repugnant to that that refinement and delicacy for which you have always been esteemed his assiduity and abusion ought to alarm you you well know what his character has been marriage has not changed his disposition it is only a cloak which conceals it trust him not then my dear Elija if you do depend upon it you will find his professions of friendship to be mere hypocrisy and deceit I fear that he is acting over again the same unworthy rods which formerly misled you beware of his WS your friends are anxious for you they tremble at your profess regard and apparent intimacy with that unprincipled man my friends said she are very jealous of me lately I know not how I forfeited their confidence or incur their suspicion by encouraging that attention I warmly replied and receiving those caresses from a married man which are due from him to none but his wife he is a villain if he deceived her into marriage by insincere professions of love if he had then an affection for her and has already discarded it he is equally guilty can you expect sincerity from the man who withholds it from an amiable and deserving wife no Eliza it is not love which induces him to entertain you with the subject it is a baser passion and if you disdain not his artifice if you listen to his flattery you will I fear fall a victim to his evil machinations if he conducted like a man of Honor he would Merit your esteem but his behavior is quiet the reverse yet vile as he is he would not dare to lisp his insent ENT hopes of your regard if you punished his presumption with the indignation it deserves if you spurn from your presence The Ungrateful wret who would Reit your condescension by triumphing in your ruin she now burst into tears and begged me to drop the subject her mind she said was wrecked by her own Reflections she could bear but little kindness deceived and censure distressed her I assured her of my good intentions that as I saw her danger I thought it a duty of the friendship and affection I bore her solemnly to warn her against it before we parted we talked over the matter more calmly till she professed herself resolved in future to avoid his company and reject his insinuations the next day as I walked out I met major Sanford he accosted me very cily I barely B him good morning and passed on I made it in my way to call at his house and bid Mrs Sanford aw not expecting another opportunity equally favorable when I entered the Parlor she was playing a Melancholy air on the harsy cord she Rose and gave me a polite and graceful reception I told her as I was soon to leave the town I called to take my leave of her a compliment which her attention to me require are you going to leave us then miss Granby said she I shall regret your departure exceedingly I have so few friends in this part of the country that it will give me sensible pain to part with one I so highly value I told her in the course of conversation that I expected the pleasure of seeing her yesterday at Mr Smith's and was very sorry for the indisposition which prevented her favoring us with her company indeed said she I did not know I was expected there were you there pray yes said I and major Sanford excused your not coming on the account I mentioned well said she this is the first word that I ever heard about it he told me that business led him abroad did he Gallant any lady oh said I he was with us all together we had no particular gallons seeing her curiosity excited I heartedly repented saying anything of the matter and waved the subject little did I suspect him to have been guilty of so base an artifice it was evidently contri to facilitate an interview with Eliza when I returned I related this affair to Mrs Wharton and her daughter the old lady Rai expatiated largely on the vness of this conduct and endeavored to expose it to Eliza's view in its true colors she pretended not to justify it yet she looked as if she wished it in her power I am now preparing for my journey to Boston which I must however defer another week for the sake of a more agreeable passage in the stage I regret leaving Eliza I tremble at a danger she has not the resolution to resist temptation which she once possessed her mind is surprisingly weakened she appears sensible of this yet adds to it by yielding to her own imbecility you will receive a letter from her with this though I had much difficulty to persuade her to write she has unfortunately become very averse to this her once favorite Amusement As I Shall soon have the pleasure of conversing with you personally I conclude without any other addition to this scroll than the name of your obliged Julia grandby letter 61 to Miss Eliza won Boston my dear friend I have received your letters and must own to you that the perusal of them gave me pain pardon my suspicions Eliza they are excited by real friendship Julia you say approves not major Sanford's particular attention to you now neither do I if you recollect and examine his conversation in his conciliatory visit you will find it reped with sentiments for the avowal of which he ought to be banished from all virtuous Society does he not insidiously declare that you are the only object of his affections that his Union with another was formed from interested views and though that other is acknowledged to be amiable and excellent still he has not a heart to bestow and expects not not happiness with her does this discover even the appearance of amendment has he not by false pretensions misled a virtuous woman and induced her to form a connection with him she was a stranger to his manner of life and doubtless alone as you have been by flattery deceit and external appearance to trust his honor little thinking him wholly devoid of that sacred tie what is the reward of her confidence insensibility to her charms neglect of her person and professed attachment to another is he a man my dear Eliza whose friendship you wish to cultivate can that Heavenly passion reside in a breast which is the seat of treachery duplicity and ingratitude you are too sensible of its Purity un Worth to suppose it possible the confessions of his own mouth condemn him they convince me that he is still the abandoned libertine and that marriage is but the cloak of his intrigues his officious attentions to you are alarming to your friends your own mind weaken and peculiarly susceptible of tender Impressions beware how you receive them from him listen not a moment to his flattering professions it is an insult upon your understanding for him to offer them it is derogatory to Virtue for you to hear them slight not the opinion of the world well we are dependent beings and while the smallest traces of virtual sensibility remain we must feel the force of that dependence in a greater or less degree no female whose mind is uncorrupted can be indifferent to reputation it is an inestimable Jewel the loss of which can never be repaired while retained it affords conscious peace to our own minds and ensures the esteem and respect of all around us blessed with the company of so disinterested and faithful a friend as Julia Granby some difference is certainly due to her opinion and advice to an enlarged understanding a cultivated taste and an extensive knowledge of the world she unites the most liberal sentiments with a benevolence and cander of disposition which render her equally deserving of your confidence and affection I cannot relinquish my claim to a visit from you this winter marriage has not alienated nor weaken my regard for my friends come then to your faithful Lucy have you Sorrows I will soothe and alleviate them have you cares I will dispel them have you Pleasures I will heighten them come then let me fold you to my expecting heart my happiness will be partly suspended till your Society renders it complete ad Lucy Su end of section 10 section 11 of the cockette this is a LibriVox recording or LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Linn Thompson the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster section 11 letter 62 to Miss Julia Granby Hartford dear Julia I hope Mrs suner and you will excuse my writing but one letter in answer to the number I have received from you both writing is an employment which suits me not at present it was pleasing to me forly and therefore by recalling the idea of circumstances and events which frequently occup occupied my pen in happier days it now gives me pain yet I have just written a long consolatory letter to Mrs Richmond she has buried her babe her little Harriet of whom she was dotingly fond it was a custom with some of the Ancients we are told to weep at the birth of their children often should we be impelled to a compliance with this custom could we foresee the future incidents of their lives I think at least that the uncertainty of their conduct and condition in more advanced Agee May reconcile us to their removal to a happier State before they are capable of tasting the bitterness of Woe happy The Babe who privileged by Fate to Shorter labors and lighter weight received but yesterday the gift of breath ordered tomorrow to return to death our domestic affairs are much as when you left us nothing nothing remarkable has occurred in the neighborhood worth communicating the company and Amusements of the town are as usual I suppose I frequent neither of them having incurred so much censure by the Indulgence of a gay disposition I am now trying what a recluse and solitary mode of life will produce you will call me splenetic I own it I am pleased with nobody still less with myself I look around for happiness and find it not the world is to me a desert if I indulge myself in temporary enjoyment the Consciousness or apprehension of doing a Miss destroys my peace of mind and when I have recours to books if I read those of serious descriptions they remind me of an awful Futurity for which I am unprepared if history it discloses facts in which I have no interest if novels they exhibit scenes of pleasure which I have no Prospect of realizing Iz ing my mama is solicitously attentive to my happiness and though she fails of promoting it yet I Endeavor to save her the pangs of disappointment by appearing what she wishes I anticipate and yet I dread your return a paradox this which time alone can solve continue writing to me and intreat Mrs Suna in my name to do likewise your benevolence must be your reward Eliza Warton letter 63 to Miss Eliza Warton Boston a paradox indeed is the greater part of your letter to us my dear Eliza we had fondly flattered ourselves that The Melancholy of your mind was exterminated I hope no new cause has revived it little did I intend when I left you to have been absent so long but Mrs su's disappointment in her plan of spending the summer at Hartford induced me in compliance with her request to prolong my residence here but for your sake she now consents to my leaving her in hopes I may be so happy as to contribute to your amusement I am both pleased and instructed by the conduct of this amiable woman as I always endeavored to imitate her discreet and modest behavior in a single state so likewise shall I take for her a pattern should I ever enter a married life she is most happily United Mr Suna to All The Graces and accomplishments of the gentleman adds the still more important and essential properties of virtue integrity and honor I was once present when a person was recommended to her for a husband she objected that he was a rake true said the other he has been but he has reformed that will never do for me rejoined she I wish my future companion to need no Reformation a sentiment worthy the attention of our whole sex the general adoption of which I am persuaded would have a happy influence upon the manners of the other I hope neither you nor I Eliza shall ever be Tried by a man of debauched principles such characters I conceive to be totally unfit for the Society of women who have any claim to Virtue and delicacy I intend to be with you in about a month if agreeable to you we will visit and spend a few weeks with The Afflicted Mrs Richmond I sincerely sympathize with her under her bereavement I know her fondness for you will render your company very consoling to her and I flatter myself that I should not be an unwelcome guest make my respects to your mama and believe me ever yours Julia Granby letter 64 to Mrs Lucy suner Hartford dear madam I have arrived in safety to the mansion of our once happy and social friends but I cannot describe to you how changed how greatly changed this amiable family appears since I left it Mrs Warton met me at the door and Tenderly embracing bade me a cordial welcome you are come Julia said she I hope to revive and comfort us we have been very solitary during your absence I am happy Madam said I to return and my Endeavors to restore cheerfulness and content shall not be wanting but where is Eliza by this time we had reached the back parlor with Mrs Warton led me and the door being open I saw Eliza reclined on a sa in a very thoughtful posture when I Advanced to meet her she never moved but sat like patience on a monument smiling at grief I stopped involuntarily and involuntarily raising my eyes to Heaven exclaimed exclaimed is that Eliza Warton she burst into tears and attempted to rise but sank again into her seat seeing her thus affected I sat down by her and throwing my arm about her neck why these tears said I why this distress my dear friend let not the return of your Julia give you pain she comes to soothe you with the consolations of friendship it is not pain said she clasping me to her breast it is pleasure too Exquisite for my weak nerves to Bear see you not Julia how I am altered should you have known me for the spritely girl who was always welcome at the haunts of hilarity and mirth indeed said I you appear indisposed but I will be your physician company and change of air will I doubt not restore you will these cure disorders of the Mind Julia they will have a powerful tendency to remove them if rightly applied and I profess considerable skill in that art come continued I we will try these medicines in the morning let us rise early and step into the Shay and after riding a few miles call and breakfast with Mrs Freeman I have some commissions from her daughter we shall be agreeably entertained there you know being summoned to supper I took her by the hand and we walked into another room where we found her brother and his wife wife with her mamama waiting for us we were all very chatty even Eliza resumed in a degree her former sociability a settled Gloom not withstanding brooded on her countenance and a deep sigh often escaped her in spite of her evident Endeavors to suppress it she went to bed before us when her mama informed me that her health had been declining for some months that she never complained but studiously concealed every syp symptom of indisposition whether it were any real disorder of body or whether it arose from her depression of spirits she could not tell but supposed they operated together and mutually heightened each other I inquired after major Sanford whether he and Eliza had Associated together during my absence sometimes she said they seemed on good terms and he frequently called to see her at others they had very little if any correspondence at all she told me that Eliza never went abroad and was very loathed to see company at home that her Chief Amusement consisted in solitary walks that the Dreadful idea of her meeting major sford in these walks had now and then intruded upon Her Imagination that she had not the least evidence of the fact however and indeed was afraid to make any inquiries into the matter lest her own suspicions should be discovered that the Major's character was worse than ever that he was much abroad and frequently entertained large parties of worthless ban alens at his house the common reports said he treated his wife with indifference neglect and Ill nature with many other circumstances which it is not material to relate adure my dear friend for the present when occasion requires you shall hear again from your affectionate Julia Granby letter 65 to Mr char Dayton Hartford good news Charles good news I have arrived to the utmost bounds of my wishes the full possession of my adorable Eliza I have heard a quotation from a certain book but what book it was I have forgotten if I ever knew no matter for that the quotation is that stolen waters are sweet and bread eaten in secret is Pleasant if it has reference to the pleasures which I have enjoyed with Eliza I I like it hugely as Tristram shandi's father said of York's sermon and I think it fully verified I had a long and tedious Siege every method which love could suggest or art invent was adopted I was sometimes ready to despair under an idea that her resolution was unconquerable her virtue impregnable indeed I should have given over the pursuit long ago but for the hopes of success I entertained from her parleying with me and in Reliance upon her own strength endeavoring to combat and counteract my designs whenever this has been the case Charles I have never yet been defeated in my plan if a lady Will consent to enter the lists against the antagonist of her honor she may be sure of losing the prize besides were her delicacy genuine she will banish the man at once who presumed to doubt which he certainly does who attempts to Vanquish it it but far be it from me to criticize the pretensions of the sex if I gain the rich reward of my dissimulation and gallantry that you know is all I want to return then to the point an unlucky but not a miraculous accident has taken place which must soon expose our Amur what can be done at the first discovery absolute distraction sees the soul of Eliza which has since terminated in a f Melancholy her health too is much impaired she thinks herself rapidly declining and I tremble when I see her emaciated form my wife has been reduced very low of late she brought me a boy a few weeks past a dead one though these circumstances give me neither pain nor pleasure I am too much engrossed by my Divinity to take an interest in anything else true I have lately suffered myself to be somewhat engaged enged here and there by a few jovial lads who assist me in dispelling the anxious thoughts which my perplexed situation excites I must however seek some means to relieve Eliza's distress my finances are low but the last fraction shall be expended in her service if she need it Julia gramby is expected at Mrs warton's every hour I fear that her inquisitorial eye will soon detect our Intrigue and obstruct its continuation now there's a girl Charles I should never attempt to seduce yet she is a most alluring object I assure you by the Dignity of her manners forbids all assorts upon her virtue why the very expression of her eye blasts in the bud every thought derogatory to her honor and tells you plainly that the first insinuation of the kind would be punished with eternal banishment and is pleasure of her there is no danger but I can write no more except that I I am Etc Peter Sanford letter 66 to Mrs Lucy suner Heartford oh my friend I have a tale to unfold a tale which will Rend every nerve of sympathizing pity which will rack the breast of sensibility and unspeakably distress your benevolent heart Eliza oh the ruined lost Eliza I want words to express the emotions of indignation and grief which oppress me but I will endeavor to compose myself and relate the circumstances as they came to my knowledge after my last letter Eliza remained much in the same gloomy situation as I found her she refused to go agreeably to her promise to visit your mamama and under one pretext or another has constantly declined accompanying me anywhere else since my arrival till last Thursday night she slept in the same bed with me when she she excused herself by saying she was restless and should disturb my Repose I yielded to her humor of taking a different apartment little suspecting the real cause she frequently walked out and though I sometimes followed I very seldom found her two or three times when I happened to be awake I heard her go downstairs and on inquiry in the morning she told me that she was very thirsty and went down for water I observed a degree of hesitancy in her answers for which I could not account but last night the Dreadful mystery was developed a little before day I heard the front door open with great caution I sprang from my bed and running to the window saw By the Light of the Moon a man going from the house soon after I perceived a footstep upon the stair which carefully approached and entered Eliza's chamber judge of my astonishment my surprise my feeling feelings upon the occasion I doubted not but major sford was the person I had seen and the discovery of Eliza's guilt in this Infamous Intrigue almost deprived me of thought and recollection my blood thrilled with horror at this sacrifice of virtue after a while I recovered myself and put on my clothes but what to do I knew not whether to go directly to her chamber and let her know that she was detected or to wait another opportunity I resolved on the first the day had now dawned I tapped at her door and she B me come in she was sitting in an easy Chair by the side of her bed as I entered she withdrew her handkerchief from her face and looking earnestly at me said what procures me the favor of a visit at this early hour Miss grany I was Disturbed said I and wish not to return to my bed but what breaks your rest and calls you up so unseasonably Eliza remorse and despair answered she weeping after what I have witnessed this morning rejoined I I cannot Wonder at it was it not major sford whom I saw go from the house some time ago she was silent but tears flowed abundantly it is too late continued I to deny or evade answer my question sincerely for believe me Eliza it is not malice but concern for you which prompts it I will answer you Julia said she you have discovered a secret which Harrows up my very Soul a secret which I wished you to know but could not exert resolution to reveal yes it was Major Sanford the man who has robbed me of my peace who has triumphed in my destruction and who will cause my son to set at noon I shudder said I at your confession wretched deluded girl is this a return for your parents love and deciduous care for your friends solicitude and premonitory advice you are ruined you say you have sacrificed your virtue to an abandoned despicable proplate and you live to acknowledge and bear your infamy I do said she but not long shall I support this burden see you not Julia my decaying frame my faded cheek and tottering limbs soon shall I be insensible to censure and reproach soon shall I be sequestered in that Mansion where the wicked cease from troubling and where the weary are at rest rest said I can you expect to find rest either in this world or another with such a weight of guilt on your head she exclaimed with great emotion add not the up braidings of a wounded Spirit have pity upon me oh my friend have pity upon me could you know what I suffer you would think me sufficiently punished I wish you no other punishment said I than what may affect your repentance rep and Reformation but your mother Eliza she cannot long be ignorant of your fall and I tremble to think of her distress it will break her widowed heart how she has loved how she has doted upon you Dreadful is the requital which you have made my mother rejoined she oh name her not the very sound is distraction to me oh my Julia if your heart be not shut against mercy and compassion towards me Aid me through this trying scene let my situation call forth your pity and induce you undeserving as I am to exert it in my behalf during this time I had walked to the chamber my spirits had been raised above their natural key and were exhausted I sat down but thought I should have fainted till a copious flood of Tears gave me relief Eliza was extremely affected the appearance of Calamity which she exhibited would have softened the most obdurate anger indeed I feared some immediate and fatal effect I therefore seated myself beside her and assuming an air of kindness compose yourself Eliza said I I repeat what I told you before it is the purest friendship which thus interests me in your concerns this under the direction of Charity induces me again to offer you my hand yet you have ER against knowledge and reason against War warning and counsel you have forfeited the favor of your friends and reluctant will be their forgiveness I plead guilty said she to all your charges from your general voice I expect no clemency if I can make my peace with my mother it is all I seek or wish on this side of the grave in your benevolence I confide for this in you I hope to find an intercessor by the remembrance of our former affection and happiness I conure you refuse me not at present I intreat you to conceal from her this distressing tale a short reprieve is all I ask why said I should you defer it when the painful task is over you may find relief in her lenient kindness after she knows my condition I cannot see her resumed she till I am assured of her forgiveness I have not strength to support the appearance of her anger and grief I will write to her what I cannot speak you must bear The Melancholy message and plead for me that her displeasure may not follow me to the Grave with I am rapidly hastening be assured replied I that I will keep your secret as long as Prudence requires but I must leave you now your mamama will wonder at our being thus closeted together when opportunity presents we will Converse further on the subject in the meantime keep yourself as composed as as possible if you would avoid suspicion she raised her clasped hands and with a Pious look threw her handkerchief over her face and reclined in her chair without speaking a word I returned to my chamber and endeavored to dissipate every idea which might tend to disorder my countenance and break the silence I wish to observe relative to what had happened when I went down Mrs Warton desired me to step up and inform Eliza that breakfast was ready she told me she could not yet compose herself sufficiently to see her mamama and begged me to excuse her absence as I thought proper I accordingly returned to answer to Mrs Warton that Eliza had rested but indifferently and being somewhat indisposed would not come down but wished me to bring her a bowl of chocolate when we had breakfasted I was obliged studiously to suppress even my thoughts concerning her lest the emotions they excited might be observed Mrs Warton conversed much of her daughter and expressed great concern about her health and state of mind her return to this state of dejection after having recovered her spirits and cheerfulness in a great degree was owing she feared to some cause unknown to her and she intreated me to extract the secret if possible I assured her of my best Endeavors and doubted not I told her but I should be able in a few days to affect what she wished Eliza came down and in the garden before dinner at which she commanded herself much better than I expected she said that a little ride might she imagined be of service to her and asked me if I would accompany her a few miles in the afternoon her mamama was much pleased with the proposition and the Shad was accordingly ordered I observed to Eliza as we rode that with her natural and acquired abilities with her advantages of Education with her opportunities of knowing the the world and of tracing the virtues and vices of mankind to their origin I was surprised at her becoming the prey of an Insidious libertine with whose character she was well acquainted and whose principles she was fully apprised would prompt him to deceive and betray her your surprise is very natural said she the same will doubtless be felt and expressed by everyone to whom my sad story is related but the cause may be found in that unrestrained levity of disposition that fondness for dissipation and it it is needless for me to rehearse the perfidious Arts by which he insinuated himself into my affections and gained my confidence suffice it to say he affected his purpose but not long did I continue in the delusive dream of sensual gratification I soon awoke to a most poignant sense of his baseness and of my own crime and misery I would have fled from him I would have renounced him forever and by a life of sincere humility and repentance endeavored to make my peace with heaven and to obliterate by the rectitude of my future conduct the guilt I had incurred but I found it too late my circumstances called for attention and I had no one to participate my cares to witness my distress and to alleviate my sorrows but him I could not therefore Prevail on myself wholly to renounce his Society at times I have admitted his visits always meeting him in the garden or Grove adjoining till of late the weather and my ill health induced me to comply with his solicitations and receive him into the Parlor not long however shall I be subject to these embarrassments grief has undermined my Constitution my health has fallen a sacrifice to a disordered mind but I regret not its departure I have not a single wish to live nothing which the world affords can restore my former serenity and happiness the little innocent I bear will quickly disclose its mother's shame God Almighty grant it may not live as a monument of my guilt and a partaker of the infamy and sorrow which is all I have to bequeath it should it be continued in life it will never know the tenderness of a parent and perhaps want and disgrace may be its wretched portion the greatest consolation I can have will be to carry it with me to a state of Eternal rest which vile as I am I hope to obtain through the infinite mercy of Heaven as revealed in the gospel of Christ I must see major sford again it is necessary to converse further with him in order to carry my plan of operation into execution what is this plan of operation Eliza said I I am on the rack of anxiety for your safety be patience continued she and you shall soon be informed tomorrow I shall write my Dreadful story to my mother she will be acquainted with my future intentions and you shall know at the same time the destination of your lost friend I hope said I that you have formed no resolution against your own life God forbid rejoined she my breath is in his hands let him do what seeth good in his sight keep my secret one day longer and I will never more impose so painful a silence upon you by this time time we had reached home she drank tea with composure and soon retired to rest Mrs Warton eagerly inquired whether I have found out the cause of Eliza's Melancholy I have urged her said I on the subject but she alleges that she has particular reasons for present concealment she has not withstanding promised to let me know the day after tomorrow oh said she I shall not rest till the period arrives dear good woman said I to myself I fear you will never rest afterwards this is our present situation think what a scene Rises to the view of your Julia she must share the distress of others though her feelings on this unhappy occasion are too Keen to admit a moment's Serenity my greatest relief is in writing to you which I shall do Again by the next Post in the meantime I must beg leave to subscribe myself sincerely yours Julia Granby end of section 11 section 12 of the cockette this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Linn Thompson the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster section 12 letter 67 to the same Hartford all is now lost lost indeed she is gone yes my dear friend our beloved Eliza is gone never more shall we behold this once amiable companion this once innocent and happy girl she has forsaken and as she says bid an everlasting adure to her home her Afflicted parent and her friend but I will take up my Melancholy story where I left it in my last she went as she told me she expected into the garden and met her detestable Paramore in about an hour she returned and went directly to her chamber at 1:00 I went up and found her writing and weeping I begged her to compose herself and go down to dinner no she said she could not eat and she was not fit to appear before anybody I remonstrated against her immoderate grief represented the injury she must sustain by the Indulgence of it and conjured her to suppress the violence of its emotions she intreated me to excuse her to her mama said she was writing to her and found it a task too painful to be performed with any degree of composure that she was almost ready to sink under the weight of her Affliction but hoped and prayed for support both in this and another another trying scene which awaited her in compliance with her desire I now left her and told her mamama that she was very busy writing wished not to be interrupted at present but would take some refreshment an hour or two hence I visited her again about 4:00 when she appeared more calm and tranquil it is finished said she as I entered her apartment it is finished what said I is finished no matter replied she you will know all tomorrow Julia she complained of excessive fatigue and expressed an inclination to lie down in which I assisted her and then retired some time after her mamama went up and found her still on the bed she Rose however and accompanied her downstairs I met her at the door of the Parlor and taking her by the hand inquired how she did oh Julia miserably indeed said she she how severely does my mother's kindness reproach me how insupport it increases my self- condemnation she wept she rung her hands and walked the room in the greatest Agony Mrs Warton was exceedingly distressed by her appearance tell me Eliza said she tell me the cause of your trouble oh kill me not by your mysterious concealment my dear child let me by sharing alleviate your affliction ask me not Madam said she oh my mother I conure you not to insist on my divulging tonight the Fatal secret which engrosses and distracts my mind tomorrow I will hide nothing from you I will press you no further rejoined herar choose your own time my dear but remember I must participate your grief though I know not the cause supper was brought in and we endeavored to Prevail on Eliza to eat but but in vain she sat down in compliance with our United importunities but neither of us tasted food it was removed untouched for a while Mrs Warton and I gazed in silent anguish upon the spectacle of Woe before us at length Eliza Rose to retire Julia said she you will call at my chamber as you pass your own I ascented she then approached her mamama fell upon her knees before her and clasping her hands said in broken accents oh Madam can you forgive a wretch who has forfeited your love your kindness and your compassion surely Eliza said she you are not that being no it is impossible but however great your transgression be assured of my forgiveness my compassion and my continued love saying this she threw her arms about her daughter's neck and affectionately kissed her Eliza struggled from her Embrace and looking at her with wild despair exclaimed this is too much oh this unmerited goodness is more than I can bear she then rushed precipitately out of the room and left us overwhelmed in sympathy and astonishment when Mrs Warton had recovered herself a little she observed that Eliza's brain was evidently disordered nothing else continued she could impel her to act in this extraordin Ary manner At first she was resolved to follow her but I dissuaded her from it alleging that as she had desired me to come into her chamber I thought it better for me to go alone she acquiesced but said she should not think of going to bed but would however retire to her chamber and seek consolation there I bade her good night and went up to Eliza who took me by the hand and led me to the toilet upon which she laid the two enclosed letters the one to her mamal and the other to me these she said contain what I had no resolution to express promise me Julia that they shall not be open till tomorrow morning I will said I I have thought and wept continued she till I have almost exhausted my strength and my reason I would now obtain a little respite that I may prepare my mind for the account I am one day to give at a higher tribunal than that of Earthly friends for this purpose what I have written and what I shall yet say to you must close the account between you and me I have certainly no balance against you said I in my breast you are fully acquitted your penitential tears have obliterated your guilt and blotted out your errors with your Julia henceforth be they all forgotten live and be happy talk not said she of life it will be a vain hope though I cherished it myself that I must die it is my only comfort death is the privilege of human nature and life without it were not worth the taking thither the poor The Prisoner and the mourner Fly for Relief and lay their burdens down you have forgiven me Julia my mother has assured me of her forgiveness and what have I more to wish my heart is much lightened by these kind assurances they will be a great support to me in the Dreadful hour which awaits me what mean you Eliza said I I fear some Dreadful purpose labors in your mind oh no she replied you may be assured your fear is groundless I know not what I say my brain is on fire I am all confusion leave me Julia when I have had a little rest I shall be composed these letters have almost distracted me but they are written and I am comparatively easy I I will not leave you Eliza said I unless you will go directly to bed and Endeavor to rest I will said she and the sooner the better I tenderly embraced her and retired though not to bed about an hour after I returned to her chamber and opening the door very softly found her apparently asleep I acquainted Mrs Warton with her situation which was a great consolation to us both and encouraged us to go to bed having suffered much in my mind and being much fatigued I soon fell asleep but the rattling of a carriage which appeared to stop a little distance from the house awoke me I listened a moment and heard the door turn slowly on its hinges I sprang from my bed and reached the window just in time to see a female handed into a Shaz by a man who hastily followed her and drove furiously away I at once concluded there could be no other than Eliza and major Sanford under this impression I made no delay but ran immediately to her chamber a candle was burning on the table but Eliza was not there I thought it best to acquaint her mama with The Melancholy Discovery and stepping to her apartment for the purpose found her Rising she had heard me walk and was anxious to know the cause what is the matter Julia said she what is the matter dear Madam said I arm yourself with for itude what new occurrence demands it rejoined she Eliza has left us left us what mean you she has gone I saw her handed into a sha which instantly disappeared at this intelligence she gave a shriek and fell back on her bed I alarmed the family and by their assistance soon recovered her she desired me to inform her of every particular relative to her elopment which I did and then delivered her the letter which Eliza had left for her I suspect said she as she took it I have long suspected what I dared not believe the anguish of my mind has been known only to myself and my God I could not answer her and therefore withdrew when I had read Eliza's letter to me and wept over the sad fall and as I fear the total loss of this once amiable and accomplished girl I returned to Mrs Warton she was sitting in her easy chair and still held the fatal letter in her hand when I entered she fixed her streaming Eyes Upon me and exclaimed oh Julia this is more than the bitterness of death true Madam said I your Affliction must be great yet that all gracious being who controls every event is able and I trust disposed to support you to him replied she I desire humbly to resign myself but I think I could could have borne almost any other Calamity with greater resignation and composure than this with how much comparative ease could I have followed her to the grave at any period since her birth oh my child my child dear very dear hast thou been to my fond heart little did I think it possible for you to prepare so Dreadful a cup of Sorrow for your widowed mother but where continued she where can the poor f fugitive have fled where can she find that protection and tenderness which not withstanding her great apostasy I should never have withheld from whom can she receive those kind attentions which her situation demands the agitation of her mind had exhausted her strength and I prevailed on her to refresh and Endeavor to compose herself to rest assuring her of my utmost exertions to find out Eliza's Retreat and restore her to a mother's arms I am obliged to suppress my own emotions and to bend all my thoughts towards the alleviation of Mrs warton's anxiety and grief major Sanford is from home as I expected and I am determined if he return to see him myself and extort from him the place of Eliza's concealment her flight in the present state of health is inexpressibly distressing to her mother and unless we find her soon I dread the effects I shall not close this till I have seen or heard from the vile miscreant who has involved a worthy family in wretchedness Friday morning two days have elapsed without affording us much relief last evening I was told that major sford was at home I immediately wrote to him a Billet intreating and Conjuring him to let me know where the hapless Eliza had fled he returned me the following answer Miss gramby need be under no apprehension ions respecting the situation of our beloved Eliza she is well provided for conveniently accommodated and has everything to make her happy which love and affluence can give major Sanford has solemnly sworn not to discover her Retreat she wishes to avoid the accusations of her friends till she is better able to Bear them her mother may rest assured of immediate information should any danger threaten her amiable daughter and also of having seasonable notice of her safety although little dependence can be placed upon this man yet these assurances have in a great degree calmed our minds we are however contriving means to explore the Refuge of The Wanderer and hope by tracing his steps to accomplish our purpose this we have engaged a friend to do I know my dear Mrs sna the kind interest you will take in this disastrous Affair I tremble to think what the event may be to relieve your suspense however I shall write you every circumstance as it occurs but at present I shall only enclose Eliza's letters to her mama and me and subscribe myself your sincere and obliged friend Julia grany letter 68 to Mrs M Warton Tuesday my honored and dear mamama in what words in what language shall I address you what shall I say on a subject which deprives me of the power of expression would to God I have been totally deprived of that power before so fatal a subject required its exertion repentance comes too late when it cannot prevent the evil lamented for your kindness your more than maternal affection towards me from my infancy to the present moment a long life of filial Duty and unerring rectitude could hardly compensate how greatly deficient in gratitude must I appear then while I confess that precept and example counsel and advice instruction and admonition have all been lost upon me your kind Endeavors to promote my happiness have been repaid by the inexcusable Folly of sacrificing it the various emotions of Shame and remorse penitence and regret which torture and distract my guilty breasts exceed description yes Madam your Eliza has fallen Fallen indeed she has become the victim of her own indiscretion and of the Intrigue and artifice of a designing libertine who is the husband of another she is polluted and no more worthy of her parentage she flies from you not to conceal her guilt that she humbly and penitently owns but to avoid what she has never experienced and feels herself unable to support a mother's frown to escape the heart-rending sight of a parents grief occasioned by the crimes of her guilty child I have become a reproach and disgrace to my friends the consciousness of having forfeited their favor and incurred their disapprobation and resentment induces me to conceal from them the place of my retirement but lest your benevolence should render you anxious for my comfort in my present situation I take the Liberty to assure you that I am amply provided for I have no claim even upon your pity but from my long experience of your tenderness I presume to hope it will be extended to me oh my mother if you knew what the state of my mind is and has been for months past you would surely compassionate my case could tears if face the stain which I have brought upon my family it would long since have been washed away but alas tears are in vain and vain is my bitter repentance it cannot obliterate my C crime nor restore me to innocence and peace in this life I have no ideas of Happiness these I have holy resigned the only hope which affords me any Solace is that of your forgiveness if the deepest Contrition can make an atonement if the severest pains both of body and mind can restore me to your charity you will not be inexorable oh let my sufferings be deemed a sufficient punishment and add not the insupportable weight of a parent wroth at present I cannot see you the effects of my crime is too obvious to be longer concealed to elude the invidious eye of curiosity this night therefore I leave your hospitable Mansion this night I become a wretched Wanderer from my paternal Roof oh that the grave were This Night To Be My lodging then should I lie down and be at rest trusting in the mercy of God through the mediation of his son done I think I could meet my heavenly father with more composure and confidence than my Earthly parent let not the faults and misfortunes of your daughter oppress your mind rather let the conviction of having Faithfully discharged your duty to your Lost Child Support and console you in this trying scene since I wrote the above you have kindly granted me your forgiveness though you knew not how great how aggravated was my offense you forgive me you say oh the harmonious the transporting sound it has revived my drooping spirits and will enable me to encounter with resolution the trials before me Farewell My Dear mamama pity and pray for your ruined child and be assured that affection and gratitude will be the last sentiments which expire in the breast of your repenting daughter Eliza Warton letter 69 to Miss Julia GR be Tuesday my dear friend by that endearing title you permit me still to address you and such you have always proved yourself by a participation of my distresses as well as by the consoling voice of pity and forgiveness what Destiny Providence designs for me I know not but I have my for boings that this is the last time I shall ever accost you nor does this apprehension arise merely from a disturbed imagination I have reason to think myself in a confirmed consumption which commonly proves fatal to persons in my situation I have carefully concealed every complaint of the kind from my mamama for fear of distressing her yet I have never been insensible of their probable issue and have bidden a sincere welcome to them as the harbingers of my Speedy release from a life of guilt and woe I am going from you Julia this night separates us perhaps forever I have not resolution to encounter the tears of my friends and therefore seek shelter among strangers where no one knows or is interested in my Melancholy Story the place of my seclusion I studiously conceal yet I shall take measures that you may be a prized of my fate should it please God to spare and restore me to health I shall return and Endeavor by a life of penitence and rectitude to expiate my past offenses but should I be called from this scene of action and leave behind me a helpless babe the innocent sufferer of its mother's Shain oh Julia let your friendship for me extends to the little stranger intercede with my mother to take it under her protection and transfer to it all her affection for me to train it up in the ways of piety and virtue that it may compensate her for the afflictions which I have occasioned one thing more I have to request plead for me with my two best friends Mrs Richmond and Mrs Suna I ask you not to Pate my faults that cannot be done but to obtain if possible their forgiveness I cannot write all my full mind suggests on this subject you know the purpose and can better express it for me and now my dear Julia recommending myself again to your benevolence and your charity and may I add to your affection and entreating that the Fatal consequences of my Folly now fallen upon my devoted head May suffice for My Punishment let me conjure you to bury my crimes in the grave with me and to preserve the remembrance of my former virtues which engaged your love and confidence more especially of that Ardent esteem for you which will glow till the last expiring breath of your despairing Eliza Warton end of section 12 section 13 of the cocket this is a LibriVox recording all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain for more information or to volunteer please visit librivox.org recording by Linn Thompson the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster section 13 letter 17 to Mr Charles Dayton Hartford I have at last accomplished the removal of my darling girl from a place where she thought every eye accused and every heart condemned her she has become quite romantic in her Notions she would not permit me to accompany her lest it should be reported that we had eloped together I provided amply for her future exigences and conveyed her by night to the distance of 10 10 or 12 miles where we met the stage in which I had previously secured her a seat the agony of her grief at being thus obliged to leave her mother's house baffles all description it very sensibly affected me I know I was almost a penitent I am sure I acted like one whether I were sincere or not she chose to go where she was totally unknown she would leave the stage she said before it reached Boston and take passage in a more private Carriage to Salem OR its vicinity where she would fix her Abode chalking the initials of my name over the door as a signal to me of her residence she is exceedingly depressed and says she neither expects nor wishes to survive her lying in Insanity for all I know must be my lot if she should die but I will not Harbor the idea I hope one time or other to have the power to make her amends even by marriage my wife may be provoked I imagine to sue for a divorce if she should she would find no difficulty in obtaining it and then I would take Eliza in herstead though I confess that the idea of being thus connected with a woman whom I have been enabled to dishonor would be rather hard to surmount it would hurt even my delicacy little as you may think me to possess to have a wife whom I know to be seducible and on this account I cannot be positive that even Eliza would retain my love my Nancy and I have lived a pretty uncomfortable life of late she has been very suspicious of my Amur with Eliza and now and then expressed her jealous sentiments a little more warmly than my patience would bear but the news of Eliza's circumstances and retirement being publicly talked of having reached her ears and rendered her quite outrageous she tells me she will no longer Brook my indifference and infidelity intends soon to return to her father's house and extricate herself from me entirely my general reply to all this is that she knew my character before we married and could reasonably expect nothing less than what has happened I should not oppose her leaving me as it may conduce to the execution of the plan I have hinted above tomorrow I shall set out to visit my disconsolate Fair one from my very soul I pity her and wish I could have preserved her virtue consistently with the Indulgence of my passion to her I lay not the principal blame as in like cases I do the sex in general my finesse was too well planned for detection and my snares too deeply laid for anyone to escape who had the least warmth in her Constitution or affection in her heart I shall therefore be the less Whimsical about a future connection and the more solicitous to make her reparation should it ever be in my power her friends are all in arms about her I dare say I have the imprecations of the whole fraternity they may thank themselves in part for I always swore revenge for their dislike and coldness towards me had they been politic they would have conducted more like the Aborigines of the country who are said to worship the devil out of fear I am afraid I shall be obliged to remove my quarters for Eliza was so great a favorite in town that I am looked upon with an evil eye I pleaded with her before we parted last to forgive my seducing her alleged my Ardent love and my inability to possess her in any other way how said she can that be love which destroys its object but granting what you say you have frustrated your own purpose you have deprived yourself of my society which might have been innocently enjoyed you have cut me off from Life in the midst of my days you have rendered me the reproach of my friends the disgrace of my family and a dishonor to Virtue and my sex but I forgive you added she yes sford I forgive you and sincerely pray for your repentance and Reformation I hope to be the last wretched female sacrificed by you to the Arts of falsehood and seduction may my unhappy story serve as a beacon to warn the American Fair of the dangerous tendency and destructive consequences of associating with men of your character of destroying their time and risking their reputation by the practice of of diffusing and receiving happiness but for your Arts I might have remained a blessing to society as well as the delight and comfort of my friends you being a married man unspeakably aggravates both your guilt and mine this circumstance annexes indelible shame to our crime you have rent us under the tenderest ties of nature you have broken the bonds of conjugal love which ought ever to be kept sacred and inviable you have filled with grief and discontent the heart of your amiable wife whom gratitude if no other principle should have induced you to cherish with tenderness and I wretch that I am have been your accomplice but I cease to reproach you you have acted but too consistently with a character which I was sufficiently apprised you sustained the blame then may be retorted on myself for disregarding the counsels warnings and admonitions of my best friends friends you have prided yourself in the character of a libertine Glory no longer in your shame you have accomplished your design your Dreadful designs against me let this suffice add not to the number of those deluded creatures who will one day rise up in judgment against you and condemn you by this time we had nearly reached the inn and were soon to part I seized her hand and exclaimed you must not leave me Eliza with that awful anathema on your lips oh say that you will forgive my past faults that said she I shall soon do for in the grave there is no remembrance this to my mind was a harsher sentence than the other and almost threw me into despair never was I so wrought upon before I knew not what to say or do she saw my distress and kindly softened her manner if I am severe said she it is because I wish to compress your mind with such a sense of your offenses against your maker your friends and Society in general as may affect your repentance and amendment I wish not to be your accuser but your reformer on several accounts I view my own crime in a far more aggravated light than yours but my conscience is awakened to a conviction of my guilt yours I fear is not let me conure you to return home and Endeavor by your future kindness and Fidelity to your wife to make her all the amends in your power by a life of virtue and religion you may yet become a valuable member of society and secure happiness both here and Hereafter I begged leave to visit her retirement next week not in continuation of our Amur but as a friend solicitors to know her situation and Weare unable to speak she only bowed Ascent the stage being being now ready I whispered some tender things in her ear and kissing her cheek which was all she would permit suffered her to depart my body remains behind but my soul if I have any went with her this was a horrid lecture Charles she brought every charge against me which a fruitful and gloomy imagination could suggest but I hope when she recovers she will resume her former cheerfulness and become as like and agreeable as ever my anxiety for her safety is very great I trust however it will soon be removed and peace and pleasure be restored to your humble servant Peter Sanford letter 71 to Mrs Lucy Suna Hartford the drama is now closed a tragic one it has proved how sincerely My Dear Mrs sna must the friends of our departed Eliza sympathize with each other and with her Afflicted bereaved parent you have doubtless seen the account in the public papers which gave us the Melancholy intelligence but I will give you a detail of circumstances a few days after my last was written we heard that major samford's property was attached and he a prisoner in his own house he was the last man to whom we wish to apply for information respecting The foror Wanderer yet we had no other resource and after waiting a fortnight in the most cruel suspense we wrote a Billet intreating him if possible to give some intelligence concerning her he replied that he was unhappily deprived of all means of knowing himself but hoped soon to relieve his own and our anxxiety about her in this situation we continued till a neighbor purposely we since concluded sent us a Boston paper Mrs Warton took it and unconscious of its contents observed Obed that the perusal might divert her a few moments she read for some time when it suddenly dropped upon the floor She clasped her hands together and raising her streaming eyes to Heaven exclaimed it is the Lord let him do what he will be still oh my soul and know that he is God what Madam said I can be the matter she answered not but with inexpressible anguish depicted in her countenance pointed to the paper I took it up and soon found the Fatal paragraph I shall not attempt to paint our heartfelt grief and lamentation upon this occasion for we had no doubt of Eliza's being the person described as a stranger who died at danvas last July her delivery of a child her dejected State of Mind the marks upon her linen indeed every circumstance in the advertisement convinced us Beyond dispute that it could be no other Mrs Warton retired immediately to her chamber where she continued overwhelmed with sorrow that night and the following day such in fact has been her habitual frame ever since though the Endeavors of her friends who have sought to console her have rendered her somewhat more conversible my testimony of Eliza's penitence before her departure is a source of comfort to this disconsolate parent she fondly cherished the idea that having expirated her offense by sincere repentance and Amendment her deluded child finally made a happy exchange of Worlds but the desperate resolution which she formed and executed of becoming a fugitive of deserting her mother's house and protection and of wandering and dying among strangers is a most distressing reflection to her friends especially to her mother in whose breasts so many painful ideas arise that she finds it extremely difficult to compose herself to that resignation which he evidently strives to exemplify Eliza's brother has been to visit her Last Retreat and to learn the particulars of her Melancholy exit he relates that she was well accommodated and had every attention and assistance which her situation required the people where she resided appear to have a lively sense of her Merit and misfortunes they testify her modest deportment her fortitude under the sufferings to which she was called and the Serenity and composure with which she bade a last adure to the world Mr Warton has brought back several scraps of her writing containing miscellaneous Reflections on her situation the death of her babe and the absence of her friends some of these were written before some after her confinement these valuable testimonies of the affecting sense and calm expectation she entertained of her approaching dissolution are calculated to soothe and comfort the minds of mourning connections they greatly alleviate the regret occasion by her absence at this awful period her elopment can be equaled only by the infatuation which caused her ruin but let no one reproach her memory her life has paid the Forfeit of her Folly let that suffice I am told that major Sanford is quite frantic sure I am that he has reason to be if the mischiefs he has brought upon others return upon his own head Dreadful indeed must be his portion his wife has left him and returned to her parents his estate which has long been mortgaged is taken from him and poverty and disgrace await him Heaven seldom leaves injured innocence unavenged wret that he is he ought forever to be banished from Human Society I shall continue with Mrs Warton till the lenient hand of time has assuaged her sorrows and then make my promised visit to you I will bring Eliza's postumus papers with me when I come to Boston as I have not time to copy them now I foresee my dear Mrs sna that this disastrous Affair will suspend your enjoyments as it has mine but what are our feelings compared with the pangs which Rend a parent heart this parent I hear behold in humanly stripped of the best Solace of her declining years by the ens snaring machinations of a proplate deori not only the life but what was still dearer the reputation and virtue of the unfortunate Eliza have fallen victims of the shrine of libertinism detested be the epithet let it henceforth bear its true signature and cander itself shall call it lust and brutality execrable is the man however AR in magnificence crowned with wealth or decorated with the external Graces and accomplishments of fashionable life who shall presume to display them at the expense of virtue and innocence sacred name attended with real blessings blessings too useful and important to be trifled away my resentment at the base Arts which must have been employed to complete the seduction of Eliza I cannot suppress I wish them to be exposed and stamped with un Universal ignominy nor do I doubt but you will join with me in execrating the measures by which we have been robbed of so valuable a friend and Society of so ornamental a member I am Etc Julia grany letter 72 to Mr Charles Dayton Hartford confusion horror and despair are the portion of your wretched unhappy friend oh Dayton I am undone misery IR remediable is my future lot she is gone yes she is gone forever the darling of my soul the center of all my wishes and enjoyments is no more cruel Fate has snatched her from me and she is irretrievably lost I Rave and then reflect I reflect and then Rave I have no patience to Bear This calamity nor power to remedy it where shall I fly from the up braidings of my mind which accused me as the murderer of my Eliza I would fly to death and seek a refuge in the grave but the forebodings of a retribution to come I cannot away with oh that I had seen her that I had once more asked her forgiveness but even that privilege that consolation was denied me the day on which I meant to visit her most of my property was attached and to secure the rest I was obliged to shut my doors and become a prisoner in my own house high living and old deaths incurred by extravagance had reduced the fortune of my wife to very little and I could not satisfy the clamorous demands of my creditors I would have given Millions had I possessed them to have been at Liberty to see and to have had the power to preserve Eliza from death but in vain was my anxiety it could not relieve it could not liberate me when I first heard the Dreadful Tidings of her exit I believe I acted like a madman indeed I am little else now I have compounded with my creditors and resigned the whole of my property thus that Splendor and equipage to secure which I have sacrificed a virtuous woman is taken from me that poverty The Dread of which prevented my forming an honorable connection with an amiable and accomplished girl the only one I ever loved has fallen with redoubled vengeance upon my guilty head and I must become a vagabond on the earth I shall fly my country as soon as possible I shall go from every object which reminds me of my departed Eliza but never never shall I eradicate from my bosom the idea of her Excellence nor the painful remembrance of the injuries I have done her her shade will perpetually haunt me the image of her as she appeared when mounting The Carriage which conveyed her forever from my sight waving her hand in token of a last adure will always be present to my imagination the solemn counsel she gave me before we parted never more to meet will not cease to ReSound in my ears while my being is prolonged I must feel the disgraceful and torturing effects of my guilt in seducing her how madly have I deprived her of Happiness of reputation of Life her friends could they know the pangs of Contrition and and the horrors of conscience which attend me would be amply revenged it is said she quitted the world with composure and peace well she might she had not that insupportable weight of iniquity which sinks me to despair she found consolation in that religion which I have ridiculed as priestcraft and hypocrisy but whether it be true or false would to Heaven I could now enjoy the Comforts which its voies evidently feel my wife has left me as we liveed together without love we parted without regret now Charles I am to bid you along perhaps a last farewell where I shall roam in future I neither know nor care I shall go where the name of Sanford is unknown and his person and Sorrows unnoticed in this happy climb I have nothing to induce my say I have not money to support me with my proplate companions nor have I any relish at present for their society by The Virtuous part of the community I am shunned as the pest and Bane of social enjoyment in short I am debarred from every kind of Happiness if I look back I recoil with horror from the black catalog of vices which have stained my past life and reduced me to indigence and contempt if I look forward I shudder at the prospects which my forboding mind presents to view both in this and a coming world this is a deplorable yet just picture of myself how totally the reverse of what I once appeared let it warn you my friend to shun the dangerous paths which I have trotten that you may never be involved in the Hopeless ignominy and wretchedness of Peter Sanford letter 73 to Miss Julia grany Boston a Melancholy tale you have unfolded my dear Julia the tragic IND indeed is the concluding scene is she gone then gone in this most distressing manner have I lost my once loved friend lost her in a way which I could never have conceived to be possible our days of childhood were spent together in the same Pursuits in the same amusements our riper years increased our mutual affection and mature judgment most firmly cemented our friendship can I then calmly resign her to so severe a fate can I beely idea of her being lost to honor to fame and to life no she shall live in the heart of her faithful Lucy whose experience of her numerous virtues and engaging qualities has imprinted Her Image too deeply on the memory to be obliterated however she may have heard her sincere repentance is sufficient to restore her to charity your letter gave me the first information of this awful event I had taken a short Excursion into the country where I had not seen the papers or if I had paid little or no attention to them by your directions I found The distressing Narrative of her exit the poignancy of my grief and the unavailing Lamentations which the intelligence excited need no delineation to scenes of this nature you have been habituated in the Mansion of sorrow where you reside how sincerely I sympathize with the bereaved parent of the dear deceased Eliza I can feel but have not power to express let it be her consolation that her child is at rest the resolution which carried this deluded wander thus far from her friends and supported her through her various trials is astonishing happy would it have been had she exerted an equal degree of fortitude in repelling the first attacks upon her virtue but she is no more and heaven forbid that I should accuse or reproach her her yet in what language shall I express my abhorrence of the monster whose detestable Arts have blasted one of the fairest flowers in creation I leave him to God and his own conscience already he is exposed in his true colors Vengeance already begins to overtake him his sworded mind must now suffer the deprivation of those sensual gratifications Beyond which he is incapable of enjoyment upon your reflecting and steady mind mind my dear Julia I need not inculcate the lessons which may be drawn from this woe fraught Tale But for the sake of my sex in general I wish it engraved upon every heart that virtue alone independent of the trappings of wealth the parade of ayage and the adulation of gallantry can secure lasting Felicity from The Melancholy story of Eliza Warton let the American Fair learn to reject with disdain every insinuation derogatory to their true dignity and honor let them despise and forever banish the man who can glory in the seduction of innocence and the ruin of reputation to associate is to approve to approve is to be betrayed I am Etc Lucy suner letter 74 to Mrs M Warton Boston dear Madam we have paid the last tribute of respect to your beloved daughter the day after my arrival Mrs Suna proposed that we should visit the sad spot which contains the remains of our once amiable friend the grave of Eliza Warton said she shall not be unedu by the tears of friendship yesterday we went accordingly and were much pleased with the apparent sincerity of the people in their assurances that everything in their power had been done to render her situation comfortable the minutest circumstances were Faithfully related and from the state of her mind in her last hours I think much comfort may be derived to her Afflicted friends we spent a mournful hour in the place where she is interred and then returned to the Inn while Mrs sna gave orders for a decent Stone to be erected over her grave with the following inscription this humble Stone in memory of Eliza won is inscribed by her weeping friends to whom she endeared herself by uncommon tenderness and affection endowed with Superior acquirements she was still more distinguished by humility and benevolence let kander throw a veil over her frailties for great was her charity to others she sustained the last painful scene far from every friend and exhibited an example of calm resignation her departure was on the 25th day of July ad blank in the 37th year of her age and the tears of strangers watered her grave I hope Madam that you will derive satisfaction from these exertions of friendship and that United to the many other sources of consolation with which you are furnished they may alleviate your grief and while they leave the pleasing remembrance of her virtues at the supporting persuasion that your Eliza is happy I am Etc Julia Granby end of section 13 end of the cockette or the history of Eliza Warton by Hannah Webster Foster